#but it needs to be said : i underwent a traumatic experience and im actually growing and improving bc of it | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

wariomolly · 1 year ago

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i kinda want to download a habit tracker thingy to keep track of not biting my nails. but its so so so easy to relapse im afraid to do anything differently at all. even clipping and filing my nails is a very perilous task. but i cant let them get long bc theyre so weak they just fold ……. this is so hard and im so proud of myself !!!!!! its been *checks calendar* three weeks ???!?!?!!?? it feels like years wtf

#ive picked my nails for as long as i can remember like messing with my nails is one of the earliest memories i have #as soon as i was arguably old enough (13) i got acrylic nails to fight the picking #kept that until i was 20 or so #then i just had nubs #then i visited my mom two months ago and we got acrylics!#then i went home and had a rando nail salon fill them and THEY INJURED MY REAL NAIL I AM STILL LIVID ABOUT IT #my anxiety could barely handle it. thankfully the injured part is almost grown out now #since then i have vowed to never get acrylics and never pick my nails again #so far so good!!!!!#sorry ive been wanting to vent about how they massacred my nails #but it’s literally too much for me to talk about and surely ppl dont want to hear it #but it needs to be said : i underwent a traumatic experience and im actually growing and improving bc of it

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