#but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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[jkriordanverse]

aita for like not liking my irl friends at the moment. So for context i'm in a friend group of four, in which i joined a year later into the friendgroup than the three others (their initials spell the world three too lol) so sometimes i feel a little left out and like i dont rly fit in with them.

For one i'm not rly like them in terms of interest, like i'm not into kpop or vietnamese drama/tiktok/music or k-dramas as they are, nor am i that up to date in slangs and like, adulty stuff ykyk so sometimes when they make references i tend to take them literally most of the time and it makes no sense to me. And yk it's not very nice that sometimes i ask them to explain and they're don't even rly bother to tell me or they're like "omg guys looks she doesn't get it hahahaha"

another thing would be that our family backgrounds are WAYYYY different. like i'm in a class full of rich people mind u (cuz im on a scholarship :(( ) so sometimes when we're going out i either can't go bc i have to focus on my studies or i can't always spend as much as them. Like they get money from certificates and for birthdays and everything and i have to earn mine through competitions or i have to wait for New years to get lucky money, and in the end i dont get as much as them anyways but eh. Sometimes they act like i'm TOO focused on my studies, like yeah i get it like even if they didn't make it that far in education they'd still be stable cuz their parents have companies or sell villas or sell cars and mansions so yeah but i dont rly have that opportunity so like i HAVE to focus on this yk. This also leads to i think me sometimes being close-minded to like spending money, which does lead to a lot of conflicts when we're together cuz i dont want to spend 150k for some fancy japanese restaurant that u have to wait outside. i'm fine with spending like 30k for pho and playdates and like yeah. and sometimes they go out baking or sth and its SUPER costly and they get a bunchhhhh of uneccessary ingridients and yk we all have to pour money in so like-

okay im rambling now i feel like last in terms of maturity im a bit behind. Like i still like to color out of the lines and draw weird things that doesn't rly fit with their defenition of normal so they're like "ewwwww why would u draw that?" or "what's wrong with her? (the drawing not me lol)" and it's like not nice yk. And cuz like i do debate and stuff ik more abt like politicis and i have a more realistic view so sometimes they're like "shut up stop ruining our plan omg" Plus they're also super into makeup and fashion and concious abt the type of skincare and products they use and i just dont know what they're doing yet so sometimes i say things like "ooh you guys do skincare?" and it comes off as a bit like yk pick-me but like i genuinely dont know how to do that stuff so im a bit behind. Also one of the girls has admitted to me like she said the only reason why she pulled me in was because the other two were closer together so she pulled me in the group to not feel left out. So now sometimes i feel like i'm just there to fill in that blank space for her which like i'm happy that i'm making her less sad but also at the same time she always complains that the other two are closer as if i'm not doing a good enough job of filling the blank.

[jackals-ships]

NOW for the dog <3< dual relationship which again similar beats but ur honor. i am doing unethical science on them;

by this point Jackal is still Jackal or sometimes Prophet (kind of an in joke with them being ghb's left hand arm rabbit etc) and they've settled pretty firmly into the church. this is post Bachus "aren't you tired of being Nice?" and lovingly dragging all the latent sadism and etc to the surface

they do primarily interrogation ("interrogation") work and infiltration jobs, smthin smthin there's a no one expects the Spanish Inquisition joke here somewhere

anyways i like the idea that jackal runs into Saturn a few times by accident, by this point they're more confident but not "willingly interact with the Fucking Orphaner" confident so it's more of a "catches a glimpse and scampers off" or "local rat perched on a nearby roof is People Watching and oh hey ik that guy"

EVENTUALLY they end up having to Actually Work With Him. this is usually where i get a little hand wavey bc it's more an excuse for me to lock these two in a room together and put them in hamster mazes

jackal. immediately hates his guts. in just the Funniest To Me Way Possible they're immediately ".......BITCH?"

this is funny to me bc before hand Jackal was a little starry eyed "wow.... he's so Neat. and scary. mostly scary" not quite Idolization but somewhere in that vein yanno?

which. to be fair. he was Immediately irritated at having to work with the church in Any capacity but lbr Bachus is the only one dumb of ass enough to try and say "no" AND he's annoyed at having to work with specifically the highbloods weird pet

^ absolutely one of the ones who's first assumption was "there is NO way in hell that wasn't some kinda nepotism"

so he's just kinda off the bat An Ass + assumes they're gonna die and then HE'S gonna have to deal with THAT and it's gonna be a whole THING

it's when he talks down to them tho that jackals internally "ah. I have to kill a fish now." <- does NOT take disrespect well but at least knows enough to not immediately jump to biting him

anyways jackal immediately sets about being The Most God Damn Annoying Person Ever. you wish to speak down to the jackals?? have fun trying to figure out where your pants went. also all your pens. Fuck You They're Mine Now

this continues for the entirety of their time on his ship, just a whole Lot of petty irritation back and forth and snarking

this is also where dog earns their nickname, he refuses to remember their name bc of the assumption they're just gonna die anyways. so he calls them dog and they're just "🤔 damn your memory must be going huh" and general taunting him from Very High Places (it does say smthin that he can still get them but chooses not to)

it gets real funny POST job bc HIC decided that they work so well together (they arguably do actually, even if they won't admit that) that dog should stay on his ship for awhile bc smthin smthin learn to work with the church (miss Scylla just likes causing problems (affectionate))

they BOTH hate this SO MUCH dual was looking forward to the rat leaving, DOG was looking forward to being Anywhere Else

they immediately set back about being As Annoying As Possible. this is also when the two of them start actually fighting. no one wants to tussle with dog and they get antsy if they don't throw down so they just goad him as MUCH as possible

an like. there's no way they can best him without getting the drop on him + a lotta luck but they can give him a pretty good run for his money esp if they start Jus Full On Chomping. local fish taken off guard bc wwvhat the FUCK humans bite?? okay????

their romance 'romance' is ALSO very slow burn bc. they both absolutely refuse to admit to it. Saturn refuses to admit he got Got and dog is in camp "humans can't feel pitch emotions I hate him in. a perfectly normal way" "........palest diamond mine you have sent me some REALLY wild shit about that fish" "shut up-"

where the church ship dog was chilling on was only Contemplating locking them and Bachus in a room together Saturns crew does in fact; do so. it's a bold move that guarantees like 70-80% of the crew is gonna Get It but good GOD these two were all but fucking when they fought just KILL EACH OTHER or MAKE OUT

they do both. well dog kinda tries to stab him and that somehow turns into kissing and now they're the equivalent of a bitchy old married couple but with significantly more biting

[venomroses]

Hi this is an ask inquiring about the fucked up details of the zones nothing is off the table I wanna know what u mean!!

hi!!

i guess what i want to see is how the bad parts of the zones affect killjoy culture/desert culture in general. like fucked up things on a larger scale i guess. i see a lot of easily-resolvable bad things (ex. someone gets hurt but then someone else patches them up, minor character death) or what's basically just violence for the sake of violence (everyones evil and kills and hurts other people in cold blood with no good reason, what i made the original post about). neither of these are inherently bad (though the latter usually isnt my cup of tea) and technically do acknowledge bad things in the zones but its on such a small scale. i wanna see worldbuilding!! bc theres so little canon content for danger days it makes it the perfect story to build up your own little world and i feel like people definitely build up the characters but don't build up the actual world as much. or maybe they do and i'm just not seeing it?

like one idea that i've been kinda toying with lately (that i hope is a good example) is the idea of medics usually being loners/in groups of other medics instead of each group having a medic or two because without proper medical care, something that might have an easy fix irl can be deadly or at least way worse in the desert, and because of that people fear getting sick. because medics are constantly around people who have potentially contagious diseases, people fear being around medics and try to avoid them if necessary to avoid getting sick. this is part of why being non-op if youre trans is so common- most people won't risk an operation if it isn't necessary to stop them immediately dying. this avoidance of medics is also part of why so many people in the zones are misinformed or just aren't informed at all about many illnesses- how are they going to learn if they won't get near the experts?

basically just worldbuilding my beloved <3

here's a bunch of ideas for potentially fucked up things beyond just killing murder violence and questions to prompt worldbuilding, if anyone's interested. under the cut bc this is long:

like i was talking about above, sickness. how do people generally act toward those who are sick? how much of a difference does the type of illness make in how the sick person is treated? does the way they're treated vary between different kinds of people (killjoys, neutrals, etc)? how do different groups go about curing sickness? how readily available is medical help or medicine? how good are the average desert dweller's first aid skills, and does it vary between groups?

hunger/thirst. what do different groups usually eat? where do they get their food and water from? do they get a balanced diet, or is it just whatever they can get their hands on? do they eat breakfast/lunch/dinner like we do or not? if not, how often do they eat? do they tend to have big meals or small meals? when there's not enough food for everyone, who gets to eat first? how do different groups feel about stealing from others to get what they need? are there certain groups that try to provide food and water for those in need, or is it everyone for themselves?

prejudice/discrimination. i know a lot of people hc the zones as being very accepting, but surely no place is perfect. are certain groups discriminated against in the city too, or is it specific to the zones? are they treated better in certain parts of the zones, or by certain groups? do they have their own spaces? are there any specific parts of desert culture that contribute to prejudice against certain groups?

capitalism. since most people agree the city is a capitalist hellscape and the zones seem to work somewhat similarly (people still having to buy things, a lot of people have written stories about killjoys trying to get enough money to buy things they need, etc) how do you earn money in the zones? if people have jobs, are workers paid well? what happens if you dont have enough money to get something you need? is trade/barter acceptable, or is it money only?

shelter. it gets pretty hot during the day and pretty cold at night, how many people have adequate shelter? will others take you in if you don't have shelter? do people stay in their shelter of choosing for extended periods of time, or do they move around a lot? how do people decorate their shelters, or make them more comfortable? what types of furniture or supplies are found in the average shelter?

violence. how often do people face violence in the zones? what reasons to people have to be violent to one another? does violence usually come from other zone dwellers, or does it happen between zone dwellers and better living industries? are violent incidents usually fatal or not?

childhood. how are children usually treated in the zones? how protected are they from the above problems? what lengths will people go to to help a child in need? what age is considered adulthood? do children lose the help and protections they once had (assuming they had any) once they're considered adults? is anyone willing to help those who've just reached adulthood?

obviously there's more things than that, but i think that's more than enough to get you started. lmk if you actually use any of these to do some worldbuilding, id love to see it!!

[cathymee]

Telesforo NO-

It drives me mad why they keep the locket so much ;-; that they made Juli a dang servant (that the family/Tatang Selo does not want to do)

This is also the chapter of: Juliana Slander and well... Why are they arresting Tatang Selo?

Since i cannot understand much.... Simoun selling at Tales' den is well... just why?

This is just... foolish. Unless he is framed.

MY FRIEND I AM SO SORRY FOR ANSWERING SO LATE OMG ;-; just went through a busy month as i am about to graduate in my current year and had no time to pop back in here huhu but i've gathered my 2 brain cells now except whatever i wrote here isn't coherent at all

also first off the fact that this chapter is called merry christmas...u wanna beat up rizal w/me

aaaaaa i was screaming at simoun the entire damn chapter!! injustice really drives people to achieve justice and/or retribution in ways they see fit, and to achieve it with fury and vengeance is what simoun wanted to happen for all filipinos which is so fookin dumb like !! YOU BETTER STOP. and to think i had classmates before who cheered him on for exploiting the unprivileged and the oppressed like this bc "haha the indios' rebellion go brrr" but shits on activists and people who hold leftist political ideologies now by red-tagging them,,,, wild. like look around!! see what state we are in right now for people to be desparate enough to rebel and oppose the clowns, murderers, and the thieves in power. WILD.

juli's servitude still makes my heart hurt even now too :( it's just all so fucking cruel for all of them involved. selo just loves her granddaughter so much it breaks his heart enough to want death over seeing juli suffer being a servant instead of being the rich maiden, comfortable and well, that he had envisioned and wanted her to be…juli just loves her father so much that she tried all the plans and ideas she was offered just to earn money…juli just also loves basilio so much that she thinks she wouldn't be good enough for him but is at least comforted by the thought that she didn't sell the locket that he gave her as a sign of her loyalty….crying in the club rn. i understand why it's so frustrating at a logical standpoint tho because selling the locket would really really help them & basilio would give 0 fucks about the locket as long as juli and her family would be safe and well arrghhh I FEEL SO FRUSTRATED OVER IT AS WELL

juli slander INDEED literally she deserves so much better!! I WILL FIGHT ALL THE FUCKING FRIARS FOR HER

(another thing: do you think rizal forgot about sinang being really close friends with maria in the noli LMAOO bc the way he wrote sinang in this chapter has me raising eyebrows like sir. she was mc's cousin & bestie. we know it's been 13 years but come on…)

and they were supposed to arrest tales, as tales did commit murder but since he wasn't to be found they arrested tatang selo. (also Tales wasn't framed :( he intentionally left a trace behind because, well, vengeance. it's a sign and a threat to the authorities. :') )

i literally do not think there was any law out there at that time that states that they'd arrest another family member if the one who committed a crime wasn't present?? i mean i know like it was a colonization thing and the filipinos were heavily, heavily oppressed but i was thinking about if there were still any laws involved in this that i don't know about. does this make sense.

though granted the only thing we learned at school about laws in the spanish colonization era was the polo y servicio & nothing else, and to dive into the criminal laws in the Philippines in the 1800s at 12 AM is very tempting but i can't because i don't have the brain cells for it. i'm so sorry 😭 but even if that was validated by the law - which grants executions anyway?? actually??? and the system was GREATLY unjust and unfair towards Filipinos??? why is this mind-boggling sorry i'm very stupid HGSHGSHGAH - that was still unjust, tyrannic bullshit. and i wanna fucking fight simoun for being delighted at all literally fuck him

ANYWAY 😭 Simoun sold jewels there because that was the disguise he took on when he arrived in the country - he's a rich jeweler dude who tagged along to the Philippines because he's the Captain-General's closest friend (and the one who influences him to do bad shit, like what he details in ch7), now he's just. frolicking around. selling his stupid jewels when he knows most filipinos literally cannot afford his trinkets. a taunting figure of wealth and power just fucking shit up in the background

[x-exo]

*slides into your asks with a rose in my mouth* why hello, tis me!

Apologies for the long wait but your favorite long asks anon is here and OOF so much has happened. Let us break it down one by one lol

Monsta x our beans, welp we can officially say we are army wives for them because shownu is now at the military and just welp this feels weird lol. I lowkey forgot he was meant to enlist so when the news came out I went through so many emotions. Its why the latest comeback feels a bit bittersweet to me. It is their BEST for sure and for this year, I agree so to not see him perform right before he left is a bit sad. I don't blame him of course (if anyone does i am fish slapping you) but just a shame. I'm happy we do get content with him still? Seems pre-planned so that is nice!

Onto legends exo, fantastic comeback. I cannot stop listening to the album, its just bops full of bops to me. They broke so many records and I'm over here sipping my tea because fudge yes. It isn't a full member comeback, 2 of the members featured in the comeback are off playing call of duty and they still did THAT. While having lay properly in the comeback!? (Or at least some form, better than tempo era!) Kyungsoo my beloved, the man that can swoon you off your feet, his proper solo album. Omg I am just in love? The album feels like a Playlist that you hear while taking a walk or on a raodtrip? I love it, I just love everything about this with how much thought was given. It makes me feel warm and I'm so proud of him (I think he even got a first win) but sadly xiumin got the it shall not be named virus D: I feel so bad and I can only hope he gets better! It makes me worried because I keep seeing more and more idols getting sick and I can't help but wonder why don't the kpop entertainment just put a pause with stuff? Of course that is VERY unrealistic, I am aware that is naive for me to think but its just so idk how to word it properly (my English brain is not working I am sorry) I cannot help the feeling of while I get people are being safe and yes we need to still live like normal beings, is it worth risking idols health just for some entertainment? Idk how to explain my thoughts properly but maybe I hope I made sense!!

Onto svt! That is perfectly fine to not vibe with a comeback! I will admit, I didn't fully vibe with this comeback and it shocked me because every comeback was a hit to me. Even fear, left and right or homerun where I know many fans were split on, I liked but RTL was a grower. For me, listening to it without watching the mv, helped it alot and it is a song I like. Is it their best? No I don't think so but it is alright to say "hey I didn't bop to this, not my cup of tea" (imo I blame the mv? The mv REALLY didn't do the song justice at all, I am sorry if I sound like a fake fan but this mv Just is bad in all aspects. Sure we have some pretty shots but like it just doesn't fit at all?) So if anything listening to the song or wishing the live performances does it better. Seeing the choreography amps the song up more, cannot go wrong with their dancing. As for the rest of the songs, I admit game boy is my top favorite? Idk if it is because I am a gaming nerd and found all the production of the song so creative but yeah. We can wait for the next comeback! Svt always have something up their sleeves, plus we do have their music projects to look forward too (I wonder when we will get one? Seeing as RTL promotions stopped) some positive news with the boys is they resigned like a year before their contract ends and I'm a bit emotional :') I'm excited to see the boys future projects. We did have caratland recently! Did you watch it if I may ask? We did get in the soop confirmation so I'm excited to watch that, the boys deserve that nice break (even if it was filmed for a show fjsbsns)

Ok I think that is it for kpop updates? XD I do hope life has been treating you kindly! Life has been a bit all over the place sadly so I hope it wasn't like that for you as well! Until next time my bean!

hii!!!! omg sorry for the late reply i've been pretty busy these days 🙈

indeed so much has happened! and much more since you sent this ask omg!!

our shownu is at war *looks into the distance* *wipes away tear* *sighs* by now I got used to enlistment news (see what happens when you stan 2nd and 3rd gen groups) but STILL [[IT HURT]] when they uploaded the monchannel videos of his goodbye day like ????? what kind of twisted mind diuhdfuihdifuhs but the boys were all so cute and soft but they seemed so sad they didn't want to let go of their super leader :(( I hope he's learning lots and making new friends (and also we've got our international super spy yoo kihyun giving us small updates on him every now and then so everything's fine!). Yeah I totally get you it felt empty without him this comeback and at first it didn't really clicked with me but when the enlistment news came out i understood he had to take care of his health and thoroughly check on his eye sight in order to be 100% ready for the military so it made sense he had to be absent :( everything was so close (the comeback and enlistment) that I'm sure there was no other way for doing it I'm pretty sure he couldn't maybe postpone the enlistment day any further

onto exo! my ksoo my soft boi my romantic boi 🥺 his album is so him SO HIM i can't explain it bur it's just HIM you know it's the type of album you'd play on loop on a summer afternoon when you've taken your papers and paints outside in the garden to paint a bit with the warm soft breeze moving the trees lightly 🤧 and he signs in English and SPANISH (he did it for me) my multilingual king he's a native. Also I've been watching Honeymoon Tavern with Jongin these days and OMG i could d word for him really (if you haven's watched it go do it when you have time) he's SO SOFT and SO CUTE and he works as a waiter and a wedding planner and helps with the room preparations and is also a tour guide and he's just so cute so happy al the time the way he interacts with everyone is so 🥺🤧😭 onto more serious stuff now: yeah i was so worried about minseok catching covid omg but i'm glad he went through it with our any major complication and the rest of the boys are safe too! I guess the industry doesn't stop bc that would mean a huge loss of thousands and thousands of dollars/won/etc so as long as the gov doesn't prohibit going out or gathering like at the beginning of the pandemic, they'll keep on going with the idols' schedules otherwise the industry would just shut down having no way of earning money to sustain all the companies and idols.

as for seventeen! yeah i like the songs too! the mv sure ruined rtl and listening to it without watching it has really helped it grow on me more but still it feels kind of meh to me idk i really like anyone i think it's my favourite from the album. AND NOW WE'VE GOT A COMEBACK IN OCTOBER!!!! yayyyyy i can't wait they seem to be preparing very diligently (i hope they release a sexy bop) it's a shame junhao aren't gonna be present for this comeback but i'm soooooo happy they have the opportunity to visit their families again omg they have spent 2 whole years without seeing them in the flesh they must be so happy to get back to them again!!! it's so funny seeing them be bored at the quarantine hotel and doing lives every day duhdfiudhfiuh i hope it passes quickly and they can see their loved ones finally! and I did watch Caratland!! omg the unit switch song was the best thing ever hhu doing lilili yabbay and not being able to stop laughing idfuhdifuhs perf team doing chocolate and owning it????? hello??? performance team more like main vocal team wow! and the vocal team being a complete mess during check in lmaooo i loved it! In The Soop has finally started!!! I love these kind of "normal life" concepts I love seeing the boys being themselves cooking and relaxing I've watched the first and second eps as of today and also few clips from the third and omg mingyu and jeonghan drowning in the pond dfuhidfhidfs lmao they're so dumb i love them 🤣 i'm glad they could go away for a few days and spend time together away from their hectic schedules!

I hope you're well now and if not hang in there it'll all pass soon enough! 🥰💕 bye bye!!

p.s.: I got your request for the svt this or that gifset and i promise i’ll do it one day i just don’t feel like giffing these days dhbduusi i’m out of energy