#but looking at Louis I feel like that friend who just goes 'girl I thought we were done with him'

[marmelade-sky]

the age old question for Louis de Point du Lac: do I go back to the man who abused me physically and psychologically, who threatened and abused our daughter and stalked us, and eventually orchestrated her death, or do I stay with the guy who lied to me a little and who, to be fair, also orchestrated the death of my daughter.

everytime i think, something is fishy about Armand, he does something that makes me go 🥺

[themultifandomgal]

From 2010- The Late Late Show Clips

Part 52

2015

The video starts with James Corden in front of the camera at a basketball court. His hand on his hips with a sweatband on his head

“Today is the combination of a life’s dream”

The clip then cuts to Harry

“It definitely feels like the last erm five years being in this band was preparation for this game”

“The best way to practice dodgeball” James is stood talking with the boys and YN around him with a pile of dodgeball balls in the middle of them “is to practice without a dodgeball” Niall passes a pretend ball to James while Louis and Liam get ready for the imaginary ball to go to them. Harry and YN stand off to the side with arms crossed with raised eyebrows.

The next clip shows Niall

“The singing thing just happened I never planned a career in singing. It was always about dodgeball for me”

“We got a great coach and great team captain and an amazing support system” the camera shows YN holding pom-poms jumping up and down “we wouldn’t be here without her”

“When I was asked to join the team I was a little shocked, but then I was just told to stand on the side and cheer I thought why not. Singing was never really a passion of mine, it’s not my long term goal. I’ve always wanted to cheer on a dodgeball team”

The next clip shows the boys doing sit ups and YN running over to Harry to put his hair in a bobble

“I’m absolutely dodgeball obsessed and yeah I’ve always lived and breathed dodgeball it’s just such a big part of me” Louis says to the camera

“Have you ever played dodgeball before?”

“No never”

The rest of the video shows the boys playing dodgeball against a group of girls and YN having an issue with their male cheerleader. Unfortunately Cordens Angels loose the game, and the boys and YN looks devastated.

Comments:

YN just cheering the boys is priceless!

I love how serious they took this

I love how YN and the other cheerleader had beef

“Now we’re about to play what is probably the craziest game we’ve ever had on our show. It’s a game that I’m already regretting thinking of. It’s time for tattoo roulette with One Direction. Ok here’s how it works. On this table we have 6 boxes. In 5 of them is the word safe. Inside one of them is the word tattoo. Each of us will chose a box and if the box says tattoo in it they will get a tattoo right here right now live on the show. If it’s one of the boys or YN they will get Late Late tattooed on them and if it’s me I will have 1D tattooed on me” YNs face lights looking giddy with excitement

“I think we should go ladies first” Louis says looking at YN who’s stood next to Niall

“Me to. Niall” YN presents the boxes making everyone laugh

“Niall your the only member who doesn’t have any tattoos so are you going first?”

“Yeah”

“Oh my god he’s shaking” YN gasps

“Niall off you go” Niall goes to the boxes and chooses a box “ok YN your next” Harry goes to help YN down the stairs in her heals, but she effortlessly walks down without any help. Many years of practice under her belt

“I’m just going to pick this one” she shrugs taking a box

“I hate how calm you are” Niall says to YN who brings the box over to where he’s standing

“It’s fine I’ve been meaning to book a new tattoo in”

“Harold. How are you feeling about this?”

“I’m fine” Harry is next to chose a box, then Louis and finally Liam.

YN and the boys are stood in a line with their boxes

“I feel like I’m on deal or no deal” YN comments

“Now you’re a professional tattoo artist. Your good at this”

“I’m alright” the tattoo artist shrugs

“Can you do removals?” James says

“I’m a bit hurt James that you don’t want 1D permanently on your body. Plus removals hurt more than the tattoo so I’d just keep with the tattoo”

“Not helping YN” Niall nudges his friend

“Alright Liam you go first” Liam lifts up the lid which says safe. Louis is also safe. James is next and he’s safe. Harry quickly swaps his box and YNs box around

“Oi”

“I just have a feeling YN” Harry says

“Ok will YN you go next” she lets out a big sigh, then opens the lid revealing the words safe. All that’s left is Harry and Niall. Niall looks like he’s about to throw up Harry opens the his box and it says tattoo causing Niall to jump up and down with glee

“Harry styles is getting a tattoo!” James smiles

Comments:

The fact Harry swapped his and YNs box because he had a feeling

Niall just thinking thank god it’s not him!

I’m going to miss them!

“Hey mate it’s me. I’m in a real bind traffic wise I know your in town is there anyway you can help me?” James starts the video clip with him on the phone sat behind the drivers wheel of the car. Niall then opens the door and sits in the passenger seat ���hey man thanks for this” Louis Harry and Liam then join in the back “well since your all here where’s YN?”

“Here” YN pops her head up from the floor

“Where did you come from. No scratch that how did you get in here?”

“I have my ways. Now where am I sitting?”

“Here” Harry pats his and Liams knees. YN gets up and sits half on Harry and half on Liam

“Ok fair enough. If anyone needs a wee”

“I need a wee” Harry raises his hand

“Hold it. Now are you ok if we listen to some music?”

“Yeah course” what makes you beautiful starts playing. They all sing the song, Harry every now and then singing to YN.

“Blimey you’ve got a boney ass YN” Harry laughs with an arm around her waist making sure she’s safe

“Is it scary having people find out where you are, where you live”

“It can do when they are outside your house. I’m living alone at the moment so it’s scary when people are ringing your doorbell”

“That’s why she’s got Cookie. Scare them off” Niall jokes

“Worst she will do is lick someone to death” YN laughs. Story of my life then plays. YN tries her best to sing but her part of the song is sung by Harry

“Let’s do a band harmony. I’ll kick it off and you follow”

“I’ll do the highest note” YN says goes into a whistle tone as they all harmonise. The next song plays, the best song ever, Harry and YN sing the adlibs. When James does a high note after YN everyone looks shocked

“Ok YN how do I like keep that high note for long”

“Lots of practice and drinking hot Lemmon and honey water”

“I think you need to rethink the hiatus. This just feels right. So YN don’t go on tour with Justin. Just release more music. I just think this is whats best”

“Oh James” YN pats James on the shoulder

“Do you know the game sleep marry cruise”

“I love this game” YN claps

“YN. Your three are. Justin, Harry and Chris Hemsworth”

“Oh god errrm” YN awkwardly laughs “I think if I sleep with Chris things would be awkward so cruise Chris. Sleep Justin and marry Harry, he’s a good cook”

“Thanks for helping me get to work guys. I love you all”

Comments:

Harry singing ‘don’t need makeup to cover up’ to YN just makes me sad they aren’t actually dating!

Haha YN stealing Harry’s drink and him just letting her as if this is just normal!

YN actually looked so sad during story of my life. Liam and Louis just holding her hands breaks my heart

“marry Harry, he’s a good cook” hmmm sure…

[little-brattyangel]

Dear Liam,

The 22-year-old woman I am today feels like I shouldn’t be grieving, like I’m not allowed to mourn because I didn’t know you personally. But the truth is, there was once a 9-year-old girl who didn’t understand why her life was so difficult. She didn’t understand why God didn’t love her enough to give her happiness. She was bullied at school, her dad was gone, and her mom always seemed to side with her brother, never offering reassurance. She didn’t understand why her mom didn’t comfort her when she was scared, why she had to be the “big sister” when all she wanted was to feel safe and loved.

This girl didn’t feel beautiful. She was criticized for her weight and her looks, and her dad would give her false hope over the phone, promising he’d come back, but he never did. She blamed herself, locked herself in the bathroom to cry, asking God, “Why am I being punished?” Those were dark times.

But in November 2011, everything changed. She heard "What Makes You Beautiful" for the first time, and suddenly she felt seen, loved, and beautiful—as if that song had been written just for her. Listening to your music made her happy, so she dove into research. Who were you guys? Harry, Louis, Niall, Zayn, and her crush—Liam.

From that moment, a new kind of madness began: watching every interview, reading your biographies, learning every song, connecting with people all over the world, even learning a new language with the thought of "One day I'm gonna meet 1D and they don't know Spanish, so I need to learn English" . The fandom became her safe space. It was as if the bad things in her life weren’t as dark anymore.

She loved you all, but with you, Liam, there was something different. That smile, those kind brown eyes—you became her first love. Of course, you didn’t know, none of you did, but you and the rest of One Direction saved her life. You, Liam, especially, with your sweetness and sincerity, saved her in ways she couldn’t explain.

She grew up with your voice as her constant companion. When things at home got bad, your interviews, your songs, made everything seem a little better. When her dad made her feel worthless, there was you.

When One Direction broke up in 2016, she was 14. She read fanfics about you, kept listening to your music because it felt like home. Every year, her Spotify Wrapped showed One Direction at the top. You all saved her, not in the usual sense, but you did. Your music, your laughter, your funny moments, and even those left-footed dance moves. Everything felt better because of One Direction, because of you.

Now, years later, hearing the news of your passing feels surreal. Payno, I can’t believe you’re gone. I wish this were just a nightmare I could wake up from. My heart goes out to your parents, your son, your friends and family, and everyone who knew and loved you.

I’m sorry for not telling you how special you were, how much you meant not just to me, but to millions of people around the world. I’m sorry we didn’t see your suffering, and I wish I could have been there for you like you were for me. You saved me, and I wish I could have saved you.

Thank you for everything, Liam. You’ll never be forgotten.

I’ll love you forever,

The 9-year-old girl you saved

[hlficlibrary]

✤ Potter Direction ✤

A series of posts with the top five fics of each category by kudos plus five more hidden gems from that category! Remember to leave kudos and a comment on the fics you enjoyed to show your appreciation! You can find the library's other recs here.

- Top 5 H/L Fics -

1️⃣ You Are The Blood by sarcasticfluentry {E, 175k}

A seventh-year Hogwarts AU in which Niall gets all the girls, Liam goes on a journey of self-discovery, Zayn falls in love, Harry wants something more, and Louis tries to figure out once and for all why he, a Muggleborn, was sorted into Slytherin.

2️⃣ Tainted Saints And Velvet Vices by Toomanytears / @toomanydreamers {E, 126k}

A self-fulfilling Hogwarts AU in which Louis is new to seventh year and Harry is the resident devil-may-care Slytherin set to make his entire experience a living misery. Due to less than favourable circumstances they're forced to forge an unwilling, tentative relationship for their own survival. Repressed emotions, decidedly unromantic ballroom dancing, Triwizard Tournament tasks, creative jinxes and twilight flying above the Forbidden Forest ensue.

3️⃣ i'll be yours to keep by midnights {NR, 17k}

louis should've thought a lot more about who he said his fake boyfriend is, especially since he and his "significant other" kinda hate each other. most of the time.

4️⃣ a fully armed battalion (to remind you of my love) by MediaWhore / @mediawhorefics {T, 5k}

“He was flirting with you by the way,” Niall says casually once he’s finished saying goodbye to Louis and he’s joined Harry outside.

“No he wasn’t,” Harry replies automatically, feeling his heart clench at the thought. Was he?

Niall simply raises a mocking eyebrow in response before wrapping his scarf twice around his neck.

“Not that it matters!” Harry says quickly, eyes widening. “I wouldn’t care even if he did because he’s awful and the worst.”

Everyone at Hogwarts knows that Professor Styles and Professor Tomlinson absolutely despise each other. It's too bad that they're in love.

5️⃣ Magical Soup by gloria_andrews / @gloriaandrews {E, 28k}

Slytherin prefect Louis Tomlinson's seventh year at Hogwarts takes an immediate turn for the worse when he's made to be potions partners with Harry Styles, Hufflepuff's resident heartthrob and class clown. Louis has always considered Styles to be a terrible show-off who coasts by on his charm and good looks, but the more they work together, the more he questions that idea. As term goes on, will Louis be able to admit to himself that he might actually like Harry Styles after all... and maybe, just maybe, as more than a friend?

HIDDEN GEMS:

💎 The Lone Hydrangea by lightswoodmagic / @lightwoodsmagic {E, 77k}

“Thank you again,” he smiled at Harry as he picked up the arrangement and headed towards the door, and Harry quickly realised he didn’t know the man’s name. “I – wait! Sorry, I just...what’s your name?” At the man’s eyebrow raise, Harry stumbled over his words, “It’s just, if you’re coming back, I thought I should…know.” As the man looked at Harry, his smile only grew, and Harry’s heart thumped in his chest. “My name’s Louis. Louis Tomlinson, and it was so lovely to meet you,” he shot one final grin in Harry’s direction, “I’ll see you next week, Harry.” And then he was gone. “It was lovely to meet you too,” Harry whispered to the empty shop, putting his head on the counter, “Louis”.

Or the post Hogwarts AU where Harry's a florist, Louis' a muggle who edits fantasy books, and they both have no say in how quickly they fall for each other.

💎 Know a Trick or Two by @sadaveniren {E, 44k}

The night before Louis is scheduled for a Portkey to begin training with the Vratsa Vultures in Bulgaria he heads into Muggle London for one last night of fun. A few months later he finds out he’s having a child.

Eleven years ago Harry had a one night stand and now there’s a strange man on his doorstep telling him his daughter is something called a wizard and she’s got a place at the British wizarding school Hogwarts.

Aka the one where Muggle Harry and Wizard Louis have a one night stand and get more than they bargained out of it.

💎 We Will Find Our Way by amomentoflove / @daggerandrose {T, 23k}

“Yeah, well you see I was just… erm. I’m sleep walking!”

“Sleepwalking?”

“Yep,” Harry nods his head. “Definitely sleep walking right now.”

Louis' lips turn up in amusement. “You’re really talkative for a sleep walker. Do you usually wear shoes to bed?” He points down at Harry’s bedroom shoes in the shape of a badger and Harry shuffles his feet.

“Yeah, I know that I’m going to sleepwalk so I wear shoes to bed so I don’t stub my toe and hurt it,” Harry explains hardly believing that Louis is actually humoring his very obvious lie.

Louis maintains a stern expression for only a minute before he bursts out laughing. “You do talk some shit, don’t you?”

Or the one where Harry is a Hufflepuff, Louis is a Slytherin and they take midnight walks together.

💎 I've been thinking 'bout it all day by lsforever / @kingonafiftymetreroad {E, 7k}

When he heard about the job opening, from his nosy Aunt of course, Harry was ecstatic to go down there and talk to the shop owner. Her name is Perrie, and she and her best friend Louis opened the shop together not too long ago. Harry remembers the pair well from when he was in school.

or, Harry gets a job in Perrie and Louis' potion shop. He wasn't planning on the huge crush he develops on his boss.

💎 This Soft and Fluffy Thing Called by LadyLondonderry / @londonfoginacup {G, 3k}

Harry waits.

He waits for his eleventh birthday. He waits with bated breath. He waits and waits and waits and watches the post for the letter - the letter that decides his fate - the letter from Hogwarts.

or, the one where Harry was adopted as a baby, his downstairs neighbor is Louis, and he really should learn not to keep things bottled up.

[yourpenpaldee]

·˚ ༘₊· ͟͟͞͞꒰➳ WHEN ART TALKS: THE INTRO

When a girl meets a boy who sees the world as his playground, and she has to learn how to let others in her space.

if you would like to be tagged, please let me know! frequent updates will be coming soon after the character intros are up :) this is quite a lengthy post, but i hope you'll enjoy if you choose to stick around until the end.

BASIC OVERVIEW

GENRE: — romance

POV: — first person, present tense

STATUS: — rough first draft in progress

TROPES: — friends to lovers, opposites attract, slowburn, forgiveness

WORD COUNT: — making a last minute decision to (somewhat) start fresh because why not. starting at 0. will update this everyday :)

WARNINGS: — smoking. will update this along the way.

SUMMARY:

Aniyah Hope is a wishful thinker who wants more than what she has. As a reserved poet, she has documented her most inner personal thoughts and feelings inside her poem journals. Her poetry contains the most critical parts of herself, and exposing that to a world beyond her own is not a risk she’s often willing to take. So when Aniyah meets Noah Ford, an outspoken musician who proudly wears his heart on his sleeve, around the same time her journal goes missing, she initially hides further in her shell. What she doesn’t expect is how quickly she comes out of that shell, and the unexpected comfort she finds from what she usually shields herself from.

CHARACTERS, SNIPPET, PLAYLIST, AND MOODBOARD UNDER THE CUT!

CHARACTERS

ANIYAH HOPE has always kept to herself, finding more comfort in poetry than she ever has in people. She never wanted to cruise through life in the shadows, but she couldn't take another rejection of friendship due to superficial judgments. When she discovered poetry, she found the safe haven she needed to explore every little piece of herself. Because she couldn't connect with others as easily as she hoped, she'd put the pen to paper and write down all the things she wished she could say. Aniyah’s heart desires nothing more than to have these words spoken through a microphone. Unlike the boy who sees the world as his playground, she just isn't ready to let her guard down.

NOAH FORD has been on a mission to prove his parents wrong ever since he’s gone off to college to pursue music. His father always expected him to follow in his footsteps of becoming a well-respected lawyer, despite the countless times Noah emphasized his fiery passion for music. Instead of supporting his dreams, his parents brushed it off as a silly little phase he would eventually grow out of. It’s been a year since he’s gone no contact, his uncle and younger sister being the only familial support system. College provides him the freedom to make noise, to be reckless, and to meet a girl who has yet to experience the spotlight’s glow.

JACQUELINE TRẦN has never been the type to back down easily. She’s always up for a challenge, which often makes her appear intimidating to those on the outside looking in. Everyone in her life knows the opposite to be true, as she’s the kind of person everyone wants to have around them. Jackie is self-assured, loyal, supportive, and will be the first to defend those she cares about against any and all wrongdoings. However, taking advantage of her genuine kindness results in getting cut off with no hesitation. Now that she has her core group of people she knows she can rely on just as much as they rely on her, she pushes them to thrive and win, even if it means going beyond the safety net.

NADIA "EVIE" LOUIS has a curious mind that is eager to seek knowledge everywhere she goes. She isn’t afraid to let her curiosity take direction and lead, especially when a new opportunity presents itself at her front door. The world has too many offers for it to remain unexplored. As much as she enjoys diving into the unknown, she still needs some sort of certainty when it comes to her personal life. She has her future mapped out down to the last detail. With her ambitious nature, she puts in the work to show up on time for every milestone with ease. But not every meticulous plan is meant to be rigid when unexpected curveballs exist. When she can’t find the answers to her own crisis, she doesn’t shy away from finding help from others.

ELENA FORD is one year away from starting a new chapter in her life as a college student. She’s a go-getter that knows what she wants, and will find a way to make it happen. Ever since her parents have cut Noah off, she's made it her duty to sway their minds. She's had no success with it, and it bothers her a great deal. Ellie is used to getting her way— and in a timely manner— without having to suffer any consequences. Her persistence on the issue came with the cost of her relationship with her parents, which has left a strain that might never be repaired. Even though Noah has accepted the fact that he won't ever get his parents' support, Ellie continues her attempt to be the voice of reason for her brother and his future.

(VERY ROUGH) SNIPPET

Another silence falls upon us, and I come to the conclusion that our silence isn't an indication of the end, but rather an ellipses. It's a momentary pause for us to gather our individual thoughts and feelings. A continuation of savoring the moment without forcing ourselves to speak when it doesn't feel natural. The silence catches all of our spoken and unspoken words when they fall and speaks for us until we are ready to talk again.

PLAYLIST

Here's the playlist on YouTube for those who don't use Spotify.

MOODBOARD (coming soon!)

TAGS: @pixies-love-envy @honeybewrites ♡

[wormtitty]

Kinktober Day 11: biting/marking (daniel/louis)

this one's quite tender. shoutout to danlou nation <3

on AO3 here.

He catches Louis just as he’s leaving the brownstone, nearly comical the way his eyes widen in shock as he takes in Daniel on his doorstep, alone and carrying a beat-up duffel bag. 

His surprise doesn’t last long, taking his bag and welcoming him in. They play catch-up in the kitchen, leaning lazily against the countertops as Daniel gives him the play-by-play of his new book, the latest developments in his relationship with the human girl - Alice, Louis recalls. Apparently she’s pregnant. 

That’s actually the reason Daniel’s here - he needed somewhere to clear his head and Louis had always offered the best advice of any of his friends. And even if they weren’t really friends, he sure made it easy enough to pretend that they were. Daniel plays the part well, inquiring after Louis’ real estate business and art collection, asking where he was headed to before he’d showed up.

With a wave of his hand Louis tells him he was just on his way out to hunt for the night’s meal when he saw Daniel; “But it’s fine, I’m not that hungry right now.”  

“Bullshit, you need to eat. You do look kinda washed out.” He jabs.

“I don’t want to be a bad host, Daniel. You’ve only just arrived.” 

Daniel scoffs. “Just drink from me, then. You forget who I spend my nights with. I’m used to being a walking blood bag. It’s fine, really.”

So Louis nods, bites his lip and steps closer; bracing his hands on the countertop on either side of his body. He blinks, once, nice and slow to give Daniel time to change his mind. He just closes his eyes and waits for the first familiar spike of pain.

He’d intended to maintain his air of easy indifference - and to his credit, he does - until he feels the puff of cool breath centimeters away from the right side of his neck and oh no . He jerks back, slamming his elbow right on the granite countertop with the force of it. 

“Other side.” Daniel blurts. Shit. He’d meant to be a little more cool about it. He takes a second to gather his thoughts. “Not there, Louis. Please.”

Confusion clouds his expression for a split second before the reality of the situation hits. Daniel watches the understanding settle over him like a blanket, hunching his shoulders and curling in on himself. 

Daniel gives the back of his neck a squeeze. “Hey, c’mon. None of that.” Louis still looks uncertain, unmoving where he stands, arms a cage around him. “I still want you to, you know. Bite me, mark me up, I’m game for it all. Just not right there, alright?”

Louis nods, eyes still fixed on the scar on his jugular; angry edges still raised and jagged despite the five years it’s been since that fateful night. The first night they met. “I am sorry, Daniel.”

“I know, I know.” He turns his head to the side, offering himself, blood pounding hot and ready in his veins. “You’re hungry, I can tell. It’s okay. Just heal me up after, okay? I don’t need any more questions if -“ Daniel stops himself, reevaluates, “ When I go back to Alice.”

“Of course,” Louis says into his mind, mouth finally occupied. He drops soft little kisses to the skin of his neck, cool lips soothing where Daniel feels feverish.

This isn’t how it usually goes with the two of them - though with no lack of interest on Daniel’s part. Louis has been content enough just keeping tabs on him, checking in every few months. This is the first time Daniel has paid him a visit in his own home.

It’s the first time since the first time that Louis has tasted his blood.

And Daniel is only human. He’s spent the last couple of years with another vampire unafraid to sink his teeth into Daniel’s flesh any chance he can get, usually ending in a scene that leaves them both naked and bloody and satisfied. So he really should have expected the physical reaction to Louis’s fangs in him, his blood flowing freely and willingly into a hungry mouth.

He realizes he’s hard a few seconds too late, after he’s already lurched closer to Louis, pressing up against the long line of his body. Louis makes a startled sound at his throat, gurgling around his blood. 

Ashamed, Daniel tries to shift back and put some distance between their bodies, but Louis stops him with a gentle hand to his hip. He detaches from his neck, fangs slipping back into his gums as he swallows around a final mouthful of blood. 

Louis looks down between them, arching an eyebrow at the obvious outline of his dick in his pants. Daniel wishes he could crawl under the floorboards and live out the rest of his days in hiding. 

“Listen, it’s not you, I just have a thing about being bitten,” he tries to explain, hiding his flushed face behind his hands. “Sorry, you can keep going. I’ll try not to make it weird.” 

He hears him breathe out a soft laugh. Daniel peeks out from between his fingers. Louis is gazing at him with… fondness? It’s too much, this attention - he shuts his eyes against the sight of him. Yeah, he’d just had the guy’s fangs in his skin, but this is different. 

“Daniel,” Louis drawls, “are you gonna hide there all night, or would you like to do something about this?”

There’s a beat of silence as he ponders this. Daniel makes up his mind in approximately ten seconds. He gives him a slow nod. “Can you… bite me again?” 

It takes an embarrassingly short amount of time to get him whining and desperate; rutting clumsily against Louis’ hip, staccato little motions that pulse in time with the pounding of his heart pumping blood into the vampire’s mouth. 

Daniel spills unceremoniously into his boxers, grunting out a quiet “Hah - shit,” the back of Louis’ shirt twisted in his grip. 

Louis withdraws slowly, licking up a little trickle that leaks sluggishly from the puncture wounds in his neck. He’s in the middle of biting his own lip and applying that blood to the wounds when Daniel delves into a fit of giggles, suddenly overcome with laughter.

“Sorry, I just realized you’ve sucked me off twice now and we still haven't even kissed.” He pants out between bouts of hiccuping laughter. 

Louis leans back in close, a giddy smile spreading wide on his face before he closes the distance. The kiss itself is messy, the taste of blood fresh on his lips. Neither of them can seem to stop smiling. It’s perfect. 

They break apart slowly, nudging noses as they pull themselves back and away. Satisfaction curls low in Daniel’s belly.

“Hey.” Louis pats his cheek, notably serious now, and tilts his chin up. “I’m not complaining, you know - far from it - but how come you came to me, and not Armand?”

Daniel scuffs his foot against the laminate flooring. “He’s not responding to my calls at the moment. Last we talked, he pitched a fit about the ring. Stormed off, left me alone on the island.”

“Well,” Louis says, even. “You know you’re always welcome here.” Slowly, he brings his lips to Daniel’s forehead. “Stay however long you need, Danny. Just leave a note if you decide to take off during the day, alright?” 

“Thanks, Louis. I really - yeah. I figured you’d get it.” 

Daniel blows out a long breath and shakes the emotion free from where it catches in his throat. He’s suddenly overcome with lethargy, a heaviness settling over his body. Louis watches him with his charming little half smirk. 

“You look like you could use a nap. Come on, I’ll make up the bed for you.”

[fookinavocadosman]

episode 6: good as hell {HS}

relationships are tested, rules are broken, the girls bond and more secrets are made

warnings: like a dash of smut. 

word count: 2.7k

As the morning comes around we all lay in bed talking about if we think Zayn and Ava broke the rules. I defend them thinking they were able to hold back but Harry thinks differently. The room is split between if they broke the rules or not and we can only wait til later to see who was right. We all break off outside while Kate stays inside and I can tell that something is not right. I tried to talk to her but she bruised me off and I got the message that this was something she needed to figure out on her own so I left her be telling her that if she needed to talk I’d be there for her. When afternoon rolls around the girls go into the dressing room to change. Ava eventually joins us and I jump up trapping her in a hug as she laughs. 

“How was it?” I ask after I let her go sitting back down at my mirror as she goes to hers. 

“It was amazing.” She smiles from ear to ear and everyone looks at her smiling. “We took a bath together and talked, we drank champagne and it was absolutely magical.” I smile as I remember my night back in the suite with Harry and a soft look is on her face. She looks truly happy. 

“Did you guys break any rules?” Riley asks her and Ava bites her lip looking down at her hands. 

“Uhm yeah, we just kissed but that was it.” She mumbles embarrassed and I walk over to her wrapping her in a hug. 

“Hey, I’m glad you’re happy.” I mumble in her ear and she lets out a soft breath tightening her arms around me. 

“Thank you.” She whispers and when she pulls away relief is across her face. We all gather at the cabana at Lana’s request and she fills us in. 

“Hello everyone, Zayn and Ava, you have broken the rules.” She starts and everyone sits back ready for the damage. 

“Your kiss has cost the group $3000. The prize fund now stands at $53,000.” She finishes and in a way, everyone is relieved that was the only rule break. No one is angry, maybe a little upset but not angry. Kate stands up, turning our attention to her. 

“Hey guys, so I have done a lot of reflecting and I think it’s time for me to go.” She announces and some of us sit back in shock while others express their shock by saying no. 

“It’s what’s best for me and it was really hard for me to come to this conclusion, but I’ve learned a lot here. I’ve made some amazing friendships here but I think in order for me to continue my progression I needed to make a romantic connection but that didn’t happen.” She sits back down before continuing. 

“I genuinely enjoyed my time here and this was an amazing experience so thank you for everything.” She finishes her explanation and we all send a sad smile to her. We all hug her as we say goodbye, everyone solemn that she’s leaving. 

Kate truly was an amazing part of this experience. She was a good friend, she wasn’t afraid to speak her mind but was also there for you when you needed her. As we watch her leave silence falls upon us as we take it in. 

Once we all settle from the shock we disperse spending the rest of the day in careful thought. Everyone seems to be more aware of how serious this retreat is and how much we’ve grown in the past couple of weeks. 

As the night comes to a close we all find our way back to the bedroom, the sleeping arrangements changing once again. Zayn and Ava, Louis and Sage, Harry and I, and Riley and Niall are the ones who stayed the same. But tonight, Brooke has climbed into Luke’s bed and Michael and Kenzie share.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

A new day has begun and luckily for us, no one broke the rules overnight. Harry and I stay back in bed bickering about how certain things are pronounced while everyone else has left ready to start the day. I take in our alone time here as we have only a little less than a week left here and I feel myself get a bit sad. 

“What are you thinking about babe?” Harry asks me when he notices I’ve gone quiet. 

“Just a bit sad that we’re leaving in a week. I mean this has been an eye-opening experience for me and it just feels surreal.” I explain to him and he hums, placing a kiss on my forehead. 

“Yeah, but we’ll be alright love, I intend for us to continue once we leave, we’ll work through everything.” He reassures me and I nod, lifting my head to look at him. His eyes are puffy from sleep and his curls are flopping on his head. He looks absolutely breathtaking. 

We eventually climb out of bed heading our separate ways and I walk in on Brooke talking about Luke. I smile as she tells us about her alone time with him last night and I can tell she’s genuinely forming a connection with him and I’m glad she’s starting to change. The day is uneventful, all of us lounging around as we don’t have anything planned for us to do. Riley, Niall, Louis, Sage, Harry, and I are all hanging out in the cabana when Lana dings. We all look confused until she starts speaking. 

“Riley, as you know this retreat helps you make meaningful connections but it also tests those connections. Your company has been requested on a date.” She stops letting the anxiety sink into all of us. Harry readjusts and Niall sits up a bit more looking at her. 

“By Luke.” Lana finishes and everyone’s jaws drop. 

“What the fuck.” Niall huffs under his breath and I bring my knees up to my chest wrapping my arms around them in a protective manner. Harry moves his hand to comfort me as I look at Riley’s reaction. She sits her mouth open in shock and Niall curses. 

“I don’t want to go on a date with him.” Riley says to Lana and she accepts the rejection. Riley and Niall get up leaving the group as the rest of us sit in shock. 

“Jesus too much has happened these last couple of days.” Louis mumbles and I laugh agreeing. 

“Someone should tell Brooke.” Sage brings up and I sigh standing up. 

“I saw her in the dressing room earlier with Kenzie and Ava. I’ll go talk to her.” I look back at Harry as I grab my drink, sending him a small smile as I head to the dressing room. I push open the door seeing Brooke dressed in a tan dress with Kenzie sitting next to her as they talk and I send her a soft smile. 

“Hey, hun.” I start as I close the door behind me feeling genuinely bad. Here she is ready to go on a date with the guy she likes and I have to tell her that he doesn’t want her. 

“So I was in the cabana with Riley, Sage, Louis, and Harry, and Lana dings telling us that someone requested to go on date with Riley and it was Luke.” I break the news to her and I instantly see her deflate. 

“That’s fine.” She speaks confidently but it doesn’t hide the tears forming in her eyes. 

“Riley said no to the date if that's any consolation. I’m really sorry.” I tell her and she just nods, shaking her head. 

“I just wish he would’ve told me straight up that we weren’t going anywhere instead of doing this.” She says and Kenzie and I comfort her. 

As the night comes to a close there's now tension between Niall, Brooke, and Luke. Niall and Brooke are absolutely fuming still by the time we all go to bed and if looks could kill Luke would be 6 feet under. The anger is suffocating but I try my best to stay out of it enjoying the rest of the night with Harry instead.

~~~~~~~~~~~

Groans are all I can hear as the lights invade the darkness we were in. I bring the covers over my head as I try to fall back asleep. It doesn’t work. Everyone reluctantly starts their day and the atmosphere is still off from last night. With people coming and going, and relationships being tested, everyone is drained. 

Harry and I spend most of the day by the pool hanging out in the shade as we talk about everyone at the retreat. We both have no opinion on Michael and Kenzie as they have both been staying out of trouble, both of them keeping to themselves. We agree that Luke was shitty for doing that to Brooke and I feel bad for her even though it’s exactly what she did to me. 

Zayn, Ava, Louis, Sage, Riley, and Niall join us for a little bit and everything is going well. I’m so genuinely happy that I’ve made friends with these people and I make a mental note to ask if we can all hang out before we go back home. 

Eventually, all the girls get summoned to the workshop area and we all head there standing on the wooden platforms. The instructor is Nicole who was here for the shibari workshop and she tells us that we are doing Yoni Puja. We all stand confused as she explains what Yoni Puja is. 

“Yoni is the Sanskrit word for vulva, vagina and puja means to worship. And that's what we are doing today. We are worshiping our divine femininity.” Some of us stand in shock while some laugh still slightly confused. 

“Tell me some of the negative things you’ve heard about female genitalia before.” Nicole asks us and I look around not knowing what to say. 

“Smells like fish.” Sage is the first to speak up and Nicole nods waiting for others to answer. 

“Loose.” Kenzie says and I turn to face Nicole opening my mouth. 

“Disgusting.” I answer and Nicole lets out a breath before speaking. 

“I want everyone to let go of all of the things we’ve heard to have our sacred Yoni a certain way. I want you to look down on the ground.” We look down and that’s when we all notice a mirror at our feet. 

“Oh fuck no.” I mumble under my breath and the feeling is somewhat mutual. Producers bring out boxes that cover our lower body and I let out a sigh not believing this is happening. Once everyone is covered Nicole tells us to drop our bottoms and I reluctantly do so. 

“Now pick up your mirror and explore at your own will.” She tells us and everyone bends over picking up their mirror. I start doing what I’ve been instructed to but I’m honestly a bit weirded out. I never liked looking at it in the first place and I don’t particularly want to look now. Everyone is cracking jokes trying to ease the tension in the air. 

After a bit, Nicole comes up to us asking how we felt exploring ourselves and everyone agrees that it was nice to realize that our bodies are normal the way they are and that not everyone looks the same way. 

The next task involves us having a canvas in front of us and she instructs us to draw a representation of our yoni. I pick up the paintbrush and start drawing a heart. I paint it blue and I begin to write a couple of words. Once she calls time I finish the last letter and look at it smiling. We all go around showing our pictures and I’m the last to go. I flip my canvas around showing everyone my work. 

“Uh, so I decided to draw a heart and write some words. I think my yoni is powerful, strong, independent, and worthy.” I speak and everyone smiles at the meaning behind it. 

When the workshop is finished we all gather around and hug each other. The vibe between us has completely changed. We all feel connected once more and it’s nice that we have finally found a common ground. 

At the end of the day, all the girls meet up at night by the campfire, and we all talk. Brooke tells us she set it straight with Luke that what he did was shitty but he couldn’t care less about what she had to say. Riley tried to apologize to her but Brooke told her that she wasn’t even upset at her, she was upset over the fact that Luke had lied to her and went behind her back and that she knew that Riley wasn’t going to do anything with him. 

We all talk until Michael comes by stealing Kenzie away to go have a couple of drinks. We all leave them alone heading up to the cabana and spying on them. They talk and when they kiss we all express our shock not seeing that coming. 

We all head to bed ready for the next day to kick off. Except I can’t fall back asleep. Everyone else is fast asleep and for some reason, I can’t slip away back into my dreams. I had a very vivid sex dream and I thought it was real but just as it was getting to the good part I was thrown out of my dream, left hot and bothered awake. 

Harry holds me close to him, his chest rising and falling evenly. My brain is only focusing on how horny I am and Harry next to me isn’t helping at all. I try to slip out of his grip but he just pulls me tighter against him. I let out a long sigh, pulling his arm off of me and he wakes up slightly, seeing my state. 

“What's wrong baby?” He asks, voice raspy from sleep. 

“I’m so fucking horny” I mumble and he lets out a small smile rolling onto his back. 

“Lay down.” He whispers, pulling the covers over us as I follow his instruction. His hand finds its way onto my lower stomach as he nuzzles his head into my neck placing a soft kiss there. 

“Is this okay?” He asks me and I nod my head feeling the pressure building in my stomach. His hand makes its way down my body, dipping under my shorts and underwear and I let out a soft moan as his fingers make contact with my clit. 

“What got you so worked up?” He wonders, continuing his movements on my clit and I shake my head trying to form words. 

“I had a dream.” I answer him and he hums wanting me to continue. He puts more pressure on my clit, making me muffle a moan. 

“We were about to have sex and then I woke up.” I whisper shakily as his fingers dip into me before going back to my clit. 

“I’ve got you, baby.” He mumbles, placing a kiss on my jawline as he continues to please me. The pressure in my stomach is about ready to burst and I move my head down biting on the pillow to try and hold back my moans. His head follows mine and he whispers in my ear one sentence causing me to explode. 

“Be a good girl and come for me.” My orgasm washes over me and his free hand comes up covering my mouth as his other works me through my high. Once I start coming down I’m hypersensitive and my hand flies to his wrist stopping his movements on my clit. 

Once my breathing returned to normal Harry gets up holding his hand out for me to grab. We leave the bedroom and he brings me to the bathroom, hoisting me on the counter and telling me to stay there. He leaves me alone before coming back with another pair of panties in his hand and he removes my shorts and underwear before slipping the new pair on me. 

I sigh, finally feeling the adrenaline crashing and I am ready to pass out. I wrap him in a hug and I sponge kisses on his neck as he wraps my legs around his waist picking me up. He walks us back to the bedroom dropping us into bed and sleep finally finds me.

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the french exit | chapter 05

kylian mbappé x original female character [+18]

synopsis: alice is a lonely rich girl whose biggest fear is to become a lonely rich woman. ever since they moved to paris, her fiancé doesn’t seem to be interested in her anymore. so alice decides to find comfort in the arms of another man. warnings: cheating; angst; smut; i have never been to france; minors dni.

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Chapter 05 | A Burning Hill

“I am a forest fire

And I am the fire and I am the forest

And I am a witness watching it”

Alice goes home intentionally when she knows David won't be there. She grabs her Louis Vuitton luggage and starts to pack, looking around the apartment for anything she might like to take with her. There isn't much. She has a plan. She’ll take a french exit, she’ll go to a hotel and stay there until her head stops spinning. And only when that happens, if that happens, she’ll talk to David. It feels like a good plan. She was always non confrontational, her whole life. She was raised to be a good girl and good girls don’t argue, they don’t raise their voices. So she prefers to just leave. Except David also decided to go home when he thought she wouldn't be there. And he just stares at her in disbelief, watching her pack. He knows what it means, she’s leaving him. But he doesn’t know what to do. So Alice helps him.

“I know you’re cheating on me.” She says, surprisingly calm.

“Alice, love–”

“I cheated on you too.”

“Oh.”

They stay quiet for a while, just looking at each other. Alice continues talking when she notices he’s not going to say anything.

“We’re not people we’re pretending to be.”

“No, I guess we’re not.” David’s voice is low, he almost looks like a statue, unmoving. Or robot, only answering her sentences, without a single thought of his own.

“You used to be my best friend, David.” Alice starts crying when she says that. She didn’t know she had any tears left, but they’re just rolling down her face like a waterfall.

“I’m so sorry, love.” David is still unmoving.

“What happened to us?”

As she says that, David shakes his head and gets closer, he holds her face, trying to dry her tears.

“I don’t know.” It is as painful for him to say those things as it is for her to listen. “I just woke up one day and I wasn’t happy anymore.”

Alice almost laughs when he says that, and David raises his brow when he notices the spark of humor in her eyes.

“It was the same for me. That 's funny.” She chuckles.

“Yes, it is funny.”

They both laugh at that, a genuine, teary eyed laughter.

“Who–who was it?” David asks as she’s leaving.

“Does it matter?”

She doesn’t want to say it. And she doesn't want to know who he was spending his nights with either. It was the last thing they needed as they were saying goodbye.

“I still love you, Alice.”

“I still love you too.” She says, hoping that it matters. Hoping that maybe it means it wasn’t that bad, since they were still loving each other in the end. She leaves the engagement ring on his bedside table. And just like that, it was over.

After that, she spent as much time as possible at work, or at work related events. When she didn’t have anything else to do, she would return to her hotel room. A Garden Terrace Suite at the Mandarin Oriental Hotel. She decided to spend her entire inheritance money in Dom Pérignon and drink herself to sleep for the rest of her life. Alice had another issue to deal with, another loose end she was in denial about. She was non confrontational, she told herself. If she never saw Kylian again, they wouldn’t have to break up. Or end things. Or whatever is called in those situations.

One day, Alice hears a knock on her door. She shouldn’t be surprised, she could have predicted that visit coming from a mile away. Ever since she stopped answering her phone and ignoring her texts. Still, she says, in shock:

“Mom?!”

Caroline Fischer stands on the other side of the door looking like she just came out of a photoshoot. But Alice knew better, that’s just how mother looks like. Strangely, there’s an orange little thing in her hand that doesn't match with her outfit.

“What is that?” Alice asks, still in shock.

“That’s a kitten, honey.”

“I don't think they allow pets in this hotel, mom.”

“They don’t. That’s why I hid him in my purse on my way here.”

Caroline moves her daughter out of the way and enters the suite, looking side to side at the deplorable state of the room. The place was a mess. She felt like she was walking into Alice’s teenage bedroom.

“Okay…” Alice is still unsure on how to behave, she closes the door behind her and just stares at her mother.

“He is yours! Here, take him.” Caroline hands her the cat.

“Oh… You brought me a cat?”

“Yes, Alice. Because you didn’t follow my advice.” She sounded bored, like she was saying something obvious that was already said hundreds of times. “So I came all the to France to deliver you a fucking cat.”

“He is cute.” Alice holds the kitten close to her face, the tiny thing can practically fit on the palm of her hand.

“Yes, I know. You have to name him, but don’t hurry. Take your time. Pick something chic. Something you won't get bored of. Choose wisely.”

“Are we still talking about the cat?”

Caroline sighs at the questions, and then she looks serious at Alice. A kind of look her daughter didn’t get to see very often. A look of genuine care and love.

“I’m not upset about the wedding. I’m strangely proud of you.” Caroline then immediately avoided her daughter's gaze, she felt ashamed of admitting such a thing.

“You are?”

“Yes, yes. Don't make me say it again. I guess I raised you better than I thought. You became an ambitious woman, Alice. And ambitious women don’t settle for men like David. I’m still worried, though. You’re your own now, starting over in the middle of your twenties! That’s dangerous. I figured the cat would help.”

“Thanks. Really. The job you got me is also helping a lot.” Alice smiles, she feels like teasing her mother about her strange behavior or maybe even hugging her, but she won't push her luck.

“Yeah? Good.” Caroline sighs in relief. “So you’re going to be fine?”

“I’m going to be fine, mom.” Alice agrees.

“And you’re sure you don’t need a psychiatrist?”

“Not right now, but I’ll let you know.”

“Good. Good.”

Hiding the cat in the Suite turned out to be hard work. Especially sneaking in all the cat food and items. But it made her happy to, for once in her life, be doing a harmless bad thing. She felt like Eloise at the Plaza, like a little kid doing shenanigans. One night, when it was just her, the cat, a bottle of Dom Pérignon and another episode of Succession, Alice started thinking about Kylian. And how he would have named the cat by now. She wondered how angry he was at her, or if he even remembered her at all. She went back to the apartment the next day.

As soon as she arrived, holding Cat, somebody opened the apartment door. A man she never met.

“Oh, merde. You’re not delivery.” The man looked at her from head to toe. “Shit, you’re Alice?”

He is suddenly pushed from the front door. It’s Kylian, and he replaces the guy in the same position, holding the door, staring Alice from head to toe. Behind her in the hallway another person shows up, holding bags from a nearby restaurant.

“It’s the delivery guy!” Kylian’s friend says behind him, who is still blocking the door. The four of them stand awkwardly in the entrance hall as the food is delivered and only after that Kylian acknowledges her presence.

“This is my friend Tchaga,” he points to his friends, who waves. “and Tchaga, this is my friend Alice.” Alice waves back.

“That’s a cute cat!” Tchaga points at the kitten and Kylian rubs his eyes, feeling stressed at the situation.

“Can you give us a minute?” He asks and his friend vigorously nods.

“Yeah, I’ll take the food to the kitchen.”

As soon as he leaves, Kylian turns to Alice, both still at the entrance hall.

“What are you doing here, Alice?”

“I wanted to talk.” She feels shy immediately as his attention is turned solely to her. She can feel her face turning red. “I fucked up. I know. So I figured I owed you a talk. If you want.”

“Did you bring a cat to help you?” 

She recognizes the tone of voice and the look on his face, he’s teasing her and it feels like a victory to Alice.

“No.” She 's smiling. “I just couldn't leave him alone, he’s still a baby.” She holds up the cat, introducing the two of them. “So, can we talk? In private, hopefully?”

Kylian chuckles and agrees, gesturing for her to follow him.

“Yeah, come on.”

He takes her to the bedroom. Their bedroom. It looks different, in a way, even though nothing really changed. There’s a big box on the bed and Kylian sits right next to it.

“That’s…” He points to the box. “That’s your stuff. I was angry and I figured you wouldn’t come back, so I just…”

Alice continues to look around the room and notices a broken lampshade. 

“Like I said, I was angry…” Kylian gestures to the lampshade, feeling embarrassed. He broke it the day she left, right after he came out of the shower, and hasn’t cleaned yet. For him, it served as a reminder. Alice handles him the cat, hoping it would help with his anger issue. She didn’t want him to be that angry during their talk. As he takes the cat, Kylian finally notices her hand, and the missing diamond ring.

“You left him?” His eyes turn twice its size when he says that. He can't believe it.

“Yes. For many reasons.” She’s staring at her feet. “I actually had a whole speech ready and now I can’t remember a single word I wanted to say.”

The cat looks comfortable in Kylian’s lap, and Alice smiles. She wants to be comfortable like that too, lying in that same bed, cuddling with that same man. Instead she just finally sits on the bed. closer to the middle, crossing her legs. Cat goes to her, asking for pets, and Kylian follows her movements, also crossing his legs. Now they’re sitting facing each other with only the tiny kitten in between them.

“You left him.” Kylian repeats, almost as if trying to convince himself. “All of my friends told me I was being an idiot, that you were just using me.” He says.

“You talked about me with your friends?”

“You didn't talk about me with your friends?”

Alice shook her head.

“Oh. Fuck. Well, I had a speech too.” He takes her hand and it’s almost insane that he’s allowed to touch her again. Or finally allowed to touch her. “You were half right. At first this was only about the trill for me, –” As he says that, Alice bites her lower lips, remembering their early days and Kylian laughs at her reaction. “Baby, pay attention.” He kisses her hand. “My feelings for you changed. I thought this was just an affair, that I could hide you here in this apartment, but then… You were everywhere. I couldn’t stop thinking about you, Alice. I fell in love. I’m in love with you. And I just wanted to keep you here as much as I could, until you had to leave to marry someone else.” 

“I was so angry when you said that last time.” She comes closer to him, practically sitting on his lap and Kylian holds her waist. “Because I thought you meant that you didn't want me. That you were fine with me leaving.”

Kylian shook his head.

“I want you so much. Baby, how can you think that?” He brings her even closer, with Alice now fully in his arms. “Can’t you see how much I want you? Because I know you want me too. I've always known.” He starts distributing kisses all over her neck, and face. He missed her so much.

“I was an idiot.” Alice returns the kisses, trying to tell him she misses him too. “I’m so sorry, Kyky.” For everything, she tries to say, but he kisses her lips as soon as she apologizes.

“It’s okay, baby.”

“Kylian…”

“Yes?”

“I’m in love with you too.”

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CaliYork songfic I wrote by accident!!

Italicized text is Cal singing

Bolded text is York singing

Bolded & italicized Text is both of them singing

California goes to a party with the other states and invites York to come, but he has work so California- though disappointed- says it’s okay and goes to third wheel with Florida and Louisiana. He doesn’t wanna be a bother so he just hangs around near the bar area. At one point during the night there’s a karaoke machine that’s available to use. Florida and Loui go first before anyone else, then a few other people build up the confidence to go too, some with their lovers and some alone. After one or two drinks Cal decides he’ll give it a go too.

New York gets off work early because he feels bad for not going with Cal to the party. He knows it’s none of his business, but the sad look in California’s eyes when he said he couldn’t go made him feel guilty. He had Louisiana text him the address and he drove there as fast as he could.

He walks in the door to hear none other than California’s voice on a microphone.

“I don’t exactly have a boyfriend, but I am in love with someone” he says, “he’s not here so I couldn’t sing a duet with him if I wanted to, but I want to sing this song because it reminds me of him”

New York wonders who he could be talking about, and thought he wouldn’t admit it, he really hopes Cal is talking about him.

The music starts and immediately York recognizes it.

“Hey there, Delilah

What's it like in New York city?”

Hey There Delilah by The Plain White T’s. New York sits down at a table nearby and just listens to California’s singing. He has a much nicer voice than anyone would expect.

“I'm a thousand miles away

But, girl, tonight you look so pretty

Yes, you do

Time square can't shine as bright as you

I swear, it's true”

California slightly laughs as he sings, but to his friends they know every word he's singing, he means it.

“Hey there, Delilah

Don't you worry about the distance

I'm right there if you get lonely

Give this song another listen

Close your eyes”

New York closes his eyes, just letting the music fill his ears. He doesn’t notice Louisiana and Florida finding him and sitting near him.

“Listen to my voice, it's my disguise

I'm by your side”

“Hey, York” Florida says, New York’s fight or flight response kicks in and he jumps out of his seat.

“Oh, it's what you do to me”

“Mais, calm down, York. Is just us” Louisiana tells him.

“Oh, it's what you do to me”

“We have a secret to tell you, but don’t tell Cali we told you or he’ll literally kill us.” Florida follows.

“Oh, it's what you do to me”

“Flo, we betta ask him first” Loui says.

“What’re yous both goin’ on about!?” York exclaims, tired of their stalling.

“Oh, it's what you do to me

What you do to me”

“York, do you by any chance got a crush on Cal?” Loui asks him.

New York’s cheeks heat up at the question. He wants to say “isn’t that pretty [speaks New York]in’ obvious?” But all he says is “none of ya business”

“Hey there, Delilah

I know times are gettin' hard”

“Well, you see, yorkie-“ Florida starts.

“Don’t call me that”

“-it is our business. So please, yes or no answer and we’ll get to the point”

“But just believe me, girl

Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar”

He waits, thinking, for one, two, three seconds and finally chokes out, “yeah. I do.”

Florida smiles from ear to ear, a scary sight to see. Louisiana looks proud of New York.

“We'll have it good

We'll have the life we knew we would”

“Alright what the hell is going on?!” New York snaps.

“York, California’s in love wit’ you” Louisiana explains.

“Yea, y’know how he said that he’s in love with someone and this song reminded him of them?”

“My word is good”

“Yeah? So what.” New York questions, trying to hide the nervousness in his voice.

“He was talking about you! We know for a fact!” Florida exclaims.

“Hey there, Delilah

I've got so much left to say

If every simple song I wrote to you

Would take your breath away

I'd write it all”

“Yeah? How do yous know?”

“Mais, Cal goes out drinkin’ with us all da time. An’ when dat boy’s drunk, he tends to overshare” Louisiana explained.

“Oh hell yeah, él está loco por ti, York” Florida follows.

New York just hums in response, turning back to the stage where California is. He listens to him sing the rest of the refrain, and before he can convince himself not to, he stands up and starts walking towards the stage.

“A thousand miles seems pretty far”

Florida and Louisiana are sure they know what’s going on, and so they just let it happen. After all, their ship is about to sail.

“But they've got planes and trains and cars”

New York gets on the stage and grabs the microphone out of California’s hand,

“ I'd walk to you if I had no other way”

He sings. His voice is a bit raspy, probably from not singing in a while, but he still sounds like a professional.

California is left in shock next to him.

“Our friends would all make fun of us

And we'll just laugh along because we know

That none of them have felt this way”

“Yorkie?”said California, “you came?”

New York turned to face him and nodded, smiling.

California’s face lit up as they both sang the next lyric.

“Delilah, I can promise you

That by the time we get through

The world will never ever be the same”

California couldn’t stop smiling.

“And you're to blame”

“Hey there, Delilah

You be good, and don't you miss me”

He continues singing, turning back to the direction Florida and Louisiana were in before.

“Two more years and you'll be done with school”

“And I'll be makin' history like I do”

“You'll know it's all because of you”

New York, however, can’t keep his eyes off of California.

“We can do whatever we want to”

The way his eyes sparkle in the spotlight.

“Hey there, Delilah, here's to you”

The way he can smile and look so happy, but still sing perfectly at the same time.

“This ones for you”

No wonder he’s entertainment capitol of the world.

New York just steps back and waits for Cal to finish the rest of the song. The party is over by this time, and people start to leave as the music finally fades out, but California stays on the stage, slightly out of breath, with New York right next to him.

“New York! You came! I don’t understand,” he starts, “I thought you had work?”

“Well, I knew yous wanted me to come. And I hardly go to any parties yous all invite me to, so I thought I’d try to get out early to come” York replies, hoping his voice isn’t shaking too much from the nerves.

“Aww, Yorkie” California says, capturing New York in a hug, “thank you, I appreciate that you came” he speaks into York’s beanie.

“It’s no problem, B” York tells him, his face getting redder and redder every second.

“‘Fornia?”

“Yeah?”

They pull apart from the hug and New York takes a few deep breaths.

“Yous wanna know something Louisiana told me?”

California’s anxiety levels raised at that moment, hoping Loui didn’t say anything too severe.

“He said yous was in love with me”

California’s brain was going a mile a minute, his face going red as a tomato, and his head feeling dizzy, but then New York asked,

“Is that true?”

This was California’s chance to deny it, to say Loui was playing a prank, and to avoid losing York as a friend.

But what if he didn’t deny it?

“Yea, It’s true” he says, trying to be as nonchalant as possible.

“But hey, if you don’t like me you don’t have to-“

New York cuts him off, “can I kiss you?”

“Wha- York? Are you serious?” California can’t believe what’s happening.

“Yes. Dead serious.” New York says, remaining eye contact with California no matter how hard it became.

“Yea.. yes! Oh my gods yes you Can!” California exclaimed.

“You’re such a dork” New York laughed before cupping Cal’s face in his hand and gently kissing the golden state’s soft lips.

He pulled away, leaving California with a dumbstruck look on his face. “You were serious.” He says.

“‘Course I was” York laughs. “I love you, Goldie”

California’s smile in that moment could light up the entire night sky. “I love you too, yorkie”

[me-fangirlingxxx]

His Weak Point

Summary: I got bored and thought about this scenario where Holly and Butler are trying to convince Artemis with something, but he wouldn’t budge, so Butler uses the secret weapon which is…. Sophias pout..

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For the weekend, Holly, Butler and their relatively new friend Sophia, are gathered in Artemis’ study to discuss this new “mission” that their genius friend dragged them into.

Apparently there have been some alarming actions that have taken place at some institution in America and Artemis is convinced that it could be a potential threat to the People. His plan was solid and backed with evidence. As always.

However, his friends are worried about a certain man named Louis Cain, one of the founders for said institution. Butler wants a more in-depth background check “I smell something fishy” he said. Artemis didn’t know what fish had to do with their situation, but looked passed it saying he did all the research possible and that Louis was just a clueless decoy. Unfortunately for Artemis, Holly and Sophia were on Butlers side, but he didn’t budge and stood his ground, confident in his work.

After all, Artemis Fowl the second rarely missed a piece of info in his researches no matter how small. Right?

“I trust him, but I’m still not convinced..” said Butler from his standing place by Artemis’ desk after he left the room “Holly, any ideas?”

“I’m with you, but I’m also empty handed” answered Holly crossing her arms while sitting on top of the backrest of an armchair…

“Artemis can see reason, but he’s also pretty stubborn” Sophias statement drew a chuckle out of Holly. Captain Short liked this new girl, but nothing really seemed to surprise her anymore since her adventures in space and fighting aliens. Holly envied her for it sometimes, but she’s also fresh out of death wishes after everything she went through in the past years.

“I have an idea!” Said the bodyguard suddenly “enlighten us” told him Holly. Butler didn’t elaborate any further, he just looked at Sophia who was sitting on the couch with a rare smirk on his face..

Holly was confused and so was Sophia, but not for long before shock and then disgust painted her face.

Sophia crossed her arms and looked away “no way in hell!” She exclaimed. “Come on Soph!” Said Butler, using the nickname he and their Time Lord friend adopted for her. Artemis thought it was ridiculous to shorten someones name like that (apart from what his mother calls him but he wouldn’t admit it).

“I said no! It weirds me out and makes me feel…thing” countered Sophia

“But you know it’s affective on him”

“What? What is it?!” Holly was growing curious and impatient really quickly..

Sophia closed her eyes and took a deep breath as if convincing her self “ok…here goes nothing..” Holly was still confused so she looked at her friend for and an explanation, but all Butler served her was a wink and a thumbs up. Well, if he says so.

“Sorry for keeping you waiting” Artemis spoke walking into the room with three files in his hands “worked on these last night for you to take a look at. I know digitally would have been better, but written is just a preference of mine” he told them handing the files “yeah we know” said Holly looking through hers.

Artemis went about their plan about stopping and possibly eliminating the American institution and by the end, and before he concluded their brief meeting “any questions?” He asked..

“Yeah I have one..” said Sophia raising her hand like she needs permission to speak, an adorable habit Artemis thought of it.

Holly was on the edge of her seat, or her seats backrest for that matter, what could Sophia possibly say or do?

“Why can’t we just investigate this Louis man more? You might never know, it could helpful..” she said Artemis crossed his arms “as I said, I already did my thorough research on everyone there and he’s useless to say the least” he answered.

Holly didn’t what was this “idea” that Butler implied until..

A frown appeared on Sophias face and she..pouted?!

Sophia was pouting at him and then looked away like a child that got denied opening their birthday presents before the cake.

Artemis uncrossed his arms, sighed a long one and a smile crept on his face “alright..” he said “..a take another look, but no promises” Sophia smiled at him.

Holly looked at Butler as she tried to holed her jaw together and saw him holding a laugh. Captain Short thought if she did what Sophia did right now at any given moment in her long life and Artemis’ humanly short one, he would probably comment about how childish she is acting.

At the end of it all and while Holly was ready to fly out of here back to her home underground, Butler whispered to her “he didn’t realise it yet”

[louandhazaf]

ANNUAL WRITING SELF EVALUATION

List of works published this year:

I Like Different Places (Nobody Calls It a Sin) // Louis' hands shot up in front of him, like it would prove his innocence. “Gem, I swear, it’s not what you think.” He knew what that sounded like, but it was true, even if he couldn’t follow it up with the whole truth of the situation. Gemma was like family to him, but she was Harry’s actual family, and the rage in her eyes broke Louis’ heart. That after everything they’d been through, Gemma thought he was capable of going behind Harry’s back.  Or   The one where Harry comes out to his family.

Vesper // “No.” Louis shook her head, lips tucked into her teeth. “Not like a…” she waved her hands around, “woowoo vibe. Like, a, you know, a vibrator.” She said the last word so quietly Harry struggled to hear, then coughed on her own wine when she realized. “And… And you shipped it here?”

song for no one // “I want to see what I was competing against,” Shawn murmured, moving in for a kiss he wasn’t sure Harry would reciprocate.Harry closed his eyes, welcomed Shawn into his space. “Want to feel what he left me for.” His breath hitched as Shawn leaned in the rest of the way.

Counteract // Louis comes up with a plan to get Harry's attention.

Close Enough to Touch // There had been chart topping singles and sold out arenas when Louis Tomlinson was one fifth of the world's most successful boyband.Embarking on his first solo tour was stressful enough without his closest friends encouraging him to push even further outside of his comfort zone. Louis definitely did not need a masseuse on tour. Not even if that masseuse turned out to be gorgeous, kind, and lovely. It was the last thing Louis thought he needed.   He was wrong.

Pancakes for Two // Louis goes to a key party. He didn't expect to see Harry.

Falling for You // Five times Harry orders very particular drinks, and one time Louis finds out why. Featuring Starbucks’ fall menu.

Work you are most proud of (and why): The funny thing is, that before I did this recap, I was so [sigh/ho-hum/frowny face emoji] about my writing this year, BUT looking back, I realized that I wanted to write Counteract for years, and also a key party fic, and also another girl direction... so look at me crossing a few things off my to-write list!! 

Work you are least proud of (and why): literally none of them, because they’re all done. Maybe not done soon enough to get betaed and be in excellent condition, but done, and some years, that is enough! I would’ve loved to actually finish @wordplayfics this year, but at least I got two fics out of it!

A favorite excerpt of your writing: I actually really loved this moment of my poly fic, because the dynamics!! Sometimes the stuff has very little to do with you, but you’re involved! oof. 

Zayn’s heart thumped. He wasn’t sure if him sticking around for this argument was a good idea; maybe it was something they needed to work out on their own. “Is this a… I don’t know, should I go?” Zayn asked.

“No,” they both said in unison, though their eyes stayed locked on each other.

Louis broke first. He turned in Zayn’s lap, to look at him properly. “If you’re… I mean, if you still want to give this a go, then this involves you too, even if we’ve gone back and forth a trillion times on this before you arrived.”

Share or describe a favorite review you received: literally every single one.

A time when writing was really, really hard: all year. SOBS. then prays to the writing gods for a better year after the past few years.

A scene or character you wrote that surprised you: THE MOMENT HARRY MENTIONS NIALL’S KNEE IN song for no one. OOF. The most painful!

How did you grow as a writer this year: shrug emoticon shrug emoticon shrug emoticon

How do you hope to grow next year: I hope to just be able to write again without feeling like an abject failure. 

Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc): @disgruntledkittenface writing Darling, so it goes. because I know it meant so much to her and knowing that there are fics out there living in other people that are sometimes hard to write, and then they come out SO DEEPLY WONDERFUL makes me feel like the same is true for me! And weekends of fic and fandom chatting IN PERSON just fills my heart like nothing else can. 

and of course @kingsofeverything because she’s the LOML and getting to beta for her keeps me on my toes!

Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year: hmmmm. vaguely. 

Any new wisdom you can share with other writers: i love you. please keep going!

Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year: finishing my @1dreversebang fic! and then figuring out what my heart really wants to write next!

Thank you to @lunarheslwt and @disgruntledkittenface for tagging me in yours! I’d love for anyone else to tag me too because I always find these so very interesting!!

(also, here’re my responses from 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021)

[margridarnauds]

🎬🚦💎 mwah

THANK YOU BRO ILY

🎬 If a movie or show were based on your fic, which fic would you choose and who would you fancast?

My beloved Abominationverse for a full series covering the entirety of the French Revolution, from Lazare and Ronan as children with the American Revolution hanging over their heads to their reunion as adults shortly before the fall of the Bastille. For actors...I've always thought that Louis Garrel had the right look for Lazare. Though, frankly, if I'm going to cast a 40 year old in the role, I'm just going to beg Matthieu Carnot on my hands and knees to come back. Camille Lou is still gorgeous so she can play Olympe again. Louis Delort...he's lost the scruffy little boy look, but he could still play Ronan. Nathalia as Solène again...

The problem is that I have a combination of three casts in my mind when I'm writing 1789, but I really do still primarily visualize the French cast, I think. The one thing I'd prioritize would be that Ronan and Solène should both be Breton, ideally both being fluent in Brezhoneg, because so much of how I write them is informed by that.

🚦What sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc.?

Ambiguous to bittersweet. I don't like writing bad endings, or at least not straightforward bad endings, but I don't believe that many of my fics end on a straightforwardly happy note, because, in real life, there aren't many truly happy endings. Instead, you grab moments of peace, you enjoy the calm before the next storm, you enjoy moments in bed with your partner, or celebrations with your friends, you hope the fog gets lifted for a little while, and you enjoy the peace while it lasts. "And for that moment, all was fine" is very much the vibe of most of my endings -- it doesn't make promises that I can't keep or they can't keep, but it says that, for a little while at least, they can be happy.

💎 Do you often write about a relationship or focus on an individual?

I feel like...it's a combination. Because the relationship is at the core of it, yeah, but something that I've found about me is that I ALSO need to focus on the individual. Something that's interesting, when you're dealing with pieces of media that strongly encourage the consumer to customize a character -- especially, say, video games -- is that it's very common to get 2nd person fics or Reader x Character fics, or else OC player characters who are meant to be self-inserts. And that's great, I'm not going to knock anyone for doing that, but it's not to my taste. I *need* to be able to get into my characters' minds and to be able to really personalize them, I need to figure out how they work and what is going on in their heads, beyond just "X Character is Attractive." The goal is that, when I'm doing my job right, the reader can see how the relationship is developing the character and how this character is developing the relationship.

With what I'm doing with BG3, for example...Kitrye's my girl, she's my main character, and her relationship with Raphael is, imo, the single most important one she has, even though her relationships with her companions are also important in various ways. But I can also tell you exactly how she works outside of him, some of the quirks she has, why her thought process is the way it is, etc. And if I ever actually WRITE the fic where she goes back to Menzoberranzan...her relationship with Raphael develops, but it's also very much about her and her relationship with Drow culture. He's her evil, hot arm candy.

[myhiraeth]

She's not at 'scene' levels, not yet anyway, and even if she were, Louis is attracting enough attention to let her get away with it for a few moments. But that doesn't mean her panic is subsiding; memories of her and Mbege at the meeting spot only to realize there's no Murphy. Them turning in horror at the familiar sound of their third's voice as it rose in a frightened, sudden shout. Their footsteps pounding in their ears as they ran back to their village, not quite late enough that he was already gone, but just in time to see him stop writhing at the end of the rope. It had been Mbege that covered her eyes, rushed her away from the angry crowd before she was spotted, and it had been Mbege that protected her for the following week, until the soldiers had come to take them both away.

The last time she'd separated from her friends, one had died, and she could feel her breathing start to stutter at the thought of leaving him.

Nick's hand is warm and reassuring at her back, just like his voice, and she looks between the two boys, somewhere in the back of her head realizing they're trying to protect her still. Mbege steps back from her and Nick's arm wraps around her and she realizes that fighting the two of them is pointless and might even get them in trouble too, and it's that realization that finally makes her step back with Nick, tear-filled eyes still on Mbege. "Come back, yeah?" He nods and exchanges a heavy look with Nick before he goes off toward Octavia, and Fox lets Nick usher her away, trying to keep from crying. She's been hit enough times for the show of weakness that she knows better than to let herself cry in front of the soldiers. But the exchange is quiet, quick-breathing panic, looking up to Nick pleadingly.

"What if he doesn't come back? We already lost Murphy, I can't- if I lose him too- we shouldn't have split up back then, if we'd stuck together Murphy might still be alive and I'm just leaving him again what kind of person am I that I keep abandoning people?" She rambling, but at least she's not crying, though she desperately wants to. She doesn't realize Nick will have no idea who Murphy is, she's just spilling thoughts from panicked lips. Her eyes go back to Octavia, the desperate need to go to the other girl's side as clear in her expression as it isn't in Octavia's determinedly stony one. Octavia's strong enough to get through this...

Fox isn't so sure of herself, though.

when the soldiers invade the space, assigning the surviving conscripts to new smaller more manageable contingents, nicklas gaze instantly sweeps over his people. there's a group of them, not all bonded as deeply as others, but a group he's found a space with all while living in this personal hell they've been forced to partake in. it doesn't take much to find octavia or styxx, louis drawing his attention instantly as a soldier's grip pulls octavia from his side. in an instant, nick almost turns to louis, wanting to step out of his own line to be beside the man and assure him that octavia will be okay without him. that louis would survive without her for these last few months. then, with any hope, or if the soldiers were smart, the pair would be brought back together. he wants to move to him but...mbege's eyes plead with him.

his head turns back to louis, brows furrowing before he relents a sigh, styxx will help him. he'll keep him alive. quickly, nicklas makes his way toward fox and mbege. she's supposed to be in his new group, and while they haven't bonded like mbege and her have, being perfectly in sync since they'd been plucked from their village; he cares about her just as much as he does styxx or octavia. fox is his responsibility now. " he's right... " nick spoke calmly coming to stand just beside fox, a hand going to her back. if she fought them, if she made a scene much like louis is doing now...it would not end well for her. mbege and nick certainly did not have the same diplomacy as styxx. nick would barter with the soldiers if he had to...but he really would rather it didn't come to that. " come with me fox, it's okay, i've got you, mbege's okay... "

nick wraps his other hand around her front, ready to direct her back toward the direction they're supposed to be going for their new group. but first, his gaze shifts to mbege, " i've got her. " he promises, meaning his words more than he ever has before. he knows what fox means to mbege, what he means to her. she'll be safe with him, no matter what. " be safe. " nick said with a nod before he gently, but urgently ushered fox away with him. if they want to remain unseen in the mess of chaos, they have to move now.

[wishingicouldfly]

List of times Harry Styles has "Come Out"

Work in Progress

Over the weekend I was asked by a friend to help find some sources for a paper they were writing about the idea that Harry is queer baiting his fans. My friend was looking for instances where Harry has "come out" over the years.

Obviously, he hasn't really. He's still very much closeted with a large fan base who believes he's dated only women. It goes without saying that I believe he's been in a long term monogamous relationship with Louis Tomlinson since the early 2010s. This list is NOT about Larry though.

I thought it might be useful to someone else for me to share the sources I gave my friend of instances that H has alluded to not being straight.

It took less than an hour to pull these together. There are more.

Mario Cart Interview - https://youtu.be/xHclIjGG-0M start at 5:33 Alluding to sex as a metaphor for Mario Cart.

“Not that important” – https://youtu.be/Yi0wQPXzLoI  in reference to female being “what you look for in a lady?” question. Start at 2:10

“Don’t knock it til you try it” in response to Niall dating a man – https://youtu.be/RqmJ21-Qhjs  (I can’t find the full interview, but here’s the clip)

Harry reading a sign in 2017 (I think) saying “We’re all a little bit gay.” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=duxYxRl9y2Q

Article: Harry Styles Waves Pride Flag At First Show On Solo Tour (out.com)

In 2014 he wore out football star Michael Sam's jersey: Harry Styles Supports Michael Sam By Wearing His St. Louis Rams Jersey In Concert (PHOTO) | HuffPost Voices

I think this is the first time he waved a pride flag on stage: Harry Styles Wore a Gay Pride Flag as a Cape

Better Home and Gardens: Exclusive: Harry Styles Shares the Meaning Behind His New Album, 'Harry's House' (bhg.com)

Around the time of Fine Line, he faced scrutiny around his sexuality. People became incredulous that he wore dresses, waved Pride flags, and yet hadn't clarified with precision, publicly to a journalist or on social media, the specifics of who he'd slept with, how he defined. This expectation is, to him, bizarre, "outdated." "I've been really open with it with my friends, but that's my personal experience; it's mine," he said. "The whole point of where we should be heading, which is toward accepting everybody and being more open, is that it doesn't matter, and it's about not having to label everything, not having to clarify what boxes you're checking."

Harry Styles Says He Doesn't Label His Sexuality | Teen Vogue This is Teen Vogue reporting on another interview, but I can’t find the original.

In an interview with the Sun, Harry says he has never labeled his sexuality, going on to say he's never felt the need to explain that part of himself.

“No, I’ve never felt the need to really. No," Harry said when asked if he's labeled his sexuality. “I don’t feel like it’s something I’ve ever felt like I have to explain about myself.”

“Being in a creative field, it’s important to be ­progressive. People doing stuff like that is great," Harry said, referring to Miley Cyrus opening up about her pansexuality. “It’s weird for me — everyone should just be who they want to be. It’s tough to justify somebody having to answer to someone else about stuff like that.”

There’s some stuff in this article about him talking about gay sex in film. Not sure if it’s relevant because it’s behind a pay wall for me. How Harry Styles Became the World’s Most Wanted Man – Rolling Stone

Singing Girl Crush https://youtu.be/rroc2y9if_ 

Helping people come out at his concerts. One example: https://youtu.be/R_fgdHttTg8

But Daddy I love him

Safe Sex

It's the freedom he screams at the end; https://youtube.com/shorts/lCC13QFepI0?feature=share

Do you have any crushes on girls: "No Never. Never again." https://youtu.be/84JICVwTnb4

This has a lot of moments: https://youtu.be/RqmJ21-Qhjs

From a really early point in 1D, he used gender neutral pronouns to describe his dream date when asked “what do you look for in a girl.” Some examples:

1.     https://youtu.be/tnrRXIvSCBY

2.     https://youtu.be/Ai16adQ1mZ0 (1:17)

3.     https://youtu.be/pvm_2deGwWo

This whole SNL skit from 2019: https://youtu.be/aeoxg8hx-lc

Talking with Nick Grimshaw about getting the part in Dunkirk

Covering Wet Dream: https://youtu.be/vMAPW7ZoOLw

The banana penis necklace: Harry Styles sports a phallic symbol necklace for his 2021 Grammys performance | Daily Mail Online

Vogue: December 2020 Harry Styles on Dressing Up, Making Music, and Living in the Moment | Vogue

Pleasing: Harry Styles launches his own fine beauty line— Pleasing (lifestyleasia.com)

Gucci rainbows

The outfit he wore at the red carpet for My Policeman included a green corsage on his lapel

Harry Styles Goes Green in Gucci Suit at ‘My Policeman’ TIFF Premiere – WWD

Green flower connection: About our symbol, the green carnation - Oscar Wilde Tours

Referencing the song 1950 by King Princess. (screen shot by me from Twitter on 9/16/22)

Studying rainbows. (screen shot by me from Twitter on 9/16/22)

Instagram post from June 12, 2016. Screen shot by me on 1/1/23.

There are more. I'll as I come across things. I think for me, it's about the consistency with which he's aligned himself with the LGBTQ+ community over the years. It's not isolated to recent times. It goes back more than a decade.

On June 4, 2024 - during the first week of Pride Month, Harry stepped out in Rome wearing a pink shirt, emblazoned with the word "TOP." (4) HL Daily on X: "Harry in Rome today! 📸: alxsare https://t.co/AD4MGTJEcn" / X

Companion piece: Louis Tomlinson - LGBTQ Icon

[hlficlibrary]

Hi, I love your blog, it has helped me find incredible fanfics. I want to read a type of fanfic but I think it's too specific so I'll totally understand if you don't find something. Could you recommend fanfics in which one of them disappears and when he comes back he doesn't remember the life before he disappeared or he just disappears and comes back? I'm always curious about these cases where the person disappears and comes back and I would love to read something in that context.

Hi, anon! I'm so glad the blog's been so helpful! I do know what you mean, so here are a few that fit what you're looking for!

You Turned Up (Like a Friend of Mine) by @lululawrence

Louis padded downstairs, feeling incredibly thirsty. He filled up a glass of water and was about to take a drink when a loud knock sounded at the door accompanied by some yelling and ringing of the doorbell.

“What the hell?” Louis muttered, setting his glass on the counter and rushing towards the door.

As he got closer to the door, though, his mind stopped whirling because the voice was one that was etched forever in his mind, but one that he never thought he would ever hear again.

“Why’s the door locked? Did you seriously go without me? And who’s car is in the driveway? Lou, I knew you’d be late to get me. We’re going to miss-”

Louis whipped the door open, sure that he was just imagining things. There was no way…

Except there was. Standing on the front step was the curly haired, boy-faced Harry Louis had last seen ten years ago today.

Or the one where Harry disappears on graduation day only to show up on Louis' door looking exactly the same ten years later. Through a series of strange events, maybe they can finally figure out that they're destined to be together, no matter what.

Baby, I think we might be too cold to float by @forreveries

They couldn’t come back together after six years apart and tell themselves that this was love that they were making. Not with all that radio silence. Harry tried to keep it all down, lodged under the lump in his throat. He needed something to focus on, something to keep him out of his thoughts, so that he could go along with this because he didn’t want Louis to take his hands off him. He didn’t want that to happen. But. But he needed it to. “Wait,” Harry coughed out, his voice trembling, “Stop.” Louis looked up at him with wide eyes. “I— I need to stop,” Harry confessed, trying desperately to keep his voice straight. “What is it?” Louis asked, full of concern. “I can’t do this. I— I can’t play along. You left me and I need answers, Louis.” His voice caught on the end of his name.

AKA: Harry is a journalist that goes to Lake Tekapo, New Zealand, to look into a girl’s disappearance after a year of no movement from police. What he finds instead is his ex boyfriend Louis, who, six years earlier, ghosted him after five months of dating in university. A story of trauma, secrets, and the power of finally letting people in.

Things I Almost Remember by louissass

“No, I don’t remember, because that was not me. That was your friend Toby and I am Louis.” He says calmly, remembering Liam’s earlier advice. (“Keep calm and be patient. Apparently he was heartbroken when Toby disappeared, it’ll take him a while to get used to it.”)

Or, the one where every one in town thinks Louis looks like a boy that died eleven years ago, and he accidentally falls for the dead boy's best friend.

[faith--in-the-future]

MILAN 10/04/2022

(my first concert<333) ok im still processing and a bit in shock so forgive me if I forget anything but I'll just write a few words to remember the night bc it was AMAZING

ok so first of all enormous thanks to @tanktop-lou and her family for giving me a ride and being generally great!

then thanks to the girls I met in line that I spent the night with bc they were SO NICE, when we were in line there was a dad with a sign saying "I'm looking for a ticket for my daughter " and one of the girls had an extra ticket to sell bc her friend couldn't come but when she saw this guy's daughter was like a 13yo girl she just gifted it to her !!! so sweet!💖 louies are great<333

also the line was INSANE and considering I only waited like 2 hours we got a great spot in the pit !! but truly the line went all around the parking lot MULTIPLE TIMES!! let's just say there was A LOT of pushing and running once the gates opened skjdk

then we got in and everyone in the pit was pushing already lol and I left a few girls go in front of me bc I felt bad for being so tall sksj but then the girl behind me started to get angry at me and my ponytail (??) so I just turned around and ignored her ksjzkd

anywaysss OTP were good although basically nobody knew their songs rip but they still made the best of it and the frontman was very good and energetic! and he tanked and praised louis so many times 🥺🥺🥺🥺 (also the security gave us water ! and told us to not throw anything on stage)

then it was another 30 minutes before louis and the adrenaline (and sweat shsh) were saturating the air. it was great to see a lot of guys and older ppl there too! everyone was so excited and it was so beautiful to see such a big arena get filled by people who were there for louis!!

then the curtain came up and the first lights started shining and let me tell you... his intro his AMAZING like there's an instrumental bit and a lights sequence that just builds up the excitement so WELL and you can literally feel everyone's hearts beating faster ! then the curtain falls and everyone just SCREAMS and from there on its nonstop just SPECTACULAR performance, every moment every light every note every smile it's all just so perfect and so well thought out, it's truly an experience worth every single cent I spent (which weren't even that many tbh for a show this good). I LOVED the screens and the various effects he had on them and the fact that we could also see the band at times, Michael's happiness was truly visible on his face and Steve was just SO GOOD and a great presence, they compliment louis and his energy so well,

LOUIS was just..... beautiful incredible SO FUCKING TALENTED like genuinely there wasn't a single note out of place and his voice was either so perfect it sounded like the studio version OR even better than that bc he was adding high notes and virtuosisms to the songs, his high notes are INSANE like truly he has an AMAZING VOICE and it fills an entire arena so well, I will NEVER understand the people who told him his voice was too weak, it's so far from the truth!!! truly I kept my eyes closed for most of beautiful War bc I wanted to enjoy it to the fullest, and most people also stopped singing bc his voice was THAT beautiful.

also man I'm ashamed to say I had not fully comprehended just how much effort and physical strength goes into every show , I jumped around and screamed a lot but I also took breaks bc it's genuinely so exhausting and while I was in one of these moments taking a break It hit me that louis does and will do this multiple times a week every week for MONTHS like it's truly insanely hard, I don't think I'll be able to move let alone talk tomorrow, I have no idea how he does 3 shows in a row sometimes. I've genuinely gained so much more respect for him and musicians in general tonight.

back to the show, the energy was GREAT everyone around me screamed every word (except 7 which I was like come onnn people it's been years!! but it doesn't matter bc I screamed it all!!!) and louis was visibily SO HAPPY to play in such a big venue and it was just 🥰🥰🥰🥰💖💖💖 the most beautiful feeling, also he was SO HOT!!! and everyone was just so in love with him. also he loved getting the shirts and hoodie and he pointed at a sign that called him a work of art<3333

my favorites live were probably beautiful War, walls, only the brave, through the dark and kmm , his voice in walls and beautiful War is SPLENDID and they're such beautiful moments, otb was BEAUTIFUL the whole venue was so pretty and the rainbow project came out so well!!! TTD and KMM are the perfect closing songs!!! SO much energy and everyone was using every single drop of strength they had left to jump and scream and we really gave it all !!!

and the pyros and silly strings are so amazing and a great experience live !!! it seems silly written down but they just add another layer to the experience and make it more tangible in a way, again everything was so well timed and thought out.

you leave the show truly understanding how much louis CARES and how much effort he puts in his work, he's truly an Artist and a Musician with capital letters and I'm just filled with joy at the thought that he'll get to do this and people will get to experience it for many years to come, I certainly can't wait.

louis, you were beautiful and you shine so bright, its no wonder why some people were always scared of letting you shine but you really proved and prove over and over again that real talent, real care, real love, really do make a difference ♡