#but please for the love of god leave the past LI alone 😭

[mrsgaryrennell]

I’m praying so hard that Gary, Bobby, and Lucas aren’t in this atrocious season. It’s gonna ruin everything 💀

GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!!

[thelov3lybookworm]

Mine? (Part 9)

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8

Summary: She is probably rushing into things, but does it matter when she is happy?

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Word Count: 1910

A/n: technically... TECHNICALLY THIS IS THE LAST PART. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. THE LAST PART. 😭im so happy hehe.

the ending might feel a bit rushed but i love it hehe and so do you 🔫🥰

epilogue coming out on wednesday hopefully so SIT TIGHT CHILDREN ILYYYY ❣️

anyways, enjoy!🥹

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The tension in the air could have been cut by Adelaide’s plastic toy knife.

It was almost hard to breathe as Grayson, Y/n and Liam sat opposite each other. Y/n had decided to settle down next to Liam in hopes of calming him down even a little bit.

Grayson sat opposite the two siblings, his jaw locked. To anyone else, it would have seemed like he was angry.

Y/n knew he was scared.

Liam was someone even Grayson did not want to mess with. Even when they were children, Liam had threatened Grayson every chance he got not to hurt Y/n. God only knew how he even let Y/n talk to Gray, but now, Liam’s hatred for Grayson had definitely increased.

Especially after the explanation Grayson and Y/n had just offered for Grayson’s presence.

"So you tell me you ain’t planning to run with your tail tucked between your legs the first chance you get?" Liam’s voice was as hard as his eyes as he surveyed Grayson from head to toe, the disgust evident in his features only lessened by the cooing babe in his arms.

Grayson had tried his best to be on his best behaviour, to not let his emotions get the best of him when Liam continued to practically bully Grayson. The two men had been going at it for almost an hour now, and Y/n felt like she kept hearing the same few sentences again and again.

Maybe she was losing her mind.

Grayson glared back. "I do not know why you think I will when I have been constantly assuring you I only want the best for your sister and my daughter. I want to take up responsibilities that I should have been taking care of for a long time now."

Apparently he was done letting Liam be mean to him.

Before Liam could throw out one of his jabs again, Grayson stood, fists clenched, and Y/n’s heart raced. "I will leave you alone to have some time with your sister. See you later."

With that, Grayson shot Y/n a soft look, then stalked towards the door, grabbing his long coat and keys on the way out.

Aww.

The only thing Y/n could focus on was the way he had looked at her then. It made her want to smile.

Liam was glaring at her.

Not aww then.

"Sooooo how have you been Li?"

His expression did not change. If anything, it became even more thunderous.

"Care to explain why I did not know that he was living with you?"

Y/n sighed. Straight to the point, then. "Look, Li, he’s trying. Cut him some slack."

"He hurt you Y/n. I ain’t cutting no slack."

Y/n snuggled close to him, knowing he was just being protective.

"Give him a chance, Li. Please, for me?"

Eternity passed in the time he took to respond, and Y/n was wondering if he was going to ignore her plea when he finally spoke.

"Fine. One chance is all he gets. But I want to keep an eye on him. You are coming with me."

Y/n pulled away to look at her brother. "What?"

"You three are coming home with me. If he truly wants to be with you and right his wrongs, he will obviously be ready to prove it, no?"

With that, Liam stood and carried Adelaide to the guest bedroom where he usually stayed when visiting, her giggling, unaware.

Y/n sighed, then stood to call Grayson. He will want to be home and sitting down for this.

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Grayson’s pov.

Taking a walk in the park was something he had come to love in the past two months. Almost as much as he loved swimming.

The moment Grayson had stormed out of the apartment, he had wished to turn back around, wondering if Liam was yelling at Y/n now that he had left. He felt so guilty that he had even turned around after reaching the ground floor, then stopped himself. They probably needed privacy to sort things out.

It also baffled Grayson how worried he was for Y/n. He had been protective over her, sure, but this innate need to make sure no one was hurting her was something completely new to Grayson. It was like he no could no longer function properly unless he knew she was okay.

Which was concerning.

He had settled down on one of the benches in the park, his gaze fixed on the sparrows that hopped around in the grass as he tried to make sense of the sudden urge to run back home to his friend.

He wished he had been someone better, wished he had not used her the way he had. Wished he had not told her it was a mistake, wished he had cherished what the two had before he lost it. He wished he had not missed any of his daughter’s milestones ever, wished he had been there with Y/n everytime she might have needed someone.

Grason sighed, placing his face in his palms.

Every time Grayson slept in a little longer, every time he would find Y/n giggling with Adelaide in the kitchen, her eyes twinkling, his heart skipped a beat. Everytime she would turn to him and smile at him with none of the animosity he knew he deserved, his heart skipped a beat.

Every time he thought of Y/n, his heart skipped a beat.

At this point, with the rate at which his heart frollicked around his chest without abandon, in a way so new to Grayson, he wondered if he was developing some sort of ailment.

Love is after all an ailment.

The thought was so sudden his breathing stopped for a moment.

Am I in love with Y/n?

Well, his symptoms only really pointed to one disease.

She would smile, he would do too, just because she did. Every time he saw her in her own thoughts, her lips downturned, he would wish to be the reason to make her laugh.

Even that morning, before Liam arrived, Grayson had spied Y/n frowning down at her phone. He had wanted to make her laugh, and so when she had come to take Adelaide, he had done the first thing that came to mind. And thankfully, it had worked.

He had watched intently as one side of her lips ticked up in amusement, her eyes widening slightly at his unusual behaviour.

Fuck.

Grayson leaned back, taking a deep breath before he whispered his confession out into the world, solidifying his thoughts and the truth.

"I am in love."

Unbidden, a smile rose to his lips.

I still have Nan’s ring that Nash gave me.

Well, looks like someone is about to be engaged.

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"Y/n?"

Startled, Y/n turned around to find a panting Grayson grinning at her.

What the-

He bounded towards her, looking ready to speak his heart out, but then seemed to have thought better of it and grabbed her hand.

How the hell did he get in? Oh right, the keys.

He dragged her toward the bedroom the two now shared and closed the door behind him, then dropped her hand and ran to the closet. All while Y/n watched him, perplexed.

"Gray, what’s going on?"

He shook his head, rummaging around, his brows furrowed in determination. Y/n moved forward, trying to see if she could help him when he finally stepped back, dropping his handbag back into its place and turned to Y/n, his eyes wild.

"Y/n, I just want you to know that I really wanted to do something special, I swear." He huffed, still out of breath. His hair stuck up in different directions, as if he had constantly ran his hands through them. "But I just realised I- I love you and I can’t wait-"

Y/n blinked. "No, no, hold up. You what??"

He grinned even wider if that was somehow possible, and dropped to a knee. "Please, Y/n, marry me? I was at the park and I was thinking and I was thinking of how much I care for you and I- I realised I am love and- and I just needed you to know that because I know you have doubts sometimes and-"

"My god Grayson, slow down." Y/n giggled, making him pause in his rant. Instantly, his ears turned red, and he glanced at the ground for a moment before composing himself and looking back up at Y/n.

"I really mean it, Y/n." He grabbed her hand, swallowing. Y/n’s smile faded a little at the intensity in his grey eyes, and she settled for a small tilt to her lips as she looked down at him. "You don’t have to say yes right now, but-"

"Yes."

He halted, his grip tightening on her hand.

"Really?"

She nodded, squeezing his hand. "I would love to marry you Gray. But…" She pulled him up by grabbing onto his biceps as she thought of how to break the news to him that Liam wanted the two to follow him back to Texas. "But I want you to get along with my family first."

She offered him her hand onto which he pushed the beautiful ring that had sat snugly in the velvet box, then met his eyes, unable to control her smile at the excitement that shone in his eyes.

"Liam told me that if I wanted him to forgive you, we will have to go back home. He apparently wants to keep an eye on you."

Grayson was quiet for a second, then nodded. "I mean, I can do my best to win them back. I’m a Hawthorne after all."

Y/n smiled, then shook her head. "You’re impossible. You scared me for a second there."

Y/n knew that if anyone heard of the way he had proposed, and even the way she had accepted without even a moment’s consideration, they would tell her she had lost her mind.

But this was her life. She was the one who got to decide what’s best for herself and her child. And maybe she was rushing into things, but did it matter when she was happy? Did it matter if she was doing this for her daughter, and maybe herself?

Y/n trusted Grayson. She had grown up with him, had seen the way Tobias Hawthorne had carefully shaped him into the man he was today. She knew he would never hurt her intentionally.

This was a moment where all Y/n’s dreams led to, and she was happy about it. As she stood there, being pulled into Grayson’s embrace, she reminisced about how the one night the both of them had considered a mistake had led to the two of them being happier than ever.

Maybe everything does happen for a reason.

And now, after all the heartbreak and sadness she had been through, Y/n could confidently say that it was all worth it.

She had a lovely daughter that was doted on by all the people she cared for.

Y/n had gotten back her friend that she loved immensely and her daughter had gotten back her father that swore on his life to be the best for her.

And the best part of all?

The two are mine.

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[voidpunkanathema]

jasper

Why I like them: He turned out to be a much more complicated character than he seemed to be on the surface. It took me until his literal last scene in the game to realize this but damn if that scene didn't paint all of his actions in a new light. Like yeah he's still a bastard but you saw WHY he became the way he did. How easily it all could have been avoided. How he and Hendrik deserved the chance to move past the lies that poisoned their relationship without him having to be a ghost living in his armor. It hurt in a weird way. He became my first true character hyperfixation and honestly opened my mind to engaging with fiction in a whole new way. No one deserves to be painted in the Crying Lucifer Painting pose more than him lol 

Why I don’t: I will forever have a chip in my shoulder that he didn't get a redemption arc, sorrynotsorry. Even Party Chat tries to desperately downplay the significance of the armor scene if you check it on the now-memorial balcony. On a lighter note the fact I missed 99.9% of the Piers fandom is entirely his fault because I was too busy hyperfixating on him lol. Also, the classism. The classism is bad, mkay? :P

Favorite line: His melodramatic evil speech in the throne room where he lists love first as something he's given up on is hard to beat. Also his final line in the game being "we will never be apart again'...yeah 🥲😭

Favorite outfit: The evil queen ensemble. It's so...very.  Exactly the sort of thing a raging disaster gay that designs his own outfits (according to the character book) that's devoted himself to eeevil would wear. 

OTP: He literally only makes sense as a character if you assume he was extremely, painfully gay for Hendrik and sublimating it in a WEIRD way. And Hendrik certainly showed enough signs of feeling the same way (the way he clutches his necklace to his chest after his death in the first timeline...) Mordegon and Heliodor's toxic monarchy just got in the way... 

Brotp: Jade was apparently just as close to him as she was to Hendrik but the game NEVER EXPLORES THIS AT ALL. Also I think he and Sylvando could have been absolute terrors together lol. And I've always liked the headcanons where he and Mia bond over their shared pain and rage at their (perceived) abandonment. 

Head Canon: Quite a few, so I'll just share one that he wrote the MOST emo poetry as a pining teen, something he will never admit to on pain of death as an adult. I'll also bring up the fact he's successfully taken over the world but still paying for cake as proof he's not as happy as he thought he'd be and eating his feelings about it in Act 2 lol

Unpopular opinion: No one reads deeply enough into him, everyone takes the bullshit he tells himself at face value even when he directly contradicts himself *eyetwitch* I often suspected I was literally the only person right about him lol. Also, the Gay Armor Marriage was incredibly touching, but not enough. He shouldn't have died at all. Also while I've read Jasper/Sylvando fic and enjoyed it before I don't really ship him or Hendrik with Sylv myself which kinda feels like a minority take in this fandom 

A wish: At this point I can only hope he gets the Psaro treatment where his death is avoided entirely when the game is rereleased in like 25 years 

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen: I honestly don't want Square to revisit him, they treated him so harshly compared to other villains of the same caliber that pretty much got away with everything so yeah, just leave the angry wet cat man alone guys...

5 words to best describe them: Poor little meow meow supreme 💛

My nickname for them: Bastard son, the Purple Titty Monster (for Unbound obviously)

[crossdressingdeath]

(Mind flayer Durge anon again) Oh wow so. I did not know ANY of that mind flayer lore. I just did some more reading on some wikis too and what the fuck. My only experience with mind flayers had been Bg3 itself and god the game really brushes past all that huh. I very much get WHY they chose to make it vague in the context of the story they wrote, but I very much do NOT get why they wrote the story that way in the first place if they knew enough about it to know they had to leave it vague. Anyway never mind my previous ask lol, I really did think it was just your new Squid Forme and a resistible urge to eat brains until a few minutes ago.

Also you are so right about Omeluum. Lbr the fact that Larian wanted the contrived conflict over the pc having to turn themself or someone else into a mind flayer, is exactly the reason why Omeluum thee mind flayer ally only gives you a bag of potions when even characters like Mol (literal child) and Valeria (famously lazy) and Mizora (evil!!!!) will show up to help your ass in the final battle. It’s kind of an insane plot hole actually but whatever I guess 😭

Yeah, Larian kind of leaves it at "You're MONSTROUS now, you've got TENTACLES and you EAT BRAINS" and like... no. You're dead. You die. The tadpole devours your brain. The "you" that exists post-transformation is an echo made from your memories, and there's honestly no real reason to believe that that echo is going to last; mind flayers generally don't retain much of their host's personality, and the fact that you seem to be the same person now doesn't mean you're going to stay that way. It seriously undercuts the whole "sacrifice" angle of the transformation that the writing treats it like it's basically fine. One of the things making Omeluum Best Squid is that unlike the Emperor it does not claim to be the same person it was; the Emperor's like "No no I'm still Balduran, really, I'm definitely the same person, trust me!" but Omeluum just... is a person. Not the same person it was, but a person all the same. But I suspect Larian not going into why turning into a mind flayer is a really really really really really bad thing is why we get things like people acting like the LIs not breaking up with the player if they go full illithid is The Only Correct And Loving Choice (despite the fact that both "you eat brains now and can barely control yourself" and "you're not actually the person I fell in love with, you're a tadpole-based echo that likely won't last" are extremely valid reasons to break up with someone; let's be real, most people would break up with their significant other under those circumstances) and people insisting that letting Karlach go full mind flayer so she doesn't have to go to the Hells is her best ending: despite "if we don't do something we'll turn into mind flayers" being the inciting motivation of every act one companion, Larian did a really bad job of properly establishing why that's such a bad thing beyond the basic "tentacles and brain-eating" thing.

And I didn't even think of it, but you're probably right that Omeluum doesn't show up for the final battle because otherwise it would be really obvious that there was a solution to this issue that didn't require anyone turning into a mind flayer. Although honestly even if Omeluum didn't exist I think it would feel incredibly contrived; Larian, please explain to me why we need a mind flayer to control the Netherbrain when non-transformed and imprisoned Orpheus working alone and without the Netherstones already has the power to keep it at bay. Please! RPG writers! You do not need to cram Horrible Dilemmas With No Right Answer into the endgame! Sometimes it's okay to end the game by just fighting an evil guy! Or an evil brain in this case!

[ruminate88]

Andrew 🥺❤️‍🩹

I feel guilty because it’s been so many years since I’ve blocked your number. I think it’s just all the confusion of you spending a summer with me, then saying you love me, THEN you love bombed me, and you wouldn’t break up with me, but after I break up with you, you say you pretended all of your feelings and that nothing was real for you��� I don’t wanna keep holding it over your head 😭💔🙏🏻 though I’m trying so hard to forgive you! It’s not like it’s anything you can change. can’t force yourself to love me, but if you never had feelings for me at all, I wish you wouldn’t have pretended them with me and spent all that time with me. 😝 My head can’t make it all makes sense and my heart won’t stop throbbing. I don’t want you to live in guilt and shame, if you have any at all…. We cannot change the past only God can, and only God can heal us and forgive us! I want to make things right with you and I just don’t know how. 😔 even if we ever did get to see each other or talk again? Doesn’t mean I would trust you and that makes me so sad. Of course, you are the one that broke that trust, when you cheated and lied about it. When you told me you pretended all of your feelings for me, it made me feel like our relationship was a sham, so fake, and a game to you. You just made me feel so stupid and like I didn’t know my own reality! Pretty much I forgave you the moment you walked out the door because that’s the type of person I am!! I know that I am far from perfect and I’ve made my share of mistakes too. (God PLEASE forgive me) I played my part in the relationship as well!! I was very very obsessed with you in an unhealthy way and that’s not love. I want you to have love as much as I want love too!! Sure, I believed at one point that I was giving you all my love and that you were giving me love too, 🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘😍😍😍 and it made me feel so good. 😊 You have NO idea how happy and excited I was because of it all! However, if you were just mirroring me, then really it was all my love that felt so good and you had no love at all to give me 😢 and that’s sad for you … if you haven’t figured it out by now, i’m the type of person that even while I’m hurting so much, I wanna kiss your scars and take away your pain. 💔❤️‍🩹 not sure when I stop being sad over you over all the pretending you did with me. I realize it was probably never love, it was probably lust for me and control for you. You probably just wanted to have power over me and so what? That’s not healthy! That’s not a good relationship and I would not allow you to be that way with me. if I had known then, that you just wanted to feed your ego, I would have tried to work with you. I tried to be a fair person with you, but I know that I have flaws. Everybody does. Understand that there is parts of my brain that doesn’t think you’re a very nice or respectable person anymore but there’s also the part of my brain that wonders if you’re OK mentally and if you’re happy and healthy. If I felt safe and comfortable, I would totally check up on you 🥰. I would never just leave you alone to suffer, at least not the way that you’ve left me alone to suffer… Andrew, I want so bad to just forgive you and forget, but forgetting has been too hard so far because I felt like I cared too much and I don’t know why I can’t explain it. I just cared about all the pretending you did and in my head maybe I also created a version of you that’s not real?! maybe I idolize that pretend version of you I’m not sure. 🤔 🥺 it’s possible but you need to know that with me, it was NEVER fake. I was looking at all your pictures of your “cows” and “farm” contemplating if I saw my future there with you… (I’m not a farm girl in the slightest!! lol) I was taking you into consideration with every plan or decision I was making. I held you so dear to my heart Drew and I realize I wasn’t in any of your plans. 💔 Help this all makes sense and let’s wash our hands clean of the mess we made Andrew 🙏🏻

[pagesfromthevoid]

Hi!!! I love/hate you (jk i could never hate you.) for the new chapters of false god and i have another song !!!! It's called Face by Brockhampton and i absolutely love it !!!

the song feels like healing. Like past the point of matt and reader admitting that they wanna be together again. It feels like reader giving in and wanting to heal from what happened between the both of them. Obviously Matt's own mistakes hurt him too. It was self inflicted, but it hurt nonetheless. I think Matt would have a hard time forgiving himself for how he hurt reader. Even while admitting that he wants them back, he knows he doesn't deserve it. Reader is ready to accept him back into their life, but Matt stands in his own way a lot of the times.

"Tell me what you're waiting for. I just wanna love ya. Tell me what you're waiting for. I just wanna hold ya. Tell me what you're waiting for. I just wanna love ya. Just wanna hold ya. Never would lie to you. Tell me what you're waiting for. What you waiting for?"

I feel like reader is creeping into his head here, trying to figure out what's holding him back from being with them again. What fears Matt has that he's keeping from them. Ones that he can't say aloud. if that makes sense 😭

"It feels like I can see the past in your eyes. I know the future has been passing you by."

Just taking a step out of Daredevil for a second to say i feel like Charlie Cox's acting is SO underrated when it comes to his eyes as Matt. How does someone portray being blind while also showing so much emotion in their eyes? It's insane to me. Anyway, Matt wears his emotions in his eyes. Reader knows that, sees it in his eyes all the time. I think that's a huge part of why Matt even wears glasses in the first place. Maybe Foggy offhandedly said something about always knowing how Matt feels because he wears them in his eyes. Now. Matt's forever convinced that everyone can tell what he's feeling so he has to keep his glasses on at all times. But since reader has been gone, time has gone so slow for him. Days are blending together and it's all the same, tiring, painful days.

"What's your motive with me baby, Cause I don't trust nobody lately. I twist and turn, moving just like a serpent. New times are coming just like a virgin"

I think it's safe to say that after all that's gone on between Matt and Reader, there are some definite trust issues on Readers part. I think being in the situation they've been in, it's hard to let yourself trust again after that. Under any circumstance. If Matt supposedly loved them when he did that, then what's stopping people who don't love them from doing the same or worse? Does that make sense? Anyway...

"I need a friend. And you need a home. I love when you come. I still feel alone. You make it warm in my bed. Butterflies in my head. Sun rise and it set. But you don't love me like you say you do. White lies hold the hidden truth. You keep leaving when I need you most. It's true what they say about love had and love lost. Here you are and now you're gone. I'm left alone in the same bed. I wake up in a cold sweat"

Matt and is trying to explain how badly it all hurt them. Although they love him, is it worth all the pain that he caused? He left them. in the hospital alone, and lied to them. I feel like they're trying to express how when it's good between them, it's so good. But when it's bad? It's so fucking bad. At least back then anyway.

"Please don't make me wait long. I just wanna be your main boy, your main, your main one. See, I don't want nobody but you. See, I don't want nobody but you. I spent the day by my lonesome. Who do you call when there's no one? No one ever did what you did for me and to me. My bed is cold and indented where you used to sleep. Tell me what you're waiting for, shit. Tell me what I'm here for."

Here is where Reader really comes clean with what they want. They wanna be with Matt, but not if they're gonna go back to the same bullshit. Especially the line, "no one ever did what you did for me and to me." I feel like Reader was truly in love with him and what he offered them, but no one hurt them as much as Matt did. It always hurts the worse when it's the person you love more.

The entirety of the song just feels like the long conversation, from Readers side, how everything hurt them and how they wanna move on from it all. I hope you like the song :) 💕💕

I love when you send me essays like this because I genuinely —from a teachers POV —adore your analysis. It’s so creative and well thought out. And also it’s really does my ego in that you’re doing this with my story oh my god