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[getusedtoitsover]

I need to vent somewhere where 647832 people won’t all attack me saying “I’ll but your ticket!!!!!!1!!!” because no but anyway, 

I have a ticket to see a singer I used to be obsessed with (I say used to only because this whole situation left me feeling so gross about them and I’m trying to convince myself to stop liking them because of it). I was so excited when I was finally able to secure a pit ticket to see them almost two years ago before Covid was even a thing. But then Covid happened, and the tour got postponed. Then it got postponed again. And then Delta hit, and everyone was hoping and praying it would be postponed a third time even though here in America, nobody cares if you get sick and die, and so huge tours are allowed no matter how risky and unsafe they are. So finally after months of speculation, months of begging for answers about whether the tour would happen or not; they announced it would; right at the peak of Delta. So obviously as someone who has left my house and entered a building that isn’t my house a total of two times since March 2020; I cannot go to this show anymore. I was beyond heartbroken and kept hoping that someone would get Covid or something and the tour would get postponed again or canceled. But that never happened. The show is Saturday, and I think I’ve finally accepted that I can’t go. I’m still really upset and disheartened that something (let’s be real one of about a thousands things) that I’ve been looking forward to for almost two years that I was ecstatic about getting such a good ticket for, I can’t go to because I’m being responsible and not contributing to more people getting sick and dying. 

So I’ve been trying to sell my ticket for a few weeks now. But really, I just wanted a refund. But because the show wasn’t “postponed” since the last time and the window for getting a refund was back in June of 2020; I can’t get one. And I know it’s selfish of me to be trying to make a profit from selling my ticket, but I deserve to be able to make a little bit of money off of it since I’m heartbroken that I can’t see the show anymore. (Plus I lost my job because Covid, I can’t go to this show because of Covid and because this person/their team is putting profit over people’s safety and didn’t just postponed it again until it was safer to hold 😤 but that’s a whole different rant). But no one is buying it and I’ve been having such horrible anxiety over it for weeks. I need to make back at least what I paid for it, but I’d like a little extra, you know? And a few people have offered to buy it, but only one actually offered a price higher than what I paid. And I want to sell it on a site like st*bh*b because I feel safer doing that, rather than selling it to someone randomly over social media because I don’t want to get scammed. But every time my ticket is the next one at the lowest price, someone else puts up like 6 more tickets lower than mine. And I know people use that site as their job.. like scalping tickets is their “career” and those people don’t deserve people buying the tickets off of them for such high prices. But I’m a real person, a real fan, with a single ticket, who can’t go to the show anymore, who just wants to get my money back and a little extra for what I’ve been through and it’s just like.... UGH. I’m so worried that saturday will get here and still no one will have bought it and I’ll have to resort to selling it through twitter and I really don’t want to do that. I literally got no sleep last night because I was so worried/anxious/stressed about it and I just want to get rid of this ticket. And like I said, so many random people on twitter are like “I’ll buy it! I’ll buy it!” but like I don’t trust selling it through twitter to random people who could potentially be scammers and who don’t even want to pay as much as I paid for it to begin with. And I don’t feel bad about raising the price with faceless nameless people on st*bh*b, but I already feel horribly guilty and icky because so many actual people with names and faces all want to buy my ONE (1) ticket and I don’t want to like make people fight over it or anything, but I don’t know what to do. The last time I sold a ticket on that site, I sold it for like 3x times the price and the person who bought it from me wound up relisting it on the same site like a week later for more money. So why can’t someone like that just buy this one too so I don’t have to feel guilty? 😩