#but jeez i did write those Steddie fics that still get kudos and hits.. so idk

[tumbloggingattheendofitall]

Saw that thing about interiority in narrative fiction and maybe that's why it's so hard for me to write?

I fully have to shut the part of my brain giving me a picture of the Thing all of the way off in order to create the flow for words for my fics

It may also explain what I like about reading my writing after the fact

I can usually sense when I managed to accurately remove the Picture In Mind in favor of the Vibe In The Moment and Relevant Detail and ik that's not totally the same as interiority but it feels adjacent to it? I think?

Sorry I'm constantly transported back to second grade and the little Plot Mountain we made, and then I Don't do the Outline like I always do and suddenly, the steam is just. Gone

I also feel as though maybe this is what's fckn me up with the Longform BandFic I'm making and like. What The Fuck why do I want to write about this one poor lil meow meow from the Suffer Brothers™ when I have this Sprawling Polaroid Fic that I've been working on, slowly but surely, for 9(?) years

Maybe it's cause the poor lil meow meow asks me to speak more for his internal mindset in various Situations that the BandFic doesn't currently

Maybe I'm accidentally making it into a Hallmark Movie when it isn't really that even if it may follow some plot beats from Hallmark stuff

Maybe I'm wholly misunderstanding interiority here

Who's to say? Certainly not me, I'm just a guy with a blog who's working on it