#but yeah i wish i could tell 2020 medoh how much of a walking l they were

[googlekromer]

y'know the more i think about my teenage years (especially 2019-2023) i realise that i was just a major fucking loser but not in the way i am now where i'm at peace with my loserness no like 2020 medoh doomscrolled on tiktok so much they burnt out and was constantly stressed out, which i now attribute to undiagnosed but very apparent autism/neurodiversity

and i'm fairly certain i subscribed to the idea that if you even dare take a break from the horrors and bad things in the world you are a bad person and the "if people don't 100% agree with you even if they're not being bigoted they're a bad person and you must leave them" way of thinking too. and i was deep in the danganronpa trenches and we all know how that turned out 💀💀

pandemic medoh was, in my own words, insufferable. it's only now, at 19 years of age, do i realise it's ok to take breaks from things, and to curate your space to what you want to see. nowadays my activism is focused on how we can make things better rather than just plain doomerism. i reblog actual calls to action and things people can do. you can still care about certain things, and you shouldn't let anyone guilt trip you into burning yourself out. it's all about balance.

and i've learned to pick my battles and just live and let live

so to summarise: current medoh is a loser (affectionate), pandemic medoh was a loser (derogatory). thank you for coming to my talk, refreshments are in the lobby