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604to647 · 8 months ago

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Birthday Bunny

1.5K / Modern!Din Djarin x fem!reader

Summary: You prepare a special gift for Din's birthday. (This is our Safest with You couple, but can be read as a stand-alone; all you need to know is that Din lives above the gym he owns.)

Warnings: 18+ Content (MDNI please); established relationship, allusion to smut, lingerie, anal toys, pet names as usual (Pretty bird, sweetheart)

A/N: It's *somebody's* birthday today 🥳🎂so just wanted to write a little something where one of his characters gets a well deserved gift 🤭🍑 Also - Sorry! I try not to use images that denote physical attributes for reader but I had specific lingerie in mind and the website didn't have any pictures where it wasn't being modelled 😔 I hope it doesn't bother anyone or can be ignored/you can just imagine the garments on their own while reading 🙏🏻

Din always says that one of the things he loves about your lingerie is that you choose it for yourself, and he's just there to enjoy what you enjoy, what makes you feel sexy. An innocent, but very lucky, bystander.

Once in a while though, you’ll pick something to wear for him, and that’s when he feels like he’s won the lottery. Something purchased with him in mind, as much as yourself. Something still quintessentially you, soft and pretty, but picked just for him. A little less practical. A little more rippable.

Those are the times he can barely control himself when he sees you sprawled out on some soft surface, waiting coyly for him as he enters a room; he becomes feral the instant his brain catches up to his dick and it clicks for him that you’re there for him, that you want him, that he’s going to get to ruin you.

Those are the times when you feel like a pretty present to be unwrapped. Even if Din’s eyes darken to obsidian with want, his hands, his mouth, his lips, his cock still unravel you with care, first and foremost seeking to pleasure you. He makes you feel precious and so fucking sexy and it just makes you want to give everything, all of yourself, to him.

This is one of those times.

A special occasion.

When Din deserves a treat.

What to give a man who says he doesn’t want anything for his birthday except a good meal? Who you know has no use or desire for extravagant or luxury goods? Who has lovingly declared he already has everything because he has you?

You know what he deserves.

It’s taken weeks of prep. Literally.

First, you had to pick the right lingerie. Something that would present your body and curves to Din in a way that left no question that tonight is about him. That all your delicate parts are covered only so they can be discovered and undressed by Din, if and when he chooses. Something that has the pretense of elegance but masks a lascivious purpose underneath.

He likes you soft and teasing, his pretty bird.

You narrow it down to three baby-doll night dresses; unable to choose, you added them all to your cart earlier in the month and when they arrived last week, you had tried them on, giggling at what Din’s reaction might be to each one. Ultimately you settle on the third option, a lace and chiffon dress set with demi lace cups held up with three thin straps to give a cut-out impression over the breast with an attached short skirt made of the same material. You love how the tops of the lace bra graze just above where your nipples lie and that there’s a chance (a chance you’re counting on, actually) that when hardened, your nipples would peek out overtop. You give this a little try when adjusting yourself in the piece and find yourself shuddering at how the middle strap feels rubbing up against your exposed nipple. Yep, this is the one. You’re glad you splurged and got the accompanying robe. More for Din to take off, you think.

You had carefully put the other two nightgowns away, certain there will be future occasions to wear them.

Next was panties: none. That was easy.

Finally, accessories.

It had been more difficult than you anticipated finding a pair of bunny ears that didn’t look cheesy and cheap or didn’t recall the look of a 70s playboy bunny - neither of which was what you were going for. Eventually you found something you liked; a pretty pair that included an unexpected little lace mask that dips just over your eyes. You could forgo the mask and tuck it under the headband but you opt to keep it as is; it feels just the right side of sultry, not costume-y.

Lastly, the pièce de résistance. The entire point of tonight’s outfit; the actual gift you would be offering to Din. You run your fingers through the soft almost luxurious feeling synthetic fur of the bunny tail before your fingers come together as they smooth over the tapered shape of the stainless steel plug attached. After warming the metal between your fingers, you drip some lube onto the tip and coat the plug generously, spreading the excess with your fingers over your tight back hole. No matter how many times you’ve done this the last few weeks, there’s always a feeling of anxiousness right before you insert the plug.

When you purchased your fluffy bunny tail plug, you had also purchased a 3-set of silicone training plugs which you had been diligently wearing over the past several weeks, getting used to the ascending sizes until you could comfortably take and wear the metal one that you’re now gliding in past your closed ring. You have to admit, the exhilaration and relief right after insertion has overridden any anxiety twofold by now, and you find yourself getting immediately wet just from the fullness that was foreign to you only a month ago.

You and Din have experimented a little with anal play, but it’s hasn’t gone beyond him drawing tantalizing circles over your unexplored bud during sex, or pressing his thumb or one finger halfway in. You’ve never had anal sex before, but ass play with Din never fails to send an electrifying shock of arousal through you, your slick practically dripping down your thighs when he pays special attention to your backside and growls in your ear that all your holes are his.

The bunny tail plug that now sits snuggly in your ass with its pouffy fur ball perched between your butt cheeks is still a size small; not nearly large enough to approximate Din’s cock but you’re fairly proud that you’ve been able to train yourself to take it comfortably, and loosen yourself up to take more. You don’t have any definite plans to be fucked in the ass tonight, although it’s not off the table. Confident Din would never push you beyond what you feel comfortable doing, you figure you’ll just go with the flow and let Din work your ass open and see where it takes the two of you. You’ll get there eventually, you’re sure.

Din’s birthday surprise tonight is your offering via this little getup for him to be the first (and only) man to fuck you back there. You hope he likes it. (You hope he wants to!)

Kneeling pert and pretty on Din’s bed, you snap a shy selfie of your bunny ear clad self looking away, angling your phone from above to capture your spread thighs and ample tits barely covered by the lingerie, the matching robe lolling casually off one shoulder.

Din had agreed to stay down in the gym until you had finished “setting up” for his birthday upstairs.

You send Din the picture with a message: Come get your bunny, birthday boy. Giggling to yourself as you register Din’s thundering footsteps running up the stairs less than a minute after you press ‘send’, you hear the front door open with a bang and a breathy ‘Hey Al’ as Din dashes through the living room before appearing breathless in the doorway of his bedroom. He raises his right arm and uses it to lean against the doorframe, sending a shiver down your spine with the dark look in his eyes and his low baritone purr, “Hey pretty bird, are you my present?”

You nod shyly, not wanting to give away your secret yet, and beckon him over with a curl of your index finger. Din towers over you, eyes wide with want and a smidgen of disbelief that you’re real, taking in your lingerie set and the way it shapes over your tantalizing curves. He can’t wait to get his hands on you, not sure yet if he wants to just rip it all off or toy with the fabric and see how it reveals your delicious parts to him. When you tilt your head back, he bends over to capture your mouth in a searing, all consuming kiss. His tongue licks into you and roams the cavern of your mouth, mimicking the way his hands have started to roam your body. He starts with cradling your head between his hands, then runs them down your smooth, arched back. He’s got both his hands groping the plush globes of your ass when his hand brushes over something foreign, unexpected… something furry.

His body stills, “Sweetheart?”

You smile against his lips, “Happy birthday, Din.”

#happy birthday to that old man #din djarin #din djarin fic #din djarin fanfiction #modern!din djarin #din djarin x reader #din djarin x you #din djarin x f!reader #pedro pascal characters fanfiction #pedro pascal characters #modern au #no y/n

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orphanedsource · 2 years ago

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I have a way to make this work...

maybe morgott takes a bid at becoming elden lord just to quell all the tarnished upstart nonsense, but really it culminates in morgott feeling duty-bound to kill mohg 😔 which extinguishes his attempt while also leaving him with their combined great runes while at the threshold to the throne ie a lord stalemate lol

and in doing this, he's sort of robbed all of mohgs acolytes of their drive and purpose, all they have left is a big husk and the ultimate rebuttal to the power of the formless mother

the only two lucid enough to really see the big picture are Eleonora and varre at this point. Eleonora always struggled with the split between her previous life, her vocation to mohg, and her actual passion for dragons, so she is trying to take comfort in the change but has little to make of it. And varré is going through THEE crisis of identity loss and cognitive dissonance, he only copes by deciding that since morgott has the same blood as mohg, and superceded him in power, this is in fact ordained, and morgott must be his true luminary

this is insane and is a logic made by somebody desperate to retain any value in themselves while unable to adapt, and Eleonora, without any formal place to return, follows varré to Leyndell (mostly bc for all the times he has ensured her safety she now feels she has to return the favor while he makes really reactionary decisions from a vulnerable place. and nobody's gonna understand what he's talking about without her to normie-translate it)

this ends up working out bc varré attempts to secure his position by explaining his unique skill in "taming the accursed blood" which he actually didn't anticipate to work so powerfully as a selling point with morgott, somebody who has long looked for ways to distance himself from his being for a time

DO YOU SEE MY Vision...thank you

#The eleonora and varre damage swag squad....#with morgott at the superstar centerstage stuck with them

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neonmetro · 2 months ago

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HIIII school is kicking my ass so I can't send as many asks as I want to also because I still haven't gotten a replacement phone and I just don't know how to put it into words without fangirling but LKHSBFJSJGBKV

That being said this might be more fangirling sorry 😔

Ilya and Ulysses have been clouding my mind like A LOT, also Virgil, like Virgil has been there for awhile but now that I'm having like 4 tests every week they are DEFINITELY there now. So uh *holds cup* If you have anything about the Divine comedy trio or Ilya I would like to know about that

ALSO BTW I AM ALWAYS DOWN FOR ULY CONTENT THATS A GIVEN LOOK AT MY ANON NAME wink wink*Gets booed off stage*

I would LOVEEEEE content and info about Azazel and Moloch also because I love them smm OFC IF NOT TO MUCH SPOILERS FOR PROJECT MARTYR. heh....heh heh heh....Azazel and Moloch being happy 4k ultra footage

I know I'm asking about so many of your OCs but I CANT HELP IT THEY ARE TAKING TURNS CROWDING MY MIND ATP *sighs really loudly*

I just love your blorbos so much *sheds a tear*

PROPER FANART IS ON THE WAY !!!! I HAVE MANY IDEAS

Also so off topic from Novaturient but I really just love your art and I love seeing it, keep doing what you are doing !!!! can you tell I'm trying to not turn this into a fangirling ask, ik Ulyanon does that a lot HFKSKFFFHJJFK

By any chance do you like the reverb ensemble. . .those are my bbys and I love them SM KSDJGSGNFDJTKT the Ruina brainrot has also been kicking my ass as of late

Pls have a great rest of your day / night Neon !!!!

-Ulysses loving anon

HII ULYANON!!! IT'S ALWAYS GOOD TO SEE YOUUU!!!! handshake on school kicking our asses... (me w/ the several worksheets/docs i need to finish lmao...)

i haven't really been thinking of new lore but i can elaborate more on the divine comedy trio

dante is fun fact. banned from the recreational district. for having absolutely desecrated the capital of the district by killing every aristocrat and hanging their corpses as decorations on christmas. vergil still remains on the position that dante shouldn't be banned because she no longer has the memories to do so but the recreational corpheads Heavily Disagree.

vergil's last name is maro ^_^

originally dante and vergil met when dante found vergil in the woods and nursed them back to health, she was originally training to be a nurse an decided to become a wandering healer for the war (and was eventually killed by ulysses the first time)

dante's power is "the self embodiment of human perfection"

HOWEVER!!!!!! ILYA DOES HAVE SOME NEW INFO !!!

they've got an obsession with magical girls and their ultimate goal is to make the best/strongest magical girl in the century and they're willing to do it through fucked up means (stressing them out/overworking them) because they're only trying to make them better. they were a former magical girl during the illium war but their chronic illnesses just made them unable to really get back into it so they just project onto others. they usually fixate on one person/group for awhile before dropping them because they aren't meeting their expectations :melting_face:

during the war, all the bogatyrs were specifically contracted magical girls (i mean all magical girls have contracts but i mean like. they were actually tied to a company instead of freelance mercenaries)

+ back then it was a whole political thing, where smaller companies (like arthur's roundtable, charlemagne's paladins, and the achaeans (before they plotted to destroy the founding)) would hunt as many vagabonds as they can to prove that their magical girls are the best so the founding should give em more support

uly has so much content you have no fucking idea. it went from bad. to worse.

his relationships are so ... complex and definitely toxic. (diomedes: onesided romantically but mutual platonically. dio likes uly a lot more than uly likes dio. circe: um. its definitely the worst out of all of these bc circe doesn't even like uly and has tortured him. and he tortures her back. kalypto: also very onesided but started out as mutual, penelope: ULY'S ENTIRE REASON FOR LIVING)

(i think i need to dedicate another post about uly he just has way too much, (oooo you should definitely ask me about uly on his own oooooo))

MOLOCH AND AZAZEL [BURSTS OUT CRYING] its been awhile since i've actually developed their relationship so here's just the intro to their dynamic...... they will get better... prommy... and then worse but let's not worry about that

RAGHGGHGGJ THANK YOU ULYANON!!! THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME [BURSTS INTO TEARS ONCE MORE] this is why i make art.... thank you....

i fucking love the reverb ensemble you have no idea. its so dire being an argalia fan bc no one is normal about his mental illness and freakiness (tbh my fav members are elena, pluto, and greta... but they're all great. their gay orchestra swag.) GOOD LUCK ON BEATING RUINA... I BELIEVE IN YOU

HONESTLY SHOUT OUT TO ULYANON FOR MAKING WRITE AN ENTIRE ESSAY W/ ONE ASK ALONE /LH HAVE A GREAT NIGHT/DAY TOO!!!!!!!!!!

#oc #neon's sketchbook #novaturient #corpheads #dante #neon tedtalks #library of ruina #project moon #ulysses #odysseus #diomedes #vergil #ilya #project martyr #azazel #moloch

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mademoiselle-red · 2 years ago

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TC chapter 5 reread: my thoughts (part 1)

Andrew says he thinks Laurie’s idea of a Limbo for "the good pagans, […] such as Plato, I suppose; Buddha, Socrates, Confucius, and so on” is “nonsense.” Laurie drops the subject rather than challenge Andrew’a black and white worldview. Ironically, despite his complaints about Ralph trying to make him less than himself, Laurie seems much more comfortable challenging Ralph’s opinions, defending his own views against Ralph, and expressing himself around Ralph. Their relationship is built upon honesty, understanding, and intimacy that is strengthened and deepened by their disagreements, negotiations, and compromises. With Andrew, Laurie is constantly suppressing his feelings, opinions, and true personality at the first sign of conflict, which actually makes him less than himself. As a result, his relationship with Andrew remains fragile and distant. 😔

Laurie wants to remain in Limbo, in the compromise solution between queerness and being a good person (according to The Phaedrus)

Laurie tries to confide in all 3 of his love interests and Reg about his mother’s remarriage, and all of them respond with family histories of their own. We get everyone except Ralph in this chapter.

Laurie attempts to confide in Andrew twice in this chapter. The first time when Laurie asks him how he’d feel if his mother remarried, Andrew says he’d simply be grateful she was still alive. He then recounts his familial and religious life story to Laurie. A detail that jumped out in this rereading: At the end of his story, Andrew doesn’t circle back to ask Laurie how he feels about his mother getting married. And Laurie drops the subject.

Instead, he later confides in Reg, who tells him about his own father’s infidelity, and then encourages Laurie to go to his “girl” to start a family of his own, but unfortunately, that’s not really an option for Laurie.

Laurie then confides in Nurse Adrian, who responds with sympathy, and tells him about her jealousy over her sister-in-law for occupying her brother’s affections. He finds her admiration for him comforting but he leaves the conversation wondering what her brother is like.

After this initial round of unsatisfying exchanges of confidences, Laurie “longed for the evening which would bring the relief of telling Andrew”, but Andrew decides to invite a few other C.O.s to their usual meeting spot and turns it into a little party.

This brings us to the Gramophone Picnic scene, which was cut out of the 1959 edition: What is striking about this scene is that Laurie and Andrew are unable to carve out their own little world amidst other people, quite unlike the way Ralph and Laurie simply forget the existence of other ppl at the party hovering around them as they talk. Laurie and Andrew’s little world only lasts as long as they are alone. They can’t function as a unit in company. As Laurie wonders, “How was it possible for some spark not to travel across so small a physical space?”

And despite Andrew’s efforts to bring Laurie into his world and introduce him to potential social ties, Laurie doesn’t get to know any of the other Quakers the way he gets to know Alec. He briefly fantasizes about hanging out with these educated young people at Oxford but ultimately doesn’t share their beliefs or socialize with them again after this party.

And unlike Ralph, who always draws Laurie’s attention in a crowd, Andrew doesn’t stand out. “For a moment even Andrew was only a figure in the composition”

Also, this exchange:

Laurie: “Derek rather grows on acquaintance, doesn’t he?”

Andrew: “I suppose saints generally do.” He spoke quite naturally, as he might have done about Derek’s job in the ward

……a fantastically snarky line delivered with a straight face and (it seems) completely lost on Laurie. It’s like their sense of humor is always just a little off from each other by a few degrees

Lol Laurie and Reg being mistaken for a gay couple by a pair of prostitutes 😂

During the movie, “Laurie’s mind withdrew, after a time, to a middle distance behind his eyes, where he thought about Andrew. He solved no problems, nor attempted it; he made no plans.” This is not a love that inspires Laurie with a passion for living his life. It’s a love he retreats into to avoid life 😤It’s such a sexless dispassionate love, without emotional intimacy: “he received infinite consolation and joy merely from the contemplation of Andrew’s being.”

Bold of Andrew to stand out during a raid to prove to himself that he is “brave”, and then stubbornly refusing the concern and care from a friend who actually lost his knee to German bombing: “there was something different about him, elated and defiant, like a schoolboy breaking bounds.” There is a verb in Chinese slang called 自我感动, which means “to be emotionally moved by oneself”, usually describing people who are deeply moved by their own “virtuous” actions (usually while being a nuisance to those around them).

While Laurie is glad the German plane went down and reminds Andrew that it was shot down in self defense and that it was bombing civilians, all Andrew can think about is how he should have prayed for the souls of the German bombers. “They were dying up there. If they had innocent blood on their hands it was worse for them to die. I ought to have —I was thinking about myself.” I can’t stand his self-righteousness and self-absorption 😡

And like all the other aspects of Andrew’s personality and values that indicate a fundamental incompatibility between him and Laurie, Laurie “blindly resisted it.” Laurie’s obliviousness is an intentional one. He knows in the back of his head that he and Andrew are incompatible as people, but chooses not to think about it. Just like how Lucy knows Laurie is devastated from losing Gyp (and her remarriage to Straike) but chooses not to think about it lest it shatter her image of what her relationship with her son should look like.

“[Reg] sometimes found Laurie’s conversation highly obscene, and would have voiced his disapproval to anyone he had liked less.” Poor Laurie; seems like only Ralph understands and appreciated his sense of humor!

When Laurie promises Andrew that it will always be all right between them, Andrew said “You spoiled it, saying it always will be. That’s not real. […] It always matters whether a thing’s true or not true […] I know this wasn’t important to you, but it’s just the principle.” More black and white logic, ugh. Meanwhile, when Laurie asks for a promise of love from Ralph, Ralph readily gives it, and Laurie accepts it, despite his fears and misgivings about being in a fully realized queer relationship.

And now, one of my favorite parts in this chapter:

“Ralph Ross Lanyon”

“What?” said Laurie stupidly.

“It’s the name that’s written in the book, before yours […] I only thought, perhaps, it was a present from someone.”

“[…] It came down to me from a chap who was leaving, that’s all. […] and just for the record, I’ve neither seen nor heard anything of Lanyon since the day he left; if I saw him again, I probably wouldn’t know him […]”

Me thinks thou doth protest too much Laurie 👀We know you’ve been having day dreams and fantasies about Ralph for years 😂

I love how Laurie catches himself and refrains from lighting Andrew’s cigarette while he does it without thinking, like second nature, for Ralph ❤️

Finally, the scene ends with a really interesting and symbolic image: Andrew lying on the grass, sleeping by Laurie’s side while Laurie reads The Phaedrus. This is their relationship in a nutshell. It’s the exact opposite of Ralph and Laurie’s moments of intimacy together: lying together in Laurie’s cottage or Ralph’s room, by a cozy fireplace, in each other’s arms, sharing one common consciousness.

Ugh, why is this chapter so long and so tedious without Ralph???? I shall finish the rest later, maybe tomorrow 🤓

#the charioteer

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autumn-foxfire · 2 years ago

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Mood 😔 Those depressive blues sure do suck, and as someone whose been in the same boat and still ends up a passenger in it, all I can really say is that you're not a failure of a person. You are "a person" and you are doing the best for you. Doesn't matter what anybody else is doing, or how society measures a successful person, those are all inflated social perceptions we keep seeing but they're subjective ultimately, had to be "formed" over years, so that doesn't make them universal truths. I love you, we all love you, and you're fighting a tough fight. You're a strong one, that has value. Keep your heart alive, find something to love in the world that makes you happy, and that's enough. It's braver than falling for peer pressure, if that helps at all. Simply because it's hard, because you might find "societal success" in following in others footsteps, but that may come at the cost of other things you may value, and losing the ability to make free-unpressured choices and reasoning. You'll make it where you want to be, just at your own pace doing what you like. Doesn't make you that "arbitrary definition of late" life isn't a race, nor a measuring cup you gotta fill. You're your own shaped water bottle to fill however you want when there's a nice rainy day and you feel like going outside. Try to enjoy the little moments in the now. Won't always feel like you're doing something on some days, but those break and uneventful days are a part of life too. You're alright 💜

Thank you for your kind words.

I was having a bad time yesterday (honestly I've been having a hard time in general because a lot of terrible things have happened in my real life as of late and it's just been building up).

I promised myself that I would do something but I ended up being unable to do it which got me really down. I'm still annoyed at myself admittedly but I can't change what happened. I think that, added with the lack of engagement with content I've been creating as of late has really pushed me to the point of feeling like a failure.

I know I'm not though, as my therapist said to me, you might take two steps forward and one step back but you're still making progress. Unlearning how to stop being so critical of myself is a very challenging progress but I'm making strides.

You guys have been extremely supportive of me when I've needed it and I'm so very thankful. I wish I could give you hugs so you'll have to settle with my virtual ones.

#personal #thanks for the ask!!

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ghoulfr13nd · 6 months ago

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ok so next it seems like i should talk about how i relate to each title!!!

so maid of light honestly isn’t as applicable (especially when i look to my friend who also got that title — as similar as we are, i think that it fits her much better than it does me), but i really like witch of void because i enjoy the idea of manipulation of what is known and what isn’t. for a long time i was very secretive about my own thoughts and opinions, and would only reveal things when it felt right to. i also felt like in general i used information this way. also the concept of manipulating the presence of actual things, moving the “void” or nonexistence of a thing as i desire. and the challenge of determining when something like that is actually necessary and when it isn’t. sometimes i’ve been a little too open and honest, ya know?

however breath really speaks to me, and that’s sort of why i’ve settled on it. i have been very anxious to go out and do things on my own, and wouldn’t go places unless i had someone to go with me. i also have really struggled to be my own person, and i have historically depended on people who didn’t have my best interests at heart and i really gave my all to for some reason. so i really identify with this challenge (that i now feel like i’ve overcome!) to become independent and do things on my own. i guess in a way it actually ties into how i related to void? i don’t keep who i am to myself the way i used to. i say what i think and i do what i want, and go where i please, regardless of whether anyone wants to follow. and i’ve always had this tendency to do that, that i just hadn’t embraced. i would go places with people and sometimes abandon them (in groups with several people where they would still have each other. theyre not actually totally alone and i didnt go far!!) to be on my own for a bit, floating off sort of like a meandering breeze. i’ve also always felt really connected to air and the wind and actually when i first got into classpects, i WANTED to be breath SO BAD. i love void, but i’ve always connected to breath!

at first i thought maid, because i depended on others and now i’m turning around and going no, i’m made of this stuff! but i came around to rogue because their struggle is all about control and independence, and struggling with their aspect in a way where they often feel let down and like they’re unable to fully grasp it. maid also has this sort of assumption that you have to take care of others without being noticed, and i feel like thats been more of a struggle for me than it has been a lesson i’ve needed to learn. with rogue, you still get this deal where you’re able to use your powers to be of use to others, but ultimately you need to be able to stand on your own and see your own worth. i relate to that more.

so i guess i would be rogue of breath with my sub-aspect in void!!! i love that concept and it feels good and comfy to me.

but yeah i briefly looked at page of heart!!! i simply think it is the most transgender title. what is more transgender than not knowing who you are and feeling a severe lack of it and then having a huge revelation and now you KNOW who you are and what you want and what you feel?

you also said yours would be light or rage? PLEASE tell me more i would love love love to hear your connection to them!!!

ALSO YOUR LAND SOUNDS SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m obsessed with the aesthetics. do you have a lot of. uh. what are they called. the guys. do you have guys there. the. they are often amphibious. do you have them

i don’t have a land myself 😔 i was never able to figure out one i liked to go with void (perhaps a sign, lol) and i don’t have anything to go with breath yet. i really like the word “zephyr” but i dont know what to pair with it…. i’m open to ideas if you have any!!

also this list ruuuuules, i hope they have tours near you soon!!! and i KNOW how you FEEL about missing a concert you’d wish you’d gone to:((( its an awful feeling!!! thats why i’m so crazy about concerts these days! i jump at most opportunities.

and thank you!!! i hope that i do too. i’m really digging the idea of a he/him nonbinary situation but i’m noncommittal jdksjdjd. right now the goal is to get top surgery and go from there. i have thought about T but i really like my voice and idk if i want to change it :0 i WOULD like hairier legs though….. uhhh is this tmi? idk. anyway. I MIGHT BE SEEING ANOTHER ARTIST ON THE LIST SOON!!!!!!!!!!! shout out to my mother bc this one is an early birthday present for my shit head brother heh heh heh

i can totally imagine french sounds weird if you’re used to more slavic languages. it sounds kinda weird in general. i don’t remember a ton…… uhhhh. mon chien est bien? my dog is good. hfksjdkskskd uhhhh. je m’apelle tob. my name is tob. uhh. “avec” means “with”. c’est tragique (it is tragic). “confiture” is like. “jam.”

hungarian is going well though!! i really really love learning it, i’m having so much fun. that being said, it IS difficult :0 i’m learning it though because two of my bestest friends in the whole world live in hungary!! i want to be able to speak their first language the way they are able to speak mine, and i want to be able to be at least a little independent when i go to visit!! i’ll actually be visiting them very soon >:3c i’m hoping my toddler version of hungarian will make the cut hdksjdjdj. but uhhh let me display my skills for ya!!

jó napot, uram! hogy hívjak? én amerikai vagyok, és egy kisci beszélek magyarul. az étteremben állok. nagyon szomjas vagyok! egy pohar víz kerek.

(good afternoon/hello, sir! what is your name? (emphatic) i am american, and i speak a little hungarian. i am standing in the restaurant. i am very thirsty! i would like a glass of water.)

thats very cool though!!!! if you ever need help with english grammar, i used to be an english major (before The Disease and i dropped out of school so i wouldnt have to fuck with all that) and i love writing and language in general! my friends also know a bit of german, and one of them has been taking japanese classes and is getting pretty good :0 overall i’m so jealous of people in other countries who’s language education was emphasized more. i think it is pathetic that american schools don’t even require spanish classes. i have a lot of opinions on our education system though (i was also an education major hfskdjkd) that i will spare you. anyway, all that being said, i think your english is great! i haven’t noticed any grammar issues or anything myself, so i’d say you’re doing pretty good. i guess maybe i could just used to how my friends speak english, but i didn’t notice anything!

ALSO YOUR ANIMATIC SOUNDS SO GOOD?! this is simply good food. if there is cringe here i do not see it. x-x

well its also like, the dudes who normally recommend me german metal already have… other red flags that i’m wary of, so unfortunately i’ve connected them to it:( which is a shame bc i totally agree with you, it DOES sound good!!! its such a fun language for the genre! and too with the bands making an effort to show theyre not, uh…. well. you know. violently conservative. people still ignore that and do what they want with it.

but gotcha :0 so german’s not big for you, eh… i actually didn’t know Kim Petras was German!

i feel like i should be saying more here but idk what else to say about it so. yeah. anyway.

i think thats everything?! let me know if theres something i missed that you were wanting me to reply to. i’m so glad these are answered and we can go back to our usual back and forth. i enjoy reading the long asks but i am so so bad at replying to them unfortunately ;w;

lots of love!! muah muah right back to ya!!! 💛��

hi!! gosh i'm so glad it didn't seem this way, sometimes i say things and i worry a lot how they come across (it's the overthinking mixed with good ol' 'tism fsnfds) like "oh god what if it sounded subtly manipulative, what if i give off bad vibes, what if im making them uncomfortable" etc etc like. god. fgsdh so i actually appreciate the honesty and assurance that you'd told me if i did something out of the line! fhsdk i think that's a good thing you don't force yourself! it means you're honest with others and yourself and that's a great thing! :D

also im happy you don't feel obligated to make aspect playlists because it's legit one of my fave hobbies so it's nice to share this passion! :D and i already sent you ask with my opinion about your started playlists but it bares repeating that i love what you've got so far!!!

oh we're oversharing? don't mind if i do too! fhsdjl (i can't send pictures on anon but i can still copy my results!) Warmth 26% Intellect 50% Emotional Stability 26% Aggressiveness 38% Liveliness 14% Dutifulness 54% Social Assertiveness 26% Sensitivity 74% Paranoia 66% Abstractness 90% Introversion 30% Anxiety 86% Openmindedness 54% Independence 90% Perfectionism 26% Tension 46% it's so funny to me that according to this quiz we're basically polar opposites in Warmth, Aggressiveness, Social Assertiveness and Perfectionism 😭 also your scores are more like- in the middle? while i have mainly extremes? which im pretty sure is saying something! fhdfjlsdk

i think you once briefly mentioned you were at Barns Courtney concert once but without any details! i'm so jelous i love Courtney so much! 99 is great song and oh, to have a t shirt with its lyrics! which lyric specifically is there??? 👀

Valley of the Dolls is such a good song and you're so right, it also IS SO GENDER FHDSJK and here, the Void playlist! :D Ghost by Mystery Skulls Everything Black by Unlike Pluto Dawn of Man by Michael Guy Bowman We Are The Universe by Pink Elefants Skeleton by Set It Off Midnight Thoughts by Set It Off Queen of Nothing by Elliot Lee Dance in the Dark by Au/Ra ECHO by CrusherP Ghost by Tris Mikal Circles by KIRA dark hour by DEMONDICE Tranz by Gorillaz The Underground by 8 Graves x Unlike Pluto OK by 8 Graves awake at night by halfalivea Cannonball by Barns Courtney Valley Of The Dolls by Marina And The Diamonds Body by Mother Mother Ghosting by Mother Mother (with void i remember having a talk with my friend where we were trying to make void more cheerful because "just because it's void it doesn't have to be sad" but uh, i don't think we succeeded here fgsdj)

and oh boy, the whole rage playlist? i don't know if it's super, super long, but there's a looot more here than in the rest of our playlists fgsdjk (also it's kind of edgy but i think it comes with territory here fhdsjk) but since you aksed, here it is! :D Rage: Judged by Billy Talent Light 'Em Up by Fall Out Boy Raging on a Sunday by Bohnes Dark Side by Blind Channel Not Afraid To Die by Written By Wolves Cynics & Critics by Icon for Hire The Pretender by Foo Fighters Wolf in Sheep's Clothing by Set It Off It All Adds Up by Shinedown Kings and Clones by We Are The Empty Jericho by Celldweller One For The Money by Escape the Fate Riot by Three Days Grace You're Going Down by Sick Puppies GASOLINE by Måneskin KULT by Steve Aoki Stick Up by grandson Amerika by Rammstein Survivalism by Nine Inch Nails Eyeless by Slipknot Totally Spies by Lead Horizon devil may care by Fae Gun In My Hand by Dorothy Boohoo Baby by Snaggletooth BLOODMONEY by Poppy STFU by Rina Sawayama Angry Too by Lola Blanc Two Face (Dark Version) by Jake Daniels Sometimes by Nick Lutsko Wrecking Ball by Mother Mother Villains, Pt. 1 by Emma Blackery In The Next Life by Kim Petras Madness by Ruelle Seven Devils by Florence + the Machine Tot Musica by Ado (in general i automatically sorted songs by similar vibes/genres but since it's rage me and my friend kind of intended for this playlist to be played on shuffle, it has to be unpredictable!)

ohh yeah, as a heart player that's also aromantic seeing so many interpretations of Heart as basically Romance Aspect felt so alienating 😭 everyone was giving such flimsy arguments too! "oh it's because Nepeta loves shipping/romance and Dirk has messy romantic life and Heart is about emotions and what's more emotional than romance" etc etc and it presents it as if people can't have intense emotions about their friends, i hate this automatic putting romance on some sort of pedestal but that's general problem, not only homestuck specific fgsdjk but also it's wild to me when people try to act as if the rest of the cast didn't have messy romantic lives, most of them had, Romance is not Heart locked in the comic! so even then this argument doesn't make sense! if we'd have to make any aspect being about Romance i'd choose rather Hope or Light, based on what was happening in the comic but I don't see anybody locking Romance into these aspects because they aren't heart-shaped and pink ☹ oh my god, excuse me, this turned into a rant i just have a lot of Feelings about this fgsdjfkl;fsdhgj but here's our Heart playlist! gdsfjl: Copycat by CircusP TV Head by Elliot Lee Human by Anavae O My Heart by Mother Mother Maurice's Monsters by Small Leaks Sink Ships Mystery to Myself by Brick + Mortar Love Like You by Rebecca Sugar still feel. by half•alive Sick of the Silence by Mother Mother Monster by Imagine Dragons Tak… Tak… To Ja by Obywatel G.C. Not Your Kind of People by Garbage Theatre by Icon For Hire Dance With My Demons by Blame My Youth Metamorphosis by Penny Parker So Am I by Ava Max Soulmate by Lizzo I'm Good The Mowgli's Who I Am by The Score The Masquerade by Go! Child (with heart i kind of wanted to create a some sort of story of a heart player not being sure of their identity/not liking themselves/not understanding their emotions but then slowly accepting and becoming sure of themselves :D it's so important to me for this playlist to end with The Masquerade too fsdgfsdgfh)

oh about the Life playlist! i'm glad you liked these songs! if you liked Ado she has a lot of great songs and such a great and powerful voice! and the animations in her songs just- chef's kiss :D also me and my friend were going for a very specific vibe here! like, sometimes i think about specific type of player while i make aspect playlists, for example, we have 2 playlists for light, one with general idea of Light and a second one for like- a very Vriska type of light player where we focus more about the spotlight and the need to be on the foreground of the story fgsdfjk: Monster by KIRA Candle Queen by GHOST Primadonna Girl by Marina etc. so with this specific Life playlist we were going with a interpretation of Life player that goes to the top and aims for success and wealth, kind of like Meenah or HIC fgdsjkf but うっせぇわ by Ado for Aggretsuko… god, now I can't unsee this! fhdsfjk

OMG pls do the classpect theories for the spiderverse characters when you feel up to it i'd be so down to read them!!! :O

fgasdjfklakhs thank you for indulging me with my aspect playlists!! fgsdjk

ooh maybe if we put it into homestuck narrative, it could be read like- you changing since you identified as a Witch of Void as your Witch powers evolving to the point where you seamlessly can manipulate void into light! that'd be cool, could mean you basically leveled up! fsdgfjk of course you still can choose the other two options too! that's the beauty of classpects, under certain circumstances and under certain interpretations so many classpects could fit one person fhsdjkfds you know! once i found in classpect community there was a system that's like- they had one Main Classpect and sub-aspect! like, I mainly identify with Page of Heart but my sub-classpect could be Page of Light (or sub-subclasspect Page of Rage fhsdj) i think it's a nice system for the undecided! :D and i'd be actually very interested in hearing why and how do you relate to these three titles! if you feel like it, of course!

you used to consider page of heart too? that's wild im shaking ur hand! 🤝 :D but what does this classpect means to me hmm you know how pages start with deficit in their aspect even though they think they are full of it and that inspires others into helping pages with their aspect and also that they have endless potential but their journey is extremely slow? yeah that's me with a lot of aspects actually but heart is the strongest here fgsdajkf oh boy do i have a land fdgsfjlas it's Land of Trilliums and Static! (according to the internet, Trilliums symbolize consciousness btw!) LoTaS from the space looks like a funny mirror version of Earth, the grass is pink and water pastel blue, the whole planet seems to be pulsing with red light but on the ground everything looks mostly normal, outside of unusual colors. water is normal, fauna is normal, everything seems ok and almost like our earth with a small exception the planet is almost DROWNING in early stage Trilliums and all these flowers are stuck in a white noise, unmoving and stagnant, lost what to do without a Signal. in the middle of big ocean there's a big tower that can be seen even from cosmos, it pulses with bright red light as well. the main quest is to bring back the signal to the planet so the Trilliums can get out of the static and make them grow and develop fingerguns do YOU have a Land per chance??? 👀👀

ooh what's on my dream list? i think Rammstein is probably at the top of bands i'd love to see! (i had an opportunity once but i didn't take it and i'm still so sad when i think about it fgdsjfksd) maybe Mother Mother? Imagine Dragons, Billy Talent, The Score, Barns Courtney, Måneskin, Metric and Fall Out Boy would be cool also i think, just from the top of my head! :D awh then i hope you'll be able to see at least 60% of these artists!! and there's always time to decide, gender presentation can get complicated sometimes fsdjk the most important thing is to feel comfy with it i reckon!

your grandmother knew what it was all about, that's the only thing you really need to live in foreign country fgsdjkf oooh french, do you remember something from school? 👀 (you mentioned that german sounds weird to you and i think i can honestly say french sounds weird to me btw fgdsjk) and hungarian! :O why did you decide to learn hungarian if i can ask? im curious because it's not the language i usually see people want to learn fhsdjkl and how's the learning? i heard that slavic languages can be hard to learn for english native speakers! for me i can confidently say i am bilingulal, my mother language + english (even though some of english grammar still baffles me ;v;) but outside of that i can't say i know any other language as good, i know some german, a tiny bit of italian and maybe microscopic bit of japanese but certainly not enough to have a comfortable conversation 😔

AND OH BOY THIS ANIMATIC IS FDHSGFJLKSD A LOT HM. OK!!! so- it's supposed to be like the No Mercy Run, it starts with Reset button being clicked during this brief moment before the counting starts, then on "Eins" we see Frisk killing the first monster leaving dust behind, they do that on every count, so like: on Eins - Froggit, Zwei - Whimsun, Drei - Toriel, Vier - Snowdrake, Fünf - Doggo, Sechs - Dog Marriage, Sieben - Papyrus, Acht - Shyren, Neun - Dummy, just going through the world, killing without any thought, easily, and on "aus" we get to the Monster Kid, trying to kill em and here comes Undyne the Undying, then on the first "drop" in the song i wanted for the fight to begin, Frisk failing, getting killed left and right, resetting constantly. then when singing starts again at "Everyone is waiting for the light" Frisk is slightly glowing, through the first verse Frisk's getting better and better at the fight. when the chorus starts with each count Frisk lies an attack and in the meanwhile while Undyne starts melting, on Vier Undyne turns to dust, then on "here comes the sun" and during second verse we can see Frisk ominously walking through the underground, there's something akin to a halo around their head, they kill more monsters until they stand before sans. this time on each count Frisk gets killed by sans, and where there are words after the count ("here comes the sun", "it is the brightest star of them all") we can see glimpses to the pacifist route. during verse 3 we basically can see Frisk talking to sans during singing, visuals kind of almost literally showing what is being sung. then! on the count from one to three Frisk's getting closer to killing him, on five they do, then on six they get to asgore, on seven flowey dies, on eight and nine Frisk and Chara stand against each other, the light goes to Chara and Frisk gets killed and then, when there's this feminine vocalization at the end we are stuck in the complete blackness and that is a rough draft of my very edgy animatic of No Mercy run fgdsjkfsdfhl let the cringe consume me!!!!

and you know, i can't blame you for this being a red flag for you fgdsjkf trust me even people from outside of america can still be so WEIRD about german culture UGHHHH in one of Rammstein's official videos from their song Deutschalnd (which predictably is about germany) they cast a black woman as a personification of their country and you can imagine how normal (heavy sarcasm) certain fans were about it :') but i can't say i'm that surprised, this band is openly left leaning and yet people will find a way to completely miss this fact somehow ;; but you know, honestly i think the main reason why my top metal bands are german is because i think this language sounds great in this genre fgsdjk i know very little about german culture, even with family there fgshkf outside of metal i don't listen to german too much, i think the only other artist that's german i listen to is Kim Petras and even she sings mostly in english

and ok then! :D i already included 3 rather long playlists so i'm not going to write more here but maybe in other ask i will try~

and pls don't apologize for the lenghth i love reading your answers so much! also this time i wrote even more i feel like so you know fsdgjk sending much love!

music anon 🎶

you are so good anon dw dw!! i'm also like, a pretty patient person in general, so it takes a lot for me to get annoyed with someone to begin with :0 also like, i've learned a lot from past friendships/relationships that i dont want to lie about how i'm feeling. i think it is a disservice not only to myself, but to others.

anyhow, YES, ASPECT PLAYLISTS (AND AS YOU KNOW BY NOW, CLASS PLAYLISTS!!!) absolutely not an obligation!!! to skip down in your ask a little bit -- i listened to yours!!! the vibes are SO GOOD for real!! i enjoyed void a lot, but rage was where it was at for me!! honestly, i know i still have other asks to get into and idk if its going to be talked about again there, but i was like "gosh, yes, mac is a rage player! this is a mac playlist!" while listening to it. and i loved the journey you created for heart!!

also its so funny that you mention that if anything, Hope or Light would be the more "romantic" aspect because i had the EXACT same thought right before you sent your ask!!!! but no, like, reducing Nepeta to her shipping wall and Dirk to his relationships is so... i don't know what word to use. uh. bad? SKDFJG i mean like dirk, prince of life, is literally destroying his own identity by fucking his own head up by making copies of himself. he's so completely detached from his sense of self and thats his like!! whole struggle!! i don't want to get too into it bc its admittedly been a long time since i really interacted with actual character lore but, i have further thoughts on him and nep that i might revisit once i refresh my memory on them.

anyway thank you for sharing your playlists!! jumping back up for a minute becauseeee we need to talk about the quiz results!! to me your extremes tell me that you're really sure about what you are and what you aren't :0 whereas my self-view is a little more... wishy-washy. AND YEAH SJDFKH WE ARE OPPOSITES IN THOSE... and we're tension twins B) and we're similarly introverted too :0

actually i can't believe we're the homestuck guys and we haven't talked about our signs!! do you know what yours are? i'm not sure how much i buy into astrology but i think its fun. i'm a virgo sun, aries moon, aries rising sdfkjsh

also re: Barns Courtney shirt, the line on it is "wipe the stardust from your eyes" and has a cool design on it! i like the shirt a lot but i uh. i dont wear it much.... i would if i didnt have . a huge chest

as for the spiderverse guys!! idk when i'll get around to that kjshdfh i gotta wait for it to hit the right parts of my brain again. maybe someday......

ok so i fell asleep here but im going to finish this before i carry on with my day

so. ok. holdo n im actually going to combine these and i might not have time to finish it before i leave. but. im going to switch tracks to the classpect playlists and with that -- this ask!

OK SO!! I'D forgotten you also talk about dirk here :0 BUT IM SO GLAD YOURE ENJOYING THE HEART PLAYLIST

and on that note

IM DYING TO KNOW WHAT PLAYLISTS ARE MAKING YOU FEEL EMOTIONS AND HWAT THE EMOTIONS ARE PLEASE SHARE??

ok anyway YES i agree with everything youre saying with rage and i really feel like it fits mac best!! which means now i gotta move on to ves and figure out her deal which has been a little bit harder :0 if you have any ideas i would love to hear them!

my goal is to eventually write a story about them! i'll be sure to make sure you are one of the first to get to read it, if i ever get around to actually doing it... hahahaha....

AND YEAH!!! actually i was talking to my non-homestuck bestie about classpect (and made her take the quiz -- shes a maid of light KJDFHGK) and she read some of the analysis for them and she was like "dude you're a breath player no question." and then i was fucking around and listening to music and i was like "jenna from waitress is a rogue of breath" and sent her the analysis for it and she was like "DUDE THIS IS YOU!" and you know what? shes right. thank you bri for having a phd in knowing me.

AND ACTUALLY ON THAT NOTE SHES AT MY HOUSE SO I HAVE TO GO NOW LOL but i'll finish replying asap!! at least when i get done i'll have. replied to everything all at once. so not too shabby yeah? i guess you dont need all this extra stuff but you're getting it anyway. aaand actually i'll go ahead and post this and then reblog it once i'm ready to continue.

ok talk to you later bye<3

#music anon 🎶#WHEW #AND WE’RE DONE! WE DID IT!#I THINK! ANYWAY #TALK TO YOU SOON

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