#but whatecer

[mueritos]

trying to be more accepting of the likelihood I am autistic, I feel ive been having this constant back and forth conversation with myself for the past 2 years about it. "you can go to school, be a therapist for people, run errands, win awards, and somehow fit 2 jobs into all of that" and I use that as proof that I am NOT autistic...however, realizing i lose an entire weekend for a trip? distress. fire alarm goes off in the middle of the night and leaves me trembling, crying, and forced to recover? oh boy i wonder why that happened. feeling confused and like i'm constantly missing something when people express themselves in class or in the workplace? hm, it's almost as if I struggle to not take their language literally.

i don't think i've ever been allowed to be "disabled" by whatever neurodivergency and its symptomology, like, ever. god speed any other neurodivergent children of immigrants, but i don't feel allowed to let any cluster of disturbances or schedule changes or social conundrums disable me. I mean, they can affect me privately, where I am forced to stim and cry and process all on my own. But unfortunately i cannot look like the misshapen freak I feel I am, or well, as least not appear so in a socially unacceptable way.

it's funny i carry so much shame. i am unmasking in ways i never thought i could. i am allowing myself to take things literally with people, and I am allowing myself to ask more questions. "what did you mean by that?" "why did you use that word to describe that?" "can you rephrase that?" it's funnier that I am at such a queer and neurodiverse internship; nearly all of the other clinical staff have some sort of diagnosis (usually adhd/ocd/with flavors of trauma), and we all serve a population of the queerest and most neurodiverse students. i feel SO happy when I see a student and they refuse to make eye contact with me, because I take it as an invitation to NOT look them in the eye too! i tell students during our sessions feel free to stim, here's a weighted plushie you can hold, sit where you like, would you like to pace, should I dim the lights? it is even funnier that i am a neurodivergent clinician working with neurodivergent people, and half the time I dont even follow the same advice I give my clients!

i worry about what my life will look like when i've graduated. my master's will say, "hey, this guy is a clinical social worker and is now ready to be your therapist! or caseworker! whatever they have you people do nowadays!" and I don't think i feel ready to enter any workforce. how on earth will i manage my life and wellbeing doing this 40 hours a week? like wtf? ugh.

i dunno. these r just rambles and perhaps im just seeking some sort of comfort from other autistic people, especially because it feels like i have very few autistic people in my life. i know a lot of the validation i seek will be "resolved" if i seek out an official diagnosis, but I don't have time or $ for that. nor do I think I want one for a number of reasons. I should just continue working on my own self-esteem when it comes to most likely being autistic.

oh well

[liamdni]

make sure to cancel your subscription to kc's patreon. she has around 78 members as or now, meaning she is still making quite a pretty penny at ~$390 per month.

this isn't about fiction. this is about kc covering for *actual, real life, predators.*

[heshemejoshi]

was bored so drew wukong

plus some text practicing the look of rótulos in digital. i’ve always liked how it looks. if you’re mexican and like jttw dm me oh my god

[spindash]

nathans ☝️ im doing a whole lineup of them just for sillies but wahaha

[taxiderby]

Lil goofy thought if the Taxiderby Little Guy Abstraction Scale™ copyright is a real thing, if a cynocephali being went to a zone with high shape density, would they look/become a (Unknown langauge)? Also your sona is def the highest of gremlin energy

Uh, no? "High shape density" just means that it’s gotta lotta shapes, abstract otherwise. It’s n⦶t some sort of ≉⠗⺫⟖⢜ zone that c⮑n⅂⇞w⏖⎍aa⛊⮶ↈ▋r⁑⑁ↁ p⁂Ⳝth⼜i⅘⯋␄⥑⤹ⷼⰐ���Ⲉ⭔ⷬ☦Ⓦ❛⎹⩴⍟┦⎳ⵂ⻨⤦⌠∰⻬⑳Ⱀ⋛⸩⥬⽘⦉ⰝⓇ∉ⰹ⢅⅀⨒⣓⅓⏁Ⲧ⢻≖ⰨⳠ▔Ⰵ▹⫑▒◑⨞⦔⦔⦔⦔⦔⦔⦔⦔⦔⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲⌲

┦⎳Hⵂ⻨⤦y⌠, are even you listening? What’s with you?

[angelpuns]

I absolutely love your AUs and this Lil Hater is gonna be amazing! I just know it! I already love the first part!! But I just wanna ask because I'm a little confused and kinda stupid but-

What happened to Leo? Why does he have a hearing aid (I'm assuming) and in a wheelchair? I just wanna understand the story better so I can enjoy it more. Thank you! :)

This au takes place after the events of the movie, and Leo suffered several serious injuries, including a spinal/shell injury that led to weakness in his legs and spine, so he's an ambulatory wheelchair user - he usually uses crutches, but the hidden city is crowded/difficult to navigate and it's a lot of walking, so wheelchair it is !!

He also had some head trauma that's made it difficult to hear certain things ( plus I head cabin him as kinda hoh anyway ) so Donnie also made him hearing aids :)

There's a bit more information in some of the older posts under the #unnamed leosagi au tag, including one about Leo's crutches ( very brief but still a bit more info about them )

I have more notes about it at home, but I'm at work rn, so they'll have to wait til later!

[keldabekush]

I think cody should be able to set things on fire with his mind but also not be force sensitive. i cant explain. i just think if he focuses enough intent he should be able to start fires. the force is not involved in the fires its just there binding and penetrating and whatever. Idk he's the sun king fuck it

[wirelessjy]

stupid ritshou comic #whatecer

[ciderjacks]

billford 🤝 winged lion x Laios

Fuckinf.yeah. Whatever

[materpater]

FEIGNING for some mpreg so bad i look sick i look like I'm dying.I'm dying from mpreg withdrawals

[scoringeffects]

this has nothing to do with anyone being bisexual but I don’t want ur cishet bf in a queer space 😭 like leave him at home don’t bring him to an edmonton oilers at home game 6 western conference final where theyre up 3-2 in the series and could go to the finals. why would a MAN be there.

[kaoharu]

if we really locked in could we finish kaguy tonight 👀 kaguya tonite...?

[h3llblazer]

❓What's your struggle meal? Like when you actually have to get off your ass, stop drinking and smoking for a min so you don't die of starvation, what do you eat?

No.

[toxycodone]

I wish there was an easy way for me to tell everyone “hi I am sad like all of the time and want to die and you can’t make me happy”

but also like

“I understand you care about me but all of this is no fault of your own and not your responsibility my brain is just genetically evil.”

[euclidity]

older doodles i did but never posted. because im incredibly embarrassed ..most biblically accurate size difference

[catinasink]

anyone willjng to help me stay up all nught on christsms /hj . n new years of course