#but seriously i might start posting shit just for my eyes only becsuse i need to see mailee content

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i know i have like no followers on this account but i feel like i have to vent about his becsuse i’ve spent like YEARS waiting for other people to say anything in general.

I’ve been on tumblr for a while. All the way from 2014 when I was in grade 6 and just got into hamilton and haikyuu I would browse tumblr and the artists as well as pinterest and deviantart. I’ve had this account for like two years since I decided to start fresh from toxic fandoms and having so many requests as a shitty middle school artist (that’s a story for a different time). But the point i’m trying to make is that i’ve been here for a while.

I’m seeing this more recently on tiktok and on tumblr with the revival of the atla fandom and haikyuus insane popularity on tumblr, but it’s so obvious that a lot of people only ship zukka for example because they’re two guys. Like i’m not homophobic, i’m fucking bisexual, but so many teenage girls only ship gay ships and it’s so gross to me?

I find zukka cute too. It’s a cute ship and they have a couple episodes of bonding plus scenes in the comics so it’s understandable that many people like myself would want to pair them together. But the difference in the love female ships, like mailee in atla, gets is is so much lower than male ships.

I’ve met so many people who ship only gay ships but turn their nose up with disgust at lesbian ships. It’s clearly fetishization of gay men and their relationships which is gross by itself, but it’s doubly gross when you realize that there’s less content for mailee because those same people that make content for any gay ship think lesbian relationships are disgusting because they’re of the same sex as the people fetishizing them. I’m so close to actually start posting art again because of the lack of content i see for mailee and other lesbian relationships which i know would be there if they were male.

Another issue i have is the gender roles and sexualization of characters? (i think those are the words for what i’m trying to say). This happens a LOT in the haikyuu fandom but no one ever addresses it because the fandom brags about being unproblematic and fun and people who usually tak about stuff like this get brushed off. Clothes have no gender, so it’s always cute seeing people characters like kenma and hinata in stylish skirts. But i’ve noticed that when people make ship art they enforce traditional gender roles on the characters too? Like they’ll make art where one character is obviously more “assertive” from the pose or expression and the one who isn’t is usually in a skirt or something. I’ve seen so much art on here and on tiktok now where it’s a cheerleader and a football player and if the ships are kagehina, kuroken, daisuga, bokuaka, and tsukiyama then you’ll ALWAYS see hinata, kenma, sugawara, akaashi, and yamaguchi as the cheerleaders? And everyone in the comment section will be like “tops and their bottoms lol”. Am i the only one who finds that gross and jarring? And they’ll always say sugawara looking after her kids and draw him as a mom with daichi as a dad? Like idk if i’m looking too into it but i find that kinda stuff so uncomfortable considering that sugawara is a teenage boy. It’s the same as when random women tell me i’ll be a good mother or something.

Anyways no ones probably gonna see this and i’m just ranting at ass o clock by myself becsuse i realized after thinking by myself that holy fuck i’m 17 i’m so old and i’ve wasted so many years not doing or saying anything and waiting for someone else when I should’ve done it even if no ones gonna see. Becsuse that way it’s gonna be outta my system and even if there’s no notes then i’ll see the date and not regret saying something sooner.