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    ♡.         hi i’m haylee ( she/her ) & i love jenna & julien more than i love myself. seriously, look at these BABIES. anywho !! i live in the est timezone & i have a dog that i’ll probably [ read : will ] talk about 24/7. i can b a bit slow with replies at times simply bc i have work & a somewhat decent ?? social life ?? outside of rping, but if u bear w me, i can promise u i’ll make it up 2 u … probably by sending memes, funny videos or photos of my dog !! or cat. i can’t forget abt her :~) alright !! below the cut you’ll find info abt minjae & with the revamp, i took the chance to tweak some of their information !! i’d really appreciate if u gave it a look ok. their BIO & STATS pages can be found by clicking the links i just linked 4 u. also, as for connections, i basically took this as a chance for minjae to have a blank slate save 4 a few past connections,,,,,,, – tho if u want 2 keep an old connection that isn’t listed, just let me kno ?? i’ll b more than happy 2 add it !! that being said, i’ve set up a nifty connections page that u can find by clicking HERE. so,,,,,,, chogiwaNNA SMASH THAT LIKE BUTTON IF U WANNA PLOT !! THANK. ILY. 

surprise gif below !! i basically couldn’t not put it in, sorry ?? also trigger warnings for DISORDERED EATING, BLOOD MENTIONS, SELF HARM & SLIGHT PHOBIA TOWARD SEXUALITY & GENDER.

BIOGRAPHY :

minjae was born ( their sister soon following after ) in london and was raised there until they were sixteen, thus their first language is english. however, he began learning korean when he was eleven because he found it difficult to communicate with his relatives that weren’t fluent in english. his mother was happy to teach him !

minjae and his sister were incredibly close. he finds it easy to confide in her, and she’s always there for him. she understands him in ways his parents never truly did, and for that he’s so thankful. despite her being younger than him, she’d always come to his defence, protecting him from kids who’d bully minjae for being the way he was ; they often poked fun at his cautious nature, as well as his intelligence and effeminate mannerisms. their harsh words bothered him, and continue to do so ; they’re the main reason his self-image began to decline. they don’t show it as much anymore, as they’ve adopted a stoic exterior, but deep down, they continue to hide certain parts of themself for fear of being scrutinized.

he didn’t participate in sports much as a kid. in fact, he spent his time indoors, immersed in books and other activities like drawing and playing dress up. his mother never really saw anything wrong with it at the time, though it always seemed to rub his father the wrong way. when he was eight, his father refused to let his ❝ son ❞ dress up, and he was brokenhearted. he felt like a part of him had been torn away. as a result of this, minjae withdrew from their father at an early age, finding that they were merely civil around each other, keeping contact to a minimum.

additionally, they found solace in activities such as reading, art, and photography. these hobbies helped him through the years until he discovered his love for fashion ; he was thirteen when this happened.

it wasn’t that minjae didn’t want to get into sports, more so his health didn’t allow him to. minjae was diagnosed a hemophiliac at a young age, which meant that he was prone to excessive bleeding. he often gets nosebleeds as a result of this, and even made a friend once as his nose began bleeding in class and the other person offered to escort him to the school nurse ( possible connection ? ) interestingly enough, minjae loves watching sports, and closely follows football ( soccer ).

their fondness toward fashion started as an interest and grew into a strong liking ; though the liking escalated into an obsession as it began to take its toll on his mental health. his self-image declined as he was surrounded with thin bodies and supposed perfection. he began to view himself under a toxic, negative light ( he was only fourteen ) which resulted in him beginning and keeping an extensive journal containing daily logs describing the amount of calories he’d eat, his weight, his body measurements, and his exercise routines. recording data in this journal became routine ; he’d write in it after every meal, and if he chose not to eat, right before bed. they also began to self-harm ( they burned themself ), using it as a coping method and a form of punishment whenever they’d eat more than their allowed amount.

he used to keep the notebook on his desk, though he once lost it and had a panic attack due to its absence. he makes sure to keep it under his mattress now.

minjae was in his first relationship ( potential connection ? ) when he was in high school. it didn’t last long, and there wasn’t truly any love shared between them ( at least he didn’t love them ), but it was interesting ; a time for minjae to discover himself, and what their views regarding romance were. he gathered enough courage to come out to his parents as pansexual, though it furthered the rift between him and his father. his mother wasn’t as resentful, but she wasn’t incredibly accepting either. she was indifferent in the worst way ; it broke minjae’s heart. his sister, thankfully, continued to welcome him with open arms.

he and his parents moved to seoul when minjae was sixteen, and though he didn’t mind the change in scenery, he lost the majority of his friends with the distance ( they continued to skype, but it wasn’t the same ). his father began to work more, and through time, minjae’s mother began to warm up to her son ; she didn’t love him any less, she was just adjusting to new information. with the move, she noticed her child’s decline in mood, and as compensation she bought him a cat ( minjae’s sister also helped persuade her to ) which oddly enough, helped a lot ? he named the black cat lilly, and he holds her near and dear to his heart. she keeps him sane in his darker days, and she likes to sleep in his room, or sit on his lap whenever he’s working away at his desk. fun fact : his phone background’s a photo of him and her together !!

he applied to a local university for fashion design after completing high school and that’s the major he ended up graduating in !! he was lucky enough to land a job as an assistant designer for a relatively known fashion company, though the job’s stressful sometimes, and it makes him want to rip his hair out. also, when he’s experiencing art block he falls into depression. he hasn’t been diagnosed as he refuses to talk with a doctor ; in his mind, he’s too busy to see one ! he just takes his work very ( too ) seriously !

he moved out of his parents’ house when he was twenty-two, and currently lives with his roommate ( and cat ! ) in a studio apartment. his sister was upset to see him go, but she busies herself with school, as she’s currently majoring in business. she doesn’t know what she wants to do career wise though. she often comes around to visit minjae, too ! she practically lives with him half the time.

he once collapsed from overworking himself for a design when he was still just a newbie at his job ( he was twenty-three ). thankfully, it was while he was at home, though his roommate ( potential connection ? ) found him passed out on the floor and helped him into bed and made sure he was okay ; warm, fed, rested, etc. minjae was thankful, but the presence of food made him feel extremely uncomfortable. he didn’t eat for two days following that, as a form of punishment. subsequently, he didn’t tell his family of the fainting spell ; he couldn’t bear to burden his sister.

they were also recently diagnosed with rheumatoid arthiritis following a doctor’s visit after they noticed pain beginning in their hands. minjae had taken himself to the doctor’s, alone, and it was one of the most terrifying experiences of his life ( he has an aversion to anything medical related ; it brings him back to his childhood, where he’d visit hospitals frequently due to his hemophilia ). during flare ups, minjae finds it increasingly difficult to work ; sewing and other intricate practices become nearly impossible, and as he refuses to seek help from his peers, he tends to grow frustrated and lash out at unsuspecting others.

currently, he continues to have maladaptive coping methods ( they do still self-harm ), atop their nonexistent eating habits and extensive food log, which remains hidden under the new mattress in their room. .

PERSONALITY : 

he’s very quiet and insensitive, so if someone’s being annoying he’ll tell them, though deep, deep down he wants to be liked ; he just likes to sabotage himself a lot because he assumes he isn’t allowed to be happy. he’s scared of happiness ?

he also likes to paint his nails a lot ; he enjoys it and often paints them his favourite colour ( black ). it makes him feel more connected with himself ? it reminds him of when he used to play dress up ! though whenever he goes to see his family, he takes the nail polish off. his dad caught minjae with it on once, and he was not happy.

he’s also a huge fan of indie bands, the music relaxes him. if anyone close to him asks for music recs, he’ll go on for days about them, or anything else he likes for that matter !