#c:henastoria

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closed starter - hen & astoria ( @nctural )

Hen was absolutely exhausted, but she pushed that a side to find her sister. She moved Astoria hair around, setting her eyes on her. "Are you okay? Like really?" she asked.

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"I mean... technically she did," Hen said softly. They had to die to turn. "Who cares about going back to that person, be different, be a new person. I'm not the same Henrietta I used to be. I don't think that makes you broken, especially broken without repair."

"i don't know how to go back to the person i was hen - i feel like she died." the blonde admitted, swallowing thickly. "i've tried in my own way to reach out for help and i don't think she understood that was what i was doing." astoria shook her head, knowing that this whole situation was her whole fault. "don't you think some things might be too broken for anyone to want to fix?"

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closed starter - hen & astoria ( @nctural​ )

As soon as Hen heard about Astoria, she managed to track her sister down. There was nothing stopping her as she ran to find the other. She froze when she saw the familiar blonde. “Tori...?” she asked.

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"We're both little kids in her eyes given that we're centuries younger than her, but maybe, be a little kid with her. Let her help you, let yourself be vulnerable around her. You've grown up, but it's okay to feel young every once in a while. Maybe that's what she needs from you. For you to ask her for help."

"i'm just scared hen - and i project when i'm scared." she swallowed thickly. "she doesn't care to listen - i've tried i swear, but in her eyes i'm a little kid - and i am in comparison."

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"Astoria, I'm your big sister, I'm always going to take care of you, whether you like it or not," Hen told her. "Have you told her that? The hard love thing isn't working, that it's making things worse?"

"i've tried so many times to explain myself to her, and i can tell she'll never forgive me - not matter how many times i apologise." astoria regretted her actions and the choices she'd made in her grief. "my actions are no one else's failures except for my own." the blonde explained. "i'm no one's property or chore to take care of - i'm not alright, i haven't been alright for a very long time hen - but this hard love act she's shoving down my throat isn't helping - it's having the opposite effect that she's hoping it would."

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"Astoria, that's what life is, we've been around for a long time, you love people, you get hurt, but what you need to do is keep trying," Hen replied. "You try to open your heart again, and maybe one day you'll find that person who stays, and if you've already got some of those people, it's capable. You just gotta let the right ones in," Hen replied with a soft, encouraging smile. "She doesn't hate you Astoria, you just hurt her. You turned your emotions off, and I don't know about your feelings, but I feel like it may be similar to mine about it. I felt like I failed our brother when you did that, I wasn't good enough to make sure you were alright. Adelina loved our brother, and I think she might still love our brother, I don't think she's capable of hating either of us because of that. You fix it by showing up and showing us you'll stay, and maybe talking to her and telling her about your own feelings."

"that we're broken, unlovable." the blonde replied. "maybe this whole vampire idea was the wrong thing to do - life wouldn't have been so lonely if we'd passed away when we were meant to." astoria suggested, shaking her head. "i miss them so much hen, and i know i'm better with my emotions now than i was once - but i'm heartbroken." she explained, hoping her sister would understand. "she hates me hen, adelina hates me so much - how can you say i have her in my corner when she can barely stand the sight of me?" astoria asked, looking at her sister for guidance. "how do i fix it?"

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"Come on, no more with that negative self-talk," Hen replied. "We both know that you have good traits about you. Trust your sister, I'm usually right, and I have known you for your entire life. "You have to let yourself take a chance, and maybe it'll work out for good." Hen struggled after her relationship ended badly, sometimes she still did, a small fear of someone hurting her, but she was trying to get past that. She was immortal after all, she had a long time to figure it out.

"let me live my lie hen." the blonde sighed, rolling her eyes dramatically. "i don't need to find a date - all that will happen is i'll get left behind as they find someone better, more stable to love." astoria might have been a tad dramatic but pushing others away was all she knew - the only way she could protect her heart. "i don't deserve happiness, or fun."

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"So what does that say about me when I keep getting left behind?" Hen asked, with a raise of her eyebrows. "You still have plenty of people, you have me, you have Adelina, you have Alex. I know they're not the people we both wish they were, but you're not the villain in the story."

"if i had good traits people would stop leaving me behind." her voice was soft, fragile. "i know you have, and i trust you more than life itself - but what if i'm the villain in the story." astoria questioned, looking at her big sister for guidance. "i destroy everything i touch - you're the only good thing that's survived me."

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"Babes, you haven't been very festive around the holidays for years now," Hen replied. "Why would this year be different from that? Why don't you go out and find a date or something for a New Year's thing?"

astoria ran her finger around the rim of her glass, a bored look on her face. "today is crap - honestly, i thought december was supposed to be fun and exciting - i have to be honest i'm not feeling very festive this year." she mused, shrugging at the thought.