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evienyx · 2 years ago

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Sometimes I’m hit by the devastating fact that my childhood is leaving. It’s slipping away but I’ve still got half a foot in it. I’ll never be twelve again. I can barely remember a moment of fourth grade, but I know what it felt like. We once spent a month making a trip poster on the hallway floor. I haven’t talked to you in four years. I tutor people in Calculus. I just learned long division. I buy plushies with money I earned at work. I still sleep with the same stuffed animal my grandma got me. Maybe when I wake up, my mom will be waiting to braid my hair, because I don’t know how to yet. My dog will be small enough to fit under the fence. We’ll play tag at recess. They’ll bring the laptop cart for English. I’ll be twelve again.

#writing #ig #honestly I’ve just been like #hit really hard by nostalgia recently #but not like cute fun nostalgia #instead the heartwrenching kind when you think about the past and remember that it is ‘past’#my sister goes to the school I used to #if I needed to call her out sick #I wouldn’t know who to call #I never had a reason to have the number saved #not when my mom was the one who would always call for me #I wish she could still do that for me #instead I just email a teacher and use their first name bc that’s what the professors say to call them half the time #they don’t care if I come or not #still wish i could just get my mom to do it for me #I’m sure she’d write the email better than I would

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