#but other than that I usually am sewing almost every day and knitting or crocheting at least once a week or so

[tj-crochets]

Are commissions open? What would you be interested in commissions of? I love the crotchet pieces, the stuffed animals, and the quilts (off the top of my head) and I’m interested in understanding what you’re interested in working on.

Hi! Commissions are always vaguely open, in that if you message me and request a commission I'm willing to talk about it, but these days I accept fewer commissions than I used to (I have a full time job now, so less crafting time available) I sometimes accept crochet commissions, usually for smaller things, more frequently accept sewn stuffed animal commissions, and so far I don't accept quilting commissions. If you're interested in commissioning a quilt, I highly recommend @anotherdayforchaosfay! Chaosfay is a phenomenal quilter who has been quilting for far longer than I have This time of year, I'm working on my MTH auction fills and holiday crafting for friends and family, so unless the thing you want to commission is a fairly quick and simple project, I am probably not going to be able to accept the commission for a few months

[wsjeonghwa]

what’s POPPIN i’m demi (pst, she/they) and this is kim jeonghwa, problem child, wildcard, and the human embodiment of the cherry emoji. she’s the visual and sub-vocal of etoile, apparently the leader too, but jeonghwa never got the message. you can read more about her in her bio, profile, and career pages, or for the visual learners, pinterest. if you’d like to plot, feel free to hit up my ims or leave a like here! i’ll leave a tldr under the cut about her

personality

her mbti being enfp says so much about her tbh

she loves meeting new people, hanging out with friends, having a large circle of friends. she’ll be just as happy to hold a stranger’s hair back late at a party and never speak to them again as she is to go on a road trip with a decade old friend

empathetic, can be a good shoulder to cry on. she’s the type to listen to you cry, then say let’s get some ice cream, some shots, and go throw ass at a club to feel better

and she loves anything new. routine bores her, so she’s always trying to think up ways to make the things that feel tedious more interesting

libra who says she doesn’t like confrontation, but can be quite fiery

she can be set off over a tiny thing like a flip of a switch with no discernible reason, but usually feels quite bad when that Does happen, because her anger can be ruthless. she’ll drag up ur trauma n flick it in ur face

BUT save for those unpredictable moments, she puts up with a lot of bullshit from people, probably more than she should. tends to only have issues with people when they have one with her first

very passionate, adventurous, impulsive, hedonistic, wants to live her life to the fullest every day

usually quite easy to get along with if you don’t mind her seemingly boundless energy

background

she’s the middle child who was treated like the spoiled youngest

has a shite immune system, so her parents have worried over her a lot since birth n coddled her as well as tried to shelter her

until she was 15 she played the perfect daughter role, worked rly hard to succeed in school bc it’s Not natural to her, kept her thoughts to herself, all that

then decided suddenly she didn’t wanna live to the decisions of others

started figuring out what made her happy. tried out loads of different hobbies, focused on friends more than school

career

when she was scouted at 17 it was an easy decision bc she’d also developed an interest in music and performance in the last two years

almost as soon as she joined they tossed her into crescent’s “this is war” mv

when she graduated hs her parents wanted her to stop training, they got into a fight, they cut her off financially

jeonghwa got a job as a barista for a hot minute but when yuseong offered her a cf job she was like wait i’m around a bunch of ppl w money all the time why am i not using this to my own gain

so she quit n just bat her eyelashes for staff to pay for her meals until her parents gave up and let her use their money again

debuted 99% because of her charisma, which works great for her. she’s got the puthy parts of the songs xx

since then, her solo schedules have focused a lot on modelling and variety to capitalize off of her charm that’s snagged her a couple of viral moments as well

plots

jeonghwa loves knowing a variety of people, but gets on best with those similar to her

anyone who loves a good thrill, willing to jet off to an amusement park with an hour’s notice, try out a new class with her, go clubbing, anything like that

alternatively, people that could use a bit of a push to get out of their shell, jeonghwa is Great for that

connections based on hobbies could be great too. almost anything you can think of, jeonghwa participates in sometimes. painting, knitting, crocheting, sewing, quilting, pottery, photography, hiking, rock climbing, thrill seeking, geocaching, glassblowing, anything active and productive. maybe they meet during a class, or because jeonghwa saw a creation of theirs and liked it/disliked it, or vice versa

still loves being spoiled, so anyone who will pay for things for her would get a little star in her eyes (the laff is she likes spending her money on others too)

someone who is well trained in music production,, jeonghwa wants to write, but yuseong is yuseong and she knows next to nothing, so she could use a helping hand

alternatively someone to tell her she’s a shit songwriter lol

she’s free love type, so hook ups. casual, hate hook ups, between friends, between exes, whatever

Or, people she’s dated where she kinda,, kept them on the hook? she’s terrible in some relationships in that she’ll treat them like they’re dating, be super romantic with them, but when it comes to defining the relationship, she skirts around it, and ends up ghosting/cheating

someone she’s hurt with one of her out of place verbal smackdowns

and for one career focused one, someone (or a few people) she gets shipped with a lot

[horriblyunprepared]

I’m not sure how useful this will be, but I’m going to share my recovery experiences here as I go along. Potential trigger warning because I will be mentioning my weight in very general terms as well as talking about food and some negative thoughts that I’ve had. Here we go!!

I can definitely say that I feel better lately, but my situation is still very precarious. Back in February and March, I had felt very anxious and stuck because I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to recover or not. Now, I know that I want to recover, and I’ve made some great strides and gained a bit of weight—however, since the Stay at Home orders have been in place, I’ve been a bit more preoccupied with food than I’d like. I’ve been exercising pretty vigorously almost everyday and I’ve been cooking, looking at recipes, and learning about dietetics. It feels very precarious because, while none of this extra focus has made me feel bad lately, it feels like this could very easily slip into dangerous territory.

This is a really big struggle for me because I have found that I really enjoy health and nutrition science, I like cooking healthy foods and trying new things. I’ve been enjoying my daily vigorous exercise, and—since I’ve been stuck at home doing nothing—when I don’t exercise I don’t feel hungry and I don’t get tired enough to sleep well. It’s such a fine line between being healthy/health conscious and exhibiting disorderly behaviour. Especially when the external world is so stressful, like now with the stress of the COVID-19 pandemic, social isolation—or in my case being stuck with the most stressful part of my family.

Other than the difficulty of striking a good balance and keeping disorderly thoughts at bay, I feel physically wonderful! I can run a mile now without having to stop or feeling terrible and exhausted, it actually feels good to run now and I enjoy it. Gaining weight has had some odd side effects, mostly good or neutral ones, so all in all I feel pretty good. I’ve had enough energy to be interested in trying new things like cooking, sewing, dancing, crochet (you’d think it would be easier since I knit so much)....

I do worry quite a bit, though. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I hate that my stomach isn’t completely flat anymore. I had a nightmare in which I was average sized, my thighs touched, my arms were rounded instead of being straight—and I woke up from this nightmare really upset and shaken even though, like what the heck?? I didn’t even look bad, and I wasn’t even anywhere close to being fat, I was just in an average, fairly slim body! The very kind of body that I find so beautiful on other women. It’s silly that I dislike my body because I am bony, angular, and quite androgynous looking, I really like a more round, feminine look, but I also can’t bear the thought of having a rounder, more feminine body.

I also worry because, with my family the way it is, we’ve been eating every meal together, and my father insists on this. The problem with that is that we have to be on my father’s eating schedule...and he usually only eats once or twice a day. So we end up having a very late “breakfast” around 2pm, and then we don’t eat dinner until 7pm. It stresses me out a lot because I know that I won’t get enough food that way, it makes me really hangry and having snacks just isn’t enough. I’m trying to eat intuitively, but my family makes that very difficult. I also tend to be restrictive with my eating when my family is around because they are so stressful to be around and I feel out of control.

04/11/2020