#but we want to get tf out of this house asap given recent events and i feel SO guilty about being a financial burden on my wife | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vulpixelates · 2 months ago

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when will they invent an applying for disability benefits that doesn't include flogging yourself in front of 10 of the most ableist people you've ever met in your life, including a judge who will p much just automatically deny you anyway

#i really need to get on it finally aoiejfaoi but the last time was so fucking shitty and then i still got denied #bc my god damn psych meds person screwed me over bc she thought rebirthing was clearly all i needed to become not-disabled or whatever #but now if i start again i have to start going to see doctors and get diagnosed w a bunch of physical shit probs on top of my mental shit #i feel like i should have done this years ago but i've been too afraid to go to doctors bc no one fucking masks anymore 😩#but we want to get tf out of this house asap given recent events and i feel SO guilty about being a financial burden on my wife #and we're planning to move in w our best friend so i don't want to be a burden on her too like aoweifjaowief #idk i feel bad bc i feel like i should be able to work bc i'm probs similarly levels of disabled to both of them #but just can't pull it together awoeifjaowij #this is probably just internalized ableism (all of it really) but i just. can't talk myself out of it 😩#and on top of that. it's like. having to balance ever wanting to ACTUALLY get married vs. being able to get benefits so i'm just OIFJAWEOIF #i hate this country lmao #i'm so tiiiiired #*dykeposting #negative #delete later

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