#but maybe he does it to get their hopes up or smth. when theyre fighting and he wants to toy with them

[triglycercule]

dust has definitely killed killer before fighting over papyrus's scarf. killer and dust both have opposing views on papyrus's scarf. killer doesnt like seeing others wear it and (SHUT UP I KNOW ITS NOT CANON!!!!) dust wears it in papyrus's honor and probably for self comfort. killer even ripping a thread on the scarf warrants dust to break his hand (because killer has his silly little backstory where he did the genos and everything hes wayyy more violent towards him than horror bc horror didn't kill everyone (HYPOCRITE!!! HYPOCRITE!!!!)) anyways when killer touches dust's scarf is one of probably the few times he can't win a fight against him

perchance i think dust should get to tear apart killer's soul right infront of his eyes while he screams in pain and dust gives him the coldest look ever to exist (and horror was watching with popcorn :3)

[adorable-deku]

ok so new au post bc it went haywire after the horses

so, all might has to be in a hospital for a while after the fight with all for one. this is a v secretive hospital where u basically have to be a hero, a politician, or heinously rich to get into. coincidentally, there is also a person who is both heinous and heinously rich who decided to send his son there.

ironically, doing the exact same thing that nana shimura did w her own children for exactly the same reason (otherwise what? trust trubasa with his kid?). izuku is kind of sickly, which is hereditary, and quirkless, which is also hereditary. all for one, father of the year, has a dragons hoard of quirks, including passive ones which just increase health. he weighs his options and without asking izuku (of course), figures hed be better off suffering the short lived pain of quirk transmission than suffering the long term pain of a crazy weak immune system.

after doing this, he sends izuku to the best hospital in the country to recover so, in the timespan where hes fucking up all might, in case anything goes awry (which it does). he also uses a quirk to change his eye and hair color, and remove the freckles.

so izuku has an illness nobody really understands (bc its a symptom of forced quirk transmission), but hes a tiny fucking trooper and the whole hospital loves him. hes a tiny ball of sunshine who talks like a little adult but stumbles on the adult words and gives nonsensical advice like kids do, but a little scarier

All might is in a kind of tucked away corner of the hospital that people arent supposed to go into, but izuku gets away with everything (historically) and loves to explore, so inevitably izuku ends up in toshinori's ward. maybe the door's open bc hes recently woken up or smth and the nurse is in there and this man sees a fluffy little dude w them Big Ole Eyes peeking in from the hallway. izuku skitters away after a short scolding from the nurse but ofc he returns later to talk to the thin man w the intense blue eyes whe looks haunted

at this point in life, izuku has encountered a lot of people who look haunted and hopeless, whether while around his father or at the hospital. he likes cheering them up. in a way, its selfless, bc he doesnt expect anything for it. but its also selfish in the way a child is; he wants them to smile for his own self satisfaction rather than bc its actually helping them. hes a bit emotionally stunted empathetically for obvious reasons

all might feels like hes lost all hope and thinks he could probably never use one for all every again. izuku thinks calling something impossible is just giving up on it. theyre both wrong but they help each other and grow together and become very close.

(unrelated but all might does not give izuku his real name. izuku asks and the first thing that pop into his head is captain america, the movie he watched before his shit got rocked, and steve was added into his glorious hall of monikers)

its also assisted by the fact that since izuku has come to the hospital, his father has not visited him even once, despite promising to. all might has never met izukus father *cough cough* but his impression of him already isnt very good. he gets so attached, despite telling himself thay he cant get attached bc look what happened to nana, right?

all for one gets his kid back many months later, when his brain damage is repaired enough for him to be awake a few hours a day, and his adorable mischievous child is going on and ON about becoming a hero. whoever 'steve' was, all for one was gonna beat their ass.

[lesbianmarrow]

legends cast has to do the crucible. (which they COULD it would be within the bounds of the show) who’s killing them?

aaaaaaahh you say this to ME. ok. my first thought is that ray palmer has to kill john constantine bc thats SICK and i love it. and then ray cant do it so sara kind of rolls her eyes and steps in to do it herself.

(for any legends fans reading this: the crucible is a thing in xmen comics where if youre a mutant and your powers got taken away but you want to get your powers back, you fight someone to the death in an arena [someone you trust to give you a good death] and you die and then are resurrected with your powers)

maybe there could be a storyline where sara has to get her prophecy powers back but first she has to be killed in order to be reborn with her powers.....in that case i think its all the legends against sara and its a little bit like the episode where shes possessed by mallus exorcist-style and fighting everybody only this time theyre all in their right minds and theyre fighting out of love. ava deals the killing strike of course and its very dani holding xuân's lifeless body in her arms and weeping.

if its like season 3 era and we change it so its like ok everyone has to wield the totems but first everyone has to be killed and then brought back by the totem or whatever. i think mick has amaya slay him bc thats kind of their dynamic. like he wouldnt trust anyone else to do it. amaya would probably want nate to kill her and i think he would go through with it but he would be sad. i want zari to have to kill wally bc that will be the most angsty for her bc it will remind her of her brother's death. i dont think ray has the heart to kill anybody but i feel like it would be easiest for zari and sara to kill the others, zari bc she saw them die a thousand times in her time loop and sara bc it used to be her job. and then sara is the last one standing and has damian darhk kill her i guess. and a small selfish part of her hopes she wont come back and she will just get to be with her sister again.

maybe theres a thing where astra has to be killed (do you know astra? shes cool) and the episode is building up the expectation that constantine has to be the one who kills her and hes very tormented and mopey about it but in a surprise twist it turns out that it doesnt have to be him and so astra requests spooner to do it. and it ends with spooner holding astra in her arms and saying "i got you" and there are tears in her eyes but shes smiling proudly. and when astra comes back the first thing she does is wrap spooner in a big hug.

if ava had to be killed i actually dont think sara could bring herself to do it. HYPOCRITE that she is i think shes like pshh guys cmon a little light dying never hurt anyone! and like teases the others for being squeamish about it. but when it's ava's turn to be dispatched and shes looking at sara with so much love and understanding i think sara is like FUCK and runs away and hides for a minute to collect herself. and gary is very eager to step in and take over and theyre like fuck off gary. so i think zari 2 fights & kills ava instead but sara is like cheering ava on and then holds her hand as she dies.

i feel like i should say smth about sara and constantine bc its you asking but honestly i feel like if they crucible'd each other it just wouldnt be that interesting bc theyre just gonna do it and be like mostly fine with it. like thats just something that they can and will do for each other. its more interesting when its characters who are more apprehensive about it for whatever reason.

this is such a good game. we need to make this the hot new fanfic trope tbh

[dellalyra]

hii! have you ever thought about giving reader/ y/n in family formations like a hibernation type of thing? ive been thinking about it as in like times when she uses up way too much cursed energy in a short period of time (1-5 days?) she might pass out and be asleep for a few days like 2-3 so her body can regenerate cursed energy. real animals hibernate to save food and conserve energy and i thought since her cursed technique has a lot to do with nature and animals that it might be something that could make sense. maybe the first time this happens is in highschool years, she passes out in the car after a very tough mission the elders sent her on probably plotting smth (idk) and doesnt wake up when they are back to the school or even the next day so everyones worried and when she does wake up a few days later she feels refreshed and is like “wtf happened?? how long did i sleep?” and they figure out its probably smth to do with her technique? and i was thinking it only happens occasionally when shes really stressed or overworked really bad but what if something like this happens after gojo comes back from the fight with sukuna (after primal) shes still fighting and trying to get to him but very very tiredly, shes on the floor kind of just sobbing not knowing what to do anymore when gojo comes in through another entrance and takes her into his arms. she tries to get away at first thinking its someone trying to hold her down again but when she realizes its him she starts crying and clinging to him and checking his body for wounds etc. she ends up passing out in his arms and him and shoko take her back to wherever theyre staying or back to their actual house if they placed protection on it or something and clean her body and lay her down to rest for a few days. she wakes up a few days later than usual so probably like 5-6 and is crying, gojo is with her immediately, he comforts her, they talk, she asks about megumi, goes to see megumi, talks with him, etc. etc. okay i think thats it, im so sorry its alot to read but ive been thinking about this for dayss now and i just had to tell you about it😭 if you did read all this thank you and i hope you like my idea lol and have a good day/night/afternoon!! :)

my dearest darling nonnie I just wanna say thank u sm for this

knowing that people are thinking about my writing, honestly it makes me so unbelievably happy like that you have ideas about what I write? That’s just - amazing to me. Headcanons and things? Oh my good GOD it’s so wonderful

Also YES you’ve got the exact vibe I want for the series and the reader you’re incredible and I love you

And oh,

I’ve just posted this <3

[arillusionist]

s&b episode trheeeee s2 reaction

why are the intros so cool this season

i need one of them to punch him right now

stop for a second i thought it was gonna be the bathroom scene

i think that scene is in this episode it better be good 🙏🙏

so does nikolai just. not change his face in this. does he just sail around and hope nobody recognizes him?? im sure someone would recognize him

THE PUNCH 🔥🔥🔥

he better not tell alina that kaz snitched on her

is that that one girl nadia or something i forgot her name 💀

im so smart i was right

zoyaaaa i was wondering where she was

did they change her actor or smth? she looks different but tbh so did nadia maybe their makeup js changed idk

funny scene but i have no idea why they're even there what did kaz ask them to do

jespers face oh this is so when he fell in love with wylan

ok THIS is the bathroom scene it has to be

TELL HER THE DAMN REASON

stop the fact that he immediately turns around when she starts removing her vest because she knows that she had to do that in front of men at the menagerie...

SAY IT

ok he didnt say the i can help you thing but he told her!!!!

"then we destroy him" THE WAY SHE SAID IT 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

ik this is a cheap version of the bathroom scene but the tension is still Insane soo

"is there anyone to protect you" "was there no one to protect you" 🥺🥺🥺🥺

THEY'RE SO FUCKIN CLOSE AUGH

"the real one" ITS HERRRR

shes his weakness they make me so insane ☹️☹️☹️

THE EYE CONTACTT and i know you looked at his lips inej

i will actually kill nina

help the look she gave them and then the look she gave inej

"its not what you think" STOP LYING TO YOURSELF??

Time to rewatch the whole thing like 5 times 🙏🙏

the way she said "whats yours" im gonna kms

nina and inejs friendship is so sweet

i love how my reaction to one 3 minute (or whatever) scene was longer than my reaction to the other 25 minutes

"i recommend a cane" no words just. yeah

when hes covered in blood >>>

THE INEJ FIGHT SCENE IS IN THIS EPISODE TOO?? AHH

the hair swingggg

AND THE KNIFE FLICK

this is why inej is the best crow shes literally So fucking cool

"i know all the places too" I LOVE WHEN HER VOICE GOES RASPY

PLEASE INEJ JUST ONE CHANCE 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

she is literally the most badass character in this show

going from the kanej bathroom scene + kaz fight scene + inej fight scene to a darkling scene is literally the biggest downgrade ever

genya and alina reunion pleasee

show malina is literally SO much better oh my god - im halfway through siege and storm and i literally want to kill mal hes literally so possesive

and he still has the audacity to yell at alina??

"its your choice to make" SO MUCH BETTER

...no way that david guy just ran away? 😐

wylan flirting with jesper >>

kaz has no right looking that good when hes literally beaten up

Oh wylan is gonna hate jesper now

is matthias crazy

no making him fight a whole ass canibal is crazy i think wolves would be better

OHH NINAS THERE

the kerch really are heathens

i cant blame her if she attempts to kidnap kaz or whatever hes being very fucking annoying this season (which is very in character ofc but yeah)

stop why did i actually get scared by his scream 💀💀💀

shes probably gonna marry him i think theyre going a different route from the books

this episode Definitely had the best crow scenes so far

[sanchoyo]

arc v episodes 41-50 thoughts! :3

-41 answered a Lot of my questions and raised more, just like every other ep in the last stretch, lol. so, reiji got to academia when he was younger! (unclear how young exactly, but he looked between 14-15 if im being generous…? it said it was 3 years ago I think, so that puts him around 18? he looks older than 18 imo adjkf make him more babyfaced…) using a portal? did he build it or did he find it from where his dad mustve come thru it?

-interestingly, he says to his dad something like 'you abandoned me and mom!' …no mention of layra? were they not born yet? are they possibly an adopted refugee from xyz dimension? I say adopted bc 1. layra is clearly traumatized by SOMETHING and I think a War would fucking do that. 2. assuming they hadnt been born yet and his dad stayed in fusion dimension, his mom either got a new partner (and, we havent seen her with anyone else? except. maybe the bodyguard JKDSHKJF hes my other suspect. but then that wouldnt explain why theyre so TRAUMATIZED, either.) …or LEO had a kid with a woman in fusion world and tried to train them as a child soldier and reiji saved his new sibling?? like he was trying to save serena? I dont KNOW yet these are my Theories tho based on what weve been shown. yet layra is def older than 3 yrs old LMAO so where'd they come from...

-reiji's dad gives a vague statement like 'its to fuse the dimensions/combine them' or something. ok? how does that benefit you sir, and why is turning everyone from xyz into cards going to help with that? we keep seeing a big machine, and what looks like cards(?) being fed into it (I have to assume the cards ppl are trapped in) …many questions

-i KNOWWWW all the fusion kids are heavily indoctrinated so its hard for me to be mad at serena or sora, honestly, its clear she thinks leo is keeping her captive bc she thinks he thinks shes not strong enough. which is Wrong, clearly he wants to Use Her for Something, but she obv doesnt think that yet and wants to PROVE HERSELF just like sora wanted to do… reiji says smth like 'if you dont team up with me now we'll be enemies' which. I ALSO get since he wants to protect HIS city/world from his own father (very fucked and sad) its TOUGH though bc I like both of them n i dont want them to fight! she KNOWS reiji wanted to help her escape when she was little! AUGH. it hurts :( Im sure theyll be buds by the end of the series but Still I want them to be friends NOW!!!

-ok yuzu's dad being so HYPED to see her on tv being like 'THERE SHE ISSSS MY LITTLE GIRL SHES SO CUTE IM SO PROUD YESSS LOOK AT HER!!!' ME. ME TOO DUDE. WE ARE THE SAME. I KIN HER DAD NOW. I LOVE yuzu and want her to WIN!!!!

-'i'll never duel like I did against kachidoki again' yuya honey its ep 41 as I'm pausing to type this. You Absolutely Will. you're in a yugioh series. Be Genre Aware. you WILL go crazy Go Wild again. sorry! (i'm sure you and yuto will figure it out and itll be FINE in the end, but willing to bet it happens 2-3 more times before then

-interesting theres something called obelisk force…its been a MINUTE since I watched gx, but all of the dorms were named after slifer, obelisk, and ra, right? so…it implies the god cards still exist(ed?) in this world for fusion dimension to have called this force that, right? so dm..happened? ? is dm just the past of the fusion dimension, then? (but also, 5ds is implied to be the future from gx and exists separately somehow in another dimension and!!! AUGH!!! BRAIN WORKING SO HARD TO TRY TO GUESS HOW THIS ALL WORKS)

-leo implies he KNOWS why serena looks like yuzu but tells sora he doesnt need to know. but has he considered /i/ want to know. pls.

-very surprised sora is coming back this early at all, or is healed….i expected it to be a While! I hope yuzu and yuya talk him out of taking serena back tbh. theyre FRIENDS and he rly seemed to genuinely LIKE them. bet they'll have an Angsty duel over it…yuzu's dad immediately being like 'dw we'll get sora back!' he rly does kin me. sir we've been on the same wavelength since ep 1. hes my self insert

-ok yuya's mom makes me so uncomfortable with the constant 'michy' stuff. lady hes the same age as your son, chill…and root for your actual son, tf. cringefail mom

-can I just say how I love in entertainment dueling everyone has a Gimmick. theres samurais. there's literal Knights. idol girl duelists. its so FUN, of course you'd have a THEME to stand out! to an extent its always been that way for pro duelists in ygo I feel like, or at least ppls decks reflected them a bit, and this feels like a natural progression of that. like, yuya leans into the circus theme a BIT but he could commit more to it imo. bring back the full clown outfit from ep 1. or a ringleader outfit like his dad seems to have? thatd be FUN. -actually, do you think he knows Circus Stuff? like can yuya juggle. can he ride a unicycle. can he make balloon animals. etc. go all in or go home.

-ok…so reiji's plan to keep the city from panicking about the other dimensional invaders looking for serena is…to turn the city into a huge duel grounds for a battle royale for the tournament. surely the entire city's population isnt in that stadium/indoors… I GUESS he trusts his lil squad to go duel them all, but we already know all the duelists who are in the tournament will be involved and have to step in since theyre the main characters…why not just?? tell them too?? I feel like theyd all be willing to duel to Save Their City & be able to keep it secret..surprising them with it is a dick move.

-i know. i KNOW before even checking that every single human person whos watched this show sees olga and thinks the same damn thing. shes an elsa anna frozen fusion. but she IS! SHE IS!!!! JSDKFJJK.

-the kid yuzu is dueling is SO cute. the ENGLISH LMAO. WHY IS IT RANDOM ENGLISH WORDS AND NOT TURKISH OR KURDISH?? hes from anatolia! his clothes dont look quite right from what I can tell, either… confused. but at least hes super nice despite my..qualms about how he's being portrayed otherwise…yuya, meanwhile, is dueling some ASSHOLES.

-btw can I just say I appreciate the pacing here? showing multiple duels with minor charas in one ep so we can get to the more important ones faster? not that I SUPER mind fillerish eps lol

-dennis…from BROADWAY LDS?? like CALIFORNIA?? I mean he has an incredibly American Name so. I assume thats right but…lmao. american guy. tbh when he got penalized for entering a duel and lost 2000 lp, yuya shouldve lost that duel. he was down to 200 lp, the other player was going to win before dennis did that. why is yuya not out entirely? idc if the opposing duelists are dicks. they werent CHEATING or anything, having him stay in and DENNIS ONLY getting penalized is stupid. I KNOW I'm supposed to want to take yuyas side here, and I do let a good bit of 'bc hes the protag!' bullshit slide (like always magically getting the right cards, thats ygo standard! but stuff like this annoys me…sometimes its ok for him to take the L. (ok, and I still think itd be funny for a protag not to win a championship thing…)

-dennis said 'yeehaw' while riding his monster. this deserved its own mention

-dennis was able to snap yuya out of his lil Moment, which is Good. he IS an accurate portrayal of a californian, tho. I will not elaborate.

-ep 44 called sora attacks. insert the 'we are fucking under attack' meme (NO BUT REALLY I DIDNT REALIZE I MISSED HIM SO MUCH. I GUESS. HES MY SONBOY NOW. JDKHFJKN GLAD HES COMING BACK!! MENTALLY PREPPING!! FOR ANGST)

-halil and olga and michio are all such cute minor charas i want them to be a bff trio…

-immediately the way dennis cornered yuzu gave me HIVES where did he pull that rose from. it didnt feel like he was hitting on her like the parents thought (btw yoko continues to be extremely Weird about kids her sons age…eugh), it felt vaguely Bad Vibes. why was it framed like that D: cannot say I trust him very much now! (esp since he very quickly introduced himself as yuyas friend…then again. americans are Kind of Like that. I speak from experience when I say when I talk about acquaintances to other ppl ill be like 'oh my friend said/did this or that' SO. CANNOT RLY TALK PERSONALLY.)

-halil's english is better than dennis's and dennis is supposed to be american, lmao

-yuya and shun talking abt all the dimensional stuff/yuto on live tv…just air all the laundry guys. (but also, reiji very quickly cut the feeds when the academia warriors showed up, so…good for him to keep public panic down ig…even tho im of the opinion maybe the public Should Know, tbh)

-sora being in charge of a bunch of fusion goons that look like grown ass adults LMAO imagine taking orders from a 13 yr old. embarrassing

-'thats against the rules!' is the funniest thing you could say as a reaction to seeing your friend get turned into a duel monster card before your very eyes.

-lunalights are so godamn cute im going to DIE if I dont make a deck of them immediately

-ohhkay there was a visual of yuya and yuto walking side by side and the pendulum necklace swinging between them. this is symbolism right. theyre the two sides of the swinging scale, but their feelings of rage are united in this little duel against obelisk force (yuto seeing heartlanders get carded, yuya seeing the knights earlier get carded) …i SAID EARLIER yuya repressing emotions is BAD (smile when u wanna cry is BAD advice) and this feels like. well. 2 of their Rages Overlayed (hehe xyz metaphor) but really…not unjustified rage? what the fusion dimension is doing is fucked up! its ok! to be mad about it and fight back!

-ok, the entire city got SEALED OFF FOR THE BATTLE ROYALE. ENTIRELY. TOTALLY INSANE THING TO DO REIJI, BUT I GET IT. its keeping people safe. but i imagine the ppl of the city are like, majorly inconvenienced over this…it only last 24 hours, right? still would be Annoying

-yoko could you act fucking concerned about your son instead of being weird about teenagers. for ONE second. then she made a very fucking gross racial comment about halil TOO MY GOD throw this whole woman away that is so creepy and bad. i wanted to like her bc she adopts lil animals and stuff and is involved which is rare for a ygo parent, but them playing these comments for jokes is legit making me grossed out and mad

-'you may not exit during the battle royale' WHAT. I GET THE REAL REASON WHY. BUT NO WAY PPL WOULD STAY IN A STADIUM 24 HOURS STRAIGHT. AT LEAST NOT EVERYONE…TF.

-yugo seems so confused constantly and I relate. 'every time this glows I get teleported!' dude. sound a little more worried! also something very funny about everyone constantly misnaming him and the SUBTITLES ALSO DOING IT BY CALLING HIM HUGO. also just revving his bike aggressively like 'STOP BEING UNCONSCIOUS' LMAO??? hes so funny already. also his hair color combo is so cute, 2nd fav yu design next to yuri so far (cannot beat pink+purple combo, tho)

-hey. gongenzaka pinning yuya while theyre both pinned under a column and yuya thrashing and yelling n growling while his eyes are glowing? straight out of the fucking exorcist. huge fan of whatever the hell is going on. then everyones pinning him, HE BIT AND PUNCHED SOMEONE TRYING TO ESCAPE. VERY very concerned as to why the hell hes suddenly a fucking Demon but alright! kind of obsessed with the vibes of that. More Feral Protags in general

contender for funniest screenshot yet. seriously, there had better be a ton of paranormal aus for this shit since its CANON hes posessed by Some Sort of Demon, right.

-OK…so meiru is legit, since she can see two souls in yuya…AND SOME KIND OF DARKNESS TRYING TO 'OVERWHELM THE TWO SOULS' WHAT THE HELL IS THAT. SOME KIND OF OUTER DIMENSIONAL DEMON?? (this is ygo, so it would be some kind of evil Card Spirit or something I Bet…) CHRIST DID NOT EXPECT THAT. DO AN EXOCISM FOR THAT AND LEAVE YUTO IN THERE…WE CAN ALL BE BUDS AFTER THAT

-aww the ninjas are surprisingly chill bros! I really really like them ;w; just guys who help for the sake of being good and kind!!

-is he…….u know…..

?

-I get the logic behind yuzu and serena switching clothes and appreciate serena being at least willing to try to hear shun out. however, how would u realistically mistake them for each other w their hair being SO different even when their faces are the Same. and also, so far, yuzu and serena didnt have the same reaction yuto/yuzu had. to be FAIR those boys didnt freak out and go murdery until their monsters resonated in a duel, I think. still, it cracks me up how RATIONAL and calm the girls were scheming together. yuzu real protag for real now that yuya is possessed. he must be the damsel yuzu saves from his own inner demons. >:3

-dennis is with yuri/fusion world. knew he was sus. never trust an american (wait is he fr american or just pretending LMAO has he ever actually been to broadway. I need to know)

-WHY THE HELL WERE THEY SLEDDING IN A BATHTUB? WHERE DID THEY GET THAT.

-yuzu thinking yuri is yugo. my god this series like like. the parent trap x4… 'ruri and rin' so now we have all (4) yuya and yuzu counterpart names, right? …weird how yuya's are all yu names but serena, rin, yuzu, and ruri seem to have..no naming scheme in common that I can tell?? maybe it's one of those things that makes more sense when reading it in japanese or something…

-oh my god yugo is THEE definition of 'idk whats going on but its FUCKED and im gonna HELP without THINKING' HE IS PERFECT.

-WOW. shingo forced himself into reijis lil batcave . love that for him, yes come back to the plot!!! force your way into the plot!!!

-cannot stop laughing over yuzu just teleporting yuri away. goodbye forever!

-yuya confirmed yuto isnt whats making him go crazy, it for SURE is some kind of Demon (HIS OWN WORDS.) I…my theory so far was smth abt both of them together and their feelings mixing was what was causing it bc of some kind of interdimensional clash or smth. but nope. demon. where did it COME FROM. WHY IS IT IN HIM?? HOW LONG AS IT BEEN IN HIM?? WEVE NEVER HAD HINT OF IT BEFORE THE OTHER YU'S SHOWED UP.

-I WONDER if its the reason he can pendulum summon? how does that ability fit in? this dimension is 'standard' apparently and all the other summoning methods are here. in all other 3 dimensions, theres only (1) method. so. either 'standard' is actually 'pendulum' dimension and something happened where all the other dimensions kinda leaked in, or…theres another?? dimension?? or pendulum is smth…from outside of the main 4…? are we SURE there's only four, bc I know Link Summoning is also a thing in later series, lol... (also..it is called arc v..v being a roman numeral for 5, right?...or?? does it stand for smth at all? gonna be real honest, I still dont kno what the gx or 5ds in gx/5ds stood for. lol)

-ok, crazy theory…its from outside of the dimensions (like, a… space eldritch being) that snuck into this one and got into yuya like yuto seems to be (is…yuto going to be able to get out of yuya at any point btw JKSDHFK how conscious is he at any given time? ? is he like. like hes ALIVe right, kind of…in spirit form for some reason, unclear on details. can we take him back to xyz world n he'll be able to pop out again. JSADSJDFK REMAINING HOPEFUL. I cant even be sad about him 'dying' bc i still dont. believe he is dead for reals)

-yuya's demon is obv evil and malicious. actually, BOTH YUTO /AND/ YUGO earlier had the 'kill destroy bite kill' eye glowy moment. so it begs the question if the demon thing isnt in ALL of them somehow…ok, furthering my Theory, the demon split into 4s and went into all of them since they seem to be kinda the same personish but in diff dimensions/raised differently?? and maybe yuris more fucked up than the others bc 1. childhood indoctrination 2. giving into that Things influence more? dont rly know but this is my Theory given what we KNOW when im typing this (ep 47)

-yuya then goes on to say no matter what he will duel with smiles and stuff. $5 says hes gonna befriend that demon too s0 yami and yugi style. this is ygo I KNOW friendship can tame the Beast. or theyll rip it out and duel it. or have an 'inside your inner mind' duel with it. or something like that…have the other yu's had experiences with it or did it rly not start acting up until they met? hm

-the V in arc V stands for Very Curious…

-SHUN FELL DOWN THE STAIRS. OOF. rolled all the way down…………feel bad for laughing but I did . I laughed A Lot

-ok, the demon thing seems to respond to strong negative emotions (every time someone gets carded, sora not listening to yuya when he was trying to tell him this was wrong…) yuya was able to calm It Down by thinking of yuto's…last words���but like. he Needs to Feel His Feelings at some point. (and id argue being mad in this situation is perfectly justified, like, any other time, if he didnt have a rage demon in him?? feels a bit like a bruce banner/hulk situation…) I cant wait for the yuya learns yoga and meditation arc

-i knew sora and yuya were about to duel. he keeps saying 'we were NEVER friends I was just messing around whatever we cant become FRIENDS from a DUEL' have some genre awareness dude. ur gonna be friends. or else. (but also, he never seemed like he was malicious towards anyone in standard. hes actually told yuya to back off several times bc he . obv doesnt WANT to hurt him or prob didnt want him involved in the first place…theyre FRIENDSSS. i love ygo friend plots so much. makes me all warm and fuzzy :)c )

-we got layras first lil smile AAAAHG im so glad…baby deserves to smile (and it was bc the other kid said they were like reiji AWW cmon man. thats cute…)

-sorry, I just realized…has shingo been swapping his deck types each duel?? JASDHF LAST TIME IT WAS LIKE, FURRIES OR SOMETHING. NOW ITS DIFFERENT…. thats so funny, has there ever been a character to do that? (ik the protags usually get new cards over the course of the shows, but not entirely new decks…)

-ok, ok, it must be pointed out, while she was running from yuri, yuzu did some SICK flips (and she did some cool gymnastic moves in her duel with masumi), and sora did some sick flips too during his duel with yuya. in the entertainment duel school do they get taught gymnastics, too? like they must, right? very fun. side note, every time sora does these stupid little flips with his suckers in his mouth i keep worrying hes gonna choke JKSDHK

-'/I/ chased academia away!' yes shingo you absolutely did, great job bud.

-there was NO need for reiji to stand like this up there. lmao extra king

-yuya got worried when they all realized serena ISNT yuzu, then looked at sora (accusingly?) and sora immediately Ran Away. where u goin bud? going to find ur friend yuzu, perhaps?

-yuya rly said 'who gives a fuck abt the lancers. ppl are being CARDED, REIJI.' and CRIED. do NOT like yuya tears :( but also, he needs it. let it out dude, cry as much as u need to. this is scary and ur 14.

-holy shit, new op already??? uhhh op 1 still my favorite in terms of song for sure, but thats def new domino right? and JACK MY FRIEND JACK!!!! IN THE OPENING!!!!!! HIIIII JACK :D so excited…… it looks like yuzu's gonna be hangin out with yugo in new domino for a bit which is SO FUN!!! living such a hot girl summer with her many yu-friends

-im glad serena clarified it wasnt reiji's fault,, bc like. hes been trying to HELP nonstop and has been organizing stuff like the lancers for that. also, serena in general is just super cool and honest such a chad <3 (I do understand yuya being angry over this tho, he thinks yuzu was carded…)

-oh the abrupt duel between reiji and yuya when reijis just trying to explain what happened to heartland lol…ok? it was like. very sudden. I know its yuto inside of yuya getting worked up, but yuto is the one who was willing to explain it earlier to yuya many many eps ago, so..why is he suddenly freaking out? reiji kind of lacks tact but he wasnt being overly rude or anything, and he fr is just trying to protect their home, so…?? everyone CHOSE to fight, its not like reiji was puppeting them like yuya keeps saying tbh…you think any of ur friends wouldve sat around while their home was under attack?? feels like yuya is just upset and needs someone to direct it at whos in front of him, but its severely misdirected anger

-very funny shun and serena are just standing on the sidelines, calmly talking, while reiji and yuya are dueling. if anything the two of them should be the ones mad since theyre on opposite sides of a war, but theyre so…open to talking!! why are reiji and yuya the ones dueling lmao!!

-'I HavE nO inTEntION OF JOinING THE laNCErs' yuya says, then 5 seconds later: ed starts showing 'LANCER SELECTION' with yuya in the middle and hanging out with all of them LMAOOO ur the main character u dont get to Not Join the Little Mandatory Club to save the World. yaaay serena seems to be in it too! I kinda figured she would so not a huge surprise, considering shes been so willing to listen and have her mind changed p easily. I really like her, yuzu is still my fav girl in arc v but serena is Very Cool :)

-also, new ED is def my favorite out of the first 3! (guessing there'll either be 5 or 6 in the end, gonna try and keep track and rank them at the end...so far this 3rd ED and the first OP are my favs!)

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

ok before i forget and the episode comes out im gonna just write down 4 my own sake what i think is gonna happen on tonights owl house episode (well technically tonights but i think id rather think abt it as tmrws bc it comes out at like 3am so ill watch it in the morning).

anyways most likely it begins like exactly where we left off anddd the collectors new game is this like dream sequence type shit w im assuming either like fucking idk. luzs biggest fears or how the collector views luz. or like both ? idk. but like her biggest fears bc i mean she sees herself as literally as bad as belos so thats im guessing like everyone else also thinks the her being in his clothes type shit. and then also that one scene with her friends all in like their old clothes kinda echoing that one season 1 ep 2 scene. im guessing the reason theyre in each of those clothes is bccc errr. well theyre not from the same time that much is clear.  id like to say theyre from the worst times of their life or whatever but that doesnt make sense 4 gus bc grom wasnt like. bad 4 him ? unless theyre all being forced into kinda roles like luz is too ? but that seems like it only rlly makes sense 4 amity n hunter bc hunters in his golden guard uniform n amitys just in her. Default Boiling Isle clothes ig ? which i GUESS could be like when she was around her mum ??? but then why not go full out and give her the green hair again ???? im just confused abt that part honestly unless it was to do w just significant parts of luzs life but then again why the fuck is gus in his grom outfit. anyways im obsessing 2 much over that one scene. er. ok um. anyways luz does this whole dream sequence thing for someee reason anddd. well belos n raine have their like fight im guessing. maybe bc likeeee idk eda does smth and we get some raeda angst maybe ??? and then bla bla belos possesses the titan oopsie doopsie. wait. wait ni that wouldnt rlly make sense. bc like the titans kinda fucked up. and we saw he couldnt possess grimwalker corpses anymore bc they were all fucked up n rotted. and the titan is likeeee loadsssss older than caleb so that wouldnt make sense. unless its like he can possess the body but cant move it much rlly beyond like environmental horror. like a humphrey omori type deal. except big humphrey is dead. and bones. and fucking hates air conditioning. and is a puritan. anyways errr yeah and thennnn eda n king becomee fuckinnn rabid n shit. king looks much bigger in that one scene tho so maybe he like becomes So Rabid he gets all titany n shit or whatever idfk. errrr. idk what like the hexquad n co would do. bc theres no way toh team would have time to give them all their own dream sequence stuff. and it wouldnt make sense bc the collector only rlly has it out for luz bc hes jealous of her for being besties w king. so like. idk. maybe they just like vibe. or hhave a big heart 2 heart moment. errrr. kindaaa hoping honestly that huntlow doesnt get a big like wow rainbows hearts scene like lumity did because having their sorta quiet understanding of mutual feelings feels more fitting for them yknow. but i wouldnt complain if they got smth big n obvious i just think itd be more fitting if they got smth sorta quiet and subtle. errr and thennnnn err fuckinnn. everyone comes together to save the day and kill belos and let that old man fuckin die already. and thennnn luz decides like fuck it we got a portal who says u cant live in 2 realms at once eda did it why the fuck wont u copy her. anddd they all lived happily ever after the end. oh andddd eda n camila meet n they do NOT have a mum fight because they both LOVE each othe because they both love LUZ and they are both GRATEFUL that the other took CARE of her and the end. oh and hooty becomes door again. the end part 2. and then disney blows up and everyone cheers and the end part 3.

[minahoeshi]

you were loved the most of all.

Ushijima Wakatoshi x reader | break-up angst

summary: You should've known that when Ushijima Wakatoshi found it easy to fall in love with you, it might be even easier for him to fall out of it. But who expects the worst when it comes to loving someone as seemingly perfect as him, anyway?

Chapter 1 of 2

Chapter 2 of 2

He said it was easy to fall in love with you. He said he didn’t know when exactly, at which place, nor for what reason. Simply one day, Ushijima Wakatoshi found himself looking at you with the epiphany that maybe there’s something more meant to happen between you and him. There you stood before him that day, the person he could promise love to. (And there he stood before you that moment, the boy whose promises you found yourself believing in no matter what.)

So maybe that’s why it was even easier for him to fall out of love. When he told you he was no longer in love with you, it didn’t matter to you to ask when exactly, at which place, or for what reason. Even the universe itself is meant to fizzle out one day along with the death of the stars. Just one more person drifting away from you like a lone planet with no real orbit shouldn’t leave you broken. You are used to this. You won’t fall apart.

But you break anyway.

It was snowing outside when he decided to tell you to end things now before it hurts both of you even further. Not that the snow has anything to do with the coldness creeping up your chest threatening to spill out of you in endless sobs. You were glad, though. That at the very least, he remained honest with his feelings. He never left you guessing. Every time, he never forgets to tell you what’s on his mind. His honesty is something he thought was necessary.

“I understand, don’t worry. Thank you for telling me right away. I know you’re also considering me–” you tell him and choke up. There are tears running down your face but you’re not worried about that. Wakatoshi never let you mask your emotions around him. For the longest time, he reminded you to feel free to be completely bare with him. All the good and the bad, he said. Don’t be afraid to show them to me. I will always understand.

He steps closer and puts you between his arms. You feel his chin on top of your head as you lean your face into his chest. You’re sobbing now. “I’ll be fine, Toshi. We’ll be fine.”

He kisses the top of your head and lets you stay in his arms for minutes. “I loved you then, and I love you still. It’s just that they’re no longer the same kind. I will stay if you ask me to, okay? Anything you want.”

This only makes you cry harder. He’s always been too good. And even in breaking your heart, he’s too good. You want him to hold on. You want to ask him to stay with you for years and years. Even with a different kind of love, you’ll let him be as long he’s close by. But someone like him who has dreams beyond yourself shouldn’t ever be with someone like you who still lacks certainty toward anything.

“Just for tonight,” you ask, still crying. “Can I stay?”

“of course,” he replies. Anytime you want. Anything you want. It has always been this way.

Because humans are creatures of routines and familiarity, you spend that night the way you usually do when you’re at his place. You cook dinner with him and eat on the dining table, sharing stories and laughter. You keep adding food to his plate and he smiles as you giggle at everything you find funny.

It’s okay, it’s okay. You’ll be okay. You’ll be fine.

You clean the kitchen and stay in the living room. He leans on the couch as you lay down with your head on his lap. You keep talking and laughing. He goes along, sometimes adding things to make you laugh even more, sometimes simply agreeing, sometimes asking questions. You keep it loud and light, afraid of the silence. Inside you, it’s so heavy, your heart might just fall off. This will be the last, you tell yourself. You want to be happy for now. While he’s still here.

"Do me a favor, okay?" You tell him as you're nearing slumber. "Let me leave first tomorrow. Maybe stay in bed, maybe pretend you're asleep. But tomorrow, don't get out of the room until I've left the house." Your voice shakes, feeling yourself wanting to sob.

"I don't want to wake up to another empty bed but I don't want to see your face when I wake up too," you curl into him even further. "I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry I still don't really know what to do. And I know you wake up pretty early and you know, do stuff, but just for tomorrow, please?"

Wakatoshi didn't really understand why. He originally planned on cooking breakfast for you and taking you to the train station. He would watch you board the train and he'd make sure to smile at you as he waves. You always waved back. That's how it works. Even after fights, and even after especially bad nights, you'd still do the same. Watching you leave with a smile was how you both knew you'd still be fine the days after. That nothing much can affect your relationship. For years, this has been the routine.

But tomorrow, he knows he has to give way. He knows what he said hurt you. It would be wrong of him to do what he wants simply because he's used to.

Tomorrow's the last, he realises. And then if you want, he'd never see you again.

--

You wake up pretty early. The sky is a calm shade of blue, the world outside still waking up. You check the time on your phone and find it's 6 AM. Last night, you slept with your back on him. The sight before you is the other end of his bedroom and you notice just how much of yourself you've managed to leave around his place. Pieces of just one other person in his life, scattered in places around his world pretending that’s just where they belong. You didn't mind leaving things behind back then. You never really thought of the day that you might’ve to take back all of them. Just how does one pick up parts of themselves when they thought they’ve finally found a place for them to stay?

But as you stand up, you conclude that when things end, traces shouldn’t be left behind. He didn’t decide to break up only to be reminded of you even after you’re no longer close to him. So you go and pick every little thing that's yours. Even your jacket and sweaters and a few pairs pyjamas in his closet. You'll just take his things from your place too and hand it to Tendou's shop. Coming back here won’t do you any good. Him coming to your place instead wouldn’t either.

Collecting all your things, even the ones you can't use anymore, you leave the bedroom and enter the living room. You don't have many belongings here aside from some DVDs and books. You only take the books and leave the rest for him. You've always preferred reading anyway.

Setting your bag and things aside on the sofa, you go ahead and wash yourself in the bathroom and bring your toothbrush and some other products with you when you're done. You then head to the kitchen to cook him something light to eat for breakfast . You knew you didn't have to. He knows how to cook. It has always been him cooking breakfast for you. When you could, you’d rather stay in bed until the very moment you must start preparing to go to uni or work. But you did anyway. He's probably in his bed, awake. He has never been a heavy sleeper. With all the moving you did around his room, he was bound to wake up if he wasn't already.

You make him a simple omelette and write a small message on top of it with ketchup. "Good luck with practice today!"

You've already cleaned everything you used, preferring to wash and set utensils as soon as you're done with them. That way, when you're sitting down to eat, there won't be any cluster around to distract you.

You put the ketchup down and decide that should be enough. You'll stop here. You should go now.

Ushijima is sitting on his bed. He's been awake since 5 AM when he usually goes on his run. It isn't the first time he chose to stay with you instead of going out, but he can't help but feel heavy this time. He stayed in for you. But as the minutes pass by, it seems that he simply cannot find the courage to sit up and face you.

He wants to sink into his bed.

There's knock on the door followed by sentences uttered softly. "Toshi, I'm going now. There's breakfast on the table. Make sure to eat before you go."

There goes the heavy feeling again. Maybe if this keeps up, he might just actually sink and never get back up.

You've done that a few times. Leaving while he's still in the room. You don't even open the door. You simply knock and tell him you're about to go, always reminding him to eat before he goes too.

But this will be the last, he thinks. If you leave now, will he never see you again?

a/n

chapter 2 will be up soon not rly sure when tho. (it's up now the link is at the top)

also, im not entirely sure but i think i didnt use any pronouns or gendered nouns for this except "girl" in the 1st paragraph which i erased just now? if i'm right, then i hope everyone reading this get to feel as though theyre rly the person in the story. unless ofc u dont want that bc this isnt the happiest ushitoshi x reader fic u can find🥲. but thanks for reading!!!! m so sorry for typos nd other errors as well. i kinda cant read my own writings bc sometimes doing so makes me wanna smack myself in the head and never write again nd i hate that so now im leaving my mistakes to the gods nd hope they love me enough or smth. but yes thank u sm again for reading!!!!

[lunatic-fandom-space]

Time for episode 15 lets hope Garroths not fucken dead

Oh man the doctors voice

The opening scene stays exactly the same, I might have to adjust the doctor's line about the Lord of Brightport being missing for a week now, bc I might change the timeline a bit there

Im making it so thats nighttime during that opening scene and when Aph leaves for Brightport for the sake of ~°•*Atmosphere*•°~

Her little exchanges w/ the doctor n Dale stay the same (save for his mention of Thorgi), I would linger a bit more on Aphmau looking Garroth whos breathing heavily and struggling n stuff

Kiki is sitting at some kind of table or on a chair while Brendan is pacing around a few meters away from Garroth, Kikis dialogue stays the same but she just gives Aph the doll rather than telling her its inside the chest

Brendans dialogue stays the same, Aphmau actually tries to say something to him about how its not his fault but he just goes "No." and then leaves, maybe Kiki follows

After that she goes out, asks Emmalyn to make sure Meowki doesnt die while shes gone and packs everything else she needs, I'll say that she has a golden sword (maybe she got when fighting zombies one day or smth) but its kinda broken so. thats not great

Im cutting her exchanges w/ Donna, Logan n Zoey, theyre kinda pointless and I want her to get to Brightport right after packing everything, so no going to the plaza (I might give Logan some dialogue about how he feared he was set up for failure here but is grateful Donna got him to stay, once everything is settled though)

While shes sailing, shes already thinking about how to best convince the Lord of Brightport to help, shes not really thinking about finding him or how to find bc she doesnt even want to think about the possibility of not being able to find and bring him over to Garroth in time

She arrives and is greeted by Azura, I find the way she greets her really weird though?? Like, they killed zombies together and Aphmau tried to talk (ig) but she went all Professional Guard on her (as she should tbh), so this is just idk. weird to me. I think Aphmau should approach her and Azura should be more like "Oh its you! I remem-" only for Aph to interrupt her and tell her all about Garroth in a panic

The rest of the convo pretty much continues the same way it does in the OG, I'll just tweak the dialogue itself later bc it sounds particularly unnatural here to me

Also, Visher's wife does have a name and its Merida, I was very off

So yea, then Aphmau rushes off to Merida, (maybe she pushes some people around bc shes in such a hurry idk) and talks to her

I'll keep Merida's greeting but move the "I trust youve taken care of the one who killed my husband" line bc idk man, it sounds so unnatural there too, I'll just have Aphmau cut her off too and ask her about the missing Lord. Merida gets kinda upset and says her line ("I trust youve taken care etc etc"), Aphmau answer truthfully and Merida responds the way she does in the OG

So Merida throws her out, Aphmau begs her to help but she keeps ignoring her, Aphmau starts to despair and almost runs off to try and find help elsewhere but then she notices this kid John who seemingly heard everything

Her exchange w/ John is the same, maybe I'll extend it a little but its mostly fine

Then she asks around in order to find this cabin, (she doesnt just enter qny of the houses) has some interactions w/ the Brightportians who are all on high alert, maybe theyre kinda snapping at Aphmau and she starts getting even more anxious

She tries looking through some of the house"s windows and sees that the inhabitant of one of them is passed out and when she checks the door, she notices that she can easily open it. She's kinda like "Uhhhhhhhh this is a really bad thing to do, but Ive got no time to lose and I'll just quickly check this house for this friend of John's and then I'll leave right away" before sneaking

She sees the wolf child in the cell and shes like. "is that what John meant?? I mean, werewolves are apparently A Thing so this actually makes a lot of sense" and then she just breaks the door open. I mean, she tries to be delicate and quiet about it bc theres a guy sleeping but still.

She opens the door, has the same exchange w/ the wolf child she has in the OG and grabs them

Aph is just about to leave the basement when Uh Oh, the hunter got woken up by her breaking down the door and is now standing right there! Fortuntely for Aphmau, hes all groggy and confused and hangover n all that, so she pulls some manuvers and ends up locking him in his own basement. Shes panicking at this point and just runs out of the house, wolf child in arms, everyone can see her but no one stops her as she runs as far away into like, the woods as possible

Wooooooooo done w/ this one now finally

[zontiky]

au where lila is adopted imto the umbrella academy

*rubs my gay little hands together* heehee hoohoo

first off im gonna say sorry diego :/ 

KJRWKESFDHK JOKING IM JOKING SORRY

so lila grows up to be less of a manipulative shit bc she doesnt need it to survive or gain love from her parent

no thats not right

she receives real/”real” love from grace and reggie doesnt even pretend to give them love so unlike the handler who used love as leverage

so while lila is still cunning and sly and shit she also doesn’t try so hard to manipulate the hargreeves, bc, theyre her family

controversial take but i think lila and five would be close

this take is also hilarious but maybe only to me

both of them are good at getting things done and getting their way and also maybe it has smth to do with lila really liking how fives powers work?

it would really hit her hard when five leaves. bc that was her friend right there. maybe she and ben and/or vanya form a bond based on being bitter five left them behind

lila and ben would be a good friendship i would like to see it

six seven eight hanging out... hhh

OOOH MAYBE VANYA WOULD BE 8? because she’s powerless now? no no the number system existed before their powers came in nvm

its arbitrary so w/e lila’s #8 kjshssd

i think it’d once again be harder to blank slate vanya because,,  lila can use vanyas powers. she knows vanya has powers. maybe im not making any sense but also i just think it’d be nice for vanya to catch a break

maybe when little allie tries to rumour lila into forgetting lila pulls out that uno reverse card

or uno DEFLECT card lmao

but assuming vanya is still powerless, i still think vanya would have a bit of a better upbringing than canon

1) vanya has TWO other girls in the house who hang out with her and do girl things and yay sisters! 2) lila... gets it. her powers are reliant on the other’s powers. without them using their powers first, she basically has nothing. she gets it! vanya may be completely powerless but lila doesn’t have powers unless they’re training or they’re fighting and so vanya and lila would be close too

maybe vanya still gets some training bc of that! because if lila, part-time powerless, trains, and doesn’t use powers for half of battles, maybe vanya, “powerless,” can train and fight too

and i know this isnt a good thing bc like. hellooo child soldiers lmao?? but also vanya would feel like shes more of a part of the family and would have a friend by her side and maybe wouldnt even want to write the book in the first place

but also at the end of s1, when it’s discovered vanya DOES have powers, and they’re the most powerful of them all, actually, maybe lila grows bitter

i mean wouldnt you? the one person who was “less” than you, who you were better than in even the slightest way, is suddenly the baddest bitch around

so that sets up some interesting stuff for s2 haha

maybe ben doesn’t die

with another person on the mission, maybe somebody has his back. maybe ben doesn’t die

that’s assuming ben’s death was accidental tho bc we’ve all seen the death-by-horror-suicide theories

but anyway maybe lila stops ben’s death just by being there and fighting other people so ben has one more person covering him. maybe she’s there and it doesn’t matter and ben dies anyway. idk

if ben dies anyway then i think lila would be Extra Bitter but also really sad

five left her and now ben too? the people she cares most about keep getting torn away from her

and that’s not a good way to think because obviously her other siblings are hurting too, and theyre there with her too, and theyre there to do their best to support her in their own shitty way, and lila cares about them too...

but still. 

also tho lila and diego friendship... this is jumping back up a couple bullets back to before or right after five left

in s2 lila and diego both being in the asylum together would still be funny. lila pulls the bacon out of her sock and diego rolls his eyes and takes it, not even phased, because she’s been doing this for yearsss

ok if five doesnt leave and ben doesn’t die i think they might have a bit of a better life post-academy? but also if five does and ben does then i have no idea what lila would be

maybe she opens a shop

yeah i think that would be nice. lila’s store au JHSFKJHKSD

i think she might follow one of the siblings (diego or vanya) in their career paths bc its been drilled into her from the beginning that shes nothing without someone else to copy

maybe diego bc he still has powers... maybe she’d want to keep at least some powers

but if vanya didnt get suppressed or still got trained at least i think she’d go with vanya because they just do better together and diego is a bootlicker anyway /j but no seriously i get why he chose the police academy but also why not a fucking firefighter bitch?

FIREFIGHTER LILA. I LIKE THAT

maybe vanya plays in the orchestra and lila plays in a band

OK BUT IF BEN DOES DIE. maybe she follows klaus around for a bit because she cant bear to let ben go and when she copies klaus’ powers she can see him... even if just for a bit

that would impact ben’s arc a lot too because he’s not completely alone with only klaus, who is high out of his mind most of the time to keep him company, but also lila too, who i dont think would mess with drugs

so basically lila being added to the mix would mean everyone is just a little less alone i think

maybe luther is also less... mm idk how to put this

maybe he’s disillusioned a bit earlier regarding reggie? because he’s supposed to be #1 and the best but lila can do just what he can too. she can lift cars and throw people from buildings too. so how special is he really?

GOD i love thinking abt this. lila would impact all of their stories, in major or minor ways, and its really cool to explore how that would transpire

i think allison might also be a bit humbler before stepping into marriage in regards to using her powers

because if someone uses her own power on her as she’s growing up i feel like she’d learn that doing that has big consequences faster? maybe she’d still rumour her way into some roles or some classy interviews or just in general use her powers to help her career a bit... but i think with her knowing what its like to be rumoured she wouldn’t use it in personal situations. so maybe she wouldnt rumour claire.

maybe claire doesn’t exist at all bc it’s implied she rumoured patrick into falling in love with her :bonk: or maybe she still married patrick but later on because their relationship needs to develop first

oh also maybe pogo would be less of a BITCH in s1 because lila is persuasive tm 

yeah um thats all ive got alsfkds

THIS IS A FUN GOOD AU. i hope u like my Thoughts

[donnieluvsthings]

anyway i’m still thinkin about roceit newsies au...this got SO LONG its basically a bullet fic of the whole plot at this point but uh enjoy!!! its has all the sides and remy and emile bc i rly wanted to shove them all in here aldkaldka

this is based on the musical mostly bc i have never watched the original movie all the way thru oops

roman is jack and remus is crutchie (thanks boop). remus does crazy stunts even with his crutch and roman is Constantly Worried TM and overprotective of remus even tho remus can DEF take care of himself

on the other hand remus knows roman hates working as a newsboy and just wants to escape to some small town where he can become a local artist of some sort. remus wants roman to go CHASE his DREAMS even tho he’s afraid roman might leave him behind

roman may be the actor but remus is great at coming up with gruesome yet intriguing headlines that get people to buy papers and would totally be a great author of some sort

ON THAT NOTE roman dreams of santa fe and can picture it perfectly but whenever he tries to explain it, it comes out as senseless rambling and longing. it’s remus who can really put into words what roman feels (bc theyre bros and they just GET each other)

virgil as davey, patton as les, logan as sarah (its the musical but they have an extra sibling okay. let me have older brother logan)

virgil and patton show up and virgil is super untrusting and hates that theyre basically lying to get people to buy papers but patton is just EXCITED to meet New People!!! and looks up to roman (and remus), like, instantly

it helps that roman promises to take them to a real actual theater after they sell all their papers owned by the one the only emile picani !!!

also roman is the one who first calls him “virge” which is like jack saying “davey” instead of david. yes this is necessary information

so they sell their papers (and roman briefly meets an ESPECIALLY handsome guy wink wink) and go see emile who performs some variant of That’s Rich like the star he is. u cant take singer emile away from me

roman also performs bc i said so. he spies someone watching him during his act up above the stage and climbs up there when he’s done

janus. its janus, if that wasnt clear or u dont know the plot of the newsies musical aldkaldlal

so yeah janus as katherine!! he may be pulitzer’s son but that doesn’t mean his father wants him to be a journalist. pulitzer thinks he should prepare to inherit the publishing company or be a banker or smth, not be a journalist

i just think janus’ “society is a LIE” vibe fits with katherine. i mean, just look at Watch What Happens. “give life’s little guys some ink,” “they’ll storm the gates,” “rich greedy sourpusses” .... idk it just SCREAMS janus to me

ALSO, katherine technically lies about her identity for like 3/4 of the musical, so

anyway! roman meets janus and janus is all suave and lowkey flirty at first but then roman starts flirting BACK and jan is like “uh oh how to talk to cute boys????”

so then he gets all “i have more important things to do” *hair flip* and goes back to the article he’s supposed to be writing about emile’s theater (a lot of his notes are about roman’s performance but nobody needs to know that shhh)

roman draws a portrait of jan and leaves it there and janus gently & dramatically picks it up, stares at it, and tucks it into his suit with a soft smile

uh oh prices for papers went up! virgil steps up and helps roman lead a strike. turns out his caution works GREAT with roman’s determination and they keep each other from going towards extreme overthinking (virgil) or extreme stupidity (roman). they are a TEAM and they are BESTIES.

remus: lets SET THE PAPERS ON FIRE

roman, starry eyed: HECK YEAH LETS DO IT

virgil: how about we dont do that and instead form a union

and then the twins are like GOOD IDEA and tell everyone else. virgil may be a cautious and untrusting and afraid of public speaking but he has good ideas dangit

the intro to seize the day yknow? virgil says a Good Idea (which can probably be traced back to him always listening to logan rant about his studies) and roman spreads the message in a Firm Rebellion-y way to the other newsies

and patton is there doing his absolute best. he may be small but he knows that this isn’t right or fair to the newsboys and he’s ready to physically fight someone

enter logan who is lowkey really proud of virgil for stepping outside of his comfort zone to do whats right. logan may be scared out of his mind for his little bros but he’s gonna help them as much as he can between college and trying to work side jobs to help their fam

basically logan knows janus and tells him that he should report on the strike bc logan wants to help his bros AND his friend however he can

cue janus seeing his opportunity and TAKING it. he’s gonna write about this strike even if no one else will!!! take THAT, father

he also maybe possibly wanted to see roman again. but roman never needs to know that okay what he doesnt know cant hurt him

seize the day happens!!!! they strike!!!! they r powerful!!! but then no one else from any other sections of new york strike with them and they lowkey get rekt

remus mocks the delanceys but that was a BAD decision cuz now theyre targeting him and he gets taken to the REFUGE

roman is SAD bc his brother’s been taken away, no one showed up to help them strike, his brother’s been taken away and he just wants to get OUT of there. run away to santa fe, his ideal world, but he can’t even articulate that because his brother is gone

how is that just act one. how have i written so much yet left out so much???

remus is at the refuge and he’s a little more scared, now, that roman really will just leave him behind even though he knows deep down that roman would never.

still. he writes roman a letter and maybe he goes into a little too much detail about his injuries and the refuge but hey, that’s remus. he writes about how maybe they can run away to santa fe together. he signs it “your brother” and i CRY because they are the best bros

roman reads it and ALSO cries. especially because there it is, the description of santa fe he can never come up with by himself. remus rly does know him, huh

total scene change: janus finds the other newsies (and logan) in a restaurant? bar? and is like “!!! ur on the FRONT PAGE on my newspaper” which i just decided is called the snake instead of the sun

virgil didn’t totally trust janus would follow thru at first but now he’s convinced. they did it!!!! theyre on the front page!!!! the world WILL know!!!!

cue tapdancing!!!!!! king of new york is an absolute bop. i need logan tapdancing daintily and then janus LAUNCHING into some complex tap routine bc the newsies think he too will dance daintily

i know they wouldnt,,, actually dance but just let me have this self-indulgence in this entirely self-indulgent au

the Bro Trio + janus go hunt down roman to show him the paper and find him painting stuff at emile’s all sad and upset bc, well, they lost and remus was taken

but virgil is trying to show him that they made progress!!! sure pulitzer won but he won the BATTLE and actually the poor guy’s head is spinning bc theyre gonna win.

“cmon, ro, if i’m is telling you to be optimistic there must be hope”

see virgil calls him RO and its cute bc roman gave him the nickname ‘virge’ and now virgil’s giving him the nickname ‘ro’ theyre just besties okay

roman is unconvinced but then logan, who roman has actually never met before, steps in with Facts and Statistics, and patton adds some adorable words of encouragement, and janus sassily waves their Front Page Story at him, and roman starts realizing they DO have a chance

but then uh oh pulitzer threatens remus and the Bro Trio and roman is forced to speak out against the strike or risk ruining the lives of everyone he loves. and also he finds out that janus is pulitzer’s son and is Betrayed TM

theres some “he’s just trying to build up a false confidence in u so u can plummet to even greater depths” parallels in there somewhere....u can’t trust many people as a newsie and when roman DOES trust someone turns out he’s the son of the guy ur trying to fight

so roman says overnight in pulitzer’s basement, sleeping on an uncomfortable old printing press, and makes his decision

now for the RALLY

remy is spot conlon bc he DESERVES to be the leader of the brooklyn newsies. brooklyn, flushing, richmond, etc all show up to a newsies rally and are like YEAH!!! STRIKE!!!!

virgil is trying to tame the crowd nervously and keeps waiting for roman to show up bc they work best when theyre working together!!!! finally roman’s there and virgil introduces him (the attention isnt solely on him now thank gosh)

but then roman starts talking about how they dont stand a chance and how they shouldnt go on strike and virgil is just. confused and upset and angry

especially when he sees one of pulitzer’s employees slipping roman wads of money

virgil corners roman afterwards and is absolutely RIPPING into him. roman could fix this if he would just tell virgil the truth, tell him he doesn’t care about the money, he just wanted to keep him and patton and logan safe—

but roman knows if he tells virgil, then virgil will turn all his anger towards pulitzer, will be able to convince roman to keep going, and roman won’t. he can’t put virgil, put his family, at risk.

so he lies.

he doesn’t mean any of it. but he says it.

and maybe he kind of understands why janus lied, too.

he says he’s never had anyone to take care of him or remus, not like virgil does with his parents and his older brother. he says virgil will never know what it’s like.

virgil scoffs and glares and beneath all his fury looks crushed. but there’s still fire in his eyes, a spark roman saw that first day that only grew and engulfed any doubts virgil ever had.

roman says he’ll take the money and go, leave new york behind.

virgil says fine. we don’t need you. because you know what? all those words you said were mine. i didn’t have the courage to say them back then but now i do. we don’t need you.

(because i watched that scene in the movie and like YES go OFF davey i mean virgil)

roman flees to his “bedroom” which is really just a fire escape and just longs for remus’ reassurance. he has the letter but it doesn’t seem as encouraging now, not when he’s lost everything else important to him.

then janus shows up and roman’s mad at him but not mad enough to kick him out. and janus watched roman just give up on everything they’ve been fighting for and just wants to know WHY. why did he turn his back on the newsies when they were so close?

and roman, tired and upset and defeated, just says they wouldn’t succeed. even if all the newsies went on strike no one would report on it, anyway, because pultizer has all the printing presses on lockdown, even the one janus published from. and they already lost once! what more could they possibly do?

roman looks out over the railing, chest heaving from his rant, longing for his imaginary santa fe where he doesn’t have to face his failures. janus stands next to him and puts his hand over roman’s.

“i don’t have a simple answer to that question....but here’s a start.”

and janus pulls out a paper with roman’s words (well, and virgil’s, because virgil said it first but roman rephrased it powerfully, and that’s why they worked as a team) typed out, words that make the strike not about newsies but about ALL working children in the city who are being exploited for their youth and naivety.

it’s an entire article, expertly written. if published it would get the word out to the other newsies that they haven’t given up and show other working children and adults alike that this is IMPORTANT and they aren’t going away.

and then roman remembers his drawings of the refuge and remus’ graphic descriptions and shows them to janus and hey!!! they have a plan!!! they just need to print it....

roman’s like yo there’s an old press in ur dad’s basement he’d never suspect anything

and theyre both so excited and theyre gonna DO this, FINALLY, and janus sees hope on roman’s face again, maybe permanently this time, and janus just leans in and kisses him.

its very sweet and cute and theyre in LOVE

they pull back and kinda stand there awkwardly for a few seconds before both of them start grinning

and they both know its fragile, that they’ve hurt each other and trust was cracked, but it wasn’t broken completely, and they can fix this. they believe in each other and that’s enough for now.

and then they go find virgil at his house

roman knocks on the door and virgil opens it and just. glares at roman. and roman starts rambling apologies and explanations and tries to tell virgil about their plan and did he mention he’s sorry

virgil kinda just stares at him as he goes on and on and the only thing that stops him is patton running out and launching himself at roman

then logan appears behind virgil, and virgil kinda just smiles

“glad to have u back. again.”

and then they go sneak into pulitzer’s basement and print the article with jan’s writing and ro’s drawings and remus’ descriptions and the other newsies go spread the papers ALL around the city

the next morning EVERYONE is out on strike!!! u cant get ANYWHERE without seeing ppl, newsies or otherwise, filling the streets with chants of “seize the day”

roman, with the Bro Trio and Janus trailing close behind, waltzs on in to pulitzer’s office and flings the money pulitzer gave him back on the desk and is like whatcha gonna do NOW, joe??

pulitzer angrily tells them he’s a fool for going back on their deal and logan steps in sayin pulitzer is a fool for letting this get so out of hand over a 10 cent price increase. his sales are down 70%!! objectively the price increase was like the worst business decision ever

virgil’s like plus it’s making u look bad that ur business is the reason most of these kids are suffering. people really love kids, mr pulitzer and patton smiles brightly but in like a menacing way

then emile walks in with a ~dazzling smile~ and is like ur son told me about this whole situation, it’d be a shame if i contacted my good friend governor roosevelt who won’t be as kind as these brave newsies since u tried so hard to stop him from being elected :)

((in the show roosevelt is actually there but i want emile to have a moment to SHINE))

so pulitzer’s like FINE and talks to roman alone and roman wears him down, throwing words from janus, virgil, and pulitzer himself right in pulitzer’s face until FINALLY they have a deal. he’ll lower the prices by half AND pulitzer will buy back whatever they don’t sell full price

roman bursts out of the office into the streets where all the newsies are waiting and is like WE WONNN

and since they published all that stuff about the refuge in the paper, the guy who runs it is being arrested and REMUS IS FREE

the twins hug for like a full two minutes

then pulitzer offers roman a job as a political cartoonist and roman’s like. well idk now that this is over i should probably...head out

bc lowkey he’s thinking virgil still doesn’t wanna see roman ever again and he did say he would leave, so

but then virgil’s like come on, ro, you don’t really think we want u to leave, do u? what’s santa fe got that new york aint? tarantulas? sandstorms? stampedes? you can’t go to santa fe what if you DIE—

and logan says new york’s got us!

patton: and we’re family, right?

then janus is like you got a union to lead! and...you got me.

and remus is like bro, anyone can dream, all you do is close ur eyes! but some made up world is all you’ll ever see. (bc he’s the wordsy one, u see. he helps roman have the poetic realization that his santa fe isn’t real, but this IS)

so roman says well if u guys INSIST.....and then he takes jan’s hand and kinda asks w his eyes and then kisses jan in front of all the newsies who proceed to cheer obnoxiously

when they break apart roman leads janus by the hand over to the paper-buying-cart and slaps some couns down on the table and BUYS SOME PAPERS BC THEYRE NEWSIES BABEY

and everyone lived happily ever after🥰

[indigopurple]

Basically a review of OP episode 503 ig

Currently rewatching post-war arc (in the dub so I don't have any screenshots for u guys sry) and theres a few things id like to point out.

During a conversation Dadan once had with Garp, they were talking about Roger. Garp said that even if they were facing powerful enemies, he would never run away because he wouldnt dare leaving his comrads behind; it wasnt an option for him. Obviously we see this in Ace. But ALSO, isnt this what he did with Katakuri? It was a little different cuz of the setting mostly, but he separated himself from his crew to fight off katakuri, and lied to them about being okay so they didn't worry (he was already getting his ass kicked by then, so he just made that stupid smile and told them not to worry (or smth like that, I can remember the exact line) (that smile was so gross and fake cuz he fucking sucks at lying). Also he said roger destroyed a buncha soldiers cuz they mouthed off his men. That's what Ace tried to do but instead he died. :(

"The pain he went through just made him hold on tighter to the ones he loved" -Garp, about Roger. "Despite his flaws and his bad reputation, his crew still trusted him completely." -also Garp, about Roger. These both sound a lot like Luffy AND Ace.

When Dogra got home and told everyone about Sabo's ship being shit down and him dying (which we all know didnt happen, thank fuck), (by the way the absolutely lost looks on Ace's and Luffy's faces with the sudden silence hurt like a bitch), Luffy started crying and said "WE SHOULDNT'A LET HIM GO, IT'S ALL OUR FAULT". Which fucking says something about him (thinking of episodes 913-915 when he goes fucking berserk, but before that he learns that Kaido probably killed Tama and he says "I should've escorted them..!" (*ugly cries*)). Ace also reacted pretty similarly-- "Sabo...why didn't we go back into town and bring him back here?! We're so stupid!" And he gets mad and asks where he could find the bastard that killed him (obviously not getting a good answer since it was a fucking celestial dragon ugh). That is what Luffy does, in present time. He results to anger first, not sadness. Not sure when he learned to do that but I'm 99 percent sure it was from Ace. Also the blaming himself thing? High chance thats ALSO from Ace. Who else would teach him that self hating behaviour?!

Dadan pins Ace down to stop him from going after the Celestial Dragon to calm him down, telling him he cant do anything, he's not big or strong enough to do anything and he'll be killed as soon as he tries anything, especially since it was the whole country -the whole WORLD- that killed Sabo. He can't do anything. And then they tied him to a tree outside to let him cool off. Oh yeah then he also told luffy to stop crying like a little girl or else he'll- (and he didn't finish the sentence). ...Ok maybe thats why luffy started being more angry than sad.

This is where things get a little more :( . Ace reads the letter Sabo sent them before he died. As he reads, he walks to the end of the forest, to a cliff overlooking the ocean. And starts fucking bawling (btw the voice actor who had Ace's childhood part did not do a very good job, no where near as in character and real as Coleen Clickenberg did with all of Luffy's crying scenes. She was spot on.) ...do you see where im going with that? He isolated himself before letting himself feel sad. It was all rage and then calm beforehand. Y-you see where im going with that. Dont make me say it.

"How's Luffy doing, is he any better?" "Well...he hasnt been eating much, but he still eats twice as much as we do". Oh look, That's what happened after Ace died too. There's a behavioral pattern that hasnt gone away. Not sure why it wouldve tho.

Luffy is mopeing, lying on the ground in a similar setting ace was at when he cried. Hes thinking about some of the things Sabo said, like how theyre gonna sail the seas together, and he clenches his hands into tight, shaking fists. After Ace shows up and hits him, and talking abt some other stuff I don't feel like relaying, Luffy tightens his grip on the straw hat and tells ace, whimpering, he wants to get stronger (and stronger, and stronger, and stronger and stronger and....) And he wants to be the strongest in the world. "And then, I'll protect everyone. I won't lose anyone I care about". He gets stronger mainly to protect the people he loves. And then he asks ace to promise he won't die. To which he hits Luffy again and tells him he should be more worried about himself dying first. And then the famous line that hurts like a bitch- "I'm NEVER going to DIE!" And then this hopeful music comes on (fucking damnit funimation, u gotta do this? Really??) Also he says he wont die as long as he has a wussy little brother to protect. ...FUCK. Ok, the fist clenching is a thing he does all the fucking time, usually when he gets mad. This was different because he wasnt mad, he was sad. He clenched his fist because thinking about it hurt. Which, huh, sounds a lot like his whole episode after waking up from his 2 week coma on the polar tang. To try and stop the mental pain of those horrendous memories, he resulted to physically pain. He hurt himself. So, He clenches his fists in times like these to fight off the mental pain and the urge to cause himself physical pain. Guys, our boy is bad at emotions, help him. ....ok this paragraph is longer than I anticipated so ill dumb down the rest of it ig. Next part, him asking ace to promise he wont die. The music, the body language, the over change in mood- this comforts him. He stopped hiding his face and silently sobbing after ace said this. OH YEAH! didn't he tell jinbe not to die when they parted ways in Totto Land? And then, hes missing still in Wano and we see Luffy is worried....but convinced Jinbe will show up. Again, this comforts him. Hes nervous cuz someone KOFF KOFF ACE broke that promise once. But jinbe is his crew mate so he trusts him, thank god.

"-But whoever did it, they must be opposed to freedom." The whole freedom thing? That runs through Luffy's blood and spirit.His brothers fought for it, his dad is the man who strives to give everyone freedom basically, and Luffy himself has seen enough of the OPPOSITE of freedom to be so, so much more than just against it. Hence why he of course was so eager to free the slaves in Sabaody, the kids in punk hazard, the toys in dressrosa, the country of Wano from Kaido's tyrany. The apple doesnt fall far from the tree huh.

I dont think Luffy would remember his promise with Shanks if it werent for his brothers putting feul to his dream. It was a stupid bet at first; he just wanted to beat Shanks, right then. But after meeting Sabo and Ace, he found the opposite of freedom and human rights. And then he wanted, REALLY wanted, to become the free-est man in the world; the pirate king.

Last one i promise ok? This one is less connected to whats going on in the episode at this point, but something I noticed (its so obvious everyone has seen this ok) was when luffy cries, his posture is always open. He doesn't curl in on himself like many people would do (I know I would, lol). He doesnt hug himself, protect himself. He's just, opened up to whoever is watching, literally. This has a little more to do with something I haven't talked about much in this post yet; his self-destruction issues. I said he tried to hurt himself when he felt mental pain, which is definitely similar. But he cries and doesnt try to protect or comfort himself, like he doesn't have that programmed into his mind. Reminder that he only wants to live because of his dream, and if he doesnt have his dream, he wants to die. (Whoa.). Ok, so no self preservation mechanism at all rlly. Hes basically ride or die. So, when things hurt so much that he cries, he has no hope left. He just kinda...dies inside. So this was mildly different after sabo died. Yes we saw him just standing there, sobbing. But the next day he's still crying, and instead he's laying on the ground. I saw that and the voice in the back of my head told me he wanted to be a part of that lifeless dirt beneath him. Then, Ace walked over. And his words made him feel the hope that I told you about earlier, and he sat up into a sitting position. And HUGGED HIS LEGS TO HIS CHEST. There's some self preservation! Some hope! Some will to exist, to live! Something we saw none of as he sat in front of his brothers corpse, shutting down. He sat there, open to his enemies, incapable of protecting himself. Practically anyone couldve killed him right then and there. I think he mightve liked that, at that moment. Like thank god he has that stupidly good luck cuz if he didn't I swear someone couldve thrown and axe or FUCKING ANYTHING AT THAT MOMENT and hed be dead becuase he never physically or mentally prepared himself. On purpose.

Our poor boy needs some fucking attention and therapists. (Insert my rant post about how jinbe is on the crew primarily for anger management and therapy, not just being a helmsman.) Ugh, smh ugly cries

Aaaaand thats about the end of the episode. Theres so many little tics and peesonality traits that you notive thru this episode, and I only noticed them cuz im rewatching this part of the show for like the third time. I don't react as much as the first time of course but some things are definitely sadder after knowing what's going on and what will happen later on.

Moral of the story (post)? I think luffy is almost equally as alike -if not, more similar to roger as ace is. Also, high key genuinely think Luffy met like NO ONE but Garp before he met Shanks and his crew. What the fuck was his first like 5 years of being alive like? (He wantd to be a pirate cuz Garp didnt want that. Rebellious baby asshole. And then shanks made things worse, in a good way for luffy. And then ace and sabo made that worse thing worse for a good reason. Luffy lives...for those influences. And that is fucking it. Why.

Oh thanks tumblr for moving my picture to the bottom of the post u fucking idiot

[tamaharu]

sits down in your inbox. we've talked about how scollace would get married but let's get back to the basics: what's your ideal getting-together scenario for them

AGGGGHHH this is actually really hard to answer okay so i think its like the slow burn mutual pining roommates au of my dreams except a whole lot worse bc theyre both terrible as like, people, and it lasts FOREVER. the problem is canon actually deals with scotts.. scott-ness in a really delicate way, and i do not think the two of them would get together until scott manages to get himself under control. so i will give two answers: the real one, and the funny one. this is going to be kind of long and less tender than you might hope lmao

the REAL scenario is where most of pre-ramona v1 and their past plays out the exact same as canon. like, they meet in uni, they become best friends, envy breaks up with scott, and he and wallace move in together sometime during scotts hazy year. and, unfortunately, scott still ends up dating knives.

ramona kind of acts as a catalyst for scotts emotional growth (and he in turn for hers) which i have talked about in a post somewhere in my drafts, so the way this works out would have to be scott going to therapy. i think scott and knives would date slightly longer than in canon bc while his friends and wallace are discouraging the relationship fully for the age gap, theres no extra pressure of the cheating. they DO break up eventually when scott has an epiphany or whatever like oh my GOD. this is CREEPY. and he breaks up w her. theres still a whole knives subplot going on but w less cheating.

ANYWAYS they visit envy again this time w/out having to fight her bf, and this time when he sees wallace at the place, he (gasp) doesnt have to cuddle. thats right, in the scollace au of our dreams, since scott isnt dating anyone, wallace doesnt feel like theyre in the right place for wallace to properly move on from his lingering crush on scott. he does force scott to talk to a counselor though.

then blah blah blah therapy blah blah emotional growth blah blah scott finally gets a job working w stephen stills and brags about it to wallace and wallace is like “cool, so can we buy a house or” bc theres no question at that point that theyll be moving w/out each other. so they buy a house. cue more therapy blah blah apologies to all the women in his life hes hurt like a LOT blah blah we’re recording right now blah blah maybe scott goes back to school blah.

wallace and scott would probably get even closer once scotts stopped acting like a dick all the time, and like scott is obviously bisexual, duh, and hes pretty secure about it, so when his friends start joking about them acting like a couple he laughs it off no biggie. except it begins to dawn on him very slowly that maybe they.. maybe they DO act like a couple.. meanwhile wallace is like i have not dated anyone seriously in like, two years at least. this is all scotts fault.

there’d probably have to be like. a catalyst to make them actually admit feelings, either in the form of a person (probably lisa or envy or smth) or an event (aka one im partial too where scott gets top surgery and when wallace cares for him the entire time scott is like maybe i DO be gay) but something happens that forces scott to compartmentalize his actual deep-seated feelings for wallace and after that its just a measure of scott doing something romantic for one and wallace going :wide eye emoji: :wide eye emoji: :wide eye emoji: wait my feelings and fantasies of like idk 3-4 are FINALLY GETTING REALIZED?????? and then they become the bitchy gay power couple of my wildest hopes

the FUNNY scenario is during the middle of scotts therapy speedrun arc he gets really drunk with wallace for the first time in a while and *fade to black* then they wake up in bed together the next morning and both go “huh. guess this is happening now” and date for five years before getting married, moving to the bahamas, and adopting three children a pitbull and a longhair cat

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tysm for tha ask molli!! ill talk abt kny here bc its takin over my life rn qwq

spoilers ahead 4 tha whole series!!

📃 what is the plot of your hyperfixation? and is it a movie, game, show, etc?

kny is a manga w an anime adaptation thats had 1 season so far n a movies bein made of my fav arc!! (also this plot desc may not b perfect bc i havent read it in like 4 months)

its abt a boy called tanjirou whos whole family got killed by a demon, n his sister nezuko got turned into a demon (which fun fact: in kimetsu theyre man-eatin creatures w different powers called blood demon arts!!)

hes sent by giyuu (a demon slayer!) 2 join tha demon slayer corps so hell become stronger n mayb get a little revenge. as a treat (and also mayb find a way 2 turn nezuko human?)

as he trains he learns how 2 do water breathing (a sword technique taught by him n giyuus mentor, urokodaki) n his final challenge is 2 cut a massive boulder in half w his sword

its real hard 4 him (as u can imagine) so 2 kids in fox masks named sabito n makomo come n help him, but after tanjirou cuts tha rock n tells urokodaki abt him its revealed theyre dead???

@ final selection (basically a demon slayer entrance exam where u win by surviving on a demon-infested mountain 4 seven days) he learns from a real fucked up demon that hes exclusively been targetin urokodakis students n that not even sabito could slice its neck open?? (thats how him n makomo died)

after tanjirou kills tha demon n basically puts all tha water breath students’ souls @ peace he passes tha exam!! its been 7 days n now he gets his nichirin blade (the only kinda sword that can kill a demon, tha only 2 ways they can die is thru a slice 2 tha neck from a nichirin blade n sunlight)

turns out nezuko was turned by the strongest demon of all, michael jackson muzan kibutsuji, n so he sets out 2 hunt him down n try 2 kill him

but he aint so strong @ first so he needs 2 try 2 take down tha twelve kizuki first (the 12 strongest demons besides muzan)

another reason he needs 2 kill tha kizuki is 2 gather their blood for a demon named tamayo n her assistant yushirou!! tamayo can make a cure if tanjirou can gather blood samples 4 her (the stronger tha demon tha more of muzans blood they have so hes gonna have 2 aim high)

he meets a bunch more slayers along tha way, includin zenitsu (a scaredy cat thunder breath user who basically simps 4 nezuko n becomes a badass when hes asleep) n inosuke (a rowdy beast breath user who wears a boar mask n lived in tha mountains)

after lower moon 5 gets killed by giyuu, nezuko unlocks her blood demon art (exploding blood!) n tanjirou remembers how 2 use tha hinokami kagura, him n nezuko get captured by a slayer called shinobu qwq

turns out she n giyuu are 2 of the nine hashira, the strongest of all tha demon slayers!! but theyre all havin a debate over whether they should kill tanjirou n nezuko 4 goin against corps rules n travelin w a demon

eventually oyakata-sama (tha leader of tha slayer corps) comes in n tells em its ok, urokodaki sent a letter explainin that nezukos never hurt anyone n if she does, tanjirou giyuu n urokodaki all have 2 die basically

oyakata-sama also tells em that tanjirous met kibutsuji, at which everyone goes feral at (and understandably, none of em had ever even seen him before hes that elusive)

so they get 2 live bc theyre like. tha best hope the slayers have @ findin kibutsuji

the rest of the hashira are kyoujurou (flame), muichirou (mist), mitsuri (love), obanai (serpent), gyoumei (stone), tengen (sound) n sanemi (wind)

theres also kanao (shinobus pupil, flower breathing) n genya (sanemis brother, eats demons 2 gain power n basically become a demon temporarily, also He Has A Gun)

ive gone on a lot here so ill try 2 keep it brief now but i HAVE 2 explain infinity train or ill die (slight suicide tw but no one actually does that outside of dreams)

BASICALLY the lower 6 moons have a meetin @ kibutsujis infinity castle, muzan decides 2 dismantle tha lower moons bc they keep fuckign dying

all of em get their shit wrecked except enmu, who avoided death by usin muzans “dont tell me what 2 do” rule against him n beggin 4 death basically

so he gets a metric fuckton o blood n goes off 2 kill tanjirou

turns out he keeps killin people on his train n kyos gone 2 investigate!! the main gang (the kamaboko gang as the fandom calls it) are there too bc tanjirou needs 2 investigate what hinokami kagura really is (turns out its sun breathing, the og form and ones that only folks w the same mark on his forehead can use) n if anyone knows abt the alleged “fire breathing” as they know it rn its the fire hashira!!

so they get on tha train (inosukes lovin tha experience bc hes Literally Never Seen A Train Before) n kyo basically adopts the whole group

they take some tickets n promptly fall asleep HERES WHERE ENMUS DEMON ART COMES INTO PLAY!!! DREAM MANIPULATION BABEYYY

BASICALLY he can make people fall asleep in a buncha ways (the mouths on his hands, his weird eye thingies, the tickets) n once thats happened he n his henchmen can access said dreams (he can even control em!!) n if they find tha “spiritual core” they can destroy it n essentially leave em as an empty shell thatll never wake up!! yaaaaaay /s

he fails bc tanjirou realises a way out n its by cuttin his own head off in his dream, eventually everyones awake again n tanjirou finds enmu on tha roof(?) of tha train

after a while he does manage 2 decapitate him but surprise!!! hes not dead

turns out he literally FUSED WITH THA TRAIN n is plannin on eatin everyone inside, includin kyo n the gang

but he doesnt bc Main Protags Cant Die(tm) n dies while complainin that he wants a redo (sorry enmu, ily but u cant turn back time unless ur yoshikage kira)

also sidenote enmus tha only kizuki w/o a canon backstory as far as i can remember and????? H??

ANYWHO after that whole debacle basketball akaza (UPPER moon 3) shows himself!!! FUCK

n after all that struggle against the 8th strongest demon of all time now they gotta deal w tha 4th strongest????? damn,

so yeah it goes how youd imagine, its a tough fuckin battle n its Not Fun but it turns out kyoujurou fucking dies n i genuinely didnt realise until he said “kamado my boy, lets have one final chat” bc i was so in denial n lets face it i still am now

long story short idk how im gonna manage 2 get thru the movie w/o breakin down @ the end

anyway after that horrible horrible time tanjirou goes n meets senjurou, kyos little bro, who gives him kyos sword guard thing (its shaped like a flame!!) n i havent read it in a while so i cant FULLY remember but i think this is where he learns abt sun breathing??

after that they end up goin on a mission in tha red light district w tengen, his 3 wives are there 2 serve as spies (theyre kunoichi, which i think are ninjas of some kind??) n the boys have 2 find em

they do manage 2 find em but not after runnin into upper moon 6, who are 2 twins called daki n gyuutarou

after that fight tengen has 2 retire bc he got fucked up p bad from that fight n he wants 2 make sure tha girls are ok above all

so after that arc tanjirou n nezuko go down 2 tha swordsmith village (bc the guy who usually makes his swords is fuckin tired of repairin it) n run into mitsuri!! she tells tan that theres smth in tha forest thatll make him stronger

ngl this is tha arc i remember tha least abt so this desc is prolly SO inaccurate despite havin 2 o my favs in it)

but muichirou shows himself too n hes mean 2 tanjirou >:/ (he does get nicer eventually but 2 him specifically)

a 10 y/o kid named kotetsu shows tan this 6 armed trainin robot called yoriichi type 0 (based on tha first slayer 2 use sun breathin) n tanjirou breaks it by accident qwq

but he keeps trainin thanks 2 kotetsu but tha kids a harsh fuckin trainer ill tell u that

anyway so we have a whole buncha demons 2 deal w here except most of em are 1 demon split into different parts

hantengu n gyokko, upper moons 4 n 5 respectively!! mui deals w gyokko while mitsuri genya nezuko n tanjirou deal w hantengu

in these fights mitsuri n mui get their demon slayer marks!! these are marks that they get when they surpass the limits of tha human body n they look like tha marks demons have (muis looks like clouds on his cheeks n mitsuris is 2 hearts on her collarbone)

next up is tha hashira trainin arc!! everyone gets trained by each of tha hashira 2 try n unlock their slayer marks

each have a dif trainin style that focuses on dif stuff (for example gyoumei focuses a lot on physical strength n stuff like that, obanai is more abt accuracy) n this is where giyuus backstory gets revealed bc he doesnt think hes worthy o bein a hashira :((

basically him n sabito were absolute besties!! they both trained together n sabito basically told him not 2 die ever

but it all goes wrong @ final selection- sabito manages 2 take down every demon on tha mountain but one of em, that bein the hand demon that exclusively targets water breathers (theyre easy 2 distinguish bc of their blue haoris n custom made fox masks)

he manages 2 save giyuu n everyone else from tha selection except 4 himself (this is why giyuus haori is like that- its made from his sister n sabitos haoris)

giyuu blames himself 4 both of their deaths bc he failed 2 protect em n says that he doesnt deserve 2 have passed tha selection let alone b a hashira,, but tanjirou convinces him otherwise!! ^^

then one day while giyuus trainin w sanemi disaster hits- oyakata-sama, his wife n two of their kids just died

the 2nd to last arc- the infinity castle!! thingsre gettin real n muzans revealed himself

in tha infinity castle EVERYONES there but can u really blame em theyve been workin up 2 this 4 millenia

shinobu runs into upper moon 2- douma, aka the bastard that killed her sister as well as inosukes mum

she is. justifiably pissed. n she gives it her all but he kills her :(( douma ily but also FUCK YOU.

so perfect timing!!! heres her adopted sister!! as well as inosuke!!!! revenge battle time >:0

in the end shinobus poison is what kills him- her whole body is filled w wisteria poison thats deadly 2 a demon so he basically consumed her whole body weight in poison rip

but ofc word gets out via messenger crow that shes dead n its just a real sad moment tbh :( but theres no time 4 that bc giyuu n tanjirou just ran into akaza >:((

so tanjirous pissed as hell now n w their combined efforts they take down tha basketball lookin bastard (bastardball??)

meanwhile obanai n mitsuri (n yushirou iirc?? he uses his own art 2 control her @ some point tho i cant remember when) deal w tha new upper moon 4 (nakime, whos also shiftin tha rooms around w her blood art n makin tha fight super fuckign annoyin tbh) n muichirou genya sanemi n gyoumei deal w kokushibou (upper moon 1, also tha original sun breathers twin brother so he gets moon breathin >:3)

mitsuri n obanai fake their deaths w help from yushirou n muzan falls 4 it, which comes in handy later ;3

zenitsu also deals w his former bully, upper moon 6 aka kaigaku aka dickhead supreme who if zenitsu didnt kill i would personally kill w my bare hands

so after everyones taken down all thats left is muzan >:( muzan kills tamayo real early on n everyones goin all out on him

we also learn that he has multiple brains n hearts in his body eww

also the hashira have their marks now!! but all but sanemi n giyuu get killed n giyuu loses his arm :((((

genya also gets killed noo

eventually ofc the battle is won thanks 2 everyones relief, it took for fuckin ever bc the only way muzan can die is tha sun so they had 2 kill time n keep him out in tha sun 4 a long time

also nezukos been cured!! shes a human!! n shes comin 2 help!!

but OH GOD OH FUCK MUZAN TURNED TANJIROU INTO A DEMON N GIYUUS CRYIN N INOSUKES CRYIN THRU HIS MASK N ITS GOIN SO FUCKING WRONG but he gets tha will 2 turn back bc Fuck You Muzan, The Power Of Friendship Defeats All

the 2nd to last chapter is tha happy endin, the kamaboko gang visit tanjirou n nezukos house, giyuu cuts his hair n SMILES n tha hashira have their final meetin w oyakata-samas son kiriya

i cried readin it ngl their sufferin is finally over...... it cost a lot but now theres no more demons,,,

chapter 205 is set in tha modern day! kanao n tanjirous descendants are shown, as well as zenitsu n nezukos

everyone who died/never had kids get reincarnated (for example gyoumei is now a daycare worker, kyos reincarnation toujurou is besties w one o tans descendants n giyuu (giichi) is friends w sabito again!! makomos their friend too!!

ALSO KIRIYA IS STILL ALIVE hes the oldest man in japan!! this is huge bc the ubayashiki family dont usually live past 30 bc of a curse that was put on em when they had muzan

yushirou is still alive too but thats bc hes a demon n he paints tamayo for a living qwq

it just made me cry so hard bc waaah,,, everyone gets 2 live a demon-free life now,,, anyway typin this took me like an hour im sorry mint (as well as anyone else who read this)

🎥 do you have any favorite scenes from your hyperfixation?

tha infinity train arc as a whole tbh??? its basically enmu n kyoujurous big moment and. i care them sm. i cant wait 4 tha movie qwq except 4 their deaths ofc

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

i have a lotta headcanons really!! outta my f/os favs tho i hc:

giyuu is trans bi n autistic

kyo is gay n has adhd

muichirou is nb n pan

mitsuri is pan

douma is gay

enmu is nb pan n autistic

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all or some of: 10, 18, 19, 20, 25, 28, 30, 35, 36, 39, 40, 41, 42 for the ask meme =) lay all the ari facts on me

ty indigo ilu… shepardposting no limits (HOPEFULLY THE READMORE WORKS?)

10. What kind of friend is Shepard?

the “will give you shit but also go to the ends of the earth” for you type i suppose…he shows his affection thru gentle bullying. he can also be kind of genuinely an overbearing asshole at times, but he gets better with it; it takes him a while to, uh, adjust to having “friends” in the first place. he’s a dad friend if your dad is kind of a grumpy punk with a rude and morbid sense of humor

18. Share a headcanon about Shepard and their LI.

[struggling to come up with something i haven’t talked about a million times] uhhhhhh

kaidan wanted to propose with one of his dad’s old rings but he figured out it wouldn’t fit ari’s finger, so (with his mother’s blessing/assurance that his dad would have been more than happy abt it, etc) he had the gold melted down to make a new ring. in my mind it looks smth like this and yes ari totally cried a little

it also took kaidan weeks of near-misses to work up the nerve to propose even tho he Knew ari was gonna say yes, he was just really worried about getting it right. eventually he just did it on their balcony and ari got surprised and dropped his cigarette and kaidan got a cool new engagement burn scar on his arm but it was nice

19. Why did they fall for each other?

ari fell for kaidan bc he’s not just intelligent, but perceptive; he’s a realist who errs toward optimism and making the best of bad situations; he believes people can and should be better; he has a surprisingly understated sense of humor; he can keep up with ari’s teasing; ari asks him if he’s a romantic and he denies it and then gives, like, the most romantic answer in the world. he’s cute.

kaidan fell for ari bc……. he has big arm. ok but uh i think it’s because he’s, pretty practical and matter of fact and doesn’t care all that much about the social trappings that kaidan continually tortures himself with… he makes kaidan feel Seen and Understood but doesn’t make a big dramatic deal out of everything kaidan tells him, he just treats him… like a person. for someone who’s been living with & defining themselves by their issues for as long as kaidan has, it’s pretty incredible to find someone who just makes him feel like a human being again

20. What are their common interests or hobbies?

a lot of their relationship is like, meeting each other in the middle haha, but there are some things they both enjoy a lot with no caveats:

- cooking! kaidan’s a foodie and it becomes ari’s therapy hobby after me3, so it’s smth they enjoy doing together a lot. they try to do it more often if possible, but their general friday night tradition is to come home, crack open a couple beers, and cook a big meal together

- they are both outdoorsy Adventure Dads… it takes a while before ari can handle more than a walk around the park but eventually he and kaidan can go hiking again and they both rly love it. i imagine theyd be into stuff like camping, swimming, kayaking, etc too dfjnfg

25. Is there something they fight about?

well, everyone gets into arguments occasionally, but i don’t really think they fight all that often… not that they agree on everything all the time, but they’ve both gotten pretty good at talking things out and also deciding whether or not something is even worth arguing about in the first place. when you are dating someone during the apocalypse and don’t have to any time to waste those are both pretty valuable skills haha [i think the most they ever fought in their relationship was post-me3, when ari got out of the hospital and they’d both started to ‘settle in’ to their new lives but it was a bumpy adjustment and they were both going thru a lot of trauma and stress and bottling it up etc. it wasnt a great time but they worked thru it]

28. What would they like to change about the other?

it’s a double-edged sword, bc it’s part of what attracts kaidan to him as well, but sometimes kaidan really wishes ari had more a self-preservation instinct!! sometimes his tendency to charge headfirst into trouble is sexy, sometimes kaidan is tired and sad and it just gets really old

ari wishes kaidan would loosen up a little although, again, the straight-laced military thing (unfortunately) kinda does it for him. he would also take away kaidans chronic pain if he could

30. When did they realise they fell in love?

fr kaidan it was shortly after virmire and it absolutely scared the shit out of him ahaha

ari is dumb so he didn’t really realize until after horizon, which was probably a bad way to figure that out,35. Is there anything they dislike about the other?

ari appreciates how thoughtful kaidan is but sometimes it’s like… a bit… much lmao, he’s not as navel gaze-y as kaidan is so sometimes the process of having to talk everything out gets tiring. for kaidan it’s kind of the opposite, he sometimes perceives ari’s lack of forethought as a lack of care, which isn’t really true, he just works differently

on a much pettier level, ari gets annoyed that kaidan wants to sleep in all the time and kaidan gets annoyed that ari drowns all his food in hot sauce. hello, i worked hard on that steak36. What are their best memories together?

advtykefd cheesy but i like to think they got to take a little bit of leave after me1 so… they rented a log cabin somewhere (not sure if they went back to earth or just a colony planet somewhere?), turned off non-emergency comms on their omnitools and just chilled for a bit… went hiking, had drinks at the tiny bar in the closest small town, holed up in the cabin all day and had sex lmao it was probably the most peaceful week of aris entire life and it left a big impression on him

ofc later there’s stuff like their wedding day, their son’s birth, adopting their daughter etc. kaidan would probably even say, with the emotional distance provided by time, that horizon counts cuz even tho it sucked at the time nothing could have been better than realizing ari was alive

40. Is there someone in the squad of ME/ME2/ME3 Shepard dislikes? Why?

MIRANDA LOL… they just. do not see to eye or get along at all. i find their relationship very entertaining for this reason bc the dynamic of commander & XO who are both trying to be professional but do not respect e/o even the tiniest bit is so funny. theres a convo w her in me2 (i think it might be the one where you can initiate her romance?) where if you choose the renegade dialogue is hilarious to me… miranda makes some snide, passive aggressive comment about shepard based on their background (it’s like “it’s amazing how you’ve managed to succeed despite being _____” lmao) and then shepard is like “OH i get it, you’re jealous bc i’ve been more successful than you and TIM likes me more even tho i’m a big piece of shit idiot?” i love it it’s so funny. they both suck. eventually they do build some kind of mutual respect btwn them but theyre still… not exactly friends. i think in me3 ari was like “damn i hope miranda’s ok” and then when he actually met her again remembered why he used to be so pissed at her all the time lmao. (after me3 tho she saves his life Again and they probably have a lot of time in the hospital to just talk so maybe they do become genuine friends)

41. Are there any important relationships in Shepard’s past that defined their character? /42. Is there someone who had a great influence on Shepard?

just gonna try to combine these i guess,

- his parents, although he only got an unfortunate short time with them, he takes after both of them a lot, and the things his parents imparted on him stuck with him, but especially as he gets older he’s also really aware of the mistakes they made

-the reds, in general. not a really positive influence lmao but. they were his home for years & he learned how the world works through them, for better or worse… it’s why he’s a bit of a cynic, although later he is able to characterize it more as “this shit sucks But we can make it better” rather than just “this shit sucks”

- anderson was the first person ari ever felt saw him as a human being, and it was… a slow-going thing to learn to trust him ahah, but wanting to be worthy of anderson’s approval shaped a lot of his career decisions

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ok se he called this friday (25/1) and asked to hang and i suddenly got my shit together i applied for a job, i started to wrap his christmas gift and make him this ugly card and plan for tomorrow etc etc

he had this ugly mask on that day. like this fake ass personality he has when hes out and im like ok so this is how its gonna be

we didnt event all abt the breakup

i was this close tp breaking down in front of him

yet he continues to tell me im pretty and asks me if i think he looks good and he was wearing those fkn glasses that makes him look hot and smart and i obsessed over them

ans then hes off buying a thing to his friend, hes all dressed ip and leaves me 2 h later for this friend and im like

okay

he said hed text me when he opened my present and he does

like 6 hours later when its 1 am and i guess he’s come home from his friend :——)

and hes over the top being weird and too much like ”omg thank u i LOVE IT ITS SO CURE IM GONNA SAVE IT”

and i low key wanna take it back bitch like that was when i loved u and u kinda liked me too

i dont want u to put my card together with the rest of the love letter shit uve gotten since the age of 10 when ppl started to confess to u

ughhhh im kinda PKSSEDDDDD

But then i tried to think more positivity because wow, positive is the new me :——)

and yeah maybe he just wanted to make ir easier for me, like im happy he didnt ghost me and that were still friends

but hey

then i asked him

did u for real break up over the phone

and hes like

it broke up after that night fight

and im like uhhhh so also over the phone??? and then u ignored me for several days???????

bitchhhhhhh

like i really was dumped i thought i was the one pushing him too far but jokes on me

i actually was dumped i had no idea that he broke up woth me back thEN

and i said why didnt u tell me

and hes like ”i said i cant deal with this negativity”

like oh yeah.............. uhm okay that was obvious.... not

and i also asked him why we’ee supposed to continue be friends and he dodnt even answer

SVSJSVKSJSLBEJDJSJSJSJJEJDJSJSUEURJSBS

I DONT WANT TO GET OVER GIM BUT I ALSO WANT TO

DO I EVENW ANT TO BE HIS FRIEND NO I WANT TO BE HIS DATE LMAO BUT I ALSO DONT BC THATS GONNA END THE SAME WAY OMGGGG I CANT BE HIS FRIEND AND SECRETLY HOPE FOR SMTH WHILE HES GETTING LAID ALL THE TIME I NEED TO FOCUS ON MYSELF AND GROW AND THEN JUST SEE HIM AS A FRIEND LIKE ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS BUT OMG I DONT VALUE MY FRIENDS IDK I DONT BOND WITH THEM UGHHHHH I ONLY BOND WITH ONE SINGLE PERSON AND THEYRE ALL THAT MATTERS FUCK FUCK FUCK WILL I HAVE TO WAIT FOR NEXT PERSON TO FALL VICTIM TO MY OBSESSIVE UNHEALTHY LOVE OR WILL I HOLD ONTO HIM AS LONG AS I CAN AND PUNISH MYSELF

why the fuck did he say i can still have his pics and his shirt (for awhile) like how TF IS THAT GONNA HELP ME DO U WANT TO TORTURE ME OR SMTH

omg chill no he’s just being kind and considerate

he even told u he could wear one of the shirts i bought him and give it back to me (for awhile?)

THINGS ARE SO WEIRDDDDDD HES SO WEIRDDDDD ITS SO AWKWARDDDDDD AND HIS EXPLANATION WAS

”well i cant just act all non human then we wouldnt be able to stay friends right”

LIKE WTF IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN U STILL ACTED NON HUMAN U ACTED LIKE WHEN WE FIRST MET YOU ACTED LIKE A FKN SOCIOPATH WITH THAT WEIRD CHARM OF URS AND WHILE I FELL FOR THAT THE FIRST TIME IT JUST MADE ME FEEL LONELY AF BC WOW U RLY PUT ON UR MASK WITH ME 100% LIKE I DONT KNOW U ANYMORE ITS IVER U JUST ”friendship mode on” WHAT DO U EMAN WITH NON HUMAN ARE U ANGRY AT ME OR SMTH I BET U DONT EVENW ANNA BE WITH ME U JUST SEE IT AS UR RESPONSIBILYTY BC OF UR GOD DMAN WEIRD CODE U JUST WANT TO BE MATURE AND DO THE RIGHT THING AND STAY FRIEND WITH UR EXES BC THATS HOW NICE AND GROWN UP YOU ARE

OMGGGGGGG I KNOW ALL UR FRIENDS ARE GIRLS BUT ARE ALL OF THEM PPL YOUVE DATED?? LIKE AM I GOING TO BE ONE OF THEM TOO MAYBE EVEN LESS SINCE U COULD BY THIS FRIEND OF YOURS A PRETTY EXPENSOVE GIFT WHILE U CANT EVEN BUY ME ANYTHING BUT STILL WANT ME TO BE UR SUGAR MOMMA

omg im sk frustrated obviously i dint mean anything i write im just dead

i just really miss him

wow i dont even love him i just love what i thought he could give me

but i still want him

i want it

what he gave me

SAFETYYYYYYY

CAAAAAAAALM

i need emotional stability and self love in my liiiiiife

fuuuuuckkkkk meeeeeeeee