#but pair all of that with the enlarged pores from picking/ dermo and the lack of eyelashes i try to keep a healthy distance from the mirror | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

the-grays-of-ink · 2 years ago

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I think I can finally handle the dentist this week, but only bc I’m scared something is wrong with my teeth. I’m breaking out again but my cream from the demonologies expired and I’m too embarrassed to admit that I can’t wash my face twice a day. Maybe it’s my diet that’s making me break out, but I just can’t deal with the minor inconvenience of putting on the stuff, smelling the chemicals for ten min. I feel so lame. At least now I know that it isn’t my fault, when I was younger I carried immense guilt about struggling with hygiene, at least I can shower now.

I feel so gross

#I have brushed my teeth four days in a row now! win!#and I’ve been going out and having some more energy which is good #but pair all of that with the enlarged pores from picking/ dermo and the lack of eyelashes i try to keep a healthy distance from the mirror #I rarely look and without my glasses it doesn’t matter if I look anyway #but up close? ew #I’m not particularly unclean #just badly kept #my hair is getting permanat waves where my headbands go bc I can’t have my hair in my face #I got some earrings but getting close to the mirror to put them on makes me want to crawl back in bed #and something in me makes me feel like if I wash and put lotion on my face it’ll ‘lock in oil’ or whatever and make my face more of a gross #mess #idk if that’s true but I can’t shake it #my hands are ugly too rn they’re so dry and cracking #mental illness on main #I do feel like I’m getting better in some areas #it’s just stressful #vent

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