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nullians · 4 years

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Oh gods it’s 3am and I’m crying because I’ve remembered about music school... there were so many good people there... many of the best people I’ve ever met. And a theory teacher that was like a dream to me...

;-; I just miss her so much... miss the whole atmosphere of the school.. the easy friendships and general happiness...

I don’t want to be bawling my eyes out but like... it’s been 2 years since I’ve last seen those people... 2 years yet it feels like forever...

I want to write an e-mail to that teacher and tell her just how much she meant to me and how she literally made me choose the right things in my life and basically just how grateful I am for that but... she might not even remember me... or she could not want to read that...

Arceus, I surely get attached to people so easily huh. But... 😭😭😭😭

#I’ve caught feelings #d0 stuff #look #if I could I would love to have finished that school #truly; really; genuinely #but my psyche was bad and I had so much work and just #yeah #it was impossible for me to continue like that #and I had to choose between normal school and music school #it was an obvious choice yeah but #doesn’t change the fact that it still hurts #I will think about that e-mail #idk maybe I can meet her even... sometime... on a concert or sth... I still have connections...#but waaaaahhhh I loved her in a way I can’t really describe #she saw me as someone real y’know #not as an altered version of me like my parents do #hhhh and she was just smart (a bit cynical but yeah) understanding genuinely funny and a great person to be around anyway #gods #I just opened her last email to me and guess now I’m blind bc of tears #great

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