#but mad respect to billy zane

[vampirezogar]

his hair:

WACK

his gear:

WACK

his jewelry:

WACK

his foot stance:

WACK

the way that he talks:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=exXMJMS5lkc

WACK

the way that he doesn't even like to smile:

WACK

Me?

I'M TIGHT AS FUCK

[silverncrimson]

The Atonement of a Daughter

( s e l f   p a r a }

May 10, 2020 / Mother’s Day 10:30pm Cemetery

It was eerily quiet that night. And it would have been creepy under any other circumstances, given the location, but at this very moment Diamond wasn’t afraid. She couldn’t muster that particular emotion at this time as her entire being was already overwhelmingly flooded with another. 

That of sorrow...or remorse. Either worked, really.

She had stopped by the cemetery once already that day to visit her mother’s grave, but she’d been with her brother and sister the first time around and while she’d readily agreed to go with them...it had honestly been something she’d wanted to do on her own. It was the first time she’d actually come to visit since her mother was brutally killed all those months ago - and before today, she hadn’t been able to bring herself to go. To see the place where her mother was buried, put to rest for eternity, forever. Going with Marcel and Logan earlier in the day had been tough, to say the least, but she hadn’t been able to fully express herself like she’d wanted to - she hadn’t wanted to break down in front of her older siblings. They’d likely seen her cry enough as it was, and it was clear that they had needed this visit just as much as she did, and she hadn’t wanted to ruin it for them by breaking down completely.

But now here she was, kneeling in front of her mother’s tombstone, the flowers she and other two had brought earlier laid out around her. Diamond’s head was bent, chin all but touching her protruding collarbone, and her eyes were closed as she sobbed her heart out, the only sound present in the cemetery currently. Her chest heaving violently as she gasped through her tears...finally, after all these months, allowing herself to properly grieve. 

“Mama,” she choked out watery, sounding remarkably like the young, wounded child that she was, despite her age of twenty-one. She reached out to lovingly caress the grass beneath her - it was the closest she’d get to touching her mother ever again, and acknowledging that broke her heart into a million pieces all over again. “Oh, mama...I m-miss you so - so much. Just...So much. We all do - all of us - Uncle Zane, Uncle Billie, S-Sloan, Zoe, Marcel, Alex and Logan...and m-me...Just, all of us,” she cried, unabashedly letting the tears run down her face in a heavy, steady stream and onto the soil below. “It’s been so hard without you...We’ve all been so lost...”

Opening her eyes, which glistened in the darkness of the night with her tears, her hazel eyes took in the words on the tombstone, from her mother’s name and date of birth...to her date of death...

FUCK.

She quickly snapped her eyes shut again with a wet-sounding grasp, and her mind was quick to flash back to the night that her mother was murdered brutally before her eyes. Before her family’s eyes. The shock that had gone through her body as it registered in her brain what had happened; the scream that had tore itself from her throat. The pandemonium that ensued around her...

And then her mind starting flashing through all the memories she had of her mother, inconveniently skipping through all the good stuff, and going right into the bad ones - the far less happier times. When it was just her and her mother in the house. Her other siblings had all moved out by then, and as the youngest, she’d been left with Zaeliana...and the two constantly butted heads. They’d had several heated arguments to be sure, mostly over Diamond’s future and her academics. Diamond had been a highly intellectual child, and had even skipped several grades in her elementary years, and so her school work always came first. She took pride in being smart, despite the severe bullying she’d underwent in her classes. Her mother had been very proud of her youngest daughter’s excellence, as well; so proud, in fact, that she pushed and pushed Dime to be even better, to be the best, unknowing that it was doing nothing but embittering the teenager. It was study, study and study some more, and even for a genius child, it was too much. And yet Diamond had done everything her mother had asked of her, out of love and respect...up until the prospect of modeling came about and that was where the two really butted heads.

At the very reminder of all the words said between mother and daughter, Diamond flinched in guilt and gave another choked sob, bowing so that her forehead touched the grass. She repeated ‘I’m sorry,’ over and over into the dampening soil beneath her, guilt eating away at her heart as she remembered being so mad at her mother for refusing to hear her out, that she’d screamed ‘I wish you were dead!’ at the top of her lungs, and the look of shock and hurt on her mother’s face that followed. Still to this day, those words haunted Diamond. Especially now that her mother really was dead. After all, it had been so unlike Diamond, saying something so spiteful and terrible. She had never before raised her voice so loudly or so hatefully at anyone like that ever before, and never since. Of course, the resentment for her mother still lingered back then, up until Diamond actually left the family estate at 18 and headed to college, where she rebelled against her mother full force, by running off and becoming a model anyways. Even keeping it secret for over a year, before she’d come clean to the family.

To say that her mother hadn’t been happy about the news would have been an understatement, but looking back now, Diamond knew that her mother had only been concerned for her; after all, the fashion industry was a harsh one, and the thought of Diamond wasting all of her amazing potential on a dream that might not happen, or happen briefly but come crashing down, worried her. And while Zaeliana had come around in the end, even showing up at her runway shows in New York on occasion, the tension had always remained between them...mostly on Diamond’s end.

Biting at her wet, tear-soaked lips, Diamond’s entire being shook as she wept her remorse over her mother’s cold grave. “I’ve been s-so unbelievably ungrateful to you all th-these years, even resented you, for trying to control my life, or what I perceived as you trying to be controlling...I t-took you and your guidance for g-granted and and I’m so sorry, Mama. I’m sorry I was such a spoiled brat, and - and so quick and eager to leave you the second I got the chance, and I’m sorry I ignored you for so long after I moved out. Deceiving you...and I’m sorry that I lied to you, that I’m still lying to everyone else about everything...and I’m sorry I’ve avoided coming around to visit you for so long...I’m so sorry!”

It was an atonement of her guilt that she had desperately needed to make since January, but she’d been unable to. Every time she’d thought to come and visit her mother’s grave, she’d instead go out and party, drowning herself in drugs, alcohol and sex, to help numb the pain that was always there these days. Too painful for her to face. 

She was - is - a terrible daughter. Sister. Niece.

Person. A terrible, terrible person.

“Y-You...you were right to worry about me,” her breath came quick and erratic, her wet face glinting in the moonlight from where it’s still firmly pressed to the grass. She shakily situated herself so that she was laying, fetal position, curled atop the now healed mound of dirt and grass that had been moved in order to place her mother six feet under it, before being put back. The smell of earth filled her lungs as she tearfully confessed, “I love my job and I wouldn’t trade it for anything, but...I’m not okay, mama. I’m not and I haven’t been for a very long time...I’m a mess. I’ve made such a mess of everything.” Perhaps that was a little exaggerated, in retrospect, as not everything in her life was affected by her drug addiction or her alcoholic tendencies, or the fact that she was practically starving herself, despite her family always mentioning food at every damn turn, like they knew she wasn’t eating or something. It’s nearly impossible to avoid food when with them, and honestly, that was one of the only reasons she hated being around them so much. It always made her anxiety skyrocket, and now that she has agreed to move in with Logan...It was going to be a nightmare. As much as she absolutely loved her sister, the fact remained that Diamond had no desire whatsoever to eat anything, and Logan loved to cook...It was going to be hell. Because seriously, how the fuck was she going to be able to hide anything from Logan now?

So yes, while her plethora of problems didn’t affect everything in her life (just yet), the fact remains that her family had no idea about any of it, or at least, the scope of it. Sure, she often hung out with Marcel and Logan at the nightclubs, or ran into them, but..they hadn’t exactly seen Diamond at her worst. They’d seen her drunk, and even high, but who wasn’t one or either of those things at Genesis or Eden? They didn’t know how bad it really was for her.

And honestly? That elated and made her feel like absolute shit, in equal measure. Glad that they didn’t know the severity of her addictions or eating and Bipolar disorder - that the Diamond they saw was the one she wanted them to see; the put-together baby Washington who liked to have fun and who was always super happy; the one who swore up and down to their faces that she was still taking her meds every day; the one who had a promising and rapidly rising career ahead of her. When in fact, reality was far harsher. Her life wasn’t all about haute couture and glitter, and fancy heels like she pretended it was. It was a bit darker than all that, and she said nothing to make her family believe otherwise. She didn’t want them to be ashamed of her, or outright disgusted of her for her piss poor decisions.

At the very thought of her family hating her, she gave a loud whimper that sounded a great deal like that of a wounded animal, and she reached up to grasp at her chest, where the pain was nearly cripplingly. The thought of losing any more of her family was a painful one - whether it was from death or by her own folly, it didn’t matter. Them hating her was a constant thought and fear that did nothing for her often overwhelming depression, which just so happened to feed off those types of thoughts.

“What if they hate me?” she shuttered into the ground, thin body wracked with anxious sobs, “What if - Mama, what if they’re so ashamed of me that they just...th-throw me in rehab and forget about me?” She couldn’t be abandoned by her family...that would break her. She already lost her mother, and it hurt too fucking much, knowing that her family suffered the loss of such a great woman. But to lose the others as well...it was unthinkable.

Of course, deep down passed all of her overwhelming anxieties and self-doubt and her immense shame, Diamond knew her family would never desert her. That they loved her with every fiber of their being. But of course, her mind was a dark, dark place most days and that knowledge was rarely, if ever, acknowledged upon.

Finally, after was seemed like hours but in reality had only been a half-hour at best, the young model began to feel the sorrow that had been burdening her heart for so long begin to lift, and her sobs soon turned to hiccups, and quieter gasps of air. Her tears kept coming, but she knew it would be a long, long time yet before those went away. Pushing herself up into a kneeling position once more, with her long legs coming to fold underneath her, she was able to breathe a little easier, her guilt feeling lesser than it had when she’d first collapsed onto the grave. That said, Diamond was now beginning to become a little more aware of her surroundings and realizing just how late it was, and how...cold she felt. And how utterly stupid she was for being out this late by herself. She’d left the dinner party at the estate early, claiming she needed to go back to her now old apartment to pick up a few things she’d forgotten to pack up. It was a terrible excuse, but being inside the Washington estate again after so long, and without her mother there with them all, had been great but also way too emotionally overwhelming. She couldn’t stay there any longer. Instead of going to the apartment, though, she’d detoured a bit back to the cemetery, to visit her mother. Just one-on-one.

It was stupid, being out so late at night - especially by herself - but she hadn’t cared at the time. Now, as the chilly Chicago breeze picked up and rustled the leaves of the trees nearby, the creepiness of the night began to set in. She now remembered, some weeks ago, promising Marcel and Logan to never come to the cemetery by herself again...whoops. That was definitely a promise broken, not that she was going to be telling them about it. This visit would be strictly kept between her and her mother only.

After wiping at her sopping face with the sleeve of her over-sized sweater, she brought her hand to her lips before reaching down and pressing it solemnly to the ground, right where she imagined her mother’s head would be, “I love you so much, Mama, and I miss you every damn day you’re not here with me - us...I promise you, I’ll come by and visit more often, okay? We’ll have more talks, and I’ll tell you everything that you’re missing - the not-so-great stuff, but especially the good stuff.” Again wiping at her leaking eyes, Diamond slowly got to her feet, brushing off the dirt that had gotten on her bare knees as they dug into the ground. With a brief, wan smile, she blew the grave site a kiss and gave it a wave, “Goodnight - I love you,” she said in finality, before reluctantly turning away and walking back the way she’d come, now more than ever eager to get home.

To crawl into bed, and maybe - just maybe - cry some more to herself until she was actually able to fall asleep.

[katiezstorey93]

DVD and Blu-ray Releases: October 24, 2017

Greetings again, buddies.   We’ve got a slightly slimmer list this week in contrast to the past few months.   Blood Feast and The Barn may have already dropped to the 10th, however in case you did not see them then, assess for them now.

Speaking of Blood Feast, there are a good amount of classics that this week.   Reaching from 1990’s Night Angel all the way back to 1932’s , there is a pretty great potpourri of favorites from yesteryear.

In terms of newer releases, this week provides us the Kinect release of , and the DVD release for .   Probably the movie I am most interested in seeing this week would be Dave Made A Maze.   It appears distinctive as hell and also you can take a look at our review of this .

Additionally, There Are a couple of throwbacks to 2009 in the Kind of Blu-ray as well as the DVD release of , featuring Billy Zane.

Take a look at the remainder of the list below and we’ll visit another week for the big day.   As always, nice seeing.

MOVIES

Aliens: Zone of Silence (2017)

Starring:

Sarah Hester, Peter Gesswein, Jed Maheu, Vince Tula, Marcos Cline-Márquez

Synopsis:

Four months before, Morgan Taylor s brother, Hal, and his best friend went lost from a mysterious subject of the Mexican desert known as Zona del Silencio. After receiving no assistance from police on each side of the boundary, Morgan heads south to uncover the facts about their disappearance, strapped with action cameras loading footage to Hal s Marine Corps squadmate back in the USA. When her automobile suddenly breaks down just outside the zone, Morgan should traverse the desert alone, enduring intense heat in the daytime and ominous coyotes in the night. She finds Hal s campsite and discovers a kit filled with memory cards out of his camera. The recordings show a series of odd sounds, eerie lights in the sky, gravitational anomalies, and an extraterrestrial presence in a nearby mountain range. Convinced aliens were in charge of her brother s disappearance, Morgan must decide whether to flee her life or endeavor to expose the otherworldly beings once and for all.

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Annabelle: Creation (2017)

Starring:

Miranda Otto, Stephanie Sigman, Alicia Vela-Bailey, Anthony LaPaglia

Synopsis:

A few years after the horrible death of the little girl, a dollmaker and his wife educated a nun and lots of girls out of a shuttered orphanage in their home, soon becoming the goal of the dollmaker’s possessed creation, Annabelle.

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The Barn (2016) (Limited Edition)

Starring:

Linnea Quigley, Ari Lehman, Mitchell Musolino, Will Stout, Lexi Dripps

Synopsis:

It’s Halloween 1989, greatest buddies Sam and Josh are trying to enjoy what is left of the final Devil’s Night before graduating high school. But trouble arises when the two pals and a group of friends take a detour on their way to a rock concert, even locating an old abandoned barn and stirring the evil inside. Now it’s up to Sam and Josh to locate a means to safeguard their friends and defeat the creatures that lurk within The Barn.

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Blood Feast (1963) (2-Disc Special Edition)

Starring:

William Kerwin, Mal Arnold, Connie Mason

Synopsis:

The filmography of overdue movie maverick Herschell Gordon Lewis brims with the angry, gruesome, and just completely bizarre. But maybe the most unhinged of all his directorial efforts, and surely the most powerful, should be his original gore-fest Blood Feast the first ever splatter movie.   Dorothy Fremont is seeking to throw a celebration unlike any other, and that she gets that when she hires the most decidedly sinister Fuad Ramses to cater the case. Promising to offer her guests with a genuine Egyptian feast, Ramses promptly sets about acquiring the vital elements that the body parts of nubile young ladies!   With a plethora of stomach-churning gore gags including the infamous tongue string and a lot more nastiness besides, Herschell Gordon Lewis Blood Feast more than lives up to its title and remains essential viewing for any self-respecting splatter enthusiast.

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The Corpse Grinders (1972)

Starring:

Sean Kenney, Monika Kelly, Sanford Mitchell

Synopsis:

The Lotus Cat Food Company has hit major financial trouble and is now on the brink of closing, until the owners realize that instead of paying for meat, they could use bodies in your local graveyard to fulfill their tins. As their most recent product hits the shelves, it’s revealed to possess an unintended result: every cat that eats it is transformed to a bloodthirsty brute with an unending hunger for human flesh!  

Ted V. Mikels’ (The Doll Squad) mythical cult favourite, The Corpse Grinders, is a horror classic, chock full of jaw dropping spins, mind boggling surprises, and a self indulgent sense of comedy which turned into one of Ted’s trademarks. Co-written by Arch Hall Sr. (Eegah) & Joseph Cranston (The Crawling Hand), also colorfully obscured by Mikels himself, this drive-in mainstay is proudly presented for the first time on Kinect out of Vinegar Syndrome, freshly restored in 2k from newly discovered negative elements!

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Dave Made a Maze (2017)

Starring:

Nick Thune

Synopsis:

Dave (Nick Thune, Knocked Up), a frustrated artist who has yet to accomplish anything important in his profession, assembles a fort from cardboard boxes in his living room, only to wind up trapped by the countless pitfalls and creatures of his own creation. Ignoring his warnings, Dave’s girlfriend Annie (Meera Rohit Kumbhani, The Mindy Project) leads a group of oddball explorers (James Urbaniak, Difficult People, Kristen Vangsness, Criminal Minds, and Timothy Nordwind of OK Go) to a rescue mission. Upon entry, they discover themselves in an ever-changing supernatural world, jeopardized with booby traps and pursued by a bloodthirsty Minotaur (John Hennigan, WWE champion John Morrison). Reimagining the classic 80’s adventure movies with a modern comedic advantage, the handmade fantasy world of Dave Made A Maze comes to life with puppetry, stop-motion cartoon, along with on-camera optical illusions.

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Bad at the Time of Heroes (2009)

Starring:

Billy Zane

Synopsis:

In Greek with English subtitles. Slick, wacky, and chomping at the little gobs of all human-on-zombie-violence, Evil At The Time Of Heroes is a Grecian take on Shaun Of The Dead spanned by 28 Days Later. Millennia ago in ancient Greece, blood-thirsty zombies begin wreaking havoc on humans, and only a mysterious cloaked hero (Billy Zane) and his otherworldly weapons may spare them. Flash forward to today when Athens is once again plagued with the undead, and a ragtag group of human survivors is on the run. Among these are a cab driver who seems to be immortal, a set of hot-blooded soldiers with some significant chemistry, and a doctor who will t stand to receive his shoes dirty while stomping zombie heads. The elusive hero is back — but zombies are only half the problem. With less than a day before Greece is supposed to include the zombie virus, it’s becomes a race against the time for the rest humans. A highly cinematic bloodbath that s equally as clever as it is gory, Evil At The Time Of Heroes has it all: lighting-fast action, realistically terrifying zombies, and a healthy dose of pleasure.

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Night Angel (aka Deliver Us from Evil) (1990) (Special Edition)

Starring:

Isa Jank, Linden Ashby, Debra Feuer, Doug Jones, Karen Black

Synopsis:

A terrifying centuries-old evil has awakened in the kind of the wicked, voluptuous Lilith (Isa Anderson, Real Men). Lilith uses her beauty and her insatiable lust because of powerful lifeforce that spreads death and destruction to those who dare to cling to her excitement. Posing as a cover girl for a style magazine, Lilith becomes the thing of mad desire for those brave her gaze. Only true love could withstand her awesome powers and only 1 man (Linden Ashby, Mortal Kombat) is powerful enough to test them in a frightening test of death and will tango with Night Angel, the mistress of hell. ” The supporting cast includes Debra Feuer (To Live and Die in L.A.), Helen Martin (TV s 227), Doug Jones (Pan s Labyrinth) and Karen Black (Burnt Offerings). Night Angel was directed Dominique Othenin-Girard (Halloween 5, Omen IV: The Awakening) with a screenplay by Joe Augustyn (Night of the Demons, Night of the Demons 2) and Walter Josten (Pucker Up and Bark Like a Dog).

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Night School (1981)

Starring:

Leonard Mann, Rachel Ward, Drew Snyder, Joseph R. Sicari, Nicholas Cairis

Synopsis:

They operate by day, have a full schedule of classes all night and somehow find time for research and a occasional date. Girls in the day program at Boston’s distinguished Wendell College do a great deal to get ahead in life. But there is somebody who will go to even greater lengths. Someone who’ll do anything to find a head. An killer whose m.o. is that the ritualistic decapitation of victims which makes terror a required course at Night School, directed by Kenneth Hughes (Casino Royale 1967) and starring Rachel Ward (The Thorn Birds; After Dark, My Sweet) in her screen debut. Leonard Mann plays the homicide lieutenant assigned to the puzzling case. He’s got hunches, not hints. Suspects, not evidence. Along with a rising body count. Finals are coming early this season at Wendell. And for those who don’t make the quality, heads will roll.

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The Old Dark House (1932)

Starring:

Boris Karloff, Melvyn Douglas, Charles Laughton

Synopsis:

From the director of Frankenstein, a group of stranded travelers encounter a strange old home, and find themselves at the mercy of the highly eccentric, and possibly dangerous, Femm family. This well-performed, atmospheric thriller includes the first starring horror role for Boris Karloff, since the most bizarre, disfigured butler. Depending on the book Benighted (1927) by J. B. Priestley. The Cohen Film Collection is proud to present this gorgeous fresh 4K restoration.

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The Relic (1997)

Starring:

Penelope Ann Miller, Tom Sizemore, Linda Hunt, James Whitmore, Clayton Rohner

Synopsis:

Margo Greene is an evolutionary biologist at a Chicago museum. When a coworker’s research cage arrives without the researcher, Green and her mentor, Dr. Forck, unpack and look into the material which includes a superstitious relic and an unidentifiable virus discovered on some leaves native to Brazil. At exactly the exact same time, authorities Lieutenant Vincent D’Agosta is exploring a ship full of dead people that arrived from Brazil. When murder occurs in the memorial that’s connected to those on the ship, D’Agosta seals off the memorial. This infuriates the memorial curator Ann Cuthbet who is hosting an exhibit opening gala reception which even the Mayor will be attending. D’Agosta and Green figure out, however, that the killer is an ever evolving creature intent on killing everyone trapped in the memorial.

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The Uninvited (2009)

Starring:

Emily Browning, Arielle Kebbel, Elizabeth Banks, David Strathairn, Maya Massar

Synopsis:

According to Kim Jee-Woon’s 2003 Korean horror film, Changhwa Hongryon, The Uninvited revolves round Anna (Emily Browning), who returns home after spending time in the hospital following the tragic death of her mom. Her healing suffers a setback when she finds her dad (David Strathairn) has been engaged to her mommy’s former nurse, Rachel (Elizabeth Banks). This night, Anna is seen by her mother’s ghost, who cautioned her of Rachel’s intentions.   Collectively, Anna and her sister (Arielle Kebbel) try to convince their dad that his current fiancée is not who she pretends to be, and that which should have been a happy family reunion becomes a deadly struggle of wills between stepdaughters and stepmother.

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Vampire In Brooklyn (1995)

Starring:

Eddie Murphy, Angela Bassett, Allen Payne, Kadeem Hardison, John Witherspoon

Synopsis:

An Caribbean vampire expects that the half-vampire, half-human New York homicide officers destined to be his own bride. Directed by Wes Craven.

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COLLECTIONS

The Terrible Dr. Mabuse Collection (Triple Feature)

Starring:

Gert Frobe, Lex Barker, Daliah Lavi, Fausto Tozzi, Werner Peters

Synopsis:

A triple dose of German thrills and chills on a single DVD as the insidious Dr. Mabuse once again stalks the night. Shudder in dread of The Death Ray Mirror Of Dr. Mabuse, The Invisible Dr. Mabuse, and The Return of Dr. Mabuse. Presented in 1.66 improved Founded, 270 minutes; Starring Lex Barker (Tarzan string), Gert Frobe (Goldfinger).

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