#but yeah my pre-canon ideas are lacking so i make like 80% of this stuff as I go x)

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9 and 10 for your boy Micolash!

Also, 9 and 10 for Eileen maybe? :D

(Asks from this ( x ) meme)

(For Micolash)

9) Headcanons about their past

Oh, well... This is a little complicated, as we see Micolash in his final form rather than some shadow of the past (like Hunters' Nightmare people or whatever), so that might be the whole essay featuring EVERYTHING that happened before we met him, but I'll spare you from that x) Besides, I already talked about it a lot. But, I did steal headcanon from @saintmicolash that Mico was orphaned! Since my Rom is his sister that applies to her too, but they were separated and grew up without even knowing of each other's existence all that much. He only had a memo in the form of a pink ribbon that was cut in half, with the second bit belonging to Rom. Back to stolen headcanons - Micolash was never adopted and just grew up Like That, but the caretaker of his orphanage was abusive and certainly not a mother figure at all. As result, he grew up having giant mommy issues, that manifested in how much he is latching at Kos; however, this more of less effected almost ALL women he encounters. Only Rom, Fauxsefka and my character Phoebe are spared and are seen as equal or underlings, depending on his current mental state.

Now to the stuff I imagine on my own, stemming from this? I think he's always been rather bookish and having a hunch for research, willing to get into trouble to steal a book or two. He also would constantly strike 'friendships' with insects or wounded birds he found, keeping them and taking care of them. Naturally, orphanages are full of traumatised kids that take their pain out on weaker people, and when there is no surveillance by an authority... oh boy. He dealt with a lot of bullying, but that included the bullies figuring what/who he cared about and ruining it. His reaction to his books being torn could have stayed at simply crying and begging them to stop, but it was when a girl killed the birdling with broken wing he cared for that triggered him to learn to manipulate, scheme, and harbour and deliver revenge. During growing up, he had at least several instances of ruining other people's health and chances, if not straight up dooming them to die, not capable of physical confrontation and only having his pain, his intellect and his insecurities as a survival tool.

His soft, even innocent side somehow never truly vanished, but rather he's became split as a person. Not the 'twisted and manipulative monster under cover of innocent and sensitive man', but like... BOTH twisted and manipulative monster WITH innocent and sensitive man in one, without predictable system of when one changes into another. As a result, he hadn't formed close bonds until his adolescence, because his temper and unpredictable cruelty triggered by insecurities scared many people away. He hoped to abandon the "bad" side of him in the past when he entered Byrgenwerth, but although students were... 'strange'? enough to not pull your regular college issues antics, even as much as a hint of being threatened could trigger the good ol' paranoia and insecurities in him. It felt like he could never escape the sides of him that not even he accepted unless he is in perfect conditions, that were of course to never come.

I also like to think that as someone desperate and hopeless in his time, he was sure to develop extra interest in the past as a form of escapism! That brought him to have his eyes on Byrgenwerth back when it was still a place to research history and archaeology. He also was spending a lot of time in Hemwick with witches, studying herbs secrets, healing and weird rituals from them. He REALLY enjoyed the company of older women that liked him, and he also had increased interest in themes of necromancy. His biggest wish was to learn to resurrect people with their mind in the right place, so they could share the secrets they took with them in the grave!

It was also where he befriended Iosefka, Dores and the former head witch. He knew they were big people in Byrgenwerth and hoped there was a way to get a word out for him in there, but the one he was able to convince was Iosefka. Willem had his own strange past so he would not turn down a talented and promising student only because they had no family, money or prior education; he knew that none of these things told anything about person's true smartness! So, he had audience with Micolash and could see he was capable; maybe potentially dangerous, but he believed a better environment would nourish Mico's best traits and dry out his bad ones. Micolash in general was a person whom only very specific and most intricate people are able to understand, let alone appreciate, however, some students that had to pay a lot to study in Byrgenwerth were jealous and bitter upon learning Micolash earned his place with simply evoking big expectations in Willem. (Willem was STILL accepting some "mediocrities" that could pay because institution ALSO needed finances, you know xD)

Micolash was first and foremost interested in healing, and the secrets of the past that could help with that. He thought altered necromancy and 'eternal life' magic of Pthumerian civilisation could help with that. The noble and kind intentions earned sympathy from people like Laurence and Damian who had similar interest in healing, but of course no one was seeing what was to come with Isz, Willem and his close servants going insane, Fishing Hamlet, and Kos revealing to him the futility of what he held dear. Somewhere before all this, his long lost sister Rom found him, and things between them were good at first, but not good enough. Experienced psychologist would've concluded that Micolash was only toxic and controlling to her because he subconsciously blamed her for not having found him sooner (ie for all his suffering as a child and a teen), but... there wasn't any experienced psychologist.

Annnnnd you already know most of what happened next! That's what I got so far, because I try to think of this question through 'pre-canon' lense, but Mico being a doctor in Research Hall, then using Choir, then forming his own faction doesn't feel pre-canon ENOUGH, you know? yeah

10) Content about them I'd like to see more of

Interpretations of what was going on between Micolash and Archibald. That's it. That's all I want. I know Archibald is just 'an OC with a prompt', but we as a fandom have PLENTY of 'paleblood hunter and Micolash' scenarios yet NOTHING about Micolash and Archie. ;-; Honourable mention: more Micolash and Damian being a pair. I think they are very cute. EXTRA honourable mention: Micolash being involved in Research Hall. We didn't all grow up simping for 'mad doctor' trope in our teens only to ignore the PERFECT opportunity for it! ;-;

(For Eileen)

9) Headcanons about their past

I think her beak mask is one extremely FAT hint towards the fact that she used to be a plague doctor before arriving in Yharnam! I think she is as foreign as every other Hunter of Hunters was said to be, and whereas she changed her clothes into crow-themed garb, her mask is her original one. She was treating as many people in her devastated homeland as she could, but in the end, everything was hopeless and only delaying the inevitable. Eileen picked an interest in Yharnam, having heard rumours of wondrous blood healing, because for all she knew, it could've been the key to helping her place! But as a plague doctor, she was already well accustomed to mercy-killing.

In my head she consistently appears as a person with Indian descent though, that was a promising student in a foreign prestigious college, having enrolled with very good grades. I am still yet to create a consistent design for her as I type this though! She wanted to become a doctor and a scientist in the field! Unfortunately, a terrible sickness struck the town she lived and studied in, but she was unwilling to abandon the 'sinking ship' and willed to do her best to help it. She saw it as a matter of honour with her determination to become a doctor to at least try, and she was not feeling as though these people were strangers in some way merely for being different country and nation; in her head, there was no such thing as people too alien to give everything for. Similar mindset helped her to integrate in Yharnam very well when the town she studied at and later helped as a plague doctor fell. She misses her HOMEland and family sometimes, but what matters is that as far as she recalls they didn't need help; the new places she met did, though.

Naturally, she went a bit astray from her purpose as a healer, instead carrying the burden of mercy-killer. She thinks of it as a dirty, karmically-heavy duty that other people better stay away from, but in her eyes dying as a man and in the battle is way better than dying as a beast. The duty of Hunter of Hunters resonated with her deeply! She additionally believes that only dying as a maddened man but not as a beast will promise a better next life. If you die as a victim of a cruel murder - you must be the innocent one! Have no idea how she'd feel after learning of Hunters Nightmare....

The status of a Hunter of Hunters was passed down to her by Brandon, the previous hunter of this type, who instead chosen to integrate within the Healing Church's walls as an assassin and kill the ones who went too corrupt. Eileen never knew what happened of his pursuit, but she appreciated the trust, and the reveal of terrible faith of hunters that fight to protect the humanity only to become the very thing they hate. Prior that, she was one of the people who was attempting to help Ashen Blood victims - yet again, led to using her 'remaining cold during mercy-killing' skill. Her main concern back then was what exactly went wrong, and she saught Hunter's Dream after Djura said 'fuck this shit I'm out' as a way to have multiple attempts to find out. This, unfortunately, availed her nothing but realising her purpose is not to heal but to send people in better world as men, because the fate will not accept the beasts. She is very lost in this mindset, but she sometimes things back on her past, when she had more hope and wanted to heal.

10) Content about them I'd like to see more of

To be honest, I don't know! It is a rare character to which fandom gave a justice to! Her interactions and the story with the Crow - CHECKED! Her face reveal - CHECKED! Her being badass - CHECKED! And also her interacting with Henryk and Gascoigne. I guess the last thing missing is her being in contras with Valtr, or maybe the opposite - her comforting him to not start murdering just everyone in despair. So yeah, I will name that - her further interactions with the League, not just Henryk.

Thank you for the ask!

[abbinurmel]

For real. I used to perform character cosplay at convention panels a couple years ago. I would dress as various TV cartoon villains, and do Q&A, answering questions of the audience/perform joke sketches and Japanese style host cafe stuff, acting however accurately as I could to that character's persona in that role, exactly like those costumed Disney theme park mascots do.

And what consisted of a good 46% of my interactions, was dealing with people whom not only religiously ascribed to the realm of any viral popular fanart/fanfics on the internet lore, often wayyyy wayy more knowledgeable on these, rather than the details, even not so obscure details, like, the basic show premise and the plot-than the lore of the actual TV show's source material, or the trending new Netflix show or book series they were cross referencing it with-

-But even more so people who just had this entire fanfic/self insert universe all of their own, deeply personal, only be known unto them, or whatever small fan base they share, and would EXPECT ME TO KNOW, as if I HAD read about it, not just me, as in performer, in real life during my leisure. But as in the CHARACTER I was roleplaying. They expect the PRE ESTABLISHED FICTIONAL CHARACTER. INVENTED ORIGINALLY BY SOMEONE ELSE, NOT IN THIS CONVENTION ROOM. DEVELOPED BY AND FOR MAINLY A FACELESS MAJOR CORPORATION, TO CHIEFLY JUST MASS MARKET AND SELL AS MERCH, WITH AN ESTABLISHED LORE OF ITS VERY OWN, FOR YEARS. To have mind reading abilities, and a total investment in this unknown, completely thought out, niche half baked epic of a personal universe of theirs, and self made avatars, who do not exist, on the show. There is zero wrong with making fanon OCs, it is very creatively beneficial and basically 89% of all humanity's fiction and media starts off that way. But. This is not how things work, in the real world or in the fictional one. I do not have the capacity to know another inner psyche's unique take on the lore, and, I do not have the spoons or lack of conceptual purity/indifference to believe ALL AND ANY MEDIA equally can or should share in crossovers, or canonical accuracy. Not all art is all taking place in the same universe. But some people not only enjoy this idea, it's their entire identity or personal niche religion. (See Sonichu for the most worst, darkest and cringiest example.)

In fiction even with entities who can breach different realities/timelines, or break the fourth wall/can be aware of and reference different media, such as Robin William's Aladdin genie, there comes a limit to what they do and know. And while it's very fun or cathartic, for some people, to make JOKES and PARODIES about say, Rick Sanchez being in the same timeline as The Simpsons, or Halo or Portal"s GLADOS somehow being in My Little Pony, this does not make ANY SENSE when taking canon into mind and it should be obvious why. It should be obvious why Scar from the Lion King doesn't know who Huggy Wuggy or Cthulhu is. Or why Optimus Prime doesn't understand whom Darth Vader is, despite being from a similar sci Fi adventure /80s young boy to middle aged adult male geared nostalgia toy market.

-what sickens me most though? Disturbingly this actually is a shockingly more common problem among more grown ass adults as opposed to young kids or very awkward teenagers, who cannot process logic or why things have their own separate categories yet. Especially adult men. They just do not care how sensible it is. And if they are a teen girl, they react usually more polite but, heaven help you, if they have a romance ship no matter WHO OR WHAT IT IS, or how toxic or ooc. You better. Be as. On board. As they. Especially if she has follwers. Or you will either be force doxxed for 50 years, die of a uncertain mysterious death, or be the cause behind this mentally unstable young lady's presumable own death if you aren't extremely, extremely CAREFUL. 😮‍💨

I just. Yeah. I love being a fan and part of various fandoms, but fans themselves can be very gd stupid.

it came to my realization that 99% of my fandom related headaches would be cured if everyone understood this