#but tags?? what do u even tag things? ig it doesn't matter

[petitsdieu]

... 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑜𝑙𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟; 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑝𝑒𝑎𝑡; 𝐴𝑝ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑑𝑖𝑡𝑒’𝑠 𝑖𝑛𝑖𝑚𝑖𝑡𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑔𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑒.

[odetojupiter]

this is absolutely random but I got caught up on your tag saying "I'm way too good at reading things that maybe aren't there" and listen. I don't know what you study (I remember you mentioning you take creative writing classes so??? sorry if you literally know this just trying to encourage you) but I study literature and in literary theory there's a lot of discussions about whether what the author wanted/meant/intended actually matters in interpretation and understanding literary works and well, a lot of theorists actually agree it doesn't so if you say it's there it's probably there, no matter if intentionally by the author, so ig please keep going off unapologetically we love to hear it

(also just in general, your analysis of the number three pretty much resonates a lot with Jacques Derrida's formal idea of deconstruction (basically tearing texts apart to the minute detail, and collecting and inter-connecting these details/words with associations of the reader to form a structure of meaning and it's all very abstract (a pain to learn during studies but cool to see in action!) so I just had to think about that)) yeah that's it have a great day

ahhh this is my first ever ask so thank u anon <333

and yeah, i did a joint honours english and creative writing degree (graduating in three weeks :/) and there were literary theory modules each year that were compulsory for single honours english students BUT because i was also in creative writing, i couldn’t actually take them bc they ran at the same time as my cw classes soooo all this to say that even tho i did study literature i wasn’t really able to study that much literary theory - tho of course theory is relevant in all lit modules but i didn’t take a class specifically for that. (i wanted to, cause i love that shit, but i wasn’t allowed) ((annoyingly in first year there was a module that covered not only advanced lit theory but also academic writing that i wasn’t able to take so i never learned how to write university essays? like that’s not inconvenient at all))

that being said, i’m of course familiar with the concept of intention vs interpretation mainly through barthes’ death of the author theory (and it comes up a lot in cw classes because in workshops people share every thought they have about your work and ur not allowed to defend urself!! cause ur intention doesn’t matter if someone interprets what you wrote a certain way!!!) and the thing is i get it, i do - and i love to analyse whatever i can, i tear things to shreds with no mind for intent - but i also know people outside of literary studies love to say shit just isn’t that deep.

im always watching and rewatching shows with one or two of my sisters and one of them especially makes fun of me a lot for analysing everything from the dialogue to delivery to lighting and staging and camera work because she thinks i get way too into it. she either stares at me blankly or tells me to shut up (which happens a lot it’s very annoying let me talk ffs) so i guess i mainly added that in the tags to ensure everyone knows that i know that i analyse a lot so hopefully no one feels the need to tell me?? i don’t know, i just get slightly self conscious about analysing things when i know i could be saying something slightly unhinged lmao.

but, i will of course, keep going off on here about aftg bc that’s what im here for lol (i got sad about not being able to share my thoughts anywhere)

oops forgot to say THANK YOU for reassuring me about my jean number 3 analysis i’m always thinking someone’s gonna say wtf r u on about mate 😭😭

[l0v3tast3]

More young!reader and 141 maybeeee? I feel like I just need more headcanons and drabbles

Also maybe like, 141 reacting to reader randomly dropping information like "well, my mum's an alcoholic and she used to beat me"

And this is me speaking from experience cause I do that and like 🥲

✎ i think i got this request like almost a month ago now i am. so sorry lmao but i'm actually getting to it and that's what counts right? right. i pumped this out in like 2 hours which if you knew how i write you would be very impressed 😎

��� tags: young!reader, military!reader, not proofread im too cool for that, just general fluff like one mention of simon being angsty about u dying ig?

♡ so soap and the reader are definitely really good friends. i don't really think he's like super "mushy"? i guess? like some people make him out to be (not that there's anything wrong with that i love that trope) because like, look at him. i love him but some of the stuff he says in the games is like super fucking #militaryman if that makes sense lmao

♡ you're friends in a sibling kind of way. you make fun of each other all of the time and play pranks with (and on) each other. he goes rough on you when you're sparring but always makes sure you're okay afterwards. a lot of the time he talks to you like you're a little kid in an annoying tone just to piss you off.

♡ simon definitely didn't really want to like you at first, partly because he didn't want to get close to you in case you died or got seriously injured or captured or whatever else could possibly happen. but you literally weaseled your way in as his friend.

♡ after a few weeks of being with the team, you picked up on their likes and dislikes. in particular, you learned which foods simon liked at the cafeteria, you learned what kind of books he read, etc. etc. and so ensued you doing nice things for him.

♡ you would grab him the protein bar he liked from the vending machine when you went to grab yourself or someone else something. if you went somewhere with cheap books, you would grab him one that was similar to what you saw him reading last. you always made it a point to get him cheap things so you could refuse if he tried to pay you back.

♡ most of the time, though, he would say he didn't want it when you handed it to him. you would just shrug and tell him to give it to someone else (you see him with whatever you got him not long after). other times, you'll just sit down next to him and talk to him out of nowhere. towards the beginning, it was more of you talking at him, but that was okay with you. it took longer than the others, but you wormed your way into his cold heart.

♡ price is your new father. he gives you advice on literally everything, whether or not you ask for it (you almost never do). he does the dad thing of the hands on the hips and legs kinda spread while he explains the topic in depth. he has a very vast wealth of knowledge, you come to learn.

♡ i feel like one time you would comment on price's outfit, saying it looked good and matched well one day and he would kind of take it to heart. from then on he'll occasionally ask you how his outfit is that day. he'll play it off as if he's joking, but deep down he's actually curious. you always make fun of him for the hat that's seemingly glued to his head, though.

♡ gaz fully leans into becoming your older brother. he doesn't deny it, he just laughs when someone says anything. also i feel like he'll literally do anything you want to do. he'll go shopping with you, he'll go to bookstores or antique stores or crystal places, literally anywhere. it's gotten to the point where you just tell him to go with you and he just grabs his coat.

♡ he also will play any video game with you and he always beats you at it. it literally does not matter if he's never even heard of this random game you just pulled out of some alternate dimension, he'll be better than you at it. he's also absolutely clueless about his natural talent; if you ask him what the hell he's doing right, he's just like "huh? 🤨🤨"

♡ yeah in regards to randomly dropping trauma like it's nothing, it's definitely a smack in the face to all of them. they talk about the time they almost died in a firefight or when they got shot several times over, but they don't talk about the "deep" stuff.

♡ so it's like, you say some shit like "yeah my [super close person] died when i was really young that was #rough lol" and they all just slowly turn their heads to you like "what the actual fuck did you just say" and you're just like "what's going on why did we stop talking 🧐"

♡ they either move on to a new conversation after several long moments of silence or you just don't notice and continue talking like you didn't just give them mental whiplash.

♡ also so like i'm the type of person that loves clutter and just wants to decorate the hell out of my apartment n shit right? so like if you're also that kind of person and you just amass all this stuff in your room and put in shelves and lamps and posters and pictures covering every wall (even though it's probably against some military code or rules or whatever) and they got a peek they're just like "what the fuck"

♡ every time price sees it he tells you to clean it up but it's half-hearted at best. you tell him he's just jealous of all of your cool stuff, and he secretly is (if you're a mini-fridge kind of person he would definitely want to steal it from you).

♡ if you don't really decorate your room that much or just don't have a lot of stuff, they all get you little things to clutter up your space with. kyle and you come up with a system of buying each other a gift whenever you go shopping together, and he's good at remembering what you like.

♡ i think simon likes carving wood in his spare time, and you'll see him doing this and say that's really cool and good, and he's always just like "ya want it?" and tosses it at you. you don't bother asking if he's sure he wants to give it to you because he already pulled out another block of wood to carve into.

♡ they all also will fight literally anyone for you once you all get closer. you're probably one of, if not the youngest person working in the entire compound and they know how people talk, and if they hear anyone saying anything bad about you for any reason they shut that shit down immediately. you are good, in every aspect, and they all will let everyone know that.

[yomiurinikei]

okie. pride hcs uhhh im just gonna do dra for now kiss kiss

under the cut for length! i'm not discussing theeee ch1 killer in this post everyone else is here tho, and! mentions of internalized homophobia/transphobia, aaand minako being a bad parent- ALSO k1nj0ma3 mention in the last section, i don't know anyone who needs it tagged but yk

kiyoka: bi! i think she'd just like.... not even consider that she could be anything but her for a long time, then when she finally realizes, it's because she's crushing on a girl, and she assumes that like "oh ig im a lesbian then bc i don't like any guys!" it. takes her a moment, but she does eventually realize she doesn't have to actively be crushing on a guy and a girl to be bi. also shes cis i'm sorry i think. she's one of those characters who's like... their experiences can be seen as an allegory for being trans but it doesn't work for their character for them to be trans. obvi all trans kiyoka hcs are so so so valid! i just don't see it

kizuna: lesbian. i'm sorry her entire thing with guys is literally just because of how she was raised/it's entirely comphet. she hasn't even considered she could be a lesbian and prolly has some internalized homophobia tbh. i also think she's cis just because i. Do Not think minako would go "oh yes obvi if ur trans that's fine u just have to find a rich boy to seduce ☺️" it does not fit. however i think if she felt safe enough to question she may end up id'ing as a demigirl

ayame: trans wlw. she doesn't put a label on her attraction beyond that, she knows she likes girls, she knows she is a girl, and that's all that rlly matters to her rn. she's still working out how to even talk with people, let alone pretty girls, so she doesn't need to stress out about semantics

kanata: trans bi!! briefly considered trans het but i do think she'd like girls, i just see her as having a male lean? she's generally not very interested in relationships, just because she doesn't really socialize a lot with people who aren't patients, so...

kakeru: iiid say bi? i don't have a lot to say here i think he's just chill about things and takes any crushes or anything that happens as it happens. he knows and understands he can't control who he likes, so he's just. waiting for his person :] also i kinda see him as nb anywyas

kinji: cis gay but also if you asked him abt his gender and like..... gave him cause to think about it he'd definitely have a crisis over it. ultimately just can't find the words or anything consistent so he. decides to ignore it. he uses he/him, likes guys, and if/when he's with a guy, it's a queer relationship. that's all that matters to him

haruhiko: the thing with satsuki was comphet on his end and my proof is his ftes. why do you care so much about getting a girl, haru? so you can be closer to your bros by the shared experience? okay haru. he's so fucking gay and so oblivious. i think. he's another one who's not really huge on crushes though, he finds people rlly attractive sometimes, but it's mostly. appreciation, not a desire to be with them. also he's trans but i don't really have anything to say there he just. Is ftm

satsuki: trans bi. ik ive hc'd her as a lesbian in the past but i just think she's got a slight female lean. who knows what i'll end up saying next year!! ig we'll find out. anyways she did. like haru but also it never really felt right to her? didn't feel bad or anything, but as much as being all lovey-dovey with him made her happy, she just never rlly saw it going further/lasting . she's another one i can rlly see as being nb!

yamato: like.... mlm? nblm? not to get into like.... hyper specific stuff this is the first time i've felt the need to do this for this post so i feel a bit bad put. id honestly put him as genderflux. sometimes he id's as non-binary, sometimes a demiboy, sometimes hes solidly a trans guy, but since it usually stays in that range, and too him, it feels like a spectrum between those labels, he just sticks with genderflux masc + gay

mikako: lesbian also i'd say demigirl. i don't. have a lot to say here tbh. i can also rlly see her as pan but??? idk!

akane: lesbian. i can also. see her as bi but idk i kinda think that the utsuro thing would put her off guys. not that it was necessarily,, traumatic? she's rlly solidly at peace with what happened there and she's moved on from "he saved me i must devote myself to him i guess this is love" but she just... hasn't rlly been into a guy since/doesn't think she'll feel that way again, so she generally calls herself a lesbian, for the ease of it. also i have 0 thoughts on her gender identity oop-

utsuro: . ???????? tbh ive never.... really had utsuro ships (this is.... very close to the truth so well let the small lie slide). he's one where i don't rlly see him with girls, but also yk i don't. think he'd label himself or be into anyone. i also wouldn't say aro????? he's just completely abstained from having any thoughts or feelings on relationships whatsoever. ,,,in fact, would be really be able to have one? we all know. how he feels abt his luck, couldn't he pull anyone he wants? i don't think that would make him happy, and that doesn't make for a good relationship. he really just can't connect with people properly irregardless of love so. anyways he's ftm

teruya: COMPHET LEVEL 100 only kizuna beats him for level of comphet. he definitely gets really bad crushes on guys really easily but he can't.... recognize them as crushes, and latches onto any guy like crazy. but. yk. he prolly doesnt realize this for a while so......... rip. i think he's amab and like.. doesn't particularly feel like a guy, but calling himself anything else feels Wrong, whereas being a guy is just like. a thing to him so. it's fine by him!

rei: she's like. canonically celibate and i'm 90% sure linuj said she'd like. abstain from all relationships if she ever felt attraction and tbh i'm not.... gonna comment on that whatsoever but also she's definitely a lesbian. she's cis i think i don't see her as trans ig

tsurugi: gay. i know i've made a lot of the guys on this list mlm but it's not.... my fault i'm going off linujs writing and my vibes and i've written a whole essay about how you can read the entire franchise and track linujs shifting queer views so.. it's not my fault that all the guys in dra are limp in the wrist. anyways back to tsurugi. he was totally into kouhei he just didnt realize and it wasn't until his ftes with maeda. wherein he started to crush on maeda. he rlly is my poor little meow meow but anyways he prolly finds a good husband one day so it's okay. also we started off with "you feel so trans but it does not work with your story" and ig we're ending with it too.

im hungry now and also kinda dizzy i might go have grapefruit. if u read this far: make sure to eat ur fruits and get ur vitamins 🥰

[usertoxicyaoi]

the tags you put on the post talking about enjoying what you like and not caring if other people don't like it? i wish i could be like that. yesterday i was live tweeting about bts' new album and one of my friends on there was complaining about it on tumblr- saying how embarrassing it was & how much she hates them & their fans. obviously she doesn't have to like them, i dont like a lot of their fans too- same with most fandoms- but it hurt to have her laughing at me on here. they make me happy.

hiiii anon!!! honestly like ... idrc about armys anymore and i myself wouldnt even call myself one bc i'm just ... so .... distant from bts now than before .... but i do like their music on and off and i love some of the members! and ... fjfnsif call that me being fake or a part timer or whatever but i honestly do not care. if their music brings me joy, i'm vibin', and no body's gonna stop me. if i don't like it, the respectful thing for me to do would just be to not talk about it, or address my dislike in a respectful way. i don't need to stoop low and trash talk and spoil it for others .... i can use that energy elsewhere.

ig what im tryna say is that .... you yourself just have to put up these mental and social blocks, and remember why you like something/someone, for your own authentic reasons - bc it brings YOU joy. the minute it doesn't, its perfectly ok to respectfully distance yourself from it. life's too short to not be wholeheartedly and passionately enjoying what you like, and feeling ashamed or guilty for liking/not liking something. other people's perceptions of what you like and dont like really do not and should not matter, i promise u. do/watch/listen to what feels good/right to u.