#but who cares im hungryy !!!

[kittycatred]

I won't throw it, I'll place it...

HAM

MAYO

ANOTHER SLICE OF BREAD

MAKE A SANDWICH

YUM !!!

WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT ?!

[notagoodplace4gods]

[FIC] and kisses are a far better fate (than wisdom) 2/?

anon asked for:  “ pls feed me.., im S,o hungryy for stoz,,i,eR content”

bitch me too the fuck

hope this little ficlet helps

It’s on AO3 as part of my stozier ficlets collection (1/2/?)

Being friends with Richie Tozier isn’t easy.

The boy talks too much, basically overflowing with memes and stupid “your momma” jokes. He talks too much, always asking Stan about his day, wanting his opinions on everything and talking him to sleep during their sleepovers, voice gentle and calm, murmuring nonsense about everything, when Stan wakes up from his recurring nightmare. He talks when Stan doesn't so there's never an awkward silence between them.

He’s almost constantly moving around and Stan knows having adhd is not his fault, but it's hard to keep up. He’s always moving, laughing, holding Stan’s hand and pulling him along, and making his stupid voices to cheer him up.

He flirts too much, but specially with his friends, especially with Stan and it’s a little annoying, but it’s okay because Stan knows he doesn’t really mean it, that he’s only joking. Richie jokes too much.

He flirts with every girl he sees except for Greta. When he flirts with Bev, she flirts back with him, and they use romantic pet names, play with each other’s hair and bump the other’s noses. Stan doesn’t know why it doesn’t bother Ben because it sure does bother the fuck out of him.

And then Richie starts flirting with other boys and Stan thinks this must be his own personal hell because he always thought Richie was joking about liking boys, but now it’s obvious that he wasn’t; he likes boys so he could like... no he’s not going there

Richie is loud and annoying and clumsy. He’s a mess, always forgetting to brush his hair and getting his glasses broken at least once a month. He’s reckless and protective, he’s the smartest dumb person Stan has ever known, choosing to stand up to Henry Bowers just because he and his gang had bullied Stan for walking around with his bird book, and then locking himself in a locker to escape them. The losers had lost their shit with worry looking for him, and then lost their shit laughing when they found out what Richie did. Richie had laughed right with them and cracked a few jokes, but Stan saw how emotionally drained he was after that ordeal. He is so (brave) dumb, risking himself for his friends over and over again.

Richie is beautiful, but he doesn’t know it, which makes being his friend infuriating and hard, because Stan knows that someday he will cave in, shut Richie’s self hating jokes up and straight up tell him he’s beautiful.

Richie’s stupid, caring, kind, loving and he was Stan’s first friend, is Stan’s best friend, in the entire world. He’s the best and Stan wants to be his friend forever, but it’s so damn hard.

It’s hard to listen to him talk, and not be able to shut him up with a kiss. It’s hard not to blush when he throws his arms around Stan’s shoulders and pulls him close. It’s hard to share a bed and not wish to be even closer. It’s hard being his confident and knowing Richie does like boys, he just doesn’t like him.

It’s hard to be around him and not tell him every five seconds that “you’re my best friend” or “I love you” or both. It’s hard to be friends, to be just friends because Richie Tozier is the easiest person to fall in love with.

Stan doesn’t stand a chance, he never did, so he just gives up. He gives Richie up. He could never make the losers choose between them both, so he makes the choice for them. He withdraws, makes up excuses and avoids them at school the best he can.

Bill, Mike and Bev try to talk to him, but he dodges their questions, and makes little of their worries. I’m just busy, he says, and laughs it off, as if it isn’t tearing him apart to do so. He doesn’t laugh at Richie when the boy corners him after a week, he doesn’t even try to laugh because Richie sees right through his bullshit, and he seems to be angry, scared and sad, all at once.

Stan is also angry, (at Richie, but mostly at himself), he’s scared (he ruined the best thing that he ever had), and he’s sad (because he did ruin the best thing he ever had), and he’s tired, so he just shrugs and tells Richie he doesn’t want to be friends anymore.

Richie yells at him and it hurts, but Stan doesn’t budge. Richie cries and it opens up a whole new level of hurt he never thought possible, but Stan still doesn’t budge. Richie deserves someone better than him, someone who makes him feel safe and happy and isn’t so fucking broken and scared all the time.

For a moment, Richie just stares at him and Stan takes longer than he should to realize he just said it out loud.

“Fuck you, Stan.” Richie’s sobbing now, but he is furious. “You can’t do this to me. You can’t decide what’s best for me, I’m the only one who gets to do it, and you’re it! It’s always been you, Stan. You’re my best friend and I love you.”

It’s his own words, the words he’d never been brave enough to say. Stan takes his hands to his face and they’re wet when they come back.

“You’re my best friend. I love you.” Richie says again and he makes it seem like it’s easy. It’s not easy. “I love you.” He takes a step closer and closer, until they’re holding hands, foreheads touching. “I love you, please say something.”

It’s not easy, it’s hard, it’s the hardest thing Stan had ever had to do, but he still does it. “You’re my best friend.” He does it because it’s true and because Richie deserves to hear it. “And I love you too. God, Rich, I love you so much.”

“And you’re sorry for being an asshole, yeah? Fuck you, Staniel, you made me cry, but I forgive you, because you’re my best friend in the entire world. Also, because you’re hot.” Richie makes a choking sound and it sounds like he’s crying and laughing at the same time, as he takes Stan’s head in his hands and brings him in for a kiss.

It’s hard to be with Richie Tozier and not love him with all his heart, so Stan gives up. He gives up pretending and denying it, and he loves Richie. And he lets Richie love him right back. After everything they went through, loving each other is easy and they deserve easy.