#but them being so clearly young makes that shit soo uncomfortable

[iamnotdirtylaundry]

i LOVE how dandadan really captures teenage awkwardness and just the inherent embarrassment of your existence at that age. Those motherfuckers are DWEEBS. It's everything

[healpeony]

Love Story

Levi Ackerman x reader

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲; Levi's and Y/n love isn't accepted by many specially Y/n's parents, an Eldian and a Marleyan? a great represention of Persephone's and Hades love.

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬; profanity, angst, scene of smut (not explicitly described), violence, blood, being called whore (by her mother), homophobia (also used by her mother), spoilers.

Taglist; @icedkoffees

Note; she/her pronouns used for the reader as well as female anatomy. Also I'm using what Isayama said about how Levi would act shy around his crush and him being uncomfortable with sexual intercourse. And I also want to add that I don't know much about what happens when the Marleyans invaded Paradise, and I also added my own thing to help with my plot so this could be call a cannonverse!au.

PERSEPHONE a young women who's innocence was taken from her the moment she was kidnapped by her uncle, who fell in love with her. Despite her mother's (Demeter) attempts to fully get her back right away from the hands of her brother, it was too late that wasn't going to happened not after Hades persuaded Persephone to eat four seeds of pomegranate, which forced someone to have a connection with their captor, making them come back to them.

Each spring time Persephone would be living with her mother on earth, while in winter she was with Hades in the underworld.

Levi was the Persephone to Y/n's Hades, she being the one who used him and their love for each other was the pomegranate making Levi come back to her.

It's ironic how their love story started with y/n getting taken away from Marley, a place she called home.

Even though she wasn't necessarily kidnaped, she was sent away to accomplish a mission in a place called Paradise, she found it ridiculous how it was named that way when that land was full of devils.

Y/n was shipped to Paradise along with the warriors. She was going to infiltrate into the Survey Corps where she would hopefully sabotage every expedition without getting caught.

Her mission was to make sure none of the warriors get too cozy in the foreign place, and to focus on their mission, but it was impossible to do so when all the people who were described as devils, were actually just like them. Humans.

She was older than those kids being 22 when they were still 15, y/n loved them, they were like little siblings to her and it hurt when they lost Marcel, the jaw.

"Oi brat! Stay focused" the voice of her captain took her out of her train of thoughts

Captain Levi, he was called humanity strongest and was also what everyone called their only hope. At first Y/n didn't understood why he needed such a big tittle, but after being in his squad and witnessing him showing his skills and his hatred towards titans, she got why.

"I'm sorry captain" she saluted, which was dismissed by him

"You called what you did back in the kitchen, cleaning?" he asked pointing towards the place he just mentioned "There is dust everywhere, go and clean everything again, I don't want to see any dust in there again. That's where our food is made, you idiot"

Without another word he left, and when she felt like he was out of earshot, she kicked a chair, breaking it. He might be Humanities strongest, but he was soo irritating, so obsessed with cleaning. That's what they always did for the most part of their time.

"there is dust everywhere my ass" she mocked Levi's voice while looking around the kitchen she just finished cleaning minutes ago

She had made sure everything was left without a spot of dust, how in the world did Levi saw dust anywhere.

After she had cleaned the kitchen area, Levi had send her to clean the stables which took a lot of time since he told her to clean alone. It was already sun down when she had finished.

She was exhausted, her clothes were pooled with sweat and glued to her skin making her uncomfortable, she really needed a shower.

"Go take a shower" the sudden voice of the raven man scare the hell out of her

"Fuck Captain!" y/n yelled, putting a hand on her chest as if that would calm her speeding heart beat

"Go now, and then come to eat dinner with us" he continued, the blank stare he gave her when they made eye contact given her chills

"Yes, sir" she saluted, before leaving

The mess hall was well a mess, the cadets eat like animals. The same soup and bread they always eat, Y/n found it extremely annoying how the Military Police get all the meat when the Survey Corps were the ones doing the only brave work inside the walls.

"Y/n if you're not going to eat your soup can I have it?" Sasha asked

Oh, how much she wanted to say no, but she had a reputation to hold and she didn't want the soup anyway.

Y/n faked a smile, (one that everyone thought that was genuine) before saying "of course, Sasha" passing the bowl full of hot soup to the girl

"Thanks!"

Y/n felt how eyes were burning through her skull and turned her head to look down the table, just to see Captain Levi staring at her with a suspicious look in his eyes.

Oh shit, if he in some way found out about who she really was, she was fucked. The young women tried her best to stay seated, but her nerves didn't let her making her stand up.

"I'm exhausted, I think I'm going to sleep"

It wasn't a lie she was tired from all the cleaning, but she didn't want to sleep, she just needed to desperately get out of there.

When she was finally outside, y/n leaned against the wall, sliding down while taking a deep breath.

"You know, it isn't good to fake smile to your friends"

Y/n immediately turn around at the sudden voice of her captain, he did it again, he scared the living shit out of her.

"Captain!, Stop doing that!" her face felt warmer than usual for some reason

Was she blushing?

"Why did you do it? Are you sad?" Levi asked putting down a handkerchief on the ground before sitting next to her, looking over at her examinating her face

"Oh it's just stress" Y/n replied, praying that he would just believe her

"I see.." he turned towards the sky where the moon shined brightly along with the stars

What Y/n thought that would be a awkward silence, turned into a comfortable one. They just stared at the sky above them, it remind Y/n that she had a family waiting for her outside the walls and she was not going to disappoint them by getting comfy with the captain, even though she didn't know what his intentions were.

"I'm going to take a nap" she stood up, and called over her shoulder "Have a good night, captain" before proceeding to walk towards her room

"Good night, cadet..."

Y/n didn't know when it happened, was it when they continued sitting together and looking at the sky in complete silence, or was it when in some of those same nights they spoke more and more about each other's personal life (in none of those conversations she mentioned Marley, but still talked about her family). She didn't remember how her feelings for him changed, but they did.

Right now she was there, in the same spot on the wall with Levi next to her. They were even in first name basics with each other.

The raven man cleared his throat catching her attention, turning her head to the side to look at him she noticed how he was blushing.

"I.. I think is pretty obvious what I feel for— about you by now"

A surprised noice escaped Y/n mouth, she expected to have that talk with him some day, but not today or Levi being so straight forward with the subject.

The women could only nod, her brain still processing what he just said.

"I was wondering, if you felt the same.." his voice dropped to a whisper, while he looked down

"No" she shaked her head, making Levi looked up at her eyes widened with embarrassment at the rejection "Look, Levi.. it's just that I have done terrible things that you're not aware of. You don't want to be with me"

"Then tell me what terrible things you have done and let me be with you after your done" Levi said

"No, Levi you don't understand" tears pooled in her eyes, y/n didn't even remember the last time she had cry "I can't be with you"

"Why? Is it because of the terrible things you have done? Well guess what everybody has their own flaws, everybody in this world is an angel, at least until they get tired of the cruelty in it and let the demons take over" Levi grabbed her face between his hands, wiping the falling tears from her face "I want to be with you, wether you have let your demons take over or not"

Y/n felt the man lean in to place his lips to hers, they stayed pressed together without movement, before Levi pull away and kissed her again this time letting his emotions be known through the kiss.

Passion. Love. Care.

This is a moment in her life she would never forget not even when hers and the warriors mission is over.

Retaking of wall Maria

"I let you. I fucking let you in!"

Levi stood infront of her heartbroken, she told him, now he knew everything..

"Levi-" however she wasn't able to continue speaking since she received a kick right in the face making her fall on her side

She looked at Levi surprised, he had kicked her. Y/n knew she deserved, but it still hurt to have someone you loved hit you.

"You lied about everything didn't you? For what, to get information?" his voice was cracking slightly with each word he said "Was it necessary to use me for your stupid plans?"

"I didn't use you!, What I felt for you was real" y/n said defending her feelings

"I don't even know what is real about you anymore, is Y/n actually your name? Or is it just another lie?"

"It is my name.." she weakly murmured tasting blood in her tongue, she figured that her lip might have been split open from the impact

"Oh good to know"

Sarcasm tried to cover his hurt voice, which actually didn't work, since Y/n could clearly hear his shaky breath and it made her feel soo guilty.

"I hate you"

Those three little words were enough to make her world come crashing down, he hated her. Of course he did, it hurt so much but she had seen this coming, and she still didn't felt ready for it.

"I'm sorry, Levi"

That was all she said to him, before she was grabbed by a titan being controlled by Zeke, taking her away from the place where she meet someone who meant so much to her.

One thing that she was sure of was that

She will never forget Levi Ackerman.

Screams, that was what was heard everywhere. Kids either with their parents or alone were running desperately trying to find shelter, and that broke Y/n's heart.

She was tired of all the fighting, she was tired of pretending to be stronger than she felt. For once she just wanted peace and happiness, something that she didn't quite have the past four years.

How did they got here? That was one of the many questions going through her head, but one that she paid more attention to was the most important

Was he here too?

"There you are, piece of shit."

That voice, it was him. It might have changed, but she could recognize it everywhere, the same voice who used to startle her everytime they saw each other, the voice that bought her comfort, the voice of the man she fell in love with.

It was Levi.

Slowly she proceeded to turn around, the fear for what might happen next running through her veins. She was ready to be killed by him.

Finally she look up and saw the same man she fell in love with, the only change that she saw was the uniform, apart from that he still seem like he had the same height as before and from the look on his face he still had the same temper.

"Nice uniform, I like it" she told him quietly not knowing what to say

Levi scoffed at her statement, taking his blade out. So he was going to kill her.

"You can go ahead and kill me, might as well add another ghost to haunt you"

Did she felt fear? Yes she did, but she wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of seeing it.

"Shut up" that was his response, before he connected his blade with her cheek leaving a long but not deep cut "You're going to come with me"

"I'm not going anywhere!"

The last thing he told her was that he hated her, why would he want her to come back to Paradise?, Was it to use her for information? Or because he missed her? It was stupid to think of the latter question, but she was still hopeful.

"I'm not asking, you brat"

That was the last thing she heard before he knocked her out.

"How could you be with a devil?!"

Her mom's scream hurt her eardrums, Zeke had told them about how she had been in a relationship with a so call devil. That seem like the only thing Zeke could do apart from throwing rocks, snitch.

"You were send there for a reason Y/n! No child of mine should've or should be with one of those devils!"

"Mother, I'm so sorry it's just that it would be easier for me to get the information about them that I wanted"

That was a lie. She loved Levi, even though she didn't get the chance to say it to him. She did, and that feeling wasn't going to go away anytime soon.

Her father stood next to her mother quietly looking at her with disgusts as if she was the trash people get rid of because of the smell, she hated that, it hurt to have your own parents hating on you.

"So what? For a piece of information, you had to go and whore yourself in there?"

Y/n gasped looking at her mom shocked "What? No mother, I didn't do anything like that with him!" she argue

That wasn't a lie, Levi was uncomfortable with sexual intercourse, since his own mother worked in a brothel and he had been the witness of how much that act hurt his mother, he had trusted her enough to tell her that.

"Good, you still have your purity." her mom nodded, before letting out a sigh "At least it wasn't with a women, you would've been completely kicked out of this house young lady"

"Now go take a shower, make sure to wash away every memory in that land while doing so." her mom smiled softly her hand reaching out to touch her cheek, before hugging her "My poor baby, having to live with those devils for so long. Don't worry you're home now, you're safe with us"

What once was her home didn't feel like home anymore, her house was just a place, her home was the person she left behind in Paradise.

Y/n didn't remember how many days have passed or what was going on outside of her cell. She didn't know in what prison she was in, but just a few days ago it had seem like there was a whole damn war going on outside.

She hasn't seen Levi since he put her into the cell, and she was scared that something might have happened to him. She heard the door of the corridor open, Y/n stood up walking towards the bars to see who it was, it was Hange.

"Y/n" Hange nodded at her as if they were saying hi "He said your name, so we think it would be good if you saw him"

"Who are you talking about?" Y/n asking looking at them confused

"Levi"

Her heart immediately speed up, something happened to him. Her anxiety grew each passing second as she took step by step through the halls, Hange having a hold of her arm to make sure she didn't try to run away.

"What happened to him?" Y/n questioned scared for what the answer might be

"Explosion" was all they said, before entering a room that seems to be Levi's, there was only a nurse sitting in a chair probably just there just in case Levi needed something

"Thanks, you can stand outside. We would call if we need you" Hange told the nurse who nodded and walked out of the room, closing the door behind her, but not before throwing Y/n a look of disapproval about her being there.

Y/n ran to Levi's side as soon as the nurse was out, he had bandages in one side of his face, and on his hands. Tears started sliding down the young women's cheek while Hange looked at her with pity, but also cautiously not wanting her to do anything that might hurt Levi.

"Levi.." she whispered, even though

y/n felt bad about disturbing him from his sleep knowing how difficult it was for him to do so, she wanted to hear his voice, reassuring her that he was going to be ok "Everything it's going to be fine, right Hange? Tell him"

“Yeah, I agree with you y/n”

She didn't knew who she was trying to convince herself or Levi, but that didn't matter, because she felt a squeeze in one hand and immediately look down to see that Levi was the one holding it. Y/n look back up to his face seeing how his eye was open and he was staring directly at her.

Y/n smiled "Hey darling, you're okay now" she let out those word between sobs "— I'm sorry for everything Levi, for not telling you where I was really from, for letting you fall in love with me when I knew how it was going to bed. I'm so sorry for every misery that I have put you through"

Levi squeezed her hand again "- 's ok, I f—orgive you" his words came out has a whisper and he struggled to speak but she heard him clearly

Hange watched the scene playing out infront of them, they could see how much those two loved each other. They were like a puzzle, that could figure each other out, knowing each piece of themselves like the back of their hands.

It has been a month and a half exactly since Y/n had seen Levi in the bed witnessing how helpless he looked, she had never seen him like that and wasn't planning to anytime soon, since then she hadn't left his side.

He was currently touching her bare back leaving kisses down her neck, their naked chest pressed together, hot and sweaty.

"Levi..." she moaned softly

This was their first time being intimate, and she didn't want him to feel pressured into anything.

"I know what you're going to say, and I want to how much as you" he said before continuing marking her, claiming her as his

Each move of his hips against hers, reminded her of who she was with. The gentleness in his touch making her forget about the world around them. The softness of his lips against hers taking her breath away.

It wasn't just the pleasure that made Levi take the decision of doing this with her, this was his own way of showing how far he would go just to be with her, to come out of his comfort zone just to shower her with intimate kisses and touches that he and neither would she forget.

“I love you Levi”

Her skin was the canvas, and his lips was the brush painting each part of her body.

“I love you too...”

“You will come back with us immediately young lady!" her mother said trying to remain calm infront of the devils

The rumbling was over, Eren Yeager was killed. Paradise and Marley were allies, but that doesn't mean they have forgiven each other for what each have done. Many Marleyans and Eldians from Marley came to visit out of curiosity, while people from Paradise went to explore the world (if we are talking about visiting the outside world and finding new things as much as possible), but they never want to visit Marley afraid that they might get turn into titans and angry for what those monsters have done to other people.

"I'am old enough to make my own decisions, mother" Y/n had answered, wanting to remain as calm as she could

"His manipulating you isn't he?"

"How dare you!—" Y/n yelled, before regaining her composure, her voice going back to calm but being loud and firm at the same time "I love him, he didn't manipulate me into anything. It's bold of you to assume that, mother"

"We're your family, your place it's with us!"

Some of the Military Police who were there scoffed along with some of the scouts, they have warmed up to Y/n already, but the Marleyans didn't seem to accept that one of themselves loved an Eldian, specially from Paradise.

"You're my family? Then where were you when I needed you the most?, All I needed when I returned to Marley four years ago was my mother!, The one who an illusion of my mind created, a sweet mom who would love me for being her child, and not see me as an object" Y/n couldn't remain calm anymore she needed to let everything out "— The time I spent with him, I got to truly know what comfort was, what being loved and being needed felt like! And you—" with tears in her eyes she turned to her father who was quiet, like he always was "You're so afraid of mom that you don't even dare to speak for yourself!, You did nothing to help your own daughter!, You just watched as she was raised to be something she didn't want to be!"

She spoke out her mind finally letting out those built up words that haunted her, needing to be said "— I thank you for everything though, despite not given me the love that I needed, your own choices took me to where we are now. Without those decisions, I wouldn't have met Levi so I thank you, for what you both did" she smiled at them

Her mom stood there quietly, before turning around and walking towards the door, her father following close behind "Don't bother returning home" was all her father said

"I won't"

She was already home, she was standing next to it. Holding his hand, Levi Ackerman was the safe place she will always and forever need.

“— And they lived happily ever after”

Y/n closed the book, looking at the twins, her daughter and son who had fallen asleep half way through the story.

“Please tell me you didn't read to them the explicit parts”

The voice of her husband scared her and she turned to him, who stood by the door leaning into it.

“Of course not you idiot!”

She stood up turning off the lamp and given both of the children kisses on their head, before going out of the room with Levi.

“I still think we should publish this book” Y/n smirked, a mischievous look in her eyes

“Absolutely not”

Yeah, their Love Story had a happy ending after all.

This was so much fun to write! I wrote 4k words and I'm proud of that! I feel like my writing has improved in the past few days, and this might be one of the works that will show it, and I hope future ones show the progress too! Also I want to punch y/n's mother in the face.

Thank you so much for reading, you can support my work by hitting reblog or liking! But don't repost to other platforms!

[isisparker]

There’s an overlooked Oh Je Moment in Episode 10

There’s this high school kdrama right now called Moment at Eighteen [Moment of Eighteen, At Eighteen] and since a few episodes back we’ve slowly gotten the feeling/insight that one of lead’s best friend, Oh Je, might be harboring feelings for another guy, Hwi Young, the other male lead and antagonist for first lead. There’s been moments throughout the series that hinted at this (from when Da Heen, a sweet girl who declared her crush on Oh Je by asking him out -- in front of the class, mind you -- thus him having agreed to be her boyfriend, sticking to his side and him being a little uncomfortable, to small instances where he accidently came into contact with Hwi Young and he’d react), but then this moment happened during a Class Trip; their classmates had a Truth Circle and Oh Je, being in the chair, was asked this question by Da Heen herself:

“Are You In Love With Anyone Right Now?”

Now to provide context, earlier on that trip Da Heen had gotten jealous and assumed that the reason Oh Je has been pulling away from her was because he liked another girl, Ro Mi. It’s obviously not true and he even truthfully told Da Heen that there “wasn’t ANY GIRL” [actual quote] that he liked. He phrased it in a way that didn’t reveal too much about himself and yet he was able to stay honest with Da Heen, who he honestly did like [probably as a close friend] and didn’t want to hurt.

But now we come to this and Da Heen feels secure in their “relationship” but yet she couldn’t help but ask him that question. When her friends and classmates start joking about “What kind of [obvious] question is that?” when it seemed that the class knew the two of them were dating, suddenly one of their other peers asks this:

Let me repeat that: Are you in love with someone you shouldn’t love?

“Are You In Love With Someone Who You SHOULDN’T Love?”

... damn.

So first off, they probably asked that because early in the day, when Da Heen picked a fight with Ro Mi because of Oh Je, they assumed that there was trouble between the couple, so that question was more than likely meant to stir up shit.

But oh boy did that question cut in deeper than they meant to. Especially as the camera panned to the various reactions. 

From Oh Je, who you could clearly see start to get uncomfortable and anxious...

To Hwi Young, the guy he [secretly] liked, who you assume was just watching completely unaffected...

To Jun Woo, Oh Je’s best friend, who observed his friend and started to realize how uncomfortable and anxious Oh Je was feeling! I don’t think Jun Woo knows specifically WHY his best friend is reacting badly to this question, but he knows enough to be compassionate and concerned that he jumped in and was the one that suggested they move on from this questioning. 

But! 

But then THIS moment happened, the whole reason for this post and why I’m reconsidering EVERYTHING I knew so far about this drama and their characters, as immediately I realized something... 

Because just as the class agreed to leave Oh Je alone, the camera zoomed in on Hwi Young’s face and what we had once assumed was indifference to the situation, there was just something that felt... odd... Because while it could be said that when Hwi Young’s eyes would follow Soo Bin, a girl both he and Jun Woo liked, to glaring daggers at Jun Woo... the fact that he was watching Oh Je spoke volumes. Heck the fact that the director of this drama even intended for us to SEE Hwi Young’s face at this moment, as opposed to an overshot view of the class, spoke volumes!

Because to me it says that odds are Hwi Young probably knows. He may not know specifically about Oh Je’s feelings or how Oh Je is questioning his sexuality, but Hwi Young KNOWS something.

It also makes some of the past scenes between them [Oh Je and Hwi Young] make a whole lot more sense!

From back in Episode 07 [also the episode where we could clearly see Oh Je struggling with thoughts specifically about Hwi Young] when a dodge ball game during PE resulted in both Oh Je and Hwi Young trying to grab the ball at the same time and coming into contact -- Hwi Young ended up glaring [or staring] at Oh Je. Again, we could assume Hwi Young did it because he was in competition mode... 

To as recent as Episode 10 itself, early on, when the class activity was a game like Musical Chairs, but instead the students would dance randomly until the MC called out a number and the students would gather in a cluster of that specific number, odd ones are out; at this moment Ro Mi had yanked Oh Je into her group and while Oh Je was surprised by the move, Hwi Young was the one that was staring at Oh Je. Hwi Young could be looking anywhere else, or even smiling at the fact that their group wasn’t called out, but instead we’re given this specific look the moment Oh Je was yanked literally to Hwi Young’s side.

There’s one more moment I want to bring up that has made me even more assured that that look Hwi Young gave Oh Je in the Truth Circle moment had more meaning.

Back in Episode 09, Hwi Young had deceived Soo Bin in an attempt to stop her from getting closer to Jun Woo. He had sent a false text to make her doubt Jun Woo’s sincerity towards her and though he did it to break the pair up, he knew that it would cause her pain YET he did it anyway regardless of his guilt over the lie. When he saw her pain, he took it out on himself by agressively kicking a soccer ball. This lead to Oh Je, who was walking by with some friends, having seen Hwi Young out on the field. Curious and maybe a little concerned, Oh Je entered the field and offered to play goalie for Hwi Young. 

Hwi Young questioned if that’s what Oh Je wanted to do [and again I myself am questioning if that was intentional because one would assume Hwi Young would have been indifferent and agreed, AND YET he made sure that it was something Oh Je was okay with doing], but Oh Je agreed and then Hwi Young proceeded to take even more of his aggressions out. 

Oh Je wasn’t able to keep up and even called Hwi Young out on his anger, which caused Hwi Young to start walking away to leave when...

He stares back at Oh Je for some time. Not just a pause with his back to Oh Je, contemplating his words, but he actually LOOKED BACK at Oh Je before considering his words and then saying...

Again we could assume [and it might just be that’s how the scenerio reads as] that Hwi Young’s guilt is the one that’s talking, making him ask Oh Je (someone who has no connection to Hwi Young’s current troubles outside of the fact that Oh Je’s best friend is Hwi Young’s competition for Soo Bin) these questions. 

But given now what we currently know, and given that specific look Hwi Young gave Oh Je way way later [Episode 10, the whole point of this post] during the Truth Circle game...

For Hwi Young to ask Oh Je “What do you do when you hate yourself? When you’re angry at yourself.” seems like Hwi Young, who is actually intelligent and observant, knows more than we assume.

When Oh Je responds to Hwi Young’s questions with concern by asking Why?

This scene even gives more empathy to Hwi Young, who for majority of the first half of the series is just some priviliged asshole but is revealed to be under pressure [emotional and physical] from his parents to be the Perfect Student and is taking it out on nearly everyone... And he could have easily replied angrily at Oh Je too, but instead he looks resigned and tired. Especially as he responds with a negative view on himself.

And this is worth taking note because this is also probably the first time we’ve seen Hwi Young admit a flaw about himself OUT LOUD and TO ANYONE. Not to his parents, not to his teachers, not to his peers and close friends.. NOT TO ANYONE BUT OH JE.

And I have a feeling that Hwi Young probably knows Oh Je wouldn’t judge nor cater to him.

This whole time up until Episode 10, we’ve had to watch Oh Je come to grips with his feelings towards Hwi Young and have empathy towards Oh Je for crushing on 1. a straight male classmate that is 2. a priviliged asshole regardless of the fact that he’s a kid whose father physically and emotionally abuses him... but what if we weren’t the only ones aware of Oh Je’s feelings? What if, on some level that’s yet to be revealed, Hwi Young knew as well?

[kissme-hs]

Threesome is fun

So here I present you my wildest fantasy, a threesome with harry and Shawn. This is the smuttiest I’ve ever written and has a slight twist. I would love to know your thoughts about it, plus reblog if you like!! Tagging @chonisberonica , there you go love:)

I had to post it again it cuz tumblr is shit.

Warnings: SMUT SMUT SMUT

Word count: 6k

Y/n’s tired feet padded on the wooden floor as she hung her coat on the stand and stood on one leg supporting herself by the wall to take off her heels and rub her sore calves. Her eyes scanned the house looking for her curly headed man, but her eyebrows furrowed the second she realized he is no where to be seen. Maybe he was in kitchen? So Giving her thought a try, she walked inside the pantry only to be met with nothing but clean and tidy shelves.

She smiled to self knowing it was harry who did that. When she woke up in the morning, it was already half past 8 and she had her meeting at 9, the time of the lovely morning had to be spent with hurry scattering her clothes everywhere and leaving the kitchen a mess. She remembered whining about it how much of untidiness she has created but harry reassured her, pressing a soft kiss to her forehead and then lips.

“Go love, I’ll clean it up for you.”

And that was 7 hours ago when she last saw his alluring face, unshaven chin, hair all ruffled up and eyes full of sleep. Maybe he’s sleeping upstairs, after all he gets tired working in his office—writing, creating the melody. Grabbing a hair tie from the bowl that Harry kept on the dinning table full of hair ties, even if he finds any vibrant color rubber band, he’d pick it up and drop it in the bowl because they too need a place to live baby, plus I need them all the time, harry said when she asked him why he did that.

Tying her hair up in a messy bun, a bit greasy from the tiring day she made her way upstairs. The cold floor felt amazing against her under feet, even though the cold winds had already started knocking the doors of London, she—for some reason felt good feeling the chilly wood. Their huge house, for a living of two was taken over pin drop silence, not even her walking was making any sound cuz she was bare feet. And by this time she was sure that harry was fast asleep, so she pulled her phone out from her back pocket before turning the camera on, in a hope that she might get some pictures of Harry’s angelic sleeping face.

And suddenly she stops moving. The house that once was nothing but silent, fills up with the filthy moans and grunts. She hears one loud throaty moan that she can bet is Harry’s, and oh maybe he’s jerking off? He’s been out for a quite few days to have his time with her, so this might be the reason he got all worked up and thought about giving himself a good release since he didn’t know she called her day off a bit early and luckily her boss granted her wish.

Smirk replaces the soft look of her face as all the tiredness washes away. She too did in fact gave herself a few good treatments while he was away and wanted nothing but to have him inside of hers back again. She opens the first four buttons of her shirt and pulls it wide enough for her black lacy lingerie to sneak its head out. Pulling out on the hair tie, she lets her hair fall back on her back and ruffles them a bit knowing they’re still a bit greasy to look sexy but oh never mind.

And for the fourth time when she’s about to have another thought of what she’s gonna do with him, her breath hitches and her feet feels heavy, she mentally thanks her luck for the day, she made it to his room. This moan doesn’t sounds like Harry’s, in fact it isn’t of any man but a woman this time. She bites her bottom lip, and twists the knob of door and sneaks head inside. There wasn’t any woman but harry alone and naked pumping himself to some porno, her and eyes were burning into his laptop. Her feet finally feels the weight lifted off as she walks inside and closes the door behind her with a loud thud.

“Fucking Christ y/n! Don’t do that ever!!“

He gasped huffing probably getting scared by her sudden action. He obviously didn’t notice her presence before, and now he couldn’t help but feel embarrassed as she walked to him. Harry extended his arm for hers to accept his invite and sit beside his naked body. Her eyes scanned his flushed self before making its way to the screen.

“Threesome huh?” She chuckled shaking her head and getting up so she could take off her shirt completely. She already was feeling warm with the dirty thoughts she had before and here Harry laid completely bare with his cock hard—veins popping out, top swollen and red, made the surrounding hot. So taking the laptop off his thighs, she nestled herself between and took his hard manhood between her hands.

Harry immediately threw his head back feeling pleased with just a touch of her hands on his dick, his hands were fast to grab her hair and guiding her mouth on him. She let out a loud laugh at his eagerness and heard Harry mumbling a shy ‘sorry’ before kissing his shaft from end to the tip. Her eyes were fixed on his, and he felt himself drowning in those orbs of hers. Her eyes were hallucinating him, making him feel dizzy. And her lips kissing him softly, her tongue licking him was just adding to the clouds he was seeing.

She peppered him with kisses before taking his cock inside her mouth, and popping it out making sure to leave a ‘pop’ behind. He knew that she was gonna tease him, after all she caught him jerking off to a porn that had a naked woman indeed who looked nothing as compared to her.

“Please baby, no foreplay.” He whispered biting his lip hoping for a nod. But instead she just shook her head no, she wasn’t having it. Y/n did excepted to find him jerking off but not to a sex movie.

She gave his waist tattoo a little peck that read Brazil before lowering her mouth on him, taking him deep inside until she felt him hitting the back of her throat. Her one hand held him from the base whereas her other was busy rolling his heavy balls on her palm. The growing swell of his balls gave her a good idea of how he was getting close to losing himself.

Once again Harry’s hand were in her hair pushing her head down making her. Her eyes burned and well up with tears as she pushed her head up to breath, saliva dropped down his cock lubricating it well for her to glide her hand up and down squeezing it at the bottom. Harry’s eyes closed shut as he felt his gut tightening with every move she made. From leaving his cock and replacing her hand with her mouth gagging on it, he could feel the burn.

“Fuck fuck fuck gonna cum baby.” He groans and all she does is gives him a yes with still his cock in her mouth, the vibration of her throat that touched his tip was the last edge and he was cumming down her mouth. When it was too much to take it, she pulled out giving him few more pumps to have him giving in in multiple spurts all over her lace  bra.

Shooting him a grin, she collects all the cum off her chest before licking her fingers cleans. Where harry just laid there panting, seeing stars. His breath was heavy because of the sex goddess he was in love with.

“So..”

“Soo?”

“Do you wanna have a threesome?”

Harry asked pulling her down so she laid on him. The air in their room carried the aroma of Harry’s orgasm as she kissed Harry’s chin. Threesome wasn’t a bad idea after all, if harry was okay with it why shouldn’t she be.

“Sure! But with who?” Harry felt like a giddy kid who just was given the permission to buy chocolates at Tesco.

“Shawn. He’s in city for a few days, and he was asking if we could hang anyways.”

“Hmm, okay. I like Shawn, I mean I trust him enough to have a threesome with him.” She replied tapping his nose. The bubbles inside Harry’s belly were too much to handle at the time. He always wondered how it must feel, seeing it in movies as it looks sexy. Y/n was well aware of how adventurous guy harry was, and she trusted him enough with all she had to know that she would never suggest anything that could made her uncomfortable or have any regrets after.

She never doubted any of his suggestions until now. Harry was very possessive of her, and they both were clearly aware of the fact. She remembers how once he texted a guy saying how he’ll beat his ass up if he doesn’t stop texting you, not knowing he’s your cousin. She had enough faith on him but she didn’t want him to do something that would make him feel bad afterwards.

“Then Shawn it is.”

It was no longer than a week when Harry called his friend over their place to have a chat, he did in fact, mentioned about the kinky plan the couple had in mind receiving a big approval from his friend. Shawn was very much hyped about the whole threesome concept just like both of them. Not to bring to Harry’s kind attention but Shawn admired y/n a lot. He always found himself having wild thoughts over her whenever he was returning home from a party or just a simple meet and greet with the couple. Shawn was every much aware how he shouldn’t be having such wild fantasies about Harry’s girlfriend when He genuinely respected harry, being senior to him in age as well as the music, he saw him as a silhouette to success.

But y/n was something else. He fancied her in every little way he could, from her shy self to sudden quirky nature, her good sense of humor never failed to made Shawn snort, even when her jokes were terribly awful, Shawn couldn’t help but let out a loud laugh. And one thing that he was very much aware of, was, that all the feelings he had towards her was nothing but lust. He always imagines how her soft lopes would feel against his, or how her body would feel rocking along the rhythm to his while he pounds senselessly inside of her.

So when harry popped up the question, without a second breath he replied with a loud yes. That did made harry doubt him a little though, but shrugging it off to the fantasies of young boy just like he did when he shared the same age as Shawn, let him be.

So when it was the day, Y/n paced around the hall as harry waited up for Shawn to ring the bell already. She wasn’t paying attention to anything harry was saying, she did know what he was talking about, so I saw this porn with two girls having threesome with a boy and baby it was fucking hot as hell. His words were making their way to her brain but were getting registered. All she could think was how harry was gonna act after, it wasn’t like she had any insecurity with Shawn, whereas she did too bad some wild dreams with him. Always wondered how it would feel to kiss him, not to mention those wondering were from before she met harry.

But knowing his over-protective nature was giving y/n a hard time to believe that harry was actually ready to see someone else do what only harry is suppose to do to her. And maybe when he witnesses it in real, he won’t be able to handle it?

And the sound of the bell snapped her head in the direction. Harry got off from the couch and before he could open the door she held his wrist. Giving her a glance, he took in her expression and his hand immediately was flying to rest on her subtle cheeks.

“You okay baby? Sure wanna do this?” Harry asked searching her eyes for any second thoughts, his face full of concern as he scanned her features.

“Want to ask you the same.” She replied pressing a kiss to the inside of his hands making harry nod and press his lips to his forehead.

“Okay, then let’s do this!” She chirped and opened the door open revealing y’all Canadian dressed in a black v-cut tee shirt under a leather jacket with some blue denim jeans to go along with this. His hair ruffled a bit, probably because of the windy weather of London. Y/n’s sudden change in her attitude, the nervousness now replaced with the bold and confident self that both of the men felt attracted towards.

And Shawn, looked nothing but deliciously sexy.

“Well hello there Shawn. Come in!” Y/n smiled stepping away so the brunette could come in. Harry welcomes him warmly with a hug and soon Shawn turned his face to her. He stared at her alluring self, oh how he already felt himself growing hard for her. She smiled wrapping her arms around his neck pulling for a hug. Shawn smiled hiding his face in her neck, he breathed in the scent of vanilla and cinnamon—such a mouth watering fragrance she wore before pecking her skin softly, making her shudder at his sudden move.

“I see what you did there mendes, plus I already see you getting hard.” Harry said rather straightly clearly annoyed with the fact he got worked up so early, way too early before even hearing the rules that he made.

“Well there are quite few things you need to remember. Number 1, she’s my girlfriend” Harry said making sure to emphasis it.

“Number 2, make sure you’re not hurting her in any way. And lastly the most important one, don’t forget that she does not belongs to you” Harry finished. His intentions weren’t to scare Shawn to shade him in any way, but to remind him.

“Alright man, will remember that. After that I respect you both a lot.” Shawn nodded to both of them with all respect he had for them both. He knew how much they were in love, and he never, even by mistake would do such thing that can hurt them or cause them pain. He was very much aware of what y/n meant to harry, he loved and cared for her as if she carried the world with her, which was what she was to harry. His whole world. And Shawn never wanted harry to lose his everything.

This simple and sweet gesture of Shawn made y/n feel absolutely safe, like a reassurance that maybe Harry’s gonna be okay after this ends.

“And you my darling, I love you.” Harry mumbled wrapping his arm around y/n’s waist and pulling her in a warm embrace. He rested his head on top of hers as she mumbled the words of love back to him, pulling his head down so she could seal her verbal words emotionally. Harry’s lips found their way to her soft ones as they worked together, kissing every inch they could before Harry pulled away.

“I guess we shall get going then.” Harry announced and y/n was walking to Shawn the next second. She wrapped her arms around his waist as Shawn took her chin between her index finger and thumb, god she looked so beautiful to him. If he could, he’d keep her with him forever. Brushing the baby hair off her face, Shawn takes his time to admire the beauty in front of him. The way her orbs stared in his made his knees weak, he was really doing it. After all imagining things in his pretty little mind, he’s gonna witness how it feels to have her lips pressed against his. So he dips his head down and attaches his colds mouth to hers.

Shawns hands finds their way to cup the back of her neck and the other goes to rest on the swell of her bum, giving it a gentle squeeze earning a subtle moan from y/n. Her hands were busy in shawn’s hair, their tongue massaging each other’s. She was enjoying it. Though the kiss didn’t give her butterflies like Harry’s did, but it wasn’t that bad. But Shawn was having the time of his life, kissing her, felt exactly what he dream of. Her lips were juicy and molded into his perfectly, he wondered if it was the same with Harry’s. A wave of jealousy hit his veins as Shawn trailed kisses from her lips to her neck, not missing any spot. He pulled the sleeves of her stop down, so he could kiss all the way up from her shoulder to the sweet spot behind her ear.

Y/n’s eyes were close shut pleased by shawn’s magic, too blind to notice the change in Harry’s eyes. He wasn’t feeling what he was before, it’s not like he was hating it either but seeing another man putting his hands, lips on her body somehow made his blood boil with anger. So without thinking twice he pulls her by her wrist and pushes back on the couch forcefully. Not to mention, Shawn saw the change, but deciding to shrug it off, he removed his clothes feeling hot and bothered with all the clothing.

Harry hovered y/n’s body as she passed him a teeth grin, his heart felt the similar tingle it always did whenever he was this close with her. Tilting his head harry places his lips on hers, feeling this urgency to dominantly kiss her, maybe because he wanted to remind Shawn all the rules. She’s my girlfriend. Meanwhile their lips worked their way on each other’s, savoring every inch of the skin too lost to remember about the naked standing young man who’s staring at them with his hungry eyes.

Before Shawn could, Harry started leaving a trail of hickeys down her chest, stopping just right over her breast. A smirk took over his face as he tugged on her tee, with a wink she raised her arms helping harry to glide the top off her body. Gladly, she wasn’t wearing any bra and harry found himself immediately matching on her boobs, taking her left breast in his hand—he licked her right nipple. His tongue felt absolutely cold, with his warm breath blowing over the wet hardened bud. His mouth leaving a ‘pop’ sound whenever he left her nipple, his hungry eyes traveled down, between their pressed up bodies and stopped to the attraction.

Leaving tiny feather kisses all over her body, making sure to mark every inch of her, harry took her legs in his hand. He rubbed the smooth skin of her and trailed his lips delicately till he reached the waist band of her shorts, she knew every passing inch was becoming heavy for both the boys, so without any further adou, she lifted her pelvic up and removed the last piece of clothing article (yes she wasn’t wearing any lingerie ) and threw it at Shawn. And Shawn felt his cock twitch that sprung over his lower belly. To her notice, she just saw him standing bare when her eyes flicked to the standing beauty of his figure. Her mouth watered at the sight, harry was huge no doubt, but Shawn wasn’t any less.

Spreading her legs wide, harry caught the glistening. She was wet, wet enough for him just to glide his cock inside the second. But he had different plans. His eyes were dark once again. And he could inhale the aroma of her sex, her fragrance spread across in the air that both boys found savoury.

Harry’s fingers, opened her slick wet folds collecting the wetness with his fingers and sliding them in his mouth, recollecting the taste of her. And the taste lit the fire in him, the sudden outburst of hormon made him put his mouth of her core the second after, his lips sucked the numb bud not caring that Shawn was staring with lust full eyes. He just wanted to devour the taste of his baby.

Y/n head threw back with ecstasy taking over her body when Shawn for the third time caught her eye, standing alone giving himself pumps. Her eyes travelled down his body as she reached for him, a sheepish smile covered shawn’s lips with his legs carrying him to the laid down woman in front of him, getting eaten. She wrapped her hand around his thick shaft and gave it a few good pumps, hearing those moans leaving his lips made her feel proud, knowing she could make him feel good. His hands were in her hair as she leaned forward and sink her mouth on him.

“Fuck. Your mouth is magic y/n”

Shawn moaned in his deep Canadian voice. He was feeling his legs going jelly with the amount of pleasure she was causing him. She gagged on his cock, sucking on it like a lollipop, a sweet meaty lollipop. Giving him the acknowledgment, she hummed. But the humming of her throat gave him the delicious vibration he craved far, making it difficult for him to stand.

Where y/n was busy blowing Shawn off, Harry pulled his mouth from her pussy before giving her clit a good quote few rubs. The sudden friction, made her ache her back making harry chuckle. He knew what impact he had on her, and there wasn’t any suspicion that he wanted to have his mouth on her to keep savouring the taste of her pussy. But her hard cock wasn’t having it, so taking her joggers down in a one swift motion, he rubbed his cock on her wet slit, giving it a few hard slaps before sliding in with an ease. The stretch she felt was nothing but full of contentment.

Her moans on the other hand gave Shawn a feel of dizziness seeing stars, as he felt himself getting close to the edge of letting himself go. He felt the coil inside his belly tightening with every moan she made. The whole house was filled with the voices of their larynx made. It wasn’t less than any movie scene, expect just a bit more sexier.

“Shit am gonna cum baby, “ Shawn cried holding onto her hair tightly as she gave his balls a light squeeze telling him to let go. And within her approval, he was shooting his cum all inside her mouth. She felt his warm load of cum making its way down her throat giving her taste buds an appetising smack.

His pants filled the room along with Harry’s grunts who had y/n’s legs thrown over his shoulder as she slumps back down on the couch. A slight bit of cum dripping down her chin that Shawn catches with his index finger. His eyes burned in her skin, taking in every curve of her body, every swell, every stretch mark. And though she wasn’t perfect, like all the other models, he couldn’t take his eyes off her. Maybe it was her smooth, soft, delicate skin—or maybe little freckles over her body. She was one of the prettiest and beautiful woman he every saw.

“Like what you see?” Harry said breaking Shawn’s gaze from her body as he nodded. His cheeks burning up a little, feeling embarrassed to be caught staring at his girlfriend. Chuckling upon the flushed state of the young man, harry pulled out earning a loud, why from y/n as whines with the lost of contact. Her lips out in a pout as she sits up licking the sticky cum off her fingers.

“Ca-can I?” Shawn stuttered asking if he could make a move. Y/n giggled at his shy self before giving him a nod and standing up, motioning him to sit. She has never experienced double penetration before, so why not this time. Obliging to her, Shawn sits down on the couch as y/n sinks in his dick. And it’s not even a blink of an eye, harry has his cock sharing the same opening as Shawn. The sudden and whole new feeling of her wide outstretched pussy, was something else. She never thought, never in her wildest dream that she’d do a sandwich with two most hot and handsome folks ever. Luckily one of them was her boyfriend that she couldn’t help but connect her lips with.

She could feel her eardrums banging with the sound of her heart beat mixed with the low grunts of two guys she’s in between. The pounding of their manhood inside of her, made her feel what she’s never felt before. Extreme confidence.

Shawn’s hands were giving her boobs a squeeze ever then, with his lips resting on her shoulders and neck and everywhere they could reach. The way she clenched her walls around his bare cock made him twitch inside of her, what a shame it was for Shawn. She held the capability to make him come within seconds. Harry himself too felt the coil heating up inside him as he continued his hard thrusts, moaning inside her mouth, not leaving it once.

“Fuck doll. Look how good you look taking two fucking cocks so well”

“Yeah mate, couldn’t agree more.”

The two men conversated. Sweat sliding down the bodies of them three as the air they breathed in smelled like their sexes. The aroma of their cums mixed with the sweet scent of her vanilla and cinnamon perfume that Harry gifted her randomly which he brought from Italy, lifted the mood of the room that was already on fire.

“Shit am gonna cum guys.”

She panted holding onto shawn’s hair from reaching behind.

“Let it go beautiful” Shawn whispered in her ear and she wasn’t to be told twice as she let herself flow for the first time the day. But seeing such intimacy between both of them made harry feel a sudden emotion of jealousy. It was him who always told her to let go. He furrowed his eyebrows instantly pulling out of them as y/n’s cum flowed down the space resting on shawn’s thighs that he collected from his fingers and sucked upon.

“Why’d you pull out babe?” Y/n asked with Shawn still inside of her, his hand resting on her boobs and lips pressed to her neck, covering Harry’s hickeys in a darker shade. Harry’s intense stare at their naked body made her wonder if all she was worried before was actually true. Noticing the change in her expression from pleaded to concerned, Harry shook his head giving her a soft smile. He didn’t want his jealousy to ruin the moment she was enjoying. But enjoying with another man?

He swallowed the gulp of anger.

“Nothing, just need a glass of water.”

“But you didn’t even cum once baby. I’ll help you, come here.” Y/n said already standing up a bit as Harry pushed down on her shoulder so she sank on Shawn once agin.

“No no, it’s okay doll. I’ll be right back.” He smiles trying to reassure and get her to settle on his words.

“Okay. Be back soon.” She have him a warm smile, the one that always gave him the feeling of butterflies in his belly. But this time he didn’t feel it, it was like all the butterflies died seeing her having a moment of lust with Shawn. She looked so really into the feeling of drowning in the pleasure Shawn was giving him. Made Harry wondered if she ever felt the same with him. He felt insecure.

The second Harry left, Shawn switched there positions. It was so quick that y/n didn’t even notice Shawn on the floor with her legs thrown on his shoulder. His flushed face now deep buried between her legs, attached to her core. She felt his hot tongue licking its way to her clit, giving it a few hard flick making her gasp. Shawn’s curls tickled her thighs, and for a moment she forget that it was Shawn between her legs. Her hands tangling in his soft hair gave her the similar feeling of being holding onto the hair of harry. So soft and curly.

She let out a loud Yelp when his lips sucked on her clit vigorously until she came undone. Shawn licked every drop of her cum, not wasting any of it as if it was the holy water, too pure to touch the ground. And for the first time,he felt his thirst growing for her. Her sweet taste gave his tongue an addiction of savouring it again and again like an action on repeat. Now he understood why harry was addicted to her like she was his marijuana. Her body, her eyes, her heart? Everything about her was so captivating and Shawn felt lucky to experience a few hours of intimacy with her.

“Jesus you’re so good Shawn.”

“Well it’s all because you’re a fucking sex goddess y/n” Shawn laughed kissing her allowing her to have a taste of herself on his tongue.

Both of them were too indulge to notice Harry’s absence, who was hiding in the kitchen, hearing every moan they made, every kiss they shared. He was hearing everything which made his stomach churn and making him want to throw up. Threesome looked good only in porns because there aren’t any feelings involved, but it’s different with the person you love. The sight of seeing other man making love to your love absolutely kills you, and that’s what harry was going through. He was regretting every second of it, because now there wasn’t any turning back. There was no way he could get the picture of them off his eyes.

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“Oh my god harry did you see how cute Shawn is!! He asked us if he could make love to me” y/n blabbered happily recalling every moment that happened the day past few hours. Harry kept his head low as he stirred the vegetables in the frying pan preparing them for the stew he was making. He could y/n going on with all the fun she had faintly in the background because all the insecurities had his attention that time.

A part of him wanted to console himself that she did this all because Harry wanted to, it wasn’t her idea to have a threesome, even asked him for confirmation before Shawn arrived asking him whether he was sure or not. He knew y/n belonged to him and had his heart nestled inside Of her safely, he even believed and was very much concious how she would never break his heart, but she did. Unknowingly, unintentionally she did. And harry hates himself for it, only if he didn’t popped up the horrible idea of having a threesome—knowing how he can never bear his love enjoying sexually with someone else.

He didn’t even wanted to blame Shawn for this. Poor boy just agreed upon his words. Harry was warmed how Shawn respected him and his feelings towards y/n. But, men will be men.

“Harry?”

Y/n sensed it the moment Harry left to get a glass of water, because never ever before during sex he needed water, you’re the reason I’m always thirsty and now that I’ve you, I’m not longer feeling it baby—that’s what he always told her. She knew something was wrong the way Harry’s eyes scanned them too, she knew he was feeling it, feeling what she was afraid off. And she knew how harry is a sensitive baby.

“Baby..are you okay?” She walked to him and rubbed his arm, but what come next was unexpected. A tear slide down his cheek as Harry turned off the stove and marched to the living room with y/n following him behind. Her heart was absolutely crushed seeing tears in those green beautiful orbs of him. She immediately sat by his side on couch rubbing his arm as harry continued to sob.

“I-he wasn’t making love to you okay? That what only I am suppose to do! What only I do!” He half yelled. And there it was, everything she feared of. Harry sometimes could get very insecure, he always thought how he was never good enough for her. Having numerous affairs and dozens of magazines calling him a womaniser that he used to burn in his fireplace with tears rolling down his cheek. He never had a real girlfriend, whom he could trust with his heart until he met her.

She was the centre of his world, never he ever though would be able to love. He never thought a girl like her would lend her heart to him, to adore and love. Would accept his imperfect self and mould him in a better man, making him perfect for the world. She was his strength and his weakness. And he feared one day what if she finds a better person and leaves him?

“No no sweetie, that’s what you do. It’s you whom I love harry, Shawn is nothing to me. Jesus I’m so sorry.” She cried feeling a tear excaping her eyes as she pulled Harry’s slumped tired body to her chest. Resting on her words, Harry wrapped his arms around her waist hiding his face in her chest as he rocked their body slowly.

“I-it’s just you wanted to do it harry.”

“I know, hate it now.” Harry whispered through sobs as she laid down back on couch with harry resting his head on her chest. Her fingers combed through his hair, scratching his scalp with her nails reviving some sadness. Harry nuzzled his face further in her neck taking in the scent of her shea butter body lotion, she always applied after having shower.

“It’s you baby. Always gonna be you. I’m sorry I was so caught up” y/n mumbles pressing a long kiss to Harry’s forehead and he mumbles a small ‘it’s okay’. Finally he felt the warmthness radiating her body, he tightened his grip around her waist hitching one leg over pulling her closer if that was even possible.

This moment of intimacy was just confined to both of them. No one knew that her body always smelled like shea butter after she took shower or how her fingers got cold when she harry wasn’t holding her hand. No one knew how sometimes harry had to sing her because she couldn’t go to sleep, or how she loved when Harry liked her hair giving her a scalp massage. No one knew all these little things, that every single beat of Harry’s body was used to. And no one would ever know that either because it was a thing they both did alone.

Everyday comes with a lesson, that day too taught harry few things. First how much he loved y/n. How he could never stand any man touching her, how much she meant to him. He realized that she was the woman he wants to marry, even though he sensed the feeling long before the moment he saw her. Secondly, how possessive he’s of her. Can’t even bear a mosquito touching her skin. Thirdly, threesome is not fun.

[withasideofeggsy]

Promises :: Park Jimin :: 3

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4,

Word count: 1.7K

Warning: ANGST, a little bit of self loathing, coarse language, car accident, death of family (click continue reading for potentially triggering subject)

This is shit and extremely short. I’m so sorry LOL. I haven’t updated in so long I’m so crusty and rusty.

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I finally was at peace.

I was bundled up in fluffy blankets with the fuzziest pair of socks I owned as I lean lazily against Jungkook on his bed. I yawn tossing the controller to the feet of the mattress, “Ah Jungkook you keep losing I don’t wanna play against you anymore.”

He groans tossing his controller near mine as well, “I don’t understand how you got better than me considering that I taught you how to play.”

I contort my face to flash him an unflattering expression before flopping onto my back, “This is one thing that I am better at than you, just let me have this won’t you?”

Jungkook scoffs flopping down beside me, “I’m exhausted, I’m gonna take a nap,” he announces.

I hum in understanding, “Of course you will need to rest after I practically creamed you in the game!” I laughed causing him to let out an adorable whine.

As I lay in the soft mattress all warm and snuggled up beside the younger male I started to drift off as well.

SLAM

“Hey Jungkook, can I borrow-”

I jolt awake partially delirious as I squint towards the creak in the door. Jimin.

“Oh…you’re here too.”

“Yeah…” I mumble rubbing the sleep from my eyes.

Jungkook yawns as he pushes himself up on his elbows, “What is it hyung?”

Jimin shakes his head causing his fluffy blush coloured hair to sway, “Never mind that, why are you two sleeping together?”

“Huh? We’re just taking a nap,” Jungkook says with a cocked brow.

I wasn’t expecting this reaction from the usually happy-go-lucky Jimin but he clicks his tongue with a disgusted scoff. I knit my brows together at his reaction.

Jimin laughs without a single strand of humour in his tone, “Are you seriously that low? Hitting on a kid because I dumped you?”

My heart dropped to my stomach at his harsh words, something that was completely new to me. I swallow thickly as I feel my hands start to cramp up, “E-Excuse me?”

“Hyung!” Jungkook shouts jumping up from the bed to approach the shorter male, “You do not talk to (Y/N) noona like that. Also I’m not a kid nor was she ‘hitting’ on me.”

Jimin combs his hair back with his fingers. I could feel the irritation rolling off his shoulders as I watch his exposed eyebrows fuse together. “I take that back, I can’t believe you are hitting on her. You always have to copy me huh?”

Jungkook sighs evidently trying to hold back his growing irritation from the same insult he never can go a day without hearing. I roll my eyes at Jimin’s childish behaviour, “What do you want Jimin?”

“For you to move out,” he flatly answers, “I can’t watch you pursue my brothers,” he adds as he crosses his arms over his chest.

Even though I was annoyed at Jimin I couldn’t help the little giggle that escapes, “I’m not.”

Jimin sighs, “Jungkook and you, it’s so obvious. You probably always liked him even when you were dating me.”

I laugh shaking my head, “I see Jungkook nothing more than a little brother and you know that Jimin.”

Jungkook nods, “I think you are blinded by anger hyung. You know I love noona but not like that.”

A little giggle rips through Jimin’s throat making him look utterly hysterical. He throws his head back with a hand cupped over his face, “Go on! Explain! Because I don’t know!”

“Okay fine, I’m miserable and I still love you. Does that satisfy you now?” I lock my gaze onto Jimin’s unwavering ice-cold eyes.

He doesn’t say anything but immediately all the anger washes away and his features grow soft again. The sudden out of character hostility vanishes as fast as it came. If I wasn’t so hurt by his words and the way he looked at me with complete disgust I would’ve thought it never happened. But the dull ache in my chest was too real. Jimin doesn’t love me the way I love him anymore.

“I’ll move out by tomorrow okay?” I softly explain, tired, so tired to fight for my right to stay. I wouldn’t consider it defeat, I just didn’t see the point in trying to stay in his life when I clearly didn’t belong in it.

Jimin swallows thickly. I watch him carefully as his hand clenches and his eyes dart about the floor as if he’s looking for words to say. “I…” his voice cracks, “Soo Young actually wants to stay the night here…it’s going to thunderstorm tonight and she doesn’t like them. I – I don’t want her to be scared alone or feel uncomfortable with you here.” His large brown doe eyes locks onto mine before he lowers his gaze to his feet once again, “Sorry…”

“It’s okay!” I smile.

It’s not.

“I’ll pack up right now. Don’t worry I’ll be fast just give me ten minutes.” Words are spewing out like my brain is on autopilot. I couldn’t hear Jungkook’s protests as the deafening ringing sound echoes in my head. My body moves on its own accord as I stumble past Jimin to his room to throw in whatever article of clothing my hand snatches into my duffle bag. Out of haste with the race against my rising anxiety I bump into the last person I wanted to see as I exit the room.

“(Y/N),” Jimin softly speaks, “I’m sorry about what I said. And I’m sorry about all this…it’s just that it makes me so angry that when I saw you with Jungkook. I don’t know what gotten into me.”

I close my eyes and counted to five before I could look at him in the eye, but I couldn’t muster up any words to reassure him that his words didn’t hurt. I wanted to tell him that I was scared of the storm tonight too. I wanted to tell him that this storm between us scares me the most and I just need him to hold me tight and say that this was all some cruel payback joke for eating his leftovers last week. But I knew all too well that it’s over. Any false hope that the feelings he harbours for me went out the door the moment he looked at me with those eyes that were filled to the brim with hatred.

I couldn’t find a reply for Jimin in my jumbled brain before Jungkook rushes down the hallway with his own haphazardly zipped duffle bag swinging by his side with a shirt still hanging out the flap. The wide panic in his eyes from the thought of me leaving the apartment for good was clear as day in his innocent eyes.

I hold up my hand to stop him in his tracks, “Jungkook, I need you to stay here.”

“But…you’re scared of thunderstorms too,” he answers simply.

“There’s scarier things out there than thunderstorms, Jungkook. I’ll be okay.”

Like your entire world falling apart at your feet.

“It’s dark out. It isn’t safe,” he argues on.

“I’ll be okay.”

I think I’m saying that phrase too much. I’ll be okay. Maybe my brain subconsciously thinks that if I keep reciting those words I would actually believe it.

I cast a final look at Jimin. I muster up a small smile as I wave my hand, “Good night.”

I feel a pang of guilt in my heart as I take a final look at Jungkook. I didn’t want to be alone, I wanted to be with my little brother. But for some reason I didn’t want Jimin to be upset over the fact that I find comfort in Jungkook. It was stupid that I still cared about Jimin’s immature act of jealousy when all he does was cause my heart to ache. I guess he had me wrapped around his finger more than I ever realized.

“She’s right,” a quite meek voice broke the silence as I slipped on my boots, “thunder isn’t so scary…I can go home Jiminnie. She can stay.”

“Don’t speak nonsense Soo Young, you told me how terrified you were earlier today! I’ll protect you don’t worry.”

I look up from my partially laced shoes to see the lucky woman who swept Jimin off his feet. Her face shined bright at his words and she gave him a smile that was as beautiful as his own. He was right, they were perfect for each other. She nestled perfectly in his chest as he pulls her tight. I stood there watching them like an idiot until they pull apart to awkwardly look back at me. I open my mouth but my throat was too dry. I felt like I was suffocating on sand. I look at her to Jimin’s bashful pink dusted face. An embarrassing strangled noise surfaced in my throat causing my cheeks to flush with warmth, dipping my head in apology I fumble with the doorknob in a haste to escape with the little dignity I had left.

That night I huddled in a little ball of blankets in a run down motel that I settled for to escape the pouring rain. With hands clamped over my ears I rock myself as tears streamed down my cheek to the dampened pillow.

I really hated the thunder.

I screamed.

Jimin shot awake beside me.

“What’s wrong?!”

I shake my head as hot tears bubble over.

The heart monitor erratically spiking at the sudden panic that washed over my body due to the distant rumble. Jimin slips from the plastic chair and into the small reclined hospital bed. He pulls me tightly into his chest as I continued to sob.

“You don’t have to be afraid! I promise to protect you, (Y/N).”

That was seven years ago.

Seven years has past since I lost my parents in a car crash due to an extremely bad storm. I remember loud rumbles before a louder blaring sounded and I watched from the back seat as a bright light blinded me in the eyes. I found myself laying on my side as warmth trickled down my temple. Darkness consumed me and the last thing I heard before slipping into unconsciousness was the rumble of thunder.

“I promise to hold you tight during every storm so you know that you aren’t alone.”

Thank you for those seven years of comfort.

I cried myself to sleep just like that night at the hospital. The only difference being that Jimin wasn’t by my side to hold me tight.

[gwynne-fics]

Board Meetings

equilibrium

Young-Do smiled at the selfie Eun-Hee sent him. He showed it to Hyun-Shik and his assistant tilted his head. “She looks like one of those scary beetles she’s always wanting to play with. All she is missing is a hat with horns.”

“I think that’s the draw. Rachel made this for her. I’m glad you noticed.” He sent a text back to Eun-Hee to tell her she looked very handsome. Bo-Na would hate it but Eun-Hee liked being handsome.

He texted the picture to Rachel, just in case Eun-Hee hadn’t thought to share her giddiness. Eun-Hee is adorable. I’m so glad she’s happy. She’s already sent me an email with very thorough notes.

Young-Do grinned to himself as he tried to get through the reports Hyun-Shik kept sticking on his desk. He wondered why Rachel thought she wasn’t cut out to be a good mother. She handled Eun-Hee beautifully while not making Bo-Na feel undermined as a parent. He couldn’t image she’d be anything less with their children. Young-Do knew they would need a nanny to help out but Seoul was full of great nannies.

A few minutes later he got another text, this time from Myung-Soo, so he put that line of thought aside.

You’re neglecting me, oppa. Come out tonight with me and Ye-Sol. Bring Rachel. Let’s check out your club competition. High Rise Squared opens tonight. I’m on the list. You can go incognito. Please, oppa? Please?

Let me check with Rachel.

He immediately dialed her and liked how quickly she answered. “I might be late tonight,” she said unhappily. “Elaine...I keep trying to explain to her that I don’t do hanbok, she has to wear one as mother of the groom, and she is not young enough to pull off the more contemporary hanbok styles that are popping up. How is your afternoon going?”

“Myung-Soo invited us to go clubbing with him and his girlfriend. We usually go out around eight, dance, eat, and then dance some more before I go home early because I’m an old man. I thought it might let us blow off steam before our next round of meetings in Bangkok. We haven’t had a night out since...”

“Your mother.” She was quiet for a moment. “I won’t be able to get there until after nine. Convincing Elaine Park is going to take awhile and Michael won’t be here to help me. But if you don’t mind, I think that sounds fun.”

“Alright. I’ll tell him yes. Do you mind if I go early? I haven’t really spent time with Myung-Soo since we went to the villa. He’s an important friend and I’ve been neglecting him.”

“Of course not. You know how important I think friends are.” Then she suddenly laughed. “Also, you are too besotted with me to look at another woman let alone dance with her.”

“That’s fair.” He felt his ears heat. “I might end up dancing with his girlfriend.”

“I’m not uncomfortable with that. I would rather have the truth than anything else. It only becomes a problem if you try to hide it. Honesty works best even if the truth leads to panic attacks.”

“I’d rather avoid those. I look forward to seeing you tonight. I like our dates.”

“Me, too.” He could hear the smile in her voice. “I’ll text you the details. It’s not a club I’ve been to. Text me when you get there. I don’t know what kind of a line there will be and I don’t want you to wait.”

He could feel her eyebrows go up. “Young-Do, I am a very attractive woman in high heels and short skirt. I’ve never waited to get into a club.”

“It could happen,” he muttered as he flushed and he liked her little laugh.

“Not likely.” Young-Do had to admit she was right when she texted him twice that night--to tell him that she was leaving the office and then again when she told him to come find her on the dance floor.

Having gone dancing with Rachel once, he knew that he better grab her a water bottle and make her drink it or she got a headache later. Myung-Soo caught him at the bar and then jerked his head at the dance floor.

“She’s dancing with Ye-Sol. I think she’s about to steal my girlfriend. I didn’t know they knew each other.” Young-Do looked over at the floor and saw Rachel dancing with two women. They looked like they were having a lot of fun until...

“I don’t think that’s Ye-Sol.”

“Fuck. I’ll get her out of here.”

“No,” he said immediately as Rachel said something into Eun-Sang’s ear that had his ex-girlfriend blushing as she looked back at her fiance. “I think Rachel’s kind of become her friend. She won’t understand. It’s not my club. Eun-Sang and her fiance have as much right to be here as we do.”

“Will you stop being so reasonable for one damn minute and just be angry at her for what she did to you?”

“I’m not angry,” he said honestly as he turned away from the scene on the dance floor. Michael Park was dancing behind Eun-Sang and Eun-Sang was clearly enthralled by Rachel. They seemed lost in their own world. He knew the feeling. He felt frozen whenever Rachel look at him like that. “I came out of it, Myung-Soo. I got my shit together and came out of it.”

He turned away and ordered two bottled waters. He handed one to Myung-Soo for Ye-Sol and his friend just glowered. “I got your shit together and dragged you out of it.”

“I know. I’m grateful. You know I’m grateful.”

“If Rachel does that to you, I won’t stand by.”

“Yes, you will.” Young-Do looked at him seriously as Rachel and Ye-Sol came up to them. It was kind of cute how they were holding hands. “Because I’ll ask you to and you won’t want to make it worse.” He smiled when Rachel came up and kissed him. “I didn’t know you two knew each other.”

“She does my hair. We met at her salon.” She eagerly took the water from him and then pouted. “You didn’t come find me.”

“How could he?” Myung-Soo snapped at her. “You were dancing with his ex-girlfriend.”

Rachel looked mildly taken aback. “I’m in a professional relationship with her. Her relationship to my friend and business partner is very important to me as I’m responsible for her wedding dress. I had to warn her that her mother-in-law is cranky and might take it out on her. They never take it out on their sons. I wanted Michael to know so he could manage his mother correctly.” She looked up at Young-Do and he noticed that she’d started to tremble. “I didn’t know this bothered you.”

“Myung-Soo,” Young-Do said before he could get worked up. “I asked you not to do this. It doesn’t bother me. I was just surprised to see you dancing with her. That’s all.”

She sighed and drank nearly all of the bottle in one breath. Her eyes were wet. “I need you to tell me these things. I’m not going to think of them myself. I don’t see women as my competition so I don’t avoid them. I like her. I don’t know why I shouldn’t.”

“Because she--”

“Stop it,” Ye-Sol cut in and glared at Myung-Soo. “You need to shut up. This is not how you welcome your best friend’s new girlfriend into our circle.” She took Rachel’s hand and then Young-Do’s. “He’s being an asshole. Come on, Young-Do. Let’s go dance.”

Rachel just looked bewildered by everything so Young-Do tried to get her to a place where they could talk. “I’m sorry about that. He shouldn’t have--”

“All of your friends are very protective of you,” she said when she looked up at him. “It’s uncomfortable because they assume I’m going to hurt you. I don’t like that assumption because I love you and don’t like hurting you. That is never my intention. What am I doing that’s so wrong? After their wedding I can avoid her if you like.”

“You are not doing anything wrong.” He cupped her cheeks. “I love what we have. I think what we have is good. I’m not worried you’re going to hurt me. You’re right. Their assumptions are unfair. I will talk to them.”

He started to lead her back to the dance floor but she stopped short and her grip on his hand tightened dramatically. “Do you consider what I was doing with Eun-Sang and Ye-Sol cheating?”

[xennariel]

@hyah-through-hyrule @magewardensurana @royai-is-love

Thanks for sending these! Since Surana asked for all of them for FMA, I figured I’d just screenshot your asks and @ you all and include any of my fandoms. FMA is my major fandom so that’s what it’s pretty much going to cover anyway. And sorry it took so long to answer. I reblogged that meme right when I had to leave to a family bbq.

1. What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?* - I think my fellow FMA fans will know this one already, but uh, R*yed, Elricest... Also HavocxRiza. But I mean, I guess I understand why people might ship that one, I just don’t like it at all. Kind of makes me uncomfortable for some reason. And AlucardxSeras for sure. He’s clearly a father figure and, ya know, Seras had a love interest who actually became a part of her in a strangely romantic kind of way.

2. Are there any popular fandom OTPs you only BroTP?* - I guess HavocxRiza would fall under this, but it’s not exactly a popular otp so I’m not sure it counts. Roy and Ed, obviously. Uh... LinaxGourry. It’s the canon pairing and while I almost always ship the canon pairings, I only sort of kind of ship them.

3. Have you ever unfollowed someone over a fandom opinion? - Ummmm, once? I think? Oh no no, a few times actually. When I got back into the FMA fandom, I went on an FMA blog following spree and I ended up following a couple of blogs that didn’t outright ship R*yed, but they thought it was okay if people shipped it and they seemed to lowkey ship it so I got right the hell out of there. I think those were the only times? I can’t remember now. The only other time I unfollowed someone was when they made a rude comment on a post of mine even though I wasn’t saying anything mean or anything. The comment seemed out of nowhere and I was upset about it so I unfollowed, which was sad since I kind of thought the person was nice up until that point. Oh and I have unfollowed people for posting copious amounts of uncredited fanart.

4. Do you have a NoTP in your fandom? Are they a popular OTP?* - Obviously R*yed and Elr*cest. RizaxHavoc. SerasxAlucard in Hellsing. SlitxNux in Mad Max: Fury Road. NoctisxPrompto in FFXV. And yes they are all pretty popular OTPs in the fandoms, with the exception of RizaxHavoc which I don’t see too much of.

5. Has fandom ever ruined a pairing for you?* - Yeah. I was pretty meh about SlitxNux and could have ignored it, until that was the only pairing I was seeing on my dash. They had no chemistry whatsoever and I hated having to see that pairing on my dashall  the time. I eventually figured out how to download Tumblr Savior and blocked it, but until then I had to put up with it if I wanted to remain in the fandom. It was like the only ship anyone shipped so there wouldn’t have been any more MMFR blogs to follow. lol

6. Has fandom ever made you enjoy a pairing you previously hated?* - Uh, I don’t think so. Once I hate a pairing, I don’t ever really start to like it. There’s a reason I hate something.

7. Is there anything you used to like but can’t stand now?* - When I first got back into the FMA/Royai fandom last year, I liked young Royai. But, I reread the manga again since then and also watched Brotherhood again and there definitely was nothing going on between Roy and Riza when they were younger and the more I think about it, the more I dislike young Royai. The way they interact at her father’s funeral is too formal and impersonal. Also, it seems that Riza is at least two to three years younger than Roy and she would be too young for there to be something romantic between them. If he was 15 she’d be 12 and we then run into the same issue I have with R*yed, but on a much smaller scale.

8. Have you received anon hate? What about?*- I don’t think so? I misread an anon message once and thought the person was sending hate, but then after responding, I read the message again and realized I read it wrong and I still feel really bad about my snippy response. =(

9. Most disliked character(s)? Why? - Haha, oh boy, here we go. Tracer from Overwatch. From the get go her personality annoyed the hell out of me. Chibiusa from Sailor Moon. Again, from the get go her personality annoyed me. She was such a brat. Thrall from World of Warcraft. Fucking Green Jesus. Someone kill him already. Malfurion from World of Warcraft. Annoying asshole. He needs to die too. And he looks absolutely fucking ridiculous to boot. There’s no one in FMA I especially hate.

10. Most disliked arc? Why? - Uhhh, in FMA... Look I loved the Briggs characters. Olivier is one of my favorite characters ever. And Buccaneer is rad af and I love him. But it’s my least favorite arc because my two absolute favorite characters, Roy and Riza, are not really in it. As for other fandoms, I could write a book about why the Warlords of Draenor expansion sucked so royally on World of Warcraft.

11. Is there an unpopular character you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why? - Envy. People rightfully hate him, but I’m usually drawn to creepy/evil/sadistic characters and yes I did cry the first time I read/watched him die. I also love Pride for the same reason. Evil/scary characters are my jam.

12. Is there an unpopular arc that you like that the fandom doesn’t? Why? - I loved Mists of Pandaria (WoW expansion), okay? It was a great expansion with great raiding (except SOO, I admit) and I like the Pandaren and the lore was great and haters can stfu. It was better than Cata and Draenor or even those combined. (Oh god what a horror it would be combining those two terrible expansions. I want to die just thinking about it.) I can’t think of any other series I like that had arcs though... (besides FMA, but I cant’ say I particularly hate any of FMA’s arcs.) It’s been years since I’ve kept up with any long series and I’m no longer really a fan of any of the ones I used to like a lot (Fushigi Yuugi for example.)

13. Unpopular opinion about XXX character? - Didn’t get any specific character for this so do you just want me to rant about stuff I dislike about characters? Um... A lot of people hate the fact that Roy used the philosopher’s stone to restore his eyesight and think that it’s a horrible thing for him to do. I disagree. What else were they going to do with it? It was already created. They would have just thrown all those lives away for nothing? At least by restoring Roy’s eyesight he went on to restore Ishval and help the Ishvalans that were still alive. He did good things by using that stone and it didn’t go to waste by being thrown away or used for something less.

14. Unpopular opinion about your fandom?- The Hellsing fandom posts way too much reposted art and I hate it. I only follow two Hellsing blogs because of this. I want to be a part of the fandom here because it’s been, like, eight years, but I just refuse to be a part of a community that readily posts and reblogs uncredited fanart. Same goes for the FMA fandom as of late. Get your shit together, guys. Also half of the FMA fandom ships a gross ship so that’s cringey. The fandom can also get pretty “clique-y.” People stick to certain kinds of people and don’t include others, and I mean, I can get this way too sometimes unintentionally, but it’s bad when you’re actively trying to communicate and they ignore you because you’re not popular enough or whatever the hell the reason is. Apparently if you’re not making fantastic art or writing amazing sagas, you don’t get to be a part of their space.

15. Unpopular opinion about the manga/show? - So... Please don’t hate me for this, but, um, when I first got into FMA back in, like, 2002-2004, I liked Ed and Al a lot. But the anime veered off in a direction I didn’t like so I got out of the series, but when I returned to the fandom last year, the sole reason was because of Roy and Riza. Don’t get me wrong, Ed and Al are great, but now that I’m older, I don’t...like them as much. (I think it’s maybe because I’m older so I don’t identify with Ed and Al anymore?) But, I’d much rather watch a show with Roy and Riza as the main characters and Ed and Al having a back seat. *dodges tomatoes* I’m so sorry! I even skipped around a bit in the manga and Brotherhood just to get to the Roy and Riza parts. Their story and characters interest me far more.

As for Hellsing, the war with Millennium seemed a little anticlimactic. I think Hirano could have done better, but he rushed it? Like, that whole ending scene of that one manga chapter where Alucard jumps down from a building and faces off with Anderson and Captain and we got that, like, tri-split panel? That was way cool, but it went nowhere. I was expecting some epic showdown, but they all just went off and did their own thing and Anderson and Alucard fought only each other later on. And Seras was the one that fought Captain. And then that whole thing with Islands in that undertaker looking getup talking about how they were going to nuke London to end the war. That never went anywhere. I was just a little disappointed in the war as a whole, though the parts we did get were great.

16. If you could change anything in the show, what would you change? - For FMA, it was pretty heavily implied that Roy and Riza had feeling for each other, but I would have liked that more confirmed. Like, a brush of their hands at the end of the final fight or something. Something small, but notable? Just ANYTHING. lol We got confirmation for AlucardxIntegra in the last chapter of fucking Hellsing and that was certainly not a romance series either.

17. Instead of XYZ happening, I would have made ABC happen… - Again, I didn’t get any specifics for this so I’m not going to answer this one. If you want to send me something specific, shoot.

18. Does not shipping something ‘popular’ mean you’re in denial and/or biased? - LOL No, of course not. Especially if said popular ship is not canon or heavily implied to be canon. If it’s just a popular ship people want to be canon, no one is in any way in denial about not shipping it. Or maybe someone just doesn’t like the ship or has some kind of issues with it. People are allowed to hate stuff others like.

19. What is the one thing you hate most about your fandom? - For FMA, the half of the fandom that ships gross ships. The people that seem to ignore anyone that doesn’t have perfect fanart or fanfiction that meets their standards. The people that decide they won’t talk to you just because you said you didn’t like a certain thing. (I know this is vague, but I don’t really want to start shit.)

20. What is the purest ship in the fandom? - Edwin and Royai.

21. What are your thoughts on crack ships? - Not a fan. Crack anything is usually a turn off for me. I’m picky enough about the ships I read fanfics for, crack ruins it.

22. Popular character you hate? - Slit in the MMFR fandom. I hate that character so fucking much. And I actually think my hate for him is thanks to the fandom. Tracer from Overwatch. Thrall... Is he popular? I feel like I see more hate for him than I do positive things for him. Chibiusa from Sailor Moon. Seras from Hellsing. Look, I don’t hate hate her. She’s just my least favorite main character. >_> Oz from Pandora Hearts.

23. Unpopular character you love? - Envy, Pride (is he unpopular?)... I don’t really know who the ‘unpopular’ characters in most of my fandoms are so this is a tough one to answer.

24. Would you recommend XXX to a friend? Why or why not? - Can’t answer this one either. Send me something if you want an answer.

25. How would you end XXX/Would you change the ending of XXX? - Same as above.

26. Most shippable character? - I’m not really a multishipper. But I guess Roy is certainly shippable. Alucard from Hellsing too.

27. Least shippable character? - Kimblee. He’s hot, but slimy. Major from Hellsing. He’s overall a creep. 

[you-did-well-my-love]

Drama Review: Strong Woman Do Bong Soon

There are a few grievances I have with the drama, and unfortunately they’re not small grievances, but overall I really enjoyed the drama.

Rating: 4/5 I rated it a 9/10 on mydramalist, but i’m thinking about lowering it to an 8.5 tbh...

OST: I wasn’t a fan of the superpower girl song they played, but I know that some people really liked it and were dying for the song to be released. Just depends on your taste I guess.

Genre: Romantic Comedy

Synopsis:  Do Bong Soon is a woman with superhuman strength. With her strength she gets hired as the bodyguard of the spoiled CEO of the gaming company Ainsoft, Ahn Min Hyuk. Min Hyuk is being threatened by an unknown enemy, and is determined to solve the problem himself out of his distaste and distrust of the police. In Guk Doo is a policeman and Bong Soon’s crush since childhood. When series of kidnappings occur in Bong Soon’s small, quiet neighborhood Dobong-dong, their little community is thrown into chaos. Combined with the job of protecting her boss’s life, Bong Soon’s already unusual life has gone wild. However, she must be careful; if she missuses her strength, she could lose it forever. (this is the mydramalist description which... hehe... i wrote)

Trigger Warning: Domestic abuse. Bong Soon’s mom was abusive towards her dad. The writers obviously intended it in a comedic way, and I think part of it is gender roles like they didn’t see the problem because *mocking tone* “men can’t get abused right?” *eye role* but it was really uncomfortable to watch. And I’m pretty sure they saw the negative comments about it because they tried to go and take it back in the finale, but even then it was still problematic. She was still verbally abusive too. 

Thoughts/Review: (no spoilers maybe a little minor general stuff)

Although I absolutely adored the cast, I went in with really low expectations because I thought the plot was ridiculous. It exceeded my expectations, and I really thought this would make my favorites list at the start, but the drama became kind of messy towards the end. Particularly with their “comic relief” side plots, which I will rant about later.

Park Bo Young, in her typical cute nature, plays a super strong badass. The writers, I thought, did a nice job introducing her powers. They clearly stated the family history and how she must use them for good, and I appreciated the straightforwardness.

It wasn’t just her abilities, the writers set up everything you needed to know quickly and cleanly:

Our two leads have an indirect history with each other

the women in her family pass down this power of super strength that cannot be abused or there will be punishment

Our female lead’s desire

The CEO needs a bodyguard

And the story moves on from there.

The effects weren’t very high quality, but they were done in a cheesy and comedic way so it didn’t really matter. I mean this wasn’t a dark, gritty, Goblin/City Hunter/Hearer/Descendants of the Sun action-type drama. It was cute and comedic with lots of bright colors and ridiculous characters.

It didn’t stop at the super powers; cheesy effects would appear around the characters too. I.e. hearts appearing around the boy she likes. 

The drama was just really extra, but in a cute way.

I also really appreciated the wit in the dialogue. 

Okay so confession: I adore boss/employee romances. There’s something about them that I find thrilling; it’s why I enjoyed Just You so much. And Introverted Boss. And Rich Man Poor Woman.

Love. Them.

So while this isn’t your typical office romance, and it is by no means a business drama, it still had a few of those romance in the office elements that I like.

But before I jump completely into the romance, I want to talk about the characters.

Park Bo Young, I have loved her since A Werewolf Boy, and I am so glad she was the lead in this drama. She fit the character perfectly and her acting was phenomenal. Her expressions and emotions were so real. The way she cried was so realistic I was thoroughly impressed. Shame on the people who complained about her crying, it was 10x better than those actresses who worry about looking pretty when they cry, or just make the face but don’t release a tear. 

And I just loved the character Do Bong Soon. She was a sassy, quirky, bundle of joy. I loved how she didn’t take anyone’s shit, she helped those who she saw in need, and she was caring of those around her.

Hyungsik. This was the role I had been waiting for him to get. I fell in love with him during High Society, and I saw his potential for a good romance drama as the lead, but that drama overall was shit. When he was cast as the lead for this, I was thrilled, and he did not disappoint. Plus the way he strut around everywhere was just hot. The boy is just so good at acting.

And his character. Ahn Min Hyuk, the boy was whipped by Bong Soon the first moment he laid eyes on her and it was fantastic. Half-an-hour into episode one. HALF. AN. HOUR. AND HE WAS WHIPPED. He accepted Do Bong Soon for who she was the moment he saw her; all of her. He respected her. And he waited until she was ready and came to him first before he made any moves. I don’t think any writers will ever be able to top the masterpiece that was Ahn Min Hyuk. (In the chaebol category at least, I’m still not over Eun Hwan Gi or Seo Jung Hoo for that matter. Sorry not sorry.) Ahn Min Hyuk is truly one of a kind.

In Guk Doo bugged the shit out of me. There. I said it. It sucks because I love Ji Soo, but this was not the role for him. Tbh, I don’t think he suited being a cop, but I hate the type of character he played in general. Those guys who start getting controlling of the girl after she starts to shift her crush to someone else. Always yelling and getting angry. Entitled bleeps who think they can decide the girl’s feelings. He was always cold to her even when they were supposed to be “friends.” I could go on, but I made my point. He became more tolerable towards the end of the drama when he started to actually do his job. Needless to say, there’s no worries for sls here. *thumbs up*

Also he was a terrible cop and should have had his badge suspended for excessive force.

I will admit: while Guk Doo annoyed me, the three of them really had good chemistry together.

The romantic chemistry, though, was off the charts. If you’re reading this and have only minimal knowledge on what this drama is about, I can almost guarantee that minimal knowledge is about the romance because it’s all anybody’s going to be talking about for the next century. 

Right from the beginning Park Bo Young and Hyungsik had amazing chemistry. You could tell they were really comfortable with each other. Their energy was always so high and bouncing back and forth; it was addicting. When they bickered, it was really quick, so the timing was perfect and then combined with their expressions it had this amazing effect.

Then their relationship started to progress and it was such a sweet, innocent slow-burn. Confession, confirmation of feelings, hug, kiss. Innocent and gradual.

All of their scenes together were phenomenal, and I will never get over the fact that Min Hyuk’s eyes just dripped with honey every time he looked at Do Bong Soon. Never.

The plot was interesting. The kidnappings were thrilling, and the mystery behind Min Hyuk’s attacker held my attention. Then about halfway through the drama, it seemed like the writers got lazy.

There were fillers. Bits of comedic relief that were kept minimal in the beginning. But then towards the middle/end they developed into “plots” of their own except they weren’t sideplots, they didn’t have a conflict nor did they do shit to actually move the story along like a sideplot is supposed to. They had no purpose. None. Yet by the end of the drama, they took up half of the airtime. I am so beyond annoyed at all of the wasted time. I thought they were pretty funny at first, but by around episode 12, I was done. This is the main reason why I can’t give the drama a higher rating, because of the hill the writers tumbled down.

There were other aspects of the plot I found lazy, things were I thought “They couldn’t come up with a better way to do this or reveal that?” but I’m not going to specify because they’re major spoilers.

Now I’m going to address the elephant in the room: the implied sexism and implied homophobia. 

So obviously you get a drama about a literal strong woman, there’s going to be some feminist vibes. And that’s what they were totally going for with Do Bong Soon and all the women in her family. There was this one time she faced some sexist dude with his car. If my memory serves me right, there was also a time she talked with her mom about how women have it harder. BUT there were also many times the dialogue had, like, implied sexism, if you know what I mean? Particularly whenever they mentioned the kidnapper. OR, the big one, how weak women are more attractive to men. Which brings me back as to why Min Hyuk was so amazing, because he constantly found Bo Soon’s strength attractive.

And now for Min Hyuk’s sexuality. This bothered me for a number of reasons, not because of anything Bong Soon or Min Hyuk said, but because of everything surrounding them. Bong Soon wasn’t bothered whatsoever by what she thought Min Hyuk’s sexuality was, and I appreciated that. But there were comments from other characters that I felt held implied homophobia. Particularly in everything Bong Soon’s mom said. And I get it “Korea’s a more conservative society” “the older generations would think that way” blah blah blah. Doesn’t change anything. Also I saw a lot of talk about queerbaiting when this was going on, which is entirely problematic on its own. Sure some of our leads’ interactions were funny, and I was fully convinced Min Hyuk didn’t care about his sexuality, but all of the context (the setting, the other characters, and the dialogue) all embody the reasons I am hesitant to watch Personal Taste.

Continuing on with the homophobia: THE DAMN DOPPLEGANGER. This actually fits into two sections: homophobia and the laziness of the writers as this character was one of the pointless “comedic relief” “sideplots”. This character was completely unnecessary. Completely. I couldn’t stand him. His character was based entirely off of exaggerating and making jokes about gay stereotypes and it seemed like a complete mockery of gay men.

I’ve tried to push all of these agitating bits out of my mind and only focus on the good: Park Bo Young and Park Hyungsik who did a fantastic job carrying this entire drama.

The ending was sweet. I was proud of Bong Soon. It felt a bit rushed in my opinion; they forced a lot to happen in a short period of time (episode length-wise not drama timeline). They also just completely tossed aside main characters. 

I’ll end it on a high note: I adored the use of symbolism with Bong Soon and the closet. Those of you who actually made it to the end of this long-ass “review” and have already seen the drama will know what I’m talking about. I legitimately thought it was beautiful. 

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Finished on 4/15/17

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Pictures -- Rachel & Hyo-Shin

not ready

Choi Young-Do bent down and removed a knife from Kwan Do-Woo’s throat. Hyo-Shin wanted to gather his thoughts faster than he could. He came here to catch this man attempting to kill Kim Ha-Sun. Hyo-Shin moved her to another city, another life, but kept everything in Seoul in her name so this trash would make a mistake and he could put him back in prison. “What are you doing here?”

“What do you think?” Choi Young-Do had a drawl that never failed to make him feel stupid and lazy. He looked up at Hyo-Shin with a smirk that just infuriated him. “This is not your job.”

“Why did Rachel send you?”

Choi Young-Do gave a quiet little laugh as he sheathed his knife and put it in his pocket. He didn’t bother to wipe it off but Hyo-Shin saw no sign of blood on his clothes. It should surprise him but after everything he learned about the gun from Chang-Soo, Hyo-Shin didn’t have the energy to be surprised.

Hyun-Joo got back from her conference today. She hadn’t debriefed them yet.

“Please consider,” Choi Young-Do said lazily, “That if you call for backup or tell anyone what you saw, you will have to explain yourself. A man is dead but this was clearly not a death deal. He pulled a gun on me. I can claim self-defense. I’m not sure what you can claim.”

Fuck. He didn’t complete the deal. They knew next to nothing about how a death dealer took the life force of their victims. The eyes were still intact. Choi Young-Do reached into his suit jacket and pulled out his phone.

“I’m sorry to wake you. I’ve got a situation. Lee Hyo-Shin...had a similar idea. No one has seen us yet.” His brows lowered and Hyo-Shin noticed how many of the streetlights were out. It was a like a giant cloak of darkness covered Choi Young-Do. It was the same on the CCTV footage Park Hee-Nam gave to the task force. “He had a gun. I’d rather not tax my wife tonight.” Young-Do sighed and scratched at his eyebrows before he hung up.

“Why did she send you? It isn’t going to work. I’m not going to—“

“Clench your ass or you’ll shit yourself.”

“What?” Hyo-Shin’s chest burned and he felt himself yanked to another location. He felt buildings and cars and lights move around him. He smelled nearly all of the city. Sounds of…people…nearly deafened him. He fell to his knees and vomited when it all stopped.

“At least he clenched,” Choi Young-Do said. “I’ll call a maid.”

It took a few seconds for his vision to clear. He’d only been in the penthouse suite once, to comfort Rachel, but he recognized it immediately as he got to his feet. Rachel stood a few meters away from them. She was beautiful. She was always beautiful. But there was a burn mark on her nightgown, over her left breast, and he watched her wipe her hands free of…ash?

Eun-Sang stood next to her, her hand on Rachel’s stomach and lower back. “Everything’s fine,” she said with relief. “Nothing went wrong.”

Rachel smiled over at her. “I told you it would be fine. Hyo-Shin is here. My life, our daughter’s life, we aren’t in danger when he’s home.”

He flinched and forced himself not to look away from her. Rachel hugged Eun-Sang and kissed her cheek before the kindness left her face. “I would like some privacy, please.”

There was only a slight hesitation before Choi Young-Do and Cha Eun-Sang left them. Hyo-Shin ran his hand over his mouth and wished he knew what to say to her. She just stood there, considering him, and his discomfort grew.

“This is not my home. Rachel—“

“It could be,” she said lightly. “It will soon be the only safe place in this world for you. Does it bother you to have someone else clean up your failures?”

“You cannot do this!” He crossed the few steps between them and took her by the shoulders. “You have to stop! Hyun-Joo went to a conference, all about death dealers, just so she can make her case against Choi Young-Do stick. She is coming for you, Rachel. I’m doing everything I can to discredit her but you have to stop.”

Rachel gently touched his cheek and tilted her head. “You are the only one who can place Young-Do next to that body, my Eros.”

“Don’t call me that.” He gripped her fingers and intended to push her away. She’d called him that when she didn’t have his name and was simply…hers. “It makes me uncomfortable.”

“I do not want you to be comfortable. I want you to come home. I promise you, this would be your home. I could stop punishing you and we could be happy, Hyo-Shin. Stay tonight and tomorrow with me. See what it would be like to be my husband.”

He wanted that more than anything. He wanted to kiss her, to make love to her, to be with her. He wanted to quit his job and just…be hers. But that wouldn’t protect her. He was in love with a woman who found men for her brother to feed on. He wanted her to stop. Hyo-Shin wrapped his arms around her and hugged her tightly.

“I can’t. You know why I can’t.”

“I am telling you it is possible.” She took his hand and put it against the side of her belly. She was almost eight months along. She would have their baby soon. He knew she would never let him be a father without being her husband and it brought out a broken sob when their daughter started kicking against his palm. If he’d known, what he had to lose, the moment he looked at her in Zeus’ bar, Hyo-Shin never would’ve flirted with her. He would’ve walked right out and told Hyun-Joo to fuck herself. What kind of man deceives his soul mate the way he deceived her? What kind of man doesn’t stop when offered a career changing case at the expense of the best possible life being handed to him? His revulsion with himself must’ve shown because Rachel made a sad sound. “I am making it possible. Hyo-Shin, my love—“

The elevator dinged and a cleaning woman came into the suite. It cut Rachel off and they both broke apart. The maid swiftly and deftly cleaned up the mess he made when he landed at Rachel’s feet. Then she was gone and he remembered that there was no absolution for him. His chest burned and he wondered if there would be another tally mark. The three she gave him a month ago had faded. He would touch them when he showered and they always felt tender. “How did you even find Kwan Do-Woo?”

Rachel sighed sadly and pulled away from him. He felt cold in the wake of her. She sat down on the couch and the only correct response was to kneel at her side. “Your statistics and cases are a matter of public record. Anyone can find them. Kwan Do-Woo announced to everyone that he would kill her. Her family all knew. It could be anyone.”

She was right. She was better at creating reasonable doubt than he was at predicting what she would do. “How did you know I would be there tonight?”

“I always know where you are.” She looked so worn as she leaned back and closed her eyes. Hyo-Shin fretted at this exhaustion plaguing her. Was it really his fault or had she expended herself with the…Shit. She could pull people through space. Even if they did convict Choi Young-Do of being the Death Dealer of Seoul, they could never guarantee his sentence if Rachel could pull him to her.

What kind of a range did she have?

Hyun-Joo was right. It had to be both of them.

And he couldn’t do it. Even has his mind came up with a hundred different ways to link Rachel to these deaths, to link Choi Young-Do to his murders, and end this horrible battle, Hyo-Shin found his line. Not her. He reached out and tucked her hair behind her ears and watched her fall asleep. He curled his fingers in her nightgown and bowed his forehead to her hand.

“I have to protect you,” he whispered. “I will protect you. That’s why I can’t come home. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, Rachel.”

She made an adorable cranky noise. “I’m cold, Eros.”

He picked her up and brought her to her bed. He made sure her nightgown wouldn’t get caught in her knees and that her blankets weren’t too tightly tucked around her. Hyo-Shin stared at the bassinet she had set up within reach of her bed. He took off his suit jacket and sat down on the ground next to the nightstand.

He braced his forearms on his knees and tried to think through the possible consequences. He hadn’t been careful of the CCTV cameras. He knew he didn’t have a good enough excuse to be in that neighborhood. He’d mentioned to a few people that he was frustrated with the rumors coming out of the prison.

His fellow prosecutors didn’t understand. Once a case was done, it was done. He used to be like that. It was only after all this complication with Rachel that he even thought to look into the past. Hyo-Shin tried to take a deep breath but he was startled when Rachel’s bedroom door opened.

Eun-Sang stood there and crossed her arms under her chest. “Get out. If you’re not going to give her what she wants, if you’re not going to stay until at least the baby is born, get the fuck out of here.”

He didn’t want to leave but he got to his feet anyway. “The baby is healthy?”

Her face twisted in fury. “No,” she hissed. “Your daughter is not healthy. How can she be when she can’t feel her father loving her mother?”

“She isn’t even born yet—“

“You’ve seen what Rachel can do. You aren’t that stupid.” Hyo-Shin looked away from her and down at Rachel. The ever-present lump in his throat hurt as he swallowed. “You disgust me. You only consider changing your mind about your ridiculous morality when it comes to your child. Rachel is worth more than your neglect. Get. Out.”

“Eun-Sang,” Rachel said quietly. “I brought him here. He doesn’t have to leave.”

“Yes,” Eun-Sang said fiercely. “He does. I can’t watch it anymore, Rachel. He is killing you and I can’t watch it. Cut his tie to you. Please.”

“No,” Hyo-Shin whispered as Rachel slowly sat up. “No. I need it.”

“I don’t care about what you need,” Eun-Sang snarled as she stalked up to him. He took a step back. He did not want her to stop his heart again. “You obviously don’t give a shit about her. If you did, you would have been at every appointment. You would’ve come after her. You would’ve gotten on your knees and begged her to forgive you.”

“I don’t deserve it.”

“Said like a man who cannot love.” Her fingers hovered in the air between them and he prepared to feel…wrong…when she touched him.

“Eun-Sang!” Rachel scrambled out of bed and Hyo-Shin would never understand how she got between them so quickly. Eun-Sang gave a soft cry and curled her hand back as something forced her back several steps. Rachel’s fist was against her heart and Hyo-Shin smelled fire in the air. “I’m sorry, my wonderful and amazing sister, but I cannot let you hurt him. You lost your garden today. Please don’t take it out on him. He is not the one who wronged you.”

“It isn’t about that! Rachel, you can’t see what I’m seeing.” Eun-Sang began to cry and Rachel went up and wrapped her in a hug. “You can’t see what Bo-Na sees either. I cannot lose you. Not to this trash.”

Hyo-Shin picked up his suit jacket and put it on. He ignored the way Rachel’s face crumpled. “This cannot be my home,” he whispered. “You cannot force them to accept me when I don’t even accept that I have a right to be here.”

“They will get over it,” Rachel whispered. “I cannot protect you from what is coming until you accept that I am your home. Stay tonight and tomorrow. You will see what I can do.”

His phone vibrated and he used the distraction to keep from making a choice. He would always wonder how Rachel knew what was going to happen. There was no way she could make something like this happen on purpose.

There were four fresh bodies, three clearly death deals, two of them linked to his cases, and Kwan Do-Woo. When he looked up at Rachel she smiled coldly.

“Tell Jeon Hyun-Joo she is not ready to enter this game.”