#but yeah that dialogue is a little more angsty with my own context lol

[sunsetzer]

Every time I get the nightmare dialogue with Elliott I just picture my farmer who has deep haircut-related trauma responding to his husband like

[lavender-annd-lilac]

Huh? What’s that you hear at your window? It’s me!!! With another obnoxiously long comment!!

(⚠️For real this is super long, like “Karen ranting on Facebook” long. I literally had something to say about every sentence I’m so sorry if OP feels obliged to read this looool⚠️)

His openness to improve was what made your relationship so special.

Awww he’s a little puppy for us to train 🥰

She’s always hovering around me, and so incredibly clingy, almost every single day, - like I never fucking asked to be her host of which she is a nuisance for,

This is so me talking to myself in the mirror tbh

Lol jk haha 😂 but after I finished reading I actually went back and re-read this dialogue to see if reader could have known Ransom was talking about his mother and I agree like without context this would totally seem like he was talking about his gf especially after he says “she’s home” 🤔

Was secretly hoping for a Ransom/Bryce/Reader love triangle bc I’m just that kind of bitch 😂

Ok but like what if Bryce is reader’s ex, or they kind of had a thing for each other before she started dating Ransom, and then when she thinks Ransom is trash talking her, she goes running to Bryce for a shoulder to cry on

…and he doesn’t tell her Ransom was talking about his mom on the phone, and instead lies like “oh yeah he was always saying the worst stuff about u, he never appreciated u, etc.” so he could get back with reader…

but then Ransom doesn’t know that Bryce is lying to her about their convos, and he thinks she’s just moved on, so he gets all pining and angsty like what does that guy have that I don’t 😭😖😵‍💫

“I swear they overwork you. No way is it normal to be working seven plus hours each day. It’s just plain cruel if you ask me.”

Bro… I’m not the best at math but a 9-5 job is already 8h and that’s pretty standard for most jobs I feel?? Lmao Ransom is so out of touch with us peasant folk

“Oh, just Bryce. You know, the grandson of Ogden Osbourne who Harlan can’t shut up about.

he’s 13 years younger than me. I didn’t get my own villa until I was like, 24 or something.”

Ok diving back into my daydream world for a sec lol what if like Harlan had always favoured Bryce as kind of “the grandson I wish I had” bc he thinks Ransom is incompetent, so Ran already has this low key inferiority complex about Bryce being like the golden boy, while everyone thinks of him as a trust fund prick even tho it’s not fair bc Bryce is actually even more spoiled than Ransom hahaha help me

😩

You completely dropped your routine of continuously showing Ransom physical affection, hoping he would be happy about it and not have any further complaints behind your back.

Omg I feel like any non-confrontational, passive aggressive person (like myself) will understand this EXACTLY.

roommate says I have crap taste in movies? Guess I’ll never suggest another movie night ever again.

Family thinks my interests are boring? Cool I’ll never initiate another conversation for the rest of my life lmao

Being affectionate was a big part of your character after all. It was hard to make sense of why he apparently despised one of the things that defined you.

AND YET, despite being all ugh whatever guess I’ll just stop my “annoying behaviour” 🙄 you are still stewing over it in your head ..

It’s very like “not that I even care… but their complaint was stupid in the first place and they’ve actually done much worse/more annoying things…. “😤😤😤

He would put your hand on his chest like where it usually was when you were curled up in bed.

You had noticed Ransom would pull a hurt face every now and then, as if he expected something.

MY FUXKING HEART IS BREAKING I CAN’T 💔💔💔 bc like in his mind he did nothing wrong (for once in his life lol 😆) but now reader is all distant 🥺 and she’s prob the only real supportive person in his life too

🫠

Aaand he got used to her being touchy feelly so now he’s like legit going through withdrawal someone get this man some methadone, stat!! 😳

😬😬😬

Omg also so saaad and so tragic when he threw his little tantrum like neither of these idiots knows what is going on I feel like I’m watching the library of Alexandria burn down or some equally devastating event 😅

If he has something he wants to say, he will have to say it on his own and not have me beg for an explanation, you thought.

DUDE, this is so ironic bc Ransom is prob thinking the same thing like “well if she wants to tell me something, I’m not going to ask, she should just say it” 😑

he was trying his best to remain stubborn and nonverbal.

I’m hyperventilating haha this situation is so immovable object meets unstoppable force 😵‍💫

Ransom scooped your body up carefully as he placed himself beneath, having your body on top of his and placing the blanket to cover both of you.

Fffffff he’s so touch starved 😣

He stroked your hair a couple of times, whispering; “I love you…you know that, right?”

BUT SAY IT WHEN SHE’s AWAKE U SILLY MAN

😠

Ok ok I have to say tho, I’m glad he confronted her about the “cheating” instead of being like oh well if she’s cheating behind my back I’ll just do the same thing 😤

BLESS BAPHOMET 🙏 that this did not happen

You had almost forgotten his mother even existed as Ransom had sheltered you away from her, not wanting to have her throw insults at his lover like she always did at him.

This also makes a lot of sense bc if reader wasn’t aware of how intrusive his mom is, she would have no reason to believe he was complaining about her on the phone

🤔

Also this is so sweet like him protecting her from his asshole fam:

He hid his embarrassment with a scoff and lowered his gaze, not wanting to showcase his growing red cheeks.

Cuuuuuuuuute 😍😍😍

Whew oh boy 😮‍💨

welp I guess I just used up all my sympathy resources on a fictional character so no more empathy towards real people for a while until I recharge 🤷‍♀️

Haha if it wasn’t obvious I’m like obsessed with this and I love it. 😍 ty for writing and sharing!!

Misreaders

Pairing: Ransom Drysdale x gf!reader

WARNING - The following fic contains: Nothing crazy, needy!Ransom, misunderstandings, awful communication skills from both sides, lots of fluff, mild angst, affectionate gestures, cuddles, kisses, mention of sex, mention of possible cheating.

Summary: You deny Ransom the attention and affection you used to give him all the time after overhearing him complaining on the phone how annoying he finds you.

The lights were on when you pulled over to the front of Ransom’s villa, which to you meant Ransom was home after doing business at the Blood like Wine company with Harlan and Walt.

You have been living together for 2 months now after being a couple for a year, and you both thought it went amazingly well.

You were opposites, which somehow made you all the more compelling. You were sweet, overly affectionate, expressive and a little shy, - while Ransom was blunt, graceless and more quiet about his emotions. Over time, he had gotten better at expressing them for your sake, as he knew you deserved to be told how much he loves you. He had improved at making vocal and honest apologizes as he had come to learn you weren't easy to please through gifts. His openness to improve was what made your relationship so special.

There were no complaints or major issues from both parties, - until now apparently when you stepped into the house quietly and heard Ransom talking loudly on the phone with someone, his voice sounding unnerved.

“The woman can’t seem to catch a break, Bryce. She’s always hovering around me, and so incredibly clingy, almost every single day, - like I never fucking asked to be her host of which she is a nuisance for, -

- It’s so fucking annoying.”

Your heart sunk when you comprehended his words. She? Clingy? Every single day? You were the only woman he was with most of the time. Could it be he was talking about me?

You didn’t mean to listen in, but he was talking so loudly - it was hard not to hear. He obviously hadn’t heard you come in with how confidently he let his voice roll in full volume. You had already heard enough and decided to do the old trick of opening the door with little subtlety and close it back harshly.

Ransom cut himself off, audibly muttering to his friend over the line; “You know what, - let’s talk about this later. She’s come home.”

You took off your coat and hung it up, along with your handbag and scarf. Ransom came by the corner with a smile on his lips. “Darling…” he purred the petname with delight as he approached you.

Your lips threatened to wobble with glossy eyes as realization had hit of what you had listened to. You were good at holding your composure just this once as you put on a fake smile and let your boyfriend kiss you hello before he led you to the living room.

“How was your day?” You asked casually.

“Busy. But not as busy as yours.” He said. “I swear they overwork you. No way is it normal to be working seven plus hours each day. It’s just plain cruel if you ask me.”

“Well that’s just how it works…” you sighed with a shrug. You sat on the couch, eyeing Ransom’s phone on the table and it made you swallow down a lump that had formed in your throat.

“I heard you were talking with someone on the phone as I came in. Who was it?”

“Oh, just Bryce. You know, the grandson of Ogden Osbourne who Harlan can’t shut up about. We’ve been catching up lately.” Ransom explained. “Get this, he got his own villa by the coast of New Jersey. If people think I’m a trust fund, they should get familiar with him first because he’s 13 years younger than me. I didn’t get my own villa until I was like, 24 or something.” Ransom said, the rich people business being little to your understanding, but you still listened.

You left it at that about the phone call. He was obviously going to keep his loud back talk a secret, and you thought maybe it wasn’t the right time to bring it up either. He seemed to be in a good mood despite how aggravated he sounded when on the phone.

Maybe he had gotten his frustration out, you guessed. You weren’t going to build it up this time.

You completely dropped your routine of continuously showing Ransom physical affection, hoping he would be happy about it and not have any further complaints behind your back.

Truth be told, you knew you shouldn’t be accepting how awful he talked about you, but you more blamed yourself for not considering how he felt about it.

In the past you had complained to your girl friends about minor things too, - like how you sometimes find Ransom’s use of curse words unnecessary. However you would argue Ransom’s complaint was much worse. Being affectionate was a big part of your character after all. It was hard to make sense of why he apparently despised one of the things that defined you.

You had kept up your new resolution as much as you could, only opening your arms when Ransom approached you with his own wide open. He was being more touchy with you than ever as days passed by, now being the one to engage cuddle sessions. He would put your hand on his chest like where it usually was when you were curled up in bed.

This must be the way he prefers it. Being touched only when he wants to.

You had noticed Ransom would pull a hurt face every now and then, as if he expected something. You had asked about it once when he stared at you as his head rested on your lap while you were watching an episode of your favorite show. He only muttered, "Nothing..." before he turned his face to look at the screen too.

Strange..., was all you could think from that interaction.

Days went by quicker due to your long working schedules, with the evenings almost skipping right to the early mornings.

Saturday was when you worked from home, - same was it for Ransom. He put the laptop down, finishing much earlier as he didn’t have a lot on his plate for the day.

Ransom approached you who was sitting by the kitchen island on one of those bar seats as you typed on your computer. He came from behind, slyly wrapping his arms around you and rested his chin on your shoulder. He was being incredibly touchy with where he put his hands, and it made you feel a little hot and bothered.

“Ransom, we can’t have sex right now.” You laughed as you tried to focus on your work.

“I don’t want sex.” He muttered against your skin as he gave a smooch on your shoulder and tightened his grip around you.

You weren’t having sex nearly as often as you did in the beginning of your relationship, but Ransom was completely fine with that.

The reason why you had so much sex back then was because he didn’t know how else to show affection at the time. It was before he was comfortable using the phrase ‘I love you’ because he had through his whole childhood grown resilient against those words. Back then he didn’t hug or cuddle because he wasn’t used to that kind of affection at all.

That changed when you continued being in his life and had your body against him all the time, your hands stroking his hair and face, your head on his chest or arms wrapped around his waist with your face nuzzling against him so lovingly.

You thought he loved it and that you had broken the ice, but from the conversation you heard almost a week ago, you were assuming you had done more than you should.

“Then what is it, honey?” You asked. “You’ve been acting rather odd. Is there something you want to talk about?”

You could practically feel his jaw tick against your skin, and you frowned when you looked behind. Ransom had already let go of you by then.

“If you don’t want me around, just say that!” He shouted and stormed away to your bedroom upstairs without glancing back.

You were so confused. You didn’t know what this man wanted anymore. First he insults you behind your back on the phone with some friend of his, and you stop being all over him as he had complained about, - and now he’s pulling a tantrum with the assumption that you don’t want him around.

You sighed, not bothered to walk after him as you were afraid it would only become a messy argument.

If he has something he wants to say, he will have to say it on his own and not have me beg for an explanation, you thought.

You worked on your computer until late at night. Ransom hadn’t come down since his outburst, which already told you he was trying his best to remain stubborn and nonverbal.

It was past 11:00 PM, and you were too tired to change into comfier clothes and take a night shower. You took a blanket from the basket under the table and made yourself comfortable. It had been a while since you last slept on the couch, usually from watching late night films, and you had to admit you missed it. The couch was way too comfortable to only be used for sitting purposes.

An hour later into your sleep, you hear footsteps coming down the stairs to the living room where you were. Before you know it, you feel a figure in front of you. Your eyes barely hold up as you see Ransom standing there silently, staring at your form.

“Come to bed, darling…” You heard him whisper to you as he carefully shook your shoulder.

“No, I wanna sleep…” you mumbled drowsily.

You heard him sigh, but your mind quickly wandered back to dreamworld again, leaving him to be payed no mind.

Ransom scooped your body up carefully as he placed himself beneath, having your body on top of his and placing the blanket to cover both of you.

He looked beneath him where your face was resting on his chest, some drool was coming on his night sweater but he didn’t care. He stroked your hair a couple of times, whispering; “I love you…you know that, right?”

Ransom didn’t expect a response as he was aware you were fast a sleep, but he thought it didn’t hurt to say it. He stared at the ceiling for a good while before he was able to close his eyes and rest.

Your eyes flickered open, and you yawned when you woke up. “Finally, Sunday again.” You chirped as you stretched yourself a little. Sunday was your day off, which meant you could take it easy.

You climbed off of Ransom which made him groan and you left his embrace to get your morning coffee. You had slept well tonight, like you always did when you slept with Ransom so close to you. Your morning mind had already forgotten about yesterday's ordeal.

When you returned to the living room again with two mugs in your hands, you halted as you saw Ransom had sat up, looking up at you with bloodshot eyes.

“What…- are you okay?” You asked as you walked towards him.

“You’re cheating on me.”

You froze and blinked, “What?”

“You’re cheating on me, aren’t you? That’s why you don’t touch me like you used to. You’re done with me.” He began to state his last two sentences as facts.

You put the mugs on the table and sat beside him on the couch, immediately denying his claim. “No, I’m not cheating on you, Ransom. Why on earth would you think that?”

He shook his head, not even looking at you as he was still in denial. He stood up and continued, “You found someone else to pour your love into. There can’t be any other reason why you suddenly stopped being intimate with me. You don’t kiss my cheek in the morning or hold me close anymore. You didn’t even stroke my hair when I rested my head on your lap two days ago!”

“Because you didn’t ask!”

“You don’t need to!”

You crossed your arms and stood up too, annoyed by now. “Well apparently I do because otherwise you are talking behind my back about how clingy and annoying I am!” You raised your voice to his level. “I heard what you said on the phone with that friend of yours. I’m giving you a ��break’ like you wanted.”

Ransom processed it for a minute, unsure of what you were referring to. Then it hit him about his last week’s phone call he had with Bryce, and he let out a sigh of relief as he held back a humored smile. “You heard that? Is that what this is all about? That’s not, - fuck’s sake, you got it all wrong, darling.”

You frowned. “Do I? Explain then.”

“Did you even hear the whole conversation? I’m guessing you didn’t because if you did, you would know I was talking about my mother.”

You had almost forgotten his mother even existed as Ransom had sheltered you away from her, not wanting to have her throw insults at his lover like she always did at him.

Still, the pieces didn't quite add up and you narrowed your eye with suspicion. “You used the word ‘clingy’ though, - a very convenient word to describe someone who's always on you. A-And you said you have to deal with 'her' every day. I’m the only woman you’re with every day, Ransom.”

“What are you even, - Yes, my mother’s the clingiest bitch in the world and she practically bothers me everyday with her nonsense. She’s a damn tick on my skin, sucking the life out of me and always in my business - our business. Last week she bothered me about some high class bitch she wanted me to meet. Old hag’s disrespecting our relationship and you, my girlfriend. ” Ransom explained genuinely, his eyes looking intensely into yours.

"Oh..." was all you could utter as your mouth stayed open in awe. It all made sense now as to why Ransom sounded so annoyed on the phone but was carefree when he welcomed you home.

His mother really is a bitch, you also thought when you heard what she had planned for Ransom.

“I was talking about her, not you, kitten. I would never think of you that way. If anything, you’re clingy but for the best reasons.” Ransom insinuated with a smirk growing with the way he formed his lips. “I missed your touches so much. I don’t think I can live without them. Please stop holding yourself back and give it all to me again.”

He approached you and took your hand to give your dainty knuckles a kiss with his lips. He felt blessed when your face rested on his broad chest and wrapped your arms around his waist tightly.

“I’m sorry, I should have talked to you and asked…I didn’t mean to assume the worst from you.” You apologized. "I'm so sorry..."

Ransom laughed and shook his head. He didn’t blame you. After all, he had earned the asshole title for many reasons prior to your relationship. “You should have beat my ass if that was the assumption you were left with. Yet you still stayed around like it didn’t hypothetically happen. Why?”

You shrugged as you felt silly, but you did have a reason. “…I mean, it should be kind of obvious by now. I love you, and we both know you are too honest for your own good sometimes. But by the end of the day, you’re my jackass, and I wouldn’t let go of you so easily.”

“That’s cute of you, kitten.” He cooed as he kissed the top of your head with care. “But seriously though, don’t put up with shit, -especially from me. Put me in place if you must.”

You hummed, agreeing as you had learned your lesson. “I still can’t believe you thought I was cheating on you. You were really broken out about my distancing, weren’t you?” You said as you led him to sit back on the couch again.

He hid his embarrassment with a scoff and lowered his gaze, not wanting to showcase his growing red cheeks.

You laughed softly and pulled his shoulder while reaching out for his face, pulling him closer to you. “My poor man…I’m so sorry, honey.”

He hummed, ultimately forgiving you. “Guess you need to make it up to me. You’re going to do nothing else other than wrap those cute hands of yours around me and mean it. No half-assing anymore. I want it all.”

“Handsom’ Ransom wants to be held, huh?” You giggled humorously.

“Tease me all you want,” He snickered and grabbed you by the hip, his hands sliding down to grope your ass as he leaned into your ear to seductively add, “We both know who’s name you’ll be chanting this evening, darling.”

N/A: Probably like my 5th fic about Ransom being touch starved but idc, it’s my therapy guys. :))

Hearts & Reblogs are very appreciated! <3

[hideyoshineki]

Writers Reflections: Tag Meme

I was tagged by @oathkeeperoxas my ultimate writing senpai uwu ❤💛❤

Rules: answer the following questions about your own writing, whether fanfic or original. If you can't/don't want to answer a question, just put N/A. If you don't have that many posted works, tell us about your WIPs or individual chapters/drabbles or even your ideas! Then tag as many writers as you like :)

AO3 name and link, if applicable: angeltrumpets

What's your most popular fic, by whatever metric is most relevant to you (hits, kudos, comments, reblogs, some other trait)?:

By Any Other Name is the most popular on AO3, but it's the only fic of mine that isn't a oneshot and it's also a soulmate AU (Hdkn from TG) so that just kinda automatically makes it more popular than my other fics.

On tumblr tho, my most popular fic has easily been A Source of Warmth, which as of now has 87 notes. It's a Hdkn TG oneshot I posted when the fandom was at its peak in 2015, however about a year ago it got a bunch more notes like a sudden attention and idk why but it was unexpected that's for sure.

What's your favourite fic that you've written?

Hmmmmmm Dancing Fireflies is my favourite in terms of the context behind it and how much damn fun it was to write, because it's a crack fic, but treated seriously, which made it more fun to write, and I also like going back and reading it again. It's also the fic with the most entertaining comments.

What's your best fic, and is it different from your favourite fic?

Recurring Illusions. It's the most recent thing I've written. (Hdkn oneshot, angst, an excuse for me to never stop being owned by Chapter 136). It really does FEEL like my best fic, as in I had a really good feeling as I was writing it! I was doing a lot that I hadn't written before, and I worked really hard on it! It came out really good!

Unfortunately because the fic is tagged with Graphic Violence and Implied Character Death, not many people are clicking to read it, but I expected that. The Graphic Violence was actually one of the things that was new to me, because most of my writing is very.... hmm uneventful? Like nothing big happens in most of my oneshots. Whereas here it was like Im writing a scene where he's killing people or eating people here how does that get written. Especilly the eating. I am very proud of the eating part of the oneshot especially because I pushed myself to go further with it and not shy away from details. I also am proud of the choices I made when writing it to display what state of mind Kaneki was in at certain parts.

Do you have a fic whose popularity surprised you?

OMG YES!!??!! Coffee And Thieves!! It's my second most viewed and kudosed fic on AO3 and I'm ????? like I'm still lost!!!!! It was a secret santa fic I wrote of the Amon/Hide/Kaneki poly ship and its popularity confuses me for two reasons: 1) I had no idea this many people would be clicking on it and reading it because honestly it's a super rare ship especially being a poly ship and I wouldn't have even known of its existence if it weren't for who I was gifting the fic to! But apparently more people are looking to read the ship than I thought! And 2) quality of writing wise it's more simplistic than some of my other fics. Like it's just fluff and I know people like reading that but it also means there's less room to like... show-off writing capabilities, you feel? Altho again, it's not like people are looking for that when it comes to fluff.

Do you have a fic you wish more people would read?

THE WITCH'S SERVANT! It's easily the oneshot I spent the most time on like I posted it months after starting it because I spent so long getting it right and soooooooo many hours working it out. But yeah it got comparatively much less attention than my other Hdkn fics. But I am still proud of it because I worked really hard on it and I got to write up what I wanted, which was the play that Hide and Kaneki brought up in the series. I wanted to look more into that and write about it, because I had seen meta and theory writers talk about Hide and Kaneki's roles in that play in relation to their roles in the overall story of TG, so I tried to integrate a little of that meta into the fic. I also included dialogue from the unused draft from the last ep from Root A in the fic. So there was a lot I was putting in, and yeah while it's a shame it didn't get more attention, I'm still happy with it and proud of it.

Is there a ship or fandom you haven't written, but really want to?

I have been wanting to write Reigisa from Free since fckn 2014. Every year I have been like "This is the year I contribute to Reigisa Week" and then I don't. And since Ive been with the ship for a long time and seen a lot of it, I feel like I know the characters and ship dynamic well enough to be comfortable writing it. But yeah Ive never gotten around to completely writing anything. Ive started a few, but they had always ended up abandoned.

Tell us a random fact about your writing process:

Ok so Im slow as shit right, like my multichapter fic from earlier has 2 chapters written and I started the fic in March this year so lol i know slowness and going ages without writing is common with a lot of writers tho

Usually what gets me going is a song putting me in a mood. Often the song won't match the mood of the fic I'm writing, as it'll almost always be a more angsty emotional song that gets me motivated, even if what I'm writing is not emotional at all. It just makes me feel like I can get things out more easily and write more interestingly.

I also save my writing docs in dropbox so I can always add to it either on my laptop or phone whenever I feel like it and it's synced up, but it never really ends up that way because nothing happens when I try to write on my phone I'm rarely able to write without the laptop setup.

Tagging @akaaka04 because Red ur the only mutual who first came to mind when I was thinking of mutuals rn who write, anyone else I can think of I'm either not mutuals with or I don't know for sure if they write or not. Sorry if I'm forgetting someone

[lightsandlostbells]

Skam Italia episode 9 reaction

shout out to the sheer number of snake emojis in the comments on any clip featuring or mentioning Martino

Episode 9

Clip 1 - Silvia spills the beans

Skam Italia being educational, kinda! I’m going to try out this headache technique. 

According to the subs I found, Sana’s janitor told her about it? … her housekeeper? That’s probably closer to what it was but I just like the idea of Sana going around striking up conversations with janitors.

But another version of the subs didn’t have that part at all so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Dear Lord, Silvia, chill the hell out. Someone sitting in someone else’s car doesn’t mean they’re dating. Although lmao, Eva and Noora could have stood to learn that in season 2.

Actually, I do get how Silvia would be upset? She’s really jumping the gun but Edoardo just treated her like crap in front of people. I would probably be a little hurt that my friend was maybe hanging out with someone who hurt me. The problem with Silvia is that her motivation is less, “Eva, how could you associate with someone who’s treated me like garbage?” and more, “Eva, what were you doing with my mans???”

Evaaaaa, why did you trade that completely obvious look with Eleonora??? Just make it seem the most suspicious you can. I mean, if you don’t want to spill the whole truth about Edoardo digging for info on Eleonora, you can literally say “I studied for my exam in the car and he asked me about it” and technically that’s not a lie.

The flashbacks with Eva and Laura were pretty cute. Aesthetic hair-braiding!

I do like Sana immediately being like “lol why would you trust Laura” and bringing up the water throwing incident as a sort of logical evidence why Laura isn’t the greatest, as opposed to Vilde/Silvia saying something dumb and Islamophobic and Sana having to mention the water incident as proof of her loyalty.  Also Silvia looks humbled by Sana mentioning she was defending Silvia’s honor. 

Sana asking Silvia whether she has to meet her mother was a nice way of calming the situation for Eva’s sake while getting Silvia to leave before the problem can escalate. It was thoughtful for Silvia, too, as it gave her a chance to escape instead of digging the hole deeper.

I'm glad that the Edoardo lift had more plot relevance than just ship teasing (multi-tasking is A+) and I think that it’s good to illustrate how much it would break Eva is to lose a friend again. Her offering to let Silvia listen to the message she left Martino as proof is rather heartbreaking in its desperation. On the other hand, I don’t know how I feel about the emotional impact of this scene having to be more about poor Eva weeping and having to beg Silvia for forgiveness over something that was ultimately trivial and meant nothing, and that we as the audience know meant nothing, rather than Eva dealing with the guilt that she’s been carrying around for months over destroying her relationship with her best friend. That is the Big Secret Eva has been hiding from both her new friends and the audience so it probably needs more focus (which to be fair, is elaborated on in the bathroom scene later).

I saw some talk of how people thought it was an improvement that Silvia didn’t call Eva a slut, and while of course it’s nice that she didn’t do so, I don’t get why it’s better for Silvia not to call Eva a slut in this version since Noora directly confronts Vilde about it in the moment, it’s not like it was this casual misogyny in the show that went unaddressed. That was the point, it was a teachable moment. It’s certainly not worse that the moment wasn’t there, I just think it’s more about how it’s handled than anything else. (Also, I mean … Vilde being a jerk was specifically a tip off that something was going on with her.) 

Clip 2 - Eva talks to a friendly serpent

Martino knows all the school drama and social scene. It is pretty damn shady of him to be like oh yeah, they didn’t invite you because that girl whose boyfriend you kissed, her friend is organizing it, when he is responsible for the apparent non-invite in the first place, or so he would think. But he’s so casual about it. Not much guilt when he tells her that. Maaaaybe a little more when she starts to tell him about what she’s dealing with at school? IDK.

Eva sounds less angry or frustrated, more defeated.

I’m still wondering what her arc is going to be? Because there isn’t that pressing question of “who are you?” and her not having her own identity, it’s like … I guess she’s questioning whether she’s become a bad person? Sort of? She has Silvia making assumptions about her being a bad person, Laura thinks she is a bad person based on events that really happened, and Gio is questioning why she hangs around with bad people. That could be an area to explore in terms of her relationship with Laura but I’m not all that sure how it would play regarding her and Gio since Gio has made many of the same mistakes she has, he can’t exactly talk.

Martino trying to pull some reverse psychology is cute because he can’t quite keep a straight face. 

Sucks that this friendship is about to go down the toilet!

Clip 3 - Eva and the older girls

Heh, this angsty song gets cut off as soon as we establish that Maria does not give a crap who Eva is.

I always enjoy this scene and this advice. It’s one of the most underrated parts of season 1. These girls didn’t seem as invested as giving Eva some friendly advice but again, love that they get interested in their own sexual exploits rather than Eva’s and she ends up just walking away.

It’s nice that there was a totally logical, boring reason they didn’t get invites though how were they planning to invite everyone else once they stopped on Facebook? Word of mouth?

Mmm, I don’t know if I totally buy that Alice’s BFF doesn’t give a shit at all who Eva is? Of course her maturity is nice, and I can certainly buy that she doesn’t care enough to keep Eva from being invited to the party, but Alice got in a physical fight with this girl because she was that upset. . Like who were those girls accompanying Alice in the fight if not her friends? (At first they seemed like they wanted to hold Alice back but by the end it seemed like they were fighting as well.)

I think I’d have preferred if Maria was like, “Just between you and me, Federico is a fuckboy and I’m glad Alice can see the truth now,” or “I don’t like that my best friend was hurt, but I’m not petty enough to keep you off the list” or “I love Alice but she overreacts to everything and makes a lot of drama.” Or just some explanation for her total lack of fucks. The older Norwegian girls weren’t like, Iben’s best friends, correct? They weren’t even in the same grade? Maria has her BFF involved.

Clip 4 - Hippogriff

Fede, teach me your ways of absorbing information just as Sana showed us how to get rid of headaches.

Sana having an uncharacteristically soft moment and trying to deny it. She’s been really blunt with Silvia but their relationship has been all about helping Silvia with no apparent gain for Sana, except friendship.

Also she’s very reluctant to spread rumors, like this Sana goes from hard to soft pretty fast.

Federico and Laura leaving the men’s bathroom together sure adds a layer to Edoardo’s comment about Silvia hanging around the boy’s bathroom! That is just a thing these characters do, hook up in bathrooms. In S3 Martino can just wander into any men’s bathroom and find a girl to pretend to like.

Clip 5 - Eva and Laura and Alice

Nice use of music with the tense beat going as Eva drags off Laura, then it cuts off abruptly as Eva is about to get real and vulnerable.

This is easily the best acting Italian Eva has done so far. There have been a few “emotional” scenes where I thought she seemed too theatrical and not natural for the material but this was very good. I almost wanted them to stretch it out longer, as in the original, so we could get more of this performance.

And I’m pretty sure Laura was crying too by the end, which is very touching. I do think it’s one of S1’s best aspects how the Ingrid/Laura is not the villain, is actually the wronged party, but that she and Eva are able to come to a peaceful resolution.

It’s pretty sad that Eva made that little attempt at a wave back in the first clip. She really missed Laura.

Ha, I didn’t care for that Alice intro, though! Seeing her come up in the hallway definitely distracted from this intense, emotional acting between Eva and Laura. Especially because the moving music keeps going as she’s spying on them, and only cuts off when she throws her books down. I think it would’ve been more effective to keep the Eva-Laura shots going and keep us really engrossed in their dialogue, and then when Laura mentions Fede, suddenly cut to Alice standing like right there in the doorway and cut off the music, for a true jolt and change in the scene’s energy.

Alice’s actress looks so defeated as she realizes what a piece of shit her boyfriend is. And it’s nice that she apologizes and asks how Eva is doing. You know, before she inadvertently reveals Eva has been betrayed by a good friend.

“He looks like he cares about you” does that mean Martino looked pained when he told Alice about Eva and Fede? Boyyyy, why did you do such a stupid thing? (I know why, it’s still stupid.)

General Comments:

This has been a solid remake and overall they’re handling Eva’s emotional turmoil well. The point I’m wondering about is what Eva’s ultimate conclusion/personal statement is going to be since they’ve left out a lot of the questioning of her identity and insinuations that she is a follower not making her own choices. Season one’s strength lay a lot in that finale so I hope they have something cohesive for her character.

I am not Italian so if I misunderstood something or missed context, feel free to correct me.

If you got this far, thank you for reading!

[i-want-my-iwtv]

Do you have any writing tips? I’ve just started writing Loudtat fanfiction, and I’m not that good at writing. Is there any do’s and don’t’s?

Hmmmm well that’s really tough! FIRST OF ALL to quote @monstersinthecosmos on a similar post: 

Dude! Just write some stuff. :D :D This is a teeny little sleepy fandom and it is so thirsty for more content, just do it! You can do it! We all want you to write fic!!!!!!

…Fanfiction is awesome to flex your writing muscles a bit and get some practice in, and it’s helpful because it invites attention and feedback. It’s also easy to apply flash fiction or drabbles to fanfic because we don’t need exposition and backstory. Like, yeah! WE GET IT, WE KNOW! Quit dicking around and just jump into the story, we already want it! This is so valuable when it comes to just getting WRITING done and you really don’t even need a plot. You can elaborate on the teeniest mental images, headcanons, goofy or angsty situations, and that’s all it has to be! No one expects it to win a Pulitzer, it’s okay if it isn’t perfect!

In fact!!!!!!!!!! It shouldn’t be perfect! And you are not going to get better if you do not start somewhere!

I still get really nervous when I post fics and I doubt my abilities BASICALLY CONSTANTLY ALL THE TIME LOL but good and bad feedback are imperative to honing your craft and learning your strengths and finding things to fix. PLUS LIKE, it can really help to motivate you if you get some people on your side who like what you’re doing! Like I am consistently sappy and overwhelmed by the response to my fics and it’s what keeps me writing. :)  :)  :)  :)

Anyway idk man, here’s an ungraceful dismount to my post lmfao but, listen!

Write! Do it! Share it with us we are thirsty.

^*APPLAUDS* Rules are made to be broken. Write the way you want! I had a teacher who told me that to begin a sentence with “And” was blasphemy, illegal. punishable by DEATH practically, but I know Anne Rice does it OFTEN, in published fiction, so that teacher was wrong. Maybe she was just trying to start us off with the rules so we could then break them. Probably that.

BTW I’ll reblog a really good graphic I saw once that described different types of fanfic.

So my advice?

Even though I write fanfic myself, I have my own tastes about it. Writing fic is an art in itself, you’re creating smtg, like sculpture or cooking, and as such it’s very subjective. There are courses taught on writing in schools at all levels, books written about writing, so while I can’t give you a thorough and objective answer in a short blog post… I can give you this much and NO CUTS WE LONGPOST LIKE MEN.

For me, writing is about 1 or more of these basic setups, sometimes combined and interwoven:

(a) presenting a problem and exploring it,

(a) presenting a problem, exploring it, and (b) offering a solution,

(a) presenting a problem, exploring it, (b) offering what the author feels is a BAD solution and (c.) showing the consequences of that bad solution.

^That’s all you really need. Everything else is in service to that. Even the fluffiest fanfic has some issue, even if that issue is just, “What shirt am I going to wear tonight?” Mundane, probably, but hey, it’s still a decision that needs to be made! ;)

~My-own-taste-based advice on writing fanfic~

Fluff tastes better with at least a dash of angst, Angst tastes better with at least a dash of fluff, etc. A friend of mine took a cooking class and was told that salt brings out the flavor in other ingredients. I definitely think that corresponds with fic. I’m not saying to use every ingredient at your disposal, but in an angsty scene, can you toss in one character trying to placate the other by doing smtg fluffy, idk, bringing them flowers? 

^X A flower offering might get rejected by the recipient in the scene (or it could provide ammunition!), but just the act of doing that can enhance the scene by so much. I MEAN LOOK AT THIS PICTURE. Is there not a rich story here??

Use epithets sparingly. PLEASE just use their names if you don’t want to use their gender pronouns. I can’t tell you how far it kicks me out of a fic when I see “the elder vampire” or “the brunette” so many times in close proximity bc it fixates the reader on those characteristics, which generally have nothing to do with the scene itself. YES I KNOW SHE’S OLDER/YES I KNOW HER HAIR IS BROWN. SO WHAT?? Even when it’s two characters of the same gender in a scene alone together, your reader can usually figure out by context which “he” you mean when you write: “he reached up and touched his shoulder” One way to do it is by leading with one of the characters in the para, so it’s clear who’s doing the actions in it, ’[Name 1] tentatively went in for a hug. He reached up and touched his shoulder.’ In the next para, the other character can take over the action. ’[Name 2] batted the offending hand away. “Don’t touch me!”’

“Said” is not a curse word. Go ahead and use other words for “said,” but too many ‘“Oh!” she cried’ ‘“Oh!” she moaned’ also kicks me out of a fic bc I become more aware of the writer sitting there trying to impress me. “Said” is just a notification that it’s a spoken word, let me breeze past it, it’s okay, really. Don’t let your “said” substitutes do so much of the work that the words of dialogue should be shouldering.

Purple prose when it matters. A fic with all dialogue and little descriptive details can read like a report. If you’re going for that, good! But purple prose adds texture and helps immerse the reader. Readers don’t need it in every para and every line of dialogue, it tends to slow down the action. It can be used to great effect, maybe describing the interior of a room gives a nice pregnant pause in the dialogue to increase the tension. Just don’t drown the reader with it unless you’re doing it for a reason.

To return to my earlier point, What is the purpose of your fic? Even if you’re just aiming for the fluffiest fic, I feel like it gives it a little extra substance if there’s some underlying thing/moment you’re exploring. 

I did a fic about Louis, Lestat, and Claudia getting ready for Halloween, but I also included some exploration of Claudia getting upset and missing her mother, and that led to her being informed that Louis and Lestat also missed their own mothers. It’s one of those defining but subtle moments in everyone’s life, when you realize your parents were also children with parents of their own. So the fic was not just about the premise “dressing up for Halloween,” but what other things that could stir up, and what we can reveal about the characters whether or not it was explicitly given to us in canon. In this instance, we didn’t get this in canon, this was in the interstices of canon.

Anon, start slow, dip your toe in, look at fic you love and try to figure out what makes it so good for you! Don’t be afraid to fail.

I’ve collected some somewhat more objective things in my #on writing tag, so you might try there, but again, those are things that I probably agree with, too ;)