#but kang chanhee 💞💖💓💘💕💗

[yeohub]

humans are such a fragile thing; their bones break beneath the fist of a machine, their skin tears open from a blade slicing through silence. so fragile in the eyes of androids.

chanhee touches you like you're made from glass, he pretends he's like you when he does - like he has blood that runs through veins, like he has a heartbeat that echoes in his ears, like he has the bundle of butterflies that flutter in the pit of his stomach, like he is fragile.

he pretends he's living.

chanhee feels something that he can't identify recoil somewhere in his software, it spreads throughout, a warning flashes in his eyes, telling him a virus has found itself in his program.

but he keeps pretending.

because the way your skin reddens beneath his hands makes him feel alive, the way you whisper to him that it's okay makes him want to keep living.

he keeps pretending despite the words that flash inside of him, he wants to keep pretending because you're letting him feel human.

you pretend he isn't a machine; that the gentleness in his touch isn't something that could crush you, that the biomechanics inside of him are organs, that the synthetic fluid that is his skin is the same as yours - real and human, that he has a heart that beats like yours, with yours.

you pretend he's real.

you pretend because you know he'll be taken and he'll be broken down and he'll be fixed of this virus that has him consumed.

i want to be real for you.

he wishes, his fingers trailing to your chest, where he places his hand over your heart.

i want to be alive with you.

chanhee wants something he can't have, something so fragile and something that can be easily taken; chanhee wants to be alive.

you're alive with me, chanhee.

chanhee believes he is, because when you press your mouth against his and when you wrap your arms around his neck, he feels something.

chanhee is alive with you, and maybe this is the last time he'll ever be alive.

will you remember me?

i will, chanhee.