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je-suis-problematique · 6 months ago

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We're in a mood for moodboards so have our PREVIOUS fronting team that was comprised of Caliban, Judeau, Grael (he had a very strong presence in the system back in the day), Jasper (an alter from Chris' subsystem), Black Reaper (an alter from Kaneki's subsystem), Kovacs (me), May, Krauser (another alter from Chris' subsystem.... They used to switch more often back then), and Griffith (OG Griffith, not one of his many AUs). All of these alters took a billion steps back after the whole substance abuse crisis that was mixed into the drama from the breakup with our partner system IRL, nowadays it's mostly the Baldur's Gate folks running the show and everyone who used to be active fronters BEFORE the drug crisis happened kind of just hid themselves away, claiming that they aren't in possession of enough mental energy to help out with what's currently been happening on Main. I can't say I blame them honestly. Our life is incredibly stressful and we ARE falling apart at the seams so the exhausted veterans made way for the still-somewhat-put-together newbies to handle our daily life in their stead. I would like to say that we've been in recovery this whole time but some wounds take a LOT of time to heal which makes me happy that we found a new therapist today and that she agreed to help us sort through the psychological and emotional salad we've been carrying with us this whole time without knowing how to even BEGIN to unravel it.

– Kovacs

#kovacs speaks #guts should've been on this list as well but judeau fronted more often so we chose judeau in the end #but just know that guts is a close second to judeau he tanked a lot of stress back in the day #caliban is our one man crisis team #judeau is a soother #grael is a general helper who normally used to front when we had long to-do lists to go through he was our go-getter #jasper was comic relief for whenever shit got too stressful #reaper was trauma-related #kovacs was and still is a protector who will handle high-stress situations like it's nothing #may was also comic relief but make it introspective #she helped us process our feelings and shit #krauser was also trauma-related but also work-oriented he helped us go through our to-do lists without breaking a sweat #ran errands like a champ #and griffith was THE most related to trauma and represented a lot of internalized shit we needed to work through #griffith was often used as a scapegoat for whenever shit went wrong within the system #just a straight up punching bag because we wanted to have someone we could blame for a bunch of fucked up shit #we started treating him better over time but the fact he's directly linked to femto made it hard to separate femto's actions from griffith'#at times #griffith is caliban's wifey so caliban would bark at us for trying to use griffith as a scapegoat most times but sometimes #you know #sometimes #sometimes we just couldn't help it and we felt like we needed someone to blame for our shortcomings as a system and griffith was it #we're still learning how to lay off griffith but it's just so easy to hate him considering his canon actions in his source #he didn't hurt anyone as an alter but his canon is enough to make us point our fingers at him and accuse him of being a monster #charlotte is one of our biggest griffith activists though and she's trying her hardest to make us stop bullying him #with varying levels of success #anyway long story short griffith is a loaded subject #alter lore #system lore #personal

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