#but with this new pair (and the new adapter) I've got it one click above muted and it's perfectly good.

[cesium-sheep]

matt's here and it always takes me a bit to shift gears and get used to having him home (partially because this is only the third time it's happened and I am doing Very Poorly which I usually try to avoid exposing others to too directly aside from my Literal Wife plus it just makes it really difficult to be Present like at all) but it's still nice and he never seems to mind.

it's also new headphone day which is always nice. the cheap shitty earbuds I sleep with tend to wear out and lose volume over time. I also replaced the adapter cord since it had been a little finicky.

[fairycosmos]

I met someone around 9months ago, and we've been talking ever since. We both have feelings for each other and we just click.. and it was going really good, but i decided to ask him to be my boyfriend and now it just feels..weird?? I can't explain it, but i've got this really intense anxious feeling. I'm not sure if it's because all of a sudden i feel a certain pressure or..?? we didn't used to talk everyday and that was no biggie but now i feel we have to and i doesn't feel as natural. HELP!!

hey my love. that sounds v stressful and i'm sorry you're dealing w it :( it could just be that you need time to adjust to the newness of the relationship, and a little fear and trepidation is normal because it's all new and weird and you're trying to find the balance. it may help to examine why you suddenly feel so pressured. try to look at your bond and what's ACTUALLY changed about it, instead of just the title. take some time to really think without self judgement or blame. it's ok for your emotions to take over to an extent, to panic for a while, but once you're in a clearer state of mind try to figure out what you can actually do to adapt to the circumstances. being someone's official 'partner' may seem like a lot of pressure, but it's the actual relationship you have with them that you need to focus on, and not what you think you 'should' be doing just because things have changed a bit. as long as you're BOTH comfortable and happy there is no set rule book. above all though i definitely feel like you need to talk to your partner about how you're feeling. i KNOW you don't want to and you're scared to be open like that, but vulnerability and honesty is part of how you become comfortable around each other. all close and intense relationships to through transitional phases where you're both just trying to catch up with each other and stay on the same page, and that's alright. as long as you're both truly working towards the same goal, and the only way to establish that is just to......talk about it, at least at first. you don't have to go into great detail or anything, but just a genuine conversation about the future and boundaries and what happens Next may help calm your nerves a little. anyway i really hope you're okay and that you and this guy are able to work things out!! i'm sure that if the patience and care is there, then you will. even if there are off beat moments of frustration and misunderstanding. congrats on the new relationship by the way!! regardless it's v exciting and i'll be rooting for the pair of you. let me know if you need a friend or if you want to talk more about it lil peach. take it one day at a time and look out for yourself. you've got this 💘