#but that's why his wife hates him but wont divorce him

[the-acid-pear-art]

Butch of doodles of my latest wildermyth campaign team: miitopia. Silly beasts.

[sabaramonds]

long time no post CW for discussions of suicide & homophobia ahead as well as mentions of yunos sex work so in my periphery i see a lot of people saying 1. kazui hates yuno and 2. part of the reason why they seem themselves in one another is because kazui represses his sexuality while yuno is open about hers neither of these are true

you can dislike someone without hating them by virtue of being discomforted by the fact they are similar to you (self recognition through the eyes of the other (derogatory)) and. as for yuno being 'open' about her sexuality. well...i would say shes in tune with her own, but she isnt 'open' about it? unless es makes the details of each trial public among the prisoners (excluding the final judgement, of course) or she told people herself, nobody would know she does sex work. and i dont think shes told people, because why would she? what yuno and kazui recognize in each other isnt necessarily related to sexuality at all, but the masks they both wear and cant take off. neither of them can fully shed the facade they hide behind because to do so would result in a social death. they would, for different yet similar reasons, be stigmatized by their families and society at large. yeah, yuno says she comes from a supportive household (and this could be a lie. she could be lying.) but would that be true if her family found out she does sex work for whatever reason? not likely. and kazui has already said his family 'must find [me] embarrassing' upon being asked if theyre proud of him. if they discovered the truth of his sexuality in the aftermath of his wifes death (suicide?) then that would make sense, though if hinako killed herself then it could be theyre unaware of that truth and are ashamed of him for other reasons im a bit unsure about the current political climate re: suicide in japan (im saying this and you guys do not want to see the tabs i have open rn LOL) and how its viewed by the older generation in particular, but its generally tolerated, shamed, or honorable depending on the context. mental health issues are often ignored, particularly by older generations; to commit suicide to right an apparent wrong or repent (one form of which you all might be familiar with is seppuku) is looked at as a moral responsibility in some cases. so um. basically part of what im saying is that if hinako killed herself to escape the social fallout of not only potential divorce but also from having had a gay husband, she would be looked at with pity and empathy while kazui would be, of course, derided and considered a social pariah - if that is what happened and if it came to light. and, well, what do people think would happen if yuno, 18 years old, not even culturally an adult (until 2022, just last year, 20 was not only the traditional age of being considered an adult in japan but also legally - it was only last year that they made it legal to vote and sign up for loans and their own credit stuff without their parents backing them) and shes doing sex work. if it became public knowledge, her family would be devastated. she could get disowned, she could lose her social standing among friends, among other probable issues that could arise so what kazui and yuno see in one another isnt really related to sexuality at all. yuno looks at kazui and sees a man who has spent his whole lifetime hiding himself from not only the world but from his own self and she doesnt want that for herself; kazui looks at her and sees a girl who is hiding her honest self from everyone and in that he sees himself, which isnt helped by the fact she has subtly implied shes well aware of what it is he hides from the world like recognizes like etc. anyway thats all. double in is in like 2 weeks and i wont survive it

[sunlightandsuffering]

You know who needs some more hate sex? The Divorce AU! I get it that Mikasa was fooled by Porco and is very straightforward and honest and wholesome in her interactions with Eren, but mans has been slighted. His beloved left him for a lie, then straight up married the asshole who set them apart and shared a bed with him for years afterwards. There’s no way Eren isn’t angry of bitter about it all. Imagine losing half of everything you own, including your own home, and having your ex-wife share it with that guy. There’s no amount of therapy or meditation that can make him forget all that… meaning, the first time they have sex after is basically one-sided hate sex. Maybe it’s all pent up inside him and released once they’re in bed?

Thank you anon, I completely agree, this ask is part of the reason I came out of my hibernation lol, just so I could answer you!! I think you're right, he's holding it in at first to be nice, he still cares for her on some level, he doesn't want to erupt. Besides, its in the past for him, its fine, he'll walk it off. But he's SOOO resentful about it, and it's why he wont really open up to her too much and when she tells him she's single rn and interested he has a hard time accepting it. I think she'd have to break him down, force down his walls, have a massive blowout argument where finally he erupts, gets really angry at her, tells her all the shit he never got to say!! THEN cue hate sex lol!!!

They get back from grocery shopping and suddenly it's like a wall has come down. The previously happy, smiling Eren is gone and in his place is a man who is angry, agitated, barely keeping it together, his face dark as he begins unpacking their groceries. "You should head out soon," he tells her casually, like he isn't fucking kicking her out after the weekend they've had. It had been magical, nostalgic even, how they'd cuddled up together and bickered over which movies to watch, cooked dinner together, in the same kitchen they'd first cooked in all those years ago. The apartment has barely changed, and she'd been comforted by the fact that all the utensils were still in their place, right where she'd left them, like she'd never left at all.

There had been no sex, only longing looks, barely restrained sexual tension as she went to the guest bedroom for the night, only for her to move to Eren's room halfway through because her room was too cold. Sleeping next to him, inhaling his scent, mint and citrus, how he still slept curled up with one of his pillows, how she longed to take that spot. And yet here he is, kicking her out, as cold as ice as if none of it ever happened. She can't help but be angry, and she knows she has no right, she left him, divorced, believed another man's lies over the word of her husband, the love of her life, but they'd had a perfect weekend, it had all felt so right. Can't he see that too? That this is how it's supposed to be.

She can't let the past dictate the future anymore, can't let her mistakes keep fucking up her life.

So, rather than leave like she knows she should, she challenges him, rocking the boat. "I thought we'd have dinner together again." He looks up at her, his expression tight as he attempts to goad her into leaving, "I'm sure you need to get home, make sure your place is all in order before work tomorrow." "I don't," She shrugs and Eren's jaw clenches tighter as he attempts to keep his cool, slowly moving apples from the bag into his fruit bowl. "Mikasa," he warns, "You should go." "Why?"

"Can you just listen to me for once?" "Give me a good reason and I'll leave right now." He's quiet in response and Mikasa takes that as her cue to get everything out of the way, all of her cards on the table. She knows this look in his eye, she's seen it before, every time they go on a date, every time he restrains himself from kissing her, from going any further. Its the same way he used to look when he'd stop himself from starting a bar fight in her honour, that brief dark glint in his eye, the sparks of rage.

He's holding himself back, holding in his fury, for her sake or his own, she doesn't know. But what she does know is that there's no moving on, no going back, and no future ahead of them if they don't get past this, if he doesn't let it out. "I can't see any good reason why I'd leave, not after we've had a perfect weekend, not when it's so good Eren." He's grinding his teeth together in irritation, "Mikasa just go, I don't want to talk about it." "Too bad, we're gonna fucking talk about it." "There's nothing to say," he grinds out finally, "I'm angry and you fucking know it, and I'm going to lash out because while you had a perfect fucking weekend Mikasa all I can think about is how we could have been like this all along. How you fucked it up, so unless you want that you'll leave right now." It hurts, and it's only the tip of the iceberg, but she knows that this time, for better or for worse, she's going to stay. "Then do it," she says calmly, steeling herself for what's to come, that flicker burning into a fire in his eyes, raging green. "What?" "Do it, get angry, tell me all shit you've wanted to say Eren. Get it out." "I can't, just go Mikasa." Now, Mikasa gets angry as she watches him deflate, turning towards the pantry, he needs to get this out, and it needs to happen now or she's never going to have him back, not like she wants. "Eren just fucking do it, tell me. Tell me how I fucked up, tell me how I'm an idiot, that I ruined us by believing some asshole I barely knew over the love of my life. Tell me how angry you were when you found out that not only did I leave you I fucking married the asshole that boke us apart! Tell me how much you hate me for it." She breaks down on her last breath, just as Eren turns around eyes wide, "Tell me how much you hate me so you can love me again, 'Ren please?"

[radradmarivy]

I hate marriage, i believe its an archaic institution made for men by men. Thats why im not getting married. With that said... I am not getting married because I am not in a relationship and I dont plan to be.

But if you are, sadly, in a relationship with anyone and specially if they are of the opposite sex, please get married. Dont fall for "its Just a paper bullshit", get fucking married. Because if you dont, even if you have 10 Kids with the bastard, even if you bought and built shit together, even if you spent almost 50 years together, when push comes to shove, you mean nothing without that paper.

Im not going to sit here and say that "its Just a paper" bullshit and watch as women end up in shitty situations when they lose everything. Not getting married to a man you built a family with can limit you socially and economically. What will you do if he dies or ends up in a coma and he has no will or didnt made you a beneficiary of anything he owns? You are fucked. You cant even be there for the asshole to take medical decisions, because you are nothing to society without the papers.

You know Who will decide if the fatjer of your Kids that refused to marry you but didnt thougth that a baby or two were such a big deal? His blood family or the ex wife he didnt legally divorce. Thats who! Why? Cuzco you got no papers so you are nobody! He dies. All the shit you had?? Can get taken by his Bloom family or any wife he didnt divorce. And you will have to figth nail and teeth to be able to keep anything for your Kids.

Not only that, take into a account how society makes it hard for single mothers to thrive. Think about the economical implications of this whole ordeal. Is it fucking worth it??

Ladies, stop giving family benefits to a man that doesnt see you as family. A dude says that marriage is too much of a compromise but is happy to have 3 Kids with you and play family, when he is not even protecting you all in case something bad happens? That dude doesnt love you, he doesnt love his Kids. He is just using you, making it easier for him to leave qhen the next young piece of ass come.

A baby links you two forever and ever, and he wants that before marriage? You cant divorce from a baby! What is even more final than a baby? 2, 3, 4, 5 babies are fine but marriage its Just a paper??? You all know that the moment the asshole leaves, you are all fucked?

No Matter how much i dislike marriage, its a binding contract and its made to protect you. Yes, justice is slow, men have ways and loopholes around it, we all know that. But if you really want to have Kids with some sleamy ass man whore, at least ask for a ring before popping out the little monsters.

That way you will be more protected. Your Kids will be more protected. Worst case escenario, the law is on your side. He ends up in the hospital and for some reason you want him to live? You can tell the doctors that and make decisions. You dont want to share shit with an ex wive? Make sure he is divorced already, marries you, and you wont have to share with nobody but him.

Dont get played by this douchebags, ladies. Remember that we are always the ones that have more to lose if shit goes south. Marriage binding contract and prenup, trust no man no máster how much you love him.

And never become economically dependant on them either. You will thank me later.

[gailytine]

i just watched legally blonde the musical and OHOGHGGOGHGGO

[reidsconverse]

okay spencer getting in a disagreement w his wife and then his daughter asks him what went wrong when he tucks her in for the night at this point i think i'm just projecting-

-🦭 (i know you hate seeing this damn seal but i'm back)

stop no thats so sad tho...

shes all like “why were you and mommy fighting” and she looks so upset with her wide eyes glossy from tears and spencers heart just shatters and hes like “its ok, it was just a small disagreement, no need to worry.” but shes spencers daughter so of course she worries so she asks another question “are you and mommy getting a divorce?” and spencer didnt know how it was possible, but he felt his heart break some more, “of course not sweetheart, your mommy and daddy love each other very much but sometimes we don’t agree on things and that makes us upset. but i promise you, nothing is going to happen ok?” and she nods, holding her little stuffed animal with her blankie tucked under her chin and tear stains down her eyes. spencer wipes those marks away, the action making him tear up himself.

he places a small kiss on her forehead and whispers a soft goodnight before getting up to leave, but her tiny hand barely wrapping around his wrist stops him in his tracks. “promise you wont leave daddy, jack said his mommy left and he didn’t see her again. promise me you wont leave me daddy.” and spencer cannot help the tears rhat fall down his face at the innocence of her request. he kneels down once again and picks her up, he tiny legs wrapping themselves across his torso as his holds her close. “i promise i’ll never leave you sweetheart, i love you and your mommy so much okay?, i promise” he pulls himself away for a moment, and lifts a hand up, his pinky sticking out in anticipation of her wrapping her tiny finger around his. and she does, her grip firm as though she never wanted to let go. “i pinky promise.” he says, because he knows she believes in the power of a pinky promise, its a promise he’ll never break and she knows it. he quickly picks up her stuffed animal and blanket and starts heading to yours and spencers shared room so the little girl could sleep with the comfort and safety of having her parents with her.

[bubbleteaimagines]

— WOKE UP IN VEGAS WITH A STRANGER: PART SEVEN

❝ OH HELL NO ❞

You tried your absolute best to smooth your hair and clothes out as you and Mika waited in the President of the MSBY Black Jackles office. He requested your presence at exactly ten o’clock am, which was ironic seeing as the bastard wasn’t even there yet — and it was 10:15.

Wait, no you shouldn’t call him that. In fact, you really didn’t care how late he was as long as the man showed — and as long as he liked your designs enough to give you 10 million.

That was the plan. That was the deal and you and Mika had been desperately waiting for this day, desperately waiting for this break that would boost your business to unimaginable heights.

“Ah, ladies, I’m very sorry to keep you waiting!”

At the sound of a deep, rich voice, you and Mika immediately snapped out of your thoughts and hopped up, colliding into each other a little bit as you bowed and quickly introduced yourself.

“Sir! It’s is an honor to meet you!” As the CEO, you went first. “My name is F/N L/N, the CEO.”

“And I’m Mika Brown, the CFO,” Mika introduced, giving a formal nod at the chuckling man.

“Well, I must say. I do like your manners,” He noted, causing you both to smile.

“Well, let’s just hope you like our designs even more,” You grinned, and quickly whipped out your computer. This was gonna be a long meeting.

-

“He hated them.”

“Calm down Mika, he did not hate them! He was just...indecisive, that’s all,” You tried to reassure her, but the brunette wasn’t having it.

“Indecisive?! That’s a good way of saying he’ll never hire us!” She whined, shoulders dropping as her head hung low. You could tell that she was really down due to the President not immediately making up his mind. Honestly, you were too but as CEO it was your job to keep her in good spirits. You didn’t want her feeling dejected or feeling like the designs weren’t good enough, so you kept a poker face and a positive attitude.

“Mika, you and I both know it’s never that simple. Even we go that too— ask clients to come back so we can refresh our heads. That’s probably all he’s doing and we’ll get a call back any day now!” You reassured her.

Mika sighed. “You really think so?”

You smiled. “Yes. Their designs were amazing— nothing can touch us. Now come on, let’s to celebrate our future 10 million with some Onigiri!”

“Yeah-! Wait, umph!”

Mika’s celebration cheer was quickly cut off when she ran into something, or rather someone, with broad shoulders. A man, by the looks of it, wearing a plain white jersey with the letter SAKUSA 15 written on the back. Upon feeling the impact, he quickly turned around and looked at Mika.

“Hey! Watch where you’re going,” He rolled his eyes, and even under his mask you could tell he was scowling.

Both you and Mika’s jaws dropped.

He’s beautiful, you thought immediately.

“S-Sorry. I’m so sorry!” Mika flushed dark red as she scrambled to pick up the purse she had dropped, and the the fliers of paperwork. His shoulders had been just that strong, but upon seeing you two his face softened.

“Oh,” He blinked, as if he recognized you two weren’t who he thought you were, and quickly bent down to help Mika. “It’s no problem, then. Forgive me- I thought you were someone else.”

“Who—”

“Awe, Omi-Kun! Don’t tell me you’re out here harassing these pretty ladies,” A familiar voice sounded, causing you to instantly scowl and whip around.

Sure enough, when you did, the face of the devil (aka your husband- gross, you hated saying that) greeted you. Oddly enough, he looked like he belonged here with a similar white jersey that had your his last name sprawled on it. However, that didn’t stop you from immediately glaring at him, pointing an accusing finger at him as you shouted out,

“You!”

“Me?” Atsumu blinked almost innocently as his eyes flashed to your face, and then they narrowed as he took you in. “You!”

“No I said it first!” You cried. “You! What are you doing here?!”

“What am I doing here?! What the hell are you doing here?!” Atsumu cried, stepping back protectively. “Are you stalking me or something?!”

“STALKING?!” You were appalled. “Why the hell would I wanna stalk you? You’re the one that’s the creep! Texting me last night, and now you show up here?! I’m the one that should be worried!”

“What? I didn’t send any texts!” Atsumu scoffed, rolling his eyes. “And for your information, I fucking work here! Which, by the way, still doesn’t explain why you’re here!”

“...You...work here?”

You paused. And then you paused again, swearing your brain was going to short circuit as Mika gasped and looked between you two.

“No way,” She whispered, glancing at you. “This is him?”

“And he’s on the team,” You whimpered as realization suddenly smacked you in the face. A cruel irony that the universe set you up in. “The team...we’re designing for...”

“Oh hell no,” Atsumu’s eyes suddenly went wide as he took in the laptops, all the clipboards and the sample shirts in Mika’s hands. “You’ve got to be joking.”

“Um...” Someone suddenly cleared their throat, causing all three of you to snap your heads towards them. “I’m sorry, am I missing something? Who are you?” The man with the SAKUSA jersey questioned, looking extremely lost.

Atsumu sighed dramatically. “You remember how I told you I uh...got married in Vegas?”

Sakusa paused. Hesitantly, he looked at your face. “...And let me guess, this is her?”

“Yep. That’s my fucking wife.”

“In the flesh,” You smiled at Sakusa before going back to glaring at Atsumu, “And don’t call me that. I’m not your wife.”

“Fine then how about...let’s see...my rejected one night stand?”

“I hate you.”

“That’s not what you said when we- OUCH!”

“Yeah, that’s what I thought,” You smirked at a groaning Atsumu while Mika just giggled. “Take that, you piss-haired rat!”

“God I can’t fucking wait to divorce.”

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[shutteredislands]

REYLO MODERN AU FIC RECS

Hi!! I spent my entire winter break reading reylo fics and I feel like I’ve found some gems! I’m boring and don’t like angst, so most of these are pretty fluffy, however, always read the tags before reading. Anyways, happy reading!

Already Home -  College, Roommates, A/B/O, Soulmates AU - Complete - Rated E - 79k

“Oh stop being all Alpha-y.” She flexes her foot, rolling her ankle as if to prove a point, and he doesn’t miss the wince that crosses her expression. “You aren’t my Alpha, and you definitely aren't my soulmate,” she mutters.

He can’t help but let out a dry laugh. “Thank god for small mercies.”

Okay so this is a trope fest but it was so good! I’m not gonna explain the plot in depth because I think going in blind is best for this!

Baby, It's Just Biology - Professor/Student, A/B/O AU - Complete - Rated E - 113k

For Rey Jackson, trying to finish your degree in Biomedical Science at Harvard is difficult enough when you're one of the few Omegas on campus.

It's made even more difficult when your Professor is the one to trigger your heat. You can't help it, it's just your biology.

An Alpha Omega love story.

This is the perfect balance of angst, fluff and pure smut. This one Is a lot angstier than anything else on this list, but you can see every stage of this relationship and I loved it so much! Please read the tags on this one!

I’ve got you (under my skin) - Nanny/Single Parent AU - On Hiatus - Rated E - 81k

“Hi, I’m Rey. I’m here for the—”

“Nanny,” Ben blurts out dazedly, still trying to remember how to form coherent thoughts. “You’re the nanny.”

Her smile hitches up a little wider. “Well, I might be.”

Suddenly, Ben thinks he might be in for a whole new world of problems.

Because Rey Johnson is still most likely the only thing standing between him and disaster, that much hasn’t changed, not by a long shot.

And Ben can’t seem to stop staring at her mouth.

In which Ben hires Rey to watch his son... but he can’t seem to stop watching her.

Okay so I almost never read WIPs, but this one was left off in a pretty good place so don’t worry about cliffhangers or anything. I am a sucker for single dad!Ben so expect more of these. I loved this fic so much and get ready for a SMUTFEST.

Light My Fire - Rivals to Lovers, College, A/B/O AU - Complete - Rated E - 20k

When rivals Ben and Rey break into a professor's office together, it comes out that Rey might not be the Beta she thinks she is.

I’ve never been the biggest reader of enemies to lovers, until this. This was so so so good! I loved their banter so much, and this is another smutfest lol.

Peacock - Fake Dating, Enemies to Lovers, Neighbors AU - Complete - Rated E - 72k

Thanks to a series of misunderstandings, failed attempts at flirting, and loud Katy Perry music, Ben grows to hate his new neighbor.

Proposing to her wasn't the best solution to his problems.

This is, hands down, one of the funniest fics I have ever read. I cried actual tears because of how funny this is. Slowish burn, but their banter will keep you engaged the whole time. I love this so much!!

An Unexpected Vacation - Scientist, A/B/O AU - Complete - Rated E - 62k 

“You don’t care that someone, that people will watch you fuck?” He looks two seconds away from puking. “Like multiple, multiple people will be able to describe your vagina. They’ll probably analyze it in a boardroom. Someone will feel proud about a shitty PowerPoint full of annotated pictures. They will use words like ‘arousal fluid’ and consult charts and these things will never not be digitally saved. That doesn’t bother you?”

“Are you suggesting my vagina is unworthy of analysis?”

--

In which Rey attempts to bolster her bank account by volunteering to fuck an Alpha in a scientific study. Plans go pear-shaped when she accidentally triggers scientist!Ben’s first Rut.

This was a really funny smutfest and I loved that. I loved Rey and Ben so much, and Ben was the perfect “I hate everyone but you” boyfriend! I love this!

She Doesn’t Normally Bite - Single Parent/Teacher AU - WIP - Rated E - 37k

Ben Solo is a single dad to 6-year old Ellis. Her teacher isn't the old-cat lady that he expects and naturally, sparks fly when they meet. Rey helps show Ben that he is allowed to be happy and the romance is DELICIOUS. There will be the happy ending we all deserve.

Both Ben and Rey have a lot to navigate, and of course - things are never straight forward.

Tw: Bens wife died when their daughter was born - whilst it is mentioned periodically, it does not form a significant part of the story. There'll also be warnings in the notes for the particular chapters it'll be mentioned in.

THIS THE ONLY WIP I WILLL EVER READ REY AND BEN ARE SO FREAKING CUTE AND ELLIS IS SUCH A CUTE KID AHHHHHHH! That is all.

Down an Inch, Up an Inch - A/B/O, Soulmates, Gym Rats AU - Complete - Rated E - 60k

Omega instructor Rey has always been the master of her domain at Rebel Belle Barre and wouldn't dream of dating an Alpha.

When her new neighbors at Supremacy Bootcamp start ruining her classes with their terrible music, she storms over to give them a piece of her mind. She challenges the beefy ex-Marine owner Ben Solo to a plank-off and the loser has to take the other's class. When they spark an unusual connection, can Rey stay away for long?

Has she bitten off more than she can chew with the gentle giant Alpha with the warm, sad eyes?

SMUT FREAKING FESTTTTT. Okay but I loved these two so much, even though I am opposed to working out in any shape or form! I love the non-traditional soulmate part, and I really loved Rey in this. 

Tea for Two - Enemies to Lovers, University Setting AU - Complete - Rated E - 67k 

'"This is a tea house, you know." The plummy, ultra-posh voice startled Rey Kenobi from her day-dreaming, almost spilling the scalding hot coffee over her chest.'

Rey, an American former hacker, turned cyber security expert, has been commissioned by Oxford University to protect their systems from hackers. Unfortunately, she has to work closely with Professor Ben Solo, Merton Professor of English Literature who also happens to be Lord Ben Solo, member of the English peerage. And an unmitigated snob.

She drinks coffee. He drinks tea. He only reads classic literature. She reads Marvel comics. He is nobility. She is a nobody.

Things should go swimmingly, shouldn't it?

SO. MUCH. UNRESOLVED. SEXUAL. TENSION. I loved the slow burn aspect because I sat in bed because I was waiting for them to bone for so long. And after they bone its a smut and fluff-fest I loved this so much!

And They Were Roommates - Roommates, A/B/O AU - Complete - Rated E - 49k

“This isn’t going to work.” He points a finger between the two of them. “This arrangement.”

Her eyes narrow. “You didn’t put any specifications on who could apply.”

“Yeah…” He rubs the back of his neck then, the action making it look longer, making her wonder what it might feel like under her fingers. “You have to know that this isn’t a good idea.”

She knows what he means, she does—but she’s so tired of being brushed aside for her designation that she challenges him anyway. “And why not?”

His eyes bore into hers, his expression blank as he says, “Because I can tell how much scent-block you put on—and I can still smell you.”

In which Rey’s new roommate turns out to be a lot more than she bargained for.

EVEN. MORE. UNRESOLVED. SEXUAL. TENSION. Like these two would be eating cereal and I would be chanting, “bone! bone! bone!” the whole time. I loved these two, and the family aspect of this one was so good.

Imprints - A/B/O, Boss/Employee AU - Complete - Rated E - 74k

“I was happy you’ll be working with someone you know. He’ll take good care of you.”

Take good care of you.

The words send a shiver down her spine, sparking memories that flood her with embarrassment. She feels a strange itch just below her ear, her gland giving a phantom pulse as if her body remembers the incident even still.

Suddenly her triumph fades into dread, the idea of working here leaving a hollow pit in her stomach. Poe is still talking, but she doesn’t hear most of it. Her mind is firmly trapped in the vivid memories of six years ago— in a moment she wishes she could forget.

By the time she hangs up the phone— she isn’t sure anymore if she can do this.

Okay so this is pretty popular so I wont say too much, but it lives up to the hype. Smutfest, fluff and angst rolled into one beautiful fic! 

Bespoke - Enemies to Lovers, Boss/Employee (?) AU - Complete - Rated E - 38k 

When new stylist Rey Jackson receives a request to dress the hottest (and most unfashionable) new actor in Hollywood, she gets a lot more than she bargained for.

Mentally AND physically.

Because Ben Solo is freaking massive.

THIS WAS SO HOT OMG! Smutfest but also super cute. Another “I hate everyone but you” version of Ben I fell in love with. Loved this!

Incognito - Coworkers AU - Complete - Rated E - 30k

“Somehow Rey’s coworkers find out about her Daddy kink. They all kink shame her for it, except her coworker Ben. He has something else in mind.”

This was so funny! Ben and Rey were so cute, and I love Finn and Rose in this too! This was great!

A Home For Christmas - Single Parent, Sugar Daddy AU - Complete - Rated E - 109k

Rey is a struggling single mother who needs to do right by her daughter, even if it means she needs to steal. Ben is sad and lonely, recently divorced for the second time. When Rey's daughter picks him to help her find her mom, their paths cross and their Christmas becomes a little more bright.

This was so freaking cute OMG!! I know I say that a lot, but this was so adorable! I loved Ben and Rey so much, but Nova was obviously the star of the show. I cannot recommend this enough!

Unsuppressed - Office, A/B/O AU - Complete - Rated E - 49k

Rey had only ever encountered two Alphas in her entire life that had been unsuppressed. And now this third one that stunk up the entire building. Not that it stunk, his scent. In fact, it was the most delicious thing Rey had ever smelled. ///////////////////////////////////// Ben Solo closed his eyes as he rode down the elevator from the 40th floor to the lobby, trying not to reach up to his glands to scratch them. Somehow, it felt like he always caught the elevator that was dripping in the Omega’s scent. The one that wandered around the building without any suppressants. The one that smelled better than any Omega he had ever smelled before.

STRAIGHT FLUFF AND SMUT OMFG!!! I loved this so freaking much! This was whatever the opposite of unresolved sexual tension and slow burn. Like Ben and Rey tried to make this a slow burn but they could not keep their hands off of each other. I loved this!

Sunshine and Gunpowder - Hitman, Surprise Parents AU - Complete - Rated E - 48k

She’s a teacher who would do anything to protect her student. He’s a glorified hitman with a heart of black gold.

Together, they make up odd halves of a beautiful whole.

THIS WAS SO CUTE!! Like, yes, I know Ben is a hitman, but when I tell you he was the softest hit man I have ever read, Temiri was so cute in this! I loved Ben and Rey, and their UST made me love them even more. Han and Leia are also hilarious in this! 

It Takes a Village - A/B/O, Surprise Parents AU - Complete - Rated E - 40k 

Who knew that all it would take for Rey Johnson to interact with her enigmatic Alpha neighbor without wanting to melt into a puddle of hormones was a baby being abandoned at her doorstep?

Not her. That was for sure.

THIS IS THE CUTEST ONE YET! I REREAD THIS QUITE OFTEN! LIKE AHHHHHHH SO FREAKING FLUFFY! NOT EVEN A WHISPER OF ANGST AND A LOT OF SMUT I LOVED THIS SO FREAKING MUCH AHHHH! AND THE EPILOGUE MADE ME CRY!

Sensual Storytime - Office AU - Complete - Rated E - 23k

When Rey Johnson starts a new job, her initially antagonistic relationship with Ben Solo from IT turns into friendship... and maybe something more.

Little does she know he also moonlights as Kylo Ren, the creator of her favorite audio erotica. One day at the office, worlds collide, and she realizes the sweater vest-wearing nerd of her dreams is also the tattooed fantasy man she listens to while getting off every night...

THIS IS MY FAVORITE REYLO FIC EVER. I RECOMMEND THIS TO PEOPLE WHO DON’T EVEN LIKE STAR WARS! THIS IS COWORKER BANTER LIKE NO OTHER. AND THE SMUT ? UNPARALLELED. READ THIS NOW!

That is all I have time for right now, but I’ll make another list later if anyone would like that! Please take care of yourself and have a great day! 

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Ocean Eyes - Part 4

I sat across from Chris at the small kitchen table in an awkward silence, picking at the label on the ketchup bottle.

"How could you keep this from me? Did you hate me that much?" Chris suddenly asked making me look up at him.

"It wasn't like that Chris, you broke my heart but i.... i never stopped loving you"

"If you loved me you would have told me!"

"I tried to tell you! My god i tried for months to contact you but you would never take my calls! I left you voicemails begging you to call me back....." i told him feeling my eyes start to tear up "i even tried to see you...." i shrugged remembering back to the day i decided to go back to the apartment i shared with him briefly "do you remember that day? I begged you to hear me out.... do you remember what you said to me?"

Chris's head dropped as he shook it, he actually looked ashamed of himself.

"You remember??"

"Yes"

"You told me i needed to stop being so desperate, that i needed to accept the fact we were over.... you told me our relationship was a mistake"

"I was an asshole i know that! But i was gonna be a dad and you kept that from me for nearly... what, 7 years??"

"Okay answer me this, would the you back then have given a shit?? Because i honestly don't think it would have changed a god damn thing because you were a selfish prick!" I whisper yelled at him so Mason wouldn't hear "you say you've changed now and that your not that guy anymore and i pray to god thats true, but....."

"I swear to god i've changed Y/N, i grew up. I realised that the fame didn't mean as much to me as my family"

"Good for you"

"You dont believe a word im saying do you?" He shook his head "i know that look you can't lie to me" he mumbled rubbing his hands over his face.

"Its not that i dont believe youve changed Chris, its that even then you never once reached out to me. Even before i was your wife, as brief as it was.... i was your best friend. It was so easy for you to cut me out of your life"

"I missed you everyday Y/N.... i just, i couldn't face you after what i did"

"Until you needed those divorce papers signed huh? Then you faced me".

Chris just looked down avoiding eye contact, he didn't know what to say.

"Look, if you wanna get to know Mason i won't try and stop you" i said quickly before i lost my nerve.

"Of course i do!"

"if you do this you need to be in 100%, i wont have you breaking his heart when you get bored of playing daddy. Because i swear to god Chris, if you hurt my son i will fucking kill you"

"I promise, i'm in 110%"

"Okay....." i nodded taking a deep breath "we've got pizza coming, did you wanna stay for dinner.... meet your son?"

"Id love that" he smiled wiping a tear quickly from his face "did you ever tell him about me? I mean does he know who i am at all?"

"His seen old photo's of you before your Captain America days, knows your name... thats it"

"Where does he think i've been? He must have asked where i was?"

"Its only been the last year his really asked about it, when he started preschool and the other kids had dads picking them up..... guess he wanted to know why he didn't have one. I told him he did have one but you were away working"

"He must hate me"

"Chris his 5 and a half he doesn't know how to hate".

We were all sat around the coffee table in the living room, the two pizza boxes spread out between us. I had just finished explaining to Mason that Chris was the same man in the photo he had in his bedroom, that Chris was his dad. Mason stared at Chris for a while before taking a bite of his pizza.

"You look funny...." Mason casually said and i nearly choked on my mouthful of pizza.

"I guess i do look a little different" Chris smiled at him "what photo do you have?"

"I'll go get it!" He jumped up and run upstairs excitedly.

"Its just a photo of us when we were younger" i said casually looking at my slice of pizza like it was the most fascinating thing in the world "it was the only one i had...."

"What do you mean? You had loads of photos...."

"I did until i burnt them all"

"You burnt them?!" He asked wide eyed.

"I was mad at you" i shrugged "i didn't want to look at them anymore".

I was so full of shit, i had kept them all, stored away in the back of my closet where i tried to forget them. The only reason i gave Mason the older photo was because it was from a time when Chris and I were happy, before he left me.

Mason came running back in and gave Chris the photo, a smile spread across his face when he saw it was a photo of us taken at Disney on one of our trips to Florida.

"God i remember this day, it was a good day" he looked up and smiled.

"It was " i nodded wiping off my hands before getting up and going to the kitchen, i needed some space. As much as i tried to convince myself that i hated Chris, part of me couldn't help but love him and being in the same room with him after all this time was tough. I was getting a glass of water when i heard Mason ask Chris a question that broke me.

"Dad? Can you read me a story before bed? Mama always reads to me but you never have"

"Sure bud, if thats okay with your mom?" I heard him reply happily.

I couldn't help but cry silently.... my hand over my mouth to muffle any sound, i just couldn't hold it in anymore.

"Mom?" Mason was suddenly standing behind me "can dad stay to read me a story?"

I quickly wiped my eyes and turned to face him with a forced smile.

"Sure baby"

"Yes!" He shouted happily running back out "she said yes!".

I stood outside Mason's room listening to Chris read 'If You Give A Dog A Donut', Mason giggling along and making little comments here and there which would then make Chris laugh before carrying on. After a couple of minutes i left them to it and went downstairs to tidy up.

10 minutes or so passed before Chris reappeared, it felt awkward between us again now Mason wasn't here.

"Thank you for letting me do that Y/N"

"Mason wanted you to read to him, i find it hard to say no to that kid" i shrugged.

"I bet. His a great kid, you've done a good job with him"

"Thank you"

"I can't believe i've missed so much of his life..... you have no idea how much i hate myself"

Probably not as much as i've hated you! I said to myself but at the same time deciding there was something i could give him.

"Wait here a minute, i need to go get something" i mumbled passing him and going up to my room. I went to my closet and dug around in the back until i found the black leather storage box i was looking for.

When i got back downstairs i handed the box to Chris who looked confused.

"Its a thing i used to do when i found out i was pregnant, letters, photos and stuff" i said feeling my cheeks burn from embarrassment of how stupid i had been....I just couldn't really let him go.

"Its only stuff from during the pregnancy and maybe the first 1/2 years but you might wanna see" i shrugged folding my arms to stop them shaking.

"Thank you Y/N....."

"Sure, well its getting late you should probably be going...."

"Of course" he nodded quickly "can i give you a hug?...."

"No. We're not at the hugging stage Chris"

"Okay" he said sadly as we made our way to the front door "when can i see Mason again?"

"Whenever you want i just need a heads up"

"Tomorrow?"

"Sure"

"Why don't you see if Scott wants to come too?? I need to talk to that brother of yours"

"Don't be mad at him, he didn't tell me Mason was my son... just that you had a kid"

"Your telling me he wasn't the one to tell you to come see me again??"

He was silent and looking around nervously.... Scott told him to come see me!

"You forget i know you two too well"

"I wanted to see you again i did, i just.... i was being a fucking chicken shit. I knew you hated me"

"Can you blame me?"

"Not for a second"

"Okay.... im gonna go inside, we'll see you tomorrow?"

"I'll be here. Goodnight Y/N"

"Goodnight Chris" i said quietly before shutting the door and taking a deep breath to try and control my emotions, i was so sick of crying over fucking Chris Evans! I thought those days were over.

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[alatismeni-theitsa]

anti LO anon opinions:

1) I pointed out the same opinion about thanatos on why he should care and a fan responded that he shouldnt have a say on hades and persephones relationship because he was making out with minthe while they were still dating...

2) I’m just so annoyed LO Persephone’s visual maturity is all in terms of hades. It’s via how he wants her to dress, how he wants her to act, via what he wants her to enjoy and do. He’s never once gone out of his comfort zone for her or branched out to see what she wants and enjoys or even really ask, meanwhile she does everything he wants at the drop of a hat. It leaves a bad taste in my mouth. This isn’t a couple of balance and compromise, its not even one of real respect, it’s just the woman making herself whatever she wants her future husband to be while he does nothing but throw money at her as “affection”. It’s essentially her having to do whatever Demeter wants, which was framed as bad, but this time it’s whatever Hades wants, so now it’s good? She still isn’t really given the choice, now is she?

3) i really have to question why LO keeps framing "dark" persephone as the queen and wife of hades because that side is framed as basically a different character who has popped out before and very purposely has said it doesnt like hades and sees him as weak and not worth their time. it also has it that persephone doesnt like or even control this side of her so its like??? is the endgame the real persephone being trapped inside herself by this evil persona and hades is married to someone who doesnt love him/outright hates him? this wouldnt be an issue if they just let Persephone be a complex character who had light and darkness in her instead of insisting at every turn she stay a “precious cinnamon roll” at all times that you need to create an out there alt-personality to explain everything away 🤔

4) LO has the regressive idea that women are all innocent victims unless stated otherwise (such as having a sex life outside Hades (Minthe, Aphrodite) or not falling at his feet (Hestia, Demeter)). The thing is, women, no matter how "precious" they are, are capable of being bad people. It'd make sense Persephone the "dread queen" would actually be cruel and not nice and even the scarier of the two of them, but the comic wont commit to it, so everyone else has to be wrong instead

5) I would be more willing to hate LO Thanatos if it weren’t for the fact Persephone is a mega rich heiress who has everyone coming to her defense for merely existing including his mega rich CEO boss meanwhile the comic seems to imply Nyx (and by extension her family like Thanatos) lost their status and power once the Big Three like Hades came to power, reducing them to subordinates and powerless to his wants and desires. It’d like an Amazon warehouse worker calling out how unfair their working conditions are only to be told “yeah well Bezos got divorced last year and he’s really sad about it, feel bad for him instead and forget your problems.”    Why should I feel bad for a bunch of rich jerks who won’t face an real consequences and demean the ones who can’t stand up to them?

6) Regarding the recent LO chapter with Thanatos and Daphne talking about Persephone and Hades's relationship. I can kinda understand from both the perspectives: 1) Thanatos is a long-term employee for Hades so he has a better viewpoint of seeing the special treatment between Hades and Persephone up close. His feelings are partially influenced by his negative peers (Thetis and Minthe) who outright dislikes Persephone. But in his perspective: He is a longtime employee at a company who worked their way to a high position, and then one day your employer starts to hire someone younger and gives said younger colleague special treatment and attention (along with a big paycheck that most interns shouldn't be paid for). Part of the reason can also be that the said younger colleague is both their family background (being the child of one of the Six Traitors) and being very youthful and attractive2) Daphne only sees the relationship from an outsiders perspective and is partially defensive for her longtime friend. She is aware of Hades and Persephone's unusual relationship but also means well at knowing not to pry into others personal lives. 

7) I think that in lo to protect "our precious cinammon roll" Daphne could said that maybe that is Hades fault not hers bc he give her special treatment and his bad boss. This would at least show that there is unfairness at his job, that he is rightfuly angry just maybe at wrong person. It would be at least better than "dont care about this lol"

8) Persephone in lo only work 1 actual day of work. Her first day is only a tour, on her second day she work, on third day she isnt working bc she learn how to use computer and now she sometimes try to do something with work while flirting with hades, so maybe she worked 1,5 day of work in total. It isnt surprise thst she didnt work a lot since its been 13 days in comic

[angstymdzsthoughts]

1. how did cssr even meet wcz in thr first place? its bc she was married to jfm first. jyl is the child of that marriage. cssr and jfm had been friends since they were teenagers and one day, a relentless cultivator with major background kept pursuing her to the point of being dangerous. jfm offered to marry her to keep them away bc they wont dare to do anything to the heir of jiang sect. jfm was in love with her but understood she wasnt interested in a romance with him.

2. their marriage was amiable and pleasant. but then cssr fell in love with wcz. she asked jfm to let her go and marry wcz and he reluctantly agreed to divorce her and let wcz go. a-li stays with a-die though. it was jiang cheng who was jfm's bastard child. jfm and yzy met in some festivities one day and spent the night together. a few months later meishan yu was banging at jfm's father's door, demanding jfm to marry their third lady.

3. he was most probably quite intoxicated when he slept with yzy, bc he never liked her even when they were still students. she is harsh, disagreeable, not changse. jfm bitterly married yzy. yzy loves jyl but who doesnt love jyl. jfm was always cold to yzy, blaming her for putting him in an uncomfortable marriage. she blamed him for taking her away from her home. when jc was born jfm wasnt even in lotus pier, only coming back weeks after.

4. little jc didnt know jyl is his half sister, yzy forbids everyone in lp to tell him. jfm didnt bother to correct him. he only knew he likes a-niang and a-jie and his dogs. he didnt know why his a-die was never around. then jfm heard the news of cssr snd wcz's death and that they left a child. he left his duties to his deputy and gathered a search team to find wei ying. he left for months, not even bothering to send words back every once in a while. maybe a short note to a-li, but that's it.

5. then he finally found wei ying, starving and injured, and he carried him home. jc was playing with his dogs when wei ying first came. as expected, wei ying was terrified and jfm immediately ordered people to send jc's dogs away. jc threw a tantrum, tugging on jfm's robes as hard as he could. he just recovered from a fever and hadnt played with his dogs in weeks. plus, those dogs are from a-niang! but he didnt say that, he just wailed and screamed no's, which jfm quickly dismissed.

6. when jyl first met wei ying, jfm told her this is her brother, she needs to take good care of him. wei ying is a pleasant child, smiling and laughing. not that jc isnt good, but the boy frowns more often than not and most people like being smiled at a lot more. but no one asked jc why he frowned in the first place. a-die had never even carried him, and when he tried speaking to him he would keep saying he's busy. but this new boy comes and a-die won't put him down, wont stop talking to him.

7. wy is everything jc is not. wy is stronger, smarter, more pleasant to be around. jfm cared about him way more than he ever did jc, everyone could tell. but jc is the heir to yunmeng jiang, so it doesnt matter. he just has to be better, right? maybe if he tried being kinder? its hard. jyl tried to be fair to both her half brothers. she really did. mdm yu is nice, but yanli missed her mother and wy looks so much like mother. she cant help but love wei ying more, even if she wont tell.

8. yzy swallows bitter pills every single day that she runs a house where the is no love for her and her son. she could only whisper apologies that his father doesnt love him in little jc's ear when he sleeps. it is tiring trying to get her husband to be fair in treating their innocent child when all he had for her was contempt and not a shred of cordiality. it wasnt hard to start hating her husband's ex wife's child, not when her son is hated by his own father.

9. it eats at yzy that wei ying is growing on her. so she fought back, treating wy harshly, which only invited scorn for both her and jc from jfm, and a bit of dismay from a-li. when she sent the children away on that boat, there was hope in her chest that all of them make it and she hated thinking about it as she breathed her last. // damn jfm is rlly despicable in this one :/ 

[labetalol]

nana manga stuff:

takumi is as always. shitty. but hes extremely charismatic. but hes still shitty. i do find myself laughing over some stuff he says. he is funny and charismatic but of course, and i cannot stress this enough, a dickwad. like i love the whole nonchalant long haired serious workaholic but also he cheats on his pregnant wife regularly and demands sex from her when shes not into it, hes very manipulative and controlling and its like... he is the villain of the story- but i find solace in that nana remained with him until their kids older. i know she wanted to divorce him but she.. stayed so i can only hope to god he somehow changed and treats her right now. hachi deserves the world <3

ren.. darling why are you all of a sudden in reira's business? like. i know everyone in trapnest is strongly tethered to reira, and honestly i like reira and rens relationship, sorta brother sister type, where ren complimented her and only plays guitar for her and she helps him, keep him company, saves him from himself (his addictions). but like. nana. i love nana o. but like, her and rens relationship.. they want too much from each other but wont be willing to give back. so honestly, i know their love is strong but sometimes too strong can kill

i love hachi, i know so many people hate her saying she never grows up, learns from her mistakes, etc. but i think... she did develop, knowing that her heart and mind may want different things, that the decisions she has to make needs to be smart now knowing she has a child to take care of. she may love nobu but she knows takumi can ensure her daughter is happy, which although costs hachi her own happiness

that being said, with nana, i feel like she is the one that doesn’t learn from her mistakes- i love her but she exploits people so much and is very manipulative, and although she gives the air of a smart, confident woman, she inside is very naive, afraid, dependent on others. she has a lot of trauma and it holds her back, but she never acknowledges it, so because of that, she never grows. i hate how she sorta forces nobu to keep his heart open so ‘inevitably when hachi comes back’ nobu can take her in, once again having her back in nana’s yard again. i also hate how she treats ren and how ren treats her back. ren finds emotional support in other women, nana finds emotional support in other men. they don’t rely on each other, so are they really together? they have this crazy unburning love, but they can’t ever give it to each other. its like... their personalities both don’t have room for relationships, unless they were in the same band, always together. even then, i think they’d get tired of each other, because their love is so quick and fast

i feel so bad for nobu, and in turn, he gets with someone who i think is rather toxic for him- i don’t think asami and him love each other- rather, its the best theyre gonna get at this point. nobu tolerates asami’s sex work, asami tolerates nobu’s lingering feelings for hachi. i don’t necessarily want hachi and nobu to get together but they are definitely better matched than nobu x asami. anyway, i think nobu needs to just... chill out and not date for a while. grow, mature... yknow?

shin is so young and i honestly hate the whole shin x reira thing. its... its child sex work, its pedophilia???? thats it???? reira is emotionally immature, shin is literally immature although mentally, it can be argued hes a lot older. but no, hes still a kid and reira shouldve never got involved with him. i know there’s other relationships like this, like young hachi x asano, and i despise that too! it shouldn’t be ok because reira is a woman- women can still be predators. but knowing her, she didn’t do this in an explicit predatory way, but rather she had no one else- she was in love with takumi, she relied and supported ren, she dated yasu out of spite almost. i think she also just needs... to accept herself first before she starts dating. get over takumi and whatnot

[wayward-mikaelson]

"This just gives me the creeps," I say setting down a ceramic figurine. It looked like it was a combination of a clown, a fairy, and an angel. It was super creepy. I go back to walking the house the boys and I were scoping out. "You guys got anything?" I ask getting back into the living room.

"Nothing but some creepy ass ceramic figurines," Deans yells from another part of the house. "Are we even sure this is a spirit?"

Sams voice came from the garage. "It's a spirit alright." I turned to see Sam holding something that had disgusting black ooze on it. "Ectoplasm."

I make a face. "Awe shit," I say. "I hate really pissed off spirits." I holster my gun and sit down on the wooden rocking chair. "What spirit would be so pissed off to attack a nice little old lady?" I ask.

"Any spirit," Dean says coming into the living room. "Most likely they knew each other at one point if the spirit is that pissed off." Dean holsters his gun and looks at me with a small smile. I can feel every hair on my neck stand up. Dean knew what he was doing to me and he loved to do it.

I realize that I was holding my breath and quickly stood up to only loose my balance and fall right in the direction of Dean Winchester. Dean caught me with that same smiled. "Thanks," I say pushing away from him. I turned to towards the door and saw Sams face. He knew I liked his brother and he knew that Dean liked to tease me. "Shut up." I say making my way to the door. "Lets just go back to the motel and get some research done. The faster we get this done the quicker we can go back home." 

The boys agreed and followed me out to the impala. The drive back to the motel wasn't that long but Dean wanted to stop for food. Very typical of him. Dean could eat a whole cow and later want to another whole cow. When we arrived back at the motel, we all set to work on research on deaths in the city, county, and in that neighborhood. We also looked into the history of the house. Nothing. That was until I came across something that was fishy. 

"Guys," I pick up my laptop and shoved in front of the boys. "Did you guys know that she was widowed about forty years ago. Her husband was killed when someone broke into their home. The case went cold. It says here that she didn't seem to shaken up about his death as she had claimed multiple times that he was abusing her. But no proof that he was. Even family and an exgirlfriend said that he would never do such a thing. Four months later she remarried his best friend. He died a few months ago of a heart attack which she was broken up over." 

Dean and Sam look it over. "Does seem fishy," Sam says. "Maybe the dead husband is stuck to the woman and his punishing her." Dean shook his head as he silenced his phone for the millionth time. 

"Or maybe the wife had an affair with the best friend and because during that time period divorce or leaving a spouse was frowned upon, she took it out on him and had the best friend kill him." Deans phone rang again and he silenced it again. Sam was thinking about the other possibility that the wife and best friend killed the possible ghost.

"Who the heck is calling you over and over again?" I ask. 

"I don't know. The number looks familiar but it can wait until the case is over." Dean says getting up and getting a drink. "We go the house tonight and wait for the ghost to show up and talk with him. See where he's buried and salt and burn him." Deans phone rang again. I grabbed the phone before Dean could silence it again.

"Hello?" I answer the phone. "Dean Winchesters phone. Who am I speaking to?" Before I could get a name Dean took the phone from me. 

"I'm sorry about that," Dean says. I could help but hear a female voice on the other end. Deans face turned white and he fell back into his seat. "Lisa?"

"Who's Lisa?" I ask turning to Sam whose face had surprise written all over it.

"An old flame," Sam says making eye contact with me. "We had Cas erase hers and her sons memories of Dean after a a demon kidnapped them and it went south. Lisa almost died."

I looked back at dean who had made his way out of the motel room. I followed him. "Lisa, calm down," Dean says. "I did what I did to protect you and Ben. It killed me to do that." Dean was quite for a bit then he spoke. "Okay, where do you want to meet? I can be there tomorrow. Then you can tell me how you remember." Dean turns around and sees me standing there. His face looked so pained. Like he was reliving the past. "Okay, wow thats close. I'll be there." he says and hangs up the phone. 

"Are you okay?" I ask as Dean walks passed me. 

"I'll be fine. I just need to meet Lisa. She why she remembers everything." Dean walks into the motel and I follow him in. We see Sam packing a bag.

"I found her dead husband, The one that was murdered." Sam puts a few rounds of rock salt into the bag. 

"Okay well, I'm going to meet Lisa in Saint Louis. Its a few hours from here." Dean began to throw together a bag. "If anything happens call me and I will be there."

I grabbed a bag too and began to fill it. "I'm going with you. Just to make sure you dont do anything stupid." Both the boys stopped and looked at me. "You wont be able to talk me out of it."

Dean closed his eyes and sighed. He knew that I was right and the look on his face looked like relief? Maybe? Who knew. I needed to know if this Lisa person was actually human or something that needs to die. I looked to Sam who saw my face and nodded. He understood why I was going.

"You guys go," Sam says slinging the bag over his shoulder. "I'll get a rental. If I need you guys, I'll call you." As sam walks passed you he leans in to whisper, "Make sure you bring him back. Do whatever you need to." 

*******************************************

The drive to Saint Louis was super quiet. Dean of course has his music on but it was tense in the car. Dean still looked pained over all of it. I asked him he wanted to talk about it but he said no. So we just sat and drove. For four hours. Only stopping for food and the bathroom. I texted Sam a couple of times to tell him that Dean wasn't talking and asked about his time with Lisa. Sam just told me that Dean had spent over a year with them and that erasing their memories tore him apart. He never really spoke about it. I look at Dean and begin to feel super sorry for him.

"I know youre talking about me to Sam," Dean says pulling into a restaurant. A fancy one. This Lisa person was really trying to get him back, I thought. Even Deans face knew he would be out of place here.

"It's not too late to run," I lean over to Dean. 

With that, Dean and I got out and walked into the restaurant. Even the severs dressed super nice. "Not to late," I whisper. Dean fakes laughs but I could tell that he was nervous and wasn't entirely sure about all of this.

"Dean?" a voice from behind makes the both of us turn around. 

There stood a beautiful woman. Long brown hair and dark eyes. How did Dean ever land a woman like that? I ask myself. I could not compare to that beauty that was radiating off her. I look at Dean who was just staring at her. Lisa notices me and instantly I see something change in her eyes. Was it jealously? 

"Lisa," Dean eventually chokes out. "You look amazing."

Lisa smiles a smile so big that I see one reason why Dean loved her. "Thank you, who's your friend?" She asks gesturing to me. I notice her manicured nails and look at my bitten and brittle nails. Still can't compete with her.

Dean is shocked back into reality. He turns to me and touches my shoulder. I look at him and see that he is looking me up and down with a smile on his face. I instantly blush and look at Lisa who clearly seeing the whole thing. Her eyes hardened. "This is YN," Dean says noticing Lisa's face. He slowly drop his hands.

"It's nice to meet you," Lisa says. "Will you be joining us?" She then asks. The tone is hardened too. I could tell that Dean heard it too. 

"Well, sort of," I say smiling. "I'll be at the bar." I begin to slip away when Deans hand grabs my arm. 

"Nope, you are sitting with us," Dean begins to pull me towards the waitress who had been waiting to sit us. In a low voice Dean whispered in my ear, "I need you by me for support." 

Once we were seated and menus handed out. Dean, who is sitting next you, looks over the menu and then leans forward. "So," he  says licking his lips. I notice Dean has a hard time looking at her in the eyes. "How's you get your memories back?" Whoa! To the point. Maybe Dean wouldn't go back to Lisa and her kid. 

"Can't we order and eat and catch up first?" Lisa asks laughing nervously. "I mean, we have so much to talk about."

I look at Dean who is staring at the table. "Lis," he says. "There really isn't nothing to catch up on. I had yours and Bens memories of me and the life I live taken away from you. To protect you after you almost got killed. To protect Ben from ever having to go into this life. Just tell me how you got your memories back."

Lisa sits back and waves the waiter on the moment he arrives at the table. I make a small face because one, I need a strong drink for this and two, I was hungry and wanted a fat and juicy steak. "I guess you haven't changed much," she says. I rose an eyebrow and stare at Lisa. 

"Whoa there," I say putting my hand on the table. "You don't know Dean at all. At least not anymore, so don't make comments like that because that makes you look like a bitch." Lisas eyes widened and I notice from the corner of my eyes Dean is looking at me. He doesn't cut in because he knows that once I start speaking like this, I won't stop until the thought is done. "I have been with the boys for two years. Deans past kills him. He has nightmare after nightmare some nights. He may be a dick at times but he has changed. So excuse him for wanting to know how you got your pathetic memories back. Now if excuse me, I need to splash my face with water or this water will end up in yours." I get up and let Dean know what to order me when the waiter got back. 

Once I was in the bathroom I pull out my phone and call Sam. As the phone rings I sit on floor of the bathroom stall. I have no idea where all that came from. What Lisa said to Dean, set off a spark in me. I didn't appreciate how she spoke to him. 

"Hey," Sam answered. "Hows it going with Lisa?" He asks.

"Lisa is a bitch," I say. "But thats not what I called you about. Hows the hunt? Did you finish it?" I needed a distraction for a bit or I was going to go out and say more things that I might regret.

"Yeah," Sam says. "I was able to talk to the murdered husband and he said that it was the best friend who killed him. While I was talking to him, I got a phone call saying that the wife died of a heart attack. The spirit was then salted and burned." 

"Thats great," I say picking at a loose strand from my shirt. "I'm glad it went well and that the spirit was willing to listen."

"Now tell me why Lisa is a bitch," Sam wasn't going to let me off that easy.

"Let's just say, she looks at me like I'm a threat and tells Dean that he never changed." I rip the strand off and let it fall to the floor.

"Ah," Sam says. 

"Yeah, anyway, I need to go before Deans thinks I ditched him." I hang up the phone and splash my face with water. I walk back to the table to see Dean getting up. 

"We should get going," Dean says pulling out his wallet. 

"Dean," Lisa stands up and blocks me from walking by. "It's never too late. We can still have what we had. I can live that life. Ben can have a father figure in his life." 

Dean looks up and makes eye contact with me. I can tell that he already made his decision. "Lis," he says. "You can't. It almost killed you last time. Now stay here, buy whatever food you want and enjoy a nice dinner on me." Dean threw two 50s on the table. "Let's go," he says to me. 

I squeeze passed Lisa and get a good look at her face. She is watching Dean as he walks away. She catches me watching and she looks away. I see a small tear fall down her face. What the hell happened while I was gone? 

Back on the road, I waited an hour to talk to Dean. "What happened back there?" I ask. "Did you get the answers you wanted?"

Deans hands tightens on the wheel and pulls off to the side of road and put the impala in park. "Yeah." he stares ahead of him. "She started having these dreams about me. Went to an actual psychic who pulled her memories back. But not Bens. She said she wouldn't do that unless I got back with her." Dean looks at me and I watch as he grabs my hand in his. "I told her it was impossible. I told her I didn't feel that way about her anymore and had feelings for some else."

I felt my heart skip a beat. I knew he was talking about me. I used my free hand to grab his shirt collar and pull him to my lips. 

[shhh-no-ones-home]

vows nikki sixx x reader

+++++++++ I wrote this in the span of like a half hour and it's really all I could think about. It's kinda short, or at least shorter than my last few but that's okay, it's cute anyway 🤗

Song: iris by the goo goo dolls

tag list: @cynic-spirit +++++++++

I woke up in a haze, slowly blinking my eyes open. Nikki was curled up behind me, one arm under my own, gripping my breast in his right hand and his thigh between my legs. All I could feel was his soft breath against my neck as he slept peacefully. I looked at the clock and sighed. My alarm was set to go off in ten minutes.  I tried to shift but he moved his hand to my stomach and held me in place, groaning as I tried again.

"Nikki I have to get ready for work."

I said softly, feeling him shove his other hand under me, hugging me to him.

"Just quit."

He mumbled into my back, rolling bits of my over sized t-shirt between his fingers.

"Nikki I can't just quit because you want me to stay in bed longer."

I turned to look back at him and he opened one eye, a soft grin making its way to his face.

"Sure you can."

I shook my head and shifted, him actually letting me sit up this time, untangling his leg from my own.

"I have bills to pay."

I said swinging my legs over the side of the bed, the shirt falling over the shorts I had on and making it look like I wasn't wearing any. Nikki sat up and watched me, rubbing his eye as he yawned.

"You could always become a trophy wife."

He suggested as I stepped into his bathroom.

"Id have to be a wife first for that Nikki, cause then you'd have to pay the bills and we don't share a bank account."

I said into the mirror, brushing my hair out before grabbing my toothbrush to brush my teeth.

"So let's do it."

He said, now standing in the doorway. I sent him a look before spitting toothpaste into the sink and rinsing my mouth.

"You aren't funny."

I noted at I turned the shower on. I watched him cross his arms over his chest out of the corner of my eye.

"Maybe not, but I am serious. Quit your job, we can get married, and then you'll never have to worry about money again."

I sent him a look as I got undressed, stepping into the warm shower and closing the curtain behind me.

"Nikki that's not how that works."

He pulled the curtain back a bit, watching me as I washed my hair.

"Why not? The band is super successful, we love each other, and I can't think of a reason not to."

I sent him a look and sighed.

"What if we get married and then later find out we hate each other?"

He drew his brows together.

"That wouldn't happen."

I began washing my body as he stood there perplexed.

"Okay but humor me, what if it did? Cause I don't want to be divorced to a rockstar that promised to take care of me that now absolutely hates my guts and isn't willing to keep that promise."

He shrugged.

"So we sign a legal agreement first. Something that says I will continue to take care of you in the event that happens. which it wont."

I thought for a second.

"And you would really be willing to do that?"

He nodded, handing me my towel after I turned the water off.

"I absolutely would if it meant being with you more now."

I closed my eyes as I dried off.

"Plus think of all the bonuses: you'd be fully moved in to this place or I'd be fully moved in to yours, we could think about starting a family together, you could travel the world with me and not even have to think about home life. It would be great. I mean I'm sure there's more reasons but you get my point."

He seemed so happy just talking about it. I smiled at him and stepped closer, looking to him. He leaned down and kissed me gently, his hands slowly running over my water covered arms. I looked at him endearingly.

"You get me a ring and I'll quit my job."

I patted his chest and his smile got wider.

"Till then I have work to do."

I said stepping back out into his bedroom, gathering one of my work outfits from his closet.

"Deal."

He said seriously.

"What kind of ring would you like?"

He asked, watching me get dressed. I shook my hair out of the towel and looked up at him as I put my shoes on.

"How about we shop around this weekend, I'm off and we'll have time to go to a few stores."

I said kissing the top of his head after he sat. He was practically beaming with pride.

"Deal?"

He said, asking this time, holding his hand out. I sent him a playful look before shaking on it.

"Deal. Now I'll see you after work."

I said, grabbing my purse off the floor.

"I love you!"

He called as I made my way down the hallway.

"Love you too!"

I called back, grabbing one of his spare keys off the hook at the door. As I walked to my car I couldn't help but smile. We hadn't really talked about marriage before and here he was absolutely and completely ready to do it. I did have my doubts but if he wanted to take care of me for life, who was I to say no? After all, I loved him with my whole being and couldn't see a life without him. As I drove to work it's all I could think about. This could be something to live for.

[dykeborgqueen]

for the ask game, if you haven't done them already- damar and dukat

Scroll down for damar!

Dukat:

1. Sexuality headcanon:

Mostly straight, nonbinary (I WONT GIVE UP ON THISSSSS!)

2. Otp

No one he is a lonely sad man who’s wife took his eggs in the divorce also I like him with winn but he’s a creep about it so not actually

3. Brotp

He thinks damar and weyoun are his friends but they hate listening to his weird gorey stories about the occupation

4. Notp

Kira. Might be interesting to read but NO!!!!!

5. First head canon that pops into my head

He takes his children to work like that guy from chain of command tng and they follow him like a duckling

6. Favourite line from this character

😾of course I hated them🤬! I hated 😡 everything 🤯about them! Their 🧙‍♀️superstitions and their 🥺 cries for sympathy, their 😤 treachery and their 🤥 lies, their 🙄 smug superiority and their 😰stiff necked obstinacy, their 📿 earrings and their 👃 broken, wrinkled noses... I should have 💣 killed every 🔫 last one of them. I should have turned their 🪐 planet into a 💀 graveyard the likes of which the 🌌 galaxy has never 👀 seen! I should have ⚰️ killed them 🧨 all.

7. One way in which I relate to this character?

I’m joker fucking insane too I also need a therapist

8. Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character?

Girl why you flirting with your dead mistress’ daughter?

9. Cinnamon roll or problematic fav?

The worst of the problematic favs

[sherlolly-siya]

Magnum P.I. Season 2 Finale Honest review - I

This is going to be a 2 parter.. not because thery were 2 episodes.. but because 2x20 should be kept miles away from 2x19. Forever.

So.. 2x19.. yea lets get it out, I’m a clown.. i had hopes from Dr.Kim i dont see that happening like ever..*missed opportunity #1

But the episode was rather light-hearted and enjoyable. 

1. Jealous Magnum..is clearly jealous of TC for taking his place, he didn't leave a single opportunity to rub that in   🤣

“This is TC’s fiancee Juliet Higgins.” “If you and TC ever hit a rough patch, you should give her [divorce mediator] a call.” “Married couples work together all the time, its not an issue.” “Did you figure out that I make a better fake husband than TC?” “Hey is this TC’s future wife Juliet Calvin?”

That was just pure gold.. 🤣

2. I loved to see them bickering again after so long.. it felt like ages since they’ve done that.. I don’t even remember when was the last time they did that..

3. Love that each and every one of Magnum’s friends are now Higgy’s.. including Katsumoto. That’s huge.. at the beginning of the series she was unsure  if she has that many friends and now look at her.. she’s got a family that would die for her  🥺 i love that for my baby.

And thank you katsumoto for making magnum say "I’m useless without Higgins.” for shits and giggles.. but its pieces like that, that make you smile 😅.. *missed opportunity #2.. BTW did anyone see magnum buying a pie for the wife? 👀

4. These two cuties  ❤️

Can we have more of Betsy on the show please? Her and Zach are so cute!!!

5. My actual favorite moment + the rant.. this was bitter sweet

When he came looking for her in the study and froze for a mini second  😍 and he kept checking her out.. You should have said something magnum.. u should have said “For what its worth, you look beautiful Juliet” , your eyes did, but you didn't..  😭 

The word “FINE” i hate it now.. I don’t want to hear magnum say it ever again.. Every single time, when he’s not fine, he’s saying he’s fine.. and today i could see him almost breaking it and saying he’s not fine.. he wont be fine without her.. but did not. He needs to.. he needs to be “not fine” for once.. You don’t need to be cool/calm/collected every time magnum.. its okay.. its okay writers if he looses it once.. it shows he’s human.. i just want to see that  😭 😭

I know it was the dress that made her re-think everything.. it wasn't just the clients words.. the last time she was almost a bride, it was all real, she really wanted to do that because she loved the man in-front of her.. I totally get it that she would want to do it again (”Even though how it all ended for me, I would do it all over again”) and she would want to do that for real.. *missed opportunity #3 This scene should have been longer, magnum should have told her he would miss her if she leaves in actual words, she should have shared may be a lil something from her past rather than pinning it on the clients situation.. we were robbed!!! If nothing, why did we not have the scene where they went out and told others? Where was the look of understanding on everyone's face? Where were those friendly hugs? That reminds me.. This lil part was solely put there to rub salt on my wounds:

“There’s a hug and then there’s a hug”.

Because there was no hug! AT ALL!! So many missed opportunities.. but this still did not break my heart like the next one did.