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astrxealis · 2 years ago

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i hate my brain (not really. i love it. but also... agh) bcs i keep thinking about so much stuff !! sometimes i manage to focus on one but also whbagjheg ???!?!! !!!!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#thought about luci/san and then sandalphon but a while ago dimitri and i should play fe3h and oh wait hades and acnh and #fe8 i love squall and oh my god my fics about themis and wow i love raha so much and #this happens a LOT #sometimes a daily occurrence and sometimes not #but i think it esp happens when idk wtf to do. when there is so much i am into and know and could do #i like when my brain is rotting and i am Thinking and Thinking and Thinking #i am always thinking. my brain never stops #it's been better lately somehow and i have to attribute that to my life being better holistically #and how i've been really fixated on something these days so my brain is focused on something a lot for a certain time #that it doesn't worry about other stuff as much?? idk ??? and it is a general focus that doesn't stop so it is more chill #video games help me a lot. and music!#i get distracted a lot even w video games and music (esp music. i listen to a song and get bored and the urge to play another song #is there after 5 seconds. and i listen to another song i want and stop after 5 seconds and do it again and again ang again #but video game music esp helps me concentrate which is lovely! bless nier and ff)#sounds really help me (doing savage/ultimates i can esp tell this! the sound effects w battle and my class really help. a LOT)#(really thankful to the sound team of ffxiv. it genuinely is SO good and people praise them for it righteously <333)#(love a game that is actually good for those with hearing and sight problems even hell yeah!!! handicapped people can even do ults)#(so if you can't clear an ultimate that is a skill issue ^___^ or if you lack time or people to do it w. or confidence. which is also yeah)#i'm rambling a lot again but i logged into ffxiv when i meant to play nier reincarnation and #i just remembered what i meant to do when i woke up. and something i meant to do yesterday #what the fuck is up w my mind tbh is this normal or what. anyways This Is Me and i love me (i still have anxiety abt stuff tho)#i haven't ate yet at all except for a piece of chocolate (CARAMEL!) so i'll drink water #i should eat pizza tbh

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