#but if she ever has to cry alone secretly as if she can't rely on anyone else? oh. oh boy. I'm going for blood!

[hellogoodbyeitsme]

I know we all talk about older siblings thinking "that's a baby" about their younger siblings no matter how old they get but might I suggest an adjacent concept, as a younger sibling.

After seeing my older sister secretly ugly crying by herself at like 15 over [family traumatic event] because she feels like she has to Be The Strong One, I cannot get the harrowing memory out of my brain, and so she is always (in some way) that crying 15 year old to me, and if anyone hurts her and makes her feel that way again I will simply have to gut them like a fish.

Like I'll be an annoying little evil sibling 90% of the time, that's no problem, but I cannot. CANNOT. witness that sort of thing ever again. And the only way to avoid it is to make sure she knows that sometimes age doesn't matter and she can be the baby and rely on me.

[violentmouths]

Heeeeeellllllooooo in theeeeeere...

So good to see old friends and readers, now my blog isn't always gonna be about Devil May Cry as I do like these deep dives whether you do or not. I've been in depression since early December but I'm feeling grander than ever! I'm happy to say that Uncharted 4 and RE8 helped a lot.

But I'm not gonna talk about the whole RE8 game...

I just wanna talk about one specific character...

Karl Heisenberg

First off, I love his name! Instead of being spelt with a C, it's spelt with a K! And the lastname alone is just fucking sexy!

From the information I've gathered (my observations, Wiki, and YouTubers), I couldn't help but find myself infatuated by him:

- He was kidnapped and subjugated to the Cadou Parasite Experiments (said in the Wiki and his diaries).

- Kept himself cooped up in his factory to work on his inhumane experiments for his rebel army (introvert, maybe?).

- Has a grudge against Mother Miranda.

Alright let's get this out of the way, I LOVE his appearance, he looks so rugged up and I just love it!

From his trench coat, to his hat, to his shades?! So adorable (nope, not hot... adorable...) especially when he says:

To be honest and blunt, he stammers and stutters before he starts yelling, an example of him not liking to be interrupted, which happens three times; by Angie, Moreau, and that experiment with the propellers ( can't think of his name at the moment).

Let's be honest, no one likes being interrupted when speaking...

Back to the Dive-in...

I was listening to a YouTuber called  Video Game Sophistry, who said that Karl Heisenberg was supposed to actually be a pair of TWINS, they'd both do brain experiments on their mother while his father was supposed to look like Karl during his boss fight... As well being the ruler of the land, not Mother Miranda... But capcom discarded that idea (glad they did)...

His body is made of electrical organs that are connected to his nervous system where he can pass and control electricity throughout his whole body, allowing him to control magnetic fields which moves the metal!

Mother Miranda didn't see Heisenberg as a good enough vessel for her daughter. Only seeing him like an experiment, which he mentions in his diary.

"She took me. Took us. To be her children. She locked us away in the village. Decades of serving her. Can you even understand that humiliation?"

- Karl Heisenberg

It is extremely clear that his life was taken from him, but it's his next line that made me think...

"I'm not my siblings. I want nothing more than to be free of that bitch."

- Karl Heisenberg

Wanting to be free, eh?

Sound familiar?

Yeah, Karl and Zoe have some things in common:

- Stuck with their 'families' for years

- Want nothing other than being free.

- Relying on Ethan to help them

Unfortunately Heisenberg dies before getting his wish... Zoe doesn't...

Gonna skip to the scene when Heisenberg explains his plan to Ethan... I don't know how, I don't why no one looks to the left...

But I did...

In red, BOLD LETTERS next to Donna Beneviento and Salvator Moreau's pic says and quote:

"BSAA COME!!"

Why does he want the BSAA to come to wherever he lives? Does he want to join them? Does he work for them secretly? Also, how does he know about Chris...? As well as American Ground Beef (That part makes me laugh as well as question him)...?

Like:

- Did he ever travel to America?

- Did he ever eat something that had ground beef in it (not all ground beef is used for burgers, guys)?

- Was he going to travel to America if he gotten free? Maybe keep a low profile?

We'll never know...

Another thing I've discovered while scrolling through the comment section of YouTube vids that have Heisenberg in it was that it didn't look like Heisenberg actually died, most of the time the characters would calcify and crumble... But he just exploded! No calcification, no nothing just... BOOM!

Someone also said that his 'form' looked like armor rather than a transformation... Which I had to agree on, it does look like armor!

The transformation even looks like a Splendid Royal Moss Caterpiller ( VGS even says it himself) which was supposed to move faster than the other Lord's transformations.

I was personally thinking he'd turn into a mechanical horse thus to his symbol, but, oh well!

Alright this is getting too long, hope you liked my deep dive, I'll probably do more, I kinda wanna talk about Ethan and Heisenberg in the next one...

See you soon...

[blujaydoodles]

Idri - 4, Aubree - 8, Juniper - 13, Elyss - 18

4. Do they have any underlying motivations? (ie they seem hard-working but secretly just don’t want to fall back into poverty, etc)

MOSTLY Idri is very genuine and surface level about her motivations, which are mostly that she loves attention and excitement and having fun and makes a lot of choices in pursuit of those things. But on a specific case by case basis, Idri has a habit of just avoiding her problems and bad feelings as hard as possible, so sometimes she'll do something like quitting the circus and taking up adventuring because her friend died and she Won't deal with that. I guess there's a strong undercurrant of 'I want to impress you' in everything she does and how she does it, but that's not necessarily a secret lol, and there's not like any secret, deep dark reason for that

8. What is their coping mechanism?

Great question, DM and architect of all her trauma! >:3c Aubree's Not Great at coping (surprise surprise, none of my dnd characters are lmao). If she can, she usually copes with intense stress and trauma by drinking about it, which usually leads to an Ornery Drunk, which usually leads to a bar fight, almost always a fight she loses (and tbh probably knew she couldn't win when she started it). She's also been known to just yell and throw things until she wears herself out; she's the kind of person that would probably benefit from having a punching bag in her room, she gets a lot of mileage out of very physical/ primal catharsis. Because she's not a total asshole and she knows how she gets when she's going through it, she also tends to want to isolate herself as much as possible to avoid being an asshole to someone she cares about, although that's not always possible. Broadly speaking, she's very action oriented and inclined to want to fix whatever the problem is, but unfortunately there's a lot of fucked up shit you can't just, you know, have big muscles at until they stop, and she's not very well equipped to handle problems that aren't really straightforward :\

13. What are their views on marriage? If they want to get married, what would their dream wedding be like?

Juniper is a big soft romantic and is very much pro-marriage; she was definitely someone who used to daydream about her own wedding as a little girl, and she's the kind of person who's made herself cry imagining herself as a bride, haha. That said, her dream wedding wouldn't be big or extravagant but very intimate and personal, with a traditional druidic ceremony, under the sky and surrounded by flowers. Wedding daydreams are usually connected to catching feelings, so any details are always specific to the other woman; she wants to look beautiful for her, she wants it to be perfect for her, she wants a wedding that's a tailored gift of love and devotion to her bride more than anything else

18. Where do they see themself in ten years?

Elyss really isn't the kind of person to think too much about the future, to be honest. That's just sort of what she's naturally like, but I think if pressed she would point out that life is unpredictable and things can change so drastically that trying to imagine your life a decade in the future is sort of pointless. She might say that she hopes she's still with her friends and they won't be dealing with constant back to back crises anymore, but she's not exactly holding her breath. That said... I think, quietly, privately, she would wish she might have been married by then. Now that's she's been adventuring and has a taste for travel (even under usually terrible circumstances) she no longer dreams of settling down, but she's been alone for a lot of her life, and really just wants someone she can fully trust and rely on who she can share her life with and pour her love into. Unfortunately she definitely doesn't actually see that ever happening, for a lot of reasons: she's bad with people and she knows it, and she believes herself to be fundamentally unlovable on that level, so she's more or less accepted (true or not) that she's going to be single for her entire life

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