#but idk it's like only a particularly (usually really 'neat') way of painting and drawing gets popular

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

ok so on twitter i see a lot of sketch vs final piece posts, and they’re honestly rly cool (i LOVE being able to see the process of other artists)... but a part of me can’t help but be slightly annoyed at the kinds of ‘sketches’ that a lot of big artists share... i.e. super neat lines (it is essentially identical to the final piece just less colour or detail etc lol) 

& the thing is i acknowledge that people define ‘sketch’ in different ways... some artists use ‘sketch’ to refer to a painting that took them like under an hour, or as the preliminary drawing they’re using for the final piece (which isn’t often the ‘initial’ design for the piece), whereas i would define a sketch as a messy/simple drawing of the basic composition i’m planning for a piece (often including notes as to colours i might include & various details),...  and that’s fine, words mean different things to different people and it’s fine & great lol!

my ISSUE is that a lot of new and young artists who look up to these people only see ONE kind of art process... they only see these super neat preliminary drawings being called ‘sketches’ and then will look at their own creative process & their own sketches, & think ‘why are mine so messy? why aren’t mine pretty??’ & it makes me sad cos everyone has a different creative process and we should celebrate that, but it can feel really stifling when most of the ‘sketches’ shared by artists online are really neat and pretty looking...

and the thing is, the point of the sketch vs final piece trend (for me) is to show how you go from something p simple to a beautiful finished artwork, and to show that art doesnt just spring from nowhere & it takes a LOT of time and effort...

idk i guess i just wanna tell anyone who does super messy sketches like me: ur amazing and keep doing what ur doing... don’t let the way a lot of social media has made the creative process of artists seem stream lined & ‘perfect’ put u off produces some amazing artworks urself!!

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random headcanons.

describe how they would spend a stormy, overcast/rainy day.

depends on his mood, and the temperature. if the day is cold, he’ll probably spend it inside, finding different ways to amuse himself considering he can never focus on one thing for too long. chances are he’ll be lounging about on twitter, watching the telly, playing games, working on his music, or even finger painting should the fancy strike him. he’ll also be wreaking immense havoc as well, considering how messy he can be when left to his own devices. if someone’s around to distract him, that helps. if the day is warm, though, he might actually go out and splash around in the puddles. c: he doesn’t like thunder and lightning – that frightens him, and he’ll undoubtedly be hiding under his bed.

what is the character afraid of?

so many things. so, so many things. mostly of being alone. seems a bit cliche, but he’s always so like… vibrant, so loud, so bright; one of his biggest strengths is his ability to draw people in, his charisma, and how good he is in a crowd/how much he loves being surrounded by others. there’s more to it than that, though, i suppose — more to it than just his tendency to gravitate towards crowded places, or big groups of people. he doesn’t want to be alone emotionally, either. he doesn’t want to fuck up so badly (as he always tends to) that everyone just like…decides he isn’t worth dealing with anymore/wasting their time on. he isn’t a “grown up” and he doesn’t want to be, but he isn’t a child either, and he’s afraid that it’s not something that anyone will cope with.

he’s also afraid of the dark. like, don’t laugh at him, but he’s afraid of just…perpetual, impregnable darkness. he’s not worried when the lights are out, as long as there’s street lamps shining in from outside, or the moon, or just something to break it, but if it’s pitch black? no thank you, not going to happen.

the thing that he’s probably most afraid of is becoming his parents, though, with sort of correlates with internalizing a fear and making it more about his own actions than anything. he doesn’t want to abandon everyone he loves. he doesn’t want to be his cold mother, who cares more about her own ambitions than she does about her family. he doesn’t want to be selfish, and he doesn’t want to be a manipulated push-over like his father. he doesn’t want anyone to tell him how to live his life, but he doesn’t know how to live it on his own either. so far he’s done a shit job of not being just like them, but he still fights. he still fights because that is probably the worst possible outcome.

how do they deal with bad memories?

he ignores them, doesn’t talk about them, refuses to let anyone uncover them. if kai ever tells you about his past, then you are one of the very few people that he trusts more than anything tbh. it’s just easier to ignore that bad things have happened in his life, easier to sweep it under the rug in his mind and pretend it never happened than it is to address them and make them real. even when he feelsl ike they’re crushing him. even when someone asks.

what is their role in a horror movie?

the comic relief, obviously. only issue with that is the fact that he would undoubtedly be one of the first few to bite it, because he’s too busy laughing at his own jokes to care about the axe-wielding murderer.

how do they hide their secrets?

behind smiles, laughter, and generally acting as if he’s fine when in all reality he’s probably one of the furthest people from it. it’s easy for kai to marginalize his own issues and pretend that they aren’t happening/didn’t happen, and it’s easy to fool people into believing it’s the truth. he’s a great actor, really — an amazing actor. to the point of it being a fault.

which of the seven deadly sins do they relate to the most?

wrath. kai is quick to anger, and though he’s even quicker under normal circumstances to be okay again, there are some cases in which he will never forgive you. take his parents, for instance — he loves them, yes, but he also hates them. like he doesn’t know how it works, holding two such feuding emotions inside of him all the time, but he can’t pretend that anything they’ve ever done is okay with him. there are a few other people in his world that have provoked that kind of anger, and it isn’t as uncommon as it might seem.

would they ever wish on a falling star? if so, what would they wish?

as kai would say, “wishes get lost” and stars falling is only beautiful on account of the fact that he believes it’s because they don’t want to be alone anymore. if they hit earth and they don’t shatter, then they won’t be, and he’s glad for that. glad enough to smile, and glad enough to not feel like he needs to make a wish on someone else’s happiness. in short, he thinks it’d be selfish. it’s the star that’s important here, not him

what do they refuse to budge on? what are they stubborn about?

is ‘everything’ an appropriate answer? because that’s pretty much the truth. kai can be incredibly, incredibly stubborn, for no other reason than he hates to admit when he’s wrong. generally speaking, it can happen over even the most petty of things, and with that stubbornness comes his temper. it’s almost better when he’s angry, because there’s a good chance that his feelings will make him see the light a lot faster than he would otherwise. there aren’t any specific things that immediately come to mind that he’s particularly stubborn about (other than the fact that marshmallows are evil and ninja turtles really do live in the sewers), but as a general rule, expect him to argue. a lot.

name one or more of their bad habits.

tapping his feet or effectively ‘twiddling his thumbs.’ kai is in a near constant state of motion, and it can be extremely irritating when one is exposed to it for extended periods of time. he also tends to pick at his clothes and sometimes his skin, and his hair is always being touched/played with, which makes him seem unkempt and/or jittery. another habit of his is rarely to never thinking before he speaks, which tends to get him into a lot more trouble than he would be in if he just took the time to consider what he was saying before he let it come out of his mouth. he always leaves the toothpaste uncapped, and when he’s in the kitchen and getting things out of the fridge, he tends to allow the door to hang open for obnoxiously long periods of time.

any addictions? ( food, sex, power/control, etc )

um, not really on the food front. he eats a lot, but i wouldn’t say there’s anything he’s particularly addicted to, unless you count animal crackers (his favourite snack). sex…sex is a tricky topic, because kai is an extremely sexual person, but i don’t know that it could be classified as an actual addiction? like, if he can avoid it, he won’t go without, but he probably wouldn’t completely come apart if he didn’t have it (don’t quote me on this because he’s never actually gone without for very long, even in situations when he probably should have lmfao, so. idk). i would definitely say he needs to be in control/have the power in most, if not all, situations; if he feels like he’s at a disadvantage, or like someone else is holding the reins, he gets a bit reckless. like, he really, really hates not being in control. that’s the only true addiction i’ve noticed in him, aside from the extra af sex habits.

is there a certain scent that brings about nostalgia? if so, describe a memory this scent brings back.

cotton. lemon. some expensive perfume that he wouldn’t know where to begin to describe even if someone asked him to. it reminds him of his mother, and of the time before work became more important than their family; before his parents were gone more than they were home, and before kai felt so very left behind, even though he didn’t understand the emotion at the time (he still doesn’t). there isn’t necessarily a specific memory so much as a myriad of them, and believe it or not, his mum actually used to tell him that she loves him when she hugged him. talk about nostalgia.

how do they sleep?

kai usually sleeps on his side curled up into a little ball when he’s on his own, though when he falls asleep he’s actually sprawled out to cover as much space as possible. it isn’t until he’s actually asleep that he changes positions without realizing it (this is different when he’s with a partner; if he’s with a partner, he likes to be the big spoon okay). when he’s in a deep enough sleep, like REALLY deep (which happens rarely), he’ll make little noises and sometimes actually say the names of people who are really important to him/he loves a lot. it’s quiet, but it has been known to be heard. he occasionally has “puppy dreams” during which he’ll twitch or kick his feet, and he sleeps so lightly he wakes himself up.

what are their pyjamas like?

kai usually only sleeps in his underwear tbh. or naked, depending on the situation. idk. as little clothes as possible basically. he isn’t opposed to sleeping in sweats, but he avoids it if possible.

what do they dream about usually?

confusing things. kai honestly dreams strangely, more in colors, feelings, sounds — a lot of piano notes, perhaps not so weirdly. most of the time he barely remembers what he dreamt of, but occasionally he’ll have one that’s quite vivid. nightmares, should he have them, will fuck him up for days, and those have been happening more and more; a few times a week, if he’s unlucky.

how neat/tidy is the character?

he isn’t. an absolute mess, really. he isn’t like dirty, but he’s super cluttered and scatterbrained, and the hamper could be directly beside him and he’d still toss his clothes on the floor. he’s terribly disorganized, and while he can usually make it to the kitchen, don’t ever ask him to wash dishes. it’s a miracle he’s even capable of taking care of himself sometimes.

how affectionate is the character?

extremely. like i mean extremely. if he’s with someone that he’s comfortable showing affection to, he’ll probably want to be touching them almost all the time. that doesn’t mean he will be, it just means he’ll probably at least be thinking about it, and everything else is a testament to his self-control. not only that, but he likes to be touched himself, and he will do anything he can to get pets from people. platonic touches on his tummy or his arms or his back help to soothe him, whether it be from distress, or just from his perpetual over-energized state that is constantly hanging over him. want kai to hold even remotely still for you? show him affection. pet him. or, alternatively, accept the affection he’s probably trying to give.