#but idk the whole ''oh such and such word originally came from this so its badwrongevil to use it''

[daisywords]

you can talk about the ethics and stuff all day long but at the end of the day getting mad about language change is just unproductive. you can't put that word back where it came from. we are all being swept along in the tide whether you like it or not. might as well direct that energy somewhere more fruitful

[aphverse-confessions]

OK- I'm gonna be honest. I like MyStreet, but not as a show. More as a minecraft story series in general if that makes sense. (not comparing it to MCD in this bc its been waaay too long since ive watched MCD for me to actually write abt it like this)

srry if this is annoying lol, long post.

Some disclaimers!! A lot of these r assumptions btw! Pls do not take these things as 100% fact, this is just how i saw things/"theories". This is also not an attack on Jess, i dont have the authority to judge someone as a person and I dont claim to. these are very strictly my opinions on Mystreet, not Jess as a person. It's hard to take the early seasons very seriously considering its origins as essentially a tropey, slice-of-life version of MCD, and these tropes continue on throughout the series until (i can only assume) Jess went "oh, we're making this more serious, and if the series is more serious, these tropes (Travis being an anime perv, Katelyn being an anime tsundere, Nana's whole thing..) make certain characters unlikeable/weird/problematic/whatever else so we'll just write them out" (Travis confronting Katelyn, the whole Nana Ashida reveal).

While these are occasionally done well, to me it just seems like Jess trying to write out the tropey or bad things that came from the earliest versions of the characters without actually IRL addressing the initial issue with their design (with Nana even dating back as far as MCD, with her first appearance being 5 months before the the start of MyStreet. I'm counting the whole "Kawaii-chan" thing as problematic here bc to me it's.. weird.. but idk, im willing to be educated on that if im wrong!) maybe she doesnt NEED to address some of the character design choices irl but I feel like itd be better to clarify things (I could be wrong). There's a lot of earlier creative decisions (especially with things played as jokes) that don't help with the tone as the series became more and more serious, and even some things in those more serious seasons that were really questionable, and I often feel like I have to just decide which parts of certain episodes are canon or non canon because of things like that. Don't get me wrong, it's very good for something that started out with the technology that it did, but in my opinion it just doesn't really reach "show" quality to me. It leaves a lot to wish for. (I know that there are TV shows that have the same problems, but i wouldnt even bother watching them normally because they dont have the saving grace that is the fact that this is in Minecraft, a charming style of storytelling that kept me interested even when I had these major criticisms about the actual content of the story.) Anyways sorry for incoherent babbling! ^^; Just had to get that onto paper to see if I'm just being crazy or something. I know I might not be right about all (or even most) of the things I said here but thats just how it came across to me. Of course this might not fully convey what i mean to say or even say it in the right way, maybe eventually ill talk more abt this somewhere(I had other things I wanted to talk abt but was scared to) but im too nervous to say it without the safety of anonymity rn haha. I'm open to other opinions, learning, etc. especially if i said something in this post that was problematic or already disproven! /genuine A/N: srry abt forgetting that The Big Move came out before MyStreet (i never watched it unfortunately, probably wouldve mentioned it in the main part if I knew but I dont think it subtracts too much from what im trying to say) & for the overuse of the word problematic, I literally did not know how else to put it :,]

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[danpuff-ao3]

@hprecfest 3/3: Days 21-31

Day 21: a thought-provoking fic

When the Rose and the Fire Are One

by perverse_idyll (@perverse-idyll). Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 81,618. Dysfunctional relationships. Minor Harry/George. Dubious consent. Sex magic. Secondary character death.

Harry’s haunted by guilt. Snape’s warded by roses. Each must free the other in order to free himself.

This is the fic that has ingrained itself in my brain more than any other, I think. PI is so clever and this whole world is well considered and fleshed out. 

This story features probably the best original character I’ve seen in fic (Odile, my love). The magic in this story is phenomenal and I’m actually obsessed with it. The magic and history of Spinner’s End, and Severus, and Eileen, has fully become canonized in my brain, I swear to god. The characterizations of Harry and Severus are top tier. The sex is scorching. The emotions are a rollercoaster both exhilarating and terrifying. And the end!!!! Oh god, this is the fic that I think about for days after I read it, wondering what comes after. 

While another of PI’s fics has captured my heart more, this is a close second and captured my mind more. It’s truly a masterwork and I cannot recommend this fic enough to people.

Niemöller, or Four Times When Harry Didn’t Speak Up and then When He Finally Did

by Leela. Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 7,904. 

They came, and they came, and one day Harry noticed.

When I posted the original version of Masquerade (new version on AO3 | old version on FFN) years ago, someone commented that it reminded them of Niemöller. So of course, I had to look it up and read it, and I fell in love! It really makes you consider an alternate way the world could have gone in the wake of Voldemort’s demise, and veering too hard in the opposite direction of Voldemort and the Death Eaters. It’s all the more real as time goes on and we see how prone our society is to extremes, and how our natural inclinations may be to “over-correct.” 

In the notes Leela linked to this poetic version of a confessional prose from Martin Niemöler, from who this fic gets its name:

First they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out—      Because I was not a socialist. Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out—      Because I was not a trade unionist. Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—      Because I was not a Jew. Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.

Day 22: an unfinished fic

The Release of Sisyphus

by starcrossed. Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: idk. LJ link.

The epilogue to Nights of Gethsemane and Invictus.

I've been waiting for TEN YEARS. TEN YEARS!!!! And I'll keep waiting cuz I've still not given up hope 🥲

This is the follow-up to NoG and Invictus that takes place years after the fact. Post-war, adult Harry, reconnecting with Severus. The last posted chapter is the worst place to leave off on, only because it was so close smut!!!! You just KNOW that's where chapter 16 would have gone if it had updated.

It hurts my soul a bit because I love this series so much, and so my soul will always be waiting for closure with this story. You know, until the author comes back in a year or two or ten with updates!! (Rec for NoG here.)

Day 23: a soulmate fic

Corresponding Shapes

by bleedcolor (@bleedcolor). Harry/Severus. Rated: T. Words: 5,516. Soulmate identifying marks.

For a very long time he hadn’t known what the names meant. He’d woken up the morning of his 7th birthday and there they were; red as blood, one more thing to brand him as a freak in the eyes of his aunt and uncle.

I love the idea of this one, Harry marked by two fates. I’m forever a sucker for soulmate-identifying marks, but the idea of this one is too neat, and Harry not knowing which name is which right away! It’s so sweet and lovely

Day 24: a holiday fic

The Christmas Hate List

by lizzy0305 (@lizzy0305). Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 11,465. Humor. Romance. Fluff.

Most people have a wishlist for Christmas, but Severus Snape is not most people - he has a hate list. There are five things Severus hates about the season, but with Harry Potter’s help, he gets reminded of the one thing he still loves about the Holidays.

GOD, Severus is such a HATER and I LOVE IT. But also, Mr. Grinch over here falls in love and we get a good laugh out of it. What a good time this is!

Gratia Plena

by Femme (@femmequixotic). Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 18,972. 

Memories of a drunken kiss lead two lonely souls together at Christmas.

One of the more serious and angsty Christmas fics I love, but love it I do! I can’t help but love Femme’s work. This is right up my alley in general, even outside of the holiday season, as it features 2 difficult men with a hell of a lot of chemistry (and history). This suits just right when you’re in the mood for something less merry and bright.

The Nutcracker’s Delight

by perverse_idyll, rinsbane (@perverse-idyll). Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 17,119. 

Severus Snape meets the Nutcracker. 

A fun holiday crackfic! It’s such a good time, full of whimsy and festivity, and written by 2 creators I’ve long admired. It’s such a good time and will for sure get you in the holiday spirit!

Day 25: a fic rated T

a scratch for every itch

by bleedcolor (@bleedcolor). Harry/Severus. Rated: T. Words: 11,478. Magical maladies. Pining. Humor. Idiots to lovers. Fluff.

Severus Snape is an itch that Harry just can’t scratch.

This one can also work for the “comfort fic” prompt. It’s a lighthearted, feel-good Snarry with a lot to love! The magical malady here is so whimsical and cute and so fitting for the HP-verse.

The Sleeping Prince

by who_la_hoop. Harry/Severus. Rated: T. Words: 42,758. Postwar. Hogwarts 8th year. Deaging. 

It’s hard to ignore your past — and impossible to do so when you can’t remember your future. But a meddlesome portrait, a dragon with an ancient grudge and true love’s kiss teach an unlikely Prince that a regrettable past doesn’t have to mean an unhappy ending.

This is one of my favorite fics. I don’t generally care for de-aging fics, but this one is exactly what I would hope for. Lots of cute, awkward teenage romance. I love seeing how distrustful and angsty teenage Severus is. And how sweet and dorky Harry is!

Day 26: a fic with an ending you can't stop thinking about

Penance is the Play

by Maeglin_Yedi (@maeglinyedi). Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 66,439. Underage. Student/teacher. Dysfunctional relationship. Manipulation. Coercion. Humor & angst. 

Harry wants revenge. Harry has a plan. But is Harry Slytherin enough to avoid his own trap?

Yet another fic I read way too many times back in the day. And still do. But it’s so good!!!! And that ending still haunts me to this day, I swear to god.

And Mine the Gall

by perverse_idyll (@perverse-idyll). Rated: E. Words: 5,505. Sequel to In Infinite Remorse of Soul (Albus/Severus, Harry/Severus). 

It’s one thing to deny oneself; it’s another to be denied. In which Albus learns (again) that sins of omission have consequences, even unto the next generation; and that what he denied to Severus shall be visited upon Harry.

These 2 fics are dark and delicious and AMAZING AND PERFECT AND I’m obsessed and will think about them forever. It also features a line that has lived rent free in my head fOR YEARS. 

“Severus,” he sobs, an explosion of defeat, because the love that will poison his life has a name.

Day 27: a Muggle AU

Marks

by florahart. Harry/Severus. Rated: G. Words: 5,136. College/university. Student/professor. Podfic available.

Harry's a computer science student, but he needs a writing credit to qualify for an internship. All the writing classes are full, so he ends up in Snape's lit class as a substitute. Snape has a reputation as a hardass, but it can be said that no one passes his class without learning to write, so that meets the requirement, and then, once Harry starts working on that, it turns out they have something else in common.

I nearly recced this fic a handful of times already, for podfic day (JocundaSykes did a terrific narration of this!), comfort fic, and a fic rated G. So when it came time to choose a Muggle AU, I finally had to choose this one! There is still the essence of what I love about Snarry here: a bit of student/teacher (though as unproblematic as can be), with Snape as the mean teacher with a bad reputation, and Harry as the student who is smart and competent in some areas, but not Severus' area. It's a feel good fic that I often return to when I need something light and easy.

Day 28: an underrated fic

A Series of Events

by babygray (@babygray). Harry/Severus. Rated: M. Words: 67,251. Mpreg. Miscarriage. Underage. Student/teacher. Angst.

In January, the impossible occurred. It took Severus until April to realize just what that was, and to believe.

Not gonna lie, I don’t know how to gauge what’s “underrated” or “overrated” or “appropriately rated” but I do know that this is a fic I love too much to have no one to talk to about it. It’s like…idk how to explain this fic. It’s niche. It’s unique. It itches.

Okay “it itches” might sound weird, but like…this fic crawled under my skin and randomly reminds me of its presence. It’s not a happy fic, there are no easy answers, it’s all gray and complicated and sad and so real in a way that I’m obsessed with.

Molly’s Advice

by Arrisha (@arrisha-ao3). Harry/Severus. Rated: M. Words: 7,189. Postwar. Angst. Infidelity. 

Snape used to have a secret; Harry only now begins to realise his own.

Okay, Arrisha’s work is all amazing, but this one is my favorite and no one talks about it???? Or at least, I’ve not seen anyone talk about it, WHICH IS A SHAME, YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED, THIS FIC IS WONDERFUL, PLEASE READ IT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

Day 29: a post-canon fic

The Beating of This Fragile Heart

by Writcraft (@writcraft). Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 33,146. Fluff & angst. Hurt/comfort.

After the war, the last thing Severus Snape needs is the memory of a fleeting wartime kiss and a very persistent Harry Potter thwarting his plans to live a peaceful and solitary life. It’s only when Harry’s life is endangered that Severus is finally forced to confront his feelings head on.

This is one of my favorite fics and it does my heart so good! It’s such a lovely love story featuring a Harry who knows what he wants, and a Severus too scared and insecure for his (or Harry’s) own good. Their love here brings me so much joy.

Day 30: a pre-canon fic

Buried Roots

by yletylyf (@yletylyf). Severus-centric. Evan/Severus. Rated: M. Words: 19,036. First Wizarding War. Violence. Romance. Tragedy.

Severus Snape and Evan Rosier nurture their shared love of the Dark Arts, and find themselves drawn into Voldemort’s world. Severus is sure he can navigate anything in life, with Evan by his side.

I so thoroughly enjoyed this fic, as a well considered look at how Severus might have come to the Death Eaters. It does my heart good how impressed others were by Severus and his gifts, and how those gifts drew the Dark Lord’s eye. It was good to see his friendship/relationship with Evan Rosier, as well as the other connections Severus makes. There is no real goal to “excuse/forgive” Severus’ choices, but also makes his journey understandable and very real. I really appreciate Lety’s grasp of various characters and showing them in the best and worst ways, which is exactly what I love to see! 

Day 31: a fav amongst favs

The White Road

by perverse_idyll (@perverse-idyll). Harry/Severus. Rated: E. Words: 47,887. Lily POV. Romance. Redemption. Afterlife. 

One day, comfortably set up in the afterlife, Lily Evans Potter switches on the telly and gets hooked on the Harry Potter show.

I’m pretty sure this is the fic I’ve read more than any other, except maybe some of my shorter faves. Maybe. I first read this fic around the time it was first posted, and I’ve reread it at least once a year ever since. It’s TRULY one of the best stories I’ve ever read. Seeing Snarry’s romance unfold from Lily’s POV is incredible, and PI is so masterful in making us feel their great love when we’re not in either of their heads. 

Not to mention Lily’s character here is incredible. She’s spunky and vivacious, but has moments of meanness and vanity. She’s no saintly vision of Lily, but a very human Lily, for all that she’s dead. This is the story that really made me love and appreciate what Lily could be, as more than just Harry’s perfect martyred mother. 

Also this is the fic that gave me a voyeurism kink. 

[imraespace]

HELP hi guys😆😊 I have a funny story to share(it has a serious topic(?) just anemia so don't worry too much abt that) it will probably be long idk and also it's the reason I didn't updated the megumi smau yesterday so I say blame the discordians!

ALSO why did I blink and saw that I have 441 followers it probably went up but I'm too lazy to check.

okay anyways so my friend and I have this small server on discord it was originally my kpop server I made back in 2022 bc I wanted txt friends but then we kinda shut it down last year AND NOW ITS BACK UP! so we talk a lot in that server and SHE ASKED ME to pretend to be boys on the Greg bot yk the phone bot thing! so I was like oh okay! BC PPL ALREADY THINK IM A BOY ON MY REGULAR ACC so I used my second acc and created a whole other person(his name is ezra and he's a bleach fan.) right and it was harmless when we went on the Greg bot right made some mini bro friends right! I think someone actually wanted us bc they asked for our ig but um anyways.

EVERYTHING WENT GOOD UNTIL these two girls.

to understand my story better I have to over share on some stuff. my race is black and I'm anemic so since yk that my story will make some sense.

firstly when we said hi I said "yo" bc idk boys say that and my friend she had gave up on being a boy I just continued bc being a boy is fun.. AND WHEN MY FRIEND SAID HI she was like "HELLO" and boom drama started BC APPARENTLY THEY WERE LIKE "ik this call abt to be ass" and started talking abt how she said hello in all caps and my username (it was fw.ez HELPME) and I didn't notice them talking abt my friend first and only saw when they talked abt my username so I was like "dang dawg I'm.not even a boy" bc i thought yk harmless prank! but apparently I was using the word "dawg" wrong? WHAT😱 AND THEN PROCEEDED TO CALL ME WHITE. WHITE PPL CANT USE THE WORD DAWG? AND THERES A RIGHT WAY? so I was confused at first then I understood what they meant and told them im black I think they short circuit but still carried on with their arguments so I got mad and my chest began to race bc my anemia sometimes affects my emotions and I will get a tad bit emotional! so um I couldn't think straight I wanted to tell them some very bad words in dialect but they wouldn't even understand me so I was like I bet yall annoying as hell and it shut them up apparently AND YK MY FRIRND WASNT EVEN ON DISCORD I HAD TO DEFEND FOR MYSELF AND HER AND SHE CAME BACK AND WAS LIKE what's happening. GIRL. I told her what was happening and she called them dumb HAHAHA anyways then we came off the phone but THANKS TO THEM I HAD A RACING HEART AND A SEMI WEAK BODY with cold fingers and toes so I couldn't do anything I was going to write a new chapter for the megs smau bc I forgot to do it eariler in the day but I couldn't even think straight so I was up until 4am😒 with a racin heart and random emotional changes with my mommy gossiping abt some game we play(romance club it's like episode but better i recommend that you play the story called song of the crimson nile hehehheheja) and now IM HOME FROM SCHOOL BC OF THEM🤨😒😒

lesson of the day- ignore THOSE discordians!😉

oh and um a megumi update later when I'm feeling better🤫😉😉

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

i wanna add more will wood's songs for julian because ig this is his kin artist now (i am SO NORMAL abt these songs and how it ties to julian's character)

cw for alcoholism, death, suicide

there will be mentions of his reversed ending too

Um, it's Kind of a Lot

"Oh, I love you so much it scares me half to death. the other half, I guess I'm giving to you"

"And I'm afraid you'll notice all my flaws. I'm afraid you already have, obviously"

"And I'm afraid I'll come on too strong, hold you too tight, and scare you too"

the last one is so julian i cant even

"But I never been afraid to wear my heart on my sleeve"

"At least to prove I'm weak, and if you cut me, I'll bleed"

i mean come on, look at that, its so perfectly julian i dont even have to explain

"I'll twist my words, a clever turn of phrase"

"Sorry, darling, please excuse my constant need to self-aggrandize. Coddling my narcissism"

we do not talk enough abt how julian also has that kind of like bravado but just not as bad as lucio's lmaoo

"So here's one last lyric to sum up these thoughts I struggled to come up with"

"To make me sound deep and smart, and then I promise I'll shut up"

"Wait, let me think, hold on, I got this"

"Anything but 'I'm in love with you'"

the third lyric is just the cherry on top, the unsure of it all and just kinda fumbling over your own words, its so julian

2012

"I was an existential criminal, so innocently cynical"

hes a fugitive!!

"Originally meant to live a God-damned miracle"

"Might've been metaphysical, but I think it was medical"

i think this could refer how he was literally dying from the plague and met the hanged man, so he was very close to dying or i think he did die and he came back with his mark (? idk tbh). well hes not dead now so it was a miracle but yk, julian is a skeptic so the line "but i think it was medical" fits him sooo much. hes a doctor! i'll take any medical related words and refs and align it with julian, ty.

"Testing my hypothesis"

"Never finding a theory"

i take back my last sentence. i'll take any science related words and refs and align it with julian, ty

"Did you lose yourself? It's always in the last place that you'd check"

julian talking to mc

"I might find myself by retracing my steps..."

"But I don't remember how I forgot myself"

"I don't remember, I don't remember 2012"

"Wow, the whole year's a blur!"

yea just change that to three years

"I think I bought into the comedy and brought a lot of oddity"

"An odyssey I thought to be consider a commodity"

"And not until anomaly abolished my monotony"

"Did I applaud autonomy and modify a lot of me"

i cant even break this one down tbh but the julian vibe is definitely there

"I heard the world would turn to hell"

"Compared to that, I'm doing well"

birblian cameo??!?! no but srsly i could see birblian going insane and gaslighting himself

The First Step

this is just an alcoholic song tbh...

"You could say I'm plastered, 'cause I hit the wall"

this is just a funny line tbh, not that deep, just julian hitting the wall like a cartoon

"I’d try to see the glass as half full"

"But I’d probably just a-drink that too!"

thats the alcoholic line. yk julian's a pessimistic, trying to see the glass half full instead of half empty but he'd probably drink that too

"Well I bet that a bottle of brandy so bitter’d be better than bitin’ the bullet and betterin’ myself"

"Sorry if I slur!"

if you listen to the song, will wood was actually slurring that first line. i have a hc that julian has two opposite talking mannerism. first one that he stutters (that part is canon) a lot and repeats his word. you get that or he slurs and talks so fast, theres no in between

"I’d try to see the glass as half full"

"Even when I'm empty, half-full"

"I’d try to see the glass as half full"

"But I’d probably just- AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!"

this is just a bonus. i just want to include it

Half-Decade Hangover

this song RUINED me actually so heres some angst (i avoid this song even tho i love it sm its such a banger but i cry everytime i listen to it. i really recommend listening to the song just so u can hear just the raw emotions. i also recommend going to the genius lyric page bc will wood himself actually annotate some of the lyrics im im im sorry im fanboying rn)

"Wonder how I didn’t die"

"This is not my life, I’m no survivor, I only happened to survive"

ooooof... again, with the dying theme, my god

"I was drunk when I made my bed"

"Now with a half-decade hangover I lay down in it"

"What have I done? Don't know what I've said"

ooooww yikes, that last line is kinda like a double whammy. julian not remembering his last 3 years bc of that amnesia OR in the reversed ending, "what have i done" but in a regretful way its so sad too bc after he made that deal with the devil all he did was drink himself to - well not death but yk.

"Give back my life, and if not"

"Take it, 'cause lately I been thinking maybe I could take it or leave it"

"If I can’t at least break even, then I’m leaving when"

"I been feelin' this awful since I hit bottom and"

"Said, 'Hand me my shovel, I’m going in!'"

that two first line is julian confronting to the devil. "take it (my life)" that line hits me like a train bc it has been hinted that julian have quite the suicidal tendencies and that was BEFORE shit went down. imagine how worse it got after the whole deal with the devil and him being cursed. he fought the devil so many times... it makes me wonder if he also did it, hoping he would die in the process. also the last line is a reference to one of will wood's song "Hand Me My Shovel, I'm Going In!" which a few ppl also recommend it for julian.

"Like it’s a good thing you said, 'You’ve got your whole life ahead'"

"Oh great, another half a century to live to regret"

"I’d rather be anybody else instead"

pretty forward with this one, this is depressing im sorry

"Please believe me when I say that I’ve poured my whole past down the drain"

thats pretty literally. he exchanged his memories of those three years for the healing mark

"Say that a second chance is a chance I can take"

"But I can’t make amends for things I can't remember"

"I can only say I'm sorry and occasionally pray"

he got a second chance to live, he no longer has the plague. also that second line, i mean julian traded the memories he didnt want so mustve thought he did something bad but now he cant really make amends bc he doesn't remember (not yet at least)

okay thats all, im sorry this was such a rollercoaster

@dandydanthelion :O the way you just broke down all those lyrics and fit them into his character, that was incredible and made so much sense!

It's not even a question at this point if they belong on the playlist (just added them) XD

Thank you for sending these friend! I always love to see your name pop up in my inbox ^.^

[stonyponyofficial]

hi!!!! :3 here are "some songs" ive been "listening to" that "i" think "you" should too!

spotify || youtube

notes on each below ^w^

Big Dipper - Death Grips: this song has such a good bounce to it, it makes me move no matter what, i cant help it. especially the chorus cuz ill start singing along and, well, then theres no stopping me. ill wiggle in my seat or like put some bounce in my step. which is all fun when im listening to music at home, but at work, where i mostly listen to music, i cant i have to skip the song. plus i love u songs that end with a good few minutes of noise just because, i never skip u i swear 🥺

classic j dies and goes to hell - glass beach: im fiiiinally getting around to glass beach and why didn't ANYONE say it was good? don't think ive heard the opinion that the first glass beach album is good yet. i wanted to listen to more bc of the hazel "Twinkle Park" version of the self titled song which is also very good but i put this one on this list bc it builds energy and emotion soooo well. it starts so somber but builds and builds till we're screaming about supporting each other and making a home for yourself despite despite despite.

DOGTOOTH - Tyler, The Creator: he creates once more! i always forget i had a kinda big tyler thing in high school until he releases new music. out of all his recent releases post-Flower Boy, Call Me didnt connect with me as much, but this single from the Call Me If You Get Lost "estate sale" of stuff that didnt make the album surprisingly did! it feels a little flowerboy-ish in the production but has the call me vibes of like "i can afford all these cars, buy my neighbors house, and ill still take my private plane to Switzerland for the day just cuz i was craving some nice chocolate" very braggadocio, very tyler, very good :)

Dumbass!! - Machine Girl: this song both sounds like and has similar effects as brainworms. it fuckin. got in there and made me quantifiably more insane than i was before. said brainworms make me wanna scream the lyrics and scuffle my feet and just like run into traffic and dance around the cars bc this song makes me believe i could and id be fine. i hope to fucking god they play this at the mg/100 gecs show. this song is also one of the few times ive looked up the lyrics for a machine girl song, usually content to just let the beats jar my head, and as soon as i did i couldnt get them out :) like some sort of... thought... eating... something or other idk theres probably a word for it (<-the worms are finally getting to her)

Fantastic Cat - Takako Minekawa: this song is sooooo cute, there is so much synth and whimsy to be had! unfortunately i don't know much about the artist bc this was one of the first songs i found after using Radiooooo (which u should be basically required to use if u like music and finding new music) set to Japan in the 90s, but she's part of the 'shibuya-kei' genre/subculture that was popular during that time, which sounds like an interesting topic to dive into :3 the whimsy contained in this song is almost too much tho. the melody is so sweet, that wind instrument is so silly, and the moog breakdown in the middle too is. well, its all quite fantastic.

HI 5 - Frost Children: i took too long making this post that this entry went from originally a cheeky indirect plug for their upcoming album bc i just really liked this single to just,, oh the album came out... but either way i wanted to talk about the song bc 2 me its just more proof of how exciting of a voice in hyperpop the frost children are. the bass on it is as crazy and slick as the one on the cover. this whole song just explodes with eccentricity i think ull really like it :) also check out the epic music video! its ai generated for those who'd like to know beforehand, but they use it to like. rotoscope real footage its preddy neat!

Introduce me to your family - Otoboke Beaver: i made a little post recently about Otoboke Beaver's influence on six impala's WFLYTD, and after revisiting their album, Itekoma Hits, after making that post i got this one stuck in my head for a while. the hook hooks (the main reason i had it in my head for so long), the bass is groovy, the guitars are sharp, the rage is channeled, its all here! they keep all the energy going and growing the whole time until you cant help but scream along.

こんがらがった! (Kongaragatta!/Tangled up!)- Necry Talkie: started reading the bocchi manga recently (im just past where the show ends as of now :3) and they have art at the beginning of each chapter with the kessoku band members that references visuals from like irl japanese bands and music videos which i thought was really cool! of course i had to find a collection of all the referenced songs, and what do ya know... this cute little number was in there! (if ur wondering it's the art for chapter 18 that references this song's music video :3) its such a dinky beat at first (said so so lovingly) but it evolves into a precise, energetic little jam.

One Million Dollars - 100 gecs: this fucking sonnng.. not everyones fav off 10k i know but it is for me :3 it just rattles me in such a specific way. it originated and is the only way to sate the need in my brain to hear what it was like for nic cage in that "not the bees!!!!" scene. i love it sm, but im absolutely biased from my hearing this at a gec show and falling for it right then and there. the live version and the album version are a bit different and i think the changes they made for the album make it a fuller song i just. loved the feeling of hearing this live so much. i would just search up the epic live version at terminal 5 where Laura fucking SHREDS on the guitar at the end over and over while i was waiting for the album. again, makes me very excitied to see them and machine girl soon :3

o (__*) - Hakushi Hasegawa: i dont know much about this artist but goddamn the few songs i have heard from them have made such an impression. u know a song is good when its not even dnb but uses the "yeah.. woo!" sample to keep everything going. and yeah with how crazy fucking banana bonkers jazzy and technical the drums and piano get at times it needs that tiny bit of stability at least. this song feels like the epitome of controlled chaos in the absolute best way possible.

PARTY GIRL - Angel Electronics: after rook's latest solo album came out i decided to go back and visit this collab project of hers with ash nerve i had missed at first and.... weeeeeeh ;w; this song makes me wanna cry every time. rook can obviously write some bangers but i love her more tender songs too. so many parts come together to make it just the sweetest thing. the part that stuck with me the most was the chorus, like it's sooo cute id just sing it to myself on loop bc it leads into itself so well. i wanna just keep talking about how fucking cute this song is but like George Costanza voice the love story between the party girl and the weird shy girl got to me okay?

Prime - Marnie Stern: kinda the reason im making this list hehe :3 this song was on char 'igottawin' mp3's most recent WILT (what im listening to) poast (hi char :3) and it was What Im was Listening To... too... (both of us bc of this epic animation) so here it is on MY knockoff WILT post too mwahaha hahaha! haha but seriously guys this song is quite good. it does so much with all the variations on just that one verse and i get sucked into the lyrics and the guitars. and by the fourth time im chanting this same unending verse the song is surprisingly over and i just wanna listen to it again. this one deserves a 10 hr extended version frfr

Wait and Bleed - Slipknot & 青春コンプレックス(Seishun Complex) - Kessoku Band: whats this? a double entry? ahaha yes! 😈 i would've put these songs here separately bc ive been getting into both slipknot (thank u char :3) and the actual kessoku band album, both of which are quite good on their own. but i only combine their entries here bc of this epic mashup of these two songs by the aforementioned rook blackdresses which makes me unable to sing either without thinking of the other song. like the first three chords of the bocchi theme start playing and my brain wants to scream the GOODBYEEEEEE from Wait and Bleed. the slipknot chorus melds with the kessoku band guitars soooo well. to me they are pieces from different puzzles entirely but they still fit together <3

wants mom to know she looks cool and doesn't plan on changing - leroy: i finally listened to the dariacore and accompanying berdlycore serieseses and ive loved diving into this little subculture of silly hyperpop meme mashups that fuck immensely. takes the silly to earnest and very good pipeline to a new level. plus having been a fan of dltzk and jane's other stuff its the one thing i never really got into but there are. so many dariacore related things i need to listen to now. i feel like theres lore i have to catch up on but im excitied :3 this is one of my faves off dariacore 2: electaria corebaloo (not what its called)

This has been... Post! thanks for your time. if u read this far i love u so much please never forget that. 'til summer music-heads! *curtsies and shows myself off-stage*

[missbaphomet]

How MOGAI labels harm the LGBT community:

Oh boy here I go having Opinions again!

So, hi, if you don't know me, I am a bisexual woman. I came out in June of 2021 at the age of 21. I was a late bloomer, and it's totally normal and ok to not discover things about yourself in your teens. My issue was never with teenagers experimenting and trying to find themselves. My issue was always the blatant fucking lies MOGAI people tell you that muddy the waters.

I have been on tumblr for a long fucking time. I wasn't as active when I was younger, but I have had a consistent presence since about 2016. What I'm trying to say is I am one of your tumblr olds, and I've seen discourse some of you never thought imaginable. I survived Mishacolypse, The Skeleton War, the Sixpenceee controversy, the original homestuck Fandom, Hetalia in its prime, the porn ban, and I followed Pizza. I've been here fucking forever.

When I was 16 I started making steps into understanding my sexuality because everyone around me seemed to have it all figured out. After doing a lot of research I found the label I would use for probably about a year: heteroromantic demisexual.

Not a single fucking word of that was actually applicable.

What I ACTUALLY was was a confused, traumatized 16 year old who was raised religious. I couldn't even conceive that I might be Not Straight because it simply wasn't an option. There was no way I could be sexually attracted to women! It didn't matter that I liked them more than men, I liked men so therefore I couldn't like women! Duh! And obviously I was demisexual because I was a teenager who didn't want to have sex like those stupid gross horny other teenagers! Never mind that I think sex is kinda gross because I was groomed at 14 and the sexual stuff then made me feel gross. I'll have sex one day, have some children, then never have sex again, just like my mom!

I was 20 before I realized I was bisexual, and it was only after a good friend of mine (who is straight) had a genuine conversation about what attraction felt like for monosexuals that I realized that I wasn't monosexual. It took a genuine heart-to-heart conversation with someone outside of tumblr bullshit for it to all make sense.

I was roughly the same age when I realized my aversion to sex was because I had been groomed and preyed upon and I was scared of my own body and pleasure. I have since overcome my trauma and I think sex is a wonderful thing.

I had to leave Tumblr to discover these things, because other tumblr users would tell me that it was normal and okay to compartmentalize my sexuality into tiny boxes so that I couldn't see the whole picture. When your "I was groomed" is in a different box than "I am scared of intimacy and sex", it can be stupid difficult to realize that those pieces are part of the same whole, the statement that "I am scared of intimacy because I was taken advantage of and hurt, and so I am scared of being hurt again". When "I have a lot of female friends and I have very strong emotions about them" is separated from "I don't have male friends, but I find them very attractive and I like them a lot", it's easy to overlook "I have the same feelings for both men and women, and therefore I must be attracted to both".

Breaking down your sexuality into teeny tiny boxes is not normal or healthy, and it often makes it extremely difficult to understand what it is you do actually want or need. Not only that, it can be incredibly fucking isolating because no one else will experience it the exact same way you do, and it's so much harder to try to relate to others.

My life got infinitely easier when I could walk into a room and go "I am a bisexual woman" and have dozens of others go "same!!!" It's so fucking lonely to break down everything into the split attraction model and have everyone else in the room go "what the fuck are you talking about?" The split attraction model hurts people, plain and simple, and it should be fucking done away with immediately.

"Idk I just find labels too restrictive" babygirl you don't know how labels work. They are intentionally designed to reference everyone with a shared experience universally. Aside from that, you use something literally called a "microlabel" specifically designed to fit absolutely no one on the planet but you. There are millions and millions of bisexuals or lesbians or gay men, and *maybe* a dozen other people that share your specific collection of buzzwords. I think I'll take my chances with millions of people that I could potentially love than a handful.

Anyway fuck MOGAI bullshit, fuck the split attraction model, fuck anyone who purposefully confuses people just trying to discover themselves.

[heatwa-ves]

@deepeststrawberrymoon oh boy. here we go. looks directly into your eyes. so. izuleo.

izumi and leo are both members of the unit knights that they formed together in the past (long story) anyway izumi is a model and he's so annoying and he's a bitch and I love him so so much. leo is a composer he's extremely talented at writing music and its his biggest passion, anyway they were close friends and izumi was basically half of Leo's impulse control and everything was great. and then stuff happened. by stuff I mean eichi and the reformation of yumenosaki but that's a story for another time and tbh I don't fully understand it myself 😭

anyway izls previous unit, chess, was disbanded and all the members split off to form their own units, mostly named after chess pieces which is where knights came from. izumi got his friend arashi (enstars' one and only woman 😭😭 unless you count anzu but she's like barely a character) to join their unit and also ritsu who he found sleeping on the ground and was like hey. join us. and ritsu was like ughhhdhhshhh fineee but only if I have to.

they had a big live concert called checkmate against one of the other units originally from chess, and before the live leo went over to them and was like "hey if you had to pick between having all my songs for free but me being your enemy or us being friends still but you never being able to use my songs what would you pick" and they said they'd pick his songs over him and that fucked up Leo a bit like he'd just had the revelation that the unit he had loved so much was using him for his music which was extra devastating bc songs are his way of showing love he writes songs for people he cares about (izumi has an entire ipod full of songs Leo has made for him. jsyk)

checkmate happened Leo said that even if the whole world hates him he'd be happy as long as he had izumi. okay. both of their mental states deteriorate Badly and their relationship develops into codependency they love eachother so much, too much, that it's hurting them both and both of them have this underlying self loathing that they don't know how to deal with so they require external validation to be able to function, izumi needs to be pretty he wouldn't know what to do with himself if people didn't think he was beautiful and so he relies on leo loving him and calling him beautiful and for leo izumi is his muse they need eachother and it's very unhealthy for the both of them until eventually they both break

and then more stuff happened idk exactly I haven't read all the pre ! stories but Leo breaks down entirely and shuts himself away in his room becomes extremely self destructive (haha. remember checkmate epilogue 2 where izumi is like "leo will bite his hand and write songs even as he bleeds" haha. lol.) (I took that line and fucking ran with it and so now I have a fic set in the time period of Leo isolating himself and he's just slowly destroying himself and izumi is breaking too and it's sooooo fun) and this. this is where lionheart comes in.

lionheart is the number one thing that ruined my life. it's 3k words from izumis pov that discusses his relationship with Leo and has some fun character introspection, there are some scenes that make me die like "sena, instead of hating mozart, I might be jealous of him" and leo talking about the tower of babel (SYMBOLISM. I am foaming at the mouth) and Leo saying he feels like simply a burden on his family and they'd be better off without him (have I mentioned I am not ok about leo tsukinaga) and at one part after leo shut himself away izumi has to visit him for knights reasons and when he arrives Leo's little sister Ruka starts crying and asks him to please tell Leo to come out "Izumi-san...? If it's you, I think he'd listen." and there's this.

and then izumi leaves Leo's house and goes down to the beach and plays his ipod of Leo's songs and has a bit of a moment and then a song comes on from when he was new to being an idol and his singing wasn't that good and Leo is like "your singing is out of tune lmao but you have such a pretty voice it'll get better with practice!" and then there are the most soul destroying words ever this makes me insane I am not ok over them!!!!!

while leo is off doing his thing (isolating himself and then travelling the world idk) izumi is uh. not doing great. he reunited with a childhood friend that he met when they modelled together and becomes borderline obsessive over him and he becomes the replacement to leo bc izumi can't deal with anyone else leaving especially not someone so important to him. so he feels since he failed leo he has to do everything to protect makoto and keep him safe. obviously tho this is not great for makoto who doesn't want any of this

anyway then leo comes back and tries to destroy knights or something idk I haven't read judgement or requiem (yet) but eventually he rejoins knights and hands over the title of leader to a new member tsukasa. and izl are slowly healing again!! they're not perfect but after graduation they moved to florence together for izumi to pursue modelling and Leo to work on his music tho they do still go back to Japan semi frequently to work on knights stuff. also they're roommates now. teehee ( I haven't read next door either but I Will. Soon)

so yeah. izuleo. I'm normal I'm fine I'm ok.

[fluffbeast7]

Concept ideas for my sona: Fluff! (i just have to write things out dont mind me, sorry for any writing mistakes)

this doesnt look as good because i just wanted to get the idea out of my head, plus, its the very first concept of fluff's portals, i'm already having a few ideas on how to make this look better

i will ramble a lot now, long post warning!

fluff existence is veeryy,,,, weird. their origins explain why they can shapeshift. i dont have the best words on what fluff does- i would say ''reality shifter'' but that's a thing that actually exists and, idk how i feel about it.

fluff is a creature who was born/created within the ''wall'' that separates every reality, so they actually do not belong anywhere- they are just a blob of the universe that accidentally grew sentient, meaning they do not have parents, meaning they can take up any physical form they wish (as long they know what it looks like! before their favorite form was created, they observed many animals, slowly building up their figure. when fluff was younger, they looked different due to their taste changing over time!)

when you are a creature from the ''wall'' (yes that's how im calling it), you learn that there are many little secrets and stuff to understand to how it all works- the ability to shapeshift and to visit other realities came in natural for them, but learning to revisit places and what fluff should and shouldn't do were things they had to learn on their own

plus! there ar not many, but fluff isn't the only creature who was born withing the wall, they are friends with other people who all have their own opinions on this whole thing- fluff apparently is one of the younger ones to appear. each creature have different goals and views about visiting other realities, also different morals and philosophical thinkin' and stuff!

list of the other creatures they met (they are all based on things around my life :) )

fluff: i'm not going to explain much about how fluff looks like, but just their views and goals. fluff decided very early on that they want to get to know as many different realities and study as many different creatures (so they can shapeshift into them), they have many different sketch books they draw on addressing the people they met. fluff is dangerously open about being a shapeshifter and is not aware that, saying stuff like '' Oh there are many different versions of you but slightly different! :D'' usually sends people into an existential crisis

differently from their friends, fluff adores shapeshifting, but also tries not to think too hard about their existense, they just want to live, and feel normal.

froggy god: a frog, that's it! froggy is non-verbal, but it's said they like to bring luck to other people. frog does not shapeshift (they can, hey just won't). they are mostly seen hanging out with other frogs or along with our next creature on the wall- moth.

moth: a giant, GIANT, moth. they also do not speak! but it seems they are the oldest creature from the wall, at least that's what everyone thinks. Moth rarely visit other realities, but when they do- they don't bother to shapeshift, they just fly around in the sky. it's a breathtaking sight!

Tigrinho: Fluff's best friend (almost sibling), born at the same time as fluff! you can call him just tiger, in portuguese, it means ''little tiger''. Tigrinho is a mix of different breeds of ''big cats''. Tiger is very, VERY kind, too kind for their own good. Tiger prefers to spend more time on the reality he and fluff first visited, and he works to build his own life there- but takes on adventures with fluff sometimes. he struggles to shapeshift, so he doesn't do it as much.

Dusk: dusk is very interesting, he constantly changes forms but not because he likes it, but because he cant decide exactly what he want's to look like. but it's always a variation of a dark colored creature, sometimes brown, and always, ALWAYS with black eyes with red pupils, and sharp teeth. Dusk is grumpy, not as nice as the others. he thinks fluff decisions are risky and irresponsable, but never bothers them too much about it, he just doesn't approve any of it

he has a deep voice and is constantly growling, he's usually very serious, he travels and tries his best to understand this whole ''wall'' thing. Dusk didn't use to have a name, but fluff named him without him wanting to anyways (He ended up liking his name..). He likes being scary for fun, sort of like being a villain, even if there's not really a reason for him to be evil. Fluff plays along, just to make him happy

explaining things on this doodle:

fluff once found a reality that was completely empty.. they claimed it as their room, bringing stuff (cough, stealing cough) to make it comfy, also, they bring things from their fav realities, making a little collection! (a rule about the wall: for some reason fluff is allowed to take only 1 item inside the wall for each reality, if they take more than one item, it disappears)

fluff chose to be able to digest food, they dont need to, but they like food so- yep

fluff found out during an accident that, no other living thing can go in the wall, (only the ones who were born within it) to say it simply- they die, and i say any that has some sort of intelligence- meaning sometimes not even robots make it through! fluff doesnt understand completely how it works, but the way they found out was- hm, very sad

[incandescentflower]

17 18 27, 29, 30?

thanks anon for the ask!

17. Your favorite character to write this year?

Pran from Bad Buddy has been really fun because he has this really thick protective layer, almost even from himself. He can be snarky at Pat, he can be snarky at himself, but he is such a deeply caring friend and lover. But honestly, I love Pat just as much because of the way he can be the same in how deeply he loves and yet so different from Pran. It's hard for me to pick one character, because what I love about writing is the dynamics - how different personalities play off each other. You can have characters who are similar, but if they are in relation to completely different kinds of characters, it can come off different. Or even if the pairing has similar dynamics, I'm interested in what makes those two people feel different.

The character I love writing the most is always the one I am writing at that moment. I really don't tend to write anything unless I have absolutely fallen in love with them.

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

Ah, probably both Jaeyoung and Sangwoo in Somebody to You. And not because of their characters in particular, but because the characters in the fic know each other from when they were children, it took time to figure out where to place them on their relationship trajectory that parallels the original story. I also threw in a shippy relationship with Yuna and Jihye that isn't text, but obviously what we all wanted, and some more contrived plotty bits that has made it the hardest thing to write this year. But in my opinion, it has been very much worth it. I'm pleased with what I have so far and look forward to continuing.

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

I really enjoy bringing back plot pieces or references from a drama into my work, beyond the characterizations. Some of the moments I enjoyed was referencing Pran's watch and the handsome pick and having Pat notice them in Up the Ante.

I really liked how I used the line "Men go insane when they lose what's theirs" in the Devil Judge fic the love that returns is yours to keep because it was such a powerful reference in the show and when it was used in the fic, it was meant to be equally powerful in describing Gaon's feelings for Yohan.

IDK, that feels counter to the point of this question because it is more the preferred translation of that moment in the show that I reused, not choosing my own wording, but I guess I don't always feel the particular wording in my fic is all that striking. It's the whole is greater than the sum of its parts for me.

30. Biggest surprise while writing this year?

Oh probably anything that happened in Up the Ante. :)

I had a beginning and an end. The rest came as inspiration as the show went on. And for that reason, it was incredibly fun to write.

Special mention to how well sex pollen could work for Pat/Pran, lol.

I answered 27 in a previous ask here. :)

This is from ask games: AO3 Wrapped

[confusions-shed-of-ideas]

So the Octopath Traveler 2 demo trailer came out and I am screaming /pos

(Spoilers for the trailer! no I don't have the demo downloaded unfortunately I don't have the time to play it)

I have so much to talk about

Characters

I love them all so much. Gently holds. They just make me so happy

It's so cool knowing that they'll have connected storyline things with each other because now they'll get more interaction and that's what we were missing in the first game. Pretty excited for that :) I'm really looking forward to exploring all the characters' stories because they all seem really cool so far

The voice acting for all of them is just incredible. All the VAs did such a good job and I'm in awe because the voices just fit the characters really well

If I had to pick one or two characters to start with it would have to be Hikari or Throné because they were the two that have caught my attention in the beginning lmao

Music

THE MUSIC IS SO GOOD??? HOW??

I expected nothing less since the music in the first game was absolutely god tier as well but damn??? The character themes were stunning and I think that was one of the battle tracks we heard as well

I love music so much this is going to be so great ahdhgjdjdhjfkd

Can't wait for the spotify album to come out as well because you bet I'll be adding a ton of tracks in my playlist

Gameplay

It looks like the original game but cooler. I don't really know how to describe it lol

I've never played a JRPG before octopath and I found the battle system really cool so it's nice to see that they've managed to go above and beyond for this game. The concept of latent powers seem awesome and I can't wait to see what they're all about in game

I've been looking at the sprites throughout the video and the different job sprites look cool as well! I think I may have spotted a few advanced job sprites but I'll have to double check lmao

Also can I just say that I didn't know I needed to see a super cool angle change in this game because DAMN THOSE ARE SO. COOL HGJDJJF

Scenery/Backdrop idk I'll edit this later because I Cannot think of the right word for some reason

Gorgeous as expected. Each location has its own unique vibe and I really really love that. It's just so cool seeing so many different biomes

And the fact that there are mini canoes??? AND A SHIP?? HELLO?? I'm so excited I live little boats. Each traveler will get their own little boat as they travel through the rivers oh my god

I like how these regions look different in comparison to the first game so it just highlights that this is a whole new world to explore. I think that's neat. Also I'm liking the steampunk thing Paritio's hometown has going on. Locomotive trains?? In octopath traveler?? Who would've thought?

Extra bonus detail

I've noticed they've kind of already established the OCTOPATH order for this game in the thumbnail of the trailer (shown below)

From left to right: Osvald, Castti, Temenos, Ochette, Paritio, Agnea, Throné, Hikari

So that confirms Osval being the first O, Ochette being the second O, Temenos being the first T and Throné being the second T

Pretty neat if you ask me

Okay that's it lmao if you've watched the demo as well feel free to talk to be about your thoughts!! :))

[uncertain3teeth]

i jus woke up from a whole ass nightmare it was badddd omg i almost wanted to cry it was abt someone breaking into my house and also breaking into my window and also i got almost arrested and also people were chasing me and someone had a seizure and there was also some exorcism going on as well and then i like killed this person by drowning them inside of a small mason jar of expired chicken noodle soup idk now that makes sense but its a dream so jdhfhdjd and then people outside kept blasting music and then the cops came for them and then fast forward to wen wen the mother of the person i killed called mom to talk to meet up and then my mom was giving misinformation to the mother abt her and i lik saying and i quote how she said it in the dream "we are from TEXAS" [ im lik wtf spongebob ] but then we had to put a disguise on so she put on the plague doctor costume and then i remember also in the dream to in order to get out the window bc ppl were chasing me i had to commit a sin which i then said "oh thats easy" and fast forward wen i woke up i then went back to sleep and had ANOTHER nightmare which i was in a mall and ppl including my toxic cousin tried to find and look for me but lik also my friends were there so ppl were following them as well and it was soooo fukkin scary bc in real life i have a major paranoia issue abt either people trying to kill me or me thinking people are plotting against me and it was a lucid dream so it felt so fucking real and also the ppl looking for me were trying to convice me to do something and in order for me to disguise myself i had to put a blanket over my head and twirl lik wtf and i minecraft villager that bounces and twirls on top of a bed but anyways i remember they finded out my disguise and it didnt work so they kept coming after me and i remember these twisty stairts that goes up and thats all i remember from that dream now what i do remember i from the first dream i had i also remember that i was fucking this guy in the bushes i think that was after the part where i was trying to do sins to get out the window but i was already out the window so idek its drean so eh but i also remember that as soon as i fucked this guy in the bushes i got caught by the people trying to find me and then they started to chase me and then there was this big crowd of people that looked like my friends but wasnt and there was also joe biden for some butt fuck reason and then there was cops or guards or some ppl and then they captured me OH WAIT BEFORE THEY CHASED AND CAPTURNED ME I WENT UP TO THE YOUTUBER BENOFTHWEEK LMAOKOA and i told him that i was broke and i needed help bc someone was chasing me and then he saw the ppl that was originally chasing me coming closer and THEEEN thats wen all of a sudden joe biden and ppl that looked lik my friends but wasnt lik robots and then they made me and my other ppl stand next to eachother in a line and then joe biden was doing a speech and he stumbled on his words it was pretty funny bc jschlatt but anyways out of fucking nowhere mike ehrmantraut from breaking fucking bad was one of the guards and he helped me get pass the guards to disguise myself as one of them and then i also ended up killing this one guard by doing that harley quinn suicide squad shit where i got on his shoulders and did some shit i forgot what that shit was but i did some shit and then killed a man but them after that my friends that were robots disappeared aside from some to which i asked "what is something only you wld know abt me" and this one guy pulled out a drawing i made him and said "i was going to give this back to you yesterday bc i cant keep this bc my sister was getting to it" which idk howwww tf that makes sense its lik "oh hey i have a dog so can you put this food on the top of there so they dont get to it" but then the dream started to end and i woke up and sirens were outside LMAOOO

[namelessmewmew]

Old Art Archive Part 6.

Original captions under the cut.

1 -2. Title: New Icon :]. New Nea icon cause its been a while since I have drawn him :]. I do like having myself as my icon but Nea is my mascot and I like how chibi this came out.

3. Title: I need a idea 44 [original filename]. Artblock? Just tired? Melting from the current heatwave here? [Yeah but still]. Point is haven't really been drawing much lately. So here is a sketch I had lying around of an attempt to slightly redesign Meta [I wanted to give her bigger paws and more face fluff like an actual lynx].

4. Title: Met-a Cute. Hi my brain has been pestering me to draw a cute Meta for a while so here's this, its a bit rough but overall like how it came out. In doing this I tried to do a pose I haven't done before without a ref so the pose probably looks at least a bit off lol. As well as that I had fun with the symmetrical tool [for the big butterfly] and even made a very quick brush! [those little butterflies in the back].

5. Title:   What the 'dog' doing? The slightest design update, he now has hands rather then paws [oh and his scythe is now cooler now :]] Need to figure out how to get his eyes to look properly creepy though. Also I tried to do something interesting with the perspective and shading.... -w-

6. Title: Horse. This is a week or so old but didn't know what to do with it so just slapped some yellow and purple light and a bunch of sparkles :], the hair shading looks kinda nice!

7 -8. Title: Metamorphosis * Glitter. Just wanted to make another of these pixel glitter gif with little pixel borders things with Meta... Like how it came out [especially the shading and the border] :]

9. Title:  Just a Lynx. Just wanted to draw a little Meta, cause its been a a bit. Shading is a bit scuffed but eh, whatever.

10. Title: Catboy Jumpscare! I finished this a few days ago but keep delaying posting it to get the energy to not just leave this with a blank desc. Like 100% of my writing anything energy for the past few days has been going into the yuri game jam submission I posted about a few days ago [which is currently at a whole 300 words! /sarcastic [I am not good at dialogue at all].

11. Title: My at least once a year pinkie. Been to long since I have drawn my favourite pink pony :] Even tried to make it look like a birthday card [ish], I also made a little confetti brush :]

12. Title:   Metamorphosis now in 3D! A little Paint 3d thing? Feels a bit weird to call it a model as most of the parts are just 3d shapes in front of eachother. Also I didn't mean for the image to be so small but that's how big I made the model I guess??? Oh and the little glitchy looking stuff in the back is a brush I made :].

13. Title:   Metamorphosis now in Motion! I have been trying to get into animating and I been starting with this very uh... square style? cause its alot easier than my usual style. That right ear is very scuffed though lol, but the rest didn't come out that bad! [for someone that can't animate well]. I think maybe I should try more tweening rather than frame by frame like this one.

14. Title:  Them. Just a little thing of my immortal giant sentient plushies... particularly when they were younger, they look alot more like plushies when they get older [they get a bunch of stitches and scratches]. Hope that its possible to tell that there eyes and mouths are shiny plastic [which is why they can't change expressions, faces are just plastic.]

15- 19. Title: Sparkly Unicorn. Uuh wanted to make a very very simple little pixel thing but ended up just adding more and more stuff.... had alot of fun! I made the pixel star brush and the lil heart border : D Oh and Petal still does have the verrrrrry long hair but couldn't figure out how to fit it all in so gave her some short ponytails : ] Looks cute

20. Some arm practice stuff, yeah not very great at arms [or legs] yet but at least I'm practicing. Sorry just verytired so idk what to say…

21. Title:   An anthro raccon idk. Hi! been a bit busy but hopefully will be able to post more! Worked on these over a few days... originally was going to be more simple but just added more and more little accessories..... Shading the little chains and studs took soooo long [though thankfully didn't decide to draw the chains individually, just made a chain brush for that :]] Also the slight texture over everything was an attempt at a 'tv static' brush, not sure how well it will work for that but its nice for texture [love when digital art has texture to it!]

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some externalizations from mod sundew. its long, irrelevant, and rambly so, cut :-0)<

guh. weve had. calliope finally step out of the metaphorical cupboard i shoved her in, a five pebbles resurgence (he decided i will be bodilt wearing a trans flag for the forseeable future and i could not agree more), locust trying to get the body to break something, looks to the moon came back and shes a comfort headmate i think- caretakers the word. uhh god. am i missing something

im gonna be mentally hugging a fat blue robot for a while.

its wierd to explain but like. i guess the kind of- our body gets really really- right- better phrasing: we're super like touchstarved. and touch is a really good way for us to calm down, but with our moirail living on the other side of an ocean, well yknow. so like. idk basically think if maladaptive daydreaming was less maladaptive, more(?) involuntary(??? (it occurs to me i dont know the mineutia of what maladap dayd actually Is)) and also shaped like a blue robot with paradoxicaalgy squishy everything.

ouhhh

what was the tag pepples used for his rambles, iterational externalizarion or something... maybe i should call mine weufing or yapping. what are husky noises called. awoowa borealis? well now i have to call it that...... no.. nevermind

calliope the headmate is so small in headspace. this is like. a whole ass child. like four feet tall what Are you you tiny wierdo

she is So incredibly a Something bearer though. intrusive bearer? like mituna but Not. Mituna but instead of impulses its something else

BSM appeared for the first time since. forever ago... ironically actually now that i think of it... her original forming was. Also while we were talking to a distressed Australian who is younger than us. note to self, BSM is all australian queers' sister i guess.

Ob also by the way headmate Locust is Sooooo a BPD holder. that little bug's borderlines can SO personality. its disorderly.

Pebbles being here and the Catharsis from . the crying. has made us. Angry. thats good. Anger is a very. very good thing for us. bodily, systemly. nothing convinces us to overpower our limitations like boiling fury.

Oh oh oh ... ohhh god who was fronting i think it was me yeah cause that was- Yeah that was me! ok i showed our art to a couple of the workers at the rafectory- the uhh cafeteria at my college, the lady who works shifts at the desk and who i always make a point to talk to, since i once accidentally said "you too!- er- eventually!" to her when she said enjoy your meal- i showed her our sketchbook. ot was really cool. it made our day i think.

huh this is probably what pickle was talking about when they (not to self ask pronouns) reprimsnded about uh. vent blogging. euuups.

[scudevils]

thriller — NH13

pairing: nico hischier x fem!reader

warnings: swearing, mention of murder, blood and knives, nico is a movie nerd, not proofread!

synopsis: halloween movies were never your thing, but they were nico’s [<1k]

a/n: idk if i hate this or not but oh well it’s from this prompt list!!

"why is she still answering the phone?" you say with a grosn of annoyance, rolling your eyes when ghostface was on the other end of the phone yet again, just like he'd been the first three times it bad rang. "why can't this guy be more original."

you heard nico shushing from beside you, completely enthralled with what was happening in the move despite him forcing you to watch it every year, like a child watching his favourite movie no matter how bad it was. you hated scary movies, always had, and you were certain you always would, the experience of being voluntarily scared one was that did not appeal to you and you couldn't imagine why it would appeal to anyone.

to nico however, it very much attracted h. it had become somewhat of a tradition now, a halloween movie marathon, while you complained about how cliche and unoriginal every movie was, nico stuffed his face with whatever halloween sweets that had been for the trick or treaters (you would definitely have to go to the store tomorrow to get more).

the silly ones you could handle, hocus pocus being one that you had to force nico to watch now. one of the reasons that you hated the scary ones was that you couldn't help but be spooked a little by them, an unexplained noise outside your room would have you awake for hours, despite the swiss man reassuring you it was nothing. you'd imagine you were seeing things in mirrors, convinced you were about to be the next victim of a non existent serial killer.

another was that the movies were mediocre at best, the attempt at gore came off as cheap, the characters making idiotic choices had you rolling your eyes, the trope the same in every movie you were sick of it by the end of the first one.

but as you looked over at nico, you stuck it out for another 30 minutes, then another, eventually a scene piquing your interest.

you wouldn't lie and say you knew what had been going on, the last scene in your mind being when drew barrymore had been killed, but you could tell that had been well over an hour ago, characters who’s names you couldn’t even hazard a guess at now filling the screen. the setting of the room helped set the scene, an amber glow emitting from the candles which bounced off of the white walls, a warmth coming off of them as you settled into the blanket on the couch, laying your head against nico's arm as his attention was focused on the screen.

at the next scene you feigned a scare, watching on as ghostface appeared behind principal himbry's door, a little comical to you, but you felt nico's arm drape over the back of you, holding you closer to him. he looked so comfortable, the grey hoodie he had on fitting his shoulders perfectly, his soft features illuminated by the changing colours on the tv. you weren't worried about being caught staring, trying to get nico's attention whilst watching a movie was practically impossible.

he winced slightly at the decision one of the characters had made, clearly one he disagreed with, and rolled his eyes as it ultimately ended in their death. you were sure he'd be able to recite the whole movie script by now, holding in a laugh at his disapproval.

"you see why i think they're silly?"

"its just, why would she go to the garage alone? when there's a killer!" nico exclaimed, eyes flickering down to yours and you could see the seriousness behind his words before they focused back on the movie, even when you were sat there laughing at him, finding how seriously he took these movies adorable.

you pressed a chaste kiss to his cheek, feeling his day old stubble scratching against your lips, patting his thigh as he continued his rant about how stupid it was of tatum to go to the garage herself. "it's just a movie, babe."

nico ignored your comment, and you sighed making yourself more comfortable against his body, forcing yourself to actually watch the movie. this time, when you jumped, it was real. the killer appearing behind one of the girls had actually surprised you, they hadn't played it as comical as before, and no music accompanied. you'd actually been scared by a horror movie, and scream of all of them to be scared by.

you would’ve felt embarrassed at the scare if you weren’t so focused on the film, practically shrieking when billy was revealed as ghost face, covered in 'blood'. “what the fuck do you mean he was the killer!" nico looked down at you, waiting for your reaction to what was next to come, your lips falling open in a gasp when he revealed, "he killed her mom!?".

you whipped your head to look at up nico, who'd now been the one laughing at you, he’d been waiting for your reaction to the reveal ever since he realised you were actually paying attention. "it's just a movie, babe." he mocked, earning a quick and playful smack across the chest from you.

"i can't believe they made the hot guy the killer!" you spoke as nico scoffed, pulling the blanket over your head and keeping you under. managing to break free, you're stomach was beginning to hurt from laughing, the pout on his face a picture you wished you could frame. "yknow, you kinda look like him, next halloween costume?" you wiggled your eyebrows, a half smile forming on nico's face.

[ace-hell]

1. I disregard the UN bc they do nothing against all the active war crimes and human rights violation that are being done by muslim countries like oh i don't know? Child brides? And SLAVERY?? Horrible executions of queer people? They don't commit at all about the genocide that happened for the past like, 100-200 years against jews all over the arab and muslim countries. They just sit there and talk and they sound like they don't k ow anything. Also btw 100 of the hamas terrorists that attacked on 7.10 graduated from the UN university for palestinians, so idk how i perceived the UN anymore besides ignorant

2. Yes nowadays israel will take control over gaza that much is true can't say i support that israel aren't made of pure gold, im pretty sure your country isn't made of angels for government. Seriously people judge israel as if all the countries in the world are pure gold hearted angels sent from heaven. Like get out of your own ass. Also ppl in the WB are not israeli citizens they are under the PA and israel gives them jobs, i would know bc the busses in center of israel-the ones israeli ppl use- are absolutely PACKED with palestinians from the WB around 6-7 am

3. Lol as european you can sit your ass down bc you are the part of the reason jews felt so unsafe they wanted a country of their own to feel safe- jews aren't colonizers- they can't be especially not white considering after the holocaust the majority of the jewish population kinda ceased to exist. You completely overlook all the mizrahi, sefardi and tzabar jews which is absolutely hilarious. You can't demand jews to "go back to the middle east where they came from"and when they do that be mad at them. Jews are indigenous, cope in silence.

Also "palestine" is a derogatory name for the land-canaan. It comes from the greek word "philistine" which technically means barbaric and from the aramic word "plishtim" which means invador. Palestinians means "barbaric invadors" so if you want to jeep calling them that have fun

4. Bro what do you want the ottomans and arabs colonized the land, the brits also did that, EVERYONE fucking colonized the land and brutally opressed the jews. You really don't know about the opression they did? Really? It didn't happen at first, no, at first they came and build muslim settlements on the land and actually loved jews,jews even worked at the royal palance at some point. but one king came up and just decided that he hates and jews and chritians

5. The first pogroms against jews started in 1908,then became worse in the 1920's. The brits actually tries to come to their aid multiple times in so many ways even opressing jews by writing 3 fucking whole books with restrictions to jews such as: limiting the amount of jews that can immigrant and forbidding jews from buying land- yes bc jews didn't come and just went house to house and kicked arabs out, they bought lands and build villages of their own. All the cities the arabs lived in are original jewish cities from thousands of years ago that they occupied. Stop denying jewish heritage, history and connection to the land you antisemite freak.

Also the nakba happened in 15th of may 1948- a day after the declaration of israel and when arabs started the 1948 war. How did you say it? That arabs were "pissed off"? Yes so the jews were also a little "pissed off" after they started a fucking WAR (surprising) with 7 other nations + the arabs within the land. Mind you A LOT of arabs fled themselves, not everyone were expelled. Wow i guess its not the first time the palis waged war on israel and started to cry when israel answered back with brutality. Also there were less than 1 million jews at the time - including elderly, children AND HOLOCAUST SURVIVORS agains millions of trained military nations and they still won.

6. Again, the nakba happened AFTER they started the war-i don't support it, i condemn it, it was horrible- so yes they could just declare themselves a country on 14th together with israel. In the israeli declaration of independence they call for peace amongst the arabs in the region and the neighboring arab countries and to that they answered with war. Not a really peaceful move ey?

7. It is, in fact, about religion. You really act so self rightous bc you truly don't understand how deep it all is. Pro palestinians march with swastikas, praise hamas, attack jews- the antisemitism is rising WORLDWIDE everytime there's something about israel. One thing you are right about- israel does not care about the ethnicity nor the religion considering there are 2.048 million arabs palestinians that are citizens that are free- they are doctors, in the knesset, they are truly everywhere and we can live with them just fine? Lol my dentist is a palestinian arab. Oh wow and lets not talk about the beduins and druze, fucking hell they are more zionists than a lot of jews that i encountered with- they serve in the IDF wholeheartedly and oppose the sharia laws that the palestinians support and know what hamas, isis and all the terror organizations are. You TRULY don't understand anything about israel

I recommend you to listen to Yusuf mosad hassan, he is a son of one of the head leaders of hamas- he was a terrorist that served 2 years in the israeli prison fully believing whatever propaganda you say, he was raised in ramallah IN A SCHOOL FOR SHAHID since he was a CHILD after he was released he walked around israel streets in tel aviv and got the shock of his life and now he is super pro israeli.

You really suppose to have a bigger insight over all that instead of seeing posts like the og posts that are just straight up BS and lies. Cheers