#but seriously even with mallory legit telling her she remindes her of one of her agents

[carebooks]

r.i.p dean indira shetty, you and billy butcher would’ve been a match made in hell heaven

[isitovers]

1) Hi Fiona, I’m back for chapter 5!! And I’m so excited because this is such an important chapter. I feel like I should warn you, this may get long. I have so many thoughts about everything that happens here lol. So before I actually get into each scene of this chapter can I just say that I love how you did this breakup?? Because you’ve shown us that they truly do love each other so the fact that he’s cheating on her is a shock.

2) But at the same time you’ve shown us enough cracks in their relationship (Steph, the glasses thing) that it’s not unbelievable or completely out of character. In some ways, even though he’s an asshole and I’m not condoning it at all, it’s kind of understandable. I mean from Sam’s perspective, even though Taylor wasn’t cheating on him and never would, things looked pretty damning. She spends a lot of her spare time with him,

3) he himself has been witness to countless times of Harry flirting with Taylor and she generally flirts back, it’s pretty clear that Harry has deep feelings for her (it seems as if pretty much everyone has picked up on it), there have been numerous times when Harry has stayed over at Taylor’s apartment sleeping in her bed even though he lives right next door. So, whether he actually thought anything was going on with them or if he just figured that’s where things were headed,

4) he reacted by deciding to cheat on her first. Was that in anyway ok?? No, of course not. He’s an asshole. Did Taylor deserve this because there were maybe a few times where she and Harry were a bit too close? Definitely not. As was said earlier in the story, she’s as loyal as a wolf. But what I’m trying to say, and what makes you such a wonderful writer Fiona, is that even if his actions were horrible and wrong and in no way excusable, his motivations were understandable.

5) Alright, now that I’ve got all that out of the way I can actually talk about the chapter! Firstly, let me just say I love the way you’d throw in little references to dates and months so we can kind of get a feel for the timeline of the story. And here, we know that things go wrong with Sam and Taylor in September. I love that the first scene doesn’t immediately break them up but instead we, and Harry, get a little taster of what’s about to come.

6) I’m not actually sure what happens between Taylor and Sam in the first scene. I assume he ends up cancelling on date night which leads to a big fight?? That could possible be a callback to the moment in the first chapter where Sam cancels plans with Taylor which results in her having dinner with Harry. It doesn’t really matter either way because whatever happened, it results in Taylor in tears at Harry’s apartment. Harry of course comforts her.

7)  And while things may be happening beneath the surface with them Taylor makes it clear that she is not ready for nor does she want a break up. And while things do go back to normal, it’s only for a short while because then the inevitable happens. I’ve already shared my thoughts on the actual breakup and I don’t want to repeat myself so I’ll just say that I loved that Harry didn’t wait too long to go check on her. She will need some space but she also just needs a hug.

8) Also I love how you made it clear that while Harry may have feelings for Taylor and he may’ve flirted with her, he didn’t want it to result in Taylor getting hurt. Also from the way you’ve described this apartment building, the walls are so thin everyone must just know everyone’s business lol. I love that Harry stays the night with her just to make sure she’s ok. In his perfect world, him waking up with her would be different but at least he can be there to comfort her.

9) The little details that we get about how Taylor is dealing with the break up are so well done too. She’s constantly listening to sad music and she dyed her hair. Classic. I mean I love and hate that you referenced #bleachella. Love because it’s realistic, hate because it reminds me of bleachella. The scene where they tried to get her to go out only ending in Taylor crying and throwing up is so relatable. We’ve all been there.

10)  Both as the heartbroken one, and as the friend who has to look after the heartbroken one. But most importantly Harry sticks around through it all. I love, love, love the karaoke bar scene. It’s possibly even better than the first one. The start of the scene is amazing. So much of that sexual tension I love. And Harry’s even flirtier now that she’s properly single. And once they get to the bar things get tense and awkward because SAM SHOWS UP!! THIS IS THE KIND OF DRAMA I LIVE FOR!!

11) When Taylor went over to him I was getting ready for a smackdown but instead we got the best thing ever when she performs the perfect Alanis Morissette song. And Harry is so impressed (and a little bit turned on) and he isn’t even trying to hide it. Also, he’s a douche, but shoutout to Sam for not only staying through Taylor’s song but Harry’s as well where he basically sings about wanting to fuck Taylor lol.

12) I somewhat wish we could’ve had a Harry/Sam smackdown because I live for that kind of drama it probably would’ve been over the top. Also love the little hint at the end that although she may have had a good night, it didn’t mean she was suddenly completely over the breakup. The scene at Harry’s work was cute too. Jared is still (somewhat forcefully) rooting for him and Taylor. But Mallory actually talks some sense. It’s good that Harry hasn’t made a move on her.

13) It’s way too soon for her to be jumping into any other kind of relationship and harry understands that. He also gets to reinforce to his friends, and the readers, that he wants a hell of a lot more from Taylor than just sex. And immediately after that we’re brought to another scene of harry getting himself off while Taylor’s in the shower next door. Irony is a funny thing. Anyway, it leads to a lovely little scene between harry and taylor that is SO full of sexual tension and flirting.

14) Honestly, I think hanging out with the both of them would be awful considering how much sexual tension they have. In this scene, we also get to know their plans for halloween. I love the conversation they have about why they Taylor feels nervous about going to the halloween party. She might slowly be getting over Sam but she’s not ready to be with anyone else yet which is totally fair and it’s good for Harry to know.

15) Also the conversation about masturbation was ace (not to be a perv but a scene where harry overheard her masturbating would’ve been very funny after all the times he heard her with Sam). We get a little flicker of harry’s past as well which I’m looking forward to reading about properly when it happens. Harry and taylor deciding to go the party together is super cute especially because they go in matching costumes!! Which sound amazing btw! The party was so good too!

16) (Ignore my other message, I fixed it) So many nice moments between Harry and Taylor. Especially when he told her that she didn’t need to dress up super sexy to look good. The moment when Taylor sees Sam for the first time is awful. I feel so bad for her. But Harry follows her and says all the right things without ever lying to her. Also the fact that it didn’t take Harry that long to cheer her up shows that she’s definitely not as hurt as she was a month ago.

17) I’m not gonna lie though I would’ve totally loved if they just went full fake-dating au and started like grinding and making out on the dance floor to piss Sam off. It would’ve ruined your amazing slow burn though. Also this line: “Sam didn’t try to call them out, thank god. That was an interaction none of them were interested in having,” I would’ve very much loved this happening but I’m a dramatic ho lol.

18) Loved Taylor and Harry getting progressively more flirty and touchy as the night went along and I really loved the stuff at the very end of the chapter. Just like the very last dialogue. She’s talking about how hot he looks, and calling him charming and the flirting between them is in full force! But then she puts a damper on things by telling him he should find a nice girl for himself.

19) Because while Taylor may not be ready for anything yet it must really hurt for Harry to think that she hasn’t at all considered the possibility of the two of them together. And I mean, she probably has, but from Harry’s perspective it’s really gotta suck that they can spend so much time together, flirt for the majority of it, talk about such deep things, and she still might not get that there’s something more there.

20) Ok, so this is by far the biggest one I’ve done yet. This is probably gonna be like 30 asks rip but I had a lot to say about this chapter. Seriously, this story is so good Fiona. Can’t wait for chapter 6.

oh my gosh this is so long!!! I'm living okay let's go

I didn't immediately have a plan for the break up when I started writing but I knew I had to have a legit reason for their relationship to end since for the beginning half of the story, she's privately thinking she doesn't want to leave a good relationship and end up ruining one of her best friendships, just to end up alone in the end. she really does love sam but harry's confusing and maybe she's not in love with sam as much as she thought she was. while she never completely crossed the line with harry, I wanted to make it believable that sam would think that she either had or would eventually. it was kind of like a well how do you like it when I do it to you thing, which is super petty and gross and she always deserved better ajdkd I'm SO relieved that I actually made it all flow the way I wanted to because I was worried it wasn't going to make proper sense

whenever I write long things like this I always write a timeline so I don't get confused with what happens when and in which chapter (plus I colour code it so I know what I've finished so far which is satisfying!) and I throw specifics in so you reading have a sense of it as well. I feel like any specifics, rather than just being vague all the time, make it sound like I know more what I'm talking about which is always nice!

I had to go back and read the start of this chapter just to make sure but yeah I think that's basically what I was going for! I didn't go into details since she didn't want to talk about it so harry wouldn't know, and the story is centred on him. but I love the messy aftermath omg okay I had to throw bleachella in, it was a look™ and the aesthetic fit perfectly for this part! that second karaoke scene is one of my favourite parts of the entire fic, it was so much fun to write and whenever I listen to either of the songs they sing I still think about it. it was exactly the kind of drama I wanted, she publicly shamed sam in front of a bunch of their friends meanwhile harry is just #thirsty. I thought about doing more between harry/sam but nothing really seemed natural enough for it to work

I ended up reading the rest of this chapter and honestly I'm living!! I'd forgotten how much I enjoyed writing this fic and how flirty they are. it flows so naturally between them, especially during the halloween party when they're loosened up (and sparkly – I'd forgotten their costumes!). even so, I think she was just afraid of losing him as a friend, since he meant a lot to her and she didn't want him to end up as just another one of the guys who loved and left her. and lbr...... she probably did think about him when she was ~alone~ but was more careful about being heard sjdksk

[lorelaigilmoure]

i’ve started watching tww in march and went on hiatus in april. i was really looking forward to live blog (like i do now) and to share my thoughts about the show, but school and hiatus got in the way. i wanted to stay off tumblr but at the same time i wanted y’all to know how i feel about the show, so i decided to write down my thoughts in a word document and to share it with you when i’m back.

so if you’re curious, how this show ruined me and why i love it and if you have the patience and time, feel free to read this live blogging(?) mess:

omg this is too much. I can’t take this whole ms plotline. wth????? jed and charlie having the conversation. I have tears in my eyes. this is tooooo much. FRACK.

BRING IT ON.  YEAH.

No mrs landingham noooo. why.???? this ep gave me goosebumps. f*cking amazing. AND HELL YES HE’S RUNNING FOR PRESIDENT AGAIN. HELL YES.

okay I hate amy. I just hate her. and I want to see abbey more. ABBBEEEEEEY. WHERE’S ABBEEEY???

OMG TOBY. THAT WAS WAY OUT OF LINE. and now jed needs a therapist. I think toby missed his calling. he should be a shrink.

charlie was sassy af. don’t mess with charlie, cj, ever.

y’know sam has really grown on me. I never thought I would love him so much. but I do. precious marshmallow.

wait, but the pancreas doesn’t produce HCl. the stomach does. I really hope Abbey was sarcastic, bc otherwise it’s a pretty big mistake made by the writers. and I hope jed “see, they can’t take medical school from you” bartlet was sarcastic too. pls god.

yep, amy is still annoying.

I have a bad feeling about this ep. stirred. alcohol. leo. I don’t wike it.

jed and leo’s bromance is one of the best things in this show.

OH MY GOD. JOSH DID THE THING FOR DONNA. HE SAID HE WON’T BUT HE DID. DONNA, YOU PRECIOUS SNOWFLAKE, YOUR HAPPINESS MAKES ME CRY TEARS OF JOY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEET CHILD.

guys, Ritchie is Donald J. Trump. it’s so obvious. I cannnot believe this tv show, this season, aired 14 years ago.

jed to cj: you are part of my family. HELL YES. SHE IS. I LOVE THEM.

OH MY GOD. CJ BE SAFE FOR GOD’S SAKE.

donovan just showed up and I already ship him with cj.

okay I ship cj and donovan so much. don’t get me wrong, I love danny, but these two, right now, are RUINING ME. PERFECT.

*during the whole negative ad/tape thing*:

bruno: sam don’t talk to Kahn

sam: I’m going to talk to him

bruno: sam no

sam: sam yes

*sam does the thing* *shit’s going down*

bruno: ???????????

ANOTHER DEATH TREATH??? THEY SAW CJ IN THE MALL??? okay, it must’ve been the guy in the coat. I have a very bad feeling about this whole arc. ladjklasjdlasjdla

aaaand I still don’t like amy, at all.

I looove the chemistry between cj and donovan aljdslkdjals.

I LIKE THAT YOU’RE TALL. OMG CJ IS SUCH A DORK GIVE ME A BREAK.

jed bartlet: true or false, josh? my life would be better right now if you and your girlfriend swapt jobs? HE’S SAVAGE AF. OMG.

THEY ALMOST KISSED. CJ AND DONOVAN ALMOST KISSED. ALFJKASLJFLASJFA I NEED A KISSSSSS.

season 3 finale here I come.

it’s been a season and I don’t even know how does ritchie look like??? I’m curious. also I have a bad feeling about this whole assassination thing.

AND SIMON AND CJ KISSED THANKS GOD. THANK YOU.

okay simon just went into a store and I have a super bad feeling about it. ugggggh.

FRAAAAAAAACK THEY KILLED HIM. OMG OMG OMG LAFJKSLAKJDSFLASJF FRACK FRACK THIS FRACK. NO NOT HALLELUJAH NO GOD I’M CRYING NO THIS HURTS OMG I CAN’T

I’m so sad. he deserved better. cj deserved better I just.

AMY ADAMSSSSSSSS. WOW.

josh, donna and toby on a field trip. how cute.

mallory is so beautiful.

[AOS IS RENEWED. it’s not tww related but OMG I’M SO HAPPY. YYAAAAAAASSSSS. (and I still haven’t seen a single ep since 4x16 and I managed to avoid spoilers too. cannot wait to be back on tumblr and make philinda fanvids and aos stuff again. a little more than two months to go.)]

baby coulson on the west wing???? so freakin cute.

no, don’t talk to amy, josh, continue talking to donna. pls. can’t his relationship with amy end pls????

I WOULD VOUCH FOR DONNA WITH MY LIFE.

oh donna, my sweet potato. nicely played. josh, you deserved that prank.

wait, andy’s pregnant??? and toby’s the father??? I’m confused. aren’t they divorced or what?

OH MY GOD THEY PRANKED POOR TOBY. THIS SCENE WAS HILARIOUS. CRISIS OF CONFIDENCE. GENIUS.

jed just said to toby: “you, you big bear. come to me, I’m gonna kiss you right on the mouth.” I swear this is a really serious show. a political drama. pffffffff toby’s face is priceless. probably one of my fave scenes so far.

also pls abbey show up.  I miss you.

yay, joshua malina.

GAME ON BOYFRIEND AND SHE CUTS OFF HIS TIE. ABBEY IS A PHENOMENON. second fave scene. this show is epic you guys. cj fell through the door. as I said, a really serious show dealing with serious and important issues. THESE DORKS I SWEAR. and now jed slapt abbey’s butt. this ep is too much.

TOBY PRANKED JOSH. I LOVE THESE IDIOTS SO SO MUCH.

oh no, frack, his hand started shaking. and he needs an aspirin. I have a very very bad feeling about this.  he’s going to get worse. and so the angst begins.

I wish donna would leave this jack guy alone. I don’t like him.

poor jed and abbey, they’ve been interrupted like 10 times now. first sam, then leo and now toby. lmao

it’s so good seeing leo being happy and smiling.                

okay but josh told jack a bunch of crazy stuff about donna, bc he legit doesn’t want him to go out with her. this dumb dork I swear.

I love cj’s new haircut.

THOSE STORIES WOULD MAKE ME LIKE YOU. JOOOOOOSSSSSSSHHHHH WTH???? OMG I think this is the moment josh started to look differently at donna. THIS IS THE EXACT MOMENT HE STARTED DEVELOPING DEEPER FEELINGS FOR HER.

DAAAAANNNNNYYYYYYY’S BACK OMG DANNY IS BACK AND HE’S SANTA AND HE KISSED HER OMG OMG

zoey and charlie broke up?? how did I miss that?? or did it happen off screen???

danny is back and so is trouble.

the sexual tension between donna and josh intensifies aldjskjdalsjdlajdla. “Donna left?” his face. IT’S STARTING YOU GUYS. I CAN’T HANDLE IT ALFJSLDJASALFJALSKFAL

so I guess cj and danny aren’t together together.

my heart breaks for cj. seeing her dad like this. he doesn’t recognize her. *sigh* be strong cj, my sweet sass queen, be strong.i’ve been in cj shoes. my grandpa was ill too. and let me tell you, it’s so heartbreaking. he was clever as well, we couldn’t pursue him to go to a facilty, to get help. he was so stubborn too. it still hurts. but in the end, he accepted the help we offered him. he didn’t recognize us. he was so kind to us, but had no idea who we were. it was heartbreaking.

JOSH BEING JELAOUS IS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS TO WITNESS. EVER.

the guys just showed up at donna’s place. this scene is pure gold.

“YOU LOOK AMAZING”GUYS I’M DONE. I’M SO DONE. THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER. I ADORED THEM BEFORE, BUT NOW THEY’VE BECOME THE GREATEST, PUREST AND MOST PERFECT OTP OF ALL TIME FOR ME. I’M IN SO DEEP. I CAN’T HANDLE THIS AFJSAKLFJALSFJALSKJFLASJ

Will, you precious dumb child.

sam: “hey everyone this is one of my best friends, this is donna moss” THEIR BROTP THO.

I’m gonna miss sam.

I really really wanted to see these dumb kids playing poker again. they haven’t done that since season 1. they’re adorable.

IT’S CHANDLER. CHANDLER BING IS ON THE WEST WING. THIS WILL BE AWESOMEEEEE.

listen guys, chandler is one of my all time fave characters and josh lyman is one of my all time fave characters and seeing matthew on the west wing is like a dream come true. is it just me, or does matthew perry’s voice sound a lot different, compared to his chandler voice???

OH SHIT SOMEBODY’S SHOOTING????WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?????

JOSH WAS WORRIED ABOUT DONNA. THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER I CAAAAAN’T HANDLE I CAN’T ALFJASKLFJLASKFJLASF THESE TWO RUINED ME

I wish charlie and zoey would get bet together again.

hoynes resigning??? wth happened????

jed to toby: “come on, give us a kiss.” this is the second time he said that to him lmao

DANNNYYYYYY’S BACK. I GET SO EXCITED WHENEVER HE’S BACK. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

I want toby to be happy. pls andy marry him and live happily together in your dream house.

omg he’s proposing omg. oh crap, why is she saying no??? my heart breaks for toby. look, I know he’s not the easiest person to be with and share a life with but still. he has such a big heart. this is truly heartbreaking.

YOU’RE  JUST TOO SAD FOR ME, TOBY. OH MY GOD. I CAN’T.

I just laughed out loud. ABBEY’S NEW HAIRCUT??? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL??? I’m sorry, but it looks horrible. omg i can’t stop laughing. I can’t take her seriously. abbey, sweet unicorn, what did you do with your hair and most importantly, why???????????

zoey’s going to a party. this won’t end well. I hate jean paul so so much.

ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH JOSH???? OMGGGGG AMY.

ALDJSALKDHALSHDAL WHAT IS THIS EPISODE EVEN???? ZOEY’S MISSING??? DONNA IS IN LOVE WITH JOSH????? I’M JUST LIKE ??????!111/??!??!?!?!?!?!?!

;AJF;ASJFD;ASJDF;ASFJ;ASJF;AJDF;AJF;SJF;

toby has 2 kids now. I might cry. MAZEL TOV, TOBY.

great now his MS is getting worse. SHIT’S GOING DOWN THIS SHOW IS THE BEST AND THE WORST.

I don’t think I’ve ever said it, but I love margaret so much.        

the amount of shit going down in this ep is simply too much to handle.

Glenallen Walken creeps me out. he reminds me of jabba the hut.

it breaks my heart, seeing the bartlets being so desperate and sad

it’s so good to see, that ellie is so supportive of her father.

this ep gave me chills (5x1).

this arc is so painful.

THEY’VE FOUND HER THANKS GOD

amy still annoys me so much. I gotta check which ep will be her last. according to imdb, two more eps and she’s gone for 2 years. yesssssssssssssssssssss

and now josh’s kissing her. WHY???? JOSH, SON, PLS STOP IT.

I liked cj’s old haircut more tbh.

josh meeting the moss family. about time lmao.

cj lived together for 6 months with a guy named Ben???? what???

leo’s slowly becoming a b*tch.

donna is so beautiful.

I’d love to see jed being more presidential I guess. and leo can stop being so rude to everyone.

I feel so sorry for josh. LET ME LOVE YOU, YOU DUMB CHILD.

YES CJ. YES MY LOVE. YOU’RE THE MORAL COMPASS. YES. “I NEED YOU BACK. I NEED YOU TO LEAD.” YES, CJ, YES, THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I WANT JED TO DO.

abbey asked jed to not come to new hampshire. OMG. FIX THIS PLS. I NEED THEM BACK TOGETHER. THIS IS SO MESSED UP I HATE IT.

LEO CALLED ABBEY. SHE’S THE REAL BOSS. OMG THIS IS GOING TO BE EPIC.

it’s so good seeing jed being badass and making the tough calls. I’ve missed that.

josh bought donna a christmas gift. I’m having season 1 vibes aldjsakdjal and now she’s disappointed. but he was joking OMG THESE TWO ARE RUINING ME I CAN’T. also I need to know what the gift was.

where is ginger???

I love donna so so much.

I really don’t know where are the writers going with this rina/toby plotline.

I miss sam, danny, ginger, bruno. I miss the earlier seasons. idk something feels off. I still enjoy the show, but something’s a bit off.

okay but why is cj seeing this ben guy??? aren’t her and danny dating? or are they just that casual about it???

as I said before, tww is a very serious show, and the muppets just happen to show up at the white house. I can’t even.