#but some people dont have that luxury- like tina

[thoughtfulchaos773]

I might be way off, but I'm thinking about the biggest critique this season, and it's very valid. I didn't like it when the chefs were talking about their obligation to make lives better at the end - their experience- their purpose. It took me outside the show for a bit.

BUT ALSO

While the table is discussing their love for their work and their purpose, Carmy is looking at the guy who was partially to blame for his life outside of work coming to a stop. While they're talking about cooking and their signature dishes, he's thinking about his sole reason was making something with Mikey - something that will be theirs. He had a completely different reason than everyone else, who just mostly wanted recognition and to provide service.

We step out of that world - I cringe every time I watch, to be honest. Thank God we go back to Chef Terry, who has decided not to make work her whole life anymore. She is now choosing to prioritize making connections with new people over being the best, and she's choosing to live her life outside of work.

While Richie is asking questions not about being inspired at work but experiencing a fulfilling life outside the industry.

Then you have Sydney, who wants to make a name for herself in the industry, but she's walking along the same path as Carmy with the whole loneliness thing, making work everything.

So it leaves me wondering what will happen in the end. Is it all about balance? Is that the secret? It seems that connection is the real secret, especially from what Chef Terry says. it's about the relationships you have in your life that make it all worth it.

[pbandjesse]

I started feeling nauseous all of a sudden. I am just sipping water now trying to feel better. 

Today was a really nice day though. I slept okay. Getting up was hard. SweetP had woken James up at like 630 am with his collar making bell sounds. But I woke up with James still in bed and I always like that. I did fall back asleep and woke up when I heard James getting dressed to go for a bike ride. And then woke up the final time when he got back. It was a little after 9 and I felt okay. 

I got a shower. And James made us pumpkin pancakes. I played animal crossing for a little while. But then we decided to try to play one of the new games we downloaded last night. It was fun to play a game together. This one is about childhood memories and it makes me a little dizzy but the story is really ethereal and I am enjoying it. 

We hung out and played games until around noon. Then it was decided we would head to Hamden. As we were getting ready to go our landlady, Tina, knocked on the door to let us know she has contacted the plumber and he has put us on his list. Thats cool, we dont need it that bad, its just a little luxury. Honestly more cabinets would be nice but if the dishwasher gets replaced its all good. Shes very nice to us and gives us fruit. So she's better than any landlord Ive ever had before. 

 Mr Will teased us as we left with our bikes. It was a lot warmer out then I expected it to be. So I took my sweater off as soon as we got outside. I felt really pretty today. I love this new dress. I was just having a very good day. 

And the biking was good. I had to stop once at the top of the hill. But it was all good. And the second hill we encountered we just walked. But my favorite part was biking through druid hill park. We got to go so fast and there was really nice nature and it was just a good time. 

It was nice just being outside with James. Talking about nothing. Looking at people's tiny yards and what they chose to do with them. It was a nice time. A group of women remarked about me biking in a short dress and how thats what they wish they could do. And I pulled my dress up and was like.. I got shorts!!  Had a good laugh. 

We went to the coffee shop I like and I got a thai tea and James got a latte and we walked to the park to have our drinks and people watch. We talked about jobs and me wanting to move away. Fears. It was good to be together and the drinks were good. 

But it was almost time for James to head to work. He needed to eat before his shift. So we walked back to where we locked up our bikes and said goodbye. 

I didnt want to go home. But I also didnt know where to bike. I kind of bopped around for a while until I decided I would go down to the harbor and go to lush. This would be the longest ride I had done in a long time. 

But it was actually great. I had my podcast. I got downtown. There were way to many people out but it was whatever. I stayed away. 

I got to lust and had to wait outside until less people were in there. Im glad they are keeping the number down. 

The woman who helped me was lovely. I got the body powder I already like, but the ointments I was prescribed is making me feel very greasy and kind of gross. Like its absolutely working on my arms. Legs Im still not sure of, but arms for sure. But putting lotion on top of everything is making me feel kind of dirty. And it turned out she had scalp psoriasis and was super helpful! She suggested an inshower lotion. So I got that and a few samples of other things she thought would help. And so far so good because I used it after a bath tonight and my skin feels pretty nice! She was very kind. And we had a moment where a beautiful dog came in the shop and we both Awed. Very cute. 

I left there and went across the street to look at the new Whole Foods. I gave a nice man directions. I didnt find anything I wanted to eat at the Whole Foods though so off I went. 

When I got back to my bike I saw I had a missed call from my dad. I texted him and decided to bike to a quiet place to call him back. 

I biked back towards the lighthouse on the water. Passed a man with a beautiful colorful bike, I had to stop and tell him it was beautiful and he said mine was too. And soon enough I was by the lighthouse and there werent many people over there. 

I called my dad and we talked for a half hour. I enjoyed being near the water. But soon mom was home with a sandwich for him and we said goodbye. And I got back on my bike. 

I wanted fries. But I couldnt figure out from where. So I decided to head towards home and go to the mcdonalds on north avenue. I had some funny moments on eutaw while biking back. Guys on the corner waving at me and being shocked when I waved like a toddler back at them. Gotta make them laugh when they try to catcall me I guess? Remind them Im a person too. 

I biked in a weird direction to go past my old apartment. My old neighborhood. And it avoided a hill I dont like going up. 

I got my fries and a soda and decided to take it to the park near us. Not like park across the street, but the one with the big fountain down the street. And that was a good idea. 

The flea market that is there sometimes was still there! Cleaning up for the day. I looked a little but I didnt want to bother them. I went and sat by some roses and they smelled really nice and I felt good. 

But my butt hurts from my bike seat. And I hit a bump at thought I wounded myself?? I think I am just bruised. 

I got home and some mail had come. The tiny teddy bears I ordered came. I am still waiting on some supplies for making them into earrings. I have little heart beads coming to. But I made myself one pair just to see if they would be heavy but they are not and I love them. They are all so special and have their own faces. I chose my favorite ones to keep. I hope my hair doesnt stain the white bears. 

I have spent the rest of tonight just chilling. I played the video game a little more. I took a bath. And I listened to scary stories. 

Now it is almost 10 and I hope James will be home soon. I hope you all have a good night. And I hope tomorrow is a really good day for you all. Goodnight everyone. 

[cogphotomiriamalihnd2b]

Contextual Photography

Family Documentary

Tina Barney ‘Embarrassment of Riches’

Candid & Tableaux differences?

In Tableaux photography everything is placed in a certain way and in candid photography there is no consideration in the placement of the subject and it is captured as is.

Why is her book called ‘Theatre of Manners’?

The poses and setups are quite theatrical and fake. The family members also look as though they have this tension and it all looks very fake and polite. 

What does Barney want us to think about her family?

She wants us to think about their fortune and easy life but also how her family are quite pretentious in nature. 

How do we know this?

The way her images are set up suggests a life of wealth and luxury.

Describe the construction of the photos.

Her images are set up and every element of the photo is thought about and placed in a certain way. 

What are the elements of the image out with the people that tell us a story? What is that story?

The luxurious decor, bright colours and different textures give me a sense and story of wealth. The technical use of the wide angles also gives me this feeling. 

Nicholas Nixon ‘The Brown Sisters’

Which one is Nixon’s wife? How do you know? 

3rd from the left. I know this because the eye seems to be drawn to this particular person and she is the most dominant in all of the images from this series. 

Why are they arranged in the same way?

This allowed the series to have a constant variable.

What is the photographic importance of this work?

The marking of time, and the sentimental value and impact of having a long term project.

Elinor Carucci 

5 words to describe these photographs.

-Intimate

sensitive

sad

breaking point

underlying tension

What does Carucci reveal about her relationship with her family?

Shows a very close family and the hardship they are facing. There is also a lot of tension that can be felt throughout the series.

Why does she want us to witness these private moments?

This project shows an imperfect, fragile family. I think she wants others to witness this so that they understand that no family is perfect.

Who are these photographs for? What makes you think this?

For herself and the world.

I think this would be some form of therapy and dealing with the difficulties in her family.

How do you think Carucci enables her family to expose themselves?

I think that the project was completed a long time ago so it may not be an issue withher family anymore.

Richard Billingham

What relationship does the photographer have with the people in the photos?

Mother and Father. His Father was an alcoholic.

Richard Billingham says ‘All photography is exploitative’, what do you think about this?

I think there is a scale of exploitation when it comes to photography, but he may also be defending his own work as it is seen that way.

From the photographs, what do you feel? 

There is a sense of humour but also a care. 

Sally Mann

Do you agree with sally mann that these photographs are  a collaboration with her children? 

I think the children are young to be actively collaborating with Mann however I understand that if they did not want to do something they would not have to do it.

What are some of the difficulties around Mann’s work?

The use of nudity and children. There is nothing but innocence in Mann’s work but the society we live in does judge very quickly and usually without learning about the person and situation behind the picture. 

What considerations/restrictions would you have in order to produce work like this in 2019?

There would be some form of restriction or consideration that must be made of what can be photographed and what cant be photographed, especially when it comes to children. 

Nan Goldin

Nan Goldin rejects the term ‘outsiders’ for her subjects, referring to them, instead as her ‘family’. I what way are these family portraits?

They are referred to as family portraits as they are portraits Goldin cares deeply for.

Why should we be interested in this family?

As it is a different kind of family and I think it is good to know that there is always someone who can support you when you are struggling.

Nan Goldin says ‘You can only ever shoot your own tribe’, Do you agree?

The understanding and the strong relation comes from family however I think when shooting people who you dont know can add an outsiders perspective. 

Margaret Mitchell

What do you know about this work?

Margaret Mitchell is a Scottish documentary photographer who focuses her work on the youth and her own family in Glasgow.