#but like agdgdgdgdgd man i assure you at least a majority of autistic people know at some level that they're different and try at some level | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

bunnyb34r · 9 days

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AHSGDGDGDGDG my mom just said she didn't know that autistic people knew they were different 😭 ma'am....

We were talking ab masking and how my cousin thinks we BOTH have a nervous laughter tic, but it's just that my brain mirrors people in social interactions and that I'm like "oh she's laughing, smile and laugh too" internally bc I have a hard time reading when something is actually supposed to be funny opposed to me THINKING it's funny and being WRONG.

Like agdgdgdgdgdg yes we KNOW we're different. Obviously not every single autistic person will know/knows yet, but yeah finding that out is a common experience for autistic kids especially. Might not know WHY they're "different" from their peers, but generally it's known that shit isnt lining up the way it should.

#marquilla #like let me tell you about masking.... sgdgdgdggd #her experience with autism was this kid at our church growing up who did NOT mask (looking back good for him lmao) and was just very...#stereotypical autistic and was diagnosed 'asperger's' when that was still a diagnosis #and my cousin (different one) who im not sure if she masks or not but she's very open ab her special interests and will talk ad nauseam ab #them to the point where it gets on peoples nerves. and how she's developmentally delayed (but that is theorized bc of how her mom #had a hands off approach to her growing up 'oh you cant discipline her shes autistic' and just ... not treating her like a normal kid and #pushed her into the 'slow' category without ever praising her accomplishments and pushing her to actually try #in school bc she was never given the chance. or it could also be bc she had pica so she might have lead poisoning or something)#anyway so she had this bias to how autism worked and looked like and how she never noticed I was autistic until I brought it up as an adult #bc i mask and am academically 'normal'/bright and just 'shy' which is how it more typically presents in afab people #but like agdgdgdgdgd man i assure you at least a majority of autistic people know at some level that they're different and try at some level #to blend in (mask). but again not every one/it's a spectrum ect ect

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