#but there'll def be a PHASE where shes like....no i dont trust him enough for ALL that
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"why's it gotta happen at all? why can't the two people in the relationship wait on it to happen." lucy gray wonders, not realizing she sounds a little naive on how strong emotions work and how compatibility is important to most people. to her, when she thinks about it, if she really finds herself smitten for someone... it won't bother her how they work in a bedroom. eyes trailing off... well, she doesn't think. that wouldn't matter? right? or would it? a world of confusion blinds her trying to decide. "i do think they abuse god's word. take his word and use it to their awful advantage. but this isn't about those perverts. this is about how men are supposed to wait too, not just the girls of the human race. this is about how some people just find it more special, not rushin' into things. to some... it just sounds more special and beautiful to promise each other to love each other for life before sharin' their bodies. since that seems to be god's opinion." she points out. "what do you mean a good time?" she felt like she might puke her cheeks were burning so viciously, "a good time's watching a band play or going to a party. sharin' yourself with someone is much more serious than that. you just can't trust people like that, be so reckless. unless it just doesn't bother you i guess. but personally, for me, i have to know i can really trust them and that they really mean it when they say they love me." she definitely takes it serious, it's not just something to do recklessly for a good time in her mind. she'd feel like she'd been violated, if she decided to love someone and they left her. let alone expose herself and let them have her in such a vulnerable way. it's a terrible disgusting feeling thinking of it... there might be something wrong with her, she thinks. since apparently it didn't play on everybody's mind like that, like it did hers. "well, it starts with babies primarily. then the other thing secondly. both still are reserved for after marriage, though."
"okay, well that's true. but if you really won't hurt me then we can compete by bein' the best of friends. we'll make the horses and rabbits so jealous, they'll wanna be us." she decides with a giddy smile, since that's what she wanted and still wants to be reassured of... that he won't hurt her. and being told that, well that just strikes a nerve. even if he ends up not even meaning it... being told she won't be hurt by someone made her heart pang before causing emotions to well in the barrels of her honey eyes. she wasn't crying yet, but something of the way he said it made her eyes prick with tears. "gosh, that oil definitely leaves an itchy smell." blaming the oil and cloth being so close to her eyes, she thinks that could be a reasonable excuse in case it looks noticeable that lucy gray now worries about. then he puts the cloth down and closes his eyes which helps. the brunette stays quiet, smearing in lotion with both hands, rubbing it into both of his cheeks softly and then over his chin and forehead– brushing these dark little locks away so the lotion doesn't stick to his fresh clean hair. "i can't help but think you're a little crazy, thinkin' someone got me all in a matter of a minute or two?" she didn't know what he had to be paranoid like that before, because she's never lived a day in his shoes. "but..." as much as that CONFUSED her, brows knitting, "it's sweet. so thank you, for comin' to my rescue." she sheepishly laughed as features softened, truly not understanding his level of paranoia like that. but appreciative. smoothing lotion down his neck with little pats then taking his left hand, rubbing in a small spots of lotion into his skin there too then picking up his right hand, doing the same again. "both are good wishes," she corrects gently, wellbeing of her loved ones and these little things like a picnic and a necklace. "well, maude ivory usually makes it a fun day for me. it used to be my mama, but now it's maude ivory who usually brings me over a pastry and we go to the lake to play all day."
“i’m not sayin’ it should happen with just anyone,” the dark-haired man counters, a small, amused smile dancing on his lips as he thoroughly enjoys their insightful conversation. jesse has once told him that women aren’t good for many things, especially not for substantive disputes, which billy, of course, wholeheartedly disagrees with. he wishes the other man could hear them now, see how intelligent lucy gray is and choke on those words. “but if it happens with the right person before marriage, why would it make anyone feel insecure?” he wonders out loud, eager to hear what else is on her mind when it comes to this subject. alice had a very different approach, taught him life’s too short to turn down small pleasures. “don’t you think it might have something to do with how men are inherently possessive and controlling, and so they feed young girls these ideas of purity to have more power over them?” he raises an eyebrow, doubting it has anything to do with proving they aren’t being used for their bodies. “quite the opposite, actually… i do think marriage is beautiful and special,” and he’d like to be lucky enough to find someone to share this experience with one day, “but i don’t believe refraining from havin’ a good time makes this union more�� sacred.” after all, how are two people supposed to know they belong together for an eternity without making love beforehand? “maybe it was originally designed for both?” pleasure and babies. though, now that he thinks about it, he doubts other species make love for pleasure… or do they? he doesn’t want to dwell on it and risk blushing furiously again.
“lucky them. how can one not be jealous of a bond so special?” he muses with a soft laugh, wrinkling his nose as her fingertips, coated in the cool lotion, land on his warm cheek. “lucy gray,” he briefly closes his eyes, staying as still as possible and letting her work miracles on his sun-burned skin. god, does it feel amazing, even if it tickles a bit, “i hope you know i’d never hurt you, not purposely. i’m not that kind of man. and i’ll always help you out.” however he can, whether it’s with chores or by offering words of reassurance or by comforting her. he’s somewhat relieved to hear her excuse his behavior and so he offers her another smile, sensing she’s not one to hold grudges. “you don’t know why i was holdin’ that lamp?” he repeats, his ocean hues staring at her once more. “many things can happen. i mean, it’s just the two of us in this house, right?” does the preacher leave her all alone like this often? what if someone knows that? what if someone’s been watching the house for a while and saw her father leave? men can be vile and evil, capable of indescribable things. “and i kept calling your name, but you weren’t responding. i assumed something terrible must have happened to you, thought someone must have broken in and grabbed you, and i forgot about that gun under your pillow and well… i’d been meaning to use that lamp as a weapon.” against that imaginary captor of hers. his features flush all at once. he feels silly elaborating on his paranoia now, but thinks he owes her a detailed explanation. “now that’s a nice wish.” a necklace or a picnic. he’ll find a way to give her both. “how do you usually celebrate your birthday?” he inquires, lowering the towel once there’s no more smudges on her face.
#SHHH THAT RUINS ME#NONONO I CANT THINK ABOUT IT OR ILL CRY#SARDINE LEFT HER IMPACT ON HIM WITH THAT 'how can u be with someone not knowing their compatibility or not' LMAO#ALL BC HER P WAS SO NASTY AND NOW HES SCARRED AND THINKING 'imagine if i waited til marriage w sardine?' LMFAOOO IM SPITTING#no but fr... he shouldnt of jumped in her bed in 2 minutes but he does have a point#@ how do u know if ur compatible w someone for MARRIAGE if u dont know if their p or d stinks or not#like TRUE LMAOO#and she'll change on this it'll be so funny when she'll realize why ppl bang before marriage when she starts forming deep emotions for him#and feels like hes trustworthy LOL something will turn over in her and she'll be like *lovemones activated!!!*#but there'll def be a PHASE where shes like....no i dont trust him enough for ALL that#after they become official LDSJN BC THE TRUST ISSUES RUN DEEP until one day a lil after that the trust issues#finally lift and lets her run loose and she decides no we love each other <3 we're basically married and i'll put him on a LEASH#if he tries to run from me so here i go *TINY LOVEMONE BIRD ATTACKS ATTACKS ATTACKS*
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