#but that's why i 'jokingly' call them toxic yaoi. there's a lot of fucking baggage there. it's rough! it's fucking rough

[windupaidoneus]

i really do not talk enough abt how hilde's hair going white (which he can glamour but not dye. his hair no longer takes dye. important distinction. to him) wasn't only the like, constant visual reminder of his "monstrosity" (= sin eater shit, he never fully turned & his aether is no longer corrupted of course but the white hair is part of the things that like. mark him as having been irreversibly affected by the light, like the gilded/whitened scales, the blank white eyes & his legs now being digitigrade bc he did partially turn into a creature during the dying gasp) but also like. he arrived in eorzea with his hair bleached white. his garlean family had been forcing their own physical traits upon him & white hair was among them. you know? it all ties him back to garlemald. he can never escape garlemald.