#but let me get my pent up scemma feels out

[psymond-arc]

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BEFORE THE BLIP:

it’s another day and with that it’s another round of mutant ball. it’s x-men tradition apparently. logan, hank, charles and ororo are outside with the student body. she’s inside. she hasn’t been with the x-men for very long at this point. and she is a former member of the hellfire club’s inner circle. so the trust the rest of the x-men have with and for her at this point is NIL. so mr drake suggested she stay indoors. for the sake of the students of course. she doesn’t blame them. but she’s not particularly bothered by it either. she’s always been better alone anyways. she is diamond after all. and as she told ms pryde before, she is, by definition, her OWN BEST FRIEND. 

it looks like a fun game. kurt’s teleporting. katherine is phasing through to get to the bases quicker. piotr is using that super strength to have ‘ out of the park ‘ hits. logan’s already facepalming and holding the bridge of her nose, hank and ororo are bemused and charles just looks on proudly. everyone’s having a good time despite rules having been thrown out the window. is this what genuine companionship and friendship looks like ? she doesn’t know because she’s never experienced it. despite the x-men unable to agree on anything on a GOOD day, they’re ... having fun. getting along. laughing. together. and she’s inside. alone.

she doesn’t even realise she’s turned into diamond until the longing at the back of her head disappears. perhaps it’s for the best and just what she needs. she stays like that for who knows how long. she’s not checking. she doesn’t want to check. minutes. hours. she doesn’t know. and she’s not even concentrating at the view outside the window anymore. so she TRULY doesn’t know if they’re all still playing or if they’ve gone inside. 

someone’s here. she hears the door open but doesn’t react. body’s still facing the window. they come closer until they’re almost at her side. the shade of RED next to her is distinct enough that she doesn’t even need to turn to know who it is. eyes want to shut SO BADLY. but she can’t. not while she’s in this form. and she doesn’t want to switch back. a warm hand brushes against her COLD hand before enclosing around it fully. she can feel the warmth. that’s something she’s never experienced in diamond form. she hasn’t reacted but neither has he. but they stay like that. again for who knows how long. 

and just like she turned into diamond without realising, she’s turned back without her realising. she’s expecting a flood of emotions to wash over her. normally happens when she’s diamond for a while. but nothing happens. instead there’s just .... tranquility. inside her. between them. neither of them have said a word to each other. yet they don’t need to. they’ve never had to. so she finally closes her eyes and grips scott’s hand tighter, returning his affection.

does she want to let go ? never. but she will have to. but for now, she wants to enjoy this.