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[darkwingphoenix]

Some of My Ideas for @loominggaia peoples

So, after seeing @kid-az post a thing about a new class of people, I decided to invent my OWN class of people for my AU, although this will NOT be happening in a WHILE.

Essentially, after I do the alt endings for my fic, I have a list of fics to post:

Unnamed fic about Saraia killing the Evangeline siege dragons with Skylie, and introduces the leviathans.

Ascendance: Fic where monsters in my AU gain souls and form a kingdom for themselves

Unnamed fic to help set up Ascendance and a couple other fics. Basically, Saraia and Skylie are vibing in Zareen when Project Starlight fails spectacularly, turning Damijana into the world's biggest creeper crater and forcing the two and King to survive the storm of ejecta in Zareen. Casualties are basically Damijana and like half of Zareen from the ejecta. Swiped this idea from kid-az's thing.

New fics introducing the new classes of people (Yes, multiple: Three, to be exact). Each fic is for each of the new classes encountering the Great Kingdoms (Including the Slegelse Damijani), in small multi chapter arcs. I'm talking like 2-4 chapters per Kingdom arc. Ascendance gets arcs too.

An unnamed Cobalt Evangeline X Sirene (I decided to ship Cobalt with a sirene lmao) where Cobalt, inspired by his big titty sirene GF (Yes, his GF WILL be a busty sirene, prolly with some nice hips too), tries to make slavery less legal in Evangeline. It helps he has trauma from Saraia attacking the Capital and realizing Skylie and Cyana are still alive (His parents said they died some time after they dipped). Skylie shows up to help him while in a disguise

Oneshot with Saraia attacking Evangeline Capital once she makes a mask for Cobalt.

Fic about Cyana and Angeline adopting and caring for a baby sirene

New Royal Gala oneshot set about 25 years after CAIL, with the new High Rulers (Winnie Mogdir, Cobalt Evangeline, Rustafi Fanaka (Yes, he gets to be king), Jaq Yerim-Mor, and whoever's first in line for Etios). May be during the time of the Cobalt fic.

Here's a link to a Google Docs about the species I added.

To add to the disaster that turned Damijana into Slegelse, it basically goes like this (And it gets called The Starblast):

Project Starlight fails so spectacularly Serafeen gets a stupid prize for her stupid game: Big ole fireworks, in the way of Damijana, and Iron Tower to be more precise, being turned into the world's first nuke since the Ancients made Gaia go Titanomachy.

Damijana, obviously, is no more after that, with Serafeen and the Council being right at Ground Zero and thus instantly vaporized, and almost all of Damijana was killed of or turned into ejecta that blasted much of the surrounding area, taking out Driza and Viersen and killing a LOT of people in Slegelse and areas beyond just Driza and Viersen.

Outside of an area like 30 miles away from Driza or Viersen, it didn't really do much beyond that (Saraia and Skylie would be about 15 miles away from Driza, likely going to deliver an environmentalist speech) when it goes off.

As for how it sets up Ascendance, the event is so full of magical energy it gives all monsters souls as Gaia needs to burn off the magic by making new souls. But not enough babies can be born to burn it off fast enough, so she emergency gives all monsters souls for Christmas. And now all monsters get souls now.

The monster soul thingy becomes known as Ascendance.

The portals to summon the new peoples becomes known as the Aftershocks, as many, especially in the World Athenaeum, think it was a sort of recursive ripple after the Starblast happened.

Overall, the whole disaster becomes known as the Ascendant Starblast

[grantaireble]

Lookin' backwards might be the only way forward: Archaism, Dead Languages, & TTPD

I noticed something that I am still formulating thoughts on. I'm not an expert on any of this stuff, but here it is for now:

I think that Taylor is using archaism her lyrics and evoking works originally told in dead languages like stories from Greek Myth and the Bible.

So, Archaic Words are words that belong to an earlier time period and are no longer commonly used. Colloquially, we also use the word "archaic" to mean that something is generally outdated or old-fashioned.

A Dead Language is a language that no longer has native speakers, but does have second-language speakers. Ancient Greek and Latin are dead languages but are still studied a for religious and academic purposes.

Examples of dead/archaic language on TTPD:

Lyrics:

Fortnight= Old English ("two weeks") Fortnight

'Fore (shortened "before")= Old English So Long London

"Bestow upon"= Old English ("to give or present") But Daddy I Love Him

"Tryst" is from "Triste"= Old French ("lookout post") Guilty As Sin

"Bygone"= Middle English ("well in the past, former") imgonnagetyouback

"Post-Mortem"= Latin ("after death")

"Hereby" & "Maladies"= Middle English How Did It End?

Aristotle wrote in Attic Greek So High School

Cassandra is a figure out of Greek Myth which would have been told in Koine Greek Cassandra

Persona non grata= Latin ("unwanted person") The Prophecy

The Albatross references the Rime of the Ancient Mariner which notably uses archaic english words like "Hark" and "Behold" and "Forsooth"

"Rose by any other name" references Shakespeare, who's work is also full of archaisms because of it's age, but who also employed archaism as a literary technique within his work. The Albatross

Other:

CAIL= Old Irish ("reputation")

Anthology is from the Greek Anthologia ("collection of flowers")

The Bible was originally written in Koine Greek (referenced in tons of these songs: The Prophecy, Guilty As Sin?, Clara Bow, LOML, etc.)

One last thing, Taylor recently used the word when speaking about Beyonce:

“She's the most precious gem of a person — warm and open and funny,” Swift said of the Destiny's Child star. “And she's such a great disrupter of music-industry norms. She taught every artist how to flip the table and challenge archaic business practices.”

I have been thinking of all this in connection to "The Manuscript" and the idea that Taylor is possibly in the process of leaving some parts of her story behind. Definitely let me know what you think/ if I missed anything/if I'm wrong about the specifics of any of this language stuff!!

[evicted-oc]

Admin: hey I'm still alive :D I haven't done a main post in so long and I'm slowly getting back into it! I felt like doing a little bit of angst so here's this monstrosity. Keep in mind I'm not a writer. Except more writing in the future! I want to progress this bot more

A bit of background knowledge: Hœnir's original home was constantly at war with another group. They fought for years and neither side were winning. The leaders of both groups decided to offer up their best warriors to give to the other side. Hœnir happened to be one of them who was traded off. They would torture Nir constantly. It took Nir years to escape and ever since then, they have been looking for him.

Warnings: my shitty writing skills, kidnapping, torture, stabbing, force fed glass, blood, broken bones, beating

Arawn was sitting at a table along with some of the other Celtic and Norse gods. They all had a meeting planned and more gods started to trickle in. Arawn was bouncing his leg nervously and chewing on his lip. It was rather quiet amongst the gods, they all could hear his platformed shoe squeak as it bounces on the marble floor.

He taps his finger on the arm rest before clearing his throat to break the silence. "Has anyone seen Nir recently?" He asks, scanning the other's faces. Most mutter quietly, trying to think back to the last time they saw the small god.

"I saw them yesterday at their café. He gave me a cookie." Morrigan speaks up softly, already starting to get worried. "I've had an off feeling all day... do you think?-" She gasps and covers her mouth. "No it couldn't be them. Would they really do that?"

All the gods and goddesses eye each other sadly before collectively getting up and preparing what they need.

*28 hours earlier at Hœnir's café*

It was around 8 at night when Hœnir was closing up their café. They locked the door and put on noise canceling head phones. There was some loud noises going on outside and it was giving him a headache. The only thing they could hear was his own thoughts. They quietly humed to themself as they cleaned up around the café and tidied it all up. He stood up straight and took a minute to look around at everything, making sure nothing was out of place.

Just as he was looking over the café, a group of three people snuck up quietly behind him. One of them took a cloth and put it over Nir's mouth and the other two held his arms and legs still.

Nir was thrashing around and attempting to use their powers to get out of the unknown peoples grips. However, whatever was on the cloth prevented Nir from using any of their powers. His eyes slowly rolled back into their head as they fell unconscious.

*back at Asguard*

Morrigan was focusing on trying to find Hœnir. Due to some of her powers, she can sense where any sort of violence and disruption is. Her eyes shoot open when she finally can see a glimpse of Nir. "He's there."

Those were the only two words she got out before Arawn, her, Cailleach, Donn, and Balor got up to leave. The other gods were on stand by and watching from the sidelines, ready to jump in.

Loki said their goodbyes to Donn, doing their best to hold back any tears. "You die and I bite you." She mumbled to Donn, who only chuckled in response. They share a kiss and Donn leaves to go to the chariot.

Arawn was facetiming his boyfriend, mumbling quietly to keep their conversation private. He puts the phone in his pocket, but doesn't hang up. He zips up the pocket and follows close behind Donn.

"Am I the only one excited for this?" Cailleach bounces. "I'm ready to make people sick!" She squeals as Morrigan nods her head in disappointment. Balor grins and wraps an arm around Cail. "I'm excited too~ I haven't hurt anyone since I got locked in that damn cell." He fixes his mask and pulls both Cailleach and Morrigan to the chariot. And with that, the five gods and goddesses were off.

Below this cut has a bit of a torture scene! Please read the warnings

*It has been 32 hours since Hœnir has been captured. They have been taken to a dungeon and is tied up with enchanted rope. During those many hours, they have been hit and kicked countless times, and both of his legs are broken. He's positive one of the bones in their legs have been shattered*

Hœnir is exhausted. They don't know how many hours they have been awake for. They just want to fall asleep and hope this nightmare will be over. His legs were aching from being forced to sit on and because both were bent at angles that shouldn't be bent.

It was silent in the room. Hœnirs eyes slowly started to fall close. He thought he was safe at the moment. They let their guard down as they slowly fall deep into their thoughts. Nir was ripped away from that trance by a heavy kick to the side. Loud crunching can be heard which causes Nir to grit his teeth, trying their best to fight off a pained whimper.

They do their best to keep a straight face, not wanting to show any pain or weakness. His nose scrunches up slightly when his hair was grabbed, forcing his head back. One of his kidnappers was holding up a small bag full of glass shards.

"Remember this?~" They ask with an evil grin. Any colour left in Nir's face dropped. "No-" he barely mutters out before his mouth his forced open.

"Oh yes you do~ now open up. This will only hurt for a bit~" He laughs and grabs a shard of glass, shoving it into the back of Nir's throat.

*back to the 5 gods/goddesses*

The five godly beings arrived at the destination. They made it into the building quietly before all hell broke lose. There was about 40 people waiting inside for them.

*I'm really bad at fight scenes but basically it takes the gods about 15 minutes to defeat all of them*

Morrigan stood up once she defeated the last person. She stretches her arms up and wraps the deep stab wound she has on her arm. "Its been a long time since I've done this- I'm rusty as hell."

Cailleach runs over to Morrigan and hugs her tight. "I got to fight people!" She squeals happily. There was one person still barely left alive. He grabbed Cail's foot and yanked her down. She smacked her cheek hard on the ground, causing the skin to break open. "Well thats fucking rude-" She coughs on him which causes him to get sick with the bubonic plague and slowly die. She hops up and dusts her shirt off. "Did you see that Morr?! I missed making people sick!" She bounces and hugs Morrigan tight again.

Morrigan chuckles and tugs Cail. "You can tell me all about it later. But first we need to get Hœnir."

Balor slowly walks behind the two girls with his ax swung over his shoulder. "Huh.. I don't think my fingers are supposed to be facing that direction." He mutters and looks at his hand curiously.

Arawn practically drags Donn out of the main room and the two of them run everywhere to find Nir. They head down into the dungeons where they can hear small pained noises. Arawn quickly covers up his bloodied hand with a bandage and looks over at Donn.

Donn nods, silently communicating with each other. He summons the dead which causes his arms to go black all the way up to his shoulders. He tightly closes his eyes, trying to ignore the burning sensation. He acts quick and commands the dead to barge into the room.

*Hœnir's perspective*

He was handling blow after blow. Hit after hit. Stab after stab. He knelt there and quietly took all of it. Whatever the three people threw at him, they took it without a peep.

Hœnir's head shoots up when the doors slam open. They knew immediately who it was and the tears they were holding back started flowing down their cheeks.

The dead dragged the three kidnappers down to hell where Donn and Arawn would take care of them later.

Arawn rushed over to Nir and immediately untied him and picked him up. Nir was sobbing, weak and covered in blood and bruises. "I-i want to go home." They cry and cling onto Arawn.

Arawn quietly comforts them and holds them as carefully as possible. "We'll get you home."

AND FINISHED. Welp that was long. Please let me know if I need to add anymore warnings or anything like that. This was way longer than I expected. Hope you enjoyed :D be prepared for more angst in the future

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[halnye]

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[bamioayam]

Rules: In a new post, show the last line you wrote and tag as many people as there are words.

Tagged by: @laindir 👁👁

I technically started writing more stuff but I saw the tag at like midnight earlier so...

"My family isn't rich enough to buy me a house in Dongyang ba," He Zhecheng snorted. A smirk tugged at his lips. "I have to stay with Xu-xiong, unfortunately."

Xu Boyan raised an eyebrow— a rare sight that Shu Cailing stared at for a brief second. "Your mother offered, and your brother-in-law was even in talks with someone about buying their residence when they were considering selling it to move to another neighborhood. You told them that it'd be too far from your favorite eel noodle stand."

"It was."

"...You don't eat eel."

"I don't," He Zhecheng agreed flippantly. "But it's the only eel noodle stand whose owner I know in passing, so it has to be my favorite out of all eel noodle stands."

Shu Cailing laughed.

"I guess He-xiong could at least keep things lively."

He Zhecheng scoffed. "What do you take me as, a pet songbird?"

"A songbird is too dainty," Hongshi dismissed. "You're a territorial goose."

That’s four words, so @sailormoonmin @shinkutsuuki @juurensha @mss3ng !

[darkwingphoenix]

Currently, I have two longfic ideas for my series of fanon stories lined up (Ignoring the three non-canon endings for Cyana's Adventures (Or CAiL(AACD)) lined up:

A story based on the hypothetical monsters-getting-souls thing and a Kingdom of monsters called Ascendance and a new monster Ruler other than Morgause (And prolly a demon/drau/adhene divine)

And one based off of my post quoted above.

My fic's current timeline is 2 years post when through canon date is, so about 6014. That is the year CAiL(AACD) ends (In maybe late summer/early fall). As everyone is aged up 2 years after their canon ages in their bios, Cobalt is currently 9 years old.

The Ascendance fic will likely be about 7-11 years after CAiL, and Cobalt will be 16-21 either High Crown Prince or newly coronated (And Indiga is retired and helping Cobalt a bit or dead), and will be Cobalt's first big issue of his reign (Beyond Saraia inevitably making a mask of his face and raiding Evangeline Capital to exhort him to stop slavery, which he denies as he's too frozen with terror and anxiety). Or maybe the raid is first.

The Cobalt X Fae/Gaian fic will likely be another 10-12 years after the Ascendance fic when Cobalt is 26-33 and in a secret relationship with the fae and a mostly political marriage to some Queenswater noblewoman so he can have the required heir. Indiga will DEFINITELY be dead at this point, and I may have Cerulea or Rodrig seriously debilitated and the other likely dead. Most likely I'll have Rodrig dead as he's already older (He's already 59, so he's 61 in my timeline, and he'd be 68-72 in Ascendance and 78-90 in the Cobalt X Fae story).

Cerulea will likely be a major antagonist, and Teal and Danus will definitely show up. Saphirra and Lazuline will pop up as well, and I'll likely have Saphirra finally settle down by this fic (Maybe by Ascendance?) and have a couple kids.

Skylie's definitely gonna pop up once or twice in Ascendance, and Cyangeline will certainly be mentioned by Skylie or Saraia. Cyangeline and Skylie may pop up, but will likely be mentioned instead.

I also have some ideas for shorter fics/one shots:

Saraia raids Oaken Island because of siege dragons

The three alternate endings for CAiL

Maybe some Cyangeline erotica

Saraia's backstory

darkwingphoenix Plot Twist: Evangeline abolishes slaves because COBALT falls for a fae/gaian girl early on and pulls a Qara, slowly replacing the odd policy that seems reasonable, like only X amount of slaves per person in Y household (And allowing household servants to count as people in the household they work in) and slowly letting Evangeline adapt, until he can ultimately let slaves stop bein' enslaved

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Great idea! The dynamics of the Great Kingdoms could change drastically in a generation or two due to things like this. Looming Gaia could be a completely different place in 50 years.

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Questions/Comments?

Lore Masterpost

Read the Series

[amare-luna]

I’m starting to reread fablehaven bc it’s been like 10 years since I’ve fully read the series and aaahhh they’re so good the nostagia’s hittin hard.

[queen-scribbles]

Heodi fluff？？

It's going to be(assuming I finish it) a follow up to my Let It Snow Pillars Weekly Fill from a couple years back, Adi and Heodan wind up stuck in Brighthollow, just the two of them bc a blizzard blows up out of nowhere and everyone else is in the main keep. It's post-Cail the Silent fight, so a)Heodan's at the tail end of recovering and b) Adi still hasn't admitted she's sweet on him yet, even though everyone else can tell and there's spirited debate amongst them whether she'll confess or Heodan will figure it out first. (it's the latter. but he doesn't say anything bc he wants to leave the ball in her court) So there's, yanno, pining and friendly teasing and talking about their lives before coming to the Dyrwood and it's gonna be adorable, I just need to figure out a bridging bit of dialogue between points A and C😅.

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ALSO, have a snippet, though it may be one I've shared already, I can't remember with how long this has been WIP

“Okay, I like snow, but this is getting ridiculous,” Adela commented, staring out the window. “It’s not as fun once it passes knee-deep. Then it starts being annoying.”

Heodan looked up from his book and smiled, “For growing up somewhere you said doesn’t get a lot of snow, you certainly seem to have strong opinions on it.”

“We don’t get a lot,” she said with a confirming nod. “That’s different from not getting any.” She raised an eyebrow pointedly in his direction.

“Adi, I have no strong opinion on snow,” he pointed out. “Cold in general I’m not overly fond of, but snow I don’t really care one way or the other.”

Adela grinned and crossed to flop on the couch near the fire, noting his chair was even closer to the warmth. “This an Aedyran thing?” she teased, folding her legs under her. “Increased sensitivity to cold?”

It was Heodan’s turn to raise an eyebrow. “We don’t all have fur, Adi.”

[death-breeds-wisdom]

(Ugh I have to retype this entire thing because I accidentally deleted it) post Canine club shooting timeline:

Izzy gets kidnapped and tortured for info regarding who was involved in the Bela debacle

After he gets released, he confronts Julia about possibly ratting him out

The others get suspicious of both of them (they seem to be involved in something larger than the Canine organisation)

Izzy claims to not know why they picked him out of everyone there

Mika brings up the national library archives to find more info about it

Roz actually likes the idea despite it being a joke. Besides, she's got some unfinished business back there

They all leave for rovenport, even though Izzy insisted they drop the matter.

Roz separates from the group to sort out her own matters (find her dad)

She is directed to his grave. She then tries to figure out his cause of death which turned out to be a bullet wound in the neck. Not very related to his old age.

While leaving her dad's old nursing home she runs into her old colleagues.

MEANWHILE Julia, Izzy and Hedry decide to ask about the Bela debacle in the police station while Hedry pretends to be a journalist called Dahlia Black

Izzy and Hedry get arrested because the police recognise Hedry. Julia disappears

Turns out her harmless Ineverue shenanigans went national after she escaped. In the holding cell, Izzy calls Mika.

Mika and Cail went to the archives and found some evidence suggesting the canines were involved in causing the Bela debacle.

Mika returns to their old place alone. Roz somehow escaped her old coworkers and suspects Mika in killing dad.

Mika interrupts her and tells that Hedry and Izzy have been arrested.

Mika pawns his camera for bail money

They bail out Heddy and Izzy and catch them up to speed. Hedry suggests asking Jackie about it. They agree, despite Julia and Cail being still missing.

Meanwhile Hedry and Mika have been found out.

Turns our Cail got swallowed by the 4th dimension and got spat out a few days later about 50km to the left of where he disappeared.

The four of them confront Jackrabbit about the canine's involvement and she outs izzy who outs Julia for his betrayal

Roz almost blows up at Izzy about it, but Jackrabbit calls her by her old name, which exposes roz

Jackrabbit doesn't kill roz yet, but she tells them to lay low for a while because Hedry got the police after them.

Two days later Cail shows up, completely disoriented and says the world is falling apart.

If I ever turn them into stories I think I'm gonna have the centre conflict revolve around lying. They all have done majorly fucked up things in the past that, if come to light, would make them not be able to look eachother in the eyes. So they agree to never speak about who they were/what they did before Belldale.

Izzy has never left belldale and his history is somewhat of an open secret (the abuse, the addictions, the trauma is all worn on his face, sleeve and demeanour), but Jackrabbit made sure no one knew that he was the one that caused the Bela debacle. Not because she cares for Izzy, but because if people target izzy they target her, and she cannot ever appear vulnerable. The canines are only allowed to exist because she seems unshakeable and constant. Immortal. Eventually though, when the govt starts poking the canines and jackrabbit starts unravelling, his crimes will come to light. Or maybe he'll slip up and say something he wasn't supposed to know. Or maybe he'll start getting targeted a suspicious amount. Because after all, how could be an alcoholic kid that important to the national government.

Roz straight up used to work against the canines. The canines are the dominating group in the federation, but the closest rival, the townies, are based in Rovenport where Roz used to live. She started out as a fighter for their boxing clubs but quickly became a body guard. She was originally sent to belldale to sabotage, but the entire operation went tits up and people don't ask too many questions around those parts. The canines sort of have a don't ask don't tell policy. Her doom will most likely be her old colleagues recognising her and wanting revenge for sinking the mission. Or maybe there's been a leak on the townies' side and the names/faces of the high ranking members will reach jackrabbit.

Mika killed his dad. It's actually the crime most forgivable, but only cail knew what he did. Not their mother, not his sister. His secrets are way more acceptable (I avoid using the word moral because on the occasion he has made bombs), but they'd still change your perception of him. I think he'll just non chalantly admit it in the middle of a drinking game. Or maybe... roz will think about making amends with her father only to find out that he's been dead for years. Maybe returning to Rovenport to seek out her father is what gets her caught.

Cail's biggest fuck up is willful ignorance. They were ripped from this reality and shoved into a world with 4 dimensions where they gained sacred knowledge and was tasked with killing a god, but they declined and went home. They practically brought about the end of the world and just sort of ignored that. The 4th dimension held onto them for a while and tried to pull them back, bit Cail severed their connection to that. They could've saved the world but thought "nah fuck that I'd rather go back to bothering Mika." There isn't an answer to the question of how much he'd sacrifice because he couldn't be fucked to care enough. Truly, I have no idea how the others would find out about the existence of the 4th dimension or an impending doom originating from there. For all they know Cail had a psychotic break and carved out their own eye.

Hedry, the ever-loyal and considerate Hedry is the only one who can be blamed for her fate. She and quite a lot of her school friends left Manfort Isle for Ineverue and she is single-handedly responsible for one of their deaths and dissolving the group. She is the one who got them into crime. She is the one who got police sent after them. So she fled to Belldale. She, unlike the rest, talks alot about her time in Ineverue, but she seemingly seems to forget the most painful details. The others don't question why she suddenly left for Belldale but they will once they find the police reports.

Julia... has too many secrets to count. He's a hyperreligious liar who only answers to his god and thus would throw everyone that cares for him under the bus in the name of staying faithful to a canonically uncaring god who will sentence him to hell regardless. He lies for no reason and no remorse. The fact that he's faked his death twice before aren't even the craziest things (Okay yeah and he's also killed innocent people in the name of pettiness). Even I don't know why he fucks people over that much. His real self being revealed is directly linked to Izzy getting suspiciously targeted, because he's the one to rat him out to the government people and after Izzy gets back from his little meeting with the officials, he starts to wonder how they could know. Besides, the only people who know are either dead or Jackrabbit and Julia...

[monstersqueen]

CAiL to TMA, episodes ... 17 to 40, apparently.

Yeah, i really should have done this as i listened, because i can't remember much of what my reactions where. besides THE FUCK HOW DARE THEY when the first time we're told a recorder is running is BY BREAKON AND HOPE who just FUCKING DELIVERED THAT FREAKING LIGHTER. next episode : tim comes by, mentions little mistakes, TALKS ABOUT THE DELIVERY AND JON HAS ALREADY FORGOTTEN THE LIGHTER. he says he's going to get opinions about it but eh! you know what happens! he's distracted by the table AND STOPS THINKING ABOUT THAT LIGHTER and i'm very angry.

anyway. What else? Still hilarious that we cut from Jon's 'you didn't....die here?' to Elias 'Jon put up a good front, but i swear he's worse than martin' SHUT UP 'ELIAS' I STILL WANT TO PUNCH YOU

(he spent his whole statement saying things like 'how gertrude's body ended up in the tunnels is as much a mystery to me as it is to you' STOP LYING and 'i'm sorry i took so long to start the fire response sytem' NO YOU DIDN'T YOU WERE HOLDING ON TIL THE LAST FREAKING MICRO SECOND YOU ASSHOLE.

Also not!sasha is. barely pretending to have human feelings? urgh. AND IT4S SAID IN TEH CREDITS TOO! LIKE; YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ THE POST ATTACHED TO THE EPISODE, IT4S SAID RIGHT THERE??? (sorry i'm still surprised at the amount of liveblogers who don't catch that...)

Anyway! Before that. we got. The BoneTurner's Tale - jon mentions that there are a lot of known name in that one NO REALLY; The Man Upstairs - I. actually had a car accident while listening to that one. no injuries. ; Confession and Desecrated Host - hmm. There are spirals statement i straight up adore, like insomnia and man on the stair but. those episodes? *shrugs* mention for hiltop road i guess? ; Freefall - SIMON FAIRCHILD AND THEN MARTIN!!!!!; COLONY!!!!! Martin is just. so surprised jon believes him and immediately offers to help! by making live at work, sure, but still. Plus 'i wanted proof /for you/'; not 'to convince you' but 'for you' which is. such a way to phrase it WHEN HE DEFINETELY WANTED PROOF TO RUB HIS FACE IN THE FACT THAT NO A MAN DOESN'T DIE NATURALLY *ENCASED IN WEB* (excuse me i have the conversation in ep 39 fresh in my mind + martin's small 'sorry' over losing tim and jon in the tunnels. i'm having jonmartin feelinsg ok); SCHWARTZWALD !!! here have the start of jonah's harem!! (we do not have really talked about his (ex)husband at that point....); Strange Music - yeha that's. creepy; Growing Dark; gertrude starts appearing as a VERY MYUSTERIOUS FIGURE. well. very little right now it' s more her date of death BUT I'M STILL LAUGHING OVER MANUELA UP NORTH WONDERING WHAT GERTRUDE DID TO STOP THEM, when she just. slept on that one. :D:D -

A Distortion - i said as much first time i listened, but it's still as true, JON YOUR SKEPTICISM IS PUSHING YOUR ASSITANTS TOWARDS UNNECESSARY RISKS!!! (and also i'm having feelinsg about 'because i'm scared Martin!' and also over martin pushing and calling jon out on COMPLETELY ABSURD SKEPTICISM this is a great ship and also i still have three-four seasons of it :D:D). A sturdy lock - well this is still just as disturbing, and not be listened to when YOU LIVE ALONE. Cheating Death and Killing Floor - u absolutely adored those tow first time around, kinda only half listened this time. shame.

Hive - ah the whole 'you can't help. you wouldn't help anyway'. Plus 'the itch doesn't like you. maybe it means you can help? ah no i get why it hates you. You try to put into words what can't, shouldn't be put into words. you can't help. you can't even understand' THE SHADE THROWN AT THE EYE MY GOD (this said she tried a ritual in the tunnels and it was thwarted NOT EVEN ON PURPOSE by tim WHILE HE WAS HIGH like. beholdling might be lsoer but corruption isn't any better) Boatswain's Call - ah here have jonahlias ex husband. also. the time when he was actually intimidating....

Anatomy class - the sound cut off while teh title was read so it was a complete surprise! Yeha those are still good students and doctor linel is an idiot. Also: the appel. it's not even tat it's not proof, jon just. wants nothing to do with that thing. lvoe it. OLD PASSAGES!!!! more gerry! and jon going 'yes this is probably gerard keay. we can't get anyone tot alk about this as gerard keay is as unjoinable as ever' DON'T WORRY JON YOU WILL HAVE YOUR INTERVIEW WITH HIM *_* so fun to see jontalking about gerry :)

Taken Ill :((; Burnt Offering -ah, gertrude. I should really try to catch those dates between her death and everythign....(also, the way the desolation attacks what he loves. but i think the best episode for that is in season 5) Lost and Found - ok after desecrated host i remembered that was this spiral episode too, and i didn't care much but. yeah. very good. not exactly in the vibe of spiral statement i love, but so, so very effective.

And then, well.

...honestly the convo sasha, jon and martin have is so good? Jon going 'we are actually, somewhat safe' and martin 'Hah!' gods i love their reaction. sasha getting out of jon 'i won't be another mystery' OH NO :(((((, and of course, martin going 'you can't possibly not believe when we're literaly assieged by jane prentiss!!'' i love martin so much (and then jon opens up, and 'why are you still are? ''are you giving me my review? now???' there's nothing much like the first moments of ship, really)

[mentalillnessmouse]

Do you have any advice on how to talk about mental illness with loved ones? I want to explain my behaviour but I don’t want it to seem like I’m using my mental illness as an excuse. I don’t know how to distinguish between healthy conversation and me burdening people or overstepping boundaries when I talk about my mental health - cail

Hello!There are lots of tips for clearing up mental health topics with your family, and it’s likely easier to do it in a healthy and boundary-safe way than you’re thinking.

Writing down your thoughts is the easiest way to get the most out of an explanation that you want, and will help you organize your thoughts and avoid any areas that you’re trying not to touch. Think of it as you’re writing a speech, but don’t use the paper unless you need to when you’re actually doing it.

Start by explaining what you want them to get out of the conversation. This will include how you don’t mean for your explanation to be taken as excuses for behaviours, that you just want an understanding to be made for why you might do some things or say some things. Don’t worry about being linear, and write down all the things you want them to know about your mental illness. 

Some of the resources below will give you tips on what to keep a look out for in relation to boundaries, and what to avoid when interacting. 

Healthy personal boundaries

Emotional boundaries

Communicating Effectively, a collection of useful PDFs on how to communicate efficiently.

This post on telling someone about your mental health problem has some great tips and advice.

This is a post with links to various module you can complete to help you assert yourself.

Conversation Starters, tips on conversation starters and tips on talking to a friend about mental health.

How to start your conversation

>Reyes

[thecryoftheseagulls]

A tag game! Ty @kroalias! I haven’t done one of these in ages. You know I’m really Back to tumblr now!!

Rules: Answer thirty questions, then tag twenty blogs you would like to know better.

1. Nicknames?

Gull, Cail, some people occasionally call me Em but largely I would prefer that they did not

2. Gender?

I call myself genderqueer these days, but also like, what is gender

3. Star sign?

Aquarius

4. Height?

i am a smol and round and about 5′4″

5. Time?

It is currently 7:54 pm

6. Birthday?

January 26

7. Favorite bands?

Judging by my iTunes and Spotify, most of the musicians whose full albums I listen to on repeat are solo artists, but Fall Out Boy is one I come back to to de-stress or focus (used to use them to pump up before finals in college).

8. Favorite solo artists?

Sam Smith, Halsey, Hozier, and a bunch of other people I’m not thinking of, I’m sure.

9. Song stuck in my head? Halsey’s “Alone” was playing on the radio on the drive home from work, so it’s stuck on repeat in my head now...

10. Last movie watched?

Rewatched Black Panther a couple days ago :D

11. Last show watched?

Voltronnnnn

12. When did I create my blog Five years ago to the day, apparently?? Judging by my first post on June 22, 2013. Huh.

13. What do I post? These days you’re gonna see a lot of sheith, plus the the odd MCU or Dragon Age post, some Yuri on Ice, miscellaneous video games, LGBTQ book fandoms like Captive Prince, that kinda thing. I try to tag pretty extensively but everything gets thrown on one blog so y’all gotta deal w/ it  B-)

14. Last thing I googled? “anders dialogue in act 3 if he won’t speak to you” because @penthesilea1623 was looking for a dragon age answer this morning

15. Do you have other blogs?

Teeeechnically I have a star wars sideblog, @buddingdarklordkylo, but I am always a passive star wars fan, and can’t sustain star wars fanning for more than two seconds each time something new comes out. I don’t think I’ve updated that blog since TFA came out...

I also have a sideblog for fandom history/studies stuff, @fan-mediastudies, which is brand new; I’m hoping to go back to grad school for media studies soon and I needed some place to keep all that good stuff.

16. Do you get asks

Veeery rarely, tbh.

17. Why did you choose your url? It’s from a quote from The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe, actually! There’s this bit at the end where Lewis goes “And oh, the cry of the seagulls! Have you heard it? Can you remember?” and I’ve thought that was the coolest sehnsucht shit since I was like 8 lmao.

18. Following? 161 folks

19. Followers? 285

20. Favorite colours? I really like a bunch of shades of blue-green tbh

21. Average hours of sleep? Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh....not as many as I would like

22. Lucky number? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

23. Instruments? I had brief stints on the clarinet and the piano in like junior high (like, a year or less); haven’t ever really played any instruments otherwise.

24. What am I wearing? Black slacks and a blue stripey button down because I just got off work and I haven’t changed yet

25. How many blankets I sleep with? Depends on the time of year, either a comforter or a comforter + 1-2 blankets

26. Dream job? the DREAM would be to write for video games, I think, but I’m also very interested in the ways in which fans and creators interact, and I think a public relations/social media person whose job it is specifically to be the fandom and creators go-between would be very cool

27. Dream trip? I have been very few places so kind of anywhere? I have wanted to visit Iceland for a long time, though. Or Scotland.

28. Favorite food?

depends on my Mood??

29. Nationality?

American and real white tbh

30. Favorite song now? UH okay, l-listen

i’m too young to care much about the backstreet boys but like.....their new song.......real sheith mood guys.....real sheith mood

gonna tag @emotionalmorphine, @thefortysecond, @spiritualsirenes, @merwild, @quitefair, and anybody else who is interested (but ofc, only if you guys want)

[audible--silence]

Well shit.

23 ay, the year Casey resented turning just a few months prior. The last 12 months felt like they were one big bender except I started it hopeful and optimistic, went through a few months of utter chaos, underwent a huge amount of change and then came out the other end somewhere between jaded and selfish; and chaotic and fun. The last twelve months flew by seemingly so fast i can barely remember it, until i start thinking about it and i realize just how much happened and how much has changed and how much ive done and how much everyone has done. So much has happened. You went through a good few months of breakup chaos (as i write this, i cant believe the breakup isn’t ancient history yet) including lots of mates, lots of staying busy, lots of alcohol and a fair few joints. I hitchhiked to Broome and back with Dan. That set me off on the photography and adventure road for the year. The post breakup was lots of kinda staying together, trying to be friends, jealousy, miscommunication, pettiness and frustration but at the same time, there was much love and patience and understanding and forgiveness and care and fun. In the middle of the worst of it, there was always the knowing that we’d be ok. We always believed it. Then after some months of change and growth, for better or for worse, we find ourselves on opposite sides of the country again, my plan to come see you spoiled by hard conversation, hard feelings and a hard fucking virus to plan around. We both had our chaotic period of the year, mine being arguably a tad more fun and a tad less anxious. Yours arguably giving me the most fomo, though I cant say for sure. I spent my days filling them with anything and everything with anyone and everyone. I made lots of new friends and intensified relationships with old ones. In the same breath, i think I’ve drifted from some others, though it may be too early to tell. We drifted and I started to let you go. One day, I realized it worked, after much effort and pain. Sometime after, you realized you felt differently about the idea of being together and I got spooked. I told myself I wasn’t ready but the truth is i was just very scared. Of opening back up, of looking like a fool, of getting played again. I withdrew and started being painful to you in a sad effort to make you want space. I hurt you and caused you grief and for more than I wish to accept, I knew i was. I was selfish and unsure which made for a cocktail designed to reduce any situation into a heavily laden emotional shitstorm that took its time playing out through lots of letters and discussions and fights but eventually ended in us planting enough metaphorical and physical space smack bang in the middle of us with the desired outcome being a certain degree more ok without the other. I welcomed it gladly till I realized you were actually pretty great. Now, we’ve had our season of not talking and are now trying the whole friendship thing again. As i write, I’m assuming you have a new boyfriend. He has good tastebuds. I know little as it stands, we’ve been out of communication for some time. I hope he’s wonderful but i kind of hope you still like me a little. Selfish im sure but hey.

I spent the time working, drinking, gigging, shooting, writing, planning on moving and the eventually traveling anyway. I met a new girl. It came and went pretty swiftly. I gave her my virginity and it was not worth it. I ended up leaving my crew of beautiful friends, my lovely old piece of shit house, my super fun job and all of the customers and going up north to Exmouth with one of Gods finest creations, Ben Gallagher. I write this right now in Karijini, where im traveling with many good humans in a slightly dodgy nissan xtrail that fit most of my life in. My life without the people that make it so. Im learning from traveling that you cant take the joy you get from your relationships with your friends to strangers and expect the same result. I dont miss my bed, despite my car barely fitting me, but i do miss my friends. They’re all doing mostly well. Claire is seeing Austy and they seem to be in the wildly in love phase. Reubs fucked his shoulder and is now mining gold. Ty lives with Reubs, broke up with Z, got a new job and then stopped talking to me when i left town. Ben is strong w Cails and is currently undergoing prac in bunno. Tom is living the dream still. I think his house is being built? Dan just proposed the fkn maniac. Harry got married. Fuckin nuts. Loz is building a house, the gang are all doin good. Music vids are coming out n shit now. Up the barry.

I started working at Hemingway, a place that saw me through a lot of different stages of life. I started a little unsure of myself and what i was doing and then left it confident, self assured enough in my abilities and with scores of new friends from the team and the customers. All of whom mostly entirely unaware, helped me through a breakup and then saw me thrive and grow into my own skin day by day and coffee after coffee. As i write this, its been a couple months since my last shift and i really miss it.

As I write this I realize more and more just how much happened this year and just how little I have reflected on it. Too much time socializing, working and surfing in a mad ditch to stay busy in order to avoid thinking about much at all. Evidently worked because I am realizing i have so much to talk about and realizing i have so much to contemplate.

Where I find myself now, i have more to say and feel i have less power to say it. I want to do everything but I dont know why. I miss my people but they dont talk much unless im there. I dont know what to do with myself and im not sure if im supposed to or not.

I’m tired, less enthusiastic and cynical.

I’m also fun and ready and charming enough to figure shit out right now that seems to be what i want. To figure shit out. I dont even know my own brain anymore, maybe I should figure that out. It all seemed so easy with her. I miss that. But here I am. I will make ot work.

12.12

4/8/21

[cailgives0fvcks]

Snapping Turtle Syndrome

Tossing, turning, one foot out, one foot in, arm over head, arm holding belly. Beads of sweat forming in unusual places. Another toss, another turn...fuck it!! Slow motion movement to the bathroom, swiftly, calmly filtering through the medicine cabinet. “What time is it? Ugh, where is the damn Pepto-Bismol. It’s gotta be 3 or 5 in the morning...oh, shhh Cail you’re being to loud. Where even is my phone? Ugh...I’m so uncomfortable, I hate this shit.” **Looks at Apple Watch** “4:14 AM...okay that’s fine. Let’s take these, lay on our side, and hope for the best”. Squirming to bed, 30 minutes later...strange dreams and a few tosses later, it’s 7:30 AM. 

Pre-menstrual cycle mindset coming in hot on a Friday: “Wakey wakey bitch! It’s time to start the day, let’s get going....who can we piss off today with some A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E?!?!”. **Rolls over to re-veal soon to be victim of crime (aka my lovely boyfriend).**

I don’t know about you guys, but my menstrual cycle turns me into a goddamn snapping turtle. For no reason, I whip out the “Tude” and provoke some tension between myself and another individual. It just so happens to be the one person I love most. I swear, he is a blessing. He knows about my cycles and mental mindset...he knows all of them...well maybe not the one I keep hidden from him which if you’d like to know, read my first post. It’s sad :( I’m not 100% comfortable revealing that side of me quite yet. It’s a me thing ya know? I’d like to figure out my own problems first and if I can’t, then I will go to find some kind of advise or comfort. I don’t know if that’s the dumb way to go about it or the independent way to go about it. Y’all let me know. And while your at it, maybe provide some tips and tricks to slide in an apology after provoking unnecessary tension...because my best go at it is to continue on with my day and let it fizzle out. The WORST, I know...I can’t help it. It could be a control thing.

If you couldn’t tell from the first paragraph, I had a shitty night of sleep due to some issues with my autoimmune disease and a mixture of Tito’s and red wine. It did not agree with my body and caused a lot of discomfort. Yes, yes, I drank on a Thursday..it was one of those days. Snappy Cail has nothing more to say at this time....have a good weekend :)

[centuriies]

I’ve got the important things done, so lets finally get this game started! Haley/Hollow back with yet another multimuse! I’d appreciate if you could reblog this post to help get the word out! This is a sideblog to rebirthpyre, so all follows will be returned from said blog!

Currently featured muses:

Blanche, Candela and Spark

Gladion, Saturn, Cail and Michael

Ho-oh, Celebi, Arceus, Giratina, Xerneas, Magearna, Diancie and Lunala

A Gijinka Jigglypuff, Magby, Deerling and Carbink 

A couple of ocs

[magicianparrish]

20 Questions (that turns out are not 20, but 25)

Because this is fun, I’m gonna do it right before I head off to bed. I’m making the claim the wonderful Ashlee aka @bananannabeth tagged me in it because...I can. 

1.  Nickname: Cay, Cail, Collie, but only my family calls me nicknames. I am also known as April Ludgate to my Disney work friends 

2.  Gender: Female

3.  Star sign: Aries 

4.  Height: 5′2″

5.  Time: 11:04 PM

6.  Birthday: April 4th 

7. Favorite band: uhhhh, I don’t have one 

8.  Favorite solo artist: uhhh, also don’t have one 

9.  Song stuck in my head: The Jig from The Little Mermaid lmfao 

10.  Last movie I watched: I think Baby Driver? Or Kong: Skull Island, I don’t remember 

11.  Last thing I googled: the 17th Congressional District of New York

12.  Do you have any other blogs: nope. This one is just one giant shit post conglomerate

13.  Do you get asks: Once in a blue moon 

14.  Why did you choose your url: Because I stan hard for Adam Parrish and I love him 

15.  Following blogs: 135 

16.  Followers: 2,742

17.  Nationality: American 

18.  Favorite colors: blue

19.  Average hours sleep: Depends on the day 

20.  Lucky number: 4 (I wonder why...) 

21.  Favorite song right now: Jamming hard to I Want To Be Your Everything by Andy Gibb 

22.  What am I wearing: A 7 Line Mets t-shirt and gray sweatpants with my school logo on it 

23.  How many blankets do I sleep with: 1 or none depending on the part of the year 

24.  Dream job: If I’m being totally honest with myself probably an archivist at the Disney Archives. But I am studying to be a history teacher, which is more practical lol 

25.  Dream trip: I’m a cliché but like touring Ireland (without having to deal with family obligations of visits to the million relatives I have over there)