#but not ten bucks a month for shit o dont want

[ineffableigh]

Well my Tumblr subscription just lapsed since I canceled it when they announced the price hike. Already got 3 Mistplay ads. Time to uninstall the app.

[sapphicomenn]

WELCOME TO MY THOUGHTS WHILE REWATCHING THE MCU IN TIMELINE ORDER: THE AVENGERS

“the tesseract has awakened” oh you mean the glowy cube from captain america AND captain marvel? THAT glowly cube?? cool looking stairs- ew who tf are you? the grim reaper??

what the fuck is a chitauri and why does it sound like sea food. “a world will be his. the universe, yours.” STOP BLAMING THE PRONOUN GAME AND GIVE ME NAMES FFS

ooo shield base. “not a drill.” oh shits going down- COULSON. FUURRRYYY FUCK YEAH. the best marvel characters are here the movie has peaked- oldman from thor is here?? intoresting. and who the hell is this woman tryna question fury??

the glowy cube is a shE???????? HUH??????? oh hey its hawkeye the badass archer guy. oh shit things are going down. the cube is sparking and swirling??- IT OPENED A PORTAL

LOKKIII YOU BEAUTIFUL BASTARD WELCOME BACK. HE HAS A SHOOTY MAGIC SPEAR LIKE A BADASS. he just took out a bunch or shield with a shooty spe- OHMYGODS HE CAN CONTROL MINDS WITH IT.

“loki. brother of thor.” OLDMAN STFU

GUNS GO PEW PEW ALONG SIDE A GOOD OLD CAR CHASE SKSHSKKSHS. RUN FURY RUNNN. the portal imploded on itself like a moron hA

WHO TF NAMES THEIR CHILD “HILL” WTF. “we are at war.” NO SHIT SHERLOCK A NORSE GOD STOLE THE CUBE YOU WERE SUPPOST TO PROTECT

tis a train and a old building- NATASHA. how tf were you taken hostage? im so glad i have subtitles on otherwise i wouldnt understand a thing these ppl are saying. HOW TF IS SHE KICKING ASS WHILE TIED TO A CHAIR WHAT IN THE HELL-

oh his leg deff broke once he fell off the ledge tied to a chain. cut to a lil gorl running to find a doctor- who tf this is of course. THIS GUY IS BANNER??? i mean im glad they changed the actor but wtf. “theres no one that knows gamma radiation like you do.” YA DONT SAY, ROMANOFF. “STOP LYING TO ME” JESUS FUCK THAT MADE ME JUMP

oh damn shield has their own O5 council? cool. EXPLAIN WHAT PHASE2 IS ALREADY. also dont say thor is bad he is a giant puppy dog with a war-boner.

oh hi steve, working off that PTSD by beating the shit out of a punching bag ay? oh right steve knows the glowy cube. “at this point i doubt anything would surprise me.” “ten bucks says you’re wrong” welp ya owe him ten bucks steve

“is there anything you can tell us about the tesseract to help us now?” “you should’ve left it in the ocean.” WELL THAT HELPS ALOT DOESNT IT. hello there iron man, at the bottom of the ocean.? sure why the hell not

aye stark tower’s about to have clean energy, yay stark! “stark tower, is your baby.” how do you give birth to a tower.???????? KSHSJSHSKSJS COULSON BROKE INTO THE TOWER “is first name is agent.” TONY SKSHKSSHKSVSKSHSKS

*whisper whisper whisper* yeah she bribed tony with sex so he’d work on the avengers and stuff. “the guys like a stephen hawking.” “. . .” “hes like a smart person”

awh coulson is fangirling over steve- watched you while you were sleepin- man you’re awkward. you adorable dumbass. ohshit underground musky lab- OLDMAN AND LOKI

the world is breaking around loki. sea food army is restless- shut the fuck up you stupid looking eye wrapped bastard. WHO THE HELL IS THIS HE?????? welcome back to earth you smexy man

FLOATING WATER BASE

back to avenger tingz. man coulson is the biggest cap fan- oh its a giant sub- NO ITS A GIANT FLYING BASE HOLYSHIT SHIELD THATS AMAZING.

now we go into the meetings and talking related stuff :I yey. “lets vanish” wdym- IT HAD A CLOAKING DEVICE. HA STEVE JUST GAVE THE TEN HE OWED SKSHSKHSKSJS

i dont understand a word of all the science stuff they just said but yay. “i need a distraction. and an eyeball” barton what the fuck why do you need an eye.?

oh lokis in germany, at a very fancy party might i add. loki is best boy ever. even if he just bonked a the head/ OHMYGOD AND STOLE HIS FUCKING EYE JESUS CHRIST INFRONT OF ALL THOSE PEOPLE.??????

“i said. KNEEEEL” dont need to tell me twice-

blagh villain speeches are the worst. why tf did this old guy stand up “not to men like you.” shut up. SHOOT HIM- wtf. steve what the hell are you wearing? what the fuck is that- aye tonnnyyy!!!! he hacked into the jet thingy and started playing music from the speaker thats the best.

CAPSICLE SKSHSKSHKSHSKSJ- ohfuck thunder. THOR WELCOME TO THE PARTY. “im not overly fond of what follows” WKVSKSBSKSHSJS

HE JUST BROKE INTO THE JET AND STOLE LOKI FROM EM. “theres only one god ma’am. and im sure he doesnt dress like that.” cap stfu

“i thought you were dead.” “did you mourn.” damn loki thats harsh. thor is angy at his brother. “you listen well brot-ARGH” “..im listening?” STARK YOU CHOSE THAT MOMENT TO BODY SLAM THOR OFF THAT CLIFF AND LEAVE LOKI BEHIND? REALLY?

“.. tourist.” FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT KICK HIS ASS, THOR. DONT KILL HIM WITH LIGHTNING THO

if someone throwed me against a tree i wouldnt be walking. im just saying

“THATS ENOUGH.” cap did you think that would work?? and how the hell did your dinner plate stop the power of thor

loki do be in jail tho. how’s this gonna go wrong- oh he smiled at banner. THATS how it goes wrong

tell him off fury! “you have made me very disapoin-“ OH NVM HE SAYS DESPERATE IGNORE THIS

“uNlimiteD pOoWeRRRRR”

“let me know if real power wants a magazine or something.” good comeback fury. i think

“loki is beyond reason, but he is of asgard. and he is my brother” “he killed 80 people in two days.” “he’s adopted.” KSBSKSJSJSJSK

“that man is playing galaga. he thought we wouldnt notice, but we did.” TONYKANSKSHKSJSKSJ tony is a fucking legend. “finally someone who speaks english!” “is that what just happened?” steve stfu you’re a fighty man not a smart man

“i do! . . . i understood that reference.” steve nvm keep talking please. PLEASE THE MAN IS STILL PLAYING GALAGA SOSJSKSJSJKS

why is tony eating blueberrys- where the hell did he get blueberrys. “we have orders. we should start following them.” steve you tried to get into the army under fake locations for months AND broke into a german base when you were a showpony. stfu about following rules

“so you’re saying the hulk.. the other guy? saved me” yes. yes we are saying that, banner. aye steve go break into shit like you’re suppost to :D

oh hi again oldman, welcome back. yay shield saved padme, and awh oldman talked about thor alot. thor i love you alot. loki just tell nat where tf you left barton :/ oh barton was sent to KILL nat?? not hire her?? well that went downhill. whomst the hell is dreykov- sao paulo- the hospital fire???? hawkeye wtf why’d you spill it all to loki.

mewley quim wtf kind of insult is that- oh damn nat figured out the hulk is lokis next plan of attack. PHASE TWO IS TO USE THE GLOWY CUBE TO MAKE FUCKING WEAPONS? SHIELD WHAT THE HELL

HA FURY TRIED TO LIE IS WAY OUTTA IT BUT BC STARK HACKED INTO IT ALL HE JUST EXPOSED HIMSKHSKSJSKS

WAIT THEY WERE MADE FOR THOR AND ASGARDIANS? WHAT THE FUCK SHIELD- oh damn lokis staff is the reason they’re all at eachother. probably

“yeah. big man in a suit of armor. take that off what are you?.” “genius, billionaire, playboy, philanthropist.” well you’re not wrong

guys stop fighting, HAWKEYE IS BREAKING IN. “in case you needed to kill me. but you cant. i know, i tried.” awh thats sad, i wanna hug banner so bad :(

OHSHIT AN ENTIRE WING GOT BLOWN UP THE FLYING BASE IS GOING DOWN- HULKS COMING OUT THATS NOT GOOD. the transforming is scary- RUN NAT

loki stop smiling because the plan is going your way. “it seems to run on some form of electricity.” “well you’re not wrong” tony stop being funny this isnt fair

HULK JUMPSCARE JESUS CHRIST- NAT GOT BITCHSLAPPED THROUGH A WALL- YAY THOR TO SAVE THE DAY. HAMMER TIME BABYY

*B O N K*

hulk trying to pick the hammer up is funny. BRIDGE IS UNDER ATTACK. DO YOU THINK SHOOTING HULK IS A GOOD IDEA??? HE JUST TOOK OUT FIGHTER JET AND ALMOST KILLED THE GUY FLYING IT

CAP IS KICKING ASS- OH GOD NO THE ENGINES ARE FAILING. OHGOD LOKI IS OUT- THOR YOU DUMBFUCK DID YOU FORGET LOKI CAN DO MAGIC SHIT? NOW YOU’RE STUCK IN THE GLASS CONTAINER

COULSON SAVE THOR! SHOOT LOKI DAMNIT- COULSON NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

glass cage go brrrrr

HA LOKI GOT FUCKIN SHOT BY COULSON BEFORE HE DIES( :( ) tony almost got minced by the engine thingys

im gonna cry coulson how dare your death make me sad :(( stupid heart breaking aftermath moments.

thor is stuck in a field, banner fell through the roof of a building. awh the security guard is so nice :) barton is a fucking mess right now “how’d you get him out?” “i hit you on the head really hard.” KSJSKKSSK

tony figured out lokis plan- ITS TAKING PLACE AT HIS TOWER? THE AVENGERS IS TAKING ACTION BABY LETS GOOOO

wait a fucking moment, the cards coulson has are covered in blood. so you’d think they were on him when he was stabbed- yet hill just said they were in his locker “they needed the push.” FURY YOU RUINED NEAR MINT VINTAGE COLLECTABLE CARDS TO MOTIVATE SUPER FREAKS???

o hi loki welcome to stark tower

“stalling wont change-“ “no no, threatening. no drink? ya sure? im having one.”

“i have an army.” “we have a hulk.” HE SAID IT, HE SAID THE LINE

HA LOKI CANT TAKE STARKS MIND BC HIS HEART IS SOME TECHY METAL CRAPKSJSKSJSKS- i guess choking and tossing him around works. so does throwing hik out a window

oh no the glowy cube just opened a portal for the army of seafood. they look like creatures from halo.

BROTHER FIGHT

CHAOS EVERYWHERE

PLANE DOWN PLANE DOWN

what the fuck just growled- HOLYSHIT THEY HAVE A SPACE LEVIATHAN. it looks badass ngl. loki redemption arc? nope he just stabbed thor.

SPACE BIKE GO BRRRRR

yes because arrows and guns will stop the, alien monsters with lazer arms. some how its working. “just like budapest all over again.” “you and i remember budapest very differently.” WTF HAPPENED AT BUDAPEST BARTON AND NAt, HUH?

cap just scared the shit outta some police men HAHA

“i have unfinished business with loki.” “yeah? get in line” barton is snarky right now. banner just rides up on a motercycle like “hi what i’d miss”

“im bringing the party to you.” stark says while being chased by a giant metal space whale who’s crashing and crushing everything in its path along a street

“thats my secret cap. im always angry.” FUCK YEAH BANNER MESS THAT SPACE WHALE UP. HE JUST PUNCHED A GIANT FUCKING WHALE THING.

the music, the avengers circling around. its amazing. well things are gonna get worse bc more space whales showed up

“and hulk. . . smash.”

LIGHT THEM FUCKERS UP, THOR. shield maybe instead of watching, maybe, oh i dont know. HELP THEM???

i dont know what else to say other then its alot of fighting and smashing alien faces into the ground

hulk and thor kicking ass on the back of a space whale is awesome. HULK WHY DID YOU PUNCH HIMSJSOSHSKJSKSJSKSKSKSK

i fuxking love when steve turtle shells behind his shield.

“director fury. the council has made a decision.” “i recognize the council has made a decision. but given its a stupid-ass decision, i have elected to ignore it.” fury never stop being awesome

loki thought he was so smug when he caught bartons arrow, then it blew up in his face. literally IKSKSKSKSKS

HULK FUCK LOKI UP! JSHSKSGKSHSJSHSJSJ HE JUST TOSSED LOKI AROUND LIKE A RAGDOLL “puny god.” “*pained wheezing from a smooshed loki*”

oh damn- OH DAMN, STARK. he just jonahed the fucking whale thing and blew it up from the inside. well now the city has a nuke coming for it :/

yall have a chance to shut the portal down, and tony, you want to go INTO that portal and throw the nuke in? wtf stark.

TONY GO BACK TO EARTH DAMNIT FUCKING BASTARD PASSED OUT. yay hulk saved his stupid ass. do cpr.? mayb.? or a hulk roar will wake him up KEJSKJSKSSKJS

tony. you just blew up a alien command center with a nuke, passed out and fell to earth through a portal. and you want, shawarma?

and now back to loki. “if its all the same to you, i’d like that drink now.” ISHSKSJSJSJSKSJSJ

STAN LEEE

the people love em. yey

council lady stfu about the avengers being a threat. they just said the earth and you’re worried about them going rouge??

“if we get into a situation like this again, what happens then?” “they’ll come back.” i mean theres three more avenger movies so i assume so. remodaling stark towers so its the avenger tower? neat!

NEXT MOVIE: IRON MAN 3

*MID CREDIT SCENE* oh hi again mr no eyes. do we get to see this HE? OH WE DO. o hi mr 10 chins

once again ignore the misspells it was three AM when i finally finished this and im just now rereading it

[clown-bait]

Monster Family (Monster Roommate AU) CH5

Getting this part moving along before IT CH2 comes out. Leech is not a happy camper right now and Pennywise is in huge trouble. Protip: Don’t let the clown drink.

Pennywise stumbled back and howled in pain as leech stomped forward grabbing the other woman with a horrible shriek that could shatter glass. “Get you face off my clown bitch!” she hissed rearing a clawed hand behind her in striking position. The woman in question threw a pouch that burst into black smoke against the vampires face and trotted off leaving the couple to sort out the mistake.

"Who hit me?!" The eldritch snarled and swayed.

"I did you idiot!"

The clown groaned "Too many Peachies foul poison playing tricks."

"There's just one of me here jackass." The vampire spat and grabbed her mate by the ruff causing him to stumble.

"Hey Fangs when you get a minute we have good news and bad news!" Freddy called out to his friends and the vampires skeletal face hissed at him in warning.

"Oopssss?" The eldritch choked out trying to smile despite the claws now digging into his neck ruff.

"Yeah fucking oops! This is a big fuckin oops Pen!"

"L-love y-you?"

Leech's eye twitched before releasing him. The clown was still very cross faded and beating the deadlights out of him wouldn't really accomplish much at this point.

"I'm not happy." She huffed as she dragged him to a booth and away from the staring eyes of her fellow fiends.

"Mistkate." He snarled and fixed his ruff. "I made a mistake."

"You also owe me a crockpot." Leech mumbled as she carefully sat down hand on their trilling offspring who enjoyed the thrum of the bass from the speakers around them.

"Actually I won that back for ya! You lost the first round though." Freddy called to her holding up the coveted cookware. "You owe me big Fangs this thing is nice!"

“And now I owe the devil a favor fantastic.”

Pennywise's eyes went wide as he stared at her bump. "Peachy you're pregnant?!"

The vampire turned to her two companions "You let him drink more while I was playing didn't you."

"Hey he was just grabbing any colorful drink he saw! You try controlling a 6 foot murder machine like that"

"Did I...did I do this?" The clown chittered leaning over her stomach and poking it.

"Congrats again baby daddy." The vampire sighed and slumped back in her booth.

Pennywise swayed and stumbled a bit the room swam when he remembered all the events from the past few months. Then he stopped and turned to throw up into an ice bucket containing a very nice champagne bottle.

"JINGLES!" Chucky and Freddy shouted at once.

The clown made a face of disgust his long black tongue rolling out of his mouth. Before anyone could stop him he grabbed the bottle and chugged it down wiping his chin. The trio stared in disbelief.

"So did everyone believe that time?" Leech asked quietly. To which she got two nods. "Fuck."

"IS THIS A JOKE?" Someone shouted upon receiving the bucket of clown sick.

"Shit give me him." Leech hissed.

The vampire grabbed her dizzy mate and searched for his pantaloons for his pockets the clown made a husky growl groping at her rear.

"Oh! Well look at you tasty little treat what cha lookin for in ol Pennywise's pants hmm?"

"That wallet you perv, we need to pay off that champagne before I get banned from here….again."

"Suree it's not something else?" The drunk eldritch growled and groped her breast causing it to leak a bit. Leech snarled and swatted his hand causing the clown to actually yelp in pain.

"Uhh Fangs your tit is bleeding." Chucky winced at the dark patch of red on her shirt.

"Yeah it does that now." She growled and tossed her friends her boss' wallet.

"That’s….not normal?"

The vampire rolled her eyes and grabbed her clown's cheeks causing a spittle of drool to fall from his mouth as she turned his head. "Yeah dont expect normal when this is the father."

"Meee?" The clown giggled and grinned from ear to ear then hiccuped violently giggling some more.

It was hard to be furious with him when he genuinely didn't even know where he was and was a bouncing mess. Leech sighed to herself wishing she could be giggling with him. At least it would help her block out the image of the love of her life kissing some random witch out of her mind. Leech slumped back and rested her wrist on her forehead.

"Krueger move we're gonna take care of that ruined bottle service." Chucky nodded at his undead companion

"I just sat down I'm not movin for shit."

The doll growled and slapped the back of his head. "Move you idiot." He mumbled out through gritted teeth gesturing to their emotionally drained friend.

"What?"

"My god you're clueless give the chick and her moron some space." The doll kicked his companion till they were out of the booth "You get ten minutes Jingles. Fix it."

The clown blinked in confusion then turned to his mate noticing the very uncomfortable gap between them. "Peachy? Are you still mad?"

"What do you think?"

Pennywise giggled and slowly leaned past the gap letting gravity pull his massive head down till it bumped with hers. He then chuckled wildly with his big buck teeth sticking out over his lips. It was frankly adorable but Leech could still smell the woman he'd mistaken for her on his skin and she scowled instead.

"You're verry pretty! Pretty eyes, pretty skin, big pretty ears hehe!"

"That's not gonna work"

The clown slumped to the side dramatically and leech shifted her glare to the side refusing to look at him. Pennywise was relentless in his pursuit ever the hunter he was not giving up. His finger slowly inched toward her poking her nose and making a honking sound when he did. His vampire hissed and snapped at him in response. He snarled back at her and limply swatted in her direction falling forward over the table and growling in frustration. Leech finally found herself smiling at that. Her mate is a complete mess when drunk but he was definitely her mess. "Mmph" he groaned and twisted his spine so he was now facing the ceiling.

"Pen what are you doing?"

"Trying to get to you." He growled continuing to tie himself in knots until he felt a cool hand on his cheek. The clown stopped his fighting and melted to her touch that soothed his skin that was warm with drink.

"You're a full on disaster." Leech sighed and kissed his forehead. The clown instantly unfolded and shook then stared at her with a wide victorious grin on his face.

"You still have to make it up to me." The vampire crossed her arms over her chest but was quickly grabbed by her mate and hastily pulled from her seat.

"Pennywise where the hell are you taking-" Leech began to scold him but his grip was strong and the crowd of people on the dance floor was large. Somewhere in the mess of lumbering masked killers she no longer felt the warm soft glove on her wrist. Great she had lost her idiot again. The small vampire shoved her way through the other towering members of the crowd looking for a tuft of fiery hair that rose above the sea of gray and rot. A warm gentle hand touched her shoulder and a strangers raspy deep voice calmly asked her "You alright little lady? Not the best place to be lost." She turned to the unfamiliar person he reminded her a bit of a middle aged Johnny Cash with peppered gray hair and crystal blue eyes. "Well that's quite a cargo you're carrying miss why don't you come sit down."

"Im actually looking for my uh baby daddy. He had a bit too much and tried to dance with me until we got separated." Leech sighed and eyed the stranger wearily as he sat down. "I haven’t seen you here before who are you? Demon? Witch?"

The man chuckled and sipped a half full beer. "Just an old blues man here to visit a very old friend."

"..I...I should find my idiot."

"Sweetheart you put too much stress on that bun in your oven have a seat an' tell me what that boy looks like. I'll drag him back here by his ear."

Leech narrowed her eyes "You sure about that? He's the boogie man of Derry."

"You don’t say? So the critter has a heart after all! Who knew!" The man laughed "How did a pretty thing like you end up with a nasty bug like that?"

“He can be charming if he wants to.” The vampire chided as she cautiously sat down. It did feel better to be off her feet. Her body was strong but carrying eldritch half breeds take a lot out of a girl even an undead one. "Alright this is a bit better. Gotta love my shitty friends for ditching me."

"Don't expect the company here to look out for you." The man chuckled "I take it a little lady like you ain't that type either."

"Yeah I'm post deceased." Leech smiled removed her wig and pointed to her ears "Nosferatu. You?"

"Like I said just an old sinner passin through."

"Fair enough." Leech sighed and glanced to her left at the beaten guitar case "There a guitar in here?"

"What kinda blues man would I be if there weren't?"

"I just started playing again myself." She smiled "Not any good yet but I can do a bit of Zeppelin."

The man smiled and took another sip of his beer "So tell me darlin bout that nasty bug of your’s."

"Well truth be told I’m mad at him...he accidentally kissed another woman with the same hairstyle as me."

"Haha! Can't say I haven't been there myself! Has he ever drank? I admit I don't know much about him other than the whispers."

"It’s mostly my fault. I’d say we’re even now anyway." Leech smiled "I broke his nose."

They both laughed at that.

"FANGS!"

Leech's ears perked up at the sound of Chucky's voice then turned to the stranger. "That’s uh my friend I think I need to go."

"Go on darlin set things right with your nasty bug, he'll come around. I gotta set up cross the street soon anyway." The stranger patted his guitar case and raised his beer. "You take good care of yourself and them little ones."

Leech slowly got up and began to walk into the crowd looking back to wave but the man was gone. A sudden hand on her wrist startled her and Freddy found his throat in Leech's claws.

"JESUS FANGS ITS ME! Also who the fuck was that? Never mind, we uh probably should get out of here Jingles stole a designer lamp."

".....Why?"

"No idea.Think he's proposed to it three times now."

"I'm not getting banned from here again. Where is he?" She sighed and the dream demon pulled her along through the gathered crowd. Sure enough there he was the Monster of Derry himself declaring his undying love to a lampshade.

"Peachy, darling, my queen! Eternally mine! The deadlights hum only for you!" the clown twirled dangerously while trying to dance with the fancy appliance. He was clearly black-out drunk at this point and Leech was genuinely surprised that he hadn't fallen over.

"Hey Fred, please tell me you've recorded this."

"You kiddin?! I've already sent it to you."

"This is why we're friends." She smiled and patted his shoulder. Leech strode forward and pushed the appliance out of her mate's hands "That was a lamp Pen."

The clown blinked clearly blitzed out of his mind then fell back giggling and drooling.

"Oh." He chuckled. "Hi Peachy."

“Do you want to say something to me?”

“S-sorry.” he stuttered still grinning like an idiot.

"I think you've humiliated yourself enough tonight Ruffles." She sighed and pet his fluffy orange hair "I'll forgive you if you forgive me tomorrow when you inevitably try to kill me for the hangover." The clown nodded vigorously shaking his bells as he did. Her lips touched his softly and Pennywise sighed in ecstasy deepening the kiss. He was all teeth and drool but Leech didn't mind his sloppy drool filled kisses were her favorite anyway. "Wanna get out of here?" she breathed quietly as the crowd of people quickly began to leave in mild disgust.

Her clown smiled wide and grabbed his mate vanishing in a jingle of bells before anyone could protest. Leaving their two companions without a ride and a very heavy crockpot.

[irndad]

the ring- b.b.

title: the ring

ship: bucky barnes x reader

wc: ~3.1k

a/n: okAY HELLO! i wrote this and it’s. stressful af and i love this fic so much. lowkey wrote this for @smokeandmirrorscloakanddagger

summary: i literally dont even know its long and pretty and i tried hard and its really angst and also cute shit. ITALICS ARE DREAMS SCENES

masterlist

In the year 2018, in a body that hasn’t aged since the 40’s, James Buchanan Barnes finds himself hypnotized once again by time, which has again been stolen from him.

Bucky wakes with a woman’s hand around his hand, fingers tracing up the length of his palm, tearful gaze pointed at his chest and evidence of tears on her lovely face.

God, maybe it’s because it’s hazy, but he swears she’s the most beautiful woman he’s ever seen in all his life. When she leans over him, concern etched in her features, she looks like the kind of tragedy geniuses spend years trying to put into words.

“Hello?” He rasped, and that is when he got a good look at the eyes that belonged to the pretty girl by his bed, as they blew wide to look at him. And her grin, spread wide across her face, that was the stuff of salvation.

“Hey, soldier.” She smiles, looking at him with such adoration that he feels guilty for not being able to return the intensity of the gaze. Even still, she looks like something out of a dream, her smile so gorgeous on him, and he almost manages a smile back.

She helps him sit up, and he gets the feeling he’s supposed to know who she is, can see it in the way she runs her thumb over his, hands clasped to his like he’s her tether to the world.

He’s not used to being people’s light, their hope.

The last thing he remembers is sitting in a room with Wanda and Steve, playing cards, managing to keep their minds off of the way the Avengers are split.

But it all seems to end at once, her hand pulling away so abruptly, he wonders if he’s done something to make think of him the way everyone else does, wonders if she’s just remembered who the he is.

“Shit, Bucky, Banner said you won’t remember much, I’m so sorry I shouldn’t have-“

“Banner?” He questions, mainly to cut her off so this beautiful stranger doesn’t have to have that tone of worry buried in her loving tone.

“You don’t know who Banner is?”

She rushes out of the room then, not before pressing a kiss to his forehead, lingering and hard.

The hand he held had a ring on, as well.

_____________________________

The girl with the ring had a pretty name, and apparently he had learned it a year and a half ago.

It had been a year and a half since the last thing he could remember, which he has a hard time wrapping his mind around, and he hates it, hates how he can’t remember anything again.

It turns out Wanda is why, on a mission infiltrating a Hydra base she’d thrown some of her magic, which always had been very specific in it’s course, had faltered and hit him, square in the head.

And apparently, it had made him forget the last year and a half.

The updates from this year from everyone seem to be shocking, moreso than he ever could’ve expected. For one, Tony stark and him happen to be a type of friends, having moved past what he’d done, Stark helping him regain consciousness and his memories, Bucky living in the Avengers facility as one of them.

It all sounds too good to be true, when (Y/N) sits down and explains it to him, her voice crooning and lovingly soft, in a way that her somehow finds familiar, although he’s sure he’d know if he’d heard something so sweet before.

It’s too good to be true that things worked out for him, that they worked out well enough o have something of a place to come home to.

“You have a family,” the beautiful face he’d awoken to had said that night, looking at him with the most earnest expression he’d ever seen, as if she’d read her thoughts with a once over, “You have a home here. With us.”

_____________________________

As it turns out, Banner is the Hulk, and he was another one of Bucky’s friends. He apparently had been very social this last year and change.

This will fade, according to Bruce. He will come back to himself, the one who knows and loves these people. He will get his memories back.

Two months in, (Y/N) is all he has, really.

She sits with him. She takes care of him. She makes sure he eats, takes his meds, plays board games with him and watches Netflix with him so he’ll never have a bored minute.

She does all of this while looking as close to heaven as a person can get, with a laugh that sounds like a breeze and a face he could spend forever trying to memorize and still never get it quite right.

The ring.

The band itself is small, but the rock’s big, and he knows that whoever gave it to her probably was some man with much more money than Bucky, with much more everything than Bucky, and he knew every time that he looked at it that he had no business looking at her the way he was.

She was awfully hard to pull his gaze from, though.

There was a symbol right there on her hand that her heart belonged to someone else, and there he was, falling in love with it anyway.

This evening, she’s wearing a maroon top and nightie shorts and her eyes are drowsy, with fingers wrapped around a cup of tea (she’d taught him how to make it the way she likes it, it strikes him how familiar the motions feel.)

“Oh, Bruce told me to tell you you’re gonna experience some memories as dreams.” She says it offhandedly, before spooning a bit of ice cream into her mouth.

He feels his mouth go dry, thinking of having to remember meeting the love of her life, watching that gorgeous smile curl around someone else’s gaze. Maybe he was able to cope then, but he fell in love with her, now and surely then, and reliving the man who was ten times better for her, well.

It might kill him, quite honestly.

That night, he dreams the prettiest thing.

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“I’m (Y/N).”  The girl said, her hands outstretched and smile bright, Tony behind her, slightly uncomfortable around Bucky. She’s a family friend of the Stark’s, although much younger than Tony, still close and loving to him.

Bucky tries not to stare, but it’s hard; he’s never met someone like her before. She looks too lovely for the world to have conjured up on it’s own.

If he believed in that sort of thing, he’d say a higher power had a hand in her radiating that warmth he feels in the pit of his stomach, wrapping around him like a bow.

“I’ve heard your name is James?”

“Bucky. Call me Bucky.” He even manages to return her smile.

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The next morning, she has a cup of coffee on the counter, and she’s sitting on the counter, a smile on her pretty mouth, and he feels the swing in his chest when she says his name.

“Buck! Come on, I made you coffee and I figured we could try and read your favorite book together.”

She holds up a copy of it, and explains how they used to read it together when he couldn’t sleep, and she’d fallen in love with the story as well.

She’s such an amazing friend, he notes, smiling back at her and admiring her, sitting on the counter like she knows Tony will have her head for doing so.

“Sounds great, doll.”

She freezes at the pet name.

It’s a millisecond, really, but he notices it because he’s attuned to her, and what was he thinking? She is not his girlfriend, not even close and never would be. She’s not his doll or his girl, and most likely her being here was a result of her charity, not of her affection towards him.

God, he feels so stupid.

Like he’s 15 again, a dumb kid with a crush on a girl he will never be with. He’s not dumb enough to believe it, and he’s an idiot.

There’s a ring on her finger, and that’s only one of the thousands of reasons why loving her is ill-fated.

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“You’re so pretty,” he heard her crooning voice, and his chuckle follows. She’s tired and a little loopy but there’s unmistakable love in her eyes, her fingers trailing up and down his chest, and he adores the feeling of it, her soft fingers running across his skin.

“You’re exhausted,” he murmured, lips pressed to the bare skin of her shoulder, her heart beat almost syncing with his.

“Mm,” she hums again, her voice soft with drowsiness and affection.

It’s a kind of warmth he’s never felt, not in the 40’s and never here, never in this world that chased him down the moment he realized where he was.

“Let’s get you to bed, doll.” She looks like a vision in a party dress, glittery and green with bracelets around her wrist, with color on her lips.

Rouge? That’s what his mother had called it, in her cupboard in the bathroom.

She lets him carry her to bed, smiling up at him like he’s the sun and she’s the moon, and she’d spend forever in his orbit if he let her.

He’s never, ever been looked at like that.

She pulls up her head to meet his lips, then falls asleep quite promptly, her curled hair stretched like a halo behind her.

She is quite like an angel.

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Wish fulfillment. He thinks that’s what the doctor called it, when he had dreams about things he wish he could have. It seems to happen more often these days, and he has to differentiate what’s real and what is just something he wishes he could have.

He knows the dreams about her felt vivid, but it can’t have been real- she’s got a ring on her finger he could never afford, and a heart that could never love someone like him.

He’s seen the way she speaks to the agent on top of Bucky’s recovery. And he knows it’s awful of him to hate the guy, to loathe the sight of him but he can’t help but connect the dots of the ring on her finger to the hug she gives him on his way out.

“Who was that?” He hears himself ask. He doesn’t want to know.

“Agent Mackenzie. He’s been a lifesaver with your case, ba-“ She swallows hard, “Bucky.”

Together, they go through photos of them together. Hoping to jog something.

Bucky had thought he must’ve been in love with her before, and these photos- he must have been doing a great job hiding it, because they just look joyful in most of them.

One sticks out, though.

Her eyes are clenched shut, starburst crinkles by her eyes and there he is, giving her that look- like she hung the moon in the sky and he’d placed all the stars in the sky to see that pretty laugh.

He obviously hadn’t been subtle.

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The mission is over. He’s home, at the compound and he’s safe, his home steps away and Bucky has never really been intrigued by cliches.

The movie scene picturesque moment of a girl running into the returning soldier- it never really struck him as something he needed to feel in his life. Wasn’t really on his bucket list.

But there she was, smiling and running into him in a way that was anything but pretty, his arms wrapping her up, her head in the crook of his neck. Her holding onto him like he’s some sort of miracle.

Which is funny, because that’s exactly what she is to him.

“‘M home, doll.” He says, joy laced in every word he speaks, his tone breathy and her lips are on his cheek and he feels like something higher has given him some sort of gift.

“You do that again, I’ll kill you myself. Don’t have to wait for Hydra.” She mumbles into his neck, not allowing for either of them to move, which is just fine, if you ask him.

“Noted, sweet girl.”

He kisses her then, and he’s never seen anything so cliche as her hand on his cheek and her body tethered to his.

He loves it, and her.

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It can’t be real.

He’s not that lucky.

She doesn’t have her tea with him that morning, she’s busy working on his recovery plan.

He wonders is Agent Mackenzie will be there.

He doesn’t want to know.

It’s three months in, when Bucky’s awaiting what should be an immediate memory retrieval. In full. One day, Banner had said, he will wake up and know everything.

He can’t wait.

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Tony and him are having dinner, and Bucky is laughing at one of his jokes, which happen to be very funny. He never knew Stark’s kid would turn out to be such a jokester.

“So, when you popping the question?” He hears Tony say, sincerity in his tone although jovial.

“Huh?”

“You know, gettin’ tied down. Well, I mean, I don’t know if you’re into that sort of stuff. No judgment. Consent and the like.”

“One of these days I’m gonna punch you, Stark.”

“I’m adorable!” Tony laughed, before he resettles on the topic at hand, “(Y/N). You gonna marry her?”

“I, uh,” he pauses. This is something he hates about himself, how unsure he sounds in this sense. Of course, he wants to marry her. She’s the best thing that's ever happened to him. She’s the thing that makes all the pain he’s been through worth it.

The issue is, though, is he can’t.

He can’t afford a ring. At least one she would deserve.

“You know those rings, I’m not sitting on a wad of cash.” Tony looks at him like he’s a dumbass and maybe he is, feeling his pointed gaze.

“Dude.”

It’s stupid, it’s stupid but he wants to make her happy and give her the life she deserves, especially if he becomes her husband.

“I know, but I’m saving up-“

“Don’t be stupid. I’ll float you some cash. Call it an engagement gift.” Tony says it before popping a cherry in his mouth and the words sit in the air, his generosity said like it was nothing when it was everything.

“You don’t-“

“I have known (Y/N) her whole life, Buck,” Tony says, eyes surprisingly genuine. “She was fine before you, but…” Tony takes a sip of his drink, before looking at him again, “But when she met you, it’s like she became a new woman. She’s family and if you’re the key to her smiling like that every day, then I’ll get you the biggest ring in the world, kid.”

Buck freezes, a side of Tony he’s never seen. He doesn’t know how to say thank you, doesn’t know how to say he loves her and he can’t believe they’ve come this far.

They take a shot of whiskey Tony loves and Bucky hates, before Bucky’s grin says everything.

“You hurt her I’ll kill you, without the suit.”

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He wakes in a cold sweat in the middle of the night.

He falls asleep before he can really think about what he remembered.

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“Baby,” he hears himself say, a catch in his throat. God, she’s so beautiful, looking up at him through teary lashes and he could spend forever with her. In fact, that’s what he’s asking.

He’s done it at a party Tony had thrown for “no reason” and there she is, in that same damn green dress, fingers clutching a glass of champagne she’s barely drank from, her sweet smile on her pretty, gorgeous.

“I love you. I mean, obviously. I know you know that, but god it’s like I can feel it on everything I do, like it follows me everywhere I go. And I know I’m an old man with not a whole lot-don’t interrupt me baby, please- but when I met you, it’s like everything I’ve been through, it was all worth it.”

The fall, the soldier he never wanted to be, the life he’d never had a choice in leaving behind- he’d do it all again.

He’s holding a beautiful ring in one hand, looking up at her, isn’t that something? He’s always looking up at her. Fitting. She’s an angel, after all.

“I’d do it again, doll. I’d do it a million times over if it meant I’d get to be with you. And that’s all I’m asking, I suppose. That you have an old man’s heart and I’m beggin’ you to take care of it as long as we live.

“So will you-“

She’s kissing him, smiling up into it, nodding fervent, and is she crying? She’s crying, so fucking beautiful when she cries and when she laughs and when she does any goddamn thing.

“Of course, Bucky. You never even had to ask.”

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He wakes up and he.

He remembers.

Remembers when he met her, remembers falling in love with her, who he is, and how lucky he is that she loves him back.

He runs out of his room, and it must be something like 3 in the morning when he sees her, sleepless in the kitchen, kept away from the love of her life.

That ache he’s felt, away from his soulmate- she’s had it too.

“Doll,” he says, and her head whips to him, eyes blown wide and looking at him with astonishment and hope.

Hope that he’d come back to her.

“I remember. I remember everything.”

Then she’s wrapped around him again, like two tree roots melded together and he’s never felt such grace as her being around him. He’s going to spend forever loving her.

“I wasn’t allowed to tell you,” she says, muffled into his tank, “Said it would make it quicker if you organically got your memories back.”

“Sweet girl, I could never be mad at you.” All the nights spent without him, all the days thinking he didn’t remember how to love her.

She kisses him, soft and slow.

“For the record,” he says, smiling lighting up at her like a beacon, “I loved you every moment.”

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