#but im furious me my bf + two of our younger girl coworkers had to group to keep this creep away from us individually

[aerbunny]

it makes me mildly dysphoric usually to b seen as an off putting and unappealing women to men as a gay man but it rlly comes in handy when my coworkers r getting harassed and we cant do anything abt it via company policy <3

[lesless]

Everything about dating was so stupid. People were so fake & insane (including myself in the latter one at least). I didn’t want to be in the first relationship any more but it was my first one so I didn’t know what to do. I started creating separation, I got out of a bad situation, we broke up. I was relieved but sad. He seemed to be making an effort & changing, I reconsidered bc I was an idiot & didn’t know how to deal with just being sad, so I tried to fix it after briefly dating a good friend & realizing I didn’t have feelings nearly as strong as he did, it felt really unfair so I stopped dating him. While trying to “fix it” I found out my first bf was sleeping with his coworker the entire time, & only hit me up when she was busy. I was furious & disgusted. I confronted him. He apologized & cried bc “she’s (insult)” & he was ashamed that he was sleeping with her for being (insult). This further disgusted me. I found her online to let her know bc I figured she didn’t & it was gross & unfair to both of us. She was extremely nasty & cruel to me, ok at least I tried right. A friend heard through the grapevine that she didn’t know, but hated me, & now had leverage to keep him in line. I was trying to salvage a years-long friendship with the second guy, which is ignorant bc that obviously doesn’t work. He caught wind of this whole scenario & blamed him for us splitting bc he was toying with my feelings & distracting me from our thing. A MESS. A MESS!! Anyway my first bf & that girl are now married with kids last I heard & im sure he’s still a worm. The other fellow & I tried forever to be friends off & on but his friends (probably rightly) hated me for the whole mess (I shouldn’t have been dating anyone) so it was impossible + lingering one sided feelings uh. Anyway last I heard he’s seeing someone 10 years younger than him who a friend said looks eerily like me & I’m just so glad I somehow dodged two sniper bullets straight to the head.

I’m laying here trying to fall asleep, please tell me why my brain decided to play the memory of the night two of my ex’s ran into each other at a bar & got into a fight & they both fucking called me to tell me about it? I was like I’m done with BOTH of you idiots & why are yall even fighting it’s been too long for yall to have beef. Anyway ex 1 cried in a message & ex 2 laughed through his whole recording & if I had to pick sides I’m glad crying ex got sucker punched bc he was a fuckhead. Meanwhile I went to bed that Friday night at like 10 PM in my own apartment, alone, after 2 glasses of red wine & 8 chapters of a book bc this bitch was trying to avoid any more drama after idiot 1 & 2 caused all kinds of grief. I’m so glad I’m not 23 any more.