#but z!charlie DEFINITELY picks favorites and tends to stick to z!phil whenever he can. for comfort n such you know. thats HIS leader.

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do the others realize how their treatment of bolas during Purgatory has affected Charlie and Phil (and the other bolas members)? Maybe Tubbo raises a sword too quickly, and Chrlie has a panic attack, and Phil has to comfort him.

Z!Phil is able to repress things like it's nobodies business but he hates when people sneak up behind him now. Z!Etoiles (.. and Z!Bagi and Z!Fit) s kill on him left a scar in the middle of his chest and a strong discomfort for people touching his back. Or even just standing behind him.

Z!Charlie though is dealing with things way worse than him. Z!Charlie is fucked up after everything and genuinely did develop some really heavy issues with hallucinations n the feeling of always being watched or followed does NOT help. When Poppet comes into the picture she makes it worse at first. It's not her fault of course he was just just traumatized and scared to make any mistakes with her. He still is but since the first babysitting shift and many more that came after Poppet is helping keep him grounded. She is the light of his life nowadays.

That doesn't fix everything. He still does flinch when anyone who wasn't BOLAS moves too quickly. He can't help but panic. Z!Phil understands him at least. Z!Phil might not hold any biases against former Soulfire members of Soul-LAS but he understands why Z!Charlie would. Z!Charlie went through worse than him, in his own opinion.