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His favorite toy- Part 2 || Art Donaldson x reader
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Rating: Explicit (18+)
Warnings: SMUT (p in v sex, oral sex), super toxic relationship.
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(part 1)
His favorit toy- Part 2:
Two months have passed since the last time Art and I fucked. Although it wouldn’t be fair to call it that, because I don’t fully know what it was. I only know he said he thinks he loves me. Neither of us made the minimal effort to rekindle any kind of relationship. I kept sitting with Janet and Shane, and he stayed in his place next to the friend he invented.
Occasionally, if I focused, I could feel his gaze on the back of my neck, but maybe I was imagining it. Maybe I also imagined his declaration of love, maybe I lost my grip on reality for a moment. Maybe more water needs to flow under this bridge. Maybe Tashi Duncan needs to be his, like he is hers, so I can stop dreaming about him at night. How did I become so dependent on the emotions of a girl I have no desire to exchange a word with? How did I lose someone I’m not sure was ever mine? And more than anything- what made me spend so much time in this endless whining?
A few days after that party, Luke sat next to me in one of the classes we share. He looked so good that if I close my eyes, I can imagine it's Art. A remarkably pathetic thought, but it works. Except he isn’t cruel. He doesn't try to deceive me or lead me to the point he wants me to reach. He’s interested in me and my hobbies, and sometimes he walks me from class to class, but in these two months, he hasn’t made any move beyond placing his hand on my shoulder. Maybe he thinks I have lice. Maybe he thinks I won’t be good enough in bed to risk our boring conversations about the eco-intro professor.
Maggie, the girl I work with, canceled at the last minute, so I ended up alone at the smoothie station and the register. I took comfort in the fact that it's exam season and not too many Stanford students would prefer to stand in line for a smoothie instead of grabbing a spot in the library on a Sunday night. "The usual?" I heard Art’s voice and lifted my gaze from the book I was reading. I blinked at him a few times, as if trying to figure out if I was imagining his smug smile. Maybe it wasn’t smug, maybe that's just how he always smiles when he sees me. Like he knows a secret he’ll never tell me. "I..." I tried to hold onto the reality as I knew it, "I don’t remember," I smiled without showing teeth, half-forced.
"Peach—" he stopped himself in the middle of the stupid nickname. Apparently, he understood from my look that it wasn’t appropriate after two months of radio silence. "Almond milk, banana, pecan, and coconut," he mumbled. "That’s $4.50," he nodded. I wondered if he was surprised, because I’d never asked him to pay before. I’d always used the free smoothie I got during my shift on him. "How a—" he started to speak, and I turned on the blender, seeing out of the corner of my eye that he was smirking and shaking his head. "Fair," he muttered. "Here’s your smoothie. Goodnight," I handed him the cup after a few seconds, with the most forced smile I could muster. He rolled his eyes in response and sat down in one of the empty chairs.
"What do you think you’re doing?" I asked. "Sitting and drinking my smoothie, obviously," he spoke again as if I were two years old. Like I needed him to mediate reality for me because I couldn’t understand it on my own. "Do you see anyone else sitting here?" I asked. "Just because the tables are empty because it’s ten at night and you’re working in a cafeteria-" he began. "This isn’t a cafeteria. It’s the—" "Doesn’t mean I can’t sit at one of the tables and drink my smoothie. Or are there new rules I’m not aware of?" I rolled my eyes in response. Smug dickhead. I was definitely not going to give him a second of my time. I went back to the book I was reading for my philosophy exam, trying to ignore his presence but realizing I was reading the same sentence five times in a row.
"What are you studying?" he asked after a few minutes of silence. "Why are you doing this?" I threw the question back from behind the counter, sighing in frustration. "What am I doing?" The usual smirk was plastered on his face. "Why are you here on a Sunday night, Art?" If I could stomp my foot to express protest, I would. "Because you’re here on a Sunday night." The smirk turned into a smile. I couldn’t tell if it was sincere. I never know if he’s sincere.
"What do you want?" I rolled my eyes and sighed, realizing he wasn’t going to leave. I knew he was stubborn in an almost inspiring way (or nauseating, depending on who you ask) and that he was always at an advantage with me. He always had the last word. All I had left was to let him say it quickly and move on with life. "To ask how you're doing?" he half said, half asked. He sounded hesitant, but I knew he wasn’t. I knew he was as confident as any other day. He knew exactly what he was doing. "Amazing. Anything else?" I found myself crossing my arms under my chest and saw him, without shame, shift his gaze, well… to my chest, raising an eyebrow.
"Arthur!" I felt like I was his aunt as he shook his head, almost playfully. "I missed you, Peaches. Is that so hard to believe?" He chuckled, still completely shameless. "Well, I didn’t." That was the first thing that came to mind, and the face Art made, along with the eye roll, only emphasized how much he didn’t believe me. "Why are you so mad at me?" His voice was amused as he approached the counter with his smoothie, grabbing the book I was reading without asking. "What course is this?" "Philosophy," I snatched it from his hand, and he grabbed mine with the speed of an athlete who works too much with his hands. "Let go," I muttered, not sure if I wanted him to release my hand or release me. But I was scared he'd agree and disappear again, and that was so fucking pathetic. "Never," he replied, keeping his gaze on me and giving my hand a squeeze. "It’s not fair, Art," I hated how my voice sounded. "What’s not fair?" he asked, tracing small circles on my hand the moment he felt me relax the muscle that had been trying to pull away from his touch. "What you're doing right now," I sighed. If he weren’t in front of me, I probably would’ve started crying out of frustration. "What am I doing right now?" The smirk was once again plastered on his face. "Trying to convince me everything's okay between us," I hesitated, and he shook his head from side to side. "Nothing's okay between us, Peaches. I hate it. I actually hate it. I think about you 80% of the day. Every time I want to talk to you, you're either with your friends or with Luke." He wrinkled his nose as he said his name.
"Why do you know his name?" I asked, studying him. "Because I looked him up, and I'm telling you, Peaches, he's fucking weird—" "You're fucking weird," I shot back, and he laughed, trying to move the hair from my face with his free hand. "Well, maybe you like us weird, maybe you've got a type," he tried to joke, making me roll my eyes. "Who said I like you, Donaldson?" I tried to defend myself, and Art wasn’t laughing anymore. He wasn’t smiling either. He just looked at me, not letting me read his expression. His hand, which had been playing with mine, tightened its grip, and his gaze locked onto me as if I was on trial for the words that just came out of my mouth.
"Let’s study for the statistics exam together tomorrow?" He changed the subject, not breaking his intense gaze. "Art—" "Study for the exam. Just that. I won't pass it if you don't help me," he flashed his most charming smile. The one he fakes in seconds. The one he uses for interviews with the Stanford magazine and in photoshoots for the tennis team posters. "Study with Dylan," I suggested, raising an eyebrow, referring to the imaginary friend he chose to sit with instead of me. "You want me to beg?" he asked, poking my shoulder with his finger, causing me to shift slightly but still not letting go of my hand. "Maybe," I teased. "I can. My ego will survive if you study with me for statistics tomorrow." He said it quicker than I expected.
"I have a philosophy exam at eight. Can you do twelve?" I asked. "I can when you can. Where’s the exam? I’ll wait for you," he said. "Meet me at the economics library. There’s a room where you’re allowed to talk if you’re working in groups," I explained my choice. "That’s ridiculous. Let’s study at your place or mine—" "We’ll study at the library, take it or leave it," I stated firmly, even though the temptation to go to his dorm was strong since he never invited me. We always went to mine. "Library it is," he agreed. "What’s your philosophy exam about?" he asked, finally letting go of my hand, which had been holding the book I was studying from. "Aristotle and eudaimonia. What he thinks about happiness," I muttered, opening my notes again. "What does he think about happiness?" Art asked, leaning on the counter. "You wouldn’t get it," I smiled at him, and saw him nod with a somewhat thoughtful look, as if his combative spirit and desire to argue had evaporated the moment I agreed to study statistics with him. "Tomorrow at twelve, Peaches. Don’t break my heart and ditch me," he threw into the air, leaving the booth with the same dramatic flair he had when he entered. . . . I walked into the economics library, which was packed with people. Art was already sitting there, messing with his phone more than with the notes in front of him on the table. He hadn’t noticed I’d entered, giving me the chance to observe him. His blonde curls fell over his eyes in a way that likely bothered him. He was wearing his red tennis outfit (the one I liked the most, I should mention) and looked carefree. He always seemed too relaxed, maybe that’s how it is when everything comes to you with an ease that’s almost disgusting.
"You need a haircut," I muttered the first thing that came to mind as I approached, seeing him look up immediately. "Hey," he said, smiling from ear to ear, "I saved a spot because I knew it’d be crowded," he added. "How long have you been sitting here?" I asked as I took the seat next to him. "Since about ten," he chuckled, probably at himself, "How was the exam?" he asked. "Long. Have you gone over any of the material?" Yesterday, I decided I’d be practical. I’d promised to help him, and honestly, I always understood the material better myself when I explained it to him. And if Art Donaldson could take advantage of my knowledge in statistics, then I could take advantage of the situation too. Not just him. "A little, I pretty much lost track in the middle of the course." Art had taken this course as an elective. I always found it funny because who takes statistics as an extra class when it’s not even required for their degree?
"What, Kevin didn’t let you copy his notes?" I looked at him with a raised eyebrow, and he lightly tapped my shoulder. "You’re mean. Since when are you so mean?" he responded with a humor I couldn’t fully read, unsure if he was joking or if part of him actually thought there was some cruelty in me. Maybe it was the philosophy exam I couldn’t shake off. Obsessive thoughts about happiness and potential. "I’m going to get myself some coffee, want me to bring you something?" I asked, changing the subject. "Sit down, get settled, I’ll get it for you," he nodded toward me and stood up, not giving me a chance to refuse before he disappeared from my sight, leaving me alone.
Art Donaldson will be the end of me. I’m certain of it. "My brain is fried, Donaldson. I can’t look at any more averages," I summed up after two hours of studying. "Yeah? Already gave up?" he asked, amused. "I remind you that I had an exam today! I don’t think I’ve eaten anything other than my own brain," I tried to remember what I’d actually eaten today. "So let’s go eat something," he smiled. His eyes practically sparkled. "Art," I sighed, resting my head on my hand. "What? We can’t go have lunch?" he asked with mock innocence. Speaking to me again like I was a child. Like I didn’t understand what he’d already figured out long ago. "No, of course not," I wanted to smack him on the head as if he were the dumbest person I knew. "I can’t let you stay hungry, Peaches, my grandmother would be mad at me," he quickly replied. Where was your grandmother every time you humiliated me to the core? Every time you made me feel empty and stupid? So stupid. "Your grandmother will survive," I rolled my eyes. "She’s a very sick woman, you don’t know that. I’ll tell her I let you starve and she’ll have a stroke. You won’t be able to live with that on your conscience. You’ll drag us into lives full of guilt—" "Okay, you’re giving me a headache, God," I mumbled, standing up. Art Donaldson’s smug smile returned to his face in an instant.
That’s how I found myself sitting across from him at the fancy cafeteria for athletes, eating nuggets after the woman working there flirted with him and gave me a threatening look. "Don’t hate Rosie, she always gives me extra pie," he said after I pointed out that she looked at me like I was the reason the Beatles broke up. "Because she wants to sleep with you," I rolled my eyes. "So she has a reason to look at you like that. Makes sense," he replied with a chuckle. "Okay, what is this?" I dropped the nugget I was holding and pointed between us as I leaned back in my chair. "What?" he continued eating as if nothing unusual was happening. "What are you doing, Art?" I asked, feeling my leg start to shake out of frustration.
"I’m eating and making sure you’re eating," he replied, taking another bite of his food, as if we were having a completely normal conversation. "We’re not going to fuck again just because you invited me to eat nuggets at the cafeteria, you know that, right?" I blinked at him, trying to signal that he was delusional. "Of course not," he said, leaning back in his chair as well. "I have principles, Donaldson," I continued. "I know," he smiled. "I’m not some girl you found on the street that you can treat however you want, disappear for two months, invite her for nuggets, and she’ll take off her bra just so you can vanish again until the next time you’re horny," my voice rose a bit, despite my effort to keep it calm. I saw his jaw tighten, his expression shifting from amused to cold. "Is that what you think this is?" he asked, and all I could do was shrug.
"It’s not like you’ve given me any reason to think otherwise, Art," I looked at him and felt that if I stayed there much longer, I’d start crying. "I told you that I lo—" he began, but I stood up. "Thanks for lunch, it’s definitely nicer than the regular cafeteria," I forced a smile, and he closed his eyes. "You didn’t eat anything," he replied. If I focused, maybe I could have seen his frustration growing. But I was trying to focus on not crying. Art Donaldson’s ego didn’t deserve to see me cry over him again. "I’m really tired, I need to sleep a bit before my shift," I mumbled. "Will you come to my match tomorrow?" he asked quietly. "Art—" "You don’t have to, but I’m saving you a seat, okay?" he cut off my answer, not wanting to hear a refusal, maybe not believing there was a bone in my body capable of saying no to him. . . . And it’s a little pathetic how I ended up walking onto the tennis court the next day, giving up the last shred of my self-respect. I was surprised to see how many people showed up to these things, especially at the end of exam season and right before the break. The place was packed.
‘You came’ -A- I got his message and tried to look around, searching for where he might be. ‘Down on the court’ -A- I could practically see his smirk in the words. I glanced toward him and shrugged. ‘Front row, saved you a seat next to Patrick’ -A- he added.
‘What the fuck is Patrick?’ -(Y/N)- I replied, not moving toward where he told me to go.
‘A friend. Please sit there.’ -A- He answered shortly. ‘Want to lift my head and know where you are’ -A- And when he says things like that, I almost forget how cruel he can be. So I find myself rolling my eyes and walking toward the seat he saved for me.
"Are you Patrick?" I mumbled, feeling my cheeks flush from the awkward interaction with the guy sitting next to the empty seat. "Depends who’s asking," the curly-haired guy responded, flashing a mischievous half-smile. I can see why they’re friends. Fucking twelve-year-olds in the bodies of twenty-year-olds, how is that even possible?! "Don’t be a dick," we heard from down below, and I turned to see Art approaching us. "Who’s this?" the guy I didn’t know asked, as if I wasn’t standing right there—seriously, rude as hell, but whatever. "Patrick, behave," Art wasn’t joking, not even smiling, scolding him like you’d scold a misbehaving pet. "You came," Art looked me over, grinning from ear to ear. "Don’t let it go to your head, I had some free time," I muttered, sitting down. Art nodded. "Will you stay after the game?" he asked. I think it was the first time Art had to look up to talk to me. "I don’t know, I need to keep studying for statistics," I answered. "Me too," he replied. "We’ll study together," he shrugged, not giving me a chance to respond before he walked off, taking his position. Getting ready to serve.
“Interesting,” the guy next to me said. “What exactly?” I asked, rolling my eyes and still not looking at him. “You, of course,” I could hear him smiling. “What’s so interesting about me?” I kept staring into the air, unsure if I should focus on Art, who still hadn’t started playing, or the phenomenon sitting next to me. Arrogant, just like the blond guy who’s been emotionally torturing me for months. “Well, first of all, I’ve never heard of you. You’re a surprise,” he said as if it was obvious. And it stung a little, even though I knew the chances of Art talking about me were slim to none. “Maybe you’re the problem, Pete,” I muttered, snapping my fingers like I was trying to recall his name. “Patrick,” he corrected, laughing, making me look at him. He had a loud laugh, unapologetic. I knew his name was Patrick, and he knew I knew, but he still found it amusing.
“Maybe you’re the surprise,” I told him. “He doesn’t talk about you either.” I tried to sound unaffected, like everything was fine. The game started, and Art looked distracted. Maybe he always looks like that when he plays tennis- I’ve never watched his games before, he’s never invited me. “You’re supposed to watch the other side too,” Patrick whispered in my ear, causing me to roll my eyes. “Hey, Stats Girl,” I heard the familiar voice of Tashi Duncan just before she sat next to Patrick, cursing the day I decided to trust Art Donaldson and show up at his game. “The one and only,” I muttered with the best smile I could muster, feeling myself blush at the ridiculous nickname she gave me. “How’s he doing?” she asked Patrick. I wondered what their connection was. “He’s good, you know, as usual. Ice.” he replied, and they started talking quietly about the game, about Art, and about the opponent.
All I could think about was how good Art looked. He looked as if everything came to him effortlessly, as if he didn’t need to try for anything—everything just happened. And I knew that wasn’t true, I knew he worked hard, trained, ate properly, invested in his studies, and that he was probably a good grandson and a good friend. He was good to everyone except me. “Are you enjoying the game?” Tashi asked, pulling my gaze away from Art for a moment. “Huh?” I asked, not understanding what she wanted. “The game, are you enjoying it? He’s playing well,” she clarified. “Yeah, he’s really good,” I mumbled. I didn’t know what else to add to make it sound convincing. “Leave her, Tash. She doesn’t know anything about tennis, she’s his cheerleader,” Patrick answered her, snickering. I shot him a murderous look. “Patrick, don’t be rude,” Tashi said, “I’m sorry about him, he doesn’t know how to behave around people,” she turned to me, as if he wasn’t there. “It’s fine,” I replied, feeling my leg start to shake from the frustration. They went back to talking about the game, and I suddenly felt how pathetic it was, showing up to watch him play. To come and see him in his element, when he wasn’t part of my life anymore. When his friend sat next to me, mocking me to my face. “I’ll be right back…” I mumbled, walking toward the exit. I had no intention of coming back. . . . Two hours later, there were chaotic knocks on my door. “You left,” Art walked in without waiting for an invitation the second I opened the door. He looked angry. “I told you I didn’t know if I’d stay, I have an exam tom-” “Bullshit. What’s your deal? Why did you come?” He practically shouted as I closed the door. “You asked me to come,” I mumbled. “I also asked you to stay, but you left in the middle, so what was the point of you coming?” He crossed his arms. I don’t think I’d ever seen him this angry. He’s always calculated and calm. “Did he say something?” he added, asking a question. “What?” I returned, not understanding what he was talking about. “Patrick, did he say something to you? Why did you leave?” He asked again, speaking to me like I was a child. “He didn’t say anything to me. I left because I didn’t understand what I was even watching. I don’t know anything about tennis, Art, and I have an exam to study for,” I tried to justify. “Enough with that exam. I heard you studying for it yesterday, you know the material, we both know you know it.” He sighed. “I didn’t ask you to come to give tennis commentary. I asked you to come because I wanted you in the crowd. I wanted to see you in the crowd,” he continued. I could hear the effort in his voice to keep it together, to not lose control.
“Tashi was in the crowd; that should be enough for you,” I muttered, lifting my gaze to him, seeing that he was already staring at me. We had never talked like this about Tashi. She had always been this figure hovering above us. He talked about her constantly, unrelated to anything. He talked about her like she was a god. He talked about how she played tennis, about her training, how she helped him. He talked about parties he only went to because Tashi wanted to go. But I never responded in a way that would let him understand that I knew. That I wasn’t completely clueless. That I knew he was completely in love with her. That he loved her the way I loved him and that nothing would change that. “Oh, so that’s the problem. You could’ve started with that. It bothered you that Tashi was in the crowd?” He chuckled. He fucking chuckled. “Why did it bother you?” He moved closer to me, and I had no choice but to avert my gaze from his piercing blue eyes, which felt like bullets at that moment. “It didn’t bother m-” “Look at me.” He was close enough to grab my head and turn it back to face him. “I asked you a question,” he added, not letting me escape. And if there’s anyone I didn’t want to talk about, it’s Tashi Duncan.
“Why did you invite me? Why did you want me in the crowd?” “Because I wanted you to see me play,” he answered without blinking, as if it was obvious. As if there wasn’t a single question I could ask him that he wouldn’t have an answer for. “You love Tashi, Art. You lo-” His lips were on mine the second I said it. Again, there was nothing calm or calculated about this kiss. He was trying to prove that he didn’t, that I was wrong. While we both knew I was right. “You can’t say things like that, Peaches. You have no idea what you’re talking about,” he mumbled as he pulled away from me to catch a breath. “It’s okay that you love her. I’ve made peace with it. I just need you to let me move on, Art,” I sighed, trying to catch my breath again. “I don’t fucking love her.” He was angry; I could hear it in his voice. “What do I have to do to make you understand that you’re the only girl for me?” He kissed me again, and I could feel him getting hard from the way he pressed against me, causing me to moan into his mouth. “Yeah? Is this the only way I can get through to you? Is this the only way you believe me?” he asked, running his lips down my neck. "Art," it was half a moan, half a cry. My eyes closed, and as they did, I felt the weight of his hands on my shoulders, pulling me down until I was on my knees in front of him. I unbuttoned his jeans and quickly pulled down his boxers. I felt almost possessed as he sat on the edge of my bed, forcing me to crawl toward him. “There we go. Is this the only way I need to treat you for you to understand your place?” he muttered as I knelt before him again. I felt a light slap on my cheek from his cock, much more humiliating than painful. “I asked you a question,” he continued.
“N-no,” I mumbled. “Even your voice is annoying me right now,” he muttered, and without warning, I felt his cock in my mouth. He didn’t give me a moment to adjust, punishing me for leaving the match, maybe for bringing up Tashi, maybe for everything combined. You could never tell with him. I felt him hitting the back of my throat, and I tried to suppress my gag reflex with little success. Three months since he’d been in my mouth showed signs. “Shhh, you can do better than that,” he half-stroked my hair, half-held me in place by it. Then he pulled me back, leaving a trail of spit and precum. “You’re such a mess,” he chuckled, and again I felt a light slap of his cock against my cheek. I put my lips back where I knew he needed them the most, and this time, there was no gentle stroking of my hair. There was only a hand forcing me to stay in place as he used my mouth however he wanted. “Nothing to say now, huh?” he said, not very coherently, as I began to feel the warm, thick liquid spill into my throat. “Atta girl,” he patted my hair twice before letting me pull back.
I stood up slowly, trying to catch my breath. “Come here,” he mumbled, pointing to his thigh. I can’t refuse Art Donaldson, so I sat on his lap, placing my hands on his neck in an almost embrace, watching him smile. “Why is everything so hard with you?” he muttered, and his lips lazily found my neck. “I just don’t know what you want from me,” I responded, trying to focus on anything other than his lips currently on my collarbone. “I told you I love you,” he mumbled, his eyes locking onto mine. “You don’t mean that,” I shot back.
“Oh yeah?” His smirk spread across his face, and in seconds, he tossed me onto the bed as if I weighed nothing. He was above me. “For now, the one acting like a brat is you,” he said, his presence casting a shadow over me like a predator playing with its prey. “The one who left in the middle of my match is you.” His lips again left trails on my skin. I don’t even know when he took my shirt off. I felt a light bite on my nipple that made me moan. “Fuck, fa- Art,” I mumbled, unable to focus. “The one avoiding interaction with my friends is you.” His hand joined in, starting to torture my other nipple as his kisses moved further down. “I’m not,” I managed to respond, just as he easily removed my panties.
His breaths hovered over my pussy, short and hot, and if I didn’t know Art Donaldson so well, I would’ve thought he was looking up at me with almost a pleading expression. But he was in complete control. A small kiss on my lips, but not where I really needed him, made me shift my hips a little, and he chuckled- a laugh that was almost childlike. “Hey, ask nicely,” he managed to say, and I returned to the position I had before, legs around his head. “Please, Art,” I knew there was no point in arguing; he always got what he wanted in the end. “No problem, baby,” in seconds, his tongue was on my clit, starting slowly with circular motions and picking up speed with every moment. “There you go, you’re almost there,” he muttered, pulling back just before I could come. “What-” I tried to catch my breath again, craving the euphoria only he could give me at that moment. “I want to be inside you,” he answered without waiting for the full question, and in an instant, his cock filled me, making me moan. “Fuck,” I managed to mumble, feeling my eyes roll back. “Hold on a little longer, Peach,” he said, slipping his finger into my mouth like he liked to do, watching my lips close around it. “Now,” he muttered, pushing it deeper into my throat while he thrust into me, feeling me tighten around him like only an orgasm from him could make me do.
He fucked me stupid. There’s no other way to describe what I experienced, and as we both tried to catch our breath, I wondered how long it would take for him to leave this time and what his excuse would be. “Don’t you have practice tomorrow?” I quietly asked, trying to throw him off balance for a moment. “No, but I don’t know anything for the stats exam,” he admitted and chuckled. “Art! I taught you all the material yesterday,” I rolled my eyes. “I can’t concentrate when you’re teaching me.” “Then why did you ask for help?” It was my turn to laugh. “Because you’re the most beautiful when you’re in your element,” he shrugged like it was obvious. Like hearing me talk about statistics would make him fall in love with me. Like it wasn’t what I felt two and a half hours ago when he played tennis, until I almost choked on love.
“When are you going home?” he asked, probably knowing my last exam was in statistics. “I’m not,” I replied casually, and he quickly shifted positions. “Why the hell not?” he asked, and I saw a small wrinkle form between his eyebrows. “It’s no big deal, Donaldson,” I chuckled, “I picked up extra shifts, and I have a paper to work on. Speaking of shifts, I need to get ready for mine.” I added as I checked the time. He watched me as I walked around the room, trying to decide if I smelled too much like sex to push the shower until after work. “Are you coming to the study marathon tomorrow before the exam?” he asked, starting to get dressed too. “Of course,” I looked at him like he was crazy. “Don’t think about skipping it, Art. You need it,” I said, knowing exactly who I was dealing with. “Okay, Mom,” his voice was amused, and I rolled my eyes, looking at him for another moment. We don’t get too many moments like these. Almost domestic. Almost mine.
"Hey, we're good, right?" he suddenly asked, holding my hand and not letting me continue running around the room. "Yeah, Art, everything's fine," I smiled half-heartedly, feeling a bit embarrassed. "Because I don't want another two months like these," he muttered, and I knew it was hard for him to admit. It was hard for him to say that the past two months had been strange, to say the least. Difficult, to be honest. "Me neither." I nodded at him. "When are you flying home?" I asked as we were both already outside the door, after I had locked it. "Four hours after the exam, I’m supposed to be on a flight," he chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck. "Wow, two weeks at home, excited?" I asked. "Not that much, mostly glad I get to visit my grandma. She follows my matches with her entire retirement home, it’s a big deal for her." "Ooooh, you've got fans, Donaldson?" I joked. "You know I do," he replied. "Seriously though, why aren’t you going home?" he added. "It’s not that deep, just an opportunity to make some extra money. Plus, my mom and I aren’t in the best place right now," I shrugged, as if it wasn’t a big deal. "Don’t you miss home?" he asked. "Not like most people probably do," I smiled at him. "I hate it when you smile like that," he said and suddenly stopped. "How?" I asked, looking at him as if he were crazy. "Without teeth. That’s your fake smile," he replied without blinking, as if it were strange that I was even asking. "I didn’t think you noticed," I mumbled. And I really didn’t think there was a possibility that Art Donaldson paid attention to details that, until now, I thought only I noticed about him. "I’ll see you tomorrow at the marathon?" he asked when we reached the point where I was supposed to head to the cafeteria and he to his dorm. "Don’t be late," I ordered, giving his face a small push, watching him chuckle and walk away from me. . . .
The next morning, I woke up with the worst headache I’d ever had in my life. I felt my nose was blocked, and I knew for sure I had a fever, though I had no way to measure it. 'Where are you?' -A-
'Sick, I’ll come for the exam' -(Y/N)-
'What’s wrong with you?' -A- I didn’t respond to that message, preferring to sleep a bit more before waking up for the statistics exam.
I got in the shower, and when I got out, I looked at myself in the mirror, seeing my flushed cheeks as a contrast to my pale face. There was no mistaking it when you looked at me- I wasn’t at my best. The auditorium was partially full when I entered, people chatting among themselves, and I looked around, seeing Art already staring at me before he approached, getting ahead of Janet, who shot me a questioning glance. "Well, you look like shit," he stated, placing his hand on my forehead. "Fuck, Peaches, you’re burning up," he muttered, looking at me with an almost angry expression. "How did you manage to start dying in the minute and a half I left you alone?" he said. "I’m talented, Donaldson. Can you not yell? My head hurts," I mumbled, sitting in the empty seat I found.
The exam went smoothly and ended faster than it began. I physically couldn’t wait for Art to finish, so I texted him, hoping he’d enjoy his time at home, and I went to sleep. Half an hour later, there was a knock at my door, chaotic like the one from the day before. "Hey," he muttered. "You’ll miss your flight," I replied, running a tired hand over my eyes. "I’m not flying," he said quickly. "What?" I asked, not understanding what he was talking about, seeing him take off his shirt and pants, left only in his boxers. "Art, I physically can’t have sex," I chuckled, not understanding what was happening. "We’re going to sleep," he declared, pulling me toward him, leaving me no choice but to get into bed next to him. "Your bed’s worse than mine. Tomorrow we’ll sleep at my dorm," he stated.
"You're going to get sick too" I rolled my eyes, "Why aren’t you going home?" I asked quietly, while his hand traced shapes on my shoulder. "It felt weird going home when you’re sick and staying here," he replied, not ashamed for a second. "Your grandma must be disappointed," I mumbled. "I told her my girlfriend is sick," he said. I wanted so badly to see his face, but I had my back to him. "She must’ve been surprised you have a girlfriend," I said the first thing that came to mind, feeling my heart race. "Not at all, I talk to her about you all the time."
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So here it is. The second part I didn't plan. Hope you like it even tho I wrote half of it while being super sick and didn't check my own grammar at all, so bear with me (a reminder: English is not my first language). Let me know what you think. It's always the best part. Also, I think I'm up for some requests. Let's see what we can come up with. Love you guys
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rowretro · 3 months ago
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♡Warnings: slapping, idk what else.
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Saturday morning, 11am. Rowan was still deep asleep lost in her strange dreamland. She never wasted her mornings waking up early like a positive healthy person who studies at 6am and gets on her parents good side. She simply can't. Why waste the only 2 days you get to sleep and take a peaceful break on being productive?
Compared to the 5 days she wakes up early, zooming around to freshen up, doing her makeup and going to school, especially these recent days as exams are nearing, and the stress starts taking a toll on her feeble state. 
That's right, exam season, the season I must say all students dread it's insane how a paper of useless questions that won't even be helpful in the future, can cause her to cry, lash out at her laptop every time it takes a while to load, and cause her to lose weight at an unhealthy cost. 
She wasn't going to wake herself up the one time she was sleeping soundly when all these nights she spent cramming and revising, highlighting notes, and trying to solve confuzzling formulas. She preferred her zombie apocalypse dream, where she was eating marshmallows in a rundown building's attic.
"Row! it's 11:47 get your ass up!" Jungwon yelled, no answer "Rowan. You'll have plenty of time to sleep later- we need to go to the mall" Jungwon reasoned as he softly opened the door, peeking in, hoping he's not walking in on anything awkward. To his luck she was buried under her thick duvet, snuggled up against another pillow, and sound asleep.
There's only one way to get her to wake up and come downstairs, all dressed and ready to go outside. "Row- get your fucking ass up now! Heeseung is waking up!"Jungwon finally said as he shut the door of her room, grinning mischievously as he heard her get up, rushing about here and there.
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"I'm ready let's go-" Rowan froze mid sentence as she saw Heeseung sitting on the sofa, Newspaper at hand, Steaming hot tea, in the delicate, expensive teacup on the table before him. He eyed her up and down, eyebrows scrunched at the centre, s if scrutinizing her look.
Hee tended to be pretty protective, of course he was all for her style and love for fashion, but sometimes, all he could see was his little baby sister. Row bit her lip, nervous, hoping she didn't have to change. she was wearing a pretty tight pink top, flounce sleeves with a nice white ribbon in the centre, a rather ballet core top, with a short white skirt to match.
"Where are you off to?" he asked coldly, eyes piercing into her as he studied her makeup, not too natural, heavy on the eyes, visible manga lashes, so definitely not a date. "Jungwon, and I have to buy a few things at the mall-" she said as she turned to Jungwon who just grabbed his car keys. 
Heeseung nodded as he turned to Jungwon "Alright. take care, be back by 6 Won, we have a meeting at 6:30." Heeseung simply said as Jungwon smiled saying ok as he led Rowan out the door.
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Sunghoon hummed to himself as he dried his hair, white t shirt somewhat sticking to his abs, and a nice dark denim pair of jeans that suited his stature very well, practically everything suits him. He smiled to himself as he sprayed a crazy amount of deodorant around himself. 
"ma im heading out with the boys ill be back very late don't know when so don't worry about me ok?" he said as he was about to walk out the building "Why would I worry about you?! im more worried about your sister." she said as Sunghoon playfully pouted "Favouritism much.... "
"No it's not like that... Sunghoon your sister's been getting bullied the past week... since she's joined high school, it's one of those things I was worried about... can't you go ask her what's wrong? like I don't know solve her little issue?" She asked as Sunghoon groaned.
He didn't defy. He couldn't, he'd feel guilty anytime he didn't do something his mother wanted, she wasn't strict or anything, just... she's his mom after all.  "Oi. tell me who he or she or they is." Sunghoon said as he sat beside his sister. Siyeon frowned, taking off her ear piece, as she folded the page.
"Why do you suddenly care?" she asked as Sunghoon shrugged "You're my sister- and I have the power to scare people so just tell me-" he said as the girl rolled her eyes "Fine... her name's Leiko, she's in a few classes above me and she thinks im going after her man- whoever he is... she often wears pink and hangs out at the Hera mall on Saturdays-" She added, waving around some cash as Sunghoon narrowed his eyes.
"give me a description and your problem will be solved within seconds. That girl won't even look in your direction my dear sister~" Sunghoon said with a smile as Siyeon smirked "Black hair, around 5'2 or something, she's probably wearing pink, and she'll most definitely stand out in a crowd." she said as Sunghoon rushed off.
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"You wait here- I'm going to head to the men's room quickly kay?" Jungwon said as Rowan nodded. She stood by a bench, smiling as she admired her newly done nails. The school wasn't too keen on makeup and nails, but her brother's Heeseung so the teachers don't care. Row softly flicked the dangling heart charm on her nail as she could see a dark-haired, charming male heading her way.
She's seen plenty pretty boys before, never one this pretty. Dark, perfect eyes, perfect jawline, plump pink lips, and a very pretty nose, a few moles here and there. Then she realized he was actually heading in her direction. Stopping right before her, his glare piercing, as she froze in her spot.
Just like that. One hard, stinging slap around her face, his big watch making it all the more painful. Sunghoon didn't even have the slap planned when he was going to threaten the said girl... he just felt so... mad. The girl stumbled back, her heels not having mercy on her balance. 
"Come near my sister again and I swear you'll never see the end of this." Sunghoon said as Rowan gasped, annoyed, mad, confused. Before she could even ask, the male had already walked off. Who's sister? why? what did she do? What the fuck? "Fuck Row- your face... who the fuck did this to you?" Jungwon asked, noticing the reddened mark on her face "Let's just go home..." she said, exhausted.
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honeyhotteoks · 2 years ago
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HOLD ON, HOLD ON, HOLD ON, HOLD TF ONNNN. i’m here in my dorm during easter break, trying to get my life together before exam season. going about my day after sending an appreciation ask to my lovely baby chai to come back to ita2 asks flooding her blog??? if i don’t say that i’m ITCHING in my fucking sleep for this to be released idk if y’all would take my excitement for these wishes to come true SERIOUSLY.
first off!! vacation ot8 scene with our lovely mc?? i’m sorry but now it’s a MUST. argue with the wall! i would also like to add that i’m comfortable not having all members rail her the same day since it’s not realistic. nsfw!!! + tmi (?) idk about y’all but more than 3 orgasms in a row would deffo make me pass out. not saying this from exact experience but y’know… just putting things into perspective hehe. on top of that, i’m not sure if all the boys have a voyeurism kink like someone said but um… who knows, y’know?
second in line, mingi having a whole jerk off scene… i’m vouching for that!!! i’ve been rewatching my concert vids from back in feb and caught myself loosing my shit to mingi dancing during ‘fireworks (i’m the one) remix ver.’ in addition to yuyu coming for my life right after i lost half my vocal chords to mr. fix on himself. honestly, both my tall boys were forcing my sanity leave the mf chat in a feather passive aggressive way.
it’s worth noting that i agree with the anon that is mingi biased. in the fandom, i’ve only seen mingi being depicted as either a fuck boy or himbo. although i’m san biased, i cannot stand the way this got picked up and ran with. i agree with mingi anon because mingi is a quiet and multi-layered person. i think it has to do with some fans being young or not able to detach his stage persona to his individual self. this goes for all members.
i’d love to mention how now i want yungi to have a sober, steamy session with mc in tnt. is it weird that i would probably want mingi to take pics of the whole thing cuz i find it hot? i, irl, would NEVER and i mean NEVER do such things cuz i’m super paranoid myself. however coma, it doesn’t take away from the fact that it’s a turn on for me and i would love to see it depicted in the beautiful world of the tnt series. also i’m not trying to ironically refer to ita.
this perfectly segues into the whole dubcon/noncon point i wanted to add my 2 cents in. i have to agree with what an anon and chai already mentioned about this topic. for me, the clear difference from noncon and my depiction of real consent is having an actual sober conversation about the topic prior to any sexual activities. all parties being of age (meaning an adult and legally responsible for their own actions). no peer pressure involved and everything, if not thoroughly, well discussed. next stage would be incorporating and maintaining, either, an all stopping safe word or a clear colour system throughout any sort of sexual activity. it’s about keeping everyone happy and safe so it is definitely a must. next, trust is key to make it work. i feel like you require a certain amount of trust in the other parties involved to actually enjoy and feed into some fantasies. now, the only setting that this would work in is an established relationship involving all parties. this cannot be on a whim and it eliminates most of the huge risky variables that could make anything go wrong. i just don’t see myself reading or writing anything that steps outside of what i’ve mentioned.
i want to point out that some of the kinks that i’ve mostly seen in this community are common paraphilia. for example, voyeurism is observing private activities of unaware individuals, exhibitionism is exposure of genitals to strangers. note how in a realistic situation outside of fantasy, e.g, in a news article or part of daily gossip, these paraphilia would probably be shunned upon. an example: guy A watches couple B having sex in a public restroom. first, guy A is showing clear traits of voyeurism by watching couple B without them knowing. similarly, couple B is showing clear traits of exhibitionism by having sexual intercourse in a public space. if you read about this online or you heard people at work discussing it, wouldn’t it make you uncomfortable? guy A is weirdo for watching, right? couple B shouldn’t be fucking in front of strangers, right? of course, like i just did above, with certain rules + desires + circumstances added to these paraphilia it wouldn’t sound as bad and be almost acceptable, e.g, Hongjoong watches you and Seonghwa have sex in the office’s restroom after discussing your boundaries at home yesterday. there is an established polyamorous relationship going on, rules/boundaries in place and the individuals involved are of age. isn’t this more appealing/okay although it’s still paraphilia? come on, think about it.
now for the hardest part to grasp. i, personally, like dubcon/somnophilia. i’m an adult and i know exactly what it entails. to be more transparent, i like being really submissive, degradation and praise, pet names such as good girl, pretty girl, doll, princess, kitten, you name it, daddy kink, corruption kink, impact play and all of that good stuff. now, in an established relationship scenario where boundaries have been spoke about and colour system has been depicted, I, me, myself would be perfectly okay and even turned on by my male partner touching me in my sleep. put into play all my kinks, him being trusting, respectful and caring of me. with us both being of age then it’s a green light for me. AGAIN, personally. this is not to represent anybody else’s thoughts on the same matter.
so, in order to fully understand the extent of what is and isn’t consenting is as grey as other kinks with the hard exception of minors being involved. everything i mentioned HAS to involve able to consent adults, please don’t misunderstand me.
i hope this isn’t too much to digest but this made me really think about my own kinks and turn ons.
please for the love of god, i’m not speaking for chai in anyway!! do not twist my words pretty please🥺
other than that have a good day everyone!! and chai you’re always loved. take care and remember to drink water. mwah😘
WAIT HI HELLO - welcome to your kink manifesto i love it. I have so many thoughts and i'm going to go in order lol:
ITA2 / Run the train --- Yeah, I honestly think in real life there's absolutely zero chance of this happening. Running the train / gangbangs in general are like..... not common despite what porn would lead people to believe and i don't think most people would be willing. that being said...... this is fiction and this is fun so i'm saying screw it. i also feel like what a writing challenge..... how will i actually be able to describe nine different people getting it on??? only time will tell lmao
fully heard on mingi and yunho, hence me going feral and writing tnt and i don't want to spoil too much about that fic, but i'm heavily nodding along on the sober steamy scene if you know what i mean
on the dubcon/noncon conversation i totally agree, and since you kind of laid out so many good points, i wanted to add some of my own opinion to the mix since i think you did a great job of breaking out what does and doesn't equal good consent and what fantasy headspace is for. so:
in my opinion, it's perfectly acceptable and understandable to have a noncon kink, somno or more than that potentially. i've seen a lot of discourse in the fic community over the years and the idea of noncon or even straight up r*pe play always gets discussed and often times there's this polarized opinion of like "if you read/write this, you're an awful person". but if you actually consider consensual conversations with respect to those kinks.... isn't this just roleplay? for example, in my hwa fic 'his sweet girl' they have a fully pre-defined conversation about somno, so boundaries are clear and the color system is incorporated. they're of age, everyone's happy and getting off, and for me, that's perfectly acceptable and consensual.
i've also read fic in this fandom and outside of it where it's kind of a hunter/prey vibe or even straight up home invasion, but at the end of the fic there's usually a moment where both parties check in with each other, discuss how it was consensual, etc. in the same vein as what you're saying with voyeurism. don't even get me started on yandere, i could write a whole novel just about that. and while i haven't written something like this myself, i've certainly read it, and i think it's completely fine to read/write, particularly when the consent is handled well.
however, i'll go so far as to say noncon that is true noncon is also okay to read/write. however, this is not something i am comfortable writing and will never write. i think if someone is writing that, it needs to be more than explicitly called out in the tags and warnings because that could be beyond triggering content for some readers. but honestly, that's the great thing about fic. there's something for everyone, and as long as fic writers are being transparent in their work and tags, and fic readers are being responsible to only consume content they feel safe with, everyone is okay.
i also think there's something to be said for what gets you off/what you like in fantasy, and what you like in real life. i'll be completely honest, i've read a lot of noncon in my life and i'm perfectly fine with it. does that mean i want to experience that with an intimate partner? absolutely fucking not, but sometimes that smut hits for me. i write things like pet play, harder bdsm concepts, or even literally running the train...... do i find it hot and amazing in fantasy? yes. do i do all of this in my personal life and would i want to? probably not. and to be clear, that's me and my personal boundary, but i think it's important to have conversations about this line between fantasy space and real life when it comes to smut.
the biggest thing that i'll say is to reiterate your point about consenting adults. i could not agree more there. i think playing around with 'harder' kinks and taboos is fine as long as everyone is safe and consenting and OF AGE.
i would also say this is important when consuming fic. i'm sure that there are minors reading my fic, i cannot control what everyone on the internet does. i read and wrote a lot of fic as a minor, including smut, and it wasn't very good... but i was a young person exploring my understanding of sex and sexuality. i get it. however, i am not comfortable in any way engaging on these conversations with minors nor do i want to know if they're reading my fic. again, i'd prefer it if you didn't but i can't control who interacts with things i post on a public platform, i can only hope i'm being a safe writer for everyone and that my readers are reading responsibly.
for me, even though this is 'just fanfiction', i really believe that as a writer i have a responsibility to be transparent and safe for readers. this is why i always ask if i miss tags, and want to have conversations like this. i spent way too many years as a sexually repressed evangelical christian shamefully trying to understand sex, sexuality, and desire to keep quiet now. i personally lived in an environment that was not emotionally safe, and i really deeply believe that even with something as silly as fanfiction, we have an opportunity to be better.
anyways, sorry that i basically used your manifesto of an ask to have my own tmi manifesto, but hey, here we are. if anyone has any thoughts on this, i'm more than happy to continue the dialogue. i went to school for literature so any time i get to nerd out about writing and big social concepts, i'm in my happy place.
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chaoticbitchywitch · 6 months ago
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I have a lot going on and I really jus need to organize my thoughts. If you read this and have any advice I'd love to hear it 🥰
Issue One: My Grades
My grades are pretty important to me, but I missed a lot of school all in a row bc of TSA and Robotics. I currently have 4 C's, 1 B, and 3 A's but I want to at the v least have all A's and B's. I have a two options.
1. Focus on my lowest grades and jus accept B's so I don't kill my mental health
2. Kill my mental health (more) and try to get as many all the way up to A's.
But wait! There's more!
Issue Two: My Activities
I'm in robotics, TSA (Technology Student Association) and band.
My band director is leaving. Tomorrow is the teacher appreciation assembly and some of the band is playing a piece for her, but I was planning on doing homework instead of going to the assembly. I can either go to the library or go to the assembly. I don't wanna go to the assembly but I wanna play for my director bc she means a lot to me. I might be able to leave after but idk fs.
In robotics, we're preparing for next season and the state comp that we're hosting. There's really not much going on there rn at least, but the season jus finished.
In TSA, I made nationals in two events so I have that in June. I need to prepare for the events, but it's kinda stressful.
Band is the biggest activity rn obviously, but the others are still important. And I have all my homework and studying for tests still. And that brings be to my third issue.
Issue Three: Tests, Exams and Finals
I'm in AP US History, and that exam is 10 May, but I don't feel prepared at all. I have Algebra II, Chemistry and ELA EoC's that I have to study for. I have finals in Principles of Engineering, Civil Engineering and Architecture and Spanish. Both language courses are the most difficult for me, but I also have higher priorities (the more impactful ones like the AP exam, etc) that I would rather focus on. I don't have time to study for everything.
Issue Four: Family Bullshit
Since Feb, there's been some issues w my dad. I'm not gonna go into a lot of detail but I've been at my grandparents house. It's been really difficult mentally, emotionally and physically. It's been affecting my grades a lot and I haven't been able to sleep.
Issue Five: Summer
I've been wanting to apply to a new job so I get paid $14 or $15 rather than $12.80 but my mom is v against me working there bc it's farther away than where I currently work, it would be way more enjoyable. A few of my friends work there and the pay is better, so idrc that it's 15 minutes farther or sum like that. I also don't like the people I currently work w and there's a lot of drama (drugs at work (I'm a life guard why are you high at work thats actually fucking stupid), relationships and sex and cheating (as you'd expect from a job filled w high schoolers), people not doing their job, etc.) I jus think it would be a better work environment.
The other problem is summer school. I'm gonna be doing pre calc over the summer bc I wanna take calc next year so I can take higher level physics my senior year. One of my friends also did that last summer and he said it was hell and moved really fast, so I'm kinda worried abt that. He also said it wouldn't leave a whole lot of time for other things, which I believe. Idk I'm jus stressed abt it.
So yeahhhh. I've been having a lot of fun recently. I'm hella stressed and idk what to do. Yayyy. Love my life.
Anyway, if you're still here, thank you for reading. If you have any advice, I'd love to hear it 🥰🥰
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happilylovingchaos · 3 months ago
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Thank you for having me @lonestar-s5countdown! Also tagging @decafdino @littlemissmarianna @alrightbuckaroo
1) I have a few Found Family moments I like from each season. Some of them are already mentioned, but I think there are a few not mentioned that I liked:
Season 1: Near-hijabgate (1x03), Mateo’s firefighter exam study montage (1x06), Paul’s “good ol’ boys” argument to Judd (1x07) and TK’s moment of clarity/ group hug (1x10)
Season 2: Cancer remission party (2x02– we get only a second of Tim back-patting but fuck hindsight I HAVE FEELS), the commemoration ambulance for Tim (2x07), the ice cream party (2x10), Catan game (2x11), and the station cleanup (2x14, Billy Tyson and all).
Season 3: The plane landing montage with everyone watching and worrying for Owen and TK (3x08, including the transitions btwn 2017 and 2022), Paul’s CPAT (3x10), and the Nanteo intervention (3x17).
Season 4: Seeing off Marjan (4x05), Paul’s basketball game (4x07), Marjan’s date chaperoning (4x12), the short firefighter vs paramedic row (4x16), and the Reyes-Strand debate (4x18, even tho it’s bts).
2) TK and Mateo, Owen and Judd, Nancy with literally either Paul or Marjan. Considering all the storyline developments and the Grace-shaped hole in the story, I would like Owen and Judd to lean on each other for moral support. This time, let TK in on some of these talks, though?
3) It’d be a draw between Paul, Nancy, Judd and Mateo. But for the most part, I’d probably be a bit too reserved or shy-seeming to approach anyone.
4) I am by nature an introversion-leaning ambivert— honestly, I would alternate between the Tarloft and the Ryder house for the game nights and stay for the camaraderie. The board games/ trivias/ video games? Icing, confetti, gravy, apertifs. ☺️
5) It’d be interesting to see if Wyatt got arrested again in some AU where he stayed in college but still became discontent enough to accompany a bad crowd for (slightly) longer than in canon. Maybe even long enough to be strong-armed into becoming a getaway driver, or he takes over as designated driver at a bar hop gone nuts. I could def see Carlos experiencing deja vu if he ran into and processed Wyatt (he’d probably have had the least to drink— I’d hc him as either having such a low alcohol tolerance that he only had less than half of an alcoholic drink or none, and his breathalyzer count was lower than the rest of the gang), and Judd/ Grace couldn’t pick him up in time. So maybe not bail so much as a supremely awkward first meeting. And Wyatt facing painful disappointment from all three of his found family members (TK can relate hard). And Carlos would never let himself live down the fact that he’s had to arrest four people in his entire social circle (Wyatt is kind of an outlier to him but still. Ouch).
For the first of our weekly countdown tag games, we have some Found Family-themed questions!
(1) What is your favorite 911 Lone Star Found Family moment?
(2) Which platonic pairing/friendship dynamic are you most looking forward to seeing again in season 5?
(3) If you could pick one Lone Star character to be friends with, who would you choose?
(4) Which would you rather attend: Catan night at the loft or game night at the Ryder house?
(5) A character of your choice ends up in jail. Who would they call to bail them out (assuming their romantic partner, parent, and/or child didn't pick up)?
Answer the questions and tag some more people to play! Make sure to tag @lonestar-s5countdown so we don't miss your answers!
Open tag, but also tagging:
@lemonlyman-dotcom @strandnreyes @she-walked-away @ladytessa74 @herefortarlos
@thisbuildinghasfeelings @paperstorm @heartstringsduet @alrightbuckaroo @happilylovingchaos
@fifthrideroftheapocalypse @literateowl @birdclowns @nancys-braids @emsprovisions
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shanepatricklagrange · 2 years ago
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Time Travel
Down the Rabbit Hole of Time: Part One By Shane Patrick LaGrangeThe ability to travel through Time. It has been my passion. since Star Trek. The original series and the episode, City on the Edge of Forever. I am sure you have seen them. I certainly have. The stories on the Google Feed about travelers going back into the pat and forgetting items. Entertaining, but no. I say forget that. I am talking about the real aspects behind jumping through time; not the recent photoshopping nonsense about leaving a modern Smart phone behind or sitting leisurely on the grass in modern clothes. Not to mention Conspiracy Theories (also my passion), about the CIA involvement. Which is possible. If it is not, then prove it. send me back to Dallas, November 22, 1963, shortly after 11 am. Until then, moving on. The actual workings of a Time Machine are presented as linear by scientists. H.G. Wells: Time Machine, back to the Future films. I wish I could go back to the days of Blockbusters; Family Video). There is a movie that I only saw once, it could tie in well to this. Anyway, one particularly important thing to consider, the rotation of the earth prior to the traveler leaving. The Earth does move if everything is not locked. . .. well, millions of possibilities in dying. Science likes the Linear approach. They believe the river of time runs smooth. I believe otherwise. Time is a raging river of potential risks. If the CIA, military does not have their ducks in a row, we might end of serving the Dark God, Cthulhu., or something out of The Mist. For example, the best one: Men in Black 2. In which K dies back on July 15, 1969. If this were a series, would J still be a member of MIB? No, he would still be James, NYPD. Plot: James would have these recurring feeling and dreams that does not jell with him. Following his gut, He manages to track down MIB Headquarters; breaks in and by the end of the first season, manages to convince the agency, that he is telling the truth before the eye exam. Now, he is flying off a building at a fast rate of speed before he well, leaps. It the coming back (for the sake of editing, the scene was deleted, perhaps). Any case, coming back, he would be traveling at the same velocity as he left. As Leonard Nimoy said in Fringe, Physic is a Bitch. Going back to the photoshopped pictures, I wonder. Does Time come with a safety switch. This series is a bit old but a favorite. Voyagers. This is a bout a time traveler, named Phineas Bogg and his young helper, Jeffery. In episode five “Worlds Apart, the Omni is worn out Bogg and Jeffery become separated. Jeffery meets and helps Thomas Alva Edison with the light bulb. In return, he dismantles the Omni; though he is unable to discovers how it works, he manages to repair it. which leads to the question. Is the main Timeline protected? If one were to go back, Kill Hitler and save the Kennedy brothers. I imagine the timeline would try and compensate. How, we do not know. Shunt the timeline into another branch protecting the main universe, and that goes into Einstein Parallel universe. Thousands of Earths based on the decisions we make. Then we have the future. The future is based on the templates of today. Go one day, wait a couple of weeks; it could be completely different. Thanks for reading. I will try and not be late in futures references.
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joyfulhopelox · 3 years ago
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"I've never cried over a broken dryer before"- "and you better not start now"
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Part 1 | Part 2
A/N: got nothing to say for myself really, just listened to a song, the idea hit me and i haven't written anything non science related in a decade so i gave it another go....that being said i realised i am awful at emotions lol. Side note i am from the UK so if some things seem off i apologise
Copyrights @joyfulhopelox
Pairing: Jungkook x reader (College!AU/ University!AU)
Warnings: ? mentions of skin? terrible fluff and flirting attempts
Word count: idk, it would not stop ~4k
A bop. A bop and some alcohol. That is all you needed after a long tiring week of studying for finals and cramming for your practical assessments. This week had been the last week of exam season and you were more than grateful that it had ended. You did not particularly care about how you’ve done on the assessments. That was not your present self’s problem, that was something for future you to worry about. Presently you just wanted to take a nap and head out with your girlfriends on a night out to just dance and drink all the stress away.
You weren’t a drinker, not by a long shot. You barely touched alcohol once or twice a month, and that happened mainly when you would have a get together with your friends. It was hard not to get sucked in when everything around you was so loud and chaotic it made you want to be part of the chaos not just an observer. You’ve done the whole ‘being sober whilst your friends got drunk’ and you swore to yourself it would never happen again. Funny how nights out looked disgusting and cliche when you were actually awake to witness them. From the group who ended up dancing on the tables, to the group who dispersed to hunt for one night stands, to the group who decided to pass out at the bar or in the toilets and then you, the sober one left to pick everyone up and send them back home safely and make sure than no one got into a fight. You sometimes wondered how the hell you got home alright when you ended up actually drinking on these nights out as none of your friends seemed willing to stay sober and watch over you. For once, you were not going to question your luck and just roll with it.
Before you settled for a nap though you knew you had to go downstairs to do your washing. Being a student during exam season meant you were surviving on microwavable food, lots of caffeine, sugar in all sorts of forms and that your tiny dorm room looked as if a hurricane has passed through it with dirty clothes all over the place and bedding that has been left unwashed for at least 2 weeks. You felt disgusting and unfortunately the neat freak in you kicked in, unsuppressed anymore by your pre-exam anxiety. With a sigh you started undoing your bedsheets and stashing them in a basket along with other bits and pieces of clothes. Making sure that you got your laundry detergent and your key card you started lugging the basket out of your room praying to the Gods that the lift was not broken.
Living on the 8th floor had its perks, but not when you were in a sleep deprived hurry. All you could do is check the numbers going down to the lower ground hoping that the lift would not stop at any other floor. But of course your luck would run out, on 3rd floor the lift slowed down and stopped, making you release an angry huff. ‘Of course it would’ you muttered to yourself as the doors opened only to reveal a tall men impatiently tapping his foot. Huffing he too got into the elevator making you aware of his stature. He may have not been as tall as some of the men you’ve seen but he was clearly working out as his muscles made him look way broader than his stature permitted. A gym rat, you rolled your eyes and tried to move the laundry bag and yourself into the corner, the space feeling too cramped for your liking. The dragging sound of the bag made the person turn around and give you a curious glance which you dismissed quickly. You weren’t interested in conversing with strangers on a normal basis let alone a gym rat. Nothing against them, you just had nothing in common and your tired brain did not want to make up a polite small talk.
‘Lower ground?’ the person asked you, surprisingly the voice was soft and clear, something you had not expected of him. It made you glance at him, ‘yeah’ you nodded after composing yourself. The person nodded making their long bangs fall into their eyes which prompted the next two surprises for you; in an attempt to settle his bangs out of his face he not only revealed a muscular defined arm which you’d have to admit was kind of attractive- you’d have to be blind not to notice, but also an array of random tattoos all over his arm and hand. The other surprise hit you a moment later after you realised you’ve been staring at him for a second too long and you sniffed and turned your face away. The smell of alcohol was coming off of him strongly as if he’s been drinking for a few days straight and his pores exuded it. It took you all you had to not cough. Frat boy, gym rat- this guy was ticking all the ‘no no’ boxes and so regardless of how good looking he was he did not deserve second thoughts.
Your prayers being answered, you reached lower ground quicker than expected and you prepared yourself to rush out of the lift. However, the clothes basket was heavier than you’d thought so instead of a swift exit like you’ve planned, you closely resembled Santa dragging his toy sack.
‘Would you like some help with that?’ the guy who’d turned around and observed you amusedly as you struggled extended a hand in your direction. You huffed and dropped the basket on the floor and couldn’t help but notice the basket he held in one hand and how the effort made his muscles and veiny arms that much more noticeable. Hot.
‘’S all good thanks’ however, you were not going to accept his help. You just wanted to get these damn clothes in the wash so you could go and nap away the remainder of your post exam stress. The guy held your gaze for a second too long before he raised an eyebrow and looked unconvincingly at your basket and your face, which was red by now you’d presume. Then shrugging he carried on walking towards the laundry room getting further and further out of your view, and you could have sworn there was an extra spring in his step. That fucker.
After monumental efforts you managed to drag everything to the laundry room only to notice that it had been left propped open by an empty bottle. Entering with difficulty you made your way to the closest washer available and dropped the laundry basket on the floor with a relieved sigh. Bending down to start putting your clothes in, you could definitely hear a snicker behind you. Whas that….? Of course it was, you were the only two souls in there. Everyone else was probably either enjoying some much needed sleep or partying the evening away already. Deciding to ignore him you continued to pile your clothes into the machine and soon enough you got distracted so much so that you did not realise you had started humming.
‘Nice voice you got there, but do both of us a favour, leave it for when you’re on your own will you?’ another snicker from behind. Flustered you whipped around, ‘what?’ his gaze on you held a smouldering effect making you feel as if you were pinned down by just its sheer force. His dark eyes, whilst amused, were also narrowed on your form as if commanding you to listen to what he was saying. Your breath hitched and as much as you’d tried to shrug off the feeling and the temptation to not listen to him and turn around, you found yourself unable to. Trying to hold his gaze your eyes wavered for a split second when the tip of his tongue peeked out from between his lips to wet the lower one. A gesture so fleeting, done as if by habit, but paired with the intense gaze it had your throat constrict and your instincts had been to follow his moves, your own tongue coming out to lick your own suddenly dry lips.
Had you intended to do this to toy with him? No. Has it worked? Judging by the way his eyes travelled slowly and purposefully down your face towards your lips, you could swear it has. Refusing to give him more vulnerability than that you turned around with tremendous efforts and continued pilling clothes into the washer completely missing the way he stared at your ass that was now on display. Biting his lip he gave you another once over before returning to his own washing.
You couldn’t help to glance his way every time you would turn around to pick up more clothes out of the basket. He was sporting a concentrated face, his lower lip caught between his teeth, his broad shoulders and the way his arm muscles were defined by the effort were making you breathless. However, what made your head spin and your heart to skip too many beats for it to be healthy was what happened next. You blame your bad luck - or good luck- for glancing at him only to catch him grab his shirt and give it a tentative sniff and a shrug. So he knew he reeked, but your snicker turned into a hiccup as soon as he had grabbed the hem of his shirt and pulled it over his head.
Normally a situation like this wouldn’t phase you, you have seen plenty of men naked. But this one, this one was a special one. His bunny like features, defined nose bridge, jawline and floppy but rugged hair were a complete contrast to his defined jawline and...oh lord….were those six or eight abs??
‘What in the name of abs are you doing?’ sputtering you turned to fully face him. What a mistake. He did the same so now you had a full frontal view, first row, VIP seat to his naked upper body. That was definitely a six abs package. Shrugging, which by lord made everything tense up in ways you did not need to see, he threw the longsleeve into the wash and slammed it shut. All that did not take more than 5 seconds but to you, it seemed like a slowed down eternity in which your eyes got a good view of a muscular anatomy.
‘What, it’s dirty and i’m doing my washing?’ he stated as if it was plain as day and absolutely normal to get naked in the laundry room.’In the name of abs? Should i be calling you a peeping Tom?’ A slow forming smirk that made him look dangerously mischievous made its way onto his face.
‘Pffft, what? I said in the name of gods, what are you on about? Why would I be looking at you, whilst you think it’s perfectly fine to strip in a public place??’ he laughed at your clear distress but chose to not to mention your choice of words. ‘Hardly public is it? There’s just you and i in here’ he rebutted whilst turning around to scan his laundry card onto the machine and pressed start. You scoffed indignantly, ‘what am i chopped liver? I’m not goddamn blind’ you mumbled, not for his ears but instead chose to say out loud, ‘what about the poor souls who will see you in the lift back up? Is that not a public place?’
Unbeknownst to you he had clearly heard your previous statement, his smirk once again widening, so you had actually been looking. Good. Clearing his throat he put on as much of a serious face as he could ‘I think it’s unfair to call them poor, this is not cheap accommodation, if they live here it is clear that they are anything but poor’ he knew what you’d meant by poor, but just the annoyed tick in your eyebrow that appeared at his statement was worth it. Choosing to stay silent instead of taking the bait, you returned to your laundry. Only to curse out loud- you had finished it and upon scouring your belongings haphazardly you realised your card was missing. Vaguely remembering you had only taken your room card you groaned, this was not how you’d intended to spend your afternoon before the party.
Without a second’s notice, a tattooed hand with a card appeared before your eyes and the washing machine burst to life. Indignantly you whipped your head around to look at the owner of said hand, ‘what are you doing?’ only to come face to face with the end of a defined collarbone and jawline. And by all that is saintfully just, the line of his throat was just as attractive as the whole of the man. Being this close to him rendered you absolutely useless, jumbled thoughts ranging from ‘i need to pay him back’ to ‘what is he even doing’ to settle in the end to a single thought which you also voiced out loud without even thinking. ‘Your moles are pretty’. You had managed to get past the expanse of his neck to the outline of his lower lip when you noticed his mole, and to your defense- it was cute, but with the whole package, cute is the last word you had in mind. More like- it added a completeness that you would not think he needed but there it was.
He swallowed thickly, enjoying for a second too long the glazed look you had on your face as you said that. ‘And you have nice eyes’ he retaliates even though this is the first time he’s had a closeup look at them. Bright and sparkly, unknown to the both of you, a mirror of each other’s. Sparkly with a promise of something. Something which would have to wait for….if you had your way, forever, if he had his way- a second. You finally willed your legs to step aside and away from the unclothed man.
‘Uh-thanks’ you never stutter, but something about the heavy and thick air around makes it hard to take controlled breaths. ‘For the washing i mean’ you correct yourself. You will never admit to him out loud that him complimenting your eyes made your heart stumble and your brain freeze. You turned around to escape the situation, completely missing the amused expression on the man’s face. ‘You are welcome’ he extends his hand out walking to your side not missing the way you try to put some distance in between the two of you.
‘I’m Jungkook’ he smiles, a complete 180 from his appearance, his smile was warm and genuine, the type of smile that is reflected not only in his eyes but his whole face. His nose scrunches up too cutely, you think to yourself. He somehow resembles a bunny? Mustering up all the courage and bravery your heart still had, you grasp his hand. Hm, soft, odd for a gym head. You knew what he was asking for, but you would not give it to him. As cute as he is, you still tried to tell yourself you were unimpressed. ‘And i’m a poor soul who lives in this block of flats’ you mutter ‘i will pay you back for the washing’.
As soon as you reached your tiny cramped room and settled down for that nap you’ve been craving, you could not help but replay the last words he said to you, sounding way too smug for his own good. ‘Is that you telling me to put a shirt on for your sake?’
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maknaesdancersrappers · 4 years ago
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the truth about you.
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⁕ commission  ⁕
warnings » smut (explicit sex scenes; oral, fingering, corruption kink), language (repetitive use of profanities), themes (friends with benefits, underage drinking, pregnancy scare), angst (please have a fluff fic ready to read after this one)
genre » high school!au, fwb!au
word count » 25k
playlist » link
dedicated to  » jae ♡ ; thank you so much for commissioning this fic, it was draining to be honest, but i’m happy of how it turned out and i’m glad you enjoyed it.
+ timeline is a bit messy, but hopefully none of you catch it ㄟ( ▔, ▔ )ㄏ
terminology » yakgwa (korean honey cookie), ssireum (korean wrestling)
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The library is your safe haven. The soft murmurs, the books, the cold air — all of these brought you peace and was the most ideal studying environment for you. It didn’t matter to you if your schoolmates called you a nerd all your high school life; let’s see who’ll be graduating with honors and, hopefully, a full scholarship to Seoul National University.
The only time you didn’t enjoy the library was when midterm exams were around the corner and students were cramming at the library, rushing to make reviewers, or even learn what they should have already known had they listened during class. This was the breeding ground for one of your pet peeves: people who can’t control the volume of their voices. Why do they even bother whispering if the entire library could hear it? You especially hated those whose voices get gradually louder and louder until they’re already practically exclaiming.
You would have gone to a lesser known cafe but you’d have to pay for a drink to stay there, whereas the library allowed you to bring in your own drinks as long as they were in reusable cups or tumblers. Today, however, you were only dragged here despite it being peak cramming season because your best friend had begged you to tutor him.
“I love you with all my heart, [Y/N].” Jungwoo grabs your hands and brings it to his chest. “Only you could teach me chemistry better than Mrs. Yoon—”
“Okay, okay, I get it.” You had just arrived at the table he was able to reserve and barely put your things down before he started acting dramatic. “Just highlight which topics you don’t get—”
“Everything.” He says in one breath, pulling out the best puppy eyes expression he could muster.
“Everything?” You browsed through your chemistry notes and sighed. This was going to take longer than you expected.
Sensing your apprehension, Jungwoo grabs your hands again, “I’ll buy you lunch for two days, please!”
You sit down beside him after shaking his hands off yours and settling in, “That’s not why I’m having second thoughts, Woo. I need to study for other subjects, too.”
Jungwoo scoffs, crossing his arms and leaning away from you, “Baby, you’re top 1 of the entire batch.”
“No, I’m not.” You scowled, turning around to grab your pencil case from your book bag. As you did so, excited murmurs erupted from the table beside yours and curiously, you followed the gazes of the girls to the door that had just closed. Sitting back up, you huffed, “I would be if he wasn’t around.”
Your best friend moves his attention to the person in question and lets out a sound of acknowledgement.
Jaehyun was never your classmate, but he’d been vying for the top spot against you for years. He was the living proof that God had favorites; blessing him with brains, beauty, and brawns. Aside from being an honor student, he played for the school varsity basketball and was a substitute player for the soccer team. This guy was annoyingly handsome as well; drop dead gorgeous with flawless, fair skin.
“He’s so hot.” Jungwoo sighs, taking a second to realize what he said and looked around to make sure only you had heard. “You know I was classmates with him freshman year, right? After gym, all the guys would shower in the locker room and I could confidently tell you that he’s packing—”
“Jungwoo!” You scolded, raising your voice just loud enough to get hushed by the librarian and everyone turns their heads towards you. You mouthed an apology and bowed your head, feeling your cheeks heat up in embarrassment. Of all the places your eyes could fall onto, it had to be on Jaehyun, who by the looks of it, was amused at what had happened. “I hate you.” You whispered to Jungwoo.
“Sorry. At least everyone’s a lot quieter than earlier.” He gestures to your notebooks, “Let’s get started. You know I can’t fail chemistry.”
Before you could open your notes, Jaehyun is looming over your table and leaning on one arm.
“Hi, Jungwoo.” He greets, flashing that infamous dimpled smile.
“The last time we spoke was during freshman year.” Jungwoo points out, unaware he sounded rude, but Jaehyun didn’t seem fazed by it. In fact, he seemed to agree with the statement.
“Do you need something?” Your peripheral vision catches some jealous frowns from the other table, “We’re kind of busy.”
“[L/N] [Y/N].” Jaehyun cocks his head to the side, “I was just wondering why you’re here during midterm season. You never study in the library during this time.”
“How do you know?” You ask, glancing at Jungwoo. He’s already ignored Jaehyun, reading through his notes.
“I like to keep my eye on the competition.”
Even this makes Jungwoo look back at him, moving his gaze back and forth between the two of you.
You stare up at him, a little dumbfounded, before your brows slowly rise up. “So you keep tabs on me?”
“I was really disappointed in myself when I was top 2, you know. But I gotta admit,” He chuckles, “It’s impressive how you were able to beat me a couple of times.”
There was something in his tone that didn’t sit right with you. It wasn’t just him being conceited about it. Is he taunting you?
“Well, it’s not a difficult feat to beat you.” You shot back.
Jaehyun smirks, clearly enjoying this squabble with you. “So you think you could beat me? There’s only two major exams left for senior year. This week’s midterm and next year’s final exams before graduation. You think you could beat me for both?”
“You can bet on it.”
“[Y/N].” Jungwoo whispers, putting a hand on your arm, “What do you think you’re doing?”
“Bet? You wanna bet on it, [L/N]?” Jaehyun straightens himself up and crosses his arms over his chest, emphasizing how tight his sleeves are on his shoulders and biceps.
You could have been swooning with Jungwoo right now but there was a flame of aggression burning in your chest at the prospect of beating Jaehyun and getting him to do something for you. “We can decide what’s at stake after the exams.”
“Deal?” He puts out one hand towards you, a confident smile plastered on his face.
For the brief second you hesitated, you thought of all the possible things he’d ask for. Bragging rights, definitely. Personal assistant, maybe? He wouldn’t ask you to do something wild like run naked during one of his halftimes, would he?
“Scared?” He pulls you out of your thoughts and you huff at him, grabbing his hand and giving it a firm shake.
“Deal.”
Jaehyun grins at you, repeating the agreement, and bids both of you a good day. Once he leaves and joins the table two rows down. Did he really skip his table just to challenge you?
“Are you crazy?” Jungwoo pulls on your arm and you wince at the pain, “The only reason that guy is an honor student and plays for two sports is because he’s competitive as fuck. Don’t you remember he got benched for the consecutive fouls he got in sophomore year because we were losing by 2 points? 2 points! And it was only the first half of the game!”
You do, in fact, remember that time. You couldn’t stay long too watch the game and ran into him while you were heading out. That was the first time you ever interacted with him, as well as putting a face to the name that stole the top spot of the honor’s list. He was visibly annoyed; silently fuming in front of the vending machine and angrily jabbing his finger at the canned iced coffee button. Curiously, you approached him to ask if it was broken and he apologizes, saying he just didn’t have change on him since he was wearing his uniform. He moves away to let you use the machine and you end up buying him one before catching the bus to your old dorm.
“I remember and so what? Do you think he’s going to cheat? He’d be expelled.” You briefly glance at your notes before glaring back at him, “Do you think I can’t beat him?”
“No.” Jungwoo shakes his head, “But what if he does? We don’t know what he would do to you.”
“I’m sure it’ll be fine.” When he opens his mouth to rebut, you quickly ask him, “What’s the atomic number of gold?”
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You always entered the classroom during exams with confidence; not an ounce of panic or distress in your system, unlike the rest of the class as they scrambled to check their reviewers a few more times until the teacher came inside. 
Today was a little different.
There was a heavy, upsetting feeling in your stomach all because the bet between you and Jaehyun was nagging at you in the back of your mind. You poured in a few more hours a day to review, even during your part time work at the convenience store Jungwoo’s family owns.
Speaking of Jungwoo, he looked a lot more confident than you. He was fiddling with his pencil and murmuring to himself, probably recalling the terms needed for the exam.
The teacher comes in and the whole class falls silent, sitting straight in their seats. Because you were seniors, Mr. Cho took it upon himself to give a small speech about how this exam isn’t something to worry about as he has full confidence in everyone that they’ve studied well. Of course he said this while smiling at you and you’re hoping you didn’t over-study yourself to the point of blanking out when the test papers are in front of you.
Fortunately, when he was done with his little monologue and finally passed the papers, you were able to breeze through the questionnaire once he gave the go signal to start. You were even able to go through your answers thrice until time was up. Your worries start to ebb away as the day continues on and until the last test is submitted in, you finally feel the weight over your shoulders lift.
“That was exhausting.” Jungwoo complains once he walks over to your table with his bag haphazardly hanging off his shoulder. “Why can’t there be two days for exams?”
“We had too many suspensions because of the monsoons.” You reminded him, standing up once you’ve gathered your things. “But at least it’s over. How was chem?”
He groans, hiding his face into his palms, “I messed up a few of the balancing chemical equations, but I think I did pretty well. I mean, I can only thank my wonderful tutor if I get so much as a B- on chem.”
“Aunty said she’d make yakgwa for us for finishing our midterms. Could you save some for me?”
Students were rushing out of the room, meeting their friends in the hallways to express their joy and relief that the exams were over and discussing their answers. You and Jungwoo always waited until the crowd had thinned before heading out yourselves.
“Sure. Where are you heading off to?”
Reaching your lockers, you grabbed a book and slipped it into your bag. Seeing this, Jungwoo bleats at you.
“We just finished midterms and you’re going to start studying already?”
“The next exam we have is CSAT in November. I just want to start refreshing myself since the coverage is what we’ve learned through high school. I’m not pulling an all nighter or anything.” You close your locker and adjust your bag strap on your shoulder. “Do you wanna join me?”
He makes a face at you, stepping away, “No, mom made yakgwa and I’d like to eat them as soon as possible. I’ll leave you one piece, okay?”
You swing an open palm at his arm and he flinches away, retracting his statement and promises to save you no less than 5 pieces. With that, you two part ways down the hall and you head for the library.
The silence was welcoming as you walked through the automatic sliding doors of the library. There’s a few people scattered throughout the first floor tables, maybe passing time or preparing for CSAT like you — you couldn’t possibly be the only one thinking about it, too. For a change, you head up to the second floor and find a nice corner table that was tucked away between the towering bookshelves of the periodical section.
You set your little station up, taking your pencil case, notebook, and your history book out and setting it down in front of you. Opening it up to the first page of the first chapter, you look through the words you’ve already highlighted, remembering each one while mumbling it to yourself.
“Studying already?”
You gasp, whipping your head up to the newcomer and huffing when you recognize his face. “Oh my god, Jaehyun. Can you not sneak up on me?”
He pauses for a moment before his lips grew into a little smirk, “Midterms just finished and you’re burying your nose into a textbook in the library. I feel like I shouldn’t even be surprised.”
“So I want a head start in reviewing for CSAT, what of it?” You watched him take a seat on an empty chair with disdain. “You’re here, too.”
“Yeah, because I saw you go in here after you separated with your boyfriend.”
“Jungwoo’s not my boyfriend. We’re best friends.” You quickly correct him, “So you’re stalking me?”
Jaehyun sighs, leaning his cheek on his knuckles over the table. “I’m just keeping an eye on the enemy.”
“Enemy?” You frown at him, “You think of me as your enemy?”
“Well, we’re both running to be valedictorian, aren’t we? There could be only one.”
You nod at his words, “Yeah, but I don’t think of you as the enemy. I think it’s too strong of a word.”
“Then what am I to you?”
“Some guy,” You shrug your shoulders, “Some guy who’s in my way.”
Your words make his mouth slowly drop open and you can’t figure out if he’s stunned or offended by your statement. Eventually Jaehyun scoffs in disbelief and smiles, “I’m in your way?”
“Yep.” Emphasizing your answer by popping your lips at the ‘p’, “Like you are now.”
“Am I distracting you?” He gestures to himself and items on the table.
“Obviously.”
“Good.”
You closed your eyes and heaved a heavy sigh, pinching the bridge of your nose. Glancing around, you two were practically concealed in the corner and you couldn’t see where you could move to.
“Are you really here just to annoy me?”
Jaehyun purses his lips and you scold yourself for staring at them. How could a boy have such pretty lips? They look naturally pink and plump. Even Jungwoo’s pouty puckers couldn’t come close to his.
“Unless you consider me trying to get to know you a nuisance, then yes, I am most definitely here to annoy you.”
You prop your elbow up on the table and leaned your cheek on your knuckles, “Now why would you waste your time on something like that?”
He mimics your posture, except he cradles his chin on an open palm, “What makes you think it’s a waste of my time?”
The longer he stares at you, smiling softly with his dimples just peeking through his cheeks, the more your heart beats faster. This was only the third time you’ve ever interacted with him and the most you’ve exchanged words.
“Why are you flirting with me—”
“Why not—”
“ — and don’t,” You unconsciously lean away from him and cross your arms in front of you, “answer with a question.”
Jaehyun pouts, jutting his lower lip out, and it makes you wonder how they feel like; against your fingertips, your skin… your own lips.
Unconsciously, you lick your own lips as you divert your attention down to the open book.
“Hm,” He hums, “Have you thought about what you want if you win our little bet?”
“I have.” You rest your intertwined arms on the table and straighten your back, “Are you free every Friday and Saturday nights?”
There was a sleazy grin on his face that immediately tells you he’s misunderstanding your question. He chuckles, “You don’t have to win a bet if you want to go out on a date.”
You giggle, making it sound as real as you can as you fight the urge to roll your eyes, “I’m not asking for a date, Jung.”
It was oddly satisfying to see his face fall and stutter over his mistake, the tips of his ears turning a little pink.
“I just want you to take a few shifts for me at my part-time job.” You explained, “I work at a family convenience store every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday nights, and every morning on the weekends.”
“So let’s say you do win the bet and I take over your shifts,” Jaehyun grabs your pencil case and inspects it. Seeing it in his hands makes you realize just how old and dirty it was; it’s a furry case that was a shining silver when you first got it, as if the fibers were spun out of real silver. Now it was just a light gray with its once soft fur now patchy and rough. He looks at it contemplatively, “What are you going to do on your free nights?”
“Go on dates, duh.” You roll your eyes at him, gesturing with a hand. After a few seconds of silence, you snort, “I’m kidding. I don’t go on dates — never been on one. What I’d do on my free nights is not your business.”
He looks at you like you’ve grown another head, “You’ve never been on a date?”
“N-no...” You clear your throat, “Unless you consider all the times I’ve went out on Jungwoo—”
“Is he your boyfriend?”
“No!” You hissed, “I already told you that we’re only friends.”
“Then it’s not a date.” Jaehyun says in a-matter-of-fact tone, “You go on dates with people you like to get to know them more. Wait.”
His eyes squint at you, but not in a manner of judgement. It's as if he’s trying to rack his brain for the right words to say.
“You’re a virgin, then.”
You feel your heart drop to your stomach and your cheeks burst into flames. It was purely reflex, reeling your hand and swinging an open palm across his cheek before either of you could blink. The snap of your palm on his cheek left a resounding echo in the nearly empty library and thanks to his pale skin, your handprint grows bright red right away.
It takes a second, but you realize what you’ve done and you begin to pack up your things.
“No, wait,” He grabs your wrist, “I deserve that. Don’t leave yet.”
Against your better judgement, you stayed put, although keeping your book bag on your lap.
He breathes in, “I’m sorry. That was none of my business.”
“Did I,” You move your head closer to the imprint on his face, “Did I hit you too hard?”
He raises his fingers to where you’ve slapped him, doing his best not to wince, “I’ve been through worse. You know, you’re the first girl to ever slap me.”
“Are you insinuating that you’ve done things that you should have been slapped for?” You ask in an incredulous tone, “Either way I can’t say I’m proud of it.”
“There’s nothing wrong with being a virgin, by the way. It’s your life.” He licks his lips, “So you want to wait until you’re married?”
You shrug your shoulders, “It’s not that I want to wait until I get married… it’s just… it seems daunting. How do you even know what to do?”
He stifles a chuckle, shaking his head, “It’s human nature. It’s not something you study for.”
“As someone who takes studying seriously, I don’t think I can be put into a situation where I’m expected to do something I have no knowledge on.”
Jaehyun stares at you, considering your words as he slowly nods, “Okay… would you… like to learn?”
You cock your head, thinking you misheard him, “What?”
“I’m asking you if you want to learn… firsthand… about sex.”
When you finally wrap your head around his question after a good minute, you scowl at him, “Is this some ploy for you to get laid?”
“Don’t slap me!” He leans away when you move your arm, “You said you find sex intimidating and I’m telling you it’s not. You think you have to learn to have sex, well then I’ll—”
“Offer to teach me with your extensive knowledge and skills on it?” You deadpan, pulling your lips taut into a tight line. “What makes you think I'd say yes?”
Jaehyun raises his shoulders, “Most girls would have.”
“Oh.” You say, tasting something bitter in your mouth, “So you’ve offered these kinds of services to other people then?”
“No.” He quickly denies, “Just you. Other times, it’s the other way around and before you say anything smart, no, I don’t always say yes.”
Unconsciously, you hug your bag to your chest. You barely know this boy and he’s here offering to teach you about something you have absolutely know nothing about aside from the reproduction aspect. Are you willing to bare yourself to him? You hear the rumors in the girls’ bathroom; how they say he’s good in bed and going as far as calling him a sex god. What does that make you?
“Okay, wait,” Jaehyun starts, “I’m telling you right now so you have time to think it through. I don’t wanna force you so you can say no if you don’t want to and I’ll think of something else. If I win our little bet, let me teach you about sex.”
You internally scream at yourself for even considering his offer. You made a promise that you’ll only focus on school and won’t date to avoid distractions — but what Jaehyun was offering wasn’t even technically dating. What would your parents think about their breadwinner sleeping around with some guy she doesn’t even love? What if the school finds out? How would the girls pining after him, who are undoubtedly prettier than you, treat you, the school nerd?
“I don’t have to think about,” You held your chin up, “Because I’ll be top 1.”
“How tenacious.” He muses, leaning his cheek on his knuckles..
“I can say the same about you.” You mumbled under your breath, checking your phone for the time. “Well, you’ve successfully derailed me from studying.”
He flashes a victorious grin that both gives you butterflies in your stomach and fist clenching in annoyance. “Do you need a ride home?”
“I don’t need you to know where I live.” You snap, “And if you even try to follow me, I promise to get a restraining order against you.”
Jaehyun pouts at you and you feel them again, the butterflies wreaking havoc in your core. “Fine. But I have one more question.”
“And that is?”
“Have you had your first kiss?”
You sneer at him, a little offended, “Yes.”
“Don’t tell me it’s Jungwoo.”
“And if it was?”
He presses his lips together before sighing, “Let me be more specific with that question. Have you ever kissed anyone, not with just your lips, with your mouth — tongue and all.”
You suck your teeth and gaped at him, clearly looking like a deer caught in the headlights. When you had your first kiss with Jungwoo, it was only because both of you were in high school and have yet to kiss anyone. It also served as the reason that neither of you will ever see each other as anything more than friends.
“I’ll take your silence as a no.” Jaehyun hums, “What would you do if I’d kiss you right now?”
“I’d slap you.” You answer immediately, not batting an eyelash to prove how serious you were.
He inhales sharply, “Okay, uhm, what if I asked?”
“Do you always think with your dick?”
“That’s not a no.”
“And you didn’t deny.”
You bite on your lower lip to stop yourself from smiling, looking away when his face breaks into a wide grin. What were you doing? Get a hold of yourself. But… 
“I’ll admit there are times I’ve thought with my dick. Just your average hormonal teenager.”
“And I’ll admit,” You pause, “that I can’t say I’m not completely opposed to kissing you right now. Just, you know, your average curious teenager.”
He studies your face for a moment, “Yeah?” He starts scooting closer until he’s right where the corner of the table is.
“T-this doesn’t mean I’m agreeing to sleeping with you. I’m still firm with my decision of declining your offer.” You raise your hand in front of him and he takes hold of it.
“Maybe this would sway you.”
He waits for you to lean towards him, still holding your hand. His hand was soft and warm around yours, his thumb gently moving over your knuckles like it was fragile. He looks different, almost a little serious compared to the flirty, playful persona he had a few seconds ago; his eyes looked considerably darker, watching you study his face. His lips are parted, just as pink and full like always.
You nervously glanced at the opening of the little area, worried the librarian or another student would catch you two, although it was unlikely since no one really bothered going to the periodical sections.
“Don’t worry.” He whispers, “It’s just you and me here.”
“You’re not going to tell others, are you?”
With his free hand, he tucks your hair behind your ear. It was cliche and you would have pulled away or slapped his hand off, but all you could feel were the butterflies fluttering in your stomach for the third time in the past hour.
“I won’t. Whatever is going to happen stays here between the periodical section shelves.” His eyes shift down to your lips and you gulp when his tongue darts out between his.
“I… don’t know…” You’re losing your ability to speak, tuning everything out and focusing on him.
“It’s okay just follow my lead.” He guides you to lean forward, inclining your body over the table corner. His face was a few inches away, with his breath ghosting over your philtrum, but he doesn’t kiss you yet, waiting for your go signal.
When you fervently nod, he closes the gap between your faces. Just as you thought, he had soft lips; like the petals inside of a rosebud. Cupping your face, he runs his thumb over your cheekbones while he tilts his head to the side for better access. You gasp at the sensation of his tongue skimming along your bottom lip and he uses this as a chance to slip the muscle into your mouth.
It felt foreign, but also oddly nice. He tastes like bitter coffee and sweet mint combined. Without meaning to, you sucked his tongue and he let out a soft groan. Whenever you overhear someone saying how hot it is for a boy to moan, you never understood them until this moment and you want to hear more of it.
You push yourself closer to him, moving your tongue against his and fighting for dominance. Your head was spinning as if he was some hard liquor and you’re getting drunk off of him. When you feel his hand disappear from your cheek and find its way by your chest, inching towards your back, you panic and pull away.
He looks surprised and a little disappointed, nonetheless he doesn’t say anything and watches you. You’re breathless, face hot and flustered, unable to meet his gaze.
“I…” You swallowed, still tasting him on your tongue, “I need to go.”
“I…” Jaehyun nods, “Yeah, okay. Are you sure you don’t need a ride?”
“Yeah, thanks anyways…” Your hand twitches and it was only then both of you realize you were still holding hands. You retract yours first, using it to grab your bag by the strap and shrugging it over your shoulder. “Uhm, bye.”
“Y-yeah, uh, take care.” Jaehyun stays glued to his seat as you scurry off away from him. He stares back at the hand that held yours, discerning how cold it was now that you were gone. He groans, lurching forward to rest his head on his folded arms as he wills his little problem away. You looked so pure and innocent, cheeks bright pink and glowing, looking absolutely breathless from the kiss.
Meanwhile as you hurriedly walk out of the library, you swipe your tongue over your lips, still tasting the mix of coffee and mint. That was your first real kiss. Jung Jaehyun gave you your first real kiss - no, you had your first makeout session with him. You could still feel your cheeks burning at the thought, but you’re hoping it’s just your annoyance at him because he was right.
You really were considering his offer.
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“Why are you so nervous?” Jungwoo grabs hold of your hand and pulls your fingernails away from your teeth. “I’m sure you’re number 1. And if Jaehyun is, then he couldn’t have betted on something bad, right? He doesn’t seem like the type.”
It’s been more than a week since the exams and the… event… at the library. It took you a day or two to go back and Jaehyun, thankfully, didn’t turn up. You didn’t tell a single soul, not even Jungwoo, who you’ve been confiding every dark secret you had to.
You both woke up early to see the results posted on the schoolyard before the other students flocked the bulletin board and it’ll be a battlefield for a chance to read the results up close. 
Walking up the rickety bulletin board, you hold your breath before approaching the list for seniors on the left. You could hear your own heart beat hammering in your chest.
“Hey! I’m 53! Dang, that’s 3 spots from being top 50.” Jungwoo points at his name on the middle section of the board. “Ha! Nakamoto Yuta is 51! I just need to surpass him and these other two for the finals. How about you?”
His face drops when he sees you staring at him, crestfallen. It wasn’t hard to spot your name; there were only two spots possible for you and this time it just had to be below Jung Jaehyun’s. Your mouth feels dry as you respond to him, “I’m second…”
“Oh, [Y/N].” He comforts, pulling you into a hug. “Maybe he’ll ask for something petty?”
“Jungwoo, there’s something I need to tell you. Can we go to your club room?” You look back at the school entrance, seeing a few more students come in. Jaehyun was the few students who already had their license so it should be easy to know if he was arriving or already here.
Jungwoo was part of the board games club. You’ve sat in a few times during their club meetings since they only had a few members and it was always fun playing board games that aren’t monopoly or snakes and ladders. Their club room was one of the extra rooms under the library’s second floor that was only accessible outside, beside the anime club, and was very secluded. 
He digs his fingers inside a flower pot on the window sill and fishes out a key that he dusts off before unlocking the door. You enter first while he puts the key back into the soil of the poor, harassed petunia plant.
“Jaehyun said he wants to teach me about sex.” You blurt out once Jungwoo closes the door behind him. His eyes go wide and he pretends to clean his ears.
“Come again?”
“Remember how I went to the library after midterms? He followed me there and we started talking and he kept asking these questions and — and it somehow ended up with him figuring out that I was virgin and I slapped him and then he said if he wins the bet, he’d want to teach me about sex but if I don’t want to then I can say no and he’ll think of something else.” You inhaled deeply once you let it all out like vomit.
Your best friend stares at you, visibly confused, “Wait, that’s a lot to take in… you slapped him and then he offers to teach you sex? And if you can decline it, then why don’t you just say no?”
“We kissed.”
“You what?!” Jungwoo screeches, “You kissed him and you didn’t tell me?!”
“I’m sorry! It’s just,” You shrug your shoulders before defensively crossing your arms in front of you, “you know me, Woo. I’ve never kissed — made out — with anyone before and…”
“You want more?” He finishes for you and you slump down the nearest chair.
Exasperated, you stared up at him, “Tell me I shouldn’t say yes to his offer.”
“I think you should say yes to his offer.”
You sighed in relief, grateful you had someone like him to help you — wait a minute.
“What?!”
He holds his hands up in front of him as you jumped up from your seat, “I mean, if Jung Jaehyun had offered to teach me sex, then I’d definitely say yes. Is it a friends with benefits type of deal?”
“We’re hardly friends. If I say yes, then we’re fuck buddies.” You sit back down and look at the shelves where they kept the board games. “I need time to think about it. Please help me avoid him.”
“[Y/N]...”
You put your hands to your face, “I swear I’m not running away from it. A deal is a deal. I just need a little more time to think about it.”
Out of habit, you bite on your thumb and space out. You’ll handle this situation like how you handle every decision: weigh out the pros and cons.
Pros: you’ll learn something you’ve been very curious about and your “teacher” is quite skilled according to the female populace, so you’re in good hands. It’s not a merit you want, but you can say you’ve slept with the ever popular heartthrob, Jung Jaehyun.
Cons: you could get pregnant regardless of the use of contraception and you’re prone to sexually transmitted diseases. You could get possibly addicted to it to the point it would distract you from school and ruin your chance to get your scholarship.
Where does falling in love with Jaehyun fall under?
You mentally slap yourself; no one is falling in love in this predicament.
The sound of the door opening pulls you out of your thoughts and your eyes meet with sophomore member of the board games club, Mark Lee.
“Oh! No wonder the door is open. What are you two doing here?” He nods at the two of you and you respond with a smile.
“Just needed a private place to talk.” You explain, catching Jungwoo’s gaze. “And you?”
“Oh,” Mark sheepishly scratches the back of his neck, “I was gonna skip my first class to study for recitation on my second one.”
Jungwoo puts a hand on his shoulder, “Don’t worry we all have days for that — unless you’re [Y/N].”
“Hey! I saw that you were top 2! Congrats!” He claps his hands, but eventually stops when he senses neither of you were in a celebratory mood. “Is… something wrong?”
“I was just really… betting on getting top 1. No big deal.” You wave a hand in front of you, “It’s not like being second affects my academic standing.”
“Well, if you won’t celebrate that, then let’s celebrate my birthday! I’m having a party at my place this weekend. Nothing big, just the club and a few other people.” He rubs his hands together, “You don’t even have to give me a gift. Your presence is a gift—”
Mark’s mouth forms into an ‘o’ and he snaps his fingers, “Your presence is a present!”
Maybe Jungwoo laughed out of pity while the younger nearly pissed himself in a fit of giggles, but your mind is thinking about the bet again. What were you going to tell Jaehyun?
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By some miracle, Jaehyun didn’t hunt you down for your answer and you wouldn’t say you avoided him since you two never really crossed paths before. Jungwoo’s mom let you and Jungwoo off for your Saturday shifts for Mark’s party and even though he said not to get him anything, you and Jungwoo still got him something.
It was a casual gathering so you didn’t feel the need to get dressed up, however you do enjoy wearing light dresses since it was summer season, throwing a cardigan over your shoulders when the night air gets too cold on the way home. You might be a nerd, but like any other girl, you liked to put on makeup when you felt like it, but today you simply wore strawberry-flavored lip balm.
The two of you were at Mark’s place a little after six and the birthday boy opens the door with a huge grin as you both greet him.
“You’re both here! Come in!” He ushers, stepping to the side. When Jungwoo hands him your gift, he clicks his tongue, “Ay, I said you didn’t have to.”
“We can serve this, you know.” You quip and Mark cocks his head, eyes growing wide when Jungwoo finally drops the gift into his hands.
“Yo! Is this what I think it is?” He exclaims, ripping the lid of the box off to reveal a watermelon.
You’ve never seen anyone get so excited over watermelon before — but maybe that’s what makes Mark loveable. You open your arms to him for a hug and once he returns the gesture, your eyes go down the hallway and see the one person you didn’t expect to see here.
“Uhm,” You push Mark off a little hastily, “I-is that Jaehyun?”
Mark glances back to see the boy in question helping himself to the drinks on the kitchen island, “Yeah. He was my student facilitator during freshman orientation. Do you wanna meet him?”
You scowled, “Oh, we know each other. I didn’t know you two were friends.”
“He’s cool.” Mark shrugs, “Well, let’s go in! I’ll figure how to slice this up.”
“Let me. We don’t want the birthday boy to lose a finger during his birthday, now do we?” You nervously laugh, taking the large fruit away from him. You shot a nervous glance at Jungwoo and it was all he needed to know that you were finally going to talk to Jaehyun.
While Mark and Jungwoo head into the living room, where everyone was gathered, you walk to the kitchen just as Jaehyun was about to return to where everybody was. He stops in his tracks, clearly surprised to see you.
“[Y/N]?”
Hugging the melon to your stomach, hoping it crushes the butterflies before they go wild, you nod, “Hi.”
He was wearing a plain black shirt and some ripped skinny jeans; something so simple but it looked like he walked right out of a photoshoot.
“I didn’t know you know you were friends with Mark.” 
“I said the same thing about you to him.” You look around the kitchen for the knives.
His eyes drag down your body and you suddenly feel self-conscious, “What are you holding?”
Finally spotting the knife rack, you smile at him, “Mark’s birthday gift.”
Walking over to the counter, you pick a knife and a chopping board before removing the watermelon from the box.
“Ah, that’s a smart gift.” He comments, appearing beside you all of a sudden that you flinch as you look up at him, “I’ve never seen anyone love watermelon so much.”
“It’s cute.” You shrugged, starting to slice the fruit up. “Congrats, by the way.”
“Hm?”
“Congratulations.” You peek up at him, “Congrats on being top 1… and winning the bet. I’m surprised you didn’t hunt me down.”
Jaehyun leans on the counter and watches you make delicate movements with the knife, “I figured you needed more time to think about it.”
“Yeah, I did.” You quietly admit, putting the knife down and starting to look for a plate to serve it in.
“So?”
Licking your lips, you swallowed, “Yes.”
“What’s your answer?” He asks, not understanding you had already given him an answer.
You spin in your heels and cross your arms, a little annoyed, “That was my answer. Yes.”
You curse yourself for melting at the sight of his lips quirking upwards and eventually growing into a huge grin.
“Really?”
“Do you want me to take it back?”
“No!” He puts a hand out, “I just can’t believe you said yes. Well, okay then. When do you want to start?”
You didn’t think this far ahead. “I have work Friday nights, weekend mornings, 6-12 noon, and Saturday graveyard shifts.”
He frowns, “You have work later?”
“No, someone filled in for me since I said I’d have a party to attend to.” You hesitated; should you tell him that you live with Jungwoo and work at his family’s convenience store? “I think they expected me to get drunk, but I don’t really drink.”
“What time do you end on Fridays?”
“10pm.”
Jaehyun purses his lips and you realize it’s a habit he makes when he’s thinking. “Then Mondays through Thursdays, after school. Whichever day you want. Basketball training doesn’t resume until next month.”
“Okay.” You slowly say, “Uhm… where?”
He blinks at you, “We can’t do it at your place? Don’t you dorm alone?”
“No!” You vehemently shake your head, “N-no, I’m… renting a room at… Jungwoo’s.”
“You live with him? Is that even allowed?”
“It’s a gray area. Don’t tell anyone.” You instinctively reach out and hold on his arm, giving it a soft squeeze. “Please don’t tell anyone.”
“I won’t.” He licks his lips, visibly having an internal debate within himself. “I guess we can do it at my place. My dad is abroad at the moment and my mom works late shifts.”
“Alright.”
Jaehyun turns around and finds two plates for the watermelon slices, arranging the fruit for you. “Great. So—”
“Wait.” You grab his wrist, “Can we keep this a secret?”
He twists his hand so he’s holding yours, “Of course. Whatever you want.” He brings your hand up to his lips and kisses it.
“This is just a,” You stare at the hand holding yours, “physical relationship, right? I mean, how long does it take for someone to learn sex.”
“Oh, baby.” He chuckles, low and slow, “You can’t learn a whole new world in a few nights. You keep learning new things every time. I’ll teach you the basics up until you have your sexual awakening.”
“And if I never have my sexual awakening?”
He leans closer, just like in the library, and his breath is just ghosting over your lips. He lets go of your hand to tip your chin upwards to him, “Then we keep trying until you do or you find someone else, but that’s a blow to my ego.”
“The next person I should be sleeping with is my boyfriend.” You inch away from him and he reluctantly pulls back from you while you pick up one of the plates, “If I ever get one.”
Jaehyun mimics you, picking up a plate and following you out of the kitchen, but stops you before you pass through the door frame. “Let’s be friends, alright? I don’t like pretending not to know someone I’ll be getting intimate with. You won’t either; I’d like to see you try to explain the sexual tension.”
“Okay.” You enunciate each syllable. “Friends, then.”
He gives you a swoon-worthy smile and you try to leave before doing so, but he stops you again. “By the way, you look really good tonight.”
You roll your eyes, the gesture making him chuckle, and continue to head into the living room, “You’re not so bad yourself.”
The rest of night plays out like how it always does when you’re at a party; you and Jungwoo are stuck by the hip, the board game club members make petty problems with each other bigger than they really are and settle it through — you guessed it — board games, non-club members were taught new board games, and it wouldn’t be a birthday party without cake — being smashed into Mark’s face.
It was a fun night. You almost forgot that you made an agreement with one of the attendees to teach you about intercourse, but you can’t deny Jaehyun had made things a lot more interesting during the evening. You caught him multiple times watching you, especially during your little victories in board games, and he’d either give you a little smile or boldly wink at you. You’re thankful no one caught you getting flustered over it, but it took you some time to calm your heartbeat.
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Today was the day. You’re embarrassed about actually preparing yourself today ever since Jaehyun sent you a text the day after you exchanged numbers at Mark’s party. You woke up an hour earlier to exfoliate your body and wore the best undergarments you owned. You didn’t want to try too hard that it’ll be too obvious since you still had school.
You told Jungwoo’s mom that you’ll be home later to tutor a classmate and she didn’t find anything suspicious; you’re just hoping she’ll relay the message to your mom whenever she calls to check up on you. 
Because you didn’t want anybody in school to know you were going home with Jaehyun, you had him pick you up three blocks away from the school district.
“My mom should probably be gone by now.” Jaehyun checks the watch on his wrist briefly before returning his attention to the road, “Do you wanna eat first?”
“No, I feel like throwing up.” You confessed, holding onto the hem of your school skirt. 
“You know you can back out, right?” He shoots you a sympathetic smile, “I don’t wanna force you to do anything you don’t want to.”
“I know. I’m just nervous.”
“I’m not going to jump you the second we get inside. We’ll take it slowly — as slow as you want and need. We don’t even have to go all the way tonight.”
This makes you smile at him. For someone audacious enough to offer sex, one would assume he’d be a jerk, but he’s truly a sweetheart. It was wrong of you in the first place to think he was the stereotypical mean jock in a high school food chain.
“Oh, shit.” He curses under his breath, slowing the car down to a full stop in front of a simple two-story home.
Seeing that he lived in a house in Seoul was enough to tell you that he comes from a rich family, which you should have guessed already since he mentioned his father working abroad. It made you feel uneasy though, knowing you two are from completely different backgrounds.
“My mom’s still home.” Jaehyun checks his watch again, “It’s past 6, she’s late.”
Following his gaze, you see another car in the garage — another indicator of their wealth. 2 cars? Geez.
“The gates are open. She must have forgotten something?”
He doesn’t say anything, driving past the gate and parking it beside the other car. As you both unclipped your seatbelts, you see a door open in your peripheral vision and make eye contact with a young woman.
She looks a little frazzled, but more surprised to see you in the front seat of her son’s car. Getting out of the car, you bowed at her with a smile.
“Jaehyun, I didn’t know you were having someone over. Hello!” She waves at you.
“Hello.” You meekly reply, “I’m [Y/N].”
“What a beautiful name. Welcome! Had I known you were coming, I’d tidy things up more inside and made more dinner.” She frowns, putting a hand on her cheek, “Jaehyun, if the food isn’t enough you can always cook for her, yes? I don’t like having house guests being hungry.”
“I know, mom, I will. Aren’t you late for work?” He gripes, kicking the floor like a child.
She tuts at him, “I thought I left the oven on so I had to turn back around. Don’t worry about me. What are you two going to do?”
Her eyes are looking straight at yours and you answer in the steadiest voice, “Well, Jaehyun and I are the top two students and our teachers asked us to work together to help create reviewers for the upcoming CSAT.”
Jaehyun’s mom gasps, “Already reviewing for CSAT?”
“Well, it would take some time before we figure out the topics we need to focus on, compile everything, have it approved,” Jaehyun drawls, glancing at you, “Mom, aren’t you running late?”
She wags a finger at him, returning her attention to you. “Top 2, you say? My, then you’ve quite got a brain on you. A beautiful face and a beautiful brain; your parents must be so proud of you.”
“Thank you.” You feel your face grow warm, not used to compliments at all. “But I hope you don’t take offense to this, Mrs. Jung, but I have every intention of beating Jaehyun and claim top 1.”
This makes her laugh, “A feisty one! Well in case you do, my Jaehyunnie has his momma to comfort him.”
“Mom.” Jaehyun strains, pointedly looking at her.
“Remember this: he blushes with his ears.” She winks at you and this makes him physically usher her to her car. She waves at you, “It was nice meeting you, [Y/N]! Come by again soon! Make sure you bring her home, Jaehyun.”
“Okay, Mrs. Jung.” You wave back, stifling your giggle as Jaehyun continues to hassle her into her car, but not before she demands to kiss him on his cheek.
When she was finally coerced into leaving and left you two alone, Jaehyun lets you into the house. 
“I’m sorry about my mom.” He sighs, removing his shoes and handing you spare house slippers.
“It’s fine. I’m not as nervous as I was on the way here.” You wear the slippers he hands you and put your shoes beside his on the mat. You look around and spot some picture frames on the wall, approaching one family photo. “You’re an only child?”
He stands beside you, “Yeah. That explains why my parents and I act like best friends.”
“Aw,” You coo, moving to a baby picture, “Baby Jaehyunnie is so cute.”
“Okay,” He puts a hand on your shoulder and gently pulls you away from the wall, “That’s enough. Let’s go up to my room.”
On the way up to the second floor, you start to tense up; his arm was still around you like he was a personal escort to your deflowering. From the stairs, his room was the second door to the right. 
It was a lot cleaner than you expected, although it had trophies and certificates that proved his achievements growing up. It reminds you of the living room back at home; a shelf full of awards for spelling bees, best in subjects, and honor certificates. You remember the pride and joy in your parents’ eyes every time they put a new one up.
“Are you sure you don’t want anything to drink?” Jaehyun asks, closing the door behind him.
“I’m good.” You walk over to his bed and sit down on the edge, looking everywhere but him. He had a fancy looking computer set-up in the corner of the room by another door that probably leads to his bathroom. “So… what now?”
The space on the bed beside yours dips, “Let’s get you in the mood first. Look at me.” His hand falls on your thigh; most of it still over your skirt but his fingertips touch your skin.
You look down at his hand before meeting his piercing gaze, without meaning to, you lean away from him.
His expression immediately softens, “I’m gonna remind you that you can still back out. I don’t want to force you into doing something you’re not sure about.”
“How do I get into... the mood?” 
“Remember how we kissed in the library?” Jaehyun says, “Let’s do that again. This time, I’m gonna touch your body, alright? There’s no table between us now. You can touch me, too.”
Your mouth goes dry at the memory. Ever since you went back to that area in the library, you can’t help but think about kissing him. It makes your face burn, heart rate pick up, and core clench. “Okay.”
His other hand tips your chin upward to make you face him, “You’re so cute, you know? So innocent like a little kitty.”
He kisses you all of a sudden, just pressing his lips over yours. The fingers on your chin move to tuck your hair back behind your ear just like last time and he whispers, “I haven’t stopped thinking about our kiss. If you only knew how excited I am that I get to kiss you again… kiss you and more.”
And more.
There it is again, the action your body never made before; your vagina clenching at his words. Your breath hitches as he slowly moves forward, capturing your lips once more. Just like before, he tastes like coffee and mint. The kiss is gentle and calm, almost tentative, like he’s giving you a chance to stop him. You bring your hands up to his chest and nape, threading your fingers on his soft, thick hair. And when you feel his tongue glide along your lips, you part your lips for him and everything just clicked.
The kiss grew carnal; desperate for more. His hands have moved to hold your midriff, thumbs just barely caressing the bottom of your breasts. It felt too hot — literally. You wanted to take your clothes off, but you don’t know how to feel about him seeing you naked, which was a dumb thought since you had to be naked to have sex.
“I wanted to kiss you so badly at Mark’s party.” He confesses when he pulls away to catch his breath, panting over your mouth, “If you’d have let me, I would’ve taken you upstairs and fucked you there.”
Fucked. You’ve only ever used the word to curse so hearing it from him as something he’d do to you sounds like it would hurt.
“But I want to take my time with you,” He kisses the corner of your lips, trailing down your jaw until he settles on a spot on your neck that simultaneously tickles yet you crave for more, “I’ll show you a whole new world you’ve been missing out on.”
You slide your arm around him, instinctively pulling him closer to you as he finds a new patch of skin on your neck to kiss. You couldn’t help but moan when you feel his teeth lightly biting your flesh.
“You even sound cute.” He muses, working his lips back up your face. “This is lesson number one: foreplay. It can stretch on for hours, but this helps make penetration a lot easier.”
Damn. Penetration is such an ugly word, but the way he said it made it sound hot. When a hand comes over your breast, your entire body freezes and he stops.
“Is this too fast for you?”
“N-no, I’m just not used to it.” You take a deep breath, “Please keep going.”
Jaehyun smiles, “You’re liking it so far?”
You nod, bashfully bowing your head in embarrassment. Other girls must be throwing themselves at him at this moment.
“Can you learn with your head down?” He playfully scolds, “Keep your eyes on me.”
He kisses you again, slipping his tongue into your mouth as his hand tenderly squeezes your chest. He starts to nudge you to fall back against his bed and he tugs your shirt out from being tucked into your skirt to sneak his under. His fingers leave a hot trail in their wake, burning your skin the most satisfying way, reaching for its previous purchase but hindered by the tightness of your school blouse.
He pulls away once more and you whine, chasing after his lips. With a little chuckle, he grants you a quick peck. “Can I take your clothes off or do you want to do it yourself?”
“I’ll do it.” You start to pop the buttons of your shirt when you hesitated, “Wait, what do you prefer?”
“Don’t think about it; this is about you.”
“No, this is about you teaching me about sex and among the few things I know about sex is that it’s all about making each other feel good. So this is about you, too.”
Jaehyun stares at you, considering your words and smiles to himself, “Alright. We can do it together. Unbutton my shirt for me.”
He reaches for the button beneath the last one you had unbuttoned and continues down the line, licking his lips as more of your skin is exposed. Meanwhile, you shakily began to unbutton his.
Sensing your nervousness, Jaehyun ducks his head back to your neck to kiss it. It makes you sigh, losing your grip on the button you’ve working on and when you try to blindly find it, your fingers find the smooth, hard muscle of his chest instead.
He momentarily pulls away to push your blouse off your shoulders, kissing each one before moving to your collarbones. You feel your face heat up as you completely shrug your shirt off and throw it by your feet. His face is right above your chest, kissing down your sternum and just over the swell of your breast.
He tugs on your skirt’s zipper as he does this, jerking the flimsy material off your hips once you lifted yourself up off the bed to help him. He stands up in front of you, pushing you back until you’re lying down on the bed.
“It feels like an honor to see you like this.” He finishes popping the buttons you failed to remove, shrugging the material off his upper body and leaving you to ogle his body. It’s no surprise he’d have such a good physique from all the sports he does.
“Oh, you have an outie.” You pointed out, biting back a giggle. “That’s cute.”
Jaehyun looks down with a slight pout and covers his belly button, “Is that what you’re really looking at?”
“My baby brother has one and it reminded me of him.” You shake your head, almost forgetting you’re nearly naked in front of him, “Sorry.”
He hooks one finger each on your socks and drags them down your legs until they’re completely off and joining the rest of your uniform on the floor. He climbs onto the bed and hovers over you, watching your reaction as he cups your midriff and raises it up to one of your breasts.
His hand was warm and heavy, gently kneading your breast, and focusing his thumb over your nipple. Straddling your hips, he gives your neglected breast the same treatment with his other hand. You’ve never even touched yourself like this, not even when you lather soap on your body, and it felt so good. 
“Let’s take this off of you, hm?” He reaches between your back and the mattress, unhooking your bra faster than you could have. Once he slips the straps off your arms, you instinctively cover yourself and he chuckles, “Can I see them please?”
It annoyed you that he spoke to you like a child, but you relent and drop your arms to your side, looking away from him.
“Ah, beautiful.” He murmurs, putting his hands back over each of your breasts. Without warning, he bends down and licks your nipple causing you to gasp and grab his shoulders. He doesn’t say anything, continuing to lick and suck one nipple and rub his thumb over the other until they’ve both hardened and pebbled. He switches between them for a while until he pulls back, satisfied after seeing your flustered face. “Did you like that?”
“It felt weird at first,” You admitted, “But I liked it.”
“That’s good.” He kisses your forehead and moves so he was practically lying beside you, “So you like having your boobs played with.”
You don’t know how to respond to that, but you don’t have to because he kisses you again. A little more confident, you tried to slip your tongue into his mouth and you’re met with a happy, surprised hum. He lets you take over this kiss, welcoming your tongue.
“You’re getting good at kissing.” He comments as soon as you two break for breath of air.
“It’s addicting.”
“You’re addicting.” Jaehyun counters, pressing his lips on your jaw. “So sweet.”
His hand soothingly rubs your side; up and down in a lazy manner while locking lips with you again. He then brings his hand between your legs, making you flinch and gasp into his mouth. Instead of asking if it was okay first, he decides to continue his action, moving three fingers over your panties.
You want to shut your legs close, but his thigh is holding one of them down. 
“Do you want me to stop?” He asks when you cover his hand with your own.
“N-no, not really.” You hide your face in the crook of his neck as you press his hand over your clothed mound. “Keep going.”
“Do you like this more than playing with your boobs?”
“I think so.”
Jaehyun stops to slip his hand into your panties and you choke down a moan. “You can be as loud as you want. Let me hear you so I know you feel good.”
His fingers slide along your labia, petting you like a kitten. You’ve never even masturbated before yet here you are having someone else’s fingers touch and please you.
“Ah, there it is.” He chuckles into your ear, making you look up at him, “You’re getting wet.”
“Don’t tell me that!” You scold, shying away from him, but he quickly maneuvers his body so he’s back on top of you.
He starts to push a single finger inside of you, observing the way your mouth drops open at the new sensation. You’re wrapping quite nicely around his finger, sucking the digit in bit by bit the more you clenched your walls. When he starts to move it in and out of you, you whimper, holding him by his shoulders again.
“Does it hurt?”
You shake your head. It didn’t hurt, but it just felt too odd and new for you to like it just yet. 
Jaehyun continues his action a little longer until you start getting used to it, even when he adds another finger. This was your first taste of pure, unadulterated sexual pleasure. It was just as addicting as kissing him and the longer he does it the more your toes curl.
You let out a loud moan, a sound neither of you expected. Fueled by your moan, Jaehyun pumps his fingers into you faster. A hybrid of moan and cry falls from your lips as a surge of pleasure pulsates through your veins. You shut your eyes and hold onto his bulging arm for support, curling your upper body towards him. You could hear the wet squelch as he fingered you.
There was something tightening in the pit of your stomach and you can’t decipher if it was good or not, but when Jaehyun removes his hand from your underwear and the feeling disappears, you want to cry.
“Why’d you stop?” You whine, pulling his hand back.
“I don’t want you to come yet. I don’t think it’s best for you to be too sensitive on your first time.” He kisses your forehead before sitting up to put the two fingers he had in you into his mouth. He moans a little, “Sweet.”
He starts to take your underwear off, rolling it off your hips down to your ankles. He chuckles at your attempt to squeeze your thighs together and hide your pussy from him.
“D-do you have a condom?” You stutter, trying to stall him.
“I do. I always have one.” He nods at the drawer by his bed. “But I wasn’t going to do that yet.”
He massages your thighs, silently coaxing you to open your legs for him. Still covering yourself, you obediently part your legs and he makes himself comfortable between them with his face right by your core.
“This is my favorite kind of foreplay. If you don’t mind, I’d like to show it to you.” He kisses your knuckles, “There’s nothing to be shy about, [Y/N].”
You let him pry your fingers off your, watching his eyes light up once they lay their sights on your pussy as if they had discovered gold. With two fingers, he spreads your labia apart and you hold your breath as he veers forward to latch his mouth onto you. You gasp, bucking your hip upward at the sensation of something wet and warm against such a private part.
You could feel his tongue slithering and teeth teasingly nibbling at your lower lips. Again, it felt so foreign and unusual, but so, so, so good. You moaned out his name and he groaned in response, the vibration adding fire to the burning pleasure he’s building up in you.
Like last time, when you start to feel that knot in your stomach, Jaehyun pulls away and you whimper in frustration.
He stands up to walk over to the drawer, fetching the condom you requested for and returns to the foot of the bed. “Scoot up a little.”
After doing so, you watch as he unzips his pants, letting it fall to the floor with his boxers.
“That’s not gonna fit.” You immediately fold your legs close and sit up. Are penises supposed to be this big? It’s entire length is pink and veiny, while the tip was a bit more red. It bobbed up and down as he clambered onto the bed, pointing at you as if it knew you were its prey. Gulping, you repeat, “That’s not gonna fit. I can’t do this.”
“It will. You’ll stretch around it. Give me your hand.” He kneels in front of you, knees apart.
You give your hand to him and he brings it around his cock. It was a lot warmer than his hand. You wrap your fingers around it a tad tighter and he moans, biting his lip. Meekly, you ask, “Do you like that?”
“Sorta. Here.” He moves your hand over his length, all the way to the tip and back to the base. “I like it better this way.”
“Like this?” You followed what he showed you, twisting your wrist a bit.
“Yes, fuck, like that.” Jaehyun closes his eyes, letting you take over. “Just like that.”
With his eyes closed, you feel a little more comfortable studying his body up close. He has such pretty skin, fair and flawless. His muscles were beautifully defined, rippling with every movement, especially the muscles on his abdomen as they flexed with each sharp breath he takes. Your attention is brought to cock in your hand after feeling it twitch a couple of times. The tip started to glisten under the lights of his room. You watched in amazement as a small, translucent white substance emerges from the tiny opening on the top, something akin to a pearl, and it dribbles down to your fingers.
He had your mouth on your genitals and you liked it. Will he like it if you do the same? 
You bend forward to taste the thick liquid on the tip of his cock. It was incredibly salty and just as hot as his length as you continued to work your fist around him. Wanting to taste more of him, you bring your lips over his tip.
“What the fuck?!” He exclaims, hands flying to your shoulders, and you immediately pull away.
“I’m sorry.” You retract your hand away from his body.
“No! No, you just caught me off guard.” Jaehyun takes hold of your hands and smirks, “I didn’t expect you to blow me.”
You look away, flustered at his expression, “I was curious.”
“It’s okay. God, you’re so cute.” He cups your cheeks and kisses you, “I’ll teach you some other day, okay? I don’t think I’ll last a second if you use your pretty little mouth on me.”
“O-okay.”
“Now watch, this is how you put a condom on.” He takes the foil square and rips it open. He shows you the condom, pushing the center out a bit to pinch the end, and places the rubber ring on the tip of his cock. He rolls it down about a quarter way until he stops and grabs your hand, “Finish putting it on for me.”
Without another word, you obey him, pushing the ring down until his cock is completely sheathed with minor difficulty.
“Lie down.”
Once again, you silently obey him, maintaining eye contact with him. He adjusts your position in front of him by grabbing your hips and parting your legs to kneel between them. He runs his hands over your thighs, “Are you ready?”
“I think so.”
“I need you to be sure.” He leans down to kiss your belly. “I’m not going to continue if you’re not a hundred percent sure.”
“I am.” You nod, “I’m sure.”
He kisses up to your neck, licking the expanse of skin. “This is going to hurt, okay? You just have to relax. The more you tense up, the more it’ll be difficult for both of us, and the more it’ll hurt for you. Just relax.”
“Okay.”
Jaehyun kisses your lips, flicking his tongue into your mouth for a brief moment. He tasted a little different now. Was it from him giving you oral? Were you tasting yourself on him?
“If the pain is too much, just tell me and I’ll stop.” He sits back up, holding his cock in his hand and positioning it right in front of your entrance. He waits for a while, moving a fist over his length as he studies your face. “I’ll ask you once more, [Y/N]. Do you really want to do this? Not because of the bet, but because you really want to?”
“Yes. I do.” You answer in a firm voice. When you give him a little nod, he runs the tip of his cock over your entrance a few times until he pushes into you.
It definitely hurt. It was like you were trying to put something where it didn’t belong. Although it was bearable, your body’s instinct was to stop it.
“Fuck, [Y/N], baby, please relax, you’re squeezing me.” He grips your thighs with a sense of urgency, “Relax, baby.”
You’re breathing heavily, trying to do as he says. You look down between your bodies and you feel your eyes well up with tears when you see he’s barely halfway in. You don’t know how but you try to accommodate his girth. 
When he’s pushed the remaining inches inside you, you choke down a sob. It hurt a lot. You feel stretched out and full; unable to open your eyes as you absorb the pain. But underneath it all, you can’t deny that it felt good in a way.
“Are you okay? Shit,” He starts to pull out and you yelp.
“No! No! Don’t move. Please don’t move. Just,” You hold onto his shoulders, sniffing, “Let me get used to it. You’re… big.”
Jaehyun chuckles, “At least it fits.”
“Barely.” You retort. As you blink, the tears drip from the corner of your eyes. They left a cool trail over your burning face. He kisses each one, lapping the tears up with his tongue.
“Tell me when it’s okay to move, alright? Just don’t… squeeze me too hard or else I’ll come before I get to make you come.” He sees you pout as you move your head to acknowledge him and he can’t help himself but kiss you again.
It helps distract you from the subsiding pain. You try to think of other things as well. Is he always this sweet to the other girls he sleeps with? You hope your first boyfriend would be like him.
A surprised moan escapes you after you try to pull him closer to you and your hips move against his. For a moment, you even forgot he was inside you. He has a wide grin on his face, clearly pleased at hearing this. With a hold on your hips, he slowly pulls out of you and just before the tip is out, he pushes back in. He observes your reaction, slowly gaining speed as your mouth loses its ability to close and is perpetually agape, letting a string of whimpers and mewls escape you.
“Lesson 2 is all about positions, baby.” Jaehyun starts, falling forward and uses one arm to hold himself up above you, “This is the most basic one: missionary. Guy on top.”
You can’t even process his words, mind clouded with lust as your body experiences something it never has before. It felt good… amazing — you couldn’t even explain it.
“How are you feeling, [Y/N]?”
“So,” You gasped, “Good.”
“Yeah?” He moves the hand on your hip up to your chest, giving one of them a hard squeeze. “You feel really good; nice and tight.”
He gives a particularly hard thrust and you gasped, holding onto his shoulders for purchase. “I’m going to go a little faster. Tell me if it’s too much and I’ll slow down.”
Right as he said it, his thrusts grew faster and faster. His movements shook the bed, the headboard bumping into the wall. Your body was burning hot, like he was pumping lava right inside your body, filling you up until you’re melting in his hold. 
“Jaehyun.” You moan, arching your back off the mattress. You don’t even know why you’re calling out to him. You just want to chant his name, so you did.
“God, I wish you could see yourself, baby. You’re taking me so well for your first time. Does it still hurt?”
“No.” You mewl, “I feel really good.”
“You’re so pure, [Y/N]. Fucking precious. Now look at you, enjoying your first time at sex. Think of all the other things I can teach you; things that’ll corrupt your innocent little mind.”
You whimper at his words. He sounds like he’s degrading you but why does it sound so hot? You voluntarily clench around him and earn a guttural moan from him.
“And you’re fucking enjoying it, aren’t you?” Jaehyun brings a hand down between you and massages your clit. “Like a fallen angel.”
There it was again; that tightening feeling in the pit of your stomach. You were afraid he’ll notice like the last two times and he’ll stop, but he doesn’t. His hips start to move frantically, gyrating against yours as he enters you deeper.
“Jaehyun.” You cry, “Wait—”
“It’s okay, baby, just let it go.” He hushes you, “I’m going to give you your very first orgasm.”
The fingers on your clit rubbed faster and you try to stop him, “Oh god—”
You feel like your bladder is full and you explode, convulsing beneath his body as his thrusts slowed to a stop. He kisses you, sloppily on the mouth, drowning out all your moans. You feel lightheaded, head spinning as you catch your breath after he moves his lips to your cheek.
“I—” You wheeze, “Wow.”
Jaehyun laughs, pecking your cheeks repeatedly. “Cute.”
His cock is still inside you, hard and throbbing. He sits up and carefully pulls out of you until his cock is freed and bobbing up to hit his abdomen. The sheer latex is shining with your essence. It hits you late, but you’re not a virgin anymore. You didn’t feel any different — well, you felt like you were on cloud nine — but you didn’t feel like anything changed.
You watch Jaehyun as he takes the condom off, tossing it to the floor and begins to touch himself. “What are you doing?”
“Just finishing myself off. You can rest up a bit and we can have dinner.”
“Can’t I help you? Why didn’t you come in me?” You sit up, although your body feels heavy.
“You can help me just by spreading your legs and giving me a nice view of your pussy.” Jaehyun kisses you, “Besides, you’re sensitive after coming. I wouldn’t want to overstimulate you on your first time.”
“I’m not sensitive.”
He raises a brow at you, pushing you back on the bed and ducking his head between your legs. He blows a soft puff of air on your vagina and you flinch, automatically trapping his head between your thighs as you try to close them.
“See? Be a good girl and listen to your teacher.” He teases, turning his attention back to your core.
“Then…” You lick your lips, “How about teaching me how to give a blowjob now?”
Jaehyun looks stunned, “I’m starting to think you’re not a virgin from the get-go…”
“Hey,” You frowned, “Why would I lie about that? I just like to learn.”
“Then you probably have a nympho asleep in you.” He crawls beside you, sitting against his headboard and motions for you to go between his legs.
Once you situate yourself between his legs, you take his dick into your hand and form a fist around it. He’s a lot wetter now, sticky from all the precum that accumulated. “Would it be a good thing if we wake her up?”
“Maybe.” He pets your head while you find a position you’re comfortable in, settling to lie flat on your stomach with his angry, leaking cock just by your face. “I’d love to see her.”
You kiss the tip, tasting the salty substance on your lips. You look up at him as you hesitantly licked him, collecting more of the precum on your tongue. He nods, chewing at his bottom lip. Glancing down at his cock, you lick a strip from the base of his length up until the tip. You do it a few more times until you wrap your lips around the head and gently suck.
“Fuck.” He grips your hair, the action stinging your scalp, “Don’t focus on the tip just yet. Try to take my entire cock in your mouth.”
“The entire thing?” You repeat, “Are you aware how thick this is?”
“Then take as much as you can. I’ve never been deepthroated before.” He sounds a little proud as he tells you this. He adjusts his grip on your hair, combing most of it to hold it back like a ponytail.
“Deepthroat? You mean shoving this thing all the way into the back of my throat? That sounds like torture.”
“I’m not telling you to do it. I’m just saying I’ve never had anyone put my entire cock into their mouth without gagging so badly.” He shrugs, “This is what you do: put as much as you can in your pretty little mouth and hold onto the rest, squeeze me a little, maybe twist your hand a bit. Just don’t bite me.”
You follow his instructions, getting probably a little more than a half of his length into your mouth.
“Now suck.” When he feels your lips wrapping snuggly around him, he pulls your head away from his cock and pushes you back down. “Again.”
You treated him like a salty push-pop, bobbing your head as you continue to suck him. His grip loosens on your hair once you get the hang of it and don’t need his guidance. Although you still look up at him through your lashes to make sure you’re doing okay and from the way his dick twitches in your mouth, he definitely likes it.
Curiosity and greed gets the better of you; is deepthroating him that big of a challenge? You push yourself down on him until your lips are at the base. Both your mouth and throat are squeezing down on him as you still attempt to suck his cock.
“Oh my god.” Jaehyun groans, throwing his head back and re-tightening his grip on your hair. “Fuck, [Y/N].”
You like how he moans your name and you want to hear more of it. Flattening your tongue on the underside of his dick, you dragged your mouth up just before releasing the tip and plunged his length back to your throat.
There was a frustrated grunt from him as he holds your head in place and starts to thrust into your mouth. It was a lot harder to control your gag reflex like this, but you stayed put and let him do as he pleases; it’s getting you excited, too. Tears spring to your eyes as you start to choke, losing your breathing pattern for a moment when his movement became sporadic.
“Oh, fuck.” He stills, plugging your entire mouth with his cock and making it a little hard to breathe. Warmth drips down your throat and once his grip loosens, you pull away. His cock is still twitching, still shooting out the thick liquid in your mouth.
And quite frankly, you hate it.
Out of courtesy, you wait until he’s done, falling slack against his headboard. As he catches his breath, he gives you a sleazy smile, reaching out to you but you bolt away from him.
“[Y/N]?” He worriedly calls out after you as you run into his ensuite bathroom.
Hurriedly, you switch the lights on and knelt down in front of the toilet to spit his load. You’ve never tasted something that foul in your life. It was like you tried to swallow salty battery acid — and you don’t even know what battery acid tastes like.
You feel fingers in your hair as Jaehyun helps you hold your hair back when you end up gagging yourself and emptying the contents of your stomach.
“I don’t want to do that again.” You wheeze, wiping the back of your hand over your mouth before flushing the toilet.
“That’s too bad, but for the record, I didn’t tell you to deepthroat me.” He helps you up and gestures you to the sink.
“I didn’t mean the deepthroating part,” You open the faucet and begin to wash out your mouth of the acidity left over, “I meant swallowing. Do other girls swallow your cum and not complain?”
He looks slightly offended, “Most do, some don’t…”
You pat your lips dry with tissue paper and throw it in the bin, “Then they’re either lying about wanting to swallow or your cum burned their taste buds off.”
Jaehyun huffs, “It can’t be that bad.”
“Then see for yourself.” You’re about to step forward when you feel something drip down between your thighs. The same translucent substance is dribbling down your length and you quickly clean it off with tissue paper.
“Are you hurting though?”
You glance back and you become hyper-aware that you’re still both very naked, and despite being intimate with each other just a few minutes ago, you become shy around him.
He’s quick to take notice of your sudden change in demeanor, trapping your body against the sink. He kisses your shoulder, “We just had sex, what are you getting shy for?”
“I don’t know.” You look at him through the reflection. Is this what it feels like having a boyfriend? You avoid his gaze just before he meets it through the mirror; you shouldn’t have those thoughts while you’re with him.
“Well, that’s our lesson for today. Unless you want to review.” He chuckles, cupping your boobs and kneading them with his palms.
You tear his hands away and laugh, “It’s a school night.”
“Oh, so if it wasn’t, you’d be down to go another round?”
You shrug your shoulders, “I thought you would have already figured out that I like to review things I’ve learned. Repeatedly. Even though I’ve understood the lesson already.”
“Fuck, [Y/N], don’t say things like that. I’ll get hard again.” He tuts, pinching your ass.
You yelp, giggling as you dodge another pinch from him. 
“Let’s get dressed and let me feed you before I take you home.” Jaehyun hums with a small smile, cupping your cheeks and kissing your lips.
Your heart flutters; a different kind of warmth floods your senses. It feels like all the holidays you get to go back to your family, greeting your siblings with bear hugs, and scarfing down all the meals your mother made from scratch. You move away from him, blinking your eyes and looking mortified at your realization.
Jaehyun mirrors your expression, pupils shaking as awkward silence surrounds you.
“Uhm,” He clears his throat, “I…”
“Can I,” You say at the same time with him, “use the bathroom?”
“Yeah, sure, I’ll— I’ll, uh, go down to the kitchen and dinner— prep dinner — prepare dinner.” He leaves you in the bathroom and closes the door for you.
You immediately wash your face to cool it down. What the hell was that? It couldn’t be what you thought it was. It should be the last thing on your mind after having sex with him. Falling in love with Jaehyun is out of the question; you want a storybook kind of romance — meet him in a bookstore type of situation. Not making a bet in the library that involves losing your virginity.
You switch the tap off and go out to put your clothes on. You stare at the mattress, the one you just lost your innocence on, and somehow remember Jaehyun’s face after the last kiss. It looks like he didn’t want to be in that kind of relationship with you either. You’re just another girl that he sleeps with and he’s just someone teaching you the ropes of it all. That’s all there is here.
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“Wanna take a break?”
You gasp out loud, dragging the tip of the neon green highlighter upwards onto words that didn’t need it. You stare at the jagged line in shock before sending a piercing glare to the reason behind it.
Jaehyun sheepishly apologizes, sitting down on the chair to yours.
“Why aren’t you studying for CSAT?” You cap your highlighter and close your review material.
It’s been a couple months now and Jaehyun still had plenty of things to teach you in terms of sex, but ever since his basketball training started, your meetings turned into something just a twice or thrice a month rather than the usual once every week. 
He’d taught you a handful of positions — that you all liked — and learned how to have sex in different places like under the bleachers and at the back of his car. Like in the very secluded corner of the library you two were in right now. He had you bent over the table once and from the looks of it, he wanted to do it a second time.
“I’m done for the day. You should take a break, too, you know.” He moves your materials away from you, “You’re top 2 in school. You don’t need to study that hard for CSAT.”
“Is there something else you want me to study?” Flirting with him got a lot easier, although you still get flustered from time to time, you’re still able to hold a flirty banter with him.
He taps your nose, “Smart girl. What are all the lessons I’ve taught you so far?”
“Foreplay. Positions. Masturbation,” You whisper; the library was full today since everyone was reviewing for the test this weekend. A few weeks back, he gave you “homework” to masturbate while thinking about him but with barely any privacy in your place and feeling awkward to even touch yourself, you failed the very first homework of your entire life. He made you sit between his legs and watch porn, guiding your hands in your panties. Shrugging, you finish answering, “And places. Is there still something you have yet to teach me?”
“Kinks.” Jaehyun slowly drags the tip of his tongue along his bottom lip, staring at your lips.
“Like… fetishes?” You glance at the opening of your secluded area, “You have fetishes?”
“A good number of them.” He hums, “But forget about me. We’re going to see if you have any kinks.”
“Well,” You feel embarrassed to say this out loud, but you’ve actually researched these things already. You wanted to surprise Jaehyun with something, but you never knew when to since he’s always in command of how things go, “I’ve read a couple of things.”
He grins at you, “Oh? Advance reading?”
You roll your eyes, “Shut up.”
“Okay, okay, sorry. So?”
“Your hands.”
“My hands?” He lifts one up in front of his face, “What about them?”
You get distracted just by seeing them, “Uhm, I like it when you touch me with them.”
There’s a growing smirk on his lips, “Touch you where?”
“Anywhere.” You watch as he holds his hand out to you and cup your cheek, “Everywhere.”
“Everywhere?” He repeats, moving his hand down to your neck and wraps it around your throat. “Even here?”
You gasp, your own hands flying to grab his wrist, “Jaehyun.”
“I’m not going to actually hurt you. Choking can be hot; it can increase pleasure during sex.” His gaze flickers down to where he held you, “It brings out this innocent little look on your face that I love.”
You scoff, “I’ve learned that you have a corruption kink.”
“And you’re to blame. God, it’s been months of fucking you but you’re still so innocent.” Jaehyun brings his hand down to your thigh, “Like a tainted angel.”
“I’m hardly an angel now.”
“Oh? Then spread your legs right now.”
You blink at him, “Now? But—”
“See? You’re hesitating.”
“I’m not doing this with you here, not when there are clearly more people in the library compared to the last time.”
He frowns, almost pouting, crossing his arms in front of him like a child put on timeout. He glances around and swiftly moves his chair beside yours. 
You warily watch him, confused at his actions until he brings his hand back to your thigh. “What are you doing?”
“No one’s gonna see and if you keep quiet, they’ll never know.” He inches his fingers under your skirt, close to touching your mound but you stop him.
You can’t deny that doing something risky like this in public — in school — gets you excited, although at the end of the day, you had to keep your dignity. You’re glad he’s kept his mouth shut about this arrangement as well, but it was rather odd that his friends don’t wonder where he goes off to when he goes to you.
“You’re already so wet, baby.” His fingers drew lines over your panties that were undeniably wet the moment he came up. It was a natural reaction for your body to want him just by looking at him at this point, craving to be touched like you are now.
Baby. He calls you this so fondly. Of course, it was only during times like these when he does so, but it makes your insides gooey and your heart flutter.
You exhaled slowly, eyes wide and staring at him. He merely smirks, thinking it was from his fingers slipping past your panties. This was the worst possible scenario; being fingered in public while you were reviewing for the CSAT — the test you cared about passing the most — by a boy out of your league and realizing you’re falling for him.
You’ve done so well for the past months to foster such feelings for him. Why now? Why now while you’re in the middle of messing around with him? While you were studying for the single most important test of your entire student life?
He flexes a finger inside of you and you flinch, grabbing his arm and biting down your lip.
“You like that, huh?” He teases, kissing your ear.
It’s not the only thing I like, you scream in your thoughts.
It doesn’t take long for you to come, shaking in his hold as he softly sucks on a patch of skin under your ear. He even fixes your panties for you before pulling his hand away and licking his fingers clean of your essence.
He notices how you’re still distraught, blown out eyes staring up at him and heaving slowly, and asks if you’re okay.
You manage to nod at him, waving his concern off and adjust yourself in your seat.
Jaehyun stands up and puts the chair back in its proper position, “I’ll go now. Good luck this weekend.”
“You, too.” You mutter, watching him leave and your heart drops. You’re not stupid. You know he’s only using you for sex and it wasn’t something you minded because you were benefiting from it too. He doesn’t see being in an actual romantic relationship with you, and you can’t blame him for it. You’ve made it very clear that school is your priority.
The only thing left to do is either tell him about your feelings and face the consequences, bottle it up and will them away, or end things with him and maybe these emotions will leave with him. After CSAT, you promise yourself, you’ll make a decision after this weekend. 
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“Am I in trouble?” You quietly ask, looking between the principal, Mr. Jang, and the guidance counselor, Ms. Kwon.
Ms. Kwon had run after you as you finished your CSAT, on your way to the front gate to meet up with Jungwoo, and she escorted you to the principal’s office. She’d been of tremendous help for you when you applied for scholarships. Your first thought was someone had caught you and Jaehyun somewhere in school and reported it, but didn’t think that was the case since he wasn’t in the office with you.
“Heavens, no. I would like to personally tell you and congratulate you about your scholarship in SNU.” Mr. Jang reminds you of a typical, jolly grandfather, had silver, combed-over hair, and wore suspenders everyday.
“S-scholarship?” You repeat, thinking you misheard him, “I-I thought… scholarship announcements aren’t made until the end of the school year.”
He grins at you, handing a large white envelope with the university insignia on it, “Yes, but they saw your outstanding school records and gave you approval right away. Congratulations, Ms. [L/N], your application for a full scholarship to SNU has been approved. You’re the first student in my 30 years working here to get one.”
Your mouth is perpetually agape, accepting the envelope and opening it right away. Your eyes scanned through the letter inside a couple times until it finally hit you: you’re going to SNU. “I… but…?”
“Of course, they still have to wait for the results of the CSAT, but it should be no problem for you, given your previous records. And between us three,” He leans forward on his desk, “You should start drafting your graduation speech.”
“My… graduation speech?” You pause, “You mean I’m valedictorian?”
“If you maintain your class standing and stay out of any trouble until finals, then congratulations again Ms. [L/N], you’re this year’s class valedictorian.”
“But… Jung Jaehyun—”
Mr. Jang sighs, “Ah, yes, Mr. Jung. His grades are remarkable, yes, but he has a couple of misdemeanors on his file to even qualify for salutatorian. It’s a shame. Are you friends with Mr. Jung?”
You open your mouth to answer, but you realize you don’t know what the answer is. You’re not exactly going to tell the school principal the exact premise of your relationship. But are you two even friends? “Uhm, we know of each other?”
“Hm, well I would avoid befriending Mr. Jung if I were you, Ms. [L/N]. I’m sure he’s a wonderful person, but he could still be a bad influence on you.”
Your stomach drops as you consider Mr. Jang’s words, nodding to them even though you were still processing it. Was he being a bad influence on you? 
As you leave the principal’s office, it finally hits you: you’re going to SNU. You’re going to your dream school with a full scholarship and there’s a high chance you’ll graduate as valedictorian. The slow, steady footsteps you took since stepping out of the office broke into a sprint as you ran towards the school gate to meet Jungwoo and tell him the good news. 
As you turn around the corner that led to the lockers, you almost collide into Jaehyun, who was just as surprised to see someone hurtling towards him.
“[Y/N]? Why are you crying?” He closes his locker and steps closer to you, concern etched on his face.
“Crying?” You touch your cheeks, feeling the damp streaks and laughing at it, “Oh. I didn’t know I was crying.”
“What’s wrong?”
You shake your head, “Nothing’s wrong. I’m— I’m just— Jaehyun, my application for a full scholarship to SNU has been accepted. I just need to score high on CSAT—”
“Then you’re definitely in! [Y/N]! Congrats!” He opens his arms to you and by instinct, you just jump into them and let him engulf you into a giant hug. “That’s amazing! You did it, [Y/N].”
“Thank you.” Your voice was muffled from having your face pressed up into his chest. You pull away first, “I can’t believe it.”
He offers you a small smile, “You’ve worked so hard for it. You deserve it. I’m really happy for you.”
A phone chimes just as you were about to thank him once more. You check yours and find an impatient, yet worried text from Jungwoo, who you had completely forgotten about. “I, uh, need to go.”
“Hey, wait.” Jaehyun stops you just as you were about to side step him, “We should celebrate this. There’s a party at Cha Eunwoo’s house tonight. You should come.”
“It’s a Saturday. I have work tonight, remember?”
He looks disappointed, “You’re going to work after taking the most draining exam in our lives?”
You shrug, apologetically, “I need the money. Big crowds aren’t my thing either.”
“Then how about just the two of us? Tomorrow night. I’ll drive you somewhere out of town and we’ll get drive thru.”
Your heart races in excitement at the prospect, but you catch yourself. That sounds like a date although you knew it would end up with the two of you doing it at the back of his car. Nonetheless, you agree to the arrangement and wave at him before leaving.
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“But Auntie,” You stand up to take the dishes from her, but she swats your hands away, “I don’t mind working tonight.”
“[Y/N]! You and Jungwoo can have the weekend off! You two have worked so hard. And to think you got the scholarship for SNU!” She tuts, sashaying to the sink, “If I could afford it, you can have the entire week off with paid leave!”
“She’s our valedictorian, too!” Jungwoo pipes up, doing a little shimmy after taking a bite of the cake his parents got the both of you for finishing the exam.
“All the more reason for you not to work.” She pinches your cheek. “Isn’t there a party or two being thrown by your schoolmates? There’s bound to be one, right? There were about 8 during my time. You two should go to one.”
Jungwoo brings his empty plate to the sink and exclaims, “Oh, yeah! Eunwoo invited me to his party. Do you wanna go?”
You stare at him, “Cha Eunwoo? You know him?”
“We were classmates last year. We’re not close, but he’s really nice and friendly.” He claps his hands, “Oh, let’s go, [Y/N]!”
A part of you only agreed because you wanted to see Jaehyun. It would be hard to interact with him since your real relationship with him was still a secret, but you still wanted to see how he’d react to see you there. Perhaps that’s the reason behind the extra effort of getting ready; putting on that same dress you wore to Mark’s party, patting the lightest blush on your cheeks and a soft red tint on the inner parts of your lips, and spritzing perfume on your hair. 
“Wow, all this for Jaehyun?” Jungwoo teased, simply changing out of his house clothes into a pair of blue jeans and a raglan shirt. 
“Shut up.” You snap, “Wait, is it too much?”
“No.” He shrugs, “I just noticed because I’m not used to it. I bet he’ll appreciate it though. Are you ready?”
After another look in the mirror, you let Jungwoo lead the way to Eunwoo’s house. It was only a short bus ride there and it was the richer side of town, a few streets away from Jaehyun’s. You’ve never met him and you’re pretty sure you’ve never interacted with him either. You just know that he’s one of Jaehyun’s close friends, also part of the basketball team, and just as popular with the girls from school.
It takes no less than half an hour for the two of you to arrive, spotting the other teens walking up to the huge house that had strobe lights and muffled music blasting inside.
“I can tell I’m not gonna like it inside.” You warily watch a rowdy group of boys cheer each other on as a ssireum contest begins in the empty, open garage. “We don’t have to stay long, right?”
“Let’s have a few drinks and leave.” Jungwoo walks up to the house and you follow closely behind him.
Not all the faces were even familiar to you, maybe they’re from other schools. The music gets progressively louder as you walk up to the open door and you can pick out a few voices trying to talk over the bass. Past the door, Jungwoo greets a few people and you offer them all a small smile. They all seem surprised to see you here, obviously knowing this isn’t your kind of scene. Jungwoo holds a conversation with them and you look around some more.
There were people drinking out of red cups, bouncing on the balls of their feet to the fast tempo song, some were brave enough to make out against walls, and others were just blatantly humping each other in lieu of dancing. You make eye contact with a girl who you recognize as Kim Minkyung, twin sister of Kim Mingyu, who was also another close friend of Jaehyun’s. She was notoriously aloof and introverted compared to her social butterfly of a brother. 
Minkyung stares at you, eyes just squinting slightly as if to discern if it was really you she was seeing, and you feel both confused and nervous by it. Is it really that weird that you’re at a party? You break eye contact with her to tell Jungwoo you’re heading to the kitchen to grab drinks for the two of you.
It was a big house, bigger than Jaehyun’s, but you think you can guess where the kitchen was from the number of people leaving the room with a drink in hand. You managed to catch Minkyung’s gaze again and her expression this time looked… worried? You ignore it and step into the white room. There were food and drinks lined up on the kitchen island and counters, a large stack of red cups beside a keg. As you approached it to get beer for Jungwoo, a roar of laughter erupts in the next room over. Being naturally curious, you walked over to the opening and peered through other curious people’s shoulders to see what the commotion was about.
It looked like the dining room with a large wooden table in the middle that had been turned into a beer pong arena. You see Kim Mingyu taking a shot beside the house owner, Cha Eunwoo, over to the other side and huffs as he misses his shot. Looking over at their opponent, your chest constricts. It was the soccer team’s MVP, Nakamoto Yuta, who was also your acquaintance as he liked to crash the board games club from time to time to bother Mark, and his partner for the math, the only boy you wanted to see in this party.
Jaehyun had his signature black outfit on; you’ve spied the contents of his closet once and reeled at the sight of it being 80 percent black, 15 percent white, and just a handful of miscellaneous colored clothing articles. His hair was pushed back to prevent the fringes getting into his eyes. But that’s not what you’re focused on, that’s not what made your heart crack. With one hand, he held a ping pong ball, waiting for his turn, while the other held another girl’s hand.
Areum. You think that’s her name. That’s right, Cho Areum. She’s the embodiment of her name; beautiful and stunning from head to toe. Funnily enough, she’s part of the cheer squad. Classic, you think, a cheerleader and a basketball player. A cliche, but perfect pair.
It’s finally Jaehyun’s turn and he gets the ping pong ball right into the farthest cup, and his team rejoices. He gladly turns his head to Areum and your heart falls to the floor, shattering in tiny pieces as your ears ring. You’ve never felt jealous in your entire life, you just weren’t raised that way. You’ve lived your life with people who have so much more than you, but you never wished you were in their shoes until you see Areum. She’s pretty, she’s tall, she’s also top 20, meaning she’s smart, too. She also gets to kiss Jaehyun in public, while you’re just the girl he keeps a secret.
But now you’re just confused. Was he cheating on her with you? And if he was, why would he cheat on her for you? 
Your thoughts are interrupted when a hand is placed on your shoulder and you turn to find Minkyung, looking distastefully at the same scene you were witnessing.
“You shouldn’t be here.” She finally turns to you, voice soft and almost sympathetic. “They’re going to make fun of you if they see you, especially with your eyes looking wet. Come on.”
You blink and you realize what she was talking about as your vision blurred. You nod and she leads you away from the party, out to the backyard where there were less people and considerably darker. You sit by each other on a lounge chair and stare at the pool.
“I don’t…” You pause, not knowing what to ask.
“My brother and his friends aren’t nice people.” Minkyung states, looking past the pool and into the window that showed the living room. “They spend a lot of time after school at our house so I know about the things they talk about… all the shit they do.”
“Okay…” You don’t know where she’s going with this but your gut tells you it’s not going to be good.
“At the start of the year, the basketball team was at our house and they were drinking. And I don’t know how it came to be but someone suggested to make a checklist for all the girls they should fuck. From every clique like a girl's sports team to distinguished individuals… like the class valedictorian.” She glances at you, apologetically, as if it was her fault or to apologize on her brother’s behalf. “But I guess yours was a different case.”
“I’m… wait, I don’t understand—”
“Everyone agreed that it would be hard to sleep with you. No one knew you well enough until someone pointed out that you and Jaehyun were always volleying the top 1 spot between each other every semester. But even he didn’t think he could do it, so his friends did the only thing that would make him agree to trying to sleep with you. They made a bet and riled him up because everyone knows how competitive Jung Jaehyun is.”
You let her words sink in, “So he made a bet with me to be top 1 and offer to teach me sex so he could win an entirely different bet.”
“Wait a minute—” Minkyung grabs your wrist, “He said he’d teach you sex? Oh my god, that’s just fucking gold.”
She bolts up to her feet and scornfully laughs, pacing in front of you.
“What?”
“Let me guess,” She spins back to face you, “He’ll teach you lesson by lesson because you can’t learn a whole new world in a couple nights? That lesson 1 is foreplay, 2 is positions, and so on?”
“H-how did you know that?”
“Because he said the same things to me 3 years ago. Jung Jaehyun took my virginity from under the guise that he liked me, too. And guess what? When shit went down, he turned my own brother against me. He turned the person I shared a womb with against me and branded me a slut. Don’t you ever wonder why I don’t run in the same circle as my twin? Mingyu used to be so protective of me; I was off limits to his friends until Jaehyun happened. He joins his friends branding me a slut. Jung Jaehyun ruined my life and he’s going to ruin yours.” Minkyung grabs your shoulders and squeezes them, “Walk away from him now, [Y/N]. Please, I know we’re not friends but I’m telling you the truth. You saw him with your own eyes; was it you he was kissing in there? Because here’s the cold, hard truth, [Y/N]: Jaehyun owns each and everyone of us, but we can never own him for ourselves.”
You expel a harsh breath, unaware you had been holding your breath. You stare into her eyes and it’s glistening under the underwater pool lights. You wanted to give Jaehyun the benefit of the doubt, but you could sense how genuine and concerned Minkyung is.
“Okay.” You mumble, licking your lips. You’re better off without him anyways. Aside from sex, what else has he given you? You stand up and accept the hug Minkyung offers as she holds out her arms for you. “Thanks.”
“I wish I warned you sooner. I’ve tried to warn every girl he was after — or any girl the team was going after — but my reputation makes it hard for them to believe me. If anything, they made it worse.” She pulls away and looks back into the house. “Thanks for believing me.”
You follow her gaze and see Jaehyun, jumping to the beat of the song playing, with Areum in tow. “Does she know he’s cheating on her?”
“Areum? They’re not exclusive, that’s what he claims. She says they’re in an open relationship, so she probably knows about you.”
Knowing that she, as well as his friends, knows about you and Jaehyun sleeping together doesn’t sit well with you. Does he tell them about it every time? They must laugh at how innocent and pathetic you were.
“God,” Minkyung scowls, “What did I even see in him? If he wasn’t at the top of the class, I would have believed he had a dick for a brain.”
You giggle at this, knowing she’s doing her best to lighten the mood.
“I’m surprised he hasn’t gotten anyone pregnant yet.” She laughs, “I wonder how he’d react to that.”
Your laughter falters.
Minkyung watches as you scramble to take your phone out, opening up an app you kept to track your period. You had a normal cycle, this tracker is proof. But the past month has been so hectic that you didn’t even notice.
“I’m… two weeks late.” You look to her for help, fingers shaking in panic. “I’m never late. I—”
“Wait, [Y/N], calm down. Being late for your period doesn’t mean you’re pregnant.”
“I know that!” You exclaim, “But what if I am?”
You think about your scholarship, graduation, your parents — how are you going to tell your parents if you were, in fact, pregnant?
Before you bring yourself into a panic attack, Minkyung shakes your arm, “[Y/N], calm down. Do you want to take a pregnancy test?”
“I can’t take that back home—”
“Then take it back at my place. I’ll buy you the pregnancy test.” She fishes car keys out of her pockets, “Come on. Mingyu can find a ride home himself, I don’t even know why I let him drag me to be his personal driver.”
“Why are you so nice to me?”
Minkyung doesn’t answer immediately until she shrugs her shoulders, “If I were in your position, I’d wish someone would be there who understands and helps out.”
She was right. You don’t even know how Jungwoo would react, let alone do.
“Wait, let me go back inside and tell Jungwoo I’ll be going.”
“Kim Jungwoo? He’s gay, right?”
You gasp, petrified at her question, “How did you— I mean, no!”
She chuckles, “Don’t worry. I understand. It takes one to know one. I’ll go get the car. It’s a red volvo.”
As she leaves, you head back inside to look for Jungwoo and it’s not that hard thanks to his height. You flag him down, grabbing his wrist and dragging so you could talk right into his ear. 
“Can I go ahead? I’m not comfortable.”
“Okay, let me say goodbye—”
“No! You’re clearly having fun. It’s not that late, I can go home by myself.” You try to walk away, but he seizes your hand.
“Are you okay? You look like you’re about to cry.”
Bless his heart. Only Jungwoo could read you like a book. But you’re not ready to tell him, not until you’re sure, so you just smile and nod. Fortunately, he lets you go and you quickly make your way through the crowd to reach the front door. Just as you were about to step out, a hand wraps around your wrist and you think it’s Jungwoo.
But of course it wasn’t.
“Hey, you came.” Jaehyun lets go of you once you turn around. “I thought you had a shift?”
“Yeah. I’m heading back over now. I thought I’d drop by with Jungwoo.” You hug yourself, doing your best to meet his eyes so he wouldn’t suspect anything. In your peripheral vision, you see his friends watching from another room. “So, I have to go.”
“Did you try and find me?”
The wording to his question was off, but you shake your head, “The crowd is a little… overwhelming. I don’t think I could have seen you even if I tried… I’m gonna be late for shift change.”
“Do you want me to drive you there? My car’s at the house though—”
“Then no.” You forced a smile, “You don’t have to. I’ll be fine.”
Jaehyun frowns, but relents, stuffing his hands in his pockets, “Okay. Tomorrow then?”
“Tomorrow?”
“Our own little celebration about your scholarship?”
“Oh… yeah, sure.” You try to think of an excuse to back out of it, but you’re too flustered under his gaze to even do so. “S-see you then.”
He cracks a smile, and maybe it’s just your feelings for him, but you swear he seems genuinely excited about it, “Okay. I’ll text you.”
You turn around and start to walk, taking slow steps out the door until you see a red volvo pull up. Minkyung rolls down the window to let you know it was her and you get in. After putting the seatbelt on, she hands you a pack of tissues.
“You can cry. I’m not going to judge you.”
“I know.” You let the initial tears slip down your cheeks. “I should have known something like this was going to happen.”
She rubs your back for a while before starting the car and driving away. It was strange to think you barely talked to her for an hour but still felt closer to her than Jaehyun, who you’ve spent months with. Did she have a pregnancy scare as well? More importantly, did she have someone to confide to?
You finally let yourself break down into a sob. It was dumb and foolish of you to think he had the best intentions for you. You were both in it for the sex and all you asked was for it to be kept secret, but the worst people to find out about it already knew about it. It was stupid of you to even fall for him — no, it was more stupid of you to make a bet with him in the first place. You can’t even believe you walked into that party with the intention of confessing your feelings for him.
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“He’s still coming by the store. You should have never told him where you worked.”
You sigh, lathering the washed cabbage heads with the bright red paste your mother had already made. It was the holidays and you went back home to your family like you always did. Being with them brought you so much relief after everything that had happened after CSAT. You excitedly told them about the scholarship, presenting the letter as proof, as well as the high chance of you graduating as valedictorian. You even introduced Minkyung to them through video call as you two had become considerably close. The only thing you left out to your parents was Jaehyun. They didn’t need to know that at all.
You thanked every god and your lucky stars that you weren’t pregnant — the missed weeks probably due to the stress — and the dreaded red week came a few days when you went back home.You had burst into tears of joy at the sight of blood stained sheets and your mother excused it as your hormones acting up.
As for Jaehyun, you didn’t reply back to him when he asked if you were ready to meet up the day after the party. You didn’t pick up his calls. You worked twice as hard, enlisting Jungwoo and Minkyung’s help, to avoid running into him at school. Minkyung had to block his number for you because you didn’t have the heart to do it. You felt bad for doing this to him, but they reminded you of everything he did to you and you just feel just a tiny bit of guilt for ghosting him.
But as Jungwoo had just reported over the group call you had with him and Minkyung, he came by the convenience store almost everyday, hoping to catch you on your shift. When Jungwoo finally snapped and told him you were back at home, he comes in every other day to ask where you lived.
“I would ban him from the store if I were you.” Minkyung suggests.
“You know I would’ve if I could.” Jungwoo gripes, “But you can’t ban people if they’re just annoying you. I can’t even say it’s borderline harassment since he leaves after I shoo him off.”
“I don’t get it.” You huff, stuffing the freshly made kimchi into a large jar. “Min, you said he’d stop after a week. It’s almost the end of Christmas break and he’s still trying to contact me.”
“I’m just as confused as you. Maybe his pride is hurt. He’s the one being dumped for the first time and you know what? Good for you, [Y/N], for being the first to break his heart.”
You smile at them through the camera, but you hope it was believable enough through the screen. You’re still in love with him. You realize this after finding yourself constantly thinking and worrying about him when you’re not occupied with house chores or farm work. You’ll never tell Jungwoo or Minkyung, but a part of you really misses him.
“Oh my god, he’s here at my house.” Minkyung whispers as if he could hear her as she peeks through her blinds. “I’m gonna eavesdrop on them.”
“Kyung.” You warn, wiping your hands on a kitchen towel after you washed them. “You don’t have to.”
“I want to.” She huffs, “What if he’s trash talking you? You’re my friend now and this is my house, I have every right to throw him out.”
“If he’s trash talking me, then I’m gonna want to talk to him. You know,” You put the jars of kimchi you made into the fridge, “For closure.”
“Oh, sweetheart.” Minkyung sighs, “That’s a dangerous plan.”
“I agree.” Jungwoo pipes in, “He was able to convince you to sleep with him. He can definitely do it again. You’re in a vulnerable state, [Y/N], whether he knows that or not. You don’t have any prior knowledge on this while he’s an expert.”
“It’s breaking off a relationship — not even, it was just a deal we made.” You look outside the window to make sure your family is still outside, “How hard could it be?”
“Says the girl who let someone teach her sex after losing a bet.” Minkyung snides, “Your emotions could get the better of you once you face him. I think it’s better to avoid him until he finally accepts the fact that you’re done with him.”
And she was right. Although you really did want to talk to him, at least one last time and face to face, they were right about him possibly coercing you again. You didn’t think you would fall for him this hard even though you know about what he’s done.
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Returning to the city a week before the holiday break ends always puts you into a sad mood since you have to leave your family and now it makes you feel anxious because you can’t possibly hide from Jaehyun until graduation. Minkyung tells you that he and his friends will be out of town for a few days and she invites you over to hang out. Jungwoo couldn’t come because he and his parents visited his older sister’s family.
“As promised,” You said after greeting Minkyung as she opened the front gate, “Kimchi made by yours truly using my mom’s pepper paste made from our farm’s chili peppers.”
It was a sizable container, good for a family of 5 for two weeks at most. Minkyung squeals as she accepts it, “Thank you! I’m so excited to try it out. We’re definitely eating this for dinner later.”
Her house had almost the same layout as Mark’s house, but had a more contemporary interior.
“Oh my god,” You gasp, approaching the photo wall and pointing at a portrait of two children as you unwrapped the scarf from your neck, “You’re so cute!”
“Our mother was obsessed with making us match clothes before.” She sighs, stopping beside you.
“Wow, you two looked really identical.”
Minkyung scoffs, “Yeah, thank god we don’t anymore.”
Before she turns to lead you to the kitchen, you swear you caught a frown form on her face.
You two had a baking agenda today ever since you found out she loved to bake with her mother when she was younger but never got to do it again since her mother got busy with work. She still bakes from time to time but doesn’t find it as fun when someone else is around.
The kitchen island had all the ingredients laid out and the oven had preheated. You two only talked about making cookies and cupcakes, but it looked like there were enough to make cake and bread.
Minkyung puts the kimchi inside their fridge and you wait for her in front of the ingredients, “So how do we go about this?”
“Let’s do a headstart on cupcakes first so they can cool down before we get to decorate them.”
It feels like a nice change to be hanging out with another girl. You love Jungwoo, but there are things you can’t say or do with him because it felt too awkward. Also, compared to you, he has other friends he likes to hang out with while you can count all yours with one hand. Minkyung was a lot bubblier once you got to know her. She always kept to herself in school and seemed so chic and mysterious, but was just as eccentric and clumsy as Jungwoo. It was a weird way to start a friendship, sharing the same experiences with Jaehyun, but you’re really glad you’ve become friends with her.
A couple of hours into baking, you took charge of icing the last couple of cupcakes while Minkyung tries a bite of the experimental cookies you made with cinnamon and marshmallows.
“Is it good?” You place the cupcake you finished icing on the cake rack.
She walks over to you to feed you a piece, “Like a starbucks drink. It’s not bad, no?”
It did taste like a starbucks drink made into a cookie, but you liked it. “I think it’s okay. Nothing beats your chocolate chip, though. I can’t wait to go back home and make it for my siblings. Thanks for sharing your recipe. I promise to take it to my grave.”
“Tell me what they think of it.” Both of you pause when you hear the car gates creaking open. She looks at you, clearly confused, “Did my mom come home early?”
You put the piping bag down and went to wash your hands in the sink of stray icing as she bounds towards the foyer. Minkyung talks fondly of her mom and mentions how she wanted to meet you. You dry your hands on the apron before taking it off, placing on the counter and following after her.
Just as you walk out of the kitchen doorway, you hear Minkyung exclaiming, “Why are you here?”
It was a split second realization from the hostile tone of her voice that tells you who was at the front door, however your body reacts a split second too late and you end up stepping into the hallway that led to the foyer.
“[Y/N]?”
You’re frozen in your spot, absolutely mortified to see Jaehyun standing behind Mingyu.
“What are you…?” He steps forward and pauses, connecting the dots in his head. He turns to Minkyung and grabs her arm, “What did you tell her?”
“The truth about you.” She hisses, shaking his hold off. Once she does, she moves away from him and closer to you. “You ruined my life and I’m not going to let you ruin hers.”
“Don’t be so dramatic, sis.” Mingyu puts an arm out between them.
Jaehyun moves around him to walk towards you, but Minkyung blocks him. He scowls at her, “[Y/N], whatever she told you is a lie.”
The Jaehyun in front of you scared you; he looked so angry and hurt… like that time he got benched in sophomore year. His jaw is tight and his nostrils are flaring as he and Minkyung stared each other down.
“No, it’s the truth.” She glances back at you, gaze firm and unwavering.
“Kyung, give it up.” Her brother grabs her hand, “It’s been, what? 2? 3 years? Get over it.”
Minkyung indignantly huffs, slowly turning her head back to them, “Get over it? He took everything from me and you just want me to get over it? He took everything from me.”
Her voice cracks as she begins to sob, shoulders dropping as she faces her brother. “And you let him, Mingyu… You chose him over me, your goddamn twin sister.”
Your heartbreaks at the scene in front of you. Minkyung always made snide remarks about her brother, scowling as she speaks about him, but that frown you caught earlier should have told you that she misses him. You can’t imagine the pain she feels of losing someone she spent her whole life with — her own brother — and be torn apart because of something Jaehyun had said and done.
Minkyung sniffs, snatching her hand away from Mingyu and walks to you, “I’m sorry. We were having so much fun… but I want to be alone right now. I’ll drive you home—”
“No, go ahead. I…” Your eyes flit towards Jaehyun, “I want to talk to him.”
She stares at you, briefly sending a glare over to him, “Are you sure?”
You nod, “I can’t run away from forever. I’ll be fine.”
She gives you a tight hug before heading towards the stairs. Mingyu tries to stop her but she starts to run up the steps.
“I’m gonna talk to her.” Mingyu pats Jaehyun’s arm, spares a glance at you, and goes up after his sister.
You and Jaehyun stood in the foyer, awkwardly waiting for each other to say something.
“Can we talk?” He finally breaks the silence.
“Yeah.” A door being pounded on and shouting was heard above your heads and you smack your lips, “Uhm, somewhere else?”
“Yeah, okay,” He takes his car keys out of his pocket, “I know a place.”
Sensing your hesitation, he quickly follows it up with, “Don’t worry, it’s not my house.”
You decide to trust him, gathering your things and following him out the door to his car. It felt weird to be seated back inside and even weirder to think about the times you’ve spent together in it. He plugs his phone to the aux cord and chooses a random song to play on the softest volume before he begins to drive.
“I thought you guys had an out of town trip?” You quietly ask, seeing the duffel bag on the backseat.
“Yeah.” He clicks his tongue, “We were uninvited. The villa we were going to is owned by Areum’s family and you can say I chose the wrong day to upset her.”
“What did you do?”
Jaehyun sighs, keeping his attention on the road, “You know, when you didn’t respond to my texts, I got worried about you. I thought you got in trouble or something. You wouldn’t pick up my calls, Jungwoo wouldn’t tell me where the fuck you were, and up until I realized you blocked my number, I started to understand the situation.”
You turn your attention to the window, watching the world pass by.
“You saw us, didn’t you? Me and Areum. You saw us that night at the party? Is that why you stopped talking to me?”
“It’s so much more than that.” You cut in, making sure your voice is as steady as you can make it out to be, “Besides, it’s not my business. I’m just the girl you keep a secret—”
You let out a disbelieved laugh, “Wait, I can’t even say I’m the girl you’ve been secretly fucking.”
“What are you talking about?”
Taking a deep breath, you ask him, “Is it true that you and your friends made a — a fuck checklist and I was on it?”
The car was stopped at a red light, it was the only time for him to look at you but he chooses not to.
“Did you agree to a bet with your friends that you could sleep with me? And that was what prompted you to approach me in the library in the first place?”
He finally looks at you, stunned like a deer caught in the headlights, and it was enough to break your heart all over again. He opens his mouth to respond, but the car behind you honks its horn and Jaehyun starts to drive, not noticing the green light.
“All I wanted was for us to be a secret. I wouldn’t care about Areum or any other girl… or so I thought,” You grumble the last part, “I thought you were holding up that end of the deal, but it turns out people already knew. God, Jaehyun! For someone who’s top 2 in school, I’m so fucking stupid to believe you.”
He stops the car and lets out a heavy breath, “I’m sorry.”
“You think that’s enough?” You snap, facing forward and seeing a lakeside picnic area. “Where are we?”
“My parents and I went here during spring when I was younger. I like to come here and just watch the water.” He licks his lips, “I was supposed to take you here that day after the party.”
“Why?”
“I…” He shrugs, “I’m gonna sit outside for awhile. You can join me if you want.”
“It’s nearly 3 degrees outside.”
He opens the door and the cold rush of air makes you hug yourself. He steps out and closes the door behind him, walking up to one of the picnic tables to brush off some of the snow and sit down on it, looking off into the distance of the frozen lake.
You gather up the courage to face the biting, icy air,  pulling the hood of your jacket up and going after him. You take a seat on the bench of the table beside his and hide half your face into your scarf. His face was ghastly white, save for the apples of his cheeks, tip of his nose and ears, and his lips that were bright red.
“Do you have plans to freeze to death?”
Jaehyun chuckles, “I like winter.”
“I prefer spring.” You mumble, crossing your arms to preserve your body warmth. Looking back at the lake, you comment, “Must have been a nice view if I had gone with you that day.”
“I personally think it’s a nice view all year round.”
Silence falls over the two of you, along with it was the awkwardness and tension. You feel like you couldn’t breathe despite being in an open area.
“It’s true.” He breaks the silence after a few minutes, “We were all drunk and I don’t even remember who suggested it, but everyone thought it was a great idea — a fuck list. From cheerleaders, to band geeks, to bisexuals… to the valedictorian… one of us will sleep with any of those and it’ll be checked off the list.”
This makes your stomach churn; disgusted and disappointed at the thought. Being drunk isn’t an excuse for the nasty things that go through someone’s head.
“No one was willing to do you. No one had connections to you. Until Eunwoo said we were always switching places as top 1 every semester. They said it would be like an ice breaker between us and they left me to think about how I could get in your pants.” He took in a deep breath, “But believe me, I didn’t want to. I didn’t even think you’d give me the time of day. You didn’t seem interested in anyone and your nose was always stuck between textbooks. So they riled me up and I let them push me into doing it.”
“And then you orchestrated this whole plan of baiting me into making a different bet with you where you try to sleep with me and disguised it as teaching me sex.” You click your tongue, “I was a much easier target than you thought, huh?”
“It was supposed to be a one time thing, but I meant what I said that you can’t just learn sex in one night.”
“Minkyung said you told her the exact same words 3 years ago.” Your heart grows heavy at the thought of her, “Did you even really like her back?”
Jaehyun closes his eyes, hanging his head low and slowly shaking it sideways. “No.”
“How could you turn twins against each other?” You scowl, “I can’t even fathom how you were able to do that!”
“Well, I don’t either! I care about Mingyu, too. I knew he’d kill me if I even dared touch Minkyung, but she practically offered herself up to me.”
“Choose your words carefully, Jung.” You warn, gritting your teeth, “That doesn’t mean you accept it, let alone use that fact against her. She was— was ostracized! By her own brother!”
“That’s on him! I know what I did was shitty and I owe her an apology. I’m not the same boy I was 3 years ago!” He shoots up from his seat and walks closer to the lake, “My high school life is full of regrets, okay? I have vices. I let my dick decide for me. I’m a fucking teenager. I know I’ve hurt people and they probably won’t forgive me so I don’t bother with apologizing to their faces, but I regret my actions, alright?”
“So you regret sleeping with me?”
Jaehyun looks back at you, staring into your eyes with an unreadable expression. After a moment, he inhales, ���I regret sleeping with you under those circumstances.”
You frown, “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“I liked being with you. Aside from the sex or the pillow talk — the small conversations in my car or at the library… I looked forward to those the most.”
“Then why did we always have sex?”
“Because that’s what you were looking forward to.”
“Because that’s the reason why we were meeting up in the first place!” You exclaim, “If you wanted to talk, you could have just told me. We can be actual friends, you know.”
“But what if,” Jaehyun nervously licks his lips, blinking rapidly as the wind picks up a bit, “What if I wanted to be more?”
Your ears are ringing as if they popped. Did you hear him right? He wanted to be more than friends? “But… Areum…”
He immediately denies it, “We’re not even dating. I mean, we act like we are, but all we’re doing is using each other. We have sex and she uses me as a status symbol or something — we got uninvited to her villa because I told her last night that I didn’t want to share a room with her. I didn’t want to do anything with her anymore, to be exact.”
“Why?”
“What do you mean why? I like you!”
You gaped at him like he had grown a second head, “You like me? Jaehyun, you could literally have anyone — anyone — in the whole world!”
“Then why can’t I have you?”
“But…” You shake your head, “Why me?”
Now it was Jaehyun’s turn to look at you bewilderedly, “Why not you?”
“God! You know I hate it when you answer my questions with a question!” You stand up and march towards him, “Why would you choose me over Areum or Minkyung—”
“Stop bringing other people into this,” He interjects, “This is about you and me.”
“You’re better off with them. Or anybody else.” You look down at your feet to avoid his gaze, “I don’t have time to be in a committed relationship. Not when high school is almost done and college is around the corner.”
“I had a feeling you’d say that.” His lips form a forlorn smile, “I wanted to tell you earlier. I wanted to tell you that day we were supposed to come here.”
“You wanted to tell me that day?” You repeat, waiting for him to confirm, “You wanted to tell me that you like me that day when just the night before you were partying with another girl… kissing her and holding her hand… you want me to believe that you like me the entire time you were doing those things with her?”
Jaehyun starts to look flustered, “I-I told you. Areum and I aren’t dating. It’s all for show—”
“Could’ve fooled me.” You say in a higher pitch than your regular voice. “Do you hear yourself? You wanted to tell another girl you liked her after you were with someone else the night prior?”
“[Y/N], just listen to me first—”
“No. You listen to me.” You demand, “I was on cloud nine that day, Jaehyun. My scholarship application for my dream university was accepted, I was told I was graduating as valedictorian... just all the hard work I’ve dedicated my entire school life was paying off. I didn’t mean for you to be the first one to know, but I wanted to celebrate it with you, too — so, so badly, Jaehyun.”
Your sight starts to blur as you pause to take a breath, “I didn’t mean to go to that party, but I wanted to see you again. I spent extra time to fix myself up for you because you always called me nice things when I was naked and I wanted to hear you say those things when I’m clothed. I hate crowds — I hate them so much because I feel so out of place, but I ignored them all. I just wanted to see you. And I did. And I saw her.”
Your throat burns as you do your best to choke down your tears. He watches you, unmoving and unsure, so you continue speaking.
“And— and I-I’ve never… I’ve never felt that, you know? Just pure pain in my chest. I’ve never been jealous of anyone until I saw her. My head hurt with so many questions and if Minkyung hadn’t brought me out, I would have passed out. When she told me her story, my heart ached even more. I couldn’t believe you were capable of doing that to anyone but our stories matched up, word for word, Jaehyun. It made sense and up until on the way here, I would have given you the benefit of the doubt, but you didn’t even deny it.” Unable to hold back, you start to sob, “I wanted to tell you I loved you that night, Jaehyun.”
Saying those words out loud brought both relief and horror to your system; it felt nice to have something you kept to yourself for so long to finally see the light of day, but the last person you wanted to hear them was the person those words were for.
He’s visibly astonished by your confession; eyes wide and misty, and mouth agape, letting you see the soft wisps of his warm breath react to the cold air.
“H-how long have you been…”
You angrily shrug your shoulders, “I don’t know. I had inklings of it every time you were sweet to me, but I ignored them. But I knew I was when I saw you with Areum… because why else would my heart break for someone who isn’t mine.”
“I can be yours.” Jaehyun takes a step forward but you put your hand up to stop him, “It’s not too late, [Y/N].”
“I had a pregnancy scare, Jaehyun.” You softly admit, “I realized I was late, ironically, at the party and Minkyung took me back to her place so I can take a pregnancy test. It came out negative, but until I finally got my period days after I went back home to my parents, I was so fucking scared, Jaehyun.”
“Fuck.” He curses, “Shit, I’m sorry, [Y/N]. I… I should have told you the condom broke.”
Your ears were ringing again. It was as if the entire world decided to stop and the silence was deafening.
“You knew the condom broke and you didn’t tell me…?”
“I panicked, too! It’s the first time it happened—”
“Well, fuck, Jaehyun! Congratulations, you know what to do next time it does!” You start to breathe heavily, remembering the anxiety you felt a few weeks ago. “Do you know how hard it is to look my parents in the eye and tell them everything is fine when in the back of your mind you don’t know if you’re pregnant or not? And if I was, how the fuck am I going to explain our relationship to them? I’m the breadwinner of the family. I had one goal: succeed in school to get a good job in the city. Getting pregnant in high school? That is the easiest way to ruin everything both me and my parents have worked hard for.”
He swallows hard, “Would you have kept… the baby?”
You answer in a broken voice as another sob escapes you, “Yes.”
“I wouldn’t have let you go through that alone, [Y/N].” Jaehyun holds your hands, both frosty from being exposed to the winter weather, “I’m going to take responsibility. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, [Y/N]. I should have told you the moment I found out. I’m sorry you had to go through that alone.”
Your palms started to feel warm now that he held them tightly. This was the first contact you had with him in weeks. You would have thought you would crave more, but you don’t. You liked his hands, you told him this, you liked it that he touched you with them, but now they just felt like any other set of hands.
“You’re as clueless at love as me… just like how I was with sex a few months ago.” You try to crack a smile and force out a chuckle, but you end up streaming new tears down your cheeks. “And it’s easy to say that we can learn this together.”
His eyes light up, hopeful with your words. Only to grow wet as you struggle to say the next words.
“But I can’t.” You choke out, “I can’t be the one to learn this with you.”
You retract your hands from him, slipping them out of his hold, and curling them into fist to keep the warmth in.
“[Y/N].” His voice quivered, looking down at his empty hands, “What do I have to say or do for you to stay?”
It was odd and painful to see him cry; he exuded such a strong image and power with charisma that can be seen and felt for miles. Yet here he was, crumbling in front of you.
“Nothing.” You bit down your lip to keep it from trembling, “It was a mistake to even make that bet with you… but I don’t regret it.”
Jaehyun sniffs, cheeks and nose even redder now. You bravely put a hand on his cheek, wiping his tears with your thumb.
“A part of me will always be with you. It’s a part I’ll never get back and I don’t mind. Even though it was brief, I don’t regret falling in love with you.” You step closer to him, placing your other hand on his chest. He puts his hand over yours on his chest and the other on your waist. You look into each other’s eyes, studying each other for the last time before you push yourself up and kiss him.
It was bittersweet knowing this was the last kiss. Maybe that’s why both of you made the most of it, clinging onto each other like you were each other’s lifeline. There was no fighting for dominance, just moving your mouths against each other in complete sync. You exert every last drop of your emotions for him with this kiss until both of you pull away.
You start crying again, burying your face into his chest. His arms go around you, holding you tight as he starts to quietly sob as well.
“I wish I realized I liked you from the start…” He whispers, “If I had, I wouldn’t be saying I love you as a goodbye.”
His shoulders shake a little harder after he says those words and you hug him tighter. You stand in the freezing air, holding each other in silence until both of you notice the specks of white falling around you.
From an outsider’s point of view, seeing the two of you standing under the snowfall could probably paint a picture perfect scene of winter romance.
“I’m sorry.” You say, “You shouldn’t have brought me here. You had fond memories here.”
Jaehyun follows your gaze to the stretch of ice, the surface scratched up from ice skates. There’s no use in telling you that he still went here that day and witnessed a man go down on his knees in front of a woman. It had him thinking, but even then he knew it was ridiculous.
“And I still do.” He sniffs, returning his gaze to yours. “I’ll come back to this place and remember the times my family had picnics, or the times my dad and I went fishing, or skating, or skipping stones. Other than those, I’ll come back and remember this as the place I was able to tell the very first girl that I love her.”
Your chest constricts once more, but this time it doesn’t hurt. “You can come back here and remember that she loves you too.”
He smiles, although it doesn’t quite reach his eyes, or even bring out his dimples, “Even if she was the one that got away… I love her, nonetheless.”
You had always imagined breaking up would leave you broken beyond repair, sobbing in a crumpled up state on the ground — but then again, this wasn’t a break up. You two were ending things; a toxic relationship that neither of you acknowledged until it was too late. You still want to cry, you’re still hurting, but a part of you tells you it’s going to be okay.
The wind blows again and you gasp, shivering as the icy air seeped through your clothes.
Jaehyun chuckles, “Come on. Let’s get you home.”
You eagerly trek back to his car with him, putting your hands up to the heater once he turns it on. You think you heard him call you cute under his breath, but you don’t let it linger in your thoughts. You wait for him to play a song, but he never does. As he was about to reverse his car out of the parking lot, he pauses to look at you one last time.
He doesn’t say anything, so you don’t either. After a few seconds, he starts to drive and you watch the lake disappear from the side mirror.
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1. My family. They are always there for me and they're so supportive of everything I'm doing and helping me make it through a couple of rough exam seasons *cough* my exams start the 19th *cough*
2. My friends. Mostly for the same reasons as my family, but I know I can go to my friends for anything no matter what and they'll be supportive.
3. Music. I also play multiple instruments and love singing so music is also very therapeutic for me. If I play numerous sad songs in a row on piano my mom just goes "..do we need to have a talk?" but yes, even listening to music is also very therapeutic for me, even if I start crying.
4. Writing does make me happy, but it also stresses me out sometimes because I have so many ideas that are just stuck in my head and I can't finish them to post them and then I don't have the time to write bc school takes priority.
5. Nice sunny days. I live in Canada where the wildfires right now are really bad, so we've had to be careful with being outside with the air quality, and days haven't even been that nice with all the smoke. The first day it was interesting bc everything smelled like a campfire, but after that it just irritated my lungs and you could barely see the sun through the smoke and haze. (And also sunny days allow for some of the best baseball games, and I'm a huge baseball fan)
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When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then it send to the last ten people in your notifications (anonymously). You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity. ♡
Well, hello there my lovely anon 🥰
Let's see ... 5 things that make me happy ...
1. My husband. He's pretty amazing. He supports me in everything I do including my obsession with Sebastian Stan 😅
2. My kiddos. I've got 4 of them and they're amazing. I love them to bits.
3. Writing. Writing is my therapy. I love creating works and writing for my favorite characters.
4. Music. Music is everything to me. I sing, play multiple instruments, and just enjoying my favorite songs is therapeutic to me.
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wulfies-kpop-fanfics · 4 years ago
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One Photo → Mark Lee [Prelude]
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↳  Pairing: Mark Lee/Reader
↳  AU: Soulmate!AU - The first touch of two soulmates permanently scars their bodies.
↳  Word count: 768
↳  Chapters: You Are Here! | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9
⁙ Summary: For an end of the year photography project, you’re tasked with taking a photograph for your favourite group, NCT127, and coincidentally, discover your soulmate.
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MONDAY - PRELUDE
A smile spread across your face as your eyes followed the familiar face of Robert Downey Jr. After the release of Avengers: Endgame, you had been eating up interviews when your classes were just about over. You listened and watched with envy, seeing how happy the cast was in their fantasy land where people could actually be successful in things they were passionate about. 
“I think everybody winds up, for the most part, getting the jobs they’re supposed to get.”  He says, and a thought pops into your head. The rest of his dialogue is relating to how he felt about the beginnings of the Iron Man series, but his words at the beginning of that question really made you think. If that was true, then perhaps you were finally starting to go in the right direction.
You were so engrossed in your thoughts that you nearly blocked out your professor beginning to speak. Your classmate, Moose, nudges your ribs with her elbow and you pull out your earbuds, looking up to the front of the room from your computer. The teacher seemed like she was about to finish the day early. “I know that as the year is coming to an end, some of you are looking for extra credit. Well, I have some good news for you. Since this is concert season, some labels and artists are partnering up with our department to hire student photographers. They want some of you to attend concerts to take photos of performers and fans during their events. On top of earning extra credit with me if you make a portfolio of your photographs as a part of your final, you will be paid if you are hired. I’ve pinned the following opportunities on the bulletin board just outside. Feel free to pack up early and take a look. Some of you need it. Have a good day!”
Your mouth hung open. An opportunity for a job? Now? Even before you graduated? You leant over to Moose. “I think I’m gonna go look at the opportunities.” “Why?” She laughed. “You’re the last person that needs extra credit. If you do it, you’ll probably get a 150 grade even if you fail your exams.” You rolled your eyes. “This is my chance to make a good impression, I can start off my resume before I even graduate.” Moose smiled as she packed up her bag. “It’s good that you think ahead. I’m happy that this is the one thing that you’re confident about,” she muses. “I’m rootin’ for ya, but I’m gonna go home. I promised Heath that I’d make her dinner.” You nodded and watched her leave with the other students, packing up your own bag and heading out of the classroom to take a peek at what flyers were left. There weren’t very many as you were one of the last to leave the classroom, but there was one that caught your interest. Your eyes widened as the cover image spilt across the flyer in a flurry of red and white. Quickly, you ripped the flyer from the board and stuffed it in your backpack.
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A quick, sharp scream rang out from the living room of your apartment as you hurried inside, the door being slammed against the wall when you opened it. Rhiannon, your lifelong best friend and roommate stood up from the couch, watching with hands on her hips as you tossed your shoes aside and kicked the door closed with your foot.
“Slow the fuck down! Jesus, lady!” She barely kept her voice down from a shout, approaching you as you rummage hurriedly through your backpack. “What’s got you so riled up?” “This.” You held up the crumpled flyer, and as Rhiannon’s eyes skimmed over the page, she took a step back, as if ready to faint. “No way. This has gotta be a trick.” “It’s not. My professor put this up today.” You stood up fully, still in shock yourself. “I’ll get paid and extra credit for my courses if I add these to my final.” 
“You have to do it,” she says without missing a heartbeat, her breath taken away, snatching the flyer from your hands to squint at the fine print at the bottom of the page. “You have to. I can bring my sister to the show and she can use your ticket. Think about it. You’ll be photographing them through their entire time here, get paid and get into the concert with a front-row seat and a backstage pass. There is literally no downside to this.” 
She was right.
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basicallywhiterice · 4 years ago
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moonlight (xu minghao)
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Genre: Fluff, one scene with angst, college!au, graduation!au, established relationship, moving in together
Summary: Your relationship with Minghao, told through phone calls
Word count: 2k
Warnings: One cuss word I think
a/n: This is lowkey the foil to sunny but the plots are completely unrelated. Happy Minghao day y’all
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D-17.
You wake up to a phone call from Minghao.
“Good morning!” he chirps. You respond with a noncommittal grunt. “Aw, baby. Rise and shine!”
“Five more minutes,” you yawn, turning over in your bed.
“C’mon, chop-chop. Get your exams over with! Get that bread, get that head, then leave.”
You still want to go back to sleep, but Minghao’s ridiculousness makes you open your eyes. “You want me to get that head? When you’re a hundred miles away?” Static. “That’s what I thought,” you grin, closing your eyes as another yawn escapes your mouth.
“Hey hey hey, don’t fall asleep on me again. You got this. Turn your camera on!”
“Why?”
“So I can see your beautiful face,” he sing-songs. A grin spreads across your face almost involuntarily—after three years of dating Minghao, simple statements like these never fail to make you happy. It’s because of how genuine he is, you think. He means it from the bottom of his heart. “Plus, you’ll have a harder time falling asleep again.”
“If you insist.” You sit up, turn your camera on, and prop your phone up on your blankets. Minghao pops up on screen a few moments later. “Hey.”
The call freezes for a second, displaying a pixelated jumble of his smiling face, before it resumes to show him blowing a kiss at you. “Hey.”
You blow one back, feeling the sleepiness leave your body. “Mm. Last day of exams. Can’t wait to get this shit over with.”
“That’s the spirit!” His grin is contagious, and you can’t help but break into a smile yourself.
“Thank you for cheering me up, Minghao. You just helped me start my day right.” Minghao’s the more laid-back person in your relationship, but he has no problem being your personal hypeman. He’s good at it, too—he never fails to brighten your day.
“Thank you for overcoming your sleepiness for me, baby.”
“Mhm, just for you. I think I’m gonna take a quick shower before I finish my exams.”
“Can I join?”
“Minghao!” You burst out laughing. Minghao grins.
“Hey, at least you’re fully awake now, right?”
“Oh my god, you dork. Anyways, what are you doing today?”
He explains some of his new designs and marvels at the amount of creative freedom his upcoming project has. Before you know it, it’s 8:28 and Minghao has to leave to catch the metro. You say your goodbyes like normal.
“I love you, Minghao.”
“I love you, y/n.”
You pause before you hit the ‘end call’ button. “I’ll see you soon.”
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D-13.
Sometimes, you wonder if suffering through two years of graduate school was worth it.
Then, you remember the job offer you landed a few months ago, and the long hours seem like a small price to pay. Getting a job in New York City is no small task, and your learning through your graduate program certainly helped.
Plus, listening to Minghao get excited about how you’re finally moving in makes the process sound more than worth it, no matter how long it took.
“—so I asked my boss for the afternoon off to pick you up, and she said yes! And I was super happy, and she was super happy that I was happy, you know? She also suggested getting flowers—do you want flowers? I told her you don’t like flowers because they’re impractical, but I can get you a bouquet if you want, if you’ve changed your mind. Or I could get a flowerpot for our apartment. Or do you want a succulent for our apartment? They’re cute—”
“Minghao, calm down. Take a deep breath.” You wait until you hear his exaggerated huffing and puffing, and you smile. Minghao talks a mile a minute when he gets excited, but you love it. “Great. I’d love to get a plant for our apartment. I’m bringing my cactus with me, so we could draw cute faces on the flowerpots and have them be friends.”
“Didn’t you already draw something on your cactus’ pot, though?”
“Yeah, but there’s plenty of space to add on. Wait, let me show you.” You stand, padding toward your window and throwing open the curtains. Outside, the faint streaks of sunset paint the sky, illuminated by the fading glow of daylight. You grab your cactus from the window sill and walk back to your desk, holding it up to your phone.
“Oh, I like all the doodles,” Minghao remarks as you turn your plant this way and that. When you show him the back, where you’ve painted a crescent moon, his eyes soften. “You painted a moon on there.”
When Minghao graduated and left for New York, he promised that he’d always be there for you in spirit. After all, he had said, when you could look up to the same moon he saw, it was almost like he was there with you. “Whenever it’s cloudy at night or when there’s a new moon and I can’t see the moon, I just look at this instead,” you admit, running your finger over the paint.
“God, I’m so in love with you.”
“I know,” you smile softly, looking back up at your phone screen. “That’s exactly how I feel about you.”
“I know.”
Minghao stays on the phone with you for ten more minutes before he hangs up to go grocery shopping.
“I’ll see you soon, Minghao,” you say before you end the call.
Outside, the moon hasn’t risen yet, the sky an inky black. Tonight, though, you don’t need to watch the moon to deal with missing Minghao. Tonight, you sit back, content with waiting thirteen more days to see him.
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D-10.
“I’m always so worried that this might be the last time I see my friends,” you whisper into the silence. It’s nearing midnight, but your mind is racing. You just got back from a long dinner with your friends and classmates, which was a fun affair, but now existential dread is creeping up on you.
“I felt the same way when I first graduated,” Minghao admits. You’re Facetiming him again, but your phone lays flat on your bed as you shuffle around, trying to drink in all the details of your room before you have to leave. “I still worry that I’ll never see some of them again. But they’re always one text away, and I make time to see everyone important to me.”
“Yeah. True.” You sigh. “Still, though. I’m gonna miss everyone. I miss you too, you know, even though I’ll be in New York soon.”
“I know. I miss you every day.”
You fall back onto your bed, grabbing your phone and holding it above your face. “I don’t… I don’t want to suffer through missing my friends while knowing that we probably won’t live in the same city again, you know? Missing you is slightly more bearable because I know we’ll end up in the same place, but there’s no guarantee for everyone else.”
“Yeah, and it sucks. But you’ll still be in touch with them, and you’ll make new friends.”
“Yeah.”
“Yeah.”
In the middle of the night, after you hang up and you’re all alone, you gaze up at the moon for strength.
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D-5.
After walking across the stage and throwing your graduation cap in the air, you’re finally free from school. You don’t have much time to talk to Minghao—your day is packed with ceremonies and parties—but he’s just as excited as you are.
“Two years and I’m done!” you half-shout over the chattering in the background.
“I’m so proud of you, baby. Show me your graduation cap!”
You pluck it off your head and hold it in front of you with one hand, rotating it this way and that like a steering wheel. “It’s about the same as the undergraduate cap. I did get this hood, though. It almost feels like a cape.”
“You could be a superhero that has caffeine for blood, or something, and your kryptonite could be history tests.”
“God, don’t remind me of those. I’m free now, remember?”
You talk for a few more minutes before your friends remind you of the graduation party at 4 pm, and you have to hang up to get ready. Before you hang up, Minghao bombards you with reminders of how proud he is, before you finally have to go.
“I’ll see you soon,” he says.
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D-1.
“Really? You’re still doing last-minute packing?” Minghao asks as you throw some shoes into your suitcase.
“Shh, I blame you for distracting me with late-night calls.”
“You find me to be distracting?”
You roll your eyes, ducking down to grab your folded towels and plop them on your bed. “Mhm, always have. Don’t get cocky, though.”
He’s smirking when you look back to the phone screen.
“Minghao! I just said not to get cocky.”
“C’mon, let me have this moment.”
You sigh dramatically, glancing around your nearly-empty room and making a mental checklist of things to pack in the morning. “You’ll get to the airport at 2 tomorrow, right?”
“Yeah. Terminal C, right?”
“Right. Can’t wait to C you then.” He groans, and you can’t help but prolong the joke. “Get it? C you?”
“I feel so bad for your roommates. I bet you tortured them with constant bad puns during exam season.”
“No comment.”
At 8:21, your roommate Jieqiong starts the last movie night you’ll share together, and you bid Minghao goodbye. Still, you find comfort in the fact that this is the last goodnight you’ll send over Facetime for a long time.
“I’ll see you tomorrow, Minghao,” you say, blowing him a kiss.
“See you tomorrow.”
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D-Day.
“I just got done picking up my suitcases,” you say, slipping an earbud into your right ear as you drop your phone in your pocket. As you grab the handles of your luggage, you scan the baggage claim area for an exit and start walking toward the sliding doors at the end of the row of conveyors.
“Awesome, I just saw some people walk out,” Minghao says. “I’m here waiting.”
Suddenly, you feel very small as the gravity of the situation weighs on you. Minghao is behind those doors, waiting. You’re about to start a new life together, staying in the same city for the first time in two years. “What if I can’t find you?” you all but whisper, halting your footsteps.
“Then we’ll just keep looking for each other. Take your time, baby.”
“I—yeah, okay.” You will your legs to move again. “Will you stay on the call with me?”
“Of course.”
“Okay.” A comfortable silence falls as you pass the exit checkpoint, stepping out of the sliding doors to the pickup area. “Okay, I just walked outside and—”
And then your gaze falls on a certain young man wearing a top in your favorite shade of light blue. What catches your attention is the poster he’s holding, with ‘my moon’ written on it in loopy handwriting and a cartoon moon doodled next to it.
Your face nearly splits open from how wide your smile is.
“I see you.”
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Day 1.
You wake up with your face pressed into Minghao’s chest.
“Good morning,” you whisper. “Are you awake?”
Minghao groans. “Five more minutes,” he mutters. “What time is it?”
You glance around the room until you find his clock on his bedside table. “9:45. We have lots of time before we have to meet my parents for lunch.”
“Mm. Good.” He wraps an arm around your waist. “I’m glad you’re here, sleepyhead.”
You scoot closer. “You’re the one asking for more sleep, mister.”
“You’re the one who’s warm and soft and cuddly. I love you, y/n.”
Closing your eyes, you nuzzle your head into his chest and relax into his embrace. “I love you, Minghao.”
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writearctic · 4 years ago
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Ask Me Again - oneshot
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⚤︎ badboy!felix and fem!reader
✔︎ fluff, hints of angst, semi suggestive
⌨︎ 4.9k
monnie's @ "To Your Heart"
hello! this is our first book of The Pasta Chronicles! i'm so glad @monscastle was able to collab with me; also shoutout to monnie for the lovely banner~ ♡
“Go out with me.”
Lee Felix, the campus bad boy, asked you out. Again. It was a weekly occurrence: him asking you; you saying no as politely as possible.
He never stuttered his words. Not the first time and certainly not today. “Go out with me, y/n. Please.”
It sounded like a plea for you. But his voice never wavered. It kept you in reality that he was a player, and you were an ideal student. Not the best but better than him.
“Felix, I’m sorry. I can’t. Not with exams coming up,” you replied with a soft smile while stepping past the boy. You were lucky to find a real enough excuse. He dug his heels into the cement path and followed you-- an action you couldn’t fail to notice.
“Gosh, he’s a real stickler, huh?” Your roommate, Lea, quietly reminded you.
“After exams, y/n.” Felix sped up to stand in front of you, stopping your pace altogether. “I’ll wait ‘til exams are over.” He leaned forward and pecked the sweetest, gentlest kiss on your temple. He smirked at your blushed reaction before skipping back to his crowd.
“Well, I guess he won’t bother you for a bit.” Lea started walking again.
You bit your lip, mind still focused on how warm, how sweet, his lips felt on your skin. It made your heartbeat quicken; the thought of his lips on yours sent a nice, tingly flow throughout your body.
“Y/n.”
‘H-huh?” Lea snapped you out of your daydream.
“He won’t bother you for a bit.” She hooked her arm with yours and happily continued to your next lecture. “Now, you can put 110% into your grades.”
“I’m glad,” you faked a smile. Lea endlessly went on about her thesis book. Her words served as white noise to you though.
Honestly, you liked Felix. There was no doubt about it. He was courteous towards his professors. It was rare for him to turn in an assignment, but he was studious in class and never interrupted the professors or classmates.
He was kind and respectful, despite his liaisons with countless ladies on campus. When they came and begged to date him, he was thoughtful with his words. He never said no, but he never said yes. A handful of guys would ask him out as well, but Felix stuck to his words. He had a rule. No getting together, no relationships. No romance. Just a quick fuck. And everyone knew this. “Having strings ties you down. And I don’t see myself tied with you,” he had said, in the lightest way possible.
You haven’t slept with him, yet you knew he held a fragile piece of your heart. He was your fantasy. A dream. Nothing more. But it never hurts to dream.
Your mind stopped wandering when Lea opened the lecture hall door. As you entered, you were met with hateful glares from the students.
“Y/n. Lea. I saved you a seat.” Jackson’s deep voice startled you. Lea shuffled the pair of you through the isle and to the row Jackson was sitting in.
“Gosh, what the heck was that for? Is there something on my face, y/n?” Lea worried.
“No, Lea. You look beautiful as ever.”
She beamed back at you.
“Look.” Jackson held up his phone, allowing Lea and you to watch an Instagram story. It was you. Specifically, Felix kissing your temple.
Lea sighed. Someone had filmed the “intimate” moment you had with Felix. You read the words at the bottom of the post: ‘Another whore for Lix?’
You deserved this. It was karma coming to get you for the thoughts you had of the boy. You mindlessly reached your fingertips to where he kissed your skin. Why was he even attracted to you? Were you a dare? A dare for him to get in your pants? You had your dignity, but you thought this boy was melting it away piece by piece.
You returned to your shared rental with Lea after class ended. At the apartment desk, the security guard stopped you. “Miss Y/n. A boy left this parcel for you.” He grumbled and handed you the gift.
You thanked him kindly and proceeded up the stairs.
“Open it.” Lea crossed her arms and demanded after removing her shoes and coat.
You walked to the kitchen and cut the package with a pair of scissors. You dug into it and found a bag of homemade cake pops.
“I’ll take one thank youuu,” Lea joked while tearing the plastic bag of goodies from your hands. You giggled, a way of granting her permission as you watched her slump on the couch. You stepped to discard the package when a note card fell to the ground reading: ‘I’m sorry, y/n. If I had known they were filming us, I would have kissed you on those rosebud lips of yours to let everyone know you’re mine.’
You released a voiceless whimper. Felix was surely playing you, but he made you feel special and desired none the less.
You quickly picked up the note and hid it in your back pocket.
It's been almost two weeks since Felix last asked you out. You had seen him around campus and longingly stared at him in hopes he would look at you. The few times your eyes caught his, Felix blushed and turned away. Now that he was respecting your boundaries, you didn’t want him to ignore you.
The sneers and occasional trash talks you received since the video of Felix’s delicate kiss to your head didn’t get under your skin. The few times they would, you couldn’t think much of them; you had more important matters to ponder about. You chewed on the painful distance between you and Felix habitually.
Studying wasn’t worth it. Your mind always trailed back to him. You wondered how he was. You hoped he was fairing better than you with his studies. You couldn’t help but miss his tranquil presence. Even if he was desperate for you, Felix had a calming aura that aroused you in the most loving way.
Aside from studying, you couldn’t get much sleep at night. Felix was awaking you every time you tried to clear your mind. He had engulfed and overpowered you into a longing for him.
You sat down in your class with a huff.
“Someone’s grumpy,” Jackson teased playfully.
Upon seeing your lifeless form, Lea hummed. “I think it’s ‘cause she slept in.”
You folded your arms on the desk and threw your head down. “I’m not going to do well on this,” you muttered.
Jackson and Lea exchanged looks. “Y/n, you studied-”
“Not really,” you admit to them. “My mind’s been… elsewhere.”
“Wha- why?” Jackson asked. “Is it Felix? You said he was leaving you alone, right? He’s not bothering you is he? I swear I’ll punch that hopeless romantic in the gut if you fail your exams.”
“Please don’t.” Your friends recognized the pitch in your voice; you were crying now.
Lea leaned towards the table and softly spoke. “Y/n, what happened?”
“I- I don’t know.” You shot up from hiding your face in your arms. Your puffy eyes were no stranger to the classmates around you as it was finals season. Lots of tears had fallen from multiple peers in the past week. Thankfully, they paid no mind to your tear-stained face and brushed it off as the stress that came with final exams.
“He’s doing things to my heart, and I can’t explain how hopeful I am that he’s not toying with me.” You reached for your pencil case and pulled out the letter Felix had written a few weeks earlier.
“Oh.” Lea’s reaction mirrored Jackson, whose mouth circled like an ‘o.’ They already suspected your feelings for him long before you had received the note.
“So, do I beat him to a pulp or…” Jackson joked, hoping to make you smile. But his efforts only resulted in his ribs getting elbow jabbed by Lea.
“I don’t know what to do.” Your voice was pulsing with desperate hope from your friends.
“Tell him ‘yes.’ Y/n, next time he asks you, and I’m sure there will be a next time, say ‘yes.’” Lea soothed your anxious mind with the natural honey in her tone. “The only thing you have to lose is your chance with your dream guy.” She winked and turned her gaze to the podium where the professor was introducing the exam.
Her words echoed in your mind. What did you have to lose other than Felix? Your dignity? No. If Felix is the right guy for you, he would strengthen your worth rather than hinder it. As you opened your laptop to the class page, you crossed your fingers, wishing Felix would ask you just once more.
Two days have passed since your last exam. Lea scored higher than you on your overall average. It made sense, and you easily accepted it. You spent hours of mindlessly studying the textbook while Lea actually studied. The two of you, along with Jackson, celebrated the success of your roommate with drinks.
“So,” Jackson began after the clink of your shots. “Has he asked you out yet?”
“No,” you frowned.
“Hey! I thought tonight was about me!” Lea laughed, trying to lift the mood so thick, you could cut it with the wimpy, plastic knives from your college cafeteria.
Jackson had only downed a shot or two; thus, he still was fully aware of his surroundings. So when he saw Felix stride through the local campus bar, he pinched Lea’s shoulder.
“Yah! What do you nee-” Jackson shushed her and guided her face towards Felix’s figure. They turned their attention back to the dim-lit table and met your curious gaze.
Jackson winked. “Don’t worry, y/n. He’ll come for you.” Both he and Lea stood up and walked to the bar for another round of drinks.
You stood up with your brow furrowed, but before you could follow them, you spotted Felix. He looked stunning in his ripped, leather pants and neatly combed hair. The green neon lights above fell on his sculpted face in the most angelic way. You admired him for a while until he moved to dance with a girl. 'With that skin tight dress of hers, how could he fight the urge to grind on her thin hips?' You thought, wishing you had worn something more than a long sleeved crop top and black jeans. Your gaze fell to the floor; you wore your ballet flats. They weren’t the most attractive, but at least they didn’t blister your feet.
You sighed and went after your friends. It had been 2 minutes at most, but you found Lea shamelessly twerking on a peer from her bio class and saw Jackson, long past sober, swiveling on a bar stool and mindlessly ranting to the man next to him about asparagus. The sex driven Lea and rhetorical thinker Jackson had made way out of hibernation. They were drunk.
You hustled to pay for your drinks and exited the crowd. It was cold outside, and you fell victim to the chill in your thin shirt. You didn’t want to flag down a taxi or call an Uber; at this time of night, riding alone with a stranger was not a pill you could swallow. Leaning against the building, you pulled open your contacts. Maybe your landlord would give you a ride home? Before your finger hit the call button, Felix called your name.
Waiting for exams to pass without hearing your voice or seeing your tender eyes up close was absolute hell for Felix. On occasion, he caught you looking at him. But as quickly as he saw you, you bashfully turned away. He kept his word and left you to your studies. Felix knew you cared about your education, and he was the last person who wanted to be in your way. So, he backed off at your excuse of exams.
After the last week of tests, final averages were posted near admissions. Felix eagerly raced to see how well you did. He knew by allowing you the space you needed to ace exams would easily grant you a high grade. But your name wasn’t in the top 100 list. He checked it once, twice, thrice before turning to the longer list of all student results.
Felix’s eyes were glued on the page; he memorized each printed name as he glossed over them looking for yours. When he found it, his head fell from his defeated shoulders. You didn’t do well. In fact, you did better last semester when he had bugged you to go out with him.
Something was wrong, yet he couldn’t understand.
Until he realized, you must’ve been tormented by his flock of admirers. He came to the conclusion that he would permanently give you space; the last thing he wanted was to bring pain to the girl he truly likes.
Felix tried avoiding you by taking different routes to class. If he did see you, he felt guilty and wished there was a way to protect you from the world.
He couldn’t keep you from gracefully invading his mind. Jisung, another playboy at campus, suggested “getting drunk or having sex with another bitch to remove that chick” from his mind. Felix’s nostrils flared when Jisung referred to you as a “chick” when you deserved much more than such a lowlife name. He nearly immobilized Jisung had his friends not stepped in and prevented Felix from further harming the boy.
Directly after throwing punches to his friend, he felt horrible. Felix sprinted away from his peer; it was ironic how he found himself in the campus bar. He downed no more than three shots. He didn’t want to forget you. Yet, his carnal instincts kicked in when Belle approached him.
She wore a mahogany, sheath dress that did wonders for his dry spell. Felix hadn’t been sleeping with anyone since he promised to ask you out after exams. He believed he needed to be faithful and better in order to make you his.
As she began to shake her rear against him, he placed his hands on Belle’s hips. 'Too skinny,' he thought. He would’ve preferred you.
It was like a higher being heard his plea because he saw you seated with your friends. The dim lighting made you look like a fever dream. He longed for you to be his. When he turned back to catch a look at you again, you were gone.
“E-excuse me,” Felix removed Belle’s body from his, but she clung to him like velcro.
She flicked her false lashes at him and grinned. “My place or yours?”
“I need to go.” He pushed her off a little more aggressively than he should and left without another word.
He found you outside, leaning against the club. Alone.
“Y/n!”
A wave of heat flashed through your body when your name fell from his tongue. You eagerly turned to him. Felix ran the short distance between you before urgently pressing his lips on yours.
The kiss was patient, yet you both could sense a deeper passion. Felix pulled your cold body against his and tightened his arms around your waist. Your fingers ruffled the bit of hair that touched the nape of his neck. He pulled his lips away; you quickly whined in protest, but Felix didn’t let you go.
He burrowed his face into your shoulder. You leaned to kiss his head, and he began whispering soft words against your skin causing you to shiver, this time, not from the cold temperature.
“Felix,” you whispered. “I- I can’t understand you.” You giggled breathlessly at him when his face moved back to yours.
“I’m sorry.”
“Why? Felix, are you ok?”
“I- fuck. I love you, y/n. And I’m aware that we hardly know each other, but please. I want to learn every precious detail about you. Tell me your favorite way to pass the time on a rainy day. Tell me who taught you how to braid because gosh, when your hair is braided to the side, you make me want to rip out any gawking eyes that look at you. In fact, I won’t hesitate-”
“Felix.” Your voice was quiet. It was his first time hearing you so vulnerable, and it made him want to kiss every part of you. You deserved to be showered with kisses on a daily basis. But he traced his fingertips along the sleeves of your crop top and passionately listened to you.
“Ask me again.”
He smiled and raised a brow, puzzled. “Ask you what?”
You stared at him and fought the urge to kiss the small dimples on his face. You hadn’t noticed them before.
“Will you go out with me, Felix?”
“Fuck. No.” He cursed under his breath. His eyes turned to you when he felt you crumble in his hold. “Wait, shit. No, that’s not what I meant.”
You stepped back with tears brimming your radiant eyes, and it made Felix want to pull you back against him and never, never let you go.
“I wanted to ask you out!”
“You’re mad at me for asking you out!?”
“Yes!”
“Lee Felix, will you ask me out?”
“Y/n, please go out with me!?”
“Goodness yes.” You breathlessly whispered with no hesitation in your voice. He wasted not a second more before pulling you into his arms again. You tightly gripped his shirt; a few tears fell from your lashes. Felix felt them and released you from his embrace. He raised his hands and carefully wiped away every tear. He saw your lip quiver and observed how cold you were.
“Let me drive you home,” he quavered. Felix’s hand was warm in yours; his pinky tangled with yours as he led you to his car.
He knew where your place was. There weren’t many words spoken on the way to your apartment. Both of you were embarrassed and unsure about what to do next.
As he pulled to the building, he shifted to park and turned to you. “I want to take you out tomorrow.”
“I’d like that,” your voice was sunny. You inched closer to him and kissed his lips once more. It was quick, but it was everything you needed to know he was yours. “Good night, Felix.” You stepped out of the car and trudged to the apartment gate.
“Y/n!” Felix stood on the drivers side and yelled. “I need your number!”
You stopped punching the code for the gate to open. “Pick me up here tomorrow at six, and I’ll give it to you!” You playfully hollered back.
“I’ll be here,” he whispered, watching your figure walk through the gates.
“Oh. Em. Gee. Wow! I’m so glad you got him, y/n!” Lea cheered when she finally had some conscience. “Where are you going?”
“Oh, uhm, I’m not sure.” You realized the issue. Not having his number made choosing the perfect outfit harder. 'Shouldn’t have played hard to get,' you thought.
“Knowing him,” Lea stepped for your closet. “He’ll probably take you somewhere nice. Like a concert, fancy restaurant, or art exhibit. Since he’s head over heels in love with you.” She pulled a black velvet dress off its hanger and handed it to you. “Oh! Here.” She tossed you some sheer, black tights as well.
“I hope you’re right,” you giggled and went to change.
Lea adored the gown and begged to straighten your hair; she thought it looked best with your outfit. Once straight, she tied your hair into a low ponytail. She picked some dangly earrings for you to wear in addition to a silver bracelet. You felt like an actress being prepped for a scene. Lea was definitely the stylist between the two of you.
Your roommate stood by the window as it was nearing 6:00. You sat nervously on the couch, praying your outfit was right.
“He’s here.”
With a shaky sigh, you slipped on your shoes and went to the door. “Wish me luck.”
“You’ve got nothing to worry about, y/n. You’ve made an impression of Felix, one so strong he’s stopped sleeping around.” She walked over to straighten the collar of your coat before continuing. “Plus, if anything does happen-- but I highly doubt he’ll be a jerk to you-- remember, Jackson’s offer to beat him up still stands.”
You giggled in unison before hugging her and heading past the threshold.
What a sight you were. As you stepped out the apartment gates, his breath hitched. You bloomed in the evening fog. He hustled to the passenger door and eagerly opened it for you.
You paused before getting in. “Does my outfit fit the occasion?” You asked nervously.
“Yes; it’s perfect.” He charmed.
Felix drove away. His car was warm, and it calmed your nerves. You kept stealing glances at his profile, noticing the kisses of the sun on his cheeks and nose. His lips were highly alluring and since last night, you wanted nothing more than to kiss him again.
The ride was quiet. Felix played some soft r&b music in the background. At every traffic light, he turned to you and took your hand in his. He raised it to his lips and kissed the back of your hand; his eyes remained locked with yours, causing you to buzz with delight.
“We’re here.”
He shifted to park before stepping to your side and opening the door. You stood on the curb and admired the restaurant while Felix paid the parking meter. Dilettante was one of the finest restaurants in town. You had never been; it was far too expensive. The thought puddled in your stomach. Felix brought you to a highly exquisite restaurant on the first date.
“Felix.”
He hummed. Finished with the meter, he latched your arm with his and strolled to the building. “Yes?”
“This is expensive. Are you sure we should eat here? We can always go to Olive Garden or-”
“Y/n.” Felix paused and slipped his hand in yours. “This is the only place you deserve for a first date.”
Your cheeks darkened at his comment when he started up to the door. “Mia, your finest table please," he winked. The receptionist led you to a candle lit corner booth. She placed the menus on the surface: “Your server will be here shortly.” Mia return the wink and strolled back to the front.
Felix obviously knew the girl. You removed your oatmeal coat and sat down. Felix sat across from you. You leaned in and whispered, “Have you slept with her?”
He laughed. He laughed at you. You chuckled nervously, unsure of why you were laughing. “Mia’s my cousin.”
Shoot.
“Your cousin?”
“Hmm,” he glanced down and played with his wrist watch. “My family owns this restaurant.” You were not expecting that. “We get to eat here for free-”
“So, I’m a free meal?”
“What? No, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that.” His head snapped up when you spoke. His hands reached across the table and held to yours. “I’ve actually never brought a girl here.” He mumbled while his thumb caressed your skin.
“I wasn’t even expecting the meal to be free-- I mean, I was expecting a discount, but I think my family is excited for me to finally stop sleeping around and bring someone here.”
You nodded in understanding. Your hands played with his. “Felix, you said you didn’t want to be tied down…”
“That was before I met you.” That smile of his could light up the entire restaurant.
You didn’t get to respond right away; a server came and took your drink order. He placed a basket of fresh bread on the surface and slid a platter of sweet butter alongside. You both ordered water and the server returned quickly with your drinks in hand.
“Have you decided on something to order?”
“Gosh, you’ve hardly given us time to decide, Kang.” Felix sneered and rolled his eyes.
“Right, yes. Of course. Sorry, sir.” The boy, around your age if not younger, fearfully backed away. Felix hung his head in shame when the server scurried away.
You held his hands in your; you stopped playing with them and held them still. “Lix-”
“I know, I know. I shouldn’t have snapped at him.” He raised his gaze to yours. He shuffled closer to you-- the booth made it easy for him to melt at your side so quickly-- and linked his fingers in yours once more. He tucked a wisp of hair behind your ear and kissed your neck. “I just want tonight to be perfect,” Felix breathed into your skin before sitting upright again.
You didn’t know what to say. He kept leaving you breathless; you could hear your heart pounding louder now that he was closer to you. And when his palm slid to your thigh in a non-sensual way, you prayed he wouldn’t hear how harshly your heart pounded against your rib cage.
"This isn't the best table here," he commented upon seeing your flustered state.
"We don't need to move tables. This is fine," you assured.
"I made sure Mia reserved this table. It wasn't hard; no likes sitting in the back corner anyways. But I like it here. I can kiss you without any bothersome stares."
Felix reached for a piece of bread and spread some butter on it before passing it to you. 'What a gentlemen,' you reminded yourself for the nth time this evening.
You took a sip of water after finishing the dough and spoke, “What’s the best meal here?”
“The alfredo.” He didn’t hesitate at all, and he reached for the menu to show you the different options. “My favorite is the regular chicken, but they're all decent.”
“I’ll have a chicken fettuccine alfredo then,” you giggled and swiped a hair out of his eye.
The things you did to him caused red to tickle his cheeks.
A different waiter came back and took your order. Felix explained the kid who previously served you was a distant, younger cousin and that they weren’t on the best of terms. You didn’t pry.
“Y/n?”
“Hm?”
Felix bit his lip gently before continuing, “What happened to your finals?”
“Oh, that.” You laughed deeply.
“Were there more posts like the one on Instagram or have people been bothering you?”
“No. Well, only you.” You smiled, and when you saw his clueless face, you added: “I couldn’t really study because I kept thinking of you.”
“I’m glad it was because of me. I don’t know what I would’ve done if students had been hurting you,” he admitted and leaned a little closer to your warmth, blushing.
He watched as you tried to refold the cloth napkin into its original swan origami. And when he took his and instantly folded it back, an engaging conversation about origami fortune tellers and puppets took place. Apparently, Felix was in his 5th grade talent show with a few of his buddies. They put on a Star Wars puppet show made with construction paper. The talent show gave no winners, but Felix was certain they would’ve won.
“Who would’ve known you, the mysterious campus bad boy, was into arts and crafts,” you giggled delicately at him.
“Am I still a bad boy in your eyes?”
“No!” Your response was swifter than intended. “Sorry that was a poor choice of words. You were the campus bad boy, but now you’re all mine.” You pressed against his torso and kissed his lips.
“You changed me, y/n.” Felix began and paused his words when the plates of pasta arrived. “I found myself desperate for you. So desperate. I couldn’t imagine being with anyone but you. I stopped jumping from bed to bed a while ago; I hoped it would prove myself to you. Because y/n, I want to be tied down with you for the rest of my life.”
It occurred to him that you hadn’t stopped looking at him since he began speaking. You hadn’t even touched your plate yet.
“Stop staring at me,” he blushed.
You moved your eyes to the cuisine and twirled the pasta. “I’m so in love with you I don’t think that’s possible.”
Felix’s fork clinked onto the ceramic plate. He faced you and met your gaze.
“Wait, was that too soon? I didn’t mean to offend-”
You couldn’t finish your apology with his breath dangerously close to your lips. “I love you, too.”
His lips were creamy and warm when they pressed into yours; they tasted like alfredo sauce. His pinky maneuvered its way to lock with yours while the other hand pulled you deeper into the kiss. He moved away after ensuring your pinky finger was connected with his.
Felix admired how dazed you looked after just one kiss. He didn’t notice it last night, but then again, that was the first kiss you had shared together. You opened your doe eyes at him, and he smirked.
“I’ll kiss you later. Eat your food.” He bent over his plate and continued to eat. You did the same. “How does it taste?” Felix asked, confident it would meet your expectations.
“It’s delicious,” you faced to him and smiled. Your pinky gave his a loving squeeze. “But…”
His eyes widened slightly. “But…?”
“The sauce tasted better on your lips.”
You pivoted back to your dish; you tucked that stray hair back behind your ear and bit your lips.
Felix looked down at his plate and pierced his lips together as he grinned. “You really are perfect,” he breathed, before twirling another spoonful of pasta into his mouth.
“Do you know how to make this?” You confidently inquired.
“I do,” he hummed.
“This is the best fettuccine alfredo I’ve ever had, and having a boyfriend who can make it-- you’re truly the love of my life.” Although you said it in a teasing way, you meant it, and Felix knew you meant it.
Despite not knowing each other for long, being in his presence made you feel loved and safe. And Felix vowed to do just that.
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aveys6 · 3 years ago
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WIP of Spencer getting glasses for the first time in season 2 (shhhh lets pretend he didnt have em as a kid) also derek and spencer flirt later on so stay tuned for the completion of this fic, i already have the outline written.
please tell me if this is difficult to read, i feel like i added so many buzzwords 😭
Somewhere in the world, an elementary school student was being called down to the nurse for a very simple sensory check-up. In the same world, Dr. Reid was as well. For the first time in eight years.
Along with Spencer's initial physical requirements, Gideon had accidentally waived annual ear and eye exams. This mistake never had detrimental consequences; his senses were decent, normal. Through all bouts of the job, the man remained adequate for the field.
Until that was no longer true.
Reid had truly forgotten that maintaining his visual health was necessary. The Good Doctor never had strength in the area of self-care in the first place, despite being painfully concious of its importance. It was only a matter of time before the strain of reading hundreds of books turned into an astigmatism. Slowly, but surely, squinting at roundtable files became a normalcy.
"Everything okay, Reid?"
"Fine," he returned, words tainted with distraction. Truthfully, Spencer was observing the way his eyes tried, and failed, to focus on one Adelina Ray, twenty-one. The body's persistence to adapt, in all forms of the word, never ceased to amaze Spencer. To see blurry words sharpen and dull repeatedly was a phenomenon he couldn't ignore. When your eyes work, you are blissfully unaware of the world of terrible vision. For this reason, experiencing his eyes sucking for the first time was intensely interesting. (He found himself looking forward to Penelope's Christmas decore due in another month. Blobs of colored light growing and shrinking with involuntary movement? Orgasmic).
"Is the case entertaining you, Hot Shot?" Derek teased, breaking Spencer's aura of concentration, as he often did.
"No..."
"Then, what's your deal?"
"He needs to see an eye-doctor," Hotch interrupted, swiftly entering the conference room, undertones of humor apparent in his retort.
"I most definitely do," Spencer frowned with recognition. How Hotch knew, Spencer had no idea. His squinting must have been dramatic enough to trigger conclusions. If a prescription was presumed to be inevitable, he knew Hotch would need a copy to add to his file ASAP. His boss's knack for efficiency was a great motivator, which is why he found himself booking an appointment with Koch Eye Associates as soon as he was released from the, previously mentioned, mediocre eye exam. Currently, he sat in a vacant office, a projection of letters and symbols caressing the wall.
-
It shall be known that small talk was not of value to Spencer Reid. He found the artificial interest in a 'How are you?' to be unnecessary.
Conversations with the man often began with statements void of context, this pattern heightening in frequency when a certain subject brought him joy. Therefore, it was not a surprise when Derek and Elle's morning started with coffee and gossip of ocular health.
"I failed the Snellen test twice."
"I do not have enough caffeine in me to pretend I know what a Snellen test is," Derek scoffed, eyebrows raised in amusement.
"It's the letter chart decreasing in size among its eleven, or so, rows."
"Which, I assume, you've memorized."
"At my particular optometrist's office? Of course. Who do you take me for?"
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artificialashley · 4 years ago
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top 5 drag race fics that aren't mine (not me being arrogant, simply wanting to avoid looking like i'm fishing xo)
Sorry for the slow answer (see previous ask regarding my laptop charger) but ly and thanks for keeping me entertained omg
- Night & Day by Kite // this is in my golden list of fave fic from any fandom ever. which dates back to when i was 13. and only has 4 fics on it (or like 14 depending how you read it). if that doesnt describe my love for it then what does? as much as i love a bit of fluff....sometimes i can be a right slag for something a bit darker and this fic made me feel so many emotions i didnt even know i had??? and the storytelling is impeccable - the way kite chose to write (each chapter the other girls POV of the same events) was just so clever, really showing what each girl was wanting/feeling and making the miscommunication so much more frustrating (in turn, making the pay offs so much better when they came). i honestly might go reread it now because talking about it is giving me chills!
- How Far I’ll Go by Meggie and Mia-Ugly // I dont need to tell you how great this fic is because you already know but im going to anyway...the clear thought and effort and planning behind this fic is insane and it SHINES through in the writing. the way they write nina’s awkward and anxious character and obvious crush on monet is just so endearing but also so real at the same time? i dont think ive ever rooted for a character so much? it is perfection and should be framed
- I Don’t Want To Be Your Friend by lindseyluvsdrag // although i no longer see much appeal in pearlet now, they are for sure what brought me to this fandom and it makes me sad that some of my fave fics from that era are gone now. thankfully this one isnt!! reading it gives me chills because i can pinpoint it back to such a specific era of my life, mostly because i was so obsessed with this fic and its sequel that i read it everywhere: in the tent on my bronze Duke of Edinburgh, in business gcse when I’d finished my coursework faster than the rest of the class so had to spend three months “revising”, at a durham rowing regatta my parents dragged me to. i love this fic for the nostalgia it brings me but that doesnt takeaway from how good the plot, writing and character development is too! this is probably the reason i started writing drag race fic in the first place
- Elastic Heart by Mia-Ugly // and the reason i came back and write drag race fanfic now? here it is. this fic, and the whole branjie movement (ignoring your ask to stuff your move in here), came at a time in my life when i didnt know how much i needed it!! the last time i read or wrote fanfic was around when season 8 aired but there i was telling my dickhead of a boyfriend i was sick and spending my entire easter writing and reading beautiful fics like this one to keep me sane. i started reading at a chance and was hooked right away, the angst was real and it was so excited to read alongside the season airing (and watching mia basically predict the branjie lip sync was just golden). the writing is of the highest quality and i find myself coming back to it constantly.
-  The Mystery of the Journal by Zyan, Conflicted Looks Good on You by Mina and Arch back, heart attack by Atresia - I couldn’t not have some crygi on this list after the phase i went through last year but couldn’t chose a fave so here are three...mystery of the journal is just beautiful? i cant really describe the feeling it gave me but it was kinda like i was watching a film? those 12k words really told a story and i was so there for it. Conflicted looks good on you is here for its sheer comedy and turn of phrase? honestly iconic and i cant wait to reread it after exams because the summer feeling it manages to capture is just epic. as much as i love crystal isnt counting i decided to include this fic by atresia because its smut and i feel like i never really tell people their smut is good bc i feel weird about it but its 2 am and ive ate 3 drumstick lollies, 5 refreshers and 3 of those other lollies (idk their names but sugar) so yeah this smut is good!!!
honourable mentions to tree house kisses by veronica and scorpio which i swear i’ll finish someday, everything ive read by grapefruit and mac and strawberry daiquiri by miss bianca (which omg im gonna get to drink on sunday)
sorry for that rollercoaster of fic recs xoxo
ask me my top 5 anything!
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jungshookz · 5 years ago
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I would love a uni!yoongi & y/n drabble💓💜
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🌿pairing; min yoongi x reader
🌿genre; uni!yoongi, university!au, fluffy fluffy fluff!!!!!!! uni!yoongi owns my heart and my whole ASS 
🌿wordcount; 2.8k 
🌿what to expect; “and another fun fact! the mistletoe plant actually contains toxic amines, and eating its berries can cause vomiting and stomach pain.”
🌿note; outraGEOUS that a mistletoe emoji has yet to exist!!!! unfortunately i wasn’t able to do a 12 drabbles of christmas this year due to finals but i hope this drabble makes up for it :-) if i’m a little rusty it’s only because this is the first drabble i’ve written in a while,..,,. hopefully i’ll have another drabble up before christmas!!! happy reading :^) 
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if yoongi had a dollar for every time he wanted to scream at you for being denser than a block of tofu he would most definitely be a billionaire
he’s had this thought time and time again but he really doesn’t understand how someone so smart can be so dumb at the same time
he could be holding up a flashing neon sign pointing to him that said ‘i 100% like you and am giving you the green light to ask me out so all you have to do is ask!’ and you would still be like .,.,.y’all hear sumn?
anyways he doesn’t have time to think about when you’re finally going to make a move because it’s that time of the semester ladies and gents
yep
it’s finals season
now, traditionally, the way yoongi handles finals season is that he kind of just goes with the flow
as in he goes to the library and studies for two hours and decides that that’s enough time and dedication he’s putting into a particular class so he pretty much deserves the rest of the day off
and this technique has worked ever since his first year in uni so he’s stuck with it ever since
as long as he doesn’t flunk out of anything he’s fine!!!
but since getting to know you yoongi has adopted new techniques into his studying routine that doesn’t just include skimming over poorly taken notes from class for 5 minutes and then scrolling through instagram for 45 minutes and then taking a 2 hour nap
no no
now he has highlighted notes
now he has insanely detailed google docs
now he has flash cards
and not just flash cards
colour coordinated flash cards
crazy, isn’t it???
this is probably your guys’ fifth study session together and yoongi doesn’t want to toot his own horn or anything but he thinks he’s going to absolutely nail this chemistry final
he can tell anyone about the main types of chemical reactions without blinking
that’s how confident he is about his knowledge
and he knoWs it’s all because of you which most certainly doesn’t help him suppress his attraction towards you
how can he noT be attracted to the person who’s bumping up his GPA??
but yes
yoongi is confident and he feels like he doesn’t need to go over what synthesis reactions are for the tenth time in a row
(also he forget a stack of flash cards at home that u reminded him three times to bring with him today to which he responded with ‘i’m NOT going to forget them just relax’ and he’s hoping u forgot about them because you don’t play around when it comes to flash cards)
he wants this study session to be a little more lax
a little more chill
a little less conversation and a little more ACTION (but not in,.,. not in a pervy way or anything)
yoongi decided to bring a little special something just to make things a little more interesting aND to celebrate the holidays!!
he’s being festive!!
he even taped strips of jingle bells to the edges of his skateboard :-)
“okay, hydrogen bonds.” you flip your notebook onto its front before whipping around and letting out a breath “hydrogen forms hydrogen bonds with three elements. hydrogen is fun. hydrogen is fOn. hydrogen forms hydrogen bonds with fluorine, oxygen, and nitrogen.”
…yeah that sounds right
you turn back around and flip over your notebook before quickly searching for your notes
aH
yes!!!! you got it!!!! hydrogen is FON!!!! hyDRoGEN iS FON!!!!!
“up top, y/l/n!” you grin widely before giving yourself a high five
niCE
“just when i thought you couldn’t get any weirder.” you jump three feet into the air when you hear yoongi speak up and you let out a breath before placing a hand on your chest
“yoongi!” you clear your throat and lean back against the table a little bit
you’re just going to play it off as if you didn’t just tell yourself to give yourself a high five
“what, uh, what took you so long?”
yoongi raises a brow before checking the time on his phone “i’m three minutes early.”
you turn back a little to look at the time on your laptop
huh
would you look at that
yoongi is early
and of course you’re here before scheduled because of who you are as a person
“…well, what are you doing just standing there? let’s get to work!!” you clap your hands together before looking at yoongi expectantly and gesturing for him to take a seat
“just so that you’re aware, i’m pretty sure i know more about the different types of chemical reactions than you.”
you raise a brow before crossing your arms
that is certainly a vEry bold statement because you could talk about the different types of chemical reaction for hours and hours on end
“oh, really?” you scoff playfully as you turn to wipe down the whiteboard
you’ve been tutoring yoongi for the past couple of weeks without expecting anything in return
honestly it’s just fun to ramble on and on about something that you’re confident about aNd it’s fun to see the panic in his eyes when you ask him a question about what you just talked about
and!!!! teaching someone else about the thing that you have to review yourself is actually a pretty effective studying strategy
you tried the practice test the other night and you got 98% so it’s safe to say you’re going to make this final exam your biTCH-
“yep.” yoongi sighs and leans back against his chair “in fact, i bet you that i’ll get every single one of your questions right this session.”
“what happens if you don’t?”
“if i get even one question wrong, i will… play one of your dumb studying games.”
your eyes widen in excitement
“charades for chemists??” (an exciting upgrade from the original version of charades)
((u have to try to act out a reaction))  
((it’s a lot more exciting than it sounds))
“but if i get every single one of your questions right, you’ll have to play one of my games.”
“…what kind of game?”
“you’ll just have to find out, won’t you?” yoongi smiles sweetly “it’s nothing like your dumb charades game, i can tell you that.”
you narrow your eyes suspiciously and yoongi shrugs
there’s no way he’d be able to get all of your questions right
obviously it’d be great if he got all of them right because that means these tutoring sessions are actually working but then again it’s yoongi
yoongi who uses pipettes to squeeze tiny spurts of air in your face just because ‘it’s fun!!’
yoongi who has the balls to juggle glass beakers in the middle of a lab in front of the professor
it’s yoongi
of course the idiotic things he does in class doesn’t exactly correlate to his intelligence
he actually did pretty well on the last lab report
“you have three seconds to decide if you wanna do this or not otherwise the offer’s off the table.” yoongi waves a hand in front of your face and you straighten up a little before sticking your hand out for him to shake
“alright, min yoongi. game on.”
the corner of yoongi’s mouth twitches in a devilish smile
honey, you’ve got a big storm coming.
you flip your notebook open to the page where you have a bunch of practice questions written down and you skim the list
alright
you’ll throw yoongi a bone
“we’ll start off easy. what’s the difference between exothermic and endothermic reaction-“
“endothermic takes in energy - for example, ice melting - and exothermic gives off heat - for example, lighting a match.” yoongi answers without blinking
o
okay
that answer was word for word what you have written down in your notes
you should probably reconsider the whole throwing a bone thing
if anything u should probably take a couple bones away from yoongi
your competitive streak immediately kicks in once you realise the score board is 1-0 and you’re on the 0 end
“what does synthesis gas consist of?” you raise a brow
“before i answer that - you forgot to add a tally under my name.” yoongi points to the whiteboard and you kiss your teeth before whipping around and begrudgingly drawing a tally on the scoreboard “good girl.”
(you’ll never admit to him that hearing him call you that made your stomach do a little flip)
“answer the question.”
“synthesis gas is a fuel gas mixture consisting of hydrogen, carbon monoxide, and carbon dioxide. it intermediates in creating synthetic natural gas and for producing ammonia or methanol.”
.,,.,.and that’s 2-0 to yoongi
what in the hELL is going on
u know what
it’s fine!
it’s fine
maybe he’s just having a lucky day
all he has to do is screw up once
“-due to the conjugation double bond character in alkyl halide.” the fact that yoongi’s inspecting his nails as he answers your final question is oddly vERy irritating
you can’t believe it
yoongi got all 10 of your veRy tricky questions right
you should be proud because it’s because of you that he knows that he’s talking about but at the same time you didn’t think you were doing thAt great of a job at teaching him!!!!
but you’re looking at the scoreboard and it’s 10-0
there are 0 tallies under your name!!! ZERO!!! under youR NAME!!!
and now you have to play yOOngi’s dumb game instead of charades for chemists
if anything it’s his loss
“i told you you have to close your eyes to play my game.” yoongi reaches over to shut your notebook after he catches you glancing at it (to make sure he actually got the answers right and you didn’t misread anything) for the fifth time in two minutes
you have to accept defeat whether you like it or not
you let out a sigh before crossing your arms and shutting your eyes “what are the rules of this game? how does one win?”
“i’m going to show you something-“ you hear yoongi unzip his backpack “and you have to identify what it is and tell me what its purpose is within 30 seconds.”
huh
sounds easy enough
“so i win just by doing that?” your brows furrow and you resist the urge to open your eyes
“i guess you could say that.” you hear yoongi’s footsteps against the carpet and you freeze when you feel him standing right in front of you
“alright, open your eyes.” you immediately open them and-
“so, tell me, y/n-” yoongi lets out a sigh before glancing up at the mistletoe that he’s holding up in between the two of you “what do we have here?”
you swallow thickly and keep your eyes glued on the mistletoe
u know what that is
and u know what its purpose is
you could easily win this game right here and now so u don’t know what’s stopping you
you can feel yoongi staring at you and you know that if you make eye contact with him right now you will definitely combuST into flames
“that’s, um, well, i’m not a, uh, i’m not a botanist or anything, but that is a… that’s mistletoe.” you clear your throat “that is… mistletoe.”
“uh-huh. and, remind me again - isn’t mistletoe particularly special this time of the year?” yoongi hums and takes a step closer to you
you jump a little when you feel the bottom of the whiteboard dig into the small of your back
the little metal tray holding the whiteboard markers clatters a marker plops to the ground but you’ll deal with that later
because now it’s time to do what you do best
D E F L E C T
“mistletoe are actually hemiparasitic plants in which they kinda just suck water and nutrients from their host tress. did you know that?”
yoongi resists the urge to roll his eyes
he knows exactly what you’re doing (out of nervous habit) but for your sake he’ll play along
“oh yeah?”
“yep. and another fun fact! the mistletoe plant actually contains toxic amines, and eating its berries can cause vomiting and stomach pain.”
“…didn’t you say you weren’t a botanist-”  
“-but if we’re talking about its relevance to the christmas holidays, then… well, traditionally, people, um, people… kiss underneath them.” you finish quietly and your eyes instinctively flicker down to yoongi’s pouty lips
“i like you a lot, y/n.” yoongi breathes out and you feel your heart hiccup
your cheeks flush and you feel the heat rushing up to your ears
o god
a couple seconds of silence goes by and you wonder if yoongi can hear your heart pounding in your chest
“if you don’t feel the same way, i-“
“i like you too.” you murmur shyly and yoongi lets out what sounds like a breath of relief
before he gets the chance to roAST you for taking so long to finally admit it to him, you’re pushing your lips against his in a gentle kiss with your hand pressed against his cheek
it takes yoongi a second to register that you initiated a kiss with him but once his brain catches up to his body, he starts kissing you back
a smile tugs at his mouth when you take a step closer to him and he automatically loops an arm around your waist before carelessly tossing the mistletoe aside
yoongi tilts his head as he deepens the kiss and the quiet ‘fuck’ he lets out when you nip at his bottom lip almost immediately makes you lightheaded
it’s when you’re reminded that literally anyone passing by the room would be able to see you through the glass door that you drag yourself away (reluctantly) and yoongi unintentionally lets out a whine
“so did i win?” your cheeks are still rosy and your heart is still racing but you’re trying to play it off as if you’re totally cool about kissing yoongi and that you’re totally cool about the mutual attraction between the two of you but that fact that you’re kinda bouncing on the balls of your feet like an excited child is probably not helping your case
and yoongi’s smiling so widely his cheeks are starting to hurt but it’s totally worth it
:-) !!!!
“you won but i’m still marking you down for killing the mood by talking about vomiting and stomach pain.”
help me help you make your wishes come tru (aka send me a request)
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shanepatricklagrange · 2 years ago
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Down the Rabbit of Time
This came out a bit late. The wife was having sleepless nights. So, I was having sleepless nights, spending a lot of in the afternoon catching up.
Down the Rabbit Hole of Time: Part One
By Shane Patrick LaGrange
 
            The ability to travel through Time. It has been my passion. since Star Trek. The original series and the episode, City on the Edge of Forever. I am sure you have seen them. I certainly have. The stories on the Google Feed about travelers going back into the pat and forgetting items. Entertaining, but no. I say forget that. I am talking about the real aspects behind jumping through time; not the recent photoshopping nonsense about leaving a modern Smart phone behind or sitting leisurely on the grass in modern clothes. Not to mention Conspiracy Theories (also my passion), about the CIA involvement. Which is possible. If it is not, then prove it. send me back to Dallas, November 22, 1963, shortly after 11 am. Until then, moving on.
            The actual workings of a Time Machine are presented as linear by scientists. H.G. Wells: Time Machine, back to the Future films. I wish I could go back to the days of Blockbusters; Family Video). There is a movie that I only saw once, it could tie in well to this.   
            Anyway, one particularly important thing to consider, the rotation of the earth prior to the traveler leaving. The Earth does move if everything is not locked. . .. well, millions of possibilities in dying.
           
            Science likes the Linear approach. They believe the river of time runs smooth. I believe otherwise. Time is a raging river of potential risks. If the CIA, military does not have their ducks in a row, we might end of serving the Dark God, Cthulhu., or something out of The Mist.
            For example, the best one: Men in Black 2. In which K dies back on July 15, 1969. If this were a series, would J still be a member of MIB? No, he would still be James, NYPD. Plot: James would have these recurring feeling and dreams that does not jell with him. Following his gut, He manages to track down MIB Headquarters; breaks in and by the end of the first season, manages to convince the agency, that he is telling the truth before the eye exam.
            Now, he is flying off a building at a fast rate of speed before he well, leaps. It the coming back (for the sake of editing, the scene was deleted, perhaps). Any case, coming back, he would be traveling at the same velocity as he left. As Leonard Nimoy said in Fringe, Physic is a Bitch.
            Going back to the photoshopped pictures, I wonder. Does Time come with a safety switch. This series is a bit old but a favorite. Voyagers. This is a bout a time traveler, named Phineas Bogg and his young helper, Jeffery.
            In episode five “Worlds Apart, the Omni is worn out Bogg and Jeffery become separated. Jeffery meets and helps Thomas Alva Edison with the light bulb. In return, he dismantles the Omni; though he is unable to discovers how it works, he manages to repair it. which leads to the question. Is the main Timeline protected? If one were to go back, Kill Hitler and save the Kennedy brothers. I imagine the timeline would try and compensate. How, we do not know. Shunt the timeline into another branch protecting the main universe, and that goes into Einstein Parallel universe. Thousands of Earths based on the decisions we make. Then we have the future. The future is based on the templates of today. Go one day, wait a couple of weeks; it could be completely different.
            Thanks for reading. I will try and not be late in futures references.
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