#but my mom isnt the only one with genetic weaknesses

[lunanerdderg]

Omg same girl, my body is in a perpetual state of disrepair

just a few ideas

[cryoriku]

hey you know it's really awesome and cool when ur a grown adult and after getting in a fight with ur mother who still insists on disrespecting and mocking you at any chance, ur adoptive father who has only ever been a source of fear since you were very little calls and instead of screaming at you he's very level and is legitimately concerned about my mental state.

some of his takes are still very shitty. even tho i routinely try the pacifist approach with her she can't stop mocking me and disregarding my boundaries and he acknowledges how aggressive she can be, he still puts the burden on me to be better and suck it up for the sake of maintaining a relationship (which is bs. both sides need to work or i shouldnt have to put up with it after all the abuse i dealt with as a child). and he thinks i need to just get back on meds which is such a backwards stereotype way of thinking that isnt accurate bc i stopped my last new meds bc they didnt really do much for me and gave me bad side effects.

it makes me feel like shit and embarassed now for being depressed and like all the efforts i have been making on getting out of my apartment more often and eating healthier and stuff arent being seen and just the worst of me is. it sucks too bc our mental health took a new redive after one of our ex's told us how we seem to not want to get better. which is an insanely fucked up thing to say and not worth listening to so we have tried to just ignore it but it haunts us still along with toxic ex friends whove talked about how pathetic and disgusting we are for being mentally/emotionally weak. which is wrong and bullshit and hirrible and WE HAVE gotten better before we want to be better again we're sick of living in a rollercoaster we want to be ourselves again 100% of the time and not just some of it, but believe it or not it's hard to keep your head above water much less swim to shore when people are constantly shoving you back down and wondering why youre not succeeding in breathing. dont you see how hard I'm trying?

plus with our dad it just gives us a fucked up moral dilemma of ik how estranged and distant his family is like theyre allergic to showing courtesy or affection and he was raised to be a good mannered cowboy and just sit and take when his mother does him wrong because it's family and he doesn't wanna lose it, so the same is true here, but I've already had it in my head for years that at some point i may have to cut ties. I'm just fucking caught. I'm trapped by the good moments we have, the good aspects of my parents and my sister. I'm caught by the fact my dad doesnt have a close family and everybody in my moms family has that same genetic ego that makes everyone think theyre better than everyone else or made them isolate and hide and die from drug overdoses alone in their bathroom. I'm caught by my baby niece who i don't want to leave alone with these people. I'm caught by my dog and grandma, until they pass, anyway. I'm caught by the stupid child in me who still *craves* a mother, *craves* a father, craves this idea of a family i never really had except in blurry photos if you dont look too close.

any fucking ways..... if anybody is able to get a therapist who can actually help me and not waste a year of my time trying to put me on drugs because they dont know how to do shit with systems and trauma to actually email me back, that would be epic.

i also want everyone reading this to stop seeing people as only their struggles or their trauma or their disability and start seeing them as PEOPLE with personalities and likes and interests first. believe it or not we don't think about our trauma or hardship a lot of the fucking time and it's real weird and a total fuckin bummer if thats all you seem to see. so, yeah.

have a happy sexy naughty bitchy sephiroth labor day guys

[beyainica-blog]

Guess who’s in the 230’s?

A bit bittersweet considering I could have been this weight monday. But I will take it and stop beating myself up.

I am literally 9lbs away from the 220’s. 13 days left until valentines day.

My goal is to get to 220 on valentines. I mean I want to be lower but I will take that. I’m 18lbs away with 13 days left. I need to lose 1.4lbs a day for 13 days to get there. I think I can do it.

Lets start with the bad.

Heart?

Even though I only workout 7-14 mins every day I have been STRUGGLING to get through my workouts. Like it takes me an hour at the gym to complete 14 min workouts. I have no idea what it could be. It honestly could be a whole host of things. I had pneumonia last week, even if the virus is gone. I read that you will feel fatigue for weeks after. Also, I’m on a liquid diet, I’m going to be tired anyway. And on phentermine. My heart is literally racing which it didn’t before, just after pneumonia. Like during my workout I can feel my heart beat out my chest. I guess the caffiene doesn’t have a buffer because I don’t eat

I am extremely weak. At work I try my very best to hold it together. But I feel faint. Luckily it hasn’t been so busy so I don’t have too much to do but still. I’m lucky I have my powerade, it gives me a LITTLE energy and there is enough sugar to keep me standing. I honestly think I’m burning too many calories for not eating anything. Like I don’t count the calories I burn at work standing, I only count when I work out. But yes I do burn calories standing everyone does. Idk if I should shorten my workouts on days that I work. It would be pretty dumb of me to drive to the gym for a 4-5 min workout. It’s already stupid of me to drive there for a 7 min workout. But I will do it. Maybe not workout days I’m working. Idk. I’m losing weight rapidly. I don’t want to give up working out because I want to be toned by the end of it. All of this stress I’m putting myself in is taking a toll on my heart so I need to take it easy.

Take little steps to make it better.

1. Take phentermine AFTER my workouts. See if my heart beats less

If that works thats how I’ll do it. I only took phentermine before because it helped my energy. Thats when I was restricting with food not liquid.

To help with energy. HONESTLY. I don’t drink enough. I think I’m cute and dainty when I don’t finish my powerades because I never do. Like not on purpose I just dont feel like it. Powerade is the only source for electrolytes for me. So I HAVE to drink it. Electrolyte imbalance can also affect heart rate. Honestly I don’t drink powerade or enough electrolyte water which I special order and have been since my water fast. My regime should be to drink a litre of electrolyte water and a whole powerade. Thats enough electrolytes I feel. Tommorow, I’m bringing my 50fl ounces Assentia water that I got for .79 cents which is normally $3. I am drinking that entire thing. You know what I can start doing drinking my water in the car. On my way to work start on it. Don’t start at work. Its less stress to finish. Start finishing my water before I even touch my powerade.

I have to bear with the weakness. I’m fine somewhat its not unbearable yet. I feel the most exhausted after work. I feel like because I’m in a public setting my body just knows to keep it together. I hope I don’t faint until I’m in the 180’s at least. I won’t be THAT heavy but still a complete fat ass.

I plan to keep this liquid diet going. If I become overwhelmed the first thing I will stop is exercise. Even though the workouts are short af. Thats the first thing to go. On days I don’t work. If the problem continues I may have to alternate. One day liquid. One day 500 calories + exercise. I want to be skinny but I want to be alive with minimal damage. Eating isnt binging. Binging is ordering 16 tenders and an X large pizza from Papa Johns with chocolate and a litre of coke. I didn’t plan to eat at all during feburary, but you bet your ass I will if I ABSOLUTELY have too. Honestly I feel like it would make the weight loss faster. Eating 500 is higher than what my body is accustomed to now, so my metabolism will get faster. Like I said, only when I feel like I HAVE to I will eat. The worst thing is having to exercise everything off. Thats what I hated the most about restricting. I love on this liquid diet I only have to workout 7-14 mins a day. Imagine. 14 mins of exercise to burn off a powerade. 5 chicken tenders at 108 calories each would take 32 mins. Thats insane. But at least I’ll have the energy for it.

I am addicted to this FAST weightloss though. I woke up at 240lbs honestly. After work I was 238lbs exactly. We love flunctuations.

Sweating

I have always been a sweater. Like this is genetics. Even when I was younger and skinnier I sweat. But as I’ve gotten bigger I notice that I sweat ALOT more. Its so fucking emberrassing. I’m so scared at work. Literally was getting slight vagina sweat. I can’t even think about it. Everyone will think my vagina is diseased. Its just sweat. I wear a waist trainer. 1. To hide my belly. 2. So it can catch my back sweat. It only goes to my back so I have to wear a tank top under neath. I don’t have a good one because I refuse to spend money on it. Maybe I should start wearing my sports bras and tank until I lose a bit of weight. I started wearing a long sleeve to hide my bat arms but I get so over heated its not even funny. Like I start to sweat everywhere. Yeah having three articles of clothes will make anyone sweat. Of course the heater is on in the resturant I work at because its winter. Mix that with running around to tend to guests you have a sweaty bitch. Being fat doesnt help at all. Neither does being gentically proned to sweat. It makes it 10x worse. So I had to take off my longsleeve at work today because I just clocked in and vacuumed and could already feel the sweat accumulate. AND I JUST GOT THERE. I said nah.

But I guess good news my work shirt is a lot bigger on me, hides my bat arms better than before. The only thing I hate is you can still see my stretch marks on my arms. But they have cleared a bit, it use to be deep ridges in my arm but I lost almost 70lbs. When I get to 200lbs I don’t think they will be there anymore. I’m certain by 180lbs they won’t I bet my life.

My work uniform is black so that makes it worse though I’m thank ful. Today I had to shave my vagina and armpits to stop the sweat some what. Only to wear polyester under wear because again. I don’t wear underwear and I refuse to buy them unless they’re a medium or small. Right now large gives me wedgies so maybe I can fit into a M/L idk but I gotta get more under wear don’t have a choice because I can’t work without underwear. You know Idk if its because I had pneumonia, or if its the phentermine, or if its the liquid diet. But weeks before I didnt sweat this much. I went to work frequently without underwear. I wore my long sleeve shirt no problem. Now its a problem. Sweat can also be caused by fighting an infection. Maybe I’m still fighting the pneumonia. The thing about pneumonia is even after the virus is eliminated by antibiotics its still going to kick your ass for a few weeks. Fatigue and cough

Another thing is I move so fast at work by the time I get back to my post I’m sweating its good but, bad at the same time

Weight is still an issue and why I sweat so much so this is just an incentive to lose more weight.

Goals

I see my doctor on the 22nd or 23rd a week after valentines. I hope to be 209 or lower. By then and if I can keep on this diet I think I can. Last time I was there I was 254 (260 on their scale) so 209 will be a PLEASANT suprise and they will be very happy. Thats a 51lb weight loss and thats ALOT of weight. They will literally worship my feet and give me more phentermine they’ll give me anything I want. Though I gotta do blood work so thats like $168 but its okay it has to be done I understand. I made alot this pay period and the only thing I have to pay is, registration, tax, inspection, gym $10, mom and buy more water and powerade. I should have like $200 left. If not I deffo get paid again the 15th of this month. The 2nd of March. (The day after my cheat day) so my cheat day is on a thursday. Good. Maybe I’ll push it to saturday. Or the day I’m off. Definetly want to be out of the 200’s by the end of feburary thats my top goal.

Valentines day

I hope I’m not hyping it for nothing. I hope I get something from someone.

If I lose 2lbs for the next 13 days I’ll be 212lbs on valentines. (Could have been 207)

If I lose 1.5lbs for the next 13 days. I’ll be 218lbs (could have been 213)

If I lose 1lb a day for the next 13 days I’ll be 225lbs (could have been 220 exactly)

I hope I lose at least 1.5lbs a day consistently. So far I been losing 2-3lbs everyday. 3lbs mostly I would love to lose 3lbs a day for 13 days that would be EXCELLENT. That would put me at 199lbs exactly (could have been 194) imagine if that actually happened. I would DIE. I’m 39lbs away from getting out of the 200’s I’m excited. I just hope I’m losing weight for a reason. Honestly lose 1kg a day is reasonable I eat less than 300 calories a day, and I bet you my starting weight was more than this girl whoever she is. If I get to 199lb by valentines. Bitch. I will be 180lb by the end of feburary. Plateau nor metabolism will stop me.

Boss

Lately I noticed that every time I go to work I work with my one manager that likes me. I can tell he likes me because the other manager which is his friend is always around. They giggle and stare at me. He makes the schedule so that I only work with him. Its kind of cute. I like how I make him shy. But sometimes I get flustered. He catches me off guard. He walks REALLY slow towards me its kind of nerve racking. I purposely dont look at him because its emberrassing. He keeps coming up to me but saying ABSOLUTELY nothing. Adorable.

Jeans

I really wanted to wear size 9 jeans, on valentines. But it wasnt because of my binge. I dont think I was going to fit in them anyway until I get to 180’s but its okay.

My size 16 wide are so fucking loose. The day they fall off my body is the day I stop wearing them period. Until then we gon wear it sis.

Belly

Despite the weightloss I don’t think my bell has been affected at all granted. I’ve only lost like 15lbs I just dont see it in my stomach which is my first problem area. I hope by valentines day at, atleast 212lbs it will reduce. Seriously I’m tired of looking at it. When I was in college at 22, I was 213 and my stomach was FLAT. I remember because I weighed myself. So these next 26lbs better be fucking good to me or I’m FIGHTING. A pound of fat in terms of physical is huge. On the scale its nothing. I’m tired of having a pouch in my jeans. I’m tired of looking at it hang. It needs to go. Arms next. At 180lb I better not see a fucking bat wing in sight.

[thenixkat]

ANimorphs notes 7

Book 7

Narrated by Rachel

The bear on the cover is really humanoid

Mindless slaves is very inaccurate

Parents are divorced

Dad used to be a gymnast

Rachel doesn’t like someone using cattle prods on elephants and decides to do something about it

Rachel does not care if others perceive her as pretty

Its lucky that dude wasn’t a controller

Rachel is athletic

Cassie is ashamed of Rachel’s aggression

International Elephant Police

Jake is not happy

“But I'm not one of those morons who is just into danger for its own sake. It's not about cheap

thrills. It's about feeling like I am involved in something very important. I mean, let's face it -

as corny as it sounds, we are trying to help save the world.”

Oh cool I can copy/paste stuff

Jake and Rachel never hung out much b4 the elfangor thing

I still don’t understand why Jake is in charge?

Another reference to Marco being dark

Why are Cassie and Rachel friends? There must be some reason why.

How did Rachel kinda know Tobias b4hand?

KA Applegate has a ‘birds of prey look fierce and majestic’ fetish

How much time has passed that you know Ax and consider him a friend?

Ax was attacked by a cougar

Marco playships Rachel and Ax

Marco and Tobias did some spying

Ax nodded. <Yeerk pools are generally large and elaborate. They are an important part of

Yeerk life. The centers of their lives, really. The pools are, for the Yeerks, what forests and

meadows are to Andalites. >

I really don’t think andalites would do well in a dense forest

Tobias follows from the air while Marco frikkin follows controllers inside buildings

It's a good thing that surveillance cameras don't exist in this world

Ax talks like a little bitch who’s never been in a fight

Andalites have flexible necks

Rachel suggests that they go for the kandrona instead of the pool b/c its too dangerous to repeat book 1

These kids never question what happens to a host who’s yeerk dies, like if I were running a secret invasion there’s no way I’d let folks live if I couldn’t keep them under control

Rachel is afriad of the yeerk pool, the screams of the slaves haunt her

Also now there’s more family drama

Dan and Naomi, a news anchor and a lawyer

Rachel is trying not to show that she’s upsetti

Rachel is given an out, a choice to go off and live with her dad in another state

I wanted to say, Dad, you don't understand. It isn't just about Mom and Sara and Jordan. I

have a date, Dad. To go back to the Yeerk pool. My friends are counting on me. See, I'm

supposed to be Xena, Warrior Princess. I'm supposed to go back down there . . . down into

the last place on Earth I want to go.

That’s a pretty good way to sum up her role on the team

Rachel goes night flying to flee from her emotions

Rachel has a great horned owl morph

Internalised sexism

Large owls are perfectly capable of hunting and killing hawks

WOw Tobias its almost like deciding to live as a wild animal is a very bad idea and you could be killed at any moment

Rachel is considering a different battle morph: lion or bear. The tv show is canon.

There are bison at the gardens

Rachel aquires a grizzley bear.

Imagine if she whent ahead and got that polar bear too and made a grolar bear morph

Ax needs to fucking control his human morph b4 he gets someone killed or captured

All the animorphs are fuckin weak about bugs

That’s not how insect eyes work, they see one solid picture

These kids going around leaving piles of clothes again

WHAT ARE THE OTHER SPECIES YALL KEEP MENTIONING

Ax explain

Also what is with this male default language?

Taxxons have long sticky whiplike tongues that can catch very small prey

Return of the vore count.

 First appearance of Toomin. I do not like the ellimist

The kids decided to take advanytage of the randomly frozen time to escape

AN Ellimist not THE

Ax is shook

Does Toomin have a whale sanctuary? One for parrots? Crows? Octopuses? And all the other sentient species on Earth? Or is it only sapient sapient life he cares so much for?

Not a fan of Earth is particularly special or unique kinda thinking

Humans wouldn’t go extinct. They’d be domesticated. Their numbers would very much swell. Regardless of what they’re used for there tends to be more captive individuals of a species than wild counterparts.

A few Earth species of special interest. ALiens contin ue to not know shit about how biomes function, even the god aliens. Also I’ll stand with Parting the Clouds!Cassie, Toomin’s human sample size would have a terribly small amount of genetic diversity.

Nice ultimatum Toomin

Jake, Toomin could very well just be fucking with yall and you’d never know

SO they just fucking are human, if dirty, and were certainly spotted by yeerks who give chase b4 they start morphing again

They had to hear Jake, a human voice, yell

No, the common yeerk forces have to know that they’re dealing with morphing humans.

This plus Iniss 226 and Temrash 114’s theories, the yeerks have to know

Rachel very clearly shouts Jake’s name

What. bears know all kinds of fear.

Rachel lost control of the morph and tries to kill Jake

Naomi isnt blind

Rachel skipps school

Jake what is the 5th degree helping?

Rachel fucking snaps and lets it all out

Marco decides to change his vote

Cassie is still on voting yes to Toomin’s plan

Toomin you dickwaffle yer manipulating the results

Again, the yeerks fucking up the enviornment is just plain bad planning and resource management

Like the taxxons would leave any bodies to rot, bullshit

It does not take years for a body to be stripped to bone, honestly why is it that intact?

All these intact bodies are just plain silly, Toomin is trying to hard

That’s actually nice and subtle

...I’m pretty sure that the yeerks can tell a kid like Ax from a grown ass adult like Visser 3’s host

It would have been so easy to tie this bad future into the choose your own adventure animorphs book

Visser 3 and the yeerk controling bad future Rachel hella vored Tobias b/c Visser 3 is not subtle about his kink

Rachel threatens to eat Visser 3. That’s a vore count of 3 so far in this book.

Rachel almost ends Visser 3

Given that this is all a game for Toomin and the Cryack right? Toomin is a horrible cheat

Toomin’s also a cheater in the game he’s playing with the pawns. Asshole.

Toomin is a cheater

Also these kids are a bit dense, granted they have a lot of problems they’re dealing with

Cassie works out that Toomin is trying to show them something

Rachel works out what

...talking to controllers like that does not help the andalite disquise

Also still why do the yeerks in hork-bajir talk that way?

Marco gets disembowled a lot

How does Tobias hit a hork-bajir’s eyes and miss the foot long blades on their heads?

I still call bullshit on morphing being dna based. Templates/scans make more sense. Scans informed by the genetics

3 weeks b4 teh kandrona can be replaced.

Toomin is proud that the pawns figured out his hints

Rachel decides to stay and fight

[ohdeerlings]

mushi hime rant hahahhaahfdsjh

just posting my long-winded summary i typed immediately after finished reading to talk about how bad it was; it ended up a lot longer than i intended and now i feel like i should at least keep what i put effort into typing =___=

so it starts with this guy who's been getting recurring nightmares of a girl who shapeshifts into a monster with a huge mouth and teeth eating him

one day a transfer student comes in and looks exactly like her(already outplayed trope of having dreams for no reason of reality that doesnt ever get explained, and it happens lots of times throughout

)around the same time strange events start happening around town: ex, truck driver found by police with markings of a mass insect attack, dogs and pets all getting attacked by swarms of ants and filling up the vet hospitals

the narrative goes back and forth btwn:

- the guy's (Ryoichi's) POV in class where he's just not approaching her and wary of her bc of his dream; he's Not Like Other Boys who get all horny over her bc she's perfect (beautiful, smart, mysteriously quiet, physically adept)

- and btwn this stereotypically wacky/eccentric scientist who was consulted by the police with the first caseturns out the scientist has been tracking down a series of seemingly unrelated murders that follow a clear path ending at Ryoichi's town

throughout the story there's some not so subtle dialogues about the earth going through global warming and species dying

the scientist spiels to some insignificant characters about how humans arent long for this earth, etc etc and how insects are amazing because of their adaptational abilities

he seems to know the transfer student girl, Kikuchi and is trying to track her down

meanwhile kikuchi is character-developed as some clearly dangerous but morally compromised monster-human hybrid who Only Preys on Bad Guys or people around at the wrong time

she gets hit on by some lecherous perv who asks her to karaoke and she actually agrees

there she straddles him and starts kissing him and then these tentacle things come ouit of her throat and go into his mouth

he slumps over and she leaves

the scientist-investigator duo are closing in on her and find the security camera tapes, from that they get a picture and show it around town to try to locate her

meanwhile Ryoichi is still like wow she's Scary and I'm Not Like Other Boys

then he happens to see her just as the old man from the karaoke bar (who seems to have not been killed and is just stumbling around acting drugged) finds her and attacks her

a fucking needle spike comes out of her arm and she defends herself by stabbing him and puncturing his skull and killing him

he sees all that and shes like well guess you're my hostage now and takes him to his house

she's also attracted to him inexplicably, partially because He's Not Like Other Boys and shes like WHY ISNT HE SECRETING PHEROMONES FOR ME(she can smell that

)then there's a weird "erotic" scene where she forces him onto the bed and deep throats him with her mouth tentacles

then there's just a LOT of dialogue thrown at us at once with the scientist just explaining a shit ton to his investigation partner whose character clearly only exists for hte sake of exposition

turns out he had a colleague when he worked on a super secret gov funded experiment called biosphere 2 where they sealed off a forest and bombed it with radiation and pollution n shit

they found that it endured a lot at first and it was because of the bugs (?) that it did until the bugs disappeared and were nowhere to be found, then the forest just died

they looked around and found mutated bugs sleeping inside the earth

his colleague had a daughter back then with a terminal illness so out of desperation he injected the dna of the mutated insects into her, hoping their resilience would change her body to survive the illness

so she lived but she was clearly not human, farming off of her dad - she wasnt able to produce endorphins anymore so her tentacle things would secrete an enzyme to get hte host to produce lots of endorphins and she would take it, creating a dependency

bc she was the only of her species to exist she felt a need to procreate so she also kept trying to mate with her dad 

then we find out that her dad had an identical twin who was raised by foster parents - and thats Ryoichi's dad, making Ryoichi and Kikuchi technically cousins, and genetically half-siblings

so thats why she was Inexplicably drawn to that town, and to him

she was wandering through japan because at some point her dad tried to kill her for humanity's sake, but bc of a random flood their town was wiped out and he wasnt able to kill her and she disappeared/survived the flood thanks to her ability to mutate in environmental changes

meanwhile she's been keeping him hostage to feed off of his endorphins and creating a dependency in him for the enzymes she would give him

until his mom accidentally comes into his room and sees, then she runs away and dies falling down the stairs lol

then he's all like ytou're a monster!!!!! and she threatens to kill the girl-next-door character in his friend group who seemed to have a thing for him/vice versa

so he's like: ill do anything just spare her!!!! 

so she forces him to answer the door when his friends are like why havent u been going to class and tell them to fuck off/be a dick to them

while theyre walking outside after to go somewhere else the scientist sees the girl (Chiken) and is like hEY you look sad and depressed there's nothing possibly else that could make u feel like that except having your childhood crush abducted by a halfhuman-half locust succubus

he shows her the picture and she recognizes her and leads him back to the house

then he gets a rifle to try to shoot her and theres a whole fight scene where she uses her pheromones to call upon the insects to swarm

ryoichi is useless because he found his moms corpse lying in the bathtub getting consumed by maggots she asked to fully decompose the body

then the scientist gets a couple shots in and fends her off, meanwhile random police get in the way to stop what looks just like a home invasion and she disappears

they take ryoichi into the hospital bc all the endorphin harvesting and brain fuckery has him weak

then ryoichi's dad comes in and is like how do you recognize who i am!! to the scientist who explains

oh yeah that's the point at which we find out ryoichi and kikuchi are related

and then he's still having dreams where she vores him and he's both horrified and wants it

meanwhile entire city is getting swarmed by insects in a disaster scene with society breaking down etc etc

kikuchi tracks them down by following ryoichi's scent (?)

then they have one last battle where they try to use the dad as a distraction bc he looks identical to her dead father

and somehow the scientist just FINDS specific chemicals/enzymes to throw on her and weaken the part of her thats an insect

also earlier before she got there he  whips out the mutant insect dna out of nowhere? like the extremely valuable dna that he should have no business just finding/still carrying around

and is like

hey lets inject ourselves with this because humanity is getting wiped out and attacked by insects rn anyway, the only way to live i sto adapt

but no one does it (lmao pointless inclusion) 

then they defeat her in a big struggle with ryoichi getting farmed on by her again and instead of just taking it has a Miraculous realization past the drugs that oh no this person is killing everyone i love

and CHOMPS on her tentacle thigns while their mouths are connected

scientist injuects her with more random dna he has to compromise her mutant dna and the insect swarming stops bc of the internal biological shit happening and she's writhing oon the ground

then looks like she dies

they try to escape the basement theyve been in because its suddenly flooding (no reason lmfao)

on the way out they get stopped by a teacher that she pricked with her spike earlier on who's been missing from school and his "insect bite" changed his behavior/ultimately made him into a different part human part bug who tries to kill them

then kikuchi who -surprise- hadnt died!@!! shows up again but now she's blond and looks almost exactly like Ryoichi (who is blond) because the thing the scientist injected in her enabled her to adapt to the water and she's still a  mutatn but Less Evil Somehow and he's like i thOUGHT U DIED.... I ACTUALLY LOVE YOU.. 

then epilogue is the scientist goign through his life normally and the city is recovered from the insect swarm and he sees another random global warming thing in the news and is like

“its only a matter of time before humanity perishes, but now is not that time....we're good.............,,,,,,,for now...and i know somewhere underwater something of humanity's legacy will live on”

and it cuts to ryoichi and kikuchi hugging in a very Shape of Water way underwater with tentacle thigns cause they went to live in the ocean

then there s a bad window for a sequel showing the teacher guy - SURPRISE - not actuially dead and crunching on humans in a sewer somewhere

STILL A FUN READ

[brimstone-and-helianthus]

I JUST HAD A WICKED AWESOME DREAM

my family and i were at a baseball game because my younger brother was playing. he was eightish. the setting was very oddly futuristic; there were tons of robots and advanced tech but the infrastructure of the world itself was very much like our world today, but if you just stopped taking care of it.

the baseball game had a robot pitcher and my brothers team was losing. and thats when shit started getting weird. i was a guy in this dream, maybe about fourteen, and i wasnt actually at the baseball game, i was hooked up to a vr system at home that was hooked up to another robot at the game i could control. i had some sort of genetic disorder that made me very weak and made it hard to breathe, so i just controlled a robot when i needed to go outside and do something.

anyway, i hacked into the pitcher robot and broke it, and the ump tried to call the game, but my little brother, who wanted to be a pitcher even though the game didnt have that anymore, got up to the mound and started pitching, so the ump kicked him off the field (also there weren’t baseball bats there were hula hoops which was just. ok)

then everyones back home, and im talking to one of my other brothers, whos actually a robot with a fully functional AI, and hes very friendly, but he has no emotions and often times just does things in front of my dad to make it seem like he does and both irl and dream me thought it was very creepy. we discuss how he knows i hacked the pitcher robot, and i could do way more things instead of screwing around with a random robots.

some backstory on my parents: my mom was super buff and then suddenly started getting very sick with the same disease i had and we dont really know why mine started so much earlier but she died when i was very little and then when i started getting sick, my dad didnt want the same thing to happen to me, so he, as a robotics expert, tried to find a way to give me a robot body, and all this was very hush hush because sophisticated ais (like my brother- who also assisted my dad in his experiments) and what he was trying to do for me were illegal.

i took one of my other robots, which was this cool air/underwater drone hybrid and checked out the city a bit, and then i went underwater. i had to be careful, because there was a city-wide curfew and you werent allowed too deep in the water (not that i listened). our house was overhanging the sea, and it was very weird, because there was no animal life at all- no birds, no fish, but algae and sea weed and stuff. like just because its a city doesnt mean there isnt any wildlife. but dream me was very used to this, it was just irl me that was like, huh thats weird.

i dont remember what happened next, but i know i did something that was very bad, and i got a warrant to appear before the judicial council-which were aliens. the only thing i had ever seen of the aliens were these red energy tentacles. otherwise, no one had ever really seen them, they have a bunch of drones watching the city while they stay somewhere else. we get coordinates to go to a teleport pad in the middle of this barren stretch of land outside the city (everything was very brown and dead and the trees had long ago rotted away) and i go, but i was going to send my robot for me because even travelling there was very hard on me

but the aliens were like no, no tech allowed, and i realize that if i go, they were probably going to do something very bad to me (dammit i want to remember what i did), so i go to this abandoned stone farmhouse with all this rickety wooden structures while my dad is arguing with the human guard there. i set the wooden stuff on fire and intentionally sit in its way when it all falls over, and i get injured, so the whole thing is postponed.

and my dad is freaking out because then i got a whole lot worse, and he has caught on that something very bad is going to happen, so hes trying to figure out how to put my consciousness into a robot body before the next court date. my robot brother realized i did the fire thing on purpose, and hes like wow, you are absolutely crazy, but hes also sort of impressed, and slightly annoyed because he got some of his casing burned trying to get me out of fire.

AND THEN I WOKE UP. AND I WANT TO KNOW WHAT FUCKING HAPPENS NEXT