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dating hanseo post

bc let’s be honest,, we’ve all been there.. am i making my whole tumblr dedicated to him? yes. but it seemed like so many people liked my previous headcanons that i had to give the people what they deserve! (and also to write all my thoughts out so my head doesn’t explode!)

- first of all, most definitely this man’s love language is acts of service!! this is why, when a somewhat ditzy, very vocal and avid member of your college philosophy class starts bringing you coffee - whether morning or afternoon classes - it’s not hard to sense.. a Vibe. however, soon, he starts stealing assignments from you, taking up your parts in group projects and it’s not until far later - after confronting the poor boy - that you realise it had nothing to do with him wanting to steal your top class scores and place.. but instead, to take away some of your top class student burdens. (his words.) so, after having a top student duel with him for a few months, you ask him out (thoroughly encouraged by your annoyed classmates who can’t stand the tense air of competition you brought to your lighthearted philosophy class, despite hanseo never reciprocating that energy, only just happy to participate to his full extent).

- asking him out was out of pure spite, to be honest. you’ve waited months, and could stand the nagging of your classmates no longer, and, well, you’ve grown to like this dorky classmate. you’ve grown to admire how fast he could go from being completely clownish in big groups, to understanding ridiculously extensive philosophical concepts. the jealousy slowly transformed into adoration, and so, you let go of your pride and asked him to help you with an assignment and go for a coffee. it was obvious he had to contain his excitement, but he still squeaked out a yes within milliseconds, which confirmed the idea that’s been hammered into your head by your stupid classmates (that this weird confrontation has to come to a ceasefire, because it’s obvious you both like each other, and come on it’s pathetic!) he arrives to the date in his silly knitted jumpers and of course, the blue converse, and his round gold-rimmed glasses, a little too giddy for your liking. (or so you pretend.) it’s only when you both get your coffees and get to working when you just get too immersed in him and finally blurt out that you like him.. to which he picks up his head from your notes, looks at you like a lost puppy for well over a minute, and then smiles shyly while saying that, well, he likes you too.

- so, that’s all over with, (finally, say your classmates) and you can finally begin to actually get to know this man who, although says a lot, never quite says what you want to know. he doesn’t take long to open up to you, though. he says little, but you start to realise a lot about him - which you never say to him, just note in your head. you don’t think he’d wanna know that sometimes, he flinches when people make sudden movements, or his smile drops too soon after someone says a joke, or that he makes himself sound too unsure of himself when actually, most of what he says is completely right and makes a lot of sense. so, you connect the dots in your head and begin to accommodate him more and more, to help him get rid of those habits. and over time, you start to warm up to his unique love language (by accepting the four coffees per day just to see his smile, while slowly growing a caffeine addiction..), while realising that hanseo feels loved particularly by words of affirmation and touch. so you make it a habit (though you don’t even really need to try, it all comes naturally) to compliment him.. like a lot. like always saying how much you needed it when he gives you the coffees, and stroking his hair a little, or adjusting his glasses, or his clothes; and always telling him just how good of a job he did with an assignment or group project (which isn’t even particularly because of the whole love language, but also because 100% of the time it’s just true).

- he also has habits that you would never in your life want him to get rid of. he’s just full of love. and at first he’s a little apprehensive in giving it, but it doesn’t take long for him to completely relax into you and feel at ease in your presence. like when he first comes over to your place; he makes sure to look at every single thing, as if he’s in some sort of museum. and then, after sitting on the couch for less than a minute, he asks if your dishes need doing or if he can fold the laundry. if you hadn’t figured him out already, you would’ve thought he was a complete freak.. but it’s just his way of showing love. talking about the future is also his habit. more dorky than intimidating - he doesn’t plan in an overly committed way, but with a tone that immediately tells you that he’s just that open to you. every time you pass a dog he looks at you like a kid in a candy shop. and he keeps buying you kitchenware.. and cleaning products.. you guess it’s kind of like his way of leaving a toothbrush at your place. he wants to give you things that he knows you’ll use domestically, so that you’ll associate it with him. what a freak, you think sometimes, lovingly.

- he calls you one night, completely under the weather. scares you a little, but he just asks if it’s okay to stay on call for a while. you say of course, because, of course, you’ve grown to completely adore this boy in such a short amount of time, there’s no way you would say no to that. you’ve never heard him be that quiet. it’s like he’s not even on the other end of the line, which is so unlike him purely because his presence is always known and felt. you don’t want to pry, but you ask what’s wrong. he takes a while, but he ends up telling you, sheepishly, that he sometimes has nightmares that he can’t shake off. he’s never really told anyone and he doesn’t want to give a bad impression- which you completely interrupt him to tell him there’s no way it would give a bad impression. he apologises for waking you, which again, you interrupt by telling him you’re cramming for an exam anyway. he grows quiet again and you start to feel completely helpless. it’s a side of him you’ve barely ever seen before and you just want to help so bad. after what feels like a terribly long time of complete silence, you quietly say it’s getting late and you should go. to which he replies, in a low voice, that you’re right. you both hang up and you don’t wait even a second to get a few necessities together and get the last bus to his apartment, with two thermoses of instant coffee. you nervously stand in front of his door and knock. it takes hanseo about five minutes to finally open the door, and you almost begin to feel guilty, because he looks as if he’d just woken up from the deepest slumber. but your presence immediately awakens him, and his eyes grow as wide as they can possibly get.. you reach out to him with the thermos which he takes gratefully and immediately invites you in with the few disarrayed words he can get out. he’s in the middle of telling you it’s too late, you didn’t need to come, the place is dirty, when you launch yourself on him, clasping his waist so tight you fear he might grow short of breath. but he doesn’t say anything else and instead just melts into you. he hesitantly puts a hand onto your head and begins to pat your hair slowly, to say “you really shouldn’t have done all this.” to which you look at him and say, “i love you, so i had to.” and you realise that it wasn’t only hanseo’s work ethic that rubbed off on you, but also his affectionate acts of service, which you couldn’t help but adopt in your own ways.

so this isn’t exactly how i wanted to write it but the words flowed so here we are.. this is more of an au thing i guess idk??? i might just write a fanfic because oneshots really arent my thing and evidently i can’t write anything without making it a narrative story thing!! i don’t like this but i wrote too much to not post and hopefully it might actually get me into writing for real again .. we’ll see.. enjoy :)