#but it would've been so funny if matt went 'why's that?'

[thelittlestspider]

i'm so mad i forgot to take a picture of the scene where luke and danny say they thought peter was gay after saying he had a hot wife lol.

[bizarrelittlemew]

Hello, I’ve been unable to watch the NYCC panel but I see everywhere that is was awful and weird?!?! What actually happened ? Could you make a little recap for people like me who didn’t get to see it? Thank you!

I'll try my best ✌️ this is just the impression I got though (and sorry this got long lmao)

it was awkward because they weren't allowed to talk about ofmd, which made the whole thing seem more and more ridiculous as it went on. in addition, they had to do a sort of game where they were asked questions like "who is the most likely to do [x]" and then write a name on a board and reveal it at the same time. this could've been fine for maybe 10 minutes but they had them do it for the whole hour.

the issues with this game were that 1) the questions were very "generic corporate ice breaker questions", 2) they spent a lot of time in silence writing down, and 3) when a question finally did lead to stories or conversation, it was quickly shut down in order to move on to the next boring question and writing in silence.

they could've asked them about non-struck work (Rhys even brought up the books he's written several times and it wasn't followed up on), they could've collected and vetted fan questions beforehand, they could've just let them talk idk, they could've found a more fun game or ditched the boards (one of my fav moments was Rhys saying something like "I have a mic, why do I have to write it down?" honestly this would've made it 25% less boring lmao).

adding to that, there were sound issues meaning that Con and Rhys couldn't hear what was going on a lot of the time. Rhys said it again and again and nothing was done about it.

you could just tell how frustrated they all were and what this panel could have been if not for the shitty studios refusing a fair deal for the actors. I think the cast did what they could, and there were some sweet and funny moments. but it was clear that Rhys was pissed about not being able to talk about what they all wanted to talk about (I felt bad for everyone but especially for him).

they did a whole "ha ha we were all in New Zealand at the same time what a coincidence" thing and Rhys said that (paraphrased) if only they could be paid fairly, they could create something great with all the talent in the room, going off on the studios for a bit. it was honestly a bit of a relief for someone to voice it (to me, it felt like someone had to say something lmao and he did).

in the end they got a question about fantasy worlds. Rhys said he already lived in a fantasy world in his head and it was nice, though this was one of the odder moments. Matt and Nathan basically agreed and said it was all very weird (in different words). Rhys then said fantasy worlds are important because the real world is shit right now and there's no denying it; that in fantasy worlds we can all love each other and use kindness; and it's important to keep creating and believing in them until the real world becomes like that too.

and then he said "goodnight" (= "fuck this shit I'm out"), got up, put on his sunglasses, and started beat-boxing and rapping saying "why can't we talk about the show". their time had run out anyway, he said it had certainly been an experience, that he couldn't hear much of what was going on, and they all thanked the audience and it ended ✌️

anyway this is just my take and I hope SAG-AFTRA get a fair deal soon so the cast can celebrate the show with us like they so clearly want to. I also hope Matthew Maher does more panels after this (it was his first I think!) despite it being such a weird experience because he was great to watch!! anyway they're all happily doing photo ops and autographs now I guess 🤸

(if you want to watch there is a way)

[sunnyie-eve]

7 | Stuck

Series: Unexpected

Paring: (Matt Sturniolo x OFC Brock!) (Chris Sturniolo x OFC Brock!)

Word Count: 1k

Warnings: none

| MASTERLIST |

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Matt's eyes widen as he realizes it too, "Press a button again." She tells him so he goes to press a floor.

"Nothing will light up." He tells her, "Look." He press any buttons not caring about the game anymore.

"So we're stuck at the moment?" She huffs staying calm.

"Two people with bad anxiety stuck in an elevator together." Matt points out.

"Fantastic." She smiles.

"At least-," Matt gets cut off as a word comes through finally.

Locked

"Yeah, we're locked in here." Dani nods her head, "At least you're not alone." She looks over at him, "I'm sure it would've been worse."

"Yeah, I got you." He smiles.

"And I got you." She smiles as well.

"I'm looking forward to that free food." He brings up their deal.

"Don't worry, I'm still doing it." She lets him know while laughing.

Once again they stand in silence not knowing what to say to each other. It would have been different if it was her and Nick since they constantly talk on the phone together, but her and Matt were basically stranger. They only knew a little about each other just from seeing each other in videos.

"How long are you staying after this?" Matt breaks the silence.

"I don't know yet because I don't have a flight home yet."

"All three of you didn't get tickets at the same time?" He asks confused.

"No, because sometimes I also stay with my friend in LA. Her guest room is basically my room. I mostly live with Sam and Colby in Vegas, but I'll live with her at times too. She doesn't mind it because I help pay the rent too."

Now he understood why Nick and her never met up in the past, "Where do you prefer to stay?"

"Oh, I prefer LA but Colby prefers me to stay with him if I'm going to leave home."

"So basically," Matt mouths the next part since they were still recording, "he doesn't trust you?" Dani nods her head. "So you and Nick have been friends for a year now, talking?" He changes the topic.

"Technically two years and two months but who's counting?" She looks up at the ceiling making him grin a bit.

"You clearly are."

Dani looks over at him trying to keep a straight face but fails laughing, "Shut up."

"Shut up." He mocks how she said it laughing which makes her laugh more.

"Try pressing the button again." She tells him wonder if it would work now but when he does it still doesn't do anything.

"Wonder what the others are thinking?"

Dani chuckles, "Colby is losing his mind that I'm stuck in an elevator with a boy. Especially a boy my age." She looks over at him taking her eyes off the doors, "I'm not allowed to have guy friends unless they're his because he knows them and how they are."

"Hey, I'm a trustworthy guy."

"Trust me, I believe that just from what I see online." She lets him know and that makes him feel good that she sees him in that way.

"You know, I'm butt hurt you never tried reaching out to become friend with Chris or I after becoming friends with Nick." He gives her a look.

"Listen, hear me out." She starts to laugh, "I did think about it..."

"And?"

"I don't know? I just never did it. Then again Nick reached out to me in the beginning. He said he saw me in a TikTok went to my account thought I was funny then went to my Instagram to follow and message me." She tells him how her and Nick became friends.

"You know, I'm gonna say we failed at this game." Matt laughs, "We basically got interrupted."

"Yeah, we failed."

Matt goes to press the button and it finally works so they cheer as they head back down to the others that were talking about the two.

"They're taking super long." Sam says looking down at the box.

"It either worked or they ditched us for sending them." Chris says so Sam looks at Colby.

"They just ran off together." He jokes.

"Not funny."

"She can handle herself. She may be tiny but very mighty." Sam reminds his best friend about his sister.

"The door opens and they're makin out." Chris jokes only to push at Colby's buttons too with Sam.

"Hell no, he's so not her type." Nick laughs shaking his head no even though he was very far off unfortunately. Both his brothers had things that could make her heart race.

Yes

"You guys are making me nervous." Colby tells them stressing out about her alone with a boy.

"Hey Colby, it's okay. Matt would be too scared to make a move on your sister." Chris says before the elevators open up reviling the two.

"We got stuck for awhile." They both say automatically.

"Seriously?" Chris laughs making the two flip him off.

"Yes, the elevator wouldn't let us press any buttons."

The group finally head back up to room 525 for the Estes method. The room still smelled like ass so Colby looks in the closet and the rope in the ticks Nick off since it startled him. Matt asks if he should put it on but Chris tells him now while Dani says yes so he does.

"I wouldn't be surprised if there's like a dead squirrel under the bed." Colby says going over to the bed getting down to look.

"Colby's looking for a squirrel." Chris laughs at him, "How do you feel?" He turns to Matt pulling out his phone to take a picture of him.

"It looks like a karate belt." Nick laughs.

"Master Matt." Dani laughs as well.

"Give me like your best robe pose." Chris asks for a pic so Matt poses, "Give me relaxed." Matt poses again, "Give me sleepy." Matt fake yawns, "That was good." Chris laughs as Matt takes the robe off.

"So we were thinking that, you know, since Matt did the elevator ritual. You guys can go under the Estes." Sam tells Nick and Chris.

"Guys, I've been looking forward to this for awhile." Nick tells them, "Let's not get it twisted. I'm ecstatic."

"Plus I'm the best at asking questions." Matt adds since he has been all night getting something back.

"You also got stuck in an elevator again." Dani adds for him.

"That too."

"Oh it's not like you were stuck in there alone." Chris rolls his eyes laughing.

"Right, plus you were with the sweetest person ever." Nick adds.

[dgaftilwedie]

SCOTT PILGRIM TAKES OFF WAS FUCKING NUTS AND I WANNA BE ANNOYING N TALK ABT IT BC I LOVE SCOTT PILGRIM SO MUCH!!!!!!!!

SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT OBVS XD

OKAY SO??? THE FACT THAT THEY LITERALLY SET UP THE FIRST EPISODE LIKE IT WAS GONNA BE JUST LIKE THE COMICS N THEN SCOTT "DIED"????? literally had me questioning fucking EVERYTHING i was watching that episode with the most quizzical look on my face?? also the fucking funeral scene was hysterical bc the way rammy n knives were abt to have a verbal face-off n envy's bitchass shows up n steals the whole show?? i have such a love-hate relationship with her.............

also lucas lee is fucking adorable and i love him :33 rammy becoming friends with roxie n making up with her after everything was something i really needed to see. cuz like for as much as i loved the movie n the comics, i feel like they could've done their relationship so much better. like seeing ramona take responsibility for hurting roxie made me so happy and im so glad they got a redemption arc.

ROXIE IS LITERALLY ME BTW??? her whole interaction with ramona n kim at the end kf the episodr was so silly N THE LEG LOCK HELLO????? also the way she walked off singing the HAMSTER DANXE SONG I LOCE HER

the toddlace thing was also so unexpected but holy shit?? i loved it. bi todd has been my fav headcanon for YEARSSSS and seeing jt happen right in front of my eyes?? WATCHING THAT EPISODE WAS SUCH A TRIP THO I CAN'T STOP QUOTING WALLACE'S "LINES? TRAILER?" BITS BC THEY'RE SO FUNNY

uhmmmmm what elseeeee OH YEAH young neil is a fucking goof n i love him, i really like that gideon (gordon ig 🙄) became like this not evil guy who just lived with julie n kicked it with lucas. the old scott stuff kinds fricked with me but i think it's cool that he became chill with the twins

LMFAOAO THAT SCENE AT THE END WHERE SCOTT'S TRTING TK FIGJRE OIT WHY HE CAN'T KISS RAMONA N HE TRIES TO FIGHT THE TWINS AND THEY'RE LIKE "our robot says we become bros in the future, so we have no intention of fighting you. see ya bro ;)" WAS SO SILLY

obligatory matt mention i love him he's so dumb i love that he took over gideon's entire empire only to turn around and change his mind :3 glad he got his broadway moment....... silly pirate headass

knives n stephen becoming the best brother/sister duo ever was so dope bc like. knives had someone to look up to n make music with n they had a lot of chemistry both personality wise n musically wise

my only critique is that i wanted more lisa ;^; i know she probably would've been out of place but it would've been cool if kim mentioned her to ramona and ramona interviewed her just like she did with her exes yknow :P she was one of my fav characters in the comics n she wasn't in the movie AT ALL so i was hoping she would've appeared in the anime, but alas 😞😞 i also kinda wanted to see where kim's love life went...... i know she's not the focus but she had undeniable chemistry with knives and that moment with roxie... i love that she's totally very queer and open to the idea of experimenting with girls n i wish that would've been expanded upon like how todd n wallace had their moment :33

other than that, i LOVED the anime. i love how we got baited into thinking it was just like the comics and i love what was done with it :3 it was such a goofy show and a lot of it was so jaw-droppingly surprising that i couldn't believe it, but it also had some really sweet, serious, n heart-warming moments which is something i really appreciate in a show :33 it's hard to keep watching something for so long but i binged the show in one day xD i'd give it a solid 9/10 (deducting points just for the sake of what i think was missing and how i don't recommend it for like "beginner" fans)

oki rant concluded!!!!!!! ^___^ there's so much more i wanna say but this is already sooooooo long as it is xD

[meroppi]

My honest opinion on the FNaF movie

(I'm sorry if anything is wrong, It's 2 a.m. rn but I need to get this off my chest)

BEFORE WE START: I will admit that I'm 100% biased, I grew up with FNaF and never thought I'd ever see this movie for multiple reasons, so actually sitting in the theater and watching this beautiful disaster unfold was a truly magical experience. I cried during the credits so yeah. With that being said:

1. The spoiler-free part

Ok there are some things we need to lay out right from the getgo

1) This movie caters to:

a) fans who want to see a somewhat new yet familiar story in the FNaF universe

b) casuals who aren't immediately dismissive of everything that's happening and actually TRY to give this shit a chance

2) It's no secret that they changed many things in the story and if you genuinely thought they would adapt the games 1 by 1 you are just delulu I'm sorry

Overall, I personally really liked the movie and I would recommend it. It had many little easter eggs for hardcore fans and a story that pretty much anyone can understand

2. The spoiler-heavy part

(aka pretty much everything important)

Alright, let's talk about the most controversial part:

The Afton children aren't the Afton children anymore.

So Mike Schmidt, who we know is Michael Afton under a fake name in the games, is in the movie literally just Mike Schmidt. Some guy.

Garett, this movie's version of the crying child, is Williams' first victim, not his child who was killed by accident.

Abby, who would technically speaking be the movie equivalent of Elizabeth, has also no connection to Afton.

AND VANESSA, who we met in AR, Help Wanted, and Security Breach, is Williams' only child??

Yeah it's kinda fucked.

HOWEVER, I do think that this is an amazing way to include all the important characters in some way.

If we had told the actual story of the Afton children, eg. the crying child and Elizabeth dying, this would have pretty much meant that everything else in the story had to be adapted too for everything to make sense which is simply impossible. Like straight up.

So writing a new story including all the past protagonists is a very logical decision (+ I'm pretty sure that there was a theory that Vanessa is some sort of Elizabeth reincarnation even though I think that it was disproven very quickly but yeah, there's that)

BUT this story change leaves one big plot hole:

Why the fuck is William Afton a murderer??

He went insane in the game after his son died which led to him killing Charlie (daughter of Henry) out of spite in a drunken rage afterward.

In this movie, he's just a little goofy and funny and kills children for fun, whatever ig

And yes, the fort scene might have been a teeny tiny bit cringe but I mean, these are dead 10 year-olds so their request is pretty legit tbh. "Why don't these kids grow up 🙄" IDK MAYBE CAUSE THEY ARE DEAD?? BFFR

And everything, I mean fucking everything, is better than a "Let's go Fazgang!!!"-scene

BUT WHY ON EARTH DOES THE CUPCAKE HAVE SO MUCH SCREENTIME?? What the fuck 😭

OH I FORGOT the opening scene in the arcade-minigame style was magnificent 💞

I also would've liked that Williams' death would've been a little bit more violent, it was a little too soft. And I also don't get why he was "killed by the cupcake" and not through a malfunction caused by water like it was in the game?? It would've worked just fine. However, since the movie is rated pg13 in some countries (16 here) it's understandable that it isn't too brutal

And, let's be honest: the movie was carried by Matt, TLT, and Cory

But I love the little easter eggs?? Dream theory, the FNaF World Rainbow, it's so cool I loved it

I absolutely loved it, I knew that I would see something very not canon and something new and probably kinda stupid but I still thought it was beautiful and enjoyable and I would die on this hill if I had to

[alexstorm]

It's so funny seeing you on here year after year predicting that they're going to split up imminently when it's more likely that they'll have a child together. Five years of you bitching about Louise and from those pap photos at Il Pellicano, they're closer than ever.

Really?! They're closer than ever? Didn't know Alex is on tour in LA right now.

Also Amanda's trip to Vegas laid bare their relationship dynamic. Why didn't Louise join her for that Beyoncé concert? I'm sure she would've loved to see her too. I can tell you why. She would've had to get those tickets already last year which means Alex would've already had to know then that he's taking her to LA this year. Which he didn't! Alex takes this situationship month by month and that's why Louise was sitting in LA alone while Mandy had a nice night with her friends.

Same with the throwback pic Mandy posted from London. Do you still think they shared a room there? Where was Alex while they took that selfie? He can't have been at soundcheck already as we know Matt went with them together. Do you think Alex is okay with Mandy barging into his hotel room to take selfies with his booty call?

Open your eyes and stop following me if you don't like what I have to say.

[rewriting-thearrowverse]

This one was posted September 3, 2023. The lists are almost completely up to date.

𝑺𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒐𝒏 𝟏 𝑬𝒑𝒊𝒔𝒐𝒅𝒆 𝟒: 𝑨𝒏 𝑰𝒏𝒏𝒐𝒄𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝑴𝒂𝒏 (𝑷𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝟐)

The Elevator at Queen Consolidated dings as Felicity walks out of it and into Walter's office.

As she barges through the doors she starts speaking, "I have one question. Why am I being fired?"

"Ms. Smoak, is it?" Walter asked

"Yes."

She spoke up again. "I am the single most valuable member of the technical division. Even above the so called " supervisor." Firing me would be a huge mistake."

"I agree. Which is why you're not."

"Oh- I assumed when you called me up here-"

"I need you to look into something for me."

He handed her a file.

"The variance of 2.6 million on a failed investment. It was authorized by my wife.."

"I'd.. Like you to figure out some of the details of the transaction."

"Find out.."

"Discreetly."

"Well.. I'm your Girl." She said as she began walking off with the file.

She turned back around "I'm not your girl, I wasn't making a pass at you."

As she walked out the door, she said "thank you for not firing me."

Matt Istook unlocked his car and was about to get in, as a Tranq dart hit his neck.

He took it out as he faded into unconsciousness.. And woke up, handcuffed to the train tracks.

As he woke up, he saw the Hood as he said his name.

"Matt Istook."

"You-you're that Hood guy! Who's been terrorizing everyone in this city."

"You're lies put Peter Declan on Death row."

"Now you're either gonna tell the truth, or you're gonna meet the 10:15 to Blüdhaven."

He starts stammering "o-okay, I- Brodeur paid me to say Camille never spoke to me. But I had nothing to do with her death!"

"Oh god please! I'll do anything.."

"Y-you can have the file!"

"What file." The Hood said

"Camille gave me a file with evidence on Jason Brodeur."

"Where is it?! He yelled

"Let me go and I'll tell you."

The Hood walked behind him, out of sight.

The train horn sounded

"Wait wait! It's in my desk! At the office-you can have it. please don't go!"

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The Hood shoots an arrow, breaking the chain on the handcuffs, freeing Istook in just enough time for him to get to safety.

*Flashback*

Oliver looked over at Yao Fei, who was cooking. He hasn't eaten since the raft and was weak and beyond hungry.

"What is that?"

"It smells really good.. I'm so hungry."

Oliver tried touching the bird Yao Fei was cooking on a stick. But his hand was slapped away.

"Ow!"

"Fine... Don't share."

Yao Fei points at the other bird in the cage and says "Shengcún."

"𝐈'𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐤𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐝."

"𝐒𝐡𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐜𝐮́𝐧"

Laurel was typing on her computer when the lights went out.

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As a file was dropped on her desk, the Hood said "Compliments of Matt Istook."

"What is it?"

"Leverage on Jason Brodeur, enough to save Peter Declan's life"

"As an attorney.. I never would've gotten this."

"I was always told going outside of the law wasn't the right way.."

"And now Laurel?"

"I think there's too many people in this city willing to only fight for themselves."

"I think they do need someone like you.."

Oliver walked into the middle Hallway of the mansion where Thea saw him practically glowing.

"Oh my god. What's wrong with your face?"

"It's something on your mouth.. It almost in the shape of a smile."

"Cute." Oliver said sarcastically

"So why are you so smiley?"

"I-I took your advice with Laurel... And I think it's starting to work."

"I've got mad relationship skills bro." Said Thea with a little smirk

"Let me know if you need any trendy places to propose."

"I think you're getting ahead of yourself."

"A little bit." He said as Thea walked off

Rob walked through the door and Oliver just smiled.

"Rob. You gotta keep up."

The next day, Quentin walks into CNRI, where Laurel is busy at work.

"Is that the Declan case?" He asks

"You know.. There was a funny development with that."

"Matt Istook filed a police report. He said he was attacked by the hood."

"And, you know I was thinking.. I gave my daughter Istook's name."

"What, you think I have a personal line to a vigilante now?" Laurel responded, annoyed.

"I don't know how you did it- point is.. He's a damned criminal! And now you're an accessory."

She sighed.

"Okay, fine. You caught me. But I am only doing what I have to in order to save an Innocent man's life."

"And I'll bet that's the same justification this... Vigilante uses."

"You are breaking the law!" He said exasperated

"Maybe it wouldn't have to come to this if the police would've done their job in the first place." She said stubbornly

"I asked you how you got this case, and you lied straight to my face."

"I thought we didn't do that."

"Guess I was wrong." He said walking away.

She sighed, knowing it was too late in her life to ever be 100% honest with him again.

In the Judges office Laurel meets with the Judge and Brodeur, and his lawyers.

✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠

"The existence of the file proves Istook lied on Brodeur's behalf."

"That's slander. Jared Swanstrom. I represent Jason Brodeur and Brodeur chemical."

"The newly discovered evidence requires a stay of execution in the interest of justice."

"Ours isn't a court of justice. It's one of law. I don't think this enough to warrant a stay of execution." The judge said sternly

"Your motion for habeas corpus is denied."

As Jason's Lawyer shakes the judge's hand, Laurel turns to speak to him

"This isn't over. I found the loose end. And I'm gonna pull on it no matter what happens, until your whole world unravels."

Brodeur is worried as he speaks

✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠♫✧𖣠

"Declan's Lawyer is gonna get me sent to prison! If not for murder, than this Toxic dumping!"

"There are steps we can take to prevent that." Said one of his men

"You see her."

"She's going after me!" He yelled

"She'll want to meet with her client after what happened here today.. And we have friends at Iron Heights."

"And well... Prison can be a dangerous place."

Back on the rooftop, the Hood speaks with Laurel again.

"We're not done yet."

"Within the bounds of the law, this is all that can be done."

"What would you need to free Peter Declan?" He asks

"..Well at this point, I'd say they'd accept nothing less than a signed confession from Brodeur." She sighed.

He walks towards the end of the roof.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm getting that confession."

Back in Walter's office, Felicity returns with information.

"The company Mrs. Queen- or Steele?"

"Mrs. Queen-Steele? Does she hyphenate? She seems like she would."

Walter clears his throat.

"Right!"

"The company she invested in, doesn't exist."

"I'm sorry, I don't understand." He said

"It wasn't an investment. The money was used for an offshore LLC called Tempest."

"I don't recall that name being under the Queen Consolidated banner." He says in confusion.

"That's because it isn't. Even legally it doesn't exist. No governmental records such as taxes, it isn't registered with the secretary of state.."

"But... In 2009. Tempest purchased a warehouse in Starling City."

Back at Big Belly Burger, Carly walks up to John as he sits at a Table by himself.

"Okay, enough moping. You quit. It's over."

"I think you should move on."

"If only it were that easy.."

"It is. This job is dangerous, your nephew already lost his father.. He can't lose you too."

"Does it ever bothe you.. Andy's killer wasn't caught?" He asks

She looks off guard

"In Afghanistan, when I had a job, I did it."

"And I'd help where I could, and believe it was a better place when I'd left."

"But now all I do is protect punks and spoiled one percenters."

"I miss the feeling that I'm making a difference in the world."

"Then stop. Do something you believe in." She said

"But what if it's wrong."

"If you believe in it.. How could it be wrong?" She asks with a genuine smile

In Brodeur's office the hood was aiming an arrow at the man.

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"Jason Brodeur." He said in a harsh and deep tone of voice

"What do you want?"

"You're going to admit to having Peter Declan's wife killed."

"Why? So I can take his place?"

"So you can avoid the death penalty." He said

"Except you need me to exonerate him. Maybe you'll try and force me to sign a confession-"

He was cut off by his own scream of pain as an arrow flew through his hand, pinning it to the wall.

"Might be difficult."

From his pocket, his cellphone rung.

"My hand!"

The hood took the phone out of his pocket and held it near his face.

"Answer the phone!"

As the hood clicked the answer button a voice said.

"It's going down in an hour."

He hung up.

"What's going down in an hour.?"

He didn't respond so he yelled "what?!"

"Let's just say the execution is getting moved up."

The hood growls and punches him in the face, knocking him out.

Laurel is sitting across Peter Declan in It on Heights.

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"Please don't give up on yourself. I told you my friend is working on something, he just needs some more time."

The Hood jumps down and knocks out a guard on the outer perimeter, stealing his uniform.

"I don't have more time Miss Lance."

A guard on the inside opens the door, letting one of Brodeur's men in.

"Unlock the cages." He says as he hands the guard a check.

"I'm gonna die tomorrow. Don't you think I've been here before? All these lawyers holding out false hope?"

Then the alarms begin blaring. And Prisoners begin running rampant.

The guard's walkie talkie beeps as the warden talks.

"The Warden is setting up a secure perimeter in cell block C. Stay here Miss Lance."

He ran off out the door.

"Wait!" She said following after him

As her and Declan raced out the door, guards were getting beaten on by multiple prisoners. She had to think if now was the time to fight, or wait on the hood to show up and save them.

Sure, she could easily handle these barbarians.. But there were so many people, was she really willing to risk revealing her secrets right now.

They enter the caged in area where prisoners are continuing to attack guards.

A prisoner aims a gun at Laurel, but the second he does an arrow flies into the man.

"Let's go."

They follow the hood, who is disguised as a prison guard.

They get chased by more escaping prisoners, and as they make it to a hallway, The Hood gets grabbed.

He flips the man over, grabs Laurel's hand and they continue to run, now the police on their tails.

As they make it into another room. A prisoner punches the hood, and the force sends his bow flying and him to the floor.

Declan moved backwards slowly, and the man grabbed Laurel, throwing her into a chain link fence. He threw her to the floor and began choking her.

She looked over to see the Hood still on the ground, and she grabbed a sharp object by her side, presumably a makeshift prisoner weapon...

She was beginning to struggle breathing when the hood got back up and saw what was happening. Laurel stabbed the man in the shoulder blade as The Hood lunged at him knocking him off of her, the man screamed in pain from the object.

The Hood didn't take anytime to process it as he was filled with Violent rage and began punching and beating on the man.

As Laurel regained her composure she began to get up.

"Stop." She said

At first, he was on edge and growled as he was about to attack, but as he realized it was her he calmed down.

As the guards came in and began making orders he looked guilty and said "Laurel."

But it was time for all of them to go.

Laurel was outside in front of a cop car when Quentin came running to her as he said her name, and they hugged.

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"Sweetie."

"I'm okay." She said

"Are you sure?" He asked as he let go from the hug.

"I'm sorry.. I was unkind earlier." She sighed.

She had a lot of that going around lately. To her father, To Oliver.. And to Tommy. She just needed to figure her life out again.

"You were right.. Ankov confessed to Camillie's murder. So we got the wrong guy."

She looked down as he said the next part.

"But I'm right too. He's dangerous."

"He's outside the law."

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*Flashback*

"You know, I was hesitant about making these sacrifices, without formally inviting you to the association. Hell, I wasn't even sure you'd have much to offer me, Ms. Lance."

"But something about you, draws you to me. And I'm more than happy to teach you still. After all... You are a fast learner."

"But I'm still not doing it for free."

"But of course not." Laurel's snide tone poked through, she was a little over 20

"It's simple really. At some point, I feel if we go to far we may end up with trouble in Starling City... And for me and my select few.. Friends. I want you to make sure nothing happens to us by the law."

"So you want me to forge the law, if this much less than legal organization is exposed?"

"In a sense yes. Your loyalty to the law.. It will come second to me."

"I promise."

"I know." She responded to her father.

"He's a killer."

*Flashback*

"Can I trust you, Laurel?"

"Yes."

"Sometimes, the law alone isn't enough to fix things. Sometimes it comes down to your own ability.." Laurel admitted, at this point in her life she had a hope decay.

"I'm surprised you stayed this long. Even your mother didn't. When given the chance, many would jump at it."

"We'd be honored to have you. You are even much better then some of the girls I have trained since childhood."

"If I can trust you with my name, our destiny's will forever be through this league."

"I agree."

"You can call me Sandra on your day off." The woman's voice had the hint of a smile hidden in it.

"We begin."

"He would've killed that man."

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*Flashback*

Scenes flash of the Dark haired woman and Laurel sparring elegantly, uniquely..

"I looked into his eyes and it was like he had no remorse."

*Flashback*

"Are you certain you won't reconsider joining us officially?"

"You could make such a good difference here with us."

"It's not out of the cards for me yet, Sandra."

The screen panned up to the hood who took off the ski mask, and he looked down.

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*Flashback*

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The bird still in the woven cage was chirping.

"Please, I'm starving." Oliver begged

"I've never killed anything before."

As the hunger got the best of him, Oliver grabbed the bird from the cage.

He looked up, saying "I'm sorry." As he snapped it's neck.

The sirens were still going off as lance said "Let's get you home."

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"I wonder how he got into that prison anyway.. A grown man in a green hood kind sticks out, doesn't it?"

"Actually.. He was dressed as one of the guards, with a ski mask."

She noticed a visibly shocked expression form on his face.

"What did I say?"

"Nothing, just had an idea." He says

She side-eyed him suspiciously as she stepped into the car.

Walter made his way to the Warehouse, where there was a keypad on the door.

He typed Tempest, but it was wrong.

Then Oliver. Wrong again.

Then Thea, still wrong.

As he typed Robert, it unlocked. And when he went inside and turned on the lights, his face was one of pure shock as he saw the Queen's Gambit, now torn in half.

Now at the Police Station, Quentin and the Tech support are looking through the footage from the shooting at the exchange building.

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"Yeah this is from the exchange building, but I already scrubbed through all of it." Said the IT guy.

"Yeah.. Well we're doing it again."

"When you went through it last time, you were just looking for a man in a green hood, right?"

"What was I supposed to look for? A man in a tutu wearing a wig?"

Lance rolls his eyes and gives attitude when he speaks up.

"Just look for anything out of the ordinary, okay?"

They look through the tape, and Quentin looks suspiciously at Oliver.

"Go back 10 seconds."

He sees him with a dufflebag and says "I'll be damned."

Laurel and Peter Declan were walking through the park to meet up with Izzy.

"Thank you for everything Laurel."

"Don't thank me. This was all the doing of our... Mutual friend." She said with a smile.

"Someone has been waiting a long time to see you."

He saw his daughter, older now and they ran to each other, and began hugging.

Back in the Hideout, Oliver watches the news as he crosses out Jason Brodeur's name on the list.

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"Multiple state and federal agencies are seeking compensation and clean up costs from Brodeur chemical."

"New facts have come to light, where Camille Declan presented evidence of dumping prior to her murder in 2007."

"Peter Declan has been released and this case has been reopened."

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*Flashback*

Back in the cave with Yao Fei, Oliver is eating the bird he cooked.

"Shengcún."

"Yeah. Bird."

"Shengcún no mean bird." The man said.

"Shengcún mean survive."

"You speak english?" Oliver asked, baffled.

"If you want survive this place, bird not last thing you kill."

Yao Fei picked up Oliver's picture.

"And forget her. You look all day. You won't survive."

Moira was walking towards a limo in a parking lot, belonging to Malcolm Merlyn.

"You wanted to see me?" She says

"You seem nervous Moira."

"Do I have a reason to be?"

"We all do. The modern Robin Hood.."

"What? You're worried your net worth makes you a target." Moira asks

"Jason Brodeur. Adam Hunt. Warren Patel."

𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕥ𖤓ꕤ𖤓ꕤ𖤓

"He's not targeting the rich... He's going after the list."

Oliver walked into his living room and saw Diggle staring out the window.

"If you're here about the bodyguard position... The new guy did just quit."

"I'm here for the other position." Dig said

Oliver looked surprised as he spoke.

"And I'm not signing on as a sidekick."

"But you were right. Someone needs to fight for this city.. And you'll do it with or without me."

"Except with my help... You'll have less casualties, yourself included."

"Diggle, I'm not looking for anyone to save me."

"But you still need it, a person to remind you of your humanity when the warzone takes over. When it scrapes off little pieces of your soul. "

Just then the doors burst open and the cops rush in.

From the other part of the house Walter says "You can't just barge in here!"

"I have a badge and gun that say different." Lance says as he continues

Oliver and Dig rush in.

"What the hell is going on?!" Oliver says

"Oliver what's happening?" Thea calls from the top of the stairs upon hearing the commotion.

Oliver is handcuffed.

"Oliver Queen you are under arrest for suspicion of obstruction of justice, aggravated assault-"

"Walter! Stop them!" Thea pleads

"-acting as a vigilante."

"Are you out of you mind?!"

"And murder."

As they read him his rights and take him away, the family behind looks beyond, shocked and Walter starts making calls.

I am so excited to do more Canary, and Laurel training flashbacks. But I'm also worried about giving away too much too early. But this is gonna be so fun.

Author's Note:

[qvnthesia]

You know what’s kind of funny in a messed up way? In the season 4 finale, Kol was acting like Elena just up and murdered him just because she wanted to kill someone that night, but he had compelled Damon to kill her brother and also tried to literally kill Bonnie the very episode Elena helped kill Kol. Elena has proven time and time again that she is 100% down for murder when it comes to keeping a loved one safe and Kol was an active threat to at least 2 of her loved ones. Obviously she was going to kill him, so like, why was he so surprised that she went through with the killing. Kol conveniently ignores that he had just tried to kill one of her best friends and had compelled Damon to kill Jeremy, her baby brother that she loves more than anyone else. Literally every other Original could’ve informed Kol that Elena takes no prisoners when it comes to her family, as she went along with Esther’s plan to kill all of them simply to remove Klaus from the playing field and ensure Klaus wouldn’t be a threat to her family anymore, Rebekah got quite literally stabbed in the back so she wouldn’t jeopardize one of the first kill-Klaus plans, and Elijah ended up with a dagger in him in season 2. Did none of Kol’s siblings tell him jack about their current adversaries/sort of allies or something?

This is one of the most confusing things on the show. TO characters haven't had any proper planning with the exception of Klaus and Elijah. Mostly Klaus, because Klaus always looks at the long term. He always wants to think about the big picture. A legacy and success that lasts for centuries until some other adversary crawls out from the shadows to try and thwart him again. Elijah, on the other hand, mostly plans to solve the present situation.

Rebekah always improvises (TVD S4 finale, saved Matt from Alexander the Hunter by taking Matt's place near the trigger) and so does Kol. Freya plans heavily, she doesn't improvise until she's got nothing. Finn remains neutered and yet, he intricately plans the downfall of his siblings (TO S2 Live and Let Die, Finn captured Oliver and Elijah). The only time the Mikaelson siblings are well-planned is when they are all together (TO S4, Operation Rescue Klaus/Nik/Niklaus).

This is what we want to see in more of the Mikaelson siblings — planning, talking about allies and adversaries, who's dangerous enough and who's impulsive, what are their weaknesses and best threatening one-liners.

It's quite funny how they underestimated Elena, considering that almost every sibling has faced Elena in some way or the other. She's more dangerous as the Salvatores, even Katherine herself, given the opportunity and the resources to function.

Stefan is more level-headed than Damon, but Damon is willing to shed blood while Stefan isn't. Caroline's a sidekick, she can't plan war stuff on her own, she needs some backup. Bonnie is powerful, being a witch, and can take on stuff on her (TVD S3-S4, planned with Klaus and put his spirit in Tyler).

Elena, on the other hand, plans. She's unhinged but in a stable way. Her words and her blood are her strengths. She can emotionally manipulate her adversary to cause an unnecessary reaction, giving her an opportunity to establish her cadence and change the key of the fight's rhythm. Her Petrova blood, I'm not going to go into that, you already know. Seeing this, I can conclude that Elena's a complex protagonist with high potential to become both a villain or a hero, provided the writers were smart enough to write her character like that, sadly, they were stupid to let Elena's story depend on two toxic men only, so I'm not going to go there.

Coming back to the point, the Mikaelson siblings should have warned Kol. Klaus could've gathered them all in a room and told them all about the MF Gang. Rebekah could've been perfect for informing Kol about Elena, and then Elijah would've jumped in saying 'Don't underestimate her, brother' with a knowing smile playing on his lips *hehehe*

thank you for the question <33 au revoir!

*runs into a wall*

[hale-of-stiles-heart]

THOR: Love and Thunder

Went to go see Love And Thunder with my dad and I just wanted to ramble a bit! Spoilers below!

the introduction of Gor was pretty good

started a little slow I feel with Thor and the Guardians where I feel like they made Thor kinda annoying to the point that it wasn't funny but whatever

the scene with Sif was weird bc it was played too much for laughs with her apparently not knowing that she'd need to die in battle to go to Valhalla which is 1. weird bc how would she not know? she's Asgardian 2. not true bc Odin didn't die in battle and went to Valhalla

Matt Damon reprising his role was very fun but boy did that scene drag on

Jane having stage 4 cancer and that's why she goes to Mjolnir was kinda interesting and I was happy to see Darcy and Selvig even for just a bit!

I do think the flashback montage of Thor and Jane's relationship was kinda weird bc it seemed very generic when they could've used actual moments from the past movies that had more poignancy and expanded on those

Gor's shadow creatures were so cool and I love the different designs for them!!!

also Jane Thor is so fucking cool I was so excited to see it!!! And the way that Mjolnir being shattered was incorporated into the fighting with it breaking into projectiles was very cool!!

love love love Thor and Jane being awkward exes but I think the whole "Mjolnir is Thor's ex hammer and Stormbreaker is jealous and acting up" thing could've been explored more seriously rather than just as a running joke bc Ragnarok established he didn't need Mjolnir then they gave him Stormbreaker and since they kept emphasizing that Thor doesn't know who he is they shouldn't treated that more seriously I think

it was cool they had Heimdall's son included! (I actually thought for a second he was trans bc he chose to use the name Axel instead of Astrid and I'm used to Astrid being a feminine name but it's Disney so y'know but a fun headcanon)

I wish they would've made Gor nicer to the kids which is probably dumb to say of a villain but he lost his daughter and there was a moment where he mentioned her to the kids so I think it would've been interesting to see him be genuinely nicer to them to reinforce the fact he took up the mantle of God Butcher to avenge his daughter

I liked Russel Crowe as Zeus, I can see what they were going for with him being older and heavy, an old god king who just wants to go to orgies and show off, but they should've skipped the accent bc he sounded more Italian than Greek

very happy Korg didn't actually die!

also very fun that apparently Kronans are an entirely male species and Korg had two dads (and later a bf/husband, Dwayne)

I was very happy they confirmed that it was Valkyrie's girlfriend who died in the Ragnarok flashback bc so many ppl insisted it was just a sister but no it was her gf!

though I do wish Valkyrie hadn't taken such a backseat, esp skipping the last big fight but I digress

space dolphins!!!

Thor and Jane's talk was really nice and one of my favorite moments of the movie

love the switch to black and white when they got to the Shadow Realm

the entire fight there was really cool! It was very stylized and just really fun to watch!!!

they made Stormbreaker plot relevant but it felt very forced but maybe I'm biased

Thor giving the kids the power of Odin with their weapons (like in the first movie) was so cool and the whole fight scene was awesome!!!

love Jane showing up even though she knew it would probably kill her esp when without her Thor wouldn't have been able to break the sword

I did actually think that since parts of the sword got mixed in with the bits of Mjolnir that it was gonna infect Jane too and make for a much more tragedy ending where Thor would have to kill her but no

I ultimately think Gor bringing his daughter back was a waste of a wish bc he just went ahead and died and even acknowledged she'd be alone - and even though Jane pretty much volunteered Thor to adopt her it was a little weird that he'd suddenly be okay with a god taking care of his kid but whatever

personally, I think it would've been cool if Thor offered Gor and his daughter a place in Valhalla bc that would've been the eternal reward he was so devastated by not getting

Jane's death did hurt me but I was so excited to see that she turned to gold dust like the dying gods did 👀

admittedly I don't like the whole "Thor adopts Gor's daughter" thing so the ending itself was kinda lackluster for me

the first post credit scene was okay, was funny seeing the dude from that soccer show as Hercules bc he seems too scrawny to be Hercules but whatever

the second post credit scene was so good!!! Jane going to Valhalla! seeing Heimdall again! even in his ugly ass outfit! I think that should've been the actual ending, a bit longer and showing off more of Valhalla bc Jane deserves her eternal heaven and I think it'd be a good callback to the end of the first movie where Thor was told that Jane's searching for him with now it being Jane in Valhalla and Thor on Earth

Overall I liked it! I'd definitely watch it again but I wouldn't really go out of my way to see it again! I think it needed some tweaks and could've cut down on the awkward funny bits so it was a bit more serious! Not as good as Ragnarok but better than a lot of other Marvel movies!

[penny-nichols]

Ok. Penny headcanons post here we go

-disaster bi

-half Japanese half Ashkenazi Jewish

-let cody into the studio actually. Intentionally leaves the vent uncovered because just like Maya, she feels bad for them. Literally only covered it up when she was told to and even then did a shitty job at it

-Adrian Andrews's cousin

-Adrian put in a good word for her at Global and that's what helped her land the job.

-Part Time (at least before AAI2, maybe after as well) going to college for film

-wants to be a director but would probably literally be fine doing anything except acting

-Stage Fright and Camera Shy

-Definitely has a crush on Maya

-Maybe has a crush on Matt (pre reveal, anyway). Literally she's just like "but he seems like such a nice guy!" While Adrian and Cody are just telling her that this man is Red Flag Central

-big of heart, dumb of ass

-Was kinda nervous around Will before 1-3 not in a like "he's scary" way but in a "he's cool and I look up to him" way. Literally after 1-3 realizes that he's Just Some Guy. Will absolutely talk about him casually forgetting that he's famous.

-probably goes on friend dates with Will and people are like "awww are you two dating?" And they just look at each other. And then say no. Because they're not

-literally though her and Will are besties. Would literally have a teen slumber party if they could

-was the person who had to explain to Cody's mom that he kinda sorta saw a murder.

-"hey I heard you like bad girls, because Im bad... At everything" *tries to do a cool lean but misjudges where what she's trying to lean on is and just collapses*

-strong but built like a twig.

-Will literally just wipe her glasses on her sweater if she needs to clean them

-cosplayer

-was the steel samurai for every year for Halloween once it came out. Would've been the Copper Samurai (one of the brothers from the Nickel Samurai) Halloween 2018 and was already starting to plan her costume out before 2-4 happened at which point the Nickel Samurai was soured

-Pretty ok at sewing and crafting in general, and can get pretty creative with things sometimes. Hot glue is her best friend

-Will talk about studio drama but also doesn't like saying mean things unless the person is like. SERIOUSLY bad. So the studio gossip is just funny stories that happened on set. Like "WP accidentally got the Steel Samurai costume stuck on. It took us a solid 20 minutes to get him out without destroying it"

-that being said she WILL shittalk Matt, Dee, Jack, and eventually Sal

-initially she's really inspired by sal and a big fan but as she becomes less starstruck and a bit more critical of the media she consumes she's just like "oh wow he is uh... Really leaning heavily into the misogyny here huh. Okay then."

-Sal is just some guy (derogatory) now and if she wasn't so polite she would try to explain why some of what he's doing is maybe not the best. She wouldn't even explain it impolitely she just cannot talk to people especially those in positions of authority over her

-Has anxiety (runs in her family, Adrian also has it) but WILL go "Excuse me! He asked for no pickle!" If something happens to WP. If something happens to her she's just sitting there like "if I tell anyone about this I will explode"

-her and Blackquill are besties actually. Went to the same high school and they are Absolute Nerds. Probably both quiet kids so they sat in the back of the class together. Solidarity

-they still kept in touch after HS but didn't really see each other. When she found out about his conviction she just felt... Not exactly betrayed but disappointed that there was yet another person she thought was a cool chill dude who committed murder

-she starts working on the Steel Samurai and is SO struggling not to spill the entire plot to Simon because she KNOWS he'd love it she fucking KNOWS

-anyway after DD Penny FINALLY gets to see him again (she does NOT pay attention to the news though someone had to tell her "hey did you know there's a prosecutor called the twisted samurai") and she just runs up to him and hugs him. He's like a full foot taller than her.

-also she's a great hugger. Not making this up Capcom told me

-Anyway they get boba and talk like once a month it's nice they're chillin

-WILL ramble and go off on tangents if you let her. The only reason half of Turnabout Samurai ISN'T a Penny Monologue is because she's just internally like "must not bring up my blorbos this is a murder investigation"

-Clumsy as hell. If Adrian hadn't been the one to break Ami's urn, she would've.

-could probably eat eldoons without flinching honestly. Basically lived off packaged ramen in high school and now doesn't CARE about the salt as long as it's real ramen

-will casually name drop celebrities but she's not even trying to brag or anything she just forgets that other people know them.

-"yeah I was talking with John the other day and he said-" "who the fuck is John?" "The kid at work. Not Cody, the other one." "...Marsh?????" "Yeah, so you do know him!"

-literally idk who she'd be talking to in that scenario though. Her friends are like. Work friends, Simon, and Maya

-although literally most of the prosecutors office is like. Neutral airing on the side of positive to straight up positive about her (at least those who remain prosecutors). Paynes Don't care. Simon is her bestie actually. Klavier definitely did SOMETHING at Global during 7yg and she wasn't like... Weird about him being famous? (Although he probably barely remembers her), Sebastian is just like "oh yeah, that lady John works with. I remember everything about her" (<lies. He does feel like she's a good person though because John isn't like. Actively bitching about her which he will do about people he hates. #courtneysibs). Edgeworth is in a Steel Samurai forum with her. She has no idea who he is but he definitely remembers her and is just like "Steel Samurai... Good". Basically the only current Prosecutor who DOESN'T like her already is Nahyuta and that's because they got into an argument on the Steel Samurai forum about the Plumed Punisher.

- will be a 30 year old involved in shipping discourse but she's NOT on the bad side unlike so many 30 year old shipping discoursers. She's just like "fiction can affect reality. Die mad about it"

-I wanna hope that eventually she does get to direct. I want the ultimate steel samurai fan to run the series she deserves it

-also trying to get into shipping discourse with her would be extra funny if she ran the series.

-you think she's some rando who occasionally posts Steel Samurai news and art but she tells you "I did NOT introduce a fifteen year old for you to ship him with a whole ass grown man". You just got called out by the current showrunner of the steel samurai. #ratio

-sorry for slipping into second person now anyways Im gonna post

[bloggingwithmattporter]

My Relationship and How It Ended

All through our lives, we wonder who our partner will be and how will we find them? Going out with friends, talking online for a while or just simply a bump into each other. At the age of 20, I was amazed at the thought of how i'd meet someone I could be myself around. Myself having an incredibly outgoing bubbly personality, I always knew that I could be seen by many people, but never knew that I would find someone who I'd consider to be perfect for me. For years I've been independant and achieved things by myself with no partner by my side, I didn't want anyone nor was I looking for someone. But yet, I always thought to myself "I wonder if my future girlfriend would be proud of me", which actually makes you realise you're more lonely than you thought, but hey, that's okay because you know one day you will find her.

Everything changed for me one night, a few weeks after I started a new job. I decided to go out one night, which i remember fondly enough that I would've rather stay in and watch some films, but decided it would be a great time to celebrate the job I acquired. When you were like me and decided to drink yourself silly every single week, you had to find reasons to go out. Little did I know, going out that night would change my life in millions of great ways, which is now terrifying to think about.

 After a fair few drinks, I decided to go out into another area of the club to share my loud obnoxious personality around. The moment I walked down there, was like a movie. I saw a girl, even in my intoxicated state, I could tell she was one of the most beautiful women I had ever laid my eyes upon. I instantly came up with a goal to make her laugh. It takes a lot to make me nervous, it was trait that I never had. I went up to her and at that exact same time, she walked up to me and introduced herself. You know how I said it was like a movie? I said that because when I looked into her eyes, everything around me froze, I was just standing there. After what felt like thirty minutes, I introduced myself then we sat down and had a drink. I wouldn't be able to tell you the exact conversations that we had, but I can tell you I interrupted her to inform her that I needed to do a pee followed by what I thought to be an FBI cross Ninja jump over the table, but according to her that was never the case... I still stick with what I thought it felt still to this day. When I returned we had another drink and spoke some more and introduced us to each others friends. One of my friends, Jordan, looked at me when I introduced her and smiled at me, for some strange reason, he knew I was interested, suppose I've never really introduced a girl to my friends before. As this night drew to a close, I lost her and eventually stormed out of the club because I had enough. Little did I know, she was asking about me when I left. I got home, surprisingly, and fell asleep.

I woke up to a message from her asking me out on a date. I immediately felt emasculated, but that was okay. Obviously I said yes. We went to a Shannon Noll concert, it was a perfect time spent together and the happiest i've been in a very long time. I still remember how it felt to feel true happiness after such a long time of being alone.  

As messages upon messages went by between each other, it was suddenly a week or two later. We had organised for me to stay over her place, have a couple of drinks and listen to some old school music, the best kind. As she's on the floor choosing the songs to put on and I am sitting on her bed, that strange feeling erupted in me again, true happiness. I didn't know at the time, but she was radiating something I haven't felt before, whether it was her great music choice or just being around her. As the night progressed, next thing we know we were in bed together 'cuddling'. We were talking about something that made me laugh, which at the end I did something I couldn't take back. I laughed and then said I love you, which i quickly recovered by saying "lol jokes, you wish". Yes, I actually said that and it turned out more funny than what we were previously discussing. This became a running joke for years to come. I remember laying there thinking "Why did I say that", I was confused about how it happened because it just completely slipped out, I didn't mean to say it but knew I felt it. This was when I asked her to be my girlfriend and she said yes. In the end, it was a perfect night spent by someone whom I believed I loved very quickly. I had never felt this way about another person before. 

A week at work progressed and we decided to stay over again, same music, but this time we felt closer than ever. It was an amazing feeling for me and I was honestly just falling harder and harder for her. I knew the next time I saw her, I wanted to do something special, so I surprised her with a little getaway to a nice resort at the Sunshine Coast. When we got there, we checked in and went across the street to Woolworths to stock up on food and the dinner I was going to cook for her, Beef Strogonoff. When we returned, we got the keys and went to our apartment to find out that there was in fact, no kitchen. So it turned out to be a KFC night. This was when I knew she was the one for me, as we finished eating, i decided to rip the KFC bags and dress her up.. it was incredibly hilarious at the time and damn she could pull the look off. We got into bed and watched Eurovision trying to understand the words they were singing, it was great and it was definitely a great weekend. Once again, the kitchen became a running joke too, I could never escape it. After this weekend away, we sat down and decided it would be best if I moved in with her, as I’m always there anyways. So a month after dating, we were living together and I’ve never felt so much happiness, everything was perfect and working out for me.

Months and months went on, we sat there laughing about the possible arguments we would have because we have never argued before. I knew for a fact that I was so in love with this woman that I never wanted to lose her. We were perfect for a very long time. I’d get lost in her eyes every time she would laugh, or how her eyes opened wide when she was explaining a story or a topic she was passionate about. She has the most incredible smile with a beautiful laugh.. which includes her little snorting she does when the laughing can’t stop.

Every morning I would wake up, give her a kiss on the forehead and say good morning. Every night, I’d give her 10 kisses on the forehead, we both made sure to count as it all became a ritual. There were so many memories, inside jokes and little rituals we had that we got so used to that it all became normal. I was still in love with this woman at the age of 23.

Suddenly, cracks started to appear because of my inability to talk. I know, how does someone not know how to talk? That was and still is the hardest thing for me. I am so used to not sharing my feelings about negative things and instead keep it bottled up inside, its a very unhealthy thing to do and still to this day I'm slowly learning.

We were having many fights, breaking up but working our way back to each other every single time. We knew we wanted to be together and we were too stubborn to admit it at times, we were an incredibly competitive couple. Ask her about the monopoly game, she'll tell you she won..... thats because she did but I can assure you we never played monopoly again. I cannot elaborate on the amount of fights and quick break ups we had, we had a severe rough patch. But everything was perfect and I was still the happiest guy in the world.

The last time we broke up was around May 2018, the month we got together in 2016. This was a tough break up but we got back together a week later. I know, people may think how is this healthy, but when you're in love with someone, you'd do anything to make sure it works. Everything was perfect for many many many months. We discussed getting our very own place and we started to buy furniture each paycheck so we would be able to move into a house that wasn’t partly furnished, having kids (even agreed on some names to respect my mother which meant a lot to me) and more importantly, the engagement I was going to do at the start of the year.

I started an incredibly bad addiction to video gaming every day for hours on end, instead of the usual couple of hours a week. I became lazy and didn't appreciate what I had right next to me the entire time. Nearly 3 years we spent together, you would think that I would be more attentive. I just forgot about every thing in my life and was just committed to video games like the person I was long before I met her. I stopped wanting to have sex and I stopped wanting to go out on weekends with her. This all hit home and completely shattered me after she told me she was getting male attention elsewhere. I stormed out with all my stuff and didn't look back once.

A week has gone by and I just sit here in silence every single day. I've eaten half a sausage roll that made me vomit, a few chicken balls and a handful of chips, against my will. During my silence, I realise how much I have changed. I have gone from the alcoholic version of myself to a guy who found out he was ready to settle down, the mature Matt I thought I wouldn't find until I was very much older. I'm not going to lie, this last paragraph is hard to type because I just fall back into the ifs and buts. I know for a fact, all I had to do was to get off that Xbox and give her attention, clean the room when she asked, give her the intimacy that we both required but I slacked out on and most of all, show her the amount of appreciation I have for her since we got together. I feel as though I never want to show another woman intimacy or become close again, unless it’s with her. The constant knot in my stomach won’t dissapear. The world knows just how much I do love her and all my good friends know how much I appreciate and love her, it just turns out I forgot to reassure the most important person to me.

I realise that I don't blame her for any of this because I guess it is all my fault. Every girl in a long lasting relationship needs to know that feeling that their partner does in fact care about them. I just guess for me, it is too late for that. I would do anything to go back to the life we had with me bringing an insane amount of changes that would make any girl feel like the luckiest woman in the world. Not only did I lose my girlfriend, I lost my best friend and the only person that knew exactly who I was and who I am still to this day. She knows more about me than anyone else on this planet and i'm not afraid to admit that. She was my definition of a soul mate. I've never felt more comfortable and open with someone in my life and I highly doubt I'm going to find that feeling with anyone else for a very long time and even then, the chances are slim. All our inside jokes and memories haunt me every single day because they were the happiest times of my life. Every song that comes on the radio, its hard to listen to. All the songs on my phone, I can't listen to because each one takes me back to a time with her. It's hard to watch Netflix alone because I watched basically everything with her many times over. It's hard to get up in the morning and go to work, because every morning I would drive there knowing how close our future home was and how ready I was to propose to her, she was the reason why I got the new job a few weeks ago. The memories are suddenly everywhere and every day you're just caught up in constant nostalgia. The pain doesn’t disappear.

If I could go back in time and change everything, I would in a heartbeat. If she messaged me and told me she wants me back, I'd be there in a heartbeat too. With Christmas and New Years coming up, this is going to be a hard problem for me to recover from for the rest of the year. We had so many plans, I had many plans she didn't even know about. Nearly 3 years down the drain because I was too stupid to show her the amount of love and appreciation I have for her.. it truly fucking hurts. Being so ready to settle down, just for it all to come up above your feet isn't the best feeling.

The hardest part about break ups, is trying to forget about the imagined future you two had planned together. Our future looked so perfect. Going from being so happy, to suddenly depression hitting you straight on the head. The emptiness and loneliness is something I haven't felt in my life and I wouldn't wish it upon my worse enemy.

I don't expect many people to read this, but if you do, thank you for letting me vent and taking it on board. If you're in a relationship, please, tell your partner you love them and that you appreciate them, that's all it takes. Listen to them, talk to them and be there for them through everything life throws their way. Don't get caught up in technology or social media, they can easily become the source of break ups in this generation, which fucking sucks. Put your phone down and just show your partner that you love them. Never would I have thought I’d lose the one piece of me that meant more than anything else on this planet.

Most importantly, to her. If you're reading this, please know that I love and I miss you more than words can explain. I'm sorry that I didn't show you just how much you meant to me and just assumed you knew. You were, and still are, my world. The things we have done together are things I'll forever cherish and miss. You were my soulmate and I wish I could just show you all the changes I'd make to prove just how happy we can be. I would do anything to have you laying in my arms again and hearing you laugh. You are the only person in this world that I need and I’m honestly shattered to know I wasn’t that person for you. My friends keep telling me to move on.. why would I want to, and how could I move on when I know I’ve already met my soul mate? I’ll forever miss and love you.

I honestly thought typing this would make me feel better, even in the slightest amount, but in the end I guess it just made things worse for me. The hardest part for me was leaving someone who I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with. I don't know where I would be or the type of person I would be if she didn't enter my life. She brought out the best version of me that was possible.

 If you're going through a rough time, talk to a friend or family member. Please know, it's not embarrassing to seek professional help.