#but rei’s story…. that’s that sweet sweet catharsis right there

[wurm-food]

*tears streaming down my face* anyway I’m going to continue rotating Suwa Rei in my mind forever

[omegatheunknown]

AEW ALL OUT 2021

In which, not to get ahead of myself here, AEW puts on one of the best major wrestling shows in several years*, following the simple yet effective principle of giving the people what they want and sending everyone home happy and hungry for more.

- The incredibly 'Nitro' ending of the go-home Dynamite, which ran a little long on the 'heels beat everyone up and strut around like assholes almost too in desperate need of comeuppance' bit, short of garbage raining into the ring, did actually increase the heat for both promoted matches. Again, not rocket science, but executed perfectly. Catharsis was on the card, and catharsis went over several times Sunday. - Again, it's time to move on from the Casino theme, shuffling the deck and drawing suits really only detracted from the Battle Royale and seemingly always throws the production crew a curve. If they haven't hammered it by now, it's not going to happen. - Bit unhappy about the PAC/Andrade situation, but still over the moon with Andrade's promo style and Chavito being unhelpful at best.

*Pre-Card

Best Friends and Jurassic Express v The Hardy Family Office and The Hybrid 2 (**) - Not usually much to say about a loaded-up multiteam boondoggle, particularly when the show has yet to begin, but there were some moments worth sitting up to take notice -- there's a lot of talent in the ring, even if Jack Evans/Angelico aren't going to be more than mid-level mooks, little matchups with guys like Luchasaurus and Chuck Taylor are opportunities for innovative/weird spots. - Really this match exists to show-off Jungle Boy, play his theme song twice, and work him in to the aforementioned spots. I don't rightly know what Jungle Jack's ceiling is, but it sort of feels like he's plateauing, at least this version of himself. - Dan Lambert thing is interesting in that it doesn't seem to easily lead to something obvious... I mean who are Scorp and Ethan Page feuding with by proxy here, the concept of contemporary professional wrestling? Orange Cassidy and Kenny Omega?

*Main Card

Miro (C) v Eddie Kingston for the TNT Championship (***1/2) - 'Redeem Deez Nuts' T-shirts now available -- and made immediately redundant now that Miro has graciously redeemed Eddie's nuts. - Imagine looking at Miro, listening to Miro talk, and not really being able to figure out this guy is money. Also imagine panicking when he took a little while to find his groove in AEW. 'The Redeemer' is both entertaining and terrifying, and this match delivered heavily on the promise of two big fellas smacking together repeatedly. - Not only does Eddie's arsenal of power moves target Miro's neck, he may also be quite difficult to put in the full reclined camel clutch. Or he'd quite literally snap in half. It didn't come to that. - Weird heel turn by Bryce's attention span and the overall weirdness of the finish is all that kept this from being an excellent match, otherwise this was a tremendous curtain jerker and started off a dangerously fun run of pure adrenaline.

Jon Moxley v Satoshi Kojima (****) - The stakes were nebulous, the build was abrupt, yet this was a fantastic match and tremendous showcase for an underappreciated great who has been more or less just toiling for a bunch of years as a NJPW Dad. Same deal for Nagata, and I assume Tenzan is the same, Taka Michinoku even -- let's see it. - I have to assume the Cozy Lariat might have put Mox down, but Kojima otherwise played the hits (Koji Cutter, Piledriver, Brainbustaaaa) in a big way and Moxley once again proved he's become a very well-rounded wrestler who can match the intensity of just about any former IWGP champion. - More to the point-- KAZE NI NARE -- out of nowhere, too. Or out of nowhere to those not paying attention to the whereabouts of Minoru Suzuki (Right, he's just over here to fight Daniel Garcia and not Mox?), which I guess is to my own peril. Wow, though. Surprise Number 1- a complete surprise, and a welcome one. Let's have it.

Dr Britt Baker, DMD (C) v Kris Statlander for the AEW Women's Championship (****) - I love Kris and her best friends but she didn't have a prayer of dethroning Britt. She got one promo, several weeks ago, and though she did make a meal of Hayter and Rebel, the chase has been abrupt and not given much discussion, other than Mark Henry and whomever else acknowledging what is extremely evident -- Statlander is stronger than she looks, and she looks really strong. They've got her doing Cesaro-level 'modify your grip while holding your opponent's entire weight' nonsense, and it's amazing and scary. - Even with the reign of the good doctor not being credibly threatened, this was an excellent match that demonstrated the continued growth of the competitors in the women's division, even as it underlined that their storylines remain undercooked and perfunctory: Orange Cassidy whipping off his shades to urge Stat to get up was a beautiful moment. Britt's Panama Sunrise, also, too sweet. Statlander eating shit on her 451 and her pendulum moonsault was properly brutal, as were Britt's curb stomps. Really great match between these two. - Again, if they had bothered to write anything into this story, such as Kris' alien physiology making her immune to the lockjaw or something... actually, maybe that's a terrible idea. it's an idea. Undefeated challenger is defeated, on to the next for Dr Britt. Statlander and OC should tag against some of the boys.

The Young Bucks (C) v The Lucha Bros for the AEW World Tag Team Championship(*****+) - Can't not mention the insane entrance lined up for Fenix and Penta. It was bewildering, it was enchanting, it was aggressive, it was hype. It also reminded everybody how very badly we all wanted the Lucha Bros to win. The crowd has been setting new peaks with their volume since Punk showed up, but things were absolutely thunderous and ecstatic at the end of this match. Absolutely valid response. I yelled on the couch. - Nick's facial hair was a bigger tell that it was time for the Bucks to lose than anything else about this build. There's literally nowhere to go from there -- they've done the hair, the bandanas, the kicks, the animal print, the dangly earrings -- peak visual heel for this time and place. - Sincerely thought this was going to be too much of a full sprint spot-fest (the PWG-esque circle of trading blows is not really 'my thing') but even so they kept finding gears, and ramping and ramping and adding blood and brutality along the way. Even a bit of levity, with the tacked up sneaker, followed by the sincerity of Penta throwing himself in harm's way to protect his brother. Immense match, I think you'd have to go back to the Bucks vs the Addiction and MCMGs Ladder War to find a more thrilling tag team gimmick match. - If there's a single flaw to be found it's in the production not really settling on wide angles for simultaneous action at the start of the match. They figured it out. - Rey Fenix is the best luchador in the world.

Women's Casino Battle Royale (**1/2) - If nothing else, this really shows off that they now have a surplus of women's wrestlers who deserve time to hang in the ring. Unsurprisingly, the match picked right up when Thunder Rosa and then Jamie Hayter got to the ring, with additional props to Tay Conti and Jade Cargill, who was dumped rather unceremoniously given her general booking... - Okay, there was something else. Welcome to the rechristened Ruby Soho, who I've not seen a lot of outside of her extremely limited showcase in WWE, but she has so many friends in the back and in the industry and that's never for nothing, not in wrestling, anyway. Intrigued to see where she fits, and if the women ever get more than a match per show. - Touched on this in the preamble but this was the roughest part of the night for the home viewer, just weird decisions on cutting away from various entrances to show... nothing in particular happening. Also while the commitment to not-kayfabing the countdown clock is... admirable? It makes the pacing hinky. - Almost everyone who got new gear for tonight was looking like the white ranger -- Nyla, Swole, Bunny, someone I'm missing. Except Anna Jay, whose stars and glitter gear looked great.

MJF v Chris Jericho for the fate of Jericho's in-ring career (***) - MJF's unauthorized homage to Y2J's entrance: good. Fozzy's guitarist going off tempo with the instrumental Judas: weak, and would've been sad if this were the end for Jericho. Especially as the build has felt... muted, somehow. - Props to the commentary for continuing to feed the red herring of 'in AEW,' as a caveat to stipulation, it did feel like... a remote possibility that MJF would win. - Credit to Aubrey for calling this one down the middle and not putting the fix in for her friend Jericho, and I guess the Dusty finish will give MJF plenty to gripe about. - MJF wrestles with a pure heel style, holds, chops, blocks, and Jericho is fifty years old, so the level of wrestling on exhibition in these matches is well beside the point. It was solid to good, and I was fighting burn out from the first half of the card's level of excitement.

CM Punk v Darby Allin (***1/2) - There are a couple benefits of Darby as a dance partner, and it's certainly better than having to watch Punk return against like, QT Marshall or Shawn Spears. Darby does make everyone look slow, but he can also be tossed around, and this raises his profile even in defeat, obviously. That said, the stakes here are... meta, at best, in that we want to see the man look good and justify the hype. It's a weird thing to root for. He certainly does look good. (Tights? Tights!) - It's fun to theorize about actually booking an angle where Punk is rusty and needs to regain his prowess, and maybe he'll stumble, but maybe the most we get out of that angle is hitting the GTS a little close to the ropes so Darby falls right out of the ring, in what was, for me, the spot that justified this whole match. - Sting's proud step-dad aura is still a hell of a thing, I really liked the end of the match kudos all around. - Match was good, hard to hang my emotions on. I wasn't watching WWE when Punk was in WWE. Definitely feeding off the excitement of others a bit here, and he sure can talk. I'd like to see him cultivate a stable, certainly.

Paul Wight v QT Marshall (n/r) - ...popcorn match? QT Marshall is like the anti-Daniel Garcia in that while his prominence and presence is just as inexplicable, I don't want it to continue, and he doesn't justify it in the process. - Match was two minutes longer than it needed to be.

Kenny Omega (c) v Christian Cage for the AEW World Championship (****1/2) - Crowd was both burnt out and more or less waiting for the post-match angle. Which I get. it's hard to cruise to the main event and having seen all the different things we've already seen on this card, even a singular performer like Kenny Omega and a legend with whom he (surprisingly? fittingly?) has superb chemistry with in Christian Cage were up against it to deliver something memorable. - Context dependent, I can definitely see rating this below their Rampage match, especially since... I mean Christian isn't winning the AEW title off Kenny at this or probably any other event. - But! It was really good! It was very good! They really do match-up well, and Kenny's v-trigger has rarely looked more devastating than when it knocks Christian flat. Christian got cut open in a novel and initially worrying way, and Kenny followed up a botched moonsault with a harder version of the same move off a rail, but it was a really great match and it deserved more energy than was available.

Post-Show - Calling back and inverting the end of Dynamite, The Elite strut about the ring, slightly less stoked than they were on Wednesday, but with the Bucks smiling through the pain, and Jungle Boy once again subjected to violence for his misguided heroism, Kenny 'not much a promo' Omega lays down a killer line about nobody being fit to challenge him who isn't unavailable, already tired or dead. - The Undertaker ADAM COLE, BAY BAY as Surprise #3 was a minor stroke of brilliance, and a fun swerve because while it's exciting to see him, his appearance at this point in the narrative does nothing to solve the problem of The Elite beating up Christian and Jungle Boy. Unless he's still sore about his unsolved murder, which he isn't. Storytime with Adam Cole is back and it's beautiful. Also Jungle Boy died for this. - Okay. But. Just. Okay. CM Punk and Bryan Danielson are All Elite. They will hopefully tag together. Bryan will head to NJPW, almost definitely. Minoru Suzuki just walked in and started slugging on Mox. The Forbidden Door is wide open. Will Kenny Omega one day return to Wrestle Kingdom? There are so many possibilities and they are all very exciting. This was a phenomenal show and it didn't have Hangman Page, Cody Rhodes, FTR, Santana and Ortiz, PAC, Andrade, Sammy Guevara, Team Taz, and the rest.

- Wrestling is good, actually. Imagine watching like five hours of wrestling and loving wrestling at the end of it.

*What competes- WK11, Dominion 2018, 2019, DoN 2019, 2021.. All-In, probably. Wrestlemania 30. A few Takeovers. Kris Wolf's retirement show...

[reaching-giraffes]

Some incoherent thoughts

Writing out some thoughts on TRoS as I feel like I have so much spinning in my head regarding the movie, the whole sequel trilogy and even the saga, and I really don’t feel like making my friends listen to me ramble any more than they already have.

I knew that whatever the movie would be, it would bring upon a wave of fandom drama. SW fandom after TFA has basically been a pot of boiling oil, so practically anything could cause an open fire. After taking a peek at the “salty side” I have concluded that the unflattering opinions of RoTS are pretty much a replay of the reception of TLJ: some people believe that the choices made in the movie were the whims of a particular director (that’s not how movie production works when you know you’re gonna make a trilogy), and somehow there is always the tinfoil hat faction that is convinced that the actors actually hate the movie (if you’re a professional Hollywood actor, you’ll learn pretty quickly that it is not your job to decide how the story goes).

I have been in the internet for long enough to know that media like Star Wars, and the fandom activities surrounding it, are consumed by people for their initial enjoyment. And that is how it’s supposed to be! But in my opinion, the persistent problem in fandom nowadays is that enjoyment and only enjoyment is what we demand from our media. As a fanfiction writer I have noticed this especially in the aversion people feel towards fanfiction that has tragic ending: I see people stating that they have no idea why fanfiction with unhappy or tragic ending or characters dying even exists. The culminated idea of enjoyment being the ultimate goal of fictional media manifests best in the statement that the role of fanfiction in society is to “fix the corrupted, capitalist canonical fiction”, sprouting up from the mentality that anything unenjoyable is evil. I have ran into this school of thought many times, and in every occasion it has left a really bad taste in my mouth.

The Hot Takes™ I have seen are mainly concentrated around the death of Ben Solo in the final movie. Look, I get it. I like Ben too! I wish he could have kept on living! Ben’s death is meant to be an unenjoyable experience to the viewer. You are supposed to feel upset by it! However, the majority of the arguments regarding his death can be somehow simplified to this: since Ben Solo / Kylo Ren was not a fully evil character, I do not enjoy seeing him dead and thus it is a wrong decision by the writers. Sometimes this viewpoint is seasoned with the moralistic addition that since Ben dies in the movie, the creators try to insinuate that he deserved his suffering. This is despite the fact that the narration clearly points to us that Ben dies because he as a character feels that it will serve a purpose that is meaningful for him (that Rey, and the legacy of the Jedi, will keep on living).

One of the aspects I have enjoyed in the Skywalker saga is that it is, in many aspects, a tragedy of a family that is tormented by their powerful legacy in the cosmic universe of the story. One of the reasons for this might be that I’m of the generation that is equally familiar with the prequel trilogy as the original one. The Return of the Sith always makes a great impression on me because it is a movie where nobody gets “what they deserve”. Did Anakin “deserve” to be manipulated to the dark side? I wouldn’t say so. But that’s not the point! When watching RotS, we feel calmed by the fact that he will be saved later on. After RotS, watching Return of the Jedi becomes a cathartic experience. Anakin dies after everything, but he dies for something far greater than himself.

I feel like catharsis, cleasing, is what fandom as a whole has forgotten about. Enjoyment and joy is all good when consuming fiction, but it is like eating candy. Tastes great first, but the more you have it, the less will it bring you pleasure. After taking a break and having something else for a while, you’ll be soon ready to have the sugary sweetness, the fulfillment brought by happy and wholesome fiction! Catharsis as a literary effect is supposed to work a bit like that: upon witnessing something blatantly unenjoyable, you are more open to ponder the things you experience in the story and even in your personal life.

I think partly the rage people feel towards Ben’s death scene is Rey’s reaction to his passing. She is not shown to mourn him. Incidentally, the movies show Jedi to be “enlightened beings” that do not experience bodily death, but instead become one with the Force. Rey is well aware of this, and her calmness is reflected both in her acceptance of her own death as well as Ben’s. In my opinion, Rey experiences catharsis of sorts - she is liberated from her own lineage as well as the suffering caused by Ben’s tragic destiny. One of the great - unenjoyable! - truths of the Saga is that being born a Skywalker brings both greatness and unhappiness. The Skywalkers are lonely, tormented people, greatly flawed and prone to cause suffering to their loved ones. Similarly they are shown to be capable of ardent love and great compassion, and each of them is depicted to die a heroic death. Rey choosing to be a Skywalker tells us that she has embraced this destiny, and we are supposed to feel fulfilled by that decision.

I know we tend to wish explicit happiness to the characters we love, especially in our space fairytales. The viewer has the right to project their own expectations on the media they consume. But the idea that the story was “ruined” by not fulfilling the expectations, or insisting that giving this saga a totally predictable conclusion was “an injustice”, despite the 8th already existing movies... Man, just remember fiction is not here to carter your specific tastes.

[reylosource]

A long time ago, she knew exactly what the curve of his smile meant.

Time doesn't heal all wounds.

a reylo one-shot // ao3 // thank you to @ashesforfoxes for giving it a first read ♥

You are a language I am no longer fluent in but still remember how to read. -Ashe Vernon

A long time ago, she knew exactly what the curve of his smile meant. Crooked to the side - definitely amused despite himself; lips pulled thin and tight - happy but scared for what might come. He didn't smile much then, but her favorite smile was the one he used to only give to her. An open, wide grin where she could see his imperfect teeth, often accompanied by a laugh that filled her soul and shooed away her demons.

It was the smile he had on right now, as he stared at her. Kaydel Connix. Long-term girlfriend and now fiancée of Kylo Ren, the man walking down the premiere of his latest movie: Equinox.

She didn't know when she started crying, or when he had become so comfortable on Red Carpets; his arm wrapped around Kaydel's waist and she saw how his fingers gripped her hips as if he had done it a million times.

And he had. For years.

He was no longer the man who saved his greatest smiles for her, and she reminded herself that she should be happy to see him so much more free. She had only ever weighed him down, and Rey had never been more certain of it than as she stood there that night, gripping and twisting her mic.

She had told Finn this was a bad idea. And she felt his concerned stare as he stood at her side holding the camera, thankfully silent.

"Kylo is wrapping up with the walk, he'll be here in one minute," his assistant spoke to her succinctly, without an undercurrent of wariness. She must be new then. Rey took a deep breath and schooled her features, staring down at her note cards until the words on them blurred and she saw him walk towards their small staging area out of the corner of her eye.

Steeling herself, she finally looked up. He wasn't smiling anymore.

"Kylo! Thank you for gracing Legacy with your time tonight," her voice was normal and cheery, but it threatened to falter the longer he stared with the flat line of his lips shifting in thought. His eyes flashed towards Finn, and Rey rushed to fill the silence.

"It's unusual for a creator to write, direct, and star in a film - what made you take on such a massive project?"

"Catharsis," he replied finally, in that deep tone that washed over her, causing her heart to sputter. "You know, it's a story that has been evolving for years, I began writing it during a particularly dark period personally."

Rey knew exactly what he was talking about, but still asked as she moved the mic back to her mouth, "That's an interesting term to use, so you must feel as if this premiere is about more than just a movie?"

"Yes, it's about stepping out of the darkness of the winter and into an eternal spring," he gestured towards Kaydel who stood there beaming at him. "She is my Goddess of Spring that one. I owe her a great movie, and I hope I delivered."

Kaydel blew him a sweet kiss and Rey watched as his mouth curved into that grin once again. When he turned back to her, his eyes narrowed at her own - the tears were back.

"Oh dear, sorry - cold breeze hit me," she said this only for the sake of their viewers and her boss, who would absolutely be wanting the story of why her new Entertainment reporter starting crying as she interviewed the headliner of the biggest movie of Oscar season. "So what can our viewers expect to feel after watching Equinox?"

"Hopefully a sense of balance, maybe even hope. I certainly felt that way when I completed the story. However," his eyes turned flinty as he directed his next words at her. "Some people won't get anything out of it."

Rey took a beat before laughing lightly, trying to play off the intense jab in front of millions of viewers. Kylo flashed a smile she didn't recognize, that made her skin prickle with an uncertain emotion - fear, perhaps. He laughed along with her.

He was an actor, after all.

Rey turned to the camera and smiled brilliantly, "Well that's all we have time for, hopefully those of you at home are one of the lucky ones who will find hope in your viewing of Equinox - at a theater near you this Thursday!"

"Thank you for having me," Kylo said, leaning down around her shoulder into the mic, ignoring her for the camera. But as he pulled away, his hand grazed down the open spot at the back of her dress. She shivered and pulled away, watching as Finn gave her the thumbs up that they were off air and the mics were cut.

She took a deep breath and turned around to say something - anything - to Kylo, but he had disappeared and moved on to the next bright lights Red Carpet interview. As if they hadn't just seen each other for the first time in five years.

Rey watched him as much as she could as they made their way down interview row, trying to figure out what he was feeling. But she couldn't anymore, not really. He was just as much a mystery to her as he was to his fans.

A hand brushed against her shoulder and she looked over at Finn's concerned face, "You okay? Need an extra minute before the next one?"

Rey leaned into him and his arm pulled her in tight as she let the softness of the gesture cocoon her. When she finally opened her eyes after a minute of solace, she caught Kylo staring at them, hands in his pockets in a show of nonchalance. But Rey realized -

She still knew Kylo Ren after all.

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Rey sat alone in a corner couch on the rooftop of some swanky building that housed one of the many after parties for the premiere. She had rushed out of the theater after the movie, texting Finn she was going home - but she knew an appearance was expected of her by her boss at at least one of the parties.

She had chosen the smallest one - or what should have been the smallest one.

But somehow, she and Kylo were still on the same universe wavelength and he showed up barely fifteen minutes after she did.

Alone. Thankfully.

So here she sat, alone in a corner without even a drink for company. Leaning back, she slapped her arm across her face, feeling the cool breeze whip wisps of her hair around. Letting out a loud sigh, she prayed he was just making a simple round at each party and that he would leave soon.

The cushions beside her shifted and a smell of sandalwood surrounded the air. She didn't have to hear them speak to know who it was that disturbed her anti-social respite.

"Still hiding away in corners I see," his voice was calmer than during the interview, Rey assumed that was a side-effect of having time to process seeing her for the first time in five years.

"I didn't want to come, you know."

"Didn't expect you would." A few moments passed, "Did you like the movie?"

And there it was, the thousand dollar question that Rey had been avoiding answering since the credits rolled and she saw his name repeated over and over again.

"How am I supposed to answer that, Kylo?"

"I don't know, aren't you an entertainment reporter now? Surely you have some thoughts."

The words were nonchalant, but his tone was aggressive and she moved her hand off her face to return his stare incredulously.

"Your 'catharsis'," she spat out, anger bubbling up to the surface over being put in this position. She wasn't the one seeking him out. "Was beautiful. And horribly sad. I don't see how anyone could feel hope from such a movie."

It was a masterpiece, though, and she wanted to tell him that. But they had slipped so quickly into their old rhythm that she grasped on to the kite string that was so familiar to her - an argument.

"It was written with you in mind."

"No kidding."

"I wanted you to feel anguish from it." His words slipped out with a bitterness she couldn't fault him for, but they made her stand up abruptly and face him down. Finally at a height advantage for once.

"I don't have to take this from you, I was doing everything I could to stay away from you tonight. Just leave me alone, Kylo." Her last words wobbled with more emotion than she would have liked as she turned and walked quickly to the shrouded side door inside.

She felt a hand catch her wrist and tried to pull away; he let go immediately, "If you were trying to stay away, why did I get interviewed by you tonight?"

"It's my job now, I couldn't say no. I tried," she added bitterly.

His laugh was cruel as he stepped toward her slowly, backing her into a corner, "Of course you did, because now you have to face up to what you did to me."

With any other person, she would have felt scared by the way his presence folded in and around her in a darkly lit rooftop corner, but all Rey felt was the overwhelming need to press against him again. As they had so often, before she had ruined everything.

She watched as his chest moved with his heavy breathing, fists on either side of her head. She could feel them clench and jostle bits of hair that had escaped her updo. Rey kept her eyes steady on his neck, assuming it would be an innocuous part of him to distract from the building intensity.

She was so very wrong, because the veins in his neck strained with each flex of his knuckles, and she remembered so vividly what it looked like with love bites peppered around it.

Rey swallowed, finally responding, "I'm sorry, Kylo." His head dropped down at her words, as if he were attempting to control some unknown emotion that once again she couldn't understand anymore. "I'm so-"

His head raised just enough to capture her lips, cutting off whatever she was about to say. The touch of his lips short-circuited her brain and her heart took over. It remembered the patterns of Kylo Ren very well, it seemed, as her lips parted slightly as he pressed into her with his lower body.

All she could think about was how kissing him felt like coming home, and as she brought her quivering hands up slowly to touch his hair, Rey remembered what it was like to be loved by Kylo Ren.

His tongue brushed against hers and he grunted softly as her hands ran through his hair, fingernails grazing as they went. His fists loosened slightly against the wall, but it was his hips that told the story. They pressed between her legs and Rey could feel the growing excitement beneath his impeccably tailored pants.

She pulled out of his kiss and gasped his name, intending to stop this altogether, but his head simply dipped to her neck and his mouth continued its ministrations there.

"Kylo, please…" She wasn't even sure what she was trying to say, but he growled in response and his hands finally - finally -  left the wall and one slid behind her back. The other pulled her dress and body up with it, aligning their hips perfectly as she moaned and wrapped her legs around him on instinct.

Now wasn't the time for conversation, and rationally Rey knew that nothing about this would be okay on the other end of the evening. But as he sucked her neck and ground against her hot core, she couldn't find herself to care.

His hands twisted her into his erection, hitting that sweet spot of her clit over and over until she was panting and wild eyed into his open mouth. He still knew all the ways to make her body sing and he hadn't even touched her. She whimpered with need as her orgasm rose to the tip and he gripped her hair and pulled her head against his shoulder to muffle her cries.

"Shh, Rey, that's a good girl," his hips pinned her to the wall as she rode it out. Hands spread across her neck, almost petting it as the aftershocks slowly abated. Finally, he let her up, but not down.

Rey rested her head against the wall, panting as she stared at him in a haze, barely remembering where they even were or how long they had been there. But when his hands went for his belt and she heard the metal clack and slide across the fabric, she remembered.

"Kaydel! Kylo, what-"

His eyes cut her protestations off as he finished unbuckling his belt and slid his zipper down, pulling his hard cock free. Rey licked her lips on instinct, remembering how good it had felt inside her - everywhere. She wouldn't have noticed the soft whine she let out if he hadn't huffed in laughter, surprising her.

"Missed me, have you?"

Bitterness filled every word and Rey closed her eyes, hating herself just that bit more as she bucked her hips in response. This was a mistake in a situation neither one was looking for, and one she had desperately avoided. Being near him again was a poison pill she willingly took, her consciousness taking flight as she felt the tip of his cock poke at her lips.

She felt him line up with her, his head lowering to rest against her shoulder as he slid home, as if he had never left. Rey sobbed, grateful he was back or destroyed that she ever forced him away; Kylo's body stiffened at the sound, his mouth turning towards her neck.

"You okay?" She cried a little more at that, that he even thought to ask - maybe he still cared. But the look on his face that night was etched into her memory like a tattoo, and she knew he would never forgive her.

"Yes," she whispered brokenly; it was enough, and he slid out and back in with more force, getting used to her again. Her hands pulled at the hair on his neck as he buried his face into her shoulder, refusing to look at her. His hips rolled up and into hers with a rhythm that would have lulled her into a slow burn of desire if not for the way his hands gripped and dug into her ass.

Each thrust came with a cacophony of sounds - belt clinking, fabric shuffling against itself, soft pants from both of them. Neither of them said a word as he bottomed out repeatedly; Rey could feel the ridges of his cock rubbing against her every time he slowed down slightly. His nails dug into her skin with just enough pressure - he always knew exactly how much to give her and she let out a sob again, pulling his shoulders and upper body tighter against her.

As her breath quickened and legs trembled with the beginning of another orgasm, an unwelcome thought ran through her mind. She wondered if he ever fucked Kaydel like this, or if it was only reserved for the women he hated. Woman.

Maybe he was thinking of her right now, that's why he seemed so determined, pressing his hips and grinding them against her, refusing to let her come down for air. A hand left her ass and she bucked her hips immediately as she felt his finger circle her clit unexpectedly.

"With me, Rey," she couldn't be sure whether it was the use of her name, or his touch, or the fact that he raised his head to look at her finally that did the trick. But she came moments after, staring into the soul of the man whose heart she had broken, whose eyes held none of their warmth. She swallowed all of her pleasure in the face of that cold stare. The veins in his neck and the slight increase in pressure were the only signs he gave that she was about to feel the spurt of his come inside of her.

He threw his head back and stared at the sky when he came, letting out a low grunt. Rey had always loved the feel of him coming inside of her, it was her favorite thing - he knew that, and purposefully refused to look at her when he did it. The pleasure was undeniable, but hollow.

They stayed like that for minutes, catching their breath in silence; he slipped his cock out and zipped it back up. Her hands moved on instinct, as she always had, to help him with his belt, but he stepped away sharply, leaving her hands hanging in the air. His come dribbled down her thighs and she found herself grateful for her choice of a long skirted dress.

He refused to look at her as he fixed his belt and glanced around for something.

He pulled a folded cloth napkin from some unused storage bin and bent down. "Lift it up," he said quietly. It was all he said, but she did as told. He wiped the inside and back of her legs, before slipping his hand between them, wiping her lips clean - mostly - of their cum. When he was done he rolled it into a ball and tossed it into the trash.

"Thank you," she couldn't think of anything else to say. What were you supposed to say, anyway?

He simply nodded once and left, back to the party, out of her life and to his. Back to Kaydel. At least now she knew what it looked like to watch him walk away.

[these-are-the-first-steps]

An objective, uninfluenced review and discussion of TLJ after just leaving the theatre- mileage may vary

THIS SPOILER-FILLED REVIEW IS UNDER A CUT. IF YOU SEE A TON OF TEXT AND NO CUT, SCROLL LIKE HELL. 

OK, so, some initial take-aways:

-This was a really busy movie

-I feel like they crammed three films into one and I'm not sure how I feel about that.

-This did not have the standard feel of a star wars film and I'm not sure how I feel about that.

-Too much comedy. Sorry. It was a bit much and ruined the mood in a lot of places imo.

-Holy shit, that was the hottest, most sexualized hands-touching I have ever seen in my life

-My life literally flashed before my eyes when Finn went to kamikaze. They had him get so close to the end, and that tear— jesus fuck I genuinely thought that was going to be the end and I was a mess. God bless you, Rose.

-My life literally flashed before my eyes when Leia was ejected from the ship- they had me going thinking this was how she was gonna go. The force flying was hokey as shit, but you know what? Fuck it. Carrie Fisher can cheat death and fly- it's fucking canon now. Deal with it.

-The music did not blow me away on TLJ as it did in TFA. Most likely because the movie was so damn busy.

-Too many climaxes. Yes, there is such a thing. I was worn out by the end of this film and there was no real catharsis at all because of it.

-I don't know how the fuck they're going to do 9 without Carrie after that ending. Well…I do have one idea, but I kinda hate it.

The Meat:

The scroll this film was interesting, in that its last sentence broke the mold of previous star wars crawls- that was my clue right off the bat that this would not be following the standard 'feel', for lack of a better word, of star wars films. Honestly, I don't expect the off-shoot movies like 'Rogue One' to follow whatever standard 1-7 do, but like I expect it from the main series, and like I said at the beginning, I'm not entirely sure how I feel about it yet. At the moment I'm a little disappointed that it deviated so much, but we got so many juicy tidbits and moments to have and to hold that that's kind of outweighing the minor point of format. So, I'll be seeing the film a few more times in various formats before coming to a hard conclusion on this.

Anyway…

HAHA POE GOT SLAPPED! THE SLAP HAPPENED! And it was pretty underwhelming honestly. And then out of nowhere Leia's all charm and kindness again? That really made the whole moment meaningless to me. Like she was never mad enough to slap him to begin with, so why? The moment was ruined by Leia's sharp U-turn and that sucked. They had a real opportunity to bring home just how severe and serious Leia's despair over so much loss has been, but the really watered it down every time, usually with comedy.

There was too much comedy in this film. I get maybe they were trying to lighten it up for the kiddos, but they did it in alllll the wrong places. It really botched the mood of the film repeatedly. The timing was just terrible. I mean right off the bat- sure, Poe's exchange with Hux was hilarious, but man it did not need to be in there. At least not first thing in the film when you're trying to set the tone. What a waste on all ends. That part really frustrated me.

I'm surprised at how soon Kylo bashed his helmet to pieces. That was really soon. Sadly the shock of it just wasn't there for me since I'd seen the trailers, but whatever. It was still a great moment done by Adam exceptionally well.

Mark Hamill was A+++ in this film. Everything about him was great. Absolutely stellar. While TLJ was mass confusion, Luke Skywalker stayed consistent and made linear sense throughout- the only exception being the very end. Why….why did he die again? I'm seriously confused? He looked pained, and I kept waiting for the camera to pan down to explain what was going on- did he actually have a giant saber hole in him from Ben or something? But no- he just flounders on a rock for a bit and then kicks it. I still just do not understand. I don't understand it at all. Also, Rian promised us some big compelling monologue from Luke that would be oscar-worthy and it wasn't there. Where was the monologue? Three sentences strung together do not a monologue make. Sorry, kids. I think Mark did a stellar job, as I said, and they've put him up for an oscar nom, but honestly….I don't think it was oscar-worthy simply because there wasn't enough there due to the over-taxed storyline, and if he does get one, it's gonna be earned out of sentiment more than anything, which….I mean, an oscar is an oscar, but still. You know? Also, we had stills and BTS footage of Luke down in that dark side hole with Rey and we never saw that. I hope Rian releases his director's cut so we get those scenes back- otherwise there's a good chance we'll get them in the novel or something.

Canto Bight was super unnecessary. What an unnecessary, overly-busy, budget-draining side romp. Maz was unnecessary. The whole 'let's get the codes' thing was unnecessary, although Benicio del Toro stole the fucking show with his character- that dude was great, and we'll definitely be seeing him again in 9. He's clearly going to be the side-character replacement for Phasma (RIP gurl). Canto Bight achieved only two things: 1. The FinnRose romance. 2. The stable kids, or at least one of them, has the force. Yep! That kid at the end- when he reaches for the broom, the broom jumps into his fucking hand, y'all. That kid has the force. The force is clearly back with a vengeance in the young babies of the galaxy. And that was it. I feel like they could have achieved both those things in better, more meaningful ways. But no, they wanted to do a casino(?) bit that will likely never be heard of again except in extended merchandising because fuck disney's money-grubbing ways. Oh, I DID like DJ's 'Rogue One' call-back reminder about how literally both sides of this war suck and everyone's trash, especially the warlords growing fat off the profits in the middle. I appreciated that bit. It was also a nice social commentary for a young audience that will hopefully stick with them. It was a cool moment that del Toro played beautifully.

Two words: PORG BABIES. Also, is Chewie vegetarian now? xD I don't think a whole colony of porgs should have come along in the falcon- that was a bit much. Again, comedy in places it didn't need to be. Whatever. Moving on.

Laura Dern's character dying was a waste, but you know what? That move she did was fucking brutal. It was amazing. It reminded me of 'Farscape' 's wormhole-popping maneuver immediately, plus extreme bonus damage. Just a beautiful sight.

Rose was great- Kelly Marie Tran knocked that shit out of the park. Laughs, tears, she ran the fucking gamut. I know we were all expecting more from her character's sister, but I guess it was the necessary setup to give her the impetus to go take risks. No complaints at all about Rose- I thought she was lovely.

Wow did Poe get a lot of screen time. He got a lot of screen time. I feel like Poe maybe learned some shit, but I honestly don't feel like Finn learned a whole lot which was disappointing. Even on Canto Bight he was like 'No, we're not doing this! Stop enjoying it!' Growth for him would be to start letting loose a bit, and he just doesn't. I also feel like we were deprived of a closing moment with him at the end of the film- we just get the tender moment with him and Rose, which was sweet, but it felt unfinished. I felt like Finn was more along for the ride in this film than actively moving it, and again I think that's the fault of this film being too damn busy and there not being enough time for things to go smoothly, linearly, and in ways that flowed naturally. There just wasn't time for it, clearly, and so character development suffered- unless you're Poe. Because damn Poe got a lot of screen time.

I felt like we should have spent more time on the salt planet. That felt like another over-done thing that, while the location was necessary, was it necessary to make it so busy? As I write this, I think I'm starting to realize that the backdrops are what have really distracted from the story. The backdrops haven't aided the story at all- they've just severely diverted attention from what's important- i.e. the struggles both literal and emotional happening to our characters. The casino was a riotous mess, visually stunning but constantly pulling my attention away from what was going on. The salt planet had tons of unique features but it didn't serve any purpose to the film. None of these backdrops serviced the story, and I think that's a HUGE problem. With an already busy, intricate web of storylines to keep up with, having all these non-contributing, busy-in-their-own-right backdrops just made it even harder to keep up and stay focused on what was going on. You don't leave the theatre feeling like all the threads came together in the end. You leave the theatre going "Well that was cool…but I feel like I've missed something", because you probably have. Here: YOUR BACKDROP SHOULD NOT BE COMPETING WITH YOUR STORY. Ok, I said it.

Snoke made some comments about Hux that were interesting and then promptly never talked about again. Why's that? Because there was no time. Pity. Anyway, the bit about him being easily manipulated because of his personal issues was great, and I was hoping we'd get to see more of that struggle with Hux, more of that fatal flaw at play- his daddy issues, insecurities about acceptance, etc., but it never came. Instead Hux was wasted on comedic moments. Oh how the mighty have fallen. Once again, unnecessary comedy fucking ruins the mood of this film.

Snoke's demise was shocking but also anti-climactic. They pulled all the power from him in one fell swoop and took this amazingly built-up character, this character that had SUCH cool potential, and Rian just threw it in the trash. I'm pretty disappointed. Actually, I'm really disappointed. No wonder Pablo was so disinterested in Snoke questions- Snoke was made ultimately irrelevant as a character. While the psychological effects of Snoke will continue to be a MAJOR issue, killing him was wasted potential, and now Ben’s lifelong struggle with this creature has been belittled and minimized because of it. That is terrible.

So now we get to the juicy bits- Rey and Ben.

We didn't get to see Rey hardly at all in this film. That….fucking sucked. Poe got more screen time than Rey. Fuck you, Poe. I'm pissed off about this. The only moving, worthwhile moments Rey had were opposite Ben. And boy did Daisy and Adam make the most of very limited screen time. Force Bond ahoy, y'all! We called it and it exists! However, it was really crazy abrupt. There was no lead-up of voices, of the connection establishing itself. One tiny teaser of it would have been enough, but no- suddenly it's just THERE, and the music and sound cuts, and if you weren't us and expecting this kind of force bond communication we've all been writing about prolifically for two years, I'm sure you were like "What the fuck- this is out of left field", because it was. Story-wise, it was. And that's disappointing. You want to see something you love executed well, and while you love and I love the connection, it wasn't executed well. It could have been done better. Again, any kind of hinted lead-up- since it was a surprise for both of them, maybe like a whisper of his voice calling to her in surprise? Or something. Instead we get them both right away, which was a bit blunt. I think it could have used with a bit of finessing. Oh well.

From a story analysis standpoint, I think Snoke's claim that he personally established the connection between them is bullshit. I think he was talking out of his ass, frankly. I think him claiming he forged the bond was back-peddling to try and continue to related all roads back to himself because while he certainly played the all-powerful omnipotence card, he clearly knew he wasn't and worked actively to maintain his illusion to keep Ben in check. But it was all a farce, as we could see, and even Ben knew where all the cracks in Snoke's observational skills were. He didn't really have 24/7 Ben TV. When Ben played him like a goddamn fiddle with that sneak attack, Ben showed that he could cloak and twist his intent in front of Snoke's face all day if he's focused enough, and felt he had enough purpose. He certainly did feel Ben becoming resolved alright. He felt him begin to prepare his saber. But how limited he was in what he could see! How limited, whereas Rey on the other hand….oh, he and Rey have something so much more than Snoke's clearly tenuous hold. Ben was only under the yoke as much as he wanted to be, and that realization is very much a doubled-edged sword. On the one hand, it meant he could find the strength to break free when he found a new purpose in Rey. But on the other, it also means he could have peaced out whenever he wanted and taken the FO with him but clearly he chose not to, which is awful and frustrating. But you know? When you wake up to your uncle looking like he's about to kill you in your goddamned sleep after you've spent years arguing against that sort of thing with the voices insisting your uncle will actually kill you, and suddenly the voices are right and your world is fucking shattered? When the voices become the only viable option in your life? I can get that. I may not agree with it, but I get it. And that's plenty.

Also, can we talk about the story of the school's destruction? So Kylo DID leave with some of the students. Let's make an educated guess and say they are the other Knights of Ren. Nice predicting, y'all. I'm sure they'll become major players in 9 as Kylo attempts to step into his role as supreme leader- while Snoke had the red guard, Kylo will have his knights. Cool. Very cool.

To back-track a little, I enjoyed the force chats between Rey and Ben a lot. I feel like more of them happened that we weren't shown. Even as Rey was recounting her brush with the dark side cave, you can tell she'd already been telling the story for a long while and he'd spent a long while listening. But again, with little finessing with all this, for those not expecting reylo the care they begin to have for each other seems really abrupt. Sorry, general audience- I wish it could have been better, too. But let's take what we can get, shall we? Kylo debases himself in front of Rey- admits he's a monster and then cries about it. I love it. Then he gives her the answer she wants in the form of advice, which was a fantastic bit of writing. After that, she inexplicably mellows out to him quite a bit and there's storytime in the stone house, the exceptionally warm lighting, as their hands achingly, hesitatingly touch- an insane amount of effortlessness in making yourself physical in a force-induced manifestation that, for Ben and Rey, resulted in the sexiest finger-touching I've ever seen, and for Luke became such a strain that it killed him. Powerful in the force are these two, indeed. I can't get over how warm that lighting was- literal love by firelight. And then….and then Rey cried it felt so good. And so did Ben. And when Rey recounts what she saw of his future in the elevator when their hands touched, she does this sweet look down at his chest before looking back with care into his face…I was feeling it so hard, man. That is a loving gesture. *I* have acted that way with someone I love. That's a tic that only belongs to lovers, not friends. What kind of 'solid' future did she see for him? With that kind of tic, it makes me wonder if she hadn't seen herself in it, too. Goddammit, ben! Get your shit together, boy!

Rey's lack of social skills, however, really fucking botched things between them, too. Surely there had to be a better way to reason with him than pulling out a goddamned saber. Bad move, sweetheart. And in one fell swoop you broke that man's heart. Everything after Rey's rejection was just bleeding-heart Kylo vomiting his emotions all over the place. I mean he was seriously torn up about it. And what about Rey running off? How come we didn't get that scene? Did she just straight-up split? Or did she stop for a moment to look at Kylo's unconscious, likely peaceful, face? I'm mad we didn't get to see it because it would have said a lot- instead once Rey rejoins the resistance, we get a TON more relationship-dodging. A TON of dodging. Because you know what? The relationship is there, man. Finn's got his gal, and Rey looks on acceptingly at this turn of events. Kylo and Rey have experienced a lot of emotional stuff together at this point- he's the only one that shares her secret about her parents. But you'd never know anything at all had happened to her at the end of the film. It's just business as usual. And that's really weird to me. That's not character growth. A bit of longing there, for what Rey almost, almost, let herself have with Kylo reflected in Finn and Rose's moment, but no- just plain old start-of-tfa Rey apparently. I mean….Rey didn't even ask him about his scar. He never brought up his scar. Was that a scene that got cut? Because how do you avoid that conversation? How do you avoid that? OH! The fight scene- and where she rolls her back onto his back to fight the red guard I WAS LIVING! It was so good, and they kept checking on each other during the fight. I loved it.

I've just been reminded of the shirtless scene- it didn't come off naturally, but I get that they're trying to establish that the bond is manifesting at 'inconvenient' moments, ok whatever. And then Rey goes and spoils the moment with more unnecessary comedy schtick which rolled off Adam beautifully- thank you, Adam. She totally checked him out, though. Maybe she was reliving that moment a little in the elevator when she looked down at his chest. Makes me wonder again just what exactly she saw in his future. I'm here for it.

Why did Rey fucking sail to the FO in a coffin? That made no sense. Although it was cute that Ben came to pick her up like "Hi." but then "Here are some shackles. Sorrynotsorry." I love how she was clearly expecting something else but NOPE.

Also, Rey really does come from nothing, although I don't fucking know how her parents can be in a potter's field in Jakku when Rey last saw them sail off into space. Sounds like hasty writing after being fed up with fans to me. Although Adam rattled it all off beautifully. And I love how Ben loves her regardless of it all. I loved the whole "You knew this the whole time so who cares because I don't? PS: come be my empress, it'll be great." Adam did so well in this film, but I can't help but think, like every fucking thing else, that his screen time was radically choked and that there's TONS more on the cutting room floor that give his acting more of the credit it's due and that flesh out so many more things to help them make more sense. Ugh.

In conclusion. I liked it. I cried when Leia's old holo projection played. I cried like a bitch. But I didn't leave the film feeling like my mind was blown like it'd been with TFA. I don't know if it's because I just felt overwhelmed in more of a bad way than good due to how busy everything was or if it's because I've been analyzing stuff for two years. It's probably a bit of both. Because I avoided the spoilers like the plague, you know? So everything was still new and a surprise, and while I think the film was a total trip that I'd recommend, TFA just felt cleaner, more impactful, and left enough space for all its characters to fully realize themselves instead of the cram-fest that this movie is. And most importantly, TLJ didn't leave enough space for John Williams to create any stand-out moments like in TFA- "The Starkiller" is a piece that gave me fucking goosebumps and that, to this day, will be one of my favorite moments in movie history. To choose a quiet dirge piece for a moment of bloody chaos was absolutely brilliant and shook me to the core, but there was no time for a moment like that in this film and that really bums me out. I was hoping for another moving experience like that.

Reylo's a thing now, but the kids have a lot of work to do on their relationship, because Kylo's in full spurned-lover mode and he's not handling it well. He's now a kid who's been handed all the power in the universe, and if Rey thinks that's not going to backfire, especially with their direct phone line to each other, she's got another thing coming. She's going to have her hands full trying to talk that boy down, and any next encounter between them is going to be incredibly tense and fraught with emotion. He finally outrightly pleaded with her to be with him. And that fucking means something. And Rey's not dimwitted enough not to see that. She knows the implications. She saw his good-ending future, remember- one that, as she recalled it, her eyes drifted to his chest in a very, very affectionate move that was well played by Daisy. In fact, I was so focused on Daisy's performance in that moment that I missed Kylo's reaction so when I see the film again, I'll have to remember to focus on him next time.

And Leia….Carrie was right that 9 was supposed to be Leia's film. I mean…that ending makes it indisputable. How do you work through that? Especially with Luke copping out? Essentially my prediction for what's going to happen is this: Lots, and lots, of Ghost Uncle Luke times. It's the only option they have. Luke's gonna come back, haunt the shit out of Ben and give him terrible girl advice, and then visit Rey and try to teach her some more. It's the only option they have, really. Mark thought he was finally done, but then Carrie just had to go and die- isn't that just typical. I also love how Billie plays such a bigger role in this film. Her performance was great, too, and there were moments where she really sounded like a young Leia that had me tearing up. I love them all so much.

So that's all I got for this initial objective general review of The Last Jedi. I plan to see this film at least once more in standard 2D (my preferred mode), and also in 4DX because why would you not want to be on Star Wars: The Ride for 2.5 hours? It's worth the ticket price. Plus seeing these films in 3D adds a whole new perspective to things, I discovered after seeing 3D TFA. So I'm open to that, too. I had a lot of technical complaints with this film, but otherwise I like the direction it went in, it was a direction I anticipated (minus snoke being wasted as a character- that still sucks), and I'd say as a shipper we got a good 75% of what we wanted. As a shipper, I'd say full steam ahead for the good boat Reylo and I look forward to a hopefully grittier, more distraught atmosphere to really bring shit home in 9. JJ Abrams gave us a very, very solid, coherent story for 7, and I look forward to having that back again for the grand finale. These characters deserve coherency. I love Rian, but he tried to cram too much in too small a space and lot really suffered for it- this was a problem Rogue One had that I hoped wouldn't repeat itself, but here we are. But even Rogue One navigated its complicated story better than TLJ did, I think. I don't know. Again, I need to see this film a few more times before I can really throw the gavel down. But now that this objective review is out, I'm happy to go back to putting my shipper glasses on and appreciating what we do have: Hot hand touches, shirtless Ben Solo, Rey saying 'Ben', Ben saying 'Rey', both of them crying over each other, both of them ogling each other, and the category of Emperor Ren fiction absolutely fucking exploding (and laughing maniacally that my own 'Exigence in force majeure' is now fucking canon-compliant can you believe this shit what is life).

Ok- enjoy the film, friends! TATFS out. PS: Oh yeah, haha, the jedi books were saved- ok. Also, I would love to get my hands on a director’s cut and all the deleted scenes so that I could try my hand at cutting my own version of this film- eliminate or better time 90% of the comedic bits and create a film that’s really darkly compelling and profound. Ok, I’m really gone this time bye.

[galoslio]

Fic Rec List part 1

No one asked for it but I’m going to do a fic rec since there’s a lot of fics I read that I wish got more attention. These are old, as I went through my bookmarks and started on the oldest page. Like, some of these are from KBB last year old as I read A LOT of the fics from KBB. So, enjoy this first one and part 2 will be up later or smth idk

Do Droids Have Hearts? (NSFW) - By Crempyreal or @eerie-war-of-stars Kylo is caught admiring the droid copy of Emperor Hux who decides he wants to have a little fun with Kylo 

Catharsis (NSFW) - By  krispys_can  Hux loves his ship.

The Swan Prince (SFW) - by Anonymous Growing up, Prince Hux and Prince Ben hated each other, despite the fact their parents wanted them to get married. However, as fate would have it the two fall in love, only for Snoke to snatch Ben away for his own evil scheme to take the kingdom of Alderaan.

No Room For Wilted Flowers (SFW) - by @kyluxtrashcompactor  They would both one day shape the history of entire cultures, influence galactic politics, and have an empire at their feet. Behind all such men, there are trials and glory, bloodshed and skeletons in dark closets. But there is always a beginning, steeped in a significance that is only recognizable from a great distance of time: a time when a seed becomes a flower, to flourish or wilt.This is the story of how two children become men, and arrive to face their destiny: each other.

Pull me in, Put me out (NSFW) - by @eatjamfast "stalker's victim is a psychopath" promt“You need a fucking hobby,” Rey sniped from the other side of the break room’s table. It took every ounce of self-control Ben had not to choke on his bagel. 'God, if only you knew, sweet cousin', he thought somewhat hysterically.or - do not mess with hux he is 100x more crazy than u ren

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust (Gore) - by @ellstra Hux died because Ben Solo killed Kylo Ren, the man Hux loved. While Ben's moral compass goes all skewy, he knows one thing - Hux may have been a bad person but he deserves to rest in peace. It is not, however, everyone else's conviction though Ben is determined to give Hux a proper burial despite everything.

To go outside, and there perchance to stay (SFW) - by @thewightknight Every morning, sometime between eight-thirty and nine-thirty, a gorgeous ginger-haired grump came in to Starkiller Café for a triple tall latte, extra foam.

Simple Mistakes and Wedding Dates (SFW) - by @aweirdlookingtree Hux is not a huge fan of weddings. They take too long, are overly sentimental and dancing is a chore. But when his roommate and somewhat friend Kylo Ren, invites him to a friend's wedding, who is he to say no? It sounds perfect... except for the fact that Kylo's relatives are making them share a bed, and offering them relationship advice, and giving them fond, amused looks. It's almost as if everyone thinks they're a couple, but that would be ridiculous! Right? RIGHT?