#but im qlso super happy :))))))

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SO SO GLAD THEY WON im so so happy :)))))))

[straykats]

small ramble/vent ???

ive been hanging out w one of my friends a lot recently (primary school friend that i lost contact w and then met again almost a decade later lol; we work together now too) and i really enjoy his company and feel pretty comfortable around him (as in as comfy as i do with my friend of the last decade) but our manager made a joke about us dating and my brother also thinks we have a thing (he talked to his friend who is the younger sibling of one of my friends, who told me HAHA) and i. im scared again?

like. im scared the friendship is gonna start.. dying, drifting, etcetc. and i dont think it'll be like what it was in highschool but i feel like im gonna be super sensitive to it if people start talking about it behind our backs?

like if theyre upfront and are just asking then thats fine, but if its constant jokes and whispering behind my back and if it makes my friend uncomfortable and leads either of us to start distancing ourselves from the other, im gonna ??? be really sad?? and i know this sounds super childish and im hoping all my current friends are more mature than the people in highschool but yeah idk i.

im seeing him tomorrow and i kinda wanna be upfront about it (ie explain my worry and ask him to just lmk if it happens and if it makes him uncomfy etc and just communicate if he doesnt want us to talk/hang out as often/give me lifts often) but i qlso feel like. it's gonna make things weird?

and yet at the same time i think (i hope?) hes like. idk the word but i think/hope he can understand that and not let it make it weird? idk if that makes sense.

we did talk about relationships and stuff and i feel like he really is emotionally mature/rêcptive/intelligent (.????) compared to the other people around me HAHAHAHAH and in a serious way, not in a dismissive way, so i feel like it'll be okay but also 😃😃😃 scared. always scared.

((was gonna leave the following out but then i started thinking more hm)) also between you and me, im actually seriously lowkey scared i actually have a crush on him??? but also im happy being friends/with the way things are rn so i dont think so. i think my main worry is that when i get comfortable with someone, i get worried about the rumours etcetc and so some part of me wants to have something solid/legit so thatpeople CANT spread rumours and whispers etc. you cant tease people about them dating if theyre actually dating? /// i feel like level of comort w some of my other male friends too but they have partners so im like. idk i dont have the same stress because people wouldnt say the same things yknow idk if that makes sense.

[prayerforlovingsorrow]

Samarina Anon again! Sorry it's been a few days since I've left you a nice message. I see you've been reblogging some Japanese alternative fashion things and I wanted to say I'm such a huge nerd for that stuff too! I recently got into Jirai Kei looks, the dusty pastels and the dark black, the heart motifs<3 I struggle with BPD too as well and I want you to know you're not alone at all in struggling to cope. I'm currently going through a depressive episode myself about FP issues. But seeing the relatable posts you've been sharing makes me a little more relaxed seeing I'm not alone, as usual. I'm glad your posts are here to keep me company.

I hope your days get brighter and your smile returns!

-Samarina Anon

SAMARINA ANON UGHHFHN ♡ thank u for th3 support when i see ylur asks in my inbox i get so excitied OUGHGHH.

Ive been super into jfashion recently im getting mysekf a dark girly kei coord hopefully (idk if its called coord for non lolita fashions,, im still learning) i qlso love gyaru and ouji fashion. Menhera is cute too ♡

I deleted all my vent posts becuase i was sorta out of it and i feel embarassef but im so happy you were able to relate and find solace

Its so silly i get so excitied over your anon posts but it seriously brightens my day so much thank you for every single one <333333

[kaiasinclair]

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