#but then. i dont have specifics so it turns into mouth rot soup i guess???? i dont know. i still havw 8 things to do this week..

[kazhetsya-vy1]

dont know what that is but it goes like this:

can't choose a task. want to do one task. suddenly want to do EVERY take all at once. cannot do just one thing. physically painful for some reason. don't do any tasks because, again, I need to do ALL the tasks simultaneously and I cannot just do one. pick up a cookbook instead. don't make any of the appointments I needed to make because I started to out of sheer fear and then cried about it a little. set down the appointment task. didn't go back to it. picking up the cookbook again, not because I want to cook anything but because it's not stressful at the moment. typing this instead of flipping through the cookbook. none of the activities I wanted to do are being done because there was a single roadblock and also because i got too excited about the idea of them that i didnt get to start any of them. I still haven't called to make an appointment to figure out what this is. it's been a week.