#but personally my intrusive thoughts actually kinda go away when im high

[t4t-apexeclipse]

which two sides would have the best time getting high together

and alternatively… which two sides would have the worst time getting high

[vanityloves]

Storm and ivy + medic

@septemberlove i have. no excuse for how late these are but uh. thank you for sending these in 💕.

[word count: 1.8k+ with the longest 'authors note' bc im mentally ill]

sfw, mmm comfy cozy, general sick hcs,

storm - what are cozy days in with your f/o like?

Whenever I think of cozy days, my brain immediately goes to rainy/chilly weather where we can cuddle up together and my brain short fuses. I'm gonna assume this is just like a day off or something though!

How I visual them together vs how I write them is odd because they technically don't act or accept they're 'together' until after the comics but I always write them like they're in a Steady Relationship while on base. I'm always writing a slight AU if you will. Or maybe it's after they get their jobs back at Mann co - I should highkey adjust that but No ♥️. No more thinking, just content based off my idealized universe.

There's definitely a point in their relationship where it's like 'I think I have to put in a little more work here'. I'm not saying either party is slacking but they're slacking ♥️. Neither of them really take action. Chef doesn't blame him or really complain about it because that's their nature, plus they don't know how romantic relationships really work or flow, especially with a person like him. Medic doesn't see an issue with anything and continues on with his normal business. 

What I mean by slacking is, there's not a lot of quality time being spent together which would be fine if it wasn't both of their strongest Love Languages, which could help them strengthen their relationship. It's odd because they're 'romantically involved' but they don't spend a lot of time together for either of them to consider it romantic, simply because it's on company time. 

ANYWAYS THATS JUST ME BEING CONVOLUTED. FEEL FREE TO JUST IGNORE ALL OF THIS.

Medic goes to bed pretty late and wakes up at a fairly early hour. Chef is a late sleeper and forced to be an early riser because their Actual Job is to make at least 2 or 3 meals a day (if they want something else, they're on their own but hate when anyone messes up the kitchen and will honestly, stand there and watch said person).

There's minimal time they can spend together if they want to do their own activities - for Medic, it's tinkering around with organs or in Engie's garage, for Chef, they're typically meal prepping or trying to tend to an animal or plant of some sort.

Medic is actually more direct about wanting attention and it's never been a problem because he's cautious about it. Chef is more emotionally inclined and willing to drop hints that they want more attention. 

Chef probably has one day off where it's a complete free for all, for the rest of the team, which would be the perfect time to spend with Medic - If he wanted to stop working, that is. Just don't picture it but, Chef will literally sit in the medbay for hours just to be near the guy, but it isn't bad? The drone of machinery or the scratching of his pen is relaxing, or having his doves nearby is always sweet! Plus, he's prone to talking their ear off when he finds something interesting, so they'll chime in and have some back and forth.

But, yknow - sometimes having someone's undivided attention is nice and Chef is pretty dense when it comes to that and wonders why they feel so upset.

They swallow their pride and ask Medic if they sleep in his room one night and Medic's not as dense as Chef, he understands that they'd never ask for something so out of the blue for no reason and he promises to finish up his work early so they could head to bed together. Chef had nothing planned, they literally just needed that affection and closeness - since it was their day off Medic takes the hint and puts his work aside for the time being.

They'd probably sleep in and stay in bed a while longer before getting ready together - no uniform required. Chef isn't so talkative in the mornings, Medic's noticed, but they were happily fiddling with his buttons and tie, humming in thought before answering his questions. Medic's seen them out of uniform of course, but it's always funny seeing them in just a button up and jeans like … mom on the go vibes. Medic leaves his coat behind before making his way to the kitchen with Chef. 

The kitchen usually has a couple people loitering around, grabbing their coffee or honestly, waiting around for Chef because they always make extra and these bitches are lazy. But the kitchen has now become A Medic Supremacy Zone and he has first dibs - the benefits of being w/ Chef I guess. The two would work as if the others weren't there, keeping their conversation between each other even if that means Medic tilting his head down while Chef leans in closer to reply. There's a high possibility the other have left them to their own devices, seeing as the couple was ignoring them / knows they won't be getting anything. Breakfast isn't extraordinary but it feels special since they actually get to sit across each other and share the morning today.

It's possible that they'd go out and run some errands today, but it's a cover to window shop and walk around. I'll be honest, they probably haven't had proper dates so it's refreshing. You could ask Chef what they liked the most and they're just like :] Yes. 

Other times, they like to curl up and catch up with some reading (well, Medic at least) while Chef rests against him and skim over the words. They're not too invested in what he's reading but likes to have some idea of what he's talking about so they don't ask too many questions. (Very 'these words are big and english/german is not my first language + I can't read as fast as you can so I got lost 7 pages ago). Medic likes to watch Chef garden and tries to help them tend to whatever they're able to grow in the goddamn desert. He overwaters a cactus and looks away if it dies. Chef talks ab how they're growing mint and how it really took off while Medic's standing there like :] Oh, lets make tea with that. Because they're Old People (read: Medic is old)

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ivy - how do you take care of each other when you’re sick?

Chef is easier to take care of when they're sick. They continue working until they're pretty beat but once they feel sick and a break doesn't work, they'll try to finish up what they can before turning in early. They see themselves to bed and inform whoever's near that they won't ne there at dinner and if they really cant figure it out, then come get them - other than that, they're barricading themselves in their room.

When they're sick they're REALLY sick but recovery time is usually a few days (depending on how bad it is). They basically hibernate and don't like being disturbed. They're used to not fending for themselves since they've been on their own for a while but really appreciate all the check ins Medic does w/ them, especially when they're all better. 

Medic, being...their Medic, he definitely gives them a check up when they first begin showing symptoms and he can be a stickler when it comes to drinking fluids and eating properly. Chef usually has a  finicky stomach as it is so Medic really urges them to drink soups and easy foods like bread and crackers. He checks in on them A LOT, even if that's just peeking in to see if they're asleep or not. He backs off when Chef gives him a cold stare from under the covers and minimizes his intrusions/tries to be more sneaky about it. He has colder hands and they let out a sigh when he puts his hand to their cheek or forehead to check their temperature. 

Chef doesn't hesitate to take any medication he has for them, mostly bc they aren't fully coherent but they also don't have energy to care, in fact they have the thought that if he accidentally kills them, maybe respawn will cure them. Unfortunately, Medic debunks this before they can even muster up the energy to ask.

Overall 7.5/10, very good patient. Will refuse to get up and accidently falls asleep in the shower which scares the shit out of him.

Medic on the other hand is very stubborn and doesn't like to stop working unless there's something that physically stops him (ex: vomiting, serious injuries [unlikely bc medigun], etc). If he tricked the Devil, surely the man can beat the common cold or flu! Unfortunately he gets those full body shivers and feels terrible. He can be pretty dramatic when he's sick and everyone's subjected to his bad attitude. 

It's Chefs turn to play doctor - they can tell by looks alone that he's under the weather. His face is flushed and he's a bit sloppily put together, which isn't *too uncommon* but his tie isn't tied and his glasses lamely slide down his nose. They tsk a bit while taking his temperature just to keep track of it before ushering him to his room.

He can be dragged to bed if persistent enough. Chef's firm hold on his arm is enough for him to get off his chair and have them tug him along. He doesn't have any room to argue with them as they look up at him, so he relents, stating that a short break would definitely do him good, but he'll be up and at em by tomorrow. 

Chef is doting and becomes a bit of a helicopter parent when checking on him. This mostly consists of peeking their head in but not really stepping in the room. Every so often they'll wake him up to drink water and either hand him an ice pack or offer a cold towel and move to dab at his forehead and neck.

Medic hasn't been too keen on having others taking care of him bc that's HIS job, and he often tries to shoo Chef away by saying he's more than alright now. Sometimes he's caught sitting up in bed doing work or taking notes on something bc he's a bit restless when he's sick and stationary for too long.

But he's right. He's very good at taking care of himself - when Chef offers him food he'll force himself to eat some of it and he's drinks plenty of fluids without needing reminders. He kinda bosses Chef around, telling them to grab certain medications from the Medbay. They trust his judgment on his own health and bring him what he asks for but Chef keeps a mental note of what he takes and when. Don't need the doctor accidentally taking too many pills today!

Overall 6.5/10. It's hard to get him into bed and becomes restless fairly easily. He is persistent that he's ok after one day of rest only to be found sneezing himself away in the Medbay. 

[eldritchsurveys]

122.

1. Who was the last person you went to a café with? What did you and the other person order? >> I don’t remember the last time I went to a café, specifically...

2. What is your ideal atmosphere at a café? >> I like the dimly-lit places with comfortable seating. The ones that are obviously tailored to people who want to pass away some leisure time at a public location instead of just sitting at home.

3. What do you normally do while waiting for your food or drink to arrive? >> I mean, that depends on where I am and how long the food/drink is going to take.

4. Describe one of your most emotional farewells. >> All I can think of is leaving NOLA. I love going there, but dear god I hate the leaving.

5. How have your tastebuds changed since you were a child? >> To be honest, I don’t think my tastes have changed at all -- I’ve always liked things with strong and complex flavours, and I still have samefoods (just different ones).

6. Did you find it difficult to learn how to drive? If you do not know how to drive, would you ever like to learn? >> I would love to fully learn how to drive. The one time I got to try recently wasn’t as hard as I expected, and it felt really good to finally do it. But I still need to like... practice and refine, you know.

7. What is your opinion of music from the 1960s? What is your favourite song from this decade, if you have one? >> I like some of it. I’m not sure what my favourite would be, mostly because I don’t remember what songs came out in which year or anything.

8. If you could live near a body of water, where would you live and why? >> An ocean. Just... an ocean. Because I like it. But the Mississippi River will also do.

9. Think of someone you care about. What do they smell like? >> A bunch of fuckin Aveda products and shit. IDK LMAO

10. What are some personality and/or physical traits that you find attractive that other people would find plain or boring? >> I don’t know? I don’t think about it like that, I just like what I like.

11. Do you own plants? If so, what kind of plants? If not, would you like to grow any? >> I... lmao. We have three plants -- a Boston fern, an aloe, and a mint -- but we... are notoriously bad at plantkeeping. I forget to water them because I haven’t made a routine out of it so it doesn’t stick in my head, and Sparrow forgets because she has ADHD. So they’re always in some state of high disrepair, lmfao.

12. What was your last serious conversation about? >> I don’t know. 

13. Is there any sort of closure that you are looking for? If not, when was the last time you felt unsettled? >> I did feel kind of unsettled (or maybe nettled, which is a more appropriate word that rhymes with it!) when I got that IM yesterday. Because... like, at this point, I’m really not sure what he still wants. Obviously not a friendship with me, because friends just don’t treat each other the way he treated me -- mental illness or no. If anyone else did that to me, I’d fucking lambast them all over this website lmao... but I gave him leeway and more just because... love??? Yeah, maybe I need to be reminded that it isn’t love anymore when it just becomes about putting up with someone’s toxic behaviour at the expense of your own health and happiness. I’m not a saint, I’m a person who doesn’t want to suffer for the sake of friendship, just like everyone else on this damn planet. What’s wild is.... does he do this to his other friends, or is it just me?! Either way it’s fucked up, but if it’s just me, that’s... really fucked up, dammit.

14. Do you feel that you have expressions that are hard to decipher? Why/Why not? >> Probably. I don’t know. I think that what happens is my face does a lot of random shit, and if people are trying to use those random expressions as insight into how I’m feeling or thinking, they’re liable to think I’m feeling or thinking something a lot stronger than I actually am. I just have a strangely active face, lmao.

15. Are there any thoughts that you feel that you are terrible at putting into words? If so, what? >> Most of them, lmao.

16. Is there a city that you have a particular fondness for? If so, what city is it and why? >> New Orleans, absolutely, forever. I don’t know. I’m in love with her, I want to always be with her, I can’t ever get bored of her. She frightens me but it’s not repellent. She’s everything I’ve ever wanted from a city. I’m willing to brave her riotous and often deadly climate just to be near her. It’s intense.

17. How comfortable do you feel couch-surfing or going to a hostel? Would you rather stay in a hotel? >> Incidentally, I couch-surfed the first time I went to New Orleans. It went fine. I actually prefer Airbnb over hotels, and despite the havoc its been wreaking in the form of gentrification and other socioeconomic side effects, I’m still glad it exists. I just wish people wouldn’t use it to be dicks, but I guess that goes for anything in this world.

18. What do you feel is your biggest personality flaw? >> I think the thing about me that’s the least pleasant is that I’m emotionally reserved and stunted to the point of dysfunction. Knowing why hasn’t helped me get any better at it, so I try to make up for it in other ways. For some people that works fine, but for others it prevents them from knowing how to deal with me.

19. What are some intrusive thoughts that you have had? Have you ever played them out in your head, or even acted upon them? >> The general stuff, like “I should jump off this roof” or “I should jump into traffic” or “I should push that person in front of the train to see what happens”, you know. Sometimes I play them out in my head, especially the ones that involve causing grievous harm to myself, because then I go “oh god I don’t actually want that, wtf” which solves the problem.

20. How would you describe what it’s like in your mind? >> Well, it’s connected to a paracosm, so it’s pretty vast and weird in there. I don’t really know how to explain my mind without explaining Xibalba, and I’m gonna need a lot more time for all that, so.

21. What is your favourite brand of beer, if you have one? If not, what is a brand of any sort of drink that you like? >> Hmm... Founders, I suppose, or Abita. But I say Abita... when really I just like Purple Haze and the strawberry lager, because most Abita beers kinda just taste bleh to me. But, you know... my New Orleans problem, it gets in the way of everything.

22. Has a dream that you thought was impossible come true? If so, what? If not, do you think that it is likely to? >> Yeah, I didn’t think I’d be living in an apartment that I co-rent with a fiancée, but you know, strange things happen in this life, and it’s not always terrible strange things.

23. When was the last time you felt at peace? >> Right now. There are many moments of just... chill, that happen from day to day. Sometimes my mind takes that as opportunity to obsess about something or remind me of my own mortality or some nonsense like that, but sometimes it’s just... chill.